KEY BANK. GREEN BANK. CHILDREN DON'T SPEAK FOR ME! U-CRANE LOOT! GIANT HOGWEED. XPANDING XCITEMENT. RESTORATIVE JUSTICE CONFERENCING. SEX FOR POLITICAL ACCESS. EGG & OMELET WAVE. PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT--BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PRACTICE! PROSTITUTION TO RECRUIT AGENTS OF INFLUENCE. JOBS CONNECT. WHAT IF? WE LOOK BACK AND SEE THAT RESEARCH , WE AGREED CHANGED EVERYTHING! SEATTLE'S CHILDREN RESEARCH INSTITUTE. OLE MISS. THE HARVARD OF THE SOUTH. ROMANTICALLY SKEWED MINDS. BANGHART PLUMBING. SLAB GALLERY. MONARCH PLUMBING. LIBERTY IN GOD. BELIEVE IN MIRACLES. I AM ONE! INVESTING IN A LONG-TERM PARTNERSHIP/RELATIONSHIP IS ABOUT THE "MOST DANGEROUS" THING YOU WILL EVER DO IN YOUR LIFE--BASE JUMPING AND RELYING ON BOTON'S MBTA DURING A SNOWY WINTER INCLUDED--AND THE BUSINESS RECRUITMENT APPROACH IS THE BEST WAY TO SCREEN OUT AND AVOID PEOPLE WHO ARE BOUND TO DAMAGE YOUR LIFE AND BREAK YOUR HEART, REGARDLESS OF HOW DESIRABLE AND EXCITING THEY SEEM IN THE SHORT TERM! --F*CK LOVE. THE FIRST TIME HE LOOKED IN MY EYES, PLACED HIS HAND ON MY UPPER CHEST, AND SAID . . . "IT IS SO MUCH, EASIER TO SPEND YOUR MONEY, THAN MINE" . . . I SHOULD HAVE RUN IN ANY DIRECTION! 12 YEARS LATER, HE IS STILL, SPENDING MY MONEY! FOR EVERY BLOG, I WRITE--THERE ARE TWO DAILY, I DON'T WRITE. THE PRUMP/TUTIN SUMMIT, KIND OF JUMPED TO THE TOP OF THE BLOGGING EMERGENCIES! I REALLY, WANTED TO START, DOING, SOMETHING A BIT DIFFERENT THAN, POLITICS. IF THE WORLD IS GOING TO FUCKING HELL, I AT LEAST WANT TO SURE UP, FAMILY RELATIONS, TO SOLIDIFY, THE BAD ROCK OF OUR SOCIETY, EVERY COUNTRY, AND THE WORLD! PRESIDENT OBAMA, SPEAKING AT A RARE, ENGAGEMENT, SAID, "WE ARE LIVING IN DARK TIMES." THAT IS PRETTY SCARY, BUT I HAVE SEEN IN COMING FOR 25 YEARS, AND HAVE TRIED TO PUT THE BREAKS ON, OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, UNTIL, MY FEET ARE BLOODIED, AND MY HEARTS ALMOST REMOVED FROM MY CHEST! EVIL THIS WAY COMETH . . . HOPEFULLY, SOMEONE BESIDES ME, IS SEEING IT, BY NOW, WRITING UNTIL, I AM RED IN THE FACE, WAITING FOR THE POWERS THAT BE, TO STAND UP AND SCREAM . . . NO! FUCK NO! MAYBE WE HIT THAT POINT THIS WEEK? THE SPIN IS SPINNING, AND ANGER IS SUBSIDING, HOPEFULLY, WE DON'T BRUSH THIS SHIT, "COLLUSION" BETWEEN RUSSIA AND AMERICA, THROUGH, OUR PRESIDENTS, IS TRULY SEEN, FOR JUST EXACTLY WHAT, WE SAW, SO PUBLICLY DISPLAYED, FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE! I AGREE WITH, FORMER, CIA DIRECTOR, JOHN, BRENNAN, "IT IS NOTHING SHORT OF TREASON!" TRUMP, IS DOING HIS, DAMNEST, TO THROW A CHARACTER ASSASSINATION, AGAINST MEN, JAMES CLAPPER, DAN COATS, AND OTHER MILITARY AND INTELLIGENCE, LEADERS WHO HAVE DEDICATED, THEIR WHOLE LIVES TO THIS COUNTRY, NOT THEIR PERSONAL AND FAMILY, GAIN, AT THE EXPENSE OF EVERYONE ELSE! F*CK CHARISMA. CHARISMA IS EVEN MORE EFFECTIVE THAN OTHER SUPERFUCIAL QUALITIES AT DRAWING YOU TO PEOPLE WHO, WERE THEY SLIGHTLY LESS CHARMING, YOU'D QUICKLY REALIZE WERE HUMAN PLAGUE. CHARISMA CAN BLIND YOU TO CHARACTER TRAITS YOU NEED TO BE LOOKING AT AND COMPROMISING YOUR FUTURE, SAFETY, AND COMMON SENSE. WE HAVE SEEN CHARISMATIC LEADERS, THROUGHOUT HISTORY, FROM, JIM JONES, TO DAVID KORESH, TO THOSE ON A GLOBAL SCALE FROM, ADOLF HITLER, TO DONALD J. TRUMP! ON THE OTHER HAND, BEING ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE WHO IS TOTALLY UNCHARISMATIC IS ABOUT AS LIKELY AS HAVING A CRUSH ON A FLOOR LAMP! YOU'RE MOST SUSCEPTIBLE TO CHARISMATIC RELATIONSHIPS IF YOU FEEL BORED WITH LIFE AND UNHAPPY WITH YOURSELF, E.G., WHEN YOU'RE BROKE AND LONELY, UNHAPPY AT WORK, OR GENERALLY FEELING USELESS, UNATTRACTIVE, AND MISERABLE. THATIS' WHEN CONTACT WITH CHARISMA PROMISES TO LIFT YOU OUT OF THE DOLDRUMS AND IMBUE YOUR LIFE WITH EXCITEMENT THAT WOULD OTHERWISE NEVER HAPPEN. ONLY YOU CAN APPLY THIS TO YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. HOWEVER, LOOK BACK AS THE 2016 ELECTIONS! TRUMP TAPPED INTO, THOSE WHO FELT LEFT OUT, THE WHITE NON-COLLEGE GRADUATE, MALE! AFTER NO DRAMA OBAMA, AND THE LIKELIHOOD OF HILLARY CLINTON, TOTALLY, EXPERIENCED, PREPARED, AND, THE BEST CANDIDATE WE HAVE EVER HAD IN THE HISTORY OF AMERICA . . . SOME SAID, THEY HAD SEEN HER, FOR JUST TOO MANY YEARS IN THE SPOTLIGHT, THEY WERE BORED, AND THEY WANTED TO TAKE A CHANCE ON TRUMP'S BELLICOSE, BRASH, IN YOUR FACE STYLE. HE HAS A CHARISMATIC, ALMOST A CULT-LIKE PERSONALITY, AND WE WERE SITTING DUCKS, FOR, A PRESIDENT JUST LIKE THIS . . . JUST LIKE IN OUR, PERSONAL LIVES, WHEN THINGS ARE NOT GOING THE WAY WE WANT, WE TAKE RISKS, AND BOY DID WE GET ON! PROFILE OF THE CHARISMATIC: (1) PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES: EXPERTS AT KNOWING JUST HOW TO APPROACH YOU, SMILE AT YOU, LOCK EYES WITH YOU, AND "ACCIDENTALLY" TOUCH YOU TO CONVEY CONFIDENCE AND CONNECTION, REGARDLESS OF HOW THEY ACTUALLY FEEL ABOUT THEMSELVES, YOU, OR ANYTHING ELSE. (2) COMMON OCCUPATIONS: THOSE THAT TURN CONNECTIONS AND RESPECT INTO MONEY, SUCH AS PREACHING, LITIGATING, POLITICKING, ACTING, AND BIG-TICKET SELLING (MANSIONS, BOATS, HUGE YACHTS THAT ARE ACTUALLY MANSIONS-BOATS, ETC.). (3) WHAT ATTRACTS YOU FIRST: SOME INTANGIBLE QUALITY THAT COMMANDS YOUR ATTENTION FOR REASONS THAT AREN'T CLEAR, I.E., ISN'T BASED ON ATTRATIVENESS, INTELLIGENCE, OR ANYTHING SHORT OF HYPNOTISM. (4) OTHER EARLY RED FLAGS: YOUR INABILITY TO PUT YOUR FINGER ON WHAT YOU LIKE ABOUT HIM, ASIDE FROM HIS ABILITY TO MAKE A STRONG IMPRESSION; BASICALLY, IN DESCRIBING THIS PERSON, YOU SOUND AS IF YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT A DELIGHTFUL NEW STREET DRUG INSTEAD OF A HUMAN, AND OTHER PEOPLE IN HIS ORBIT SEEM TO AGREE. LOVE IS THE MOST F*CKED FEELING OF THEM ALL! LOL. I JUST WANTED TO PUT A FEW OF THE, MOST COMMON MISTAKES WE MAKE IN SELECTING, A MR. OR MRS. OR PARTNER . . . EVEN THIS IS MORE INFORMATION, THAT MOST OF US GET, BEFORE WE, HAPPEN, TO HOOK UP WITH SOMEONE, WHO COULD DESTROY, YOUR LIFE! ON MY FIRST HUSBAND, AND I HAVE HAD FOUR, SO, I HAVE A LOT OF EXPERIENCE, GETTING FUCKED OVER . . . I WAS NOT REALLY IN LOVE, BUT, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE, OR GOT MARRIED TO PROTECT PROPERTY, AFTER HAVING, EXPERIENCED GREAT LOSS, FROM, THOSE WHO WOULD STILL TRY TO DESTROY ME AND MINE NOW! BUT, THIS IS FOR ALL OF US . . . I HAD A CREAM THE OTHER NIGHT, WOKE UP, SINGING OR WITH, THAT SONG ON MY MIND . . . GOING TO THE CHAPEL AND I'M GONNA GET MARRIED, GOING TO THE CHAPEL OF LOVE! LOL. I HAD A DREAM, OF ME AND SOME, VERY YOUNG LOVER, BUT I WAS YOUNG IN THE DREAM TOO . . . MAYBE THAT WAS SYMBOLIC OF A "NEW" LOVE, COMING FROM A NEW SYSTEM, OR GETTING RID OF ALL THE OLD DEAD WEIGHT, OF THE LAST, 6 TO 12 YEARS . . . IT IS AMAZING TO FIND IT EASIER TO GET OUT OF A 15 YEAR MARRIAGE, THAN, TO DITCH SOME OF THE DUDES, I HAVE, BEEN "HONEY TRAPPED" AND MATCHED WITH, RECENTLY . . . WE ARE ATTRACTED, BUT, SERIOUSLY . . . MY X'S AND O'S, THEY WANT ME, AND WON'T LET GO! LOL. GOD? 'CAUSE I'M THE BEST BABY THAT THEY EVER DID SEE! LOL. IT IS PROBABLY, ALL ABOUT MONEY, THEY ALL FIND, SPENDING, MY MONEY, SO MUCH, EASIER, THAN SPENDING THEIR OWN, OR EVEN MAKING THEIR OWN . . . MAYBE IF THEY STOPPED, BRINGING HONEY TO WORK WITH THEM, SOMETHING REAL COULD HAPPEN, BUT, SO FAR . . . THEY LOVE ME, IN HER BODY! LOL. THEN THEY FIND OUT SHE IS A CHARISMATIC, JUST LIKE THEY ARE! HERE IS A QUOTE, ABOUT, A FEMALE, CHARISMATIC, AND SOME OF THE REACTIONS, A MAN, MIGHT HAVE AFTER BEING WITH HER FOR A WHILE! "PEOPLE LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE SHE'S TOTALLY SPONTANEOUS AND FUN TO BE WITH, BUT I SEE THE OTHER SIDE, WHICH IS THAT SHE'S ALSO SOMETIMES ANGRY AND MISTRUSTFUL, AND THAT'S WHEN, I WONDER WHAT OUR RELATIONSHIP WOULD BE LIKE IF WE GOT SERIOUS. MY GOAL IS TO HELP HER GET OVER HER INSECURITIES, SO SHE CAN BE THE HAPPY, CHARMING PERSON WE ALL LOVE. IN THE DREAM I HAD, THIS YOUNG, BLONDE, MAN AND ME, WERE, ALMOST LIKE HIGH SCHOOL, INNOCENT AND LOVERS . . . I RECALL, A BUNCH OF LARGE, ALMOST LIKE, WHITE GARBAGE BAGS, FILLED WITH SOMETHING, CLOTHES OR WHATEVER . . . BAGGING THE MONEY CHANGERS IN THE TEMPLE? PERHAPS. THEN, AT ANOTHER POINT, ALMOST AS IF WE WERE SLEEPING IN THE PARK, OR SOMEWHERE, WHERE, THERE WAS WILDLIFE, IN THE WOODS, OR SOMEWHERE, BECAUSE, THIS CAR, PULLED UP TO OUR SLEEPING BAGS, AND, SHINED ITS BRIGHTS ON US, ONLY TO FIND, THAT THERE WERE THREE, WHAT STRUCK ME AS, REINDEER WITH, BLUNTED, FUZZY, FUR COVERED, AND, THERE WERE THREE OF THEM. NOW IN THE LAW, SOMEONE WHO BRINGS IN CLIENTS, AND MONEY INTO THE LAW FIRM, IS CALLED, "A RAINMAKER" . . . NOW THE FACT THAT THE REINDEER, HAD, FUZZY, BLUNTED, AND COVERED, HORNS, SUGGESTED TO ME, THAT, MY THREE, RIVALS SO TO SAY, THE THREE MAIN, WOMEN, WHO GAVE SEX FOR POLITICAL ACCESS AND POWER, SHELLEY, KAY, AND RACHEL, ARE SEEN, AS THE RAIN MAKERS, THAT I AM FROM, NOT ONLY THIS BLOG, BUT FROM, ADVERTISING, TONS OF EVENTS, RESTAURANTS, OVER THE YEARS, THAT, HAS HELPED EVERYTHING FROM, CHURCHES, GO VIRAL, TO, EATING JOINTS, BE EXPOSED! I WOULD SAY, THAT THE LIGHTS ON THE CAR, FINALLY, LANDED, OR EXPOSED, WHO THE BRIGHT WRITER IS . . . BUT WHO THE CREDIT HAS BEEN GOING TO! OR, THERE IS THAT TIE TO SANTA CLAUS AND HIS REINDEER, DELIVERING TOYS, AND GOODIES TO GOOD GIRLS AND BOYS! THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH IT! OR, SOME HAVE SAID, I WAS LIKE A "DEER CAUGHT IN THE HEADLIGHTS" WITH THIS BAND OF THUGS, ROBBERS, THIEVES, PIRATES, BOUNTY AND BOOTY, HUNTERS, AS WERE THE RESTS OF MY FAMILY, WHICH THE NEXT DREAM I HAD LAST NIGHT, EVEN FURTHER, EXPLAINING. THE DREAM LAST NIGHT, TAKES ME WAY, WAY, WAY BACK, TO THE TIME, ELLIOT MY, YOUNGEST CHILD AND SON, WAS, ABOUT 5 YEARS OLD. THAT IS THE TIME ME AND HIS FATHER, GOT A DIVORCE, SO ABOUT, 1989, LIVING IN PROVO, UTAH. IN THE DREAM, ELLIOT HAD SOME LITTLE GIRL, HIS AGE, ALONG WITH HER MOTHER, COME OVER TO OUR HOUSE . . . THE THREE OF THEM, WENT OUT INTO THE BACKYARD, OR SOMEWHERE, AND ON AN EMPTY, FRONT ROOM, FLOOR, THERE WERE TWO GUNS JUST LAYING THERE, AS IF, ELLIOT, HAD BEEN SHOWING, THIS GIRL AND HER MOTHER, SOME .38 SPECIALS . . . OR SO IT SEEMED AT FIRST, SMALL CALIBUR GUNS. ONE OF THE GUNS WAS BIGGER THAN THE OTHER ONE, AND THERE WERE TWO, LIKE, LADIES, NYLON STOCKINGS, LAYING NEAR THEM ON THE FLOOR . . . NOT PANTYHOSE, BUT, ALMOST LIKE, SMALL, KNEE HIGH, OR THE OLD FASHIONED, NYLONS, YOU HAVE TO HAVE A GIRDLE TO ATTACH TO, TO HOLD THEM UP. I WAS HORRIFIED, THAT ELLIOT HAD THESE GUNS . . . BUT WHEN I GOT CLOSER, I NOTICED THE GUNS, EITHER CHANGE, OR LOOK DIFFERENT AS I GOT CLOSER TO THEM, AGAIN, ONE LONGER THAN THE OTHER ONE . . . THEY, WERE LIKE "CRAZYMAGIC" GUNS, GOLD, GLITTERED, SPARKLING, BRILLIANT, AND SHINED IN THE LIGHT, OVERHEAD. SYMBOLIC OF, ELLIOT'S HARD ROCK, OR HEAVY METAL MUSIC, OR CHRIS'S, HIP HOP, AND RAP MUSIC . . . GOLDFISH, WORTH A FUCKING FORTUNE! YESTERDAY, I WROTE, ABOUT, THE "HUNGRY BUZZARD" REFERRING TO AB, OR FRANK, OR, THE GOVERNMENT'S VERSION OF, WHO I THOUGHT, I MARRIED, MY CLIENT, ALLAN REX BESS! WHEN I REFER TO THE HUMPHREY BOGART, SCHOOL OF SEX, I AM REFERRING TO A PARTICULAR PERIOD OF TIME, THERE SEEMS TO BE, SEVERAL GENERATIONS OF COPS, INVOLVED, IN THIS, SPECIAL OP TO, GET RID OF MOM, AND TAKE THE KIDS! FRANK OF INTERPOL, SAID HE WAS, 60 OR SO, AS, MY CLIENTS, ALLAN, WOULD HAVE BEEN, BUT WHEN, I SAW, HIM, HIS FRAME, HIS, STATURE, HE REMINDED ME OF A MUCH, OLDER MAN! THE REAL ALLAN, WAS STOUT AND TALL, SOLID, BUILT, LIKE, A JOHN WAYNE, TYPE, BODY, NOT, A, LITERALLY, HUMPHREY BOGART, FRAME! THERE IS A WHOLE GROUP OF THESE COPS, ALL COPS AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER, PROBABLY TOP BRASS ASSES, BACK 20 YEARS AGO, WHEN, I KILLED ASSET FORFEITURE, BACK IN 1997, BUT, TIME FLIES, AND MEN GROW, OLDER, JACK, MIKE, MICHAEL, OR COWBOY, TONY, ETC. ARE IN THAT CATEGORY, THEN, COMES THE ONES, 10 YEARS OR SO YOUNGER, LIKE KENNEDY, AND BRETT . . . THEN, YOU HAVE THE YOUNGER SET, LIKE MILES I, II, AND MAYBE III, DEXTER, MARK OR MIKE? AND OTHERS! SO, BASICALLY, THREE GENERATIONS OF COPS, OF ALL FLAVORS AND SIZES! BUT THE NYLON STOCKINGS, APPEAR FROM FRANK'S ERA . . . LEAVING ME TO WONDER, JUST HOW FAR BACK, MY SONS, WERE SPOTTED, OR EVEN MY DAUGHTERS, TOO! I KNOW, LONG BEFORE, 1989, WELL, NOT TOO LONG, BACK IN 1986, WHEN, I GRADUATED FROM WEBER STATE COLLEGE, OR UNIVERSITY, A MAN, I WOULD SAY, WAS CIA, BUT, POSING AS, THE DIRECTOR OF CHILD AND FAMILY, STUDIES, A FORMER, GREEN BERET, GAVE A LAST, SPEECH, AS A VISITING PROFESSOR, FOR ONE OF MY EDUCATION, CLASSES, AND CALLED ME THE SECOND, I GOT HOME, HE KNEW, ALL ABOUT ME, MY GRADES, MY KIDS, MY JOGGING, THAT MY KIDS WERE ALL SCORING TOP ON STANDARDIZED TESTS, AND WINNING, SCHOOL SCIENCE, AND ART COMPETITIONS. THIS WAS EVEN BEFORE, ELLIOT WAS IN SCHOOL! AFTER MOVING TO PROVO, A FRIEND OF A FRIEND, WHO WAS GETTING HIS DOCTORATE IN EDUCATION, ASKED, IF HE COULD TEST, ALL ME AND MY KIDS, ON SOME EDUCATIONAL TESTS . . . CHRIS IS THE ONE WHO STOOD OUT, THE MOST . . . HE WAS GIVEN, MATH PROBLEMS, AND I COULD NOT DO THE FIRST ONE--HE WAS, IN FIRST GRADE, AND SCORED AT AN 11TH GRADE LEVEL, AND AFTER THE TEST WAS ADMINISTERED, DUDE, SHOCKED AT THE RESULTS, NEVER EVEN GAVE HIM A PENCIL TO WRITE OUT THE ANSWERS OR FIGURE THEM, OUT, SO HE MAY HAVE EVEN SCORED HIGHER THAN THAT! I COULD SERIOUSLY, NOT EVEN DO ONE! ALL THE KIDS DID AMAZING, AND I SCORED IN THE 200TH PERCENTILE OF THE NATION ON VOCABULARY . . . I HAVE SLIPPED SINCE THEM! I WAS SMARTER, AFTER, MY UNDERGRAD, THAN, NOW! LOL. BACK TO THE DREAM . . . I GRABBED THE GUNS OFF THE FLOOR, BEFORE THE OTHER MOTHER CAME IN, AND HID THEM BEHIND THE DRESSER, OR SOME PIECE OF FURNITURE, HORRIFIED, THAT ELLIOT, A 5 YEAR OLD HAD ACCESS TO A GUN! WHEN, ELLIOT CAME IN, I SHOWED THE MOTHER, THE GUNS, TOLD HER TO SEE IF THEY WERE LOADED, AND SHE, DIDN'T SEEM BOTHERED BUT, I WAS STILL, WONDERING WHERE THE GUNS CAME FROM . . . ELLIOT, DID YOUR DAD GIVE THESE TOO YOU? HE DIDN'T SAY A WORD! IT APPEARED THAT IN THE DREAM, ELLIOT, GOT THE GUNS OUT, TO IMPRESS THE LITTLE GIRL! GIRLS, GIRLS, GIRLS! BACK, WHEN, I WAS WORRIED, AND STILL AM, MORE SO, BECAUSE I HAVE MORE PROOF, ABOUT, ELLIOT'S MUSIC, AND BEFORE I EVER KNEW, CHRIS EVEN DID MUSIC, BUT, KNOWING THAT SHELLEY, JESSE AND ISAAC, PLUS, BRETT, KAY, AND GRANDPA, WERE, STEALING, ELLIOT'S MUSIC, I KNEW THE FBI WAS, WATCHING EVERYTHING I WAS WRITING, COMING BACK FROM, THE POISON, AFTER LEAVING BRETT, AND LOOKING INTO, "EXIGENT RECORDS" IN KAYSVILLE, BEFORE, I KNEW, THE CODING AND USE OF SYMBOLS, IN FACT IN THAT TIME, SOME OF THESE THINGS WERE THE START OF MY OWN CODE! CIPHER? THESE THREE WOMEN, SANTA'S LITTLE HELPERS, ARE CIPHERS, IN PRESIDENT TRUMP'S ARENA . . . MOVING IN AND OUT OF THE WHITE HOUSE, WITH NO OFFICIAL TITLE, OTHER THAN SHELLEY HAD A PRESS PASS ON . . . PROBABLY NOT SAYING ANYTHING, JUST PASSING COMMUNICATIONS AND GOING COMPLETELY UNNOTICED AND UNKNOWN! TRADING SEX FOR POLITICAL ACCESS! BUT, I KNEW, ALL MY EMAILS, AND COMMUNICATIONS, BACK, YEARS AGO, STARTING IN ABOUT, 2007 OR 2008, AFTER I TURNED, THREE YEARS OF COPS, IN FOR, GROWING, MARIJUANA, AND SEEING THE NEW COP AND EMT VEHICLES, PLUS, TWO COP SHOPS, SPRINGING INTO EXISTENCE, 34 OFFICERS, CARS, UNIFORMS, FUCKING OVERNIGHT . . . SO, TO GIVE THE FEDS, FBI, THE HEADS UP ON WHERE THE MONEY WAS COMING FROM, SONS' MUSIC, AT THE TIME, I TOLD THEM GOT CONTACT MY SONS, BOTH, STILL, YOUNG, AND THEY COULD IDENTIFY, ALL THE KEY PLAYERS! SO, JUST WERE DID, THE U TURN, TAKE PLACE? I HAVE WONDERED IF, ZEKE, WAS, AN AGENT, AFTER, LIVING IN THIS, CLOAK & DAGGER WORLD, I HAVE BEEN IN FOR THE LAST, 10 YEARS? VERY INTERESTING DREAMS! GOLD SLINGERS! THE RIGHTEOUS BROTHERS! I AM SICK OF WRITING IN THIS, SINGLE LINE, TEXT BOX! SO, I AM GOING DOWN, TO WRITE BELOW!

CRANE LOOTING ME, AS WE SPEAK!  GOOD FUCK!  GET A LIFE, BESIDES ME . . . A CHARISMATIC!  SO CHARMING THESE LITTLE FUCKERS!  BUT DOG ASS LAZY! AND CRAZY! HACKED AGAIN, AT 10:00 SHARP!  FUCK OFF, DIP SHITS . . . GET YOUR OWN KIDS, GET YOUR OWN, BRAINS, AND BLOG!  SHIT?  U-CRANE LOOT!

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F*CK LOVE . . . SOME THOUGHTFUL IDEAS OF HOW WE SHOULD BE, PICKING, PARTNERS, SO WE DON'T, GET INTO THE DANGER I DID . . . NOT POISONED, I NEVER, EVER WOULD HAVE PICKED THESE LOSERS, COPS, AND ASSHOLES, WHO HAVE DESTROYED MY LIFE AND BROUGHT THE BITCHES TO WORK WITH THEM, WHO, LISTEN, OBSESSED, WITH EVERY FUCKING WORD, I SAY . . . THERE IS THIS SHOP, IN MISSOULA, MONTANA, CALLED THE "VELVET BRIDE" AND, ONE TIME, I HAPPENED, TO MENTION IT, AND SAID, SOMETHING, LIKE, MY SKIN, TURNS SOFTER, THAN, A BABY'S BUTT, AFTER ABOUT THREE DAYS OF DRINKING WATER, THAT WATER IS THE LIFE BLOOD, THAT RUNS THROUGH, LIKE 78% OF OUR BODY!  NOW HOW THAT CAN BE A THREAT, IS BEYOND ME . . . BUT SHORTLY AFTER THAT, IN FACT, PROBABLY, THAT SAME, NIGHT, SOMEONE, GOT INTO MY TRAP CAMP, THAT I HAD BEEN IN FOR, AT LEAST A MONTH, WITH NO PROBLEMS . . . TOOK MY BLACK, "POVERELLO" BALL CAP, THEY ALREADY STOLE TWO, ORANGE, "POVERELLO" CAPS, THAT I MENTIONED, STEAL, STEAL, STEAL, ANYTHING THAT THEY CAN, GET THEIR HANDS ON THAT MAKES ME LOOK GOOD!  SO THE HAT WAS MISSING, AND IN, MY CAMP, THE BACK OF AN ABANDONED, VEHICLE, ACTUALLY, A WHITE, SUBURBAN, LIKE THE ONE, RACHEL AND CHRIS HICKEY, USED TO HAVE BACK BEFORE THEIR DIVORCE, DOWN IN ST. GEORGE AND ALSO, WHEN THEY LIVED IN BELLEVUE . . . VERIFY, LOCAL COPS!  BUT, I HAD SEEN THE SUV, THERE FOR, A YEAR AND A HALF, AND FINALLY, ONE COLD NIGHT, OUT LATE, I DECIDED TO CHECK TO SEE IF THE DOOR WAS OPEN . . . TO MY SURPRISE IT WAS!  AT THE POV. WE USED TO HAVE 45 NIGHTS, THEN, WE HAD 30 NIGHTS OUT . . . I USED TO GO TO, BUTTE, OR KALISPELL, OR GREAT FALLS, OR GRAND JUNCTION, UNTIL, I FOUND THIS SUBURBAN.  AFTER, FINDING THE "IRISH SPRING" IN THE PLACE OF MY HAT, I STARTED TO ITCH, NON-STOP!  THIS HAS LASTED, FOR YEARS . . . AND YOU CAN'T GET RID OF THESE, WHAT I REFERRED TO AS BOLIVIAN, FLESH EATING, MINI-FRUIT FLIES, THAT SOME, ASSHOLE, MORMON MISSIONARY, PROBABLY GOT ON HIS FUCKING MISSION AND WHEN, I SAID MY SKIN WAS AS SOFT AS A BABIES BUTT, SOME LITTLE JEALOUS BITCH, DECIDED TO RUIN MY SKIN AND LIFE FOR ABOUT, 7 YEARS . . . MY FRIEND, WHO IS IN CAHOOTS WITH THE SHERIFF'S DEPARTMENT IN MISSOULA, MY O-HI-O, FARM GIRL, ANNIE, I HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT, TOLD ME, THAT, THEY, AND SHE DIDNT SPECIFY WHO, PLANTED, FLEAS IN MY BLANKETS, TO FUCK MY SKIN!  THESE THINGS, CAN LAY DORMANT FOR, 7 YEARS, AND SURVIVE . . . I HAVE WASHED THE CLOTHES, USED THE HOTTEST WATER, TRIED TO USE A TOOTH BRUSH, WHERE THEY LAY THEIR MUSTARD SEED, EGGS, AND YOU CAN'T GET THEM, OUT!  I HAVE TRASHED, ALL MY CLOTHES, PURCHASED NEW ONES, TAKING HOT, SHOWERS, AND CAN'T GET, RID OF THEM, BECAUSE, ONE, SMALL, EGG OR SEED, TURNS INTO JUST ONE, AND THEY, LAY, SEEDS EVERYWHERE IN THE SEAMS OF YOUR CLOTHES, BEFORE YOU EVEN SEE THEM??????  I STARTED TO THINK THEY CAME OUT OF MY SKIN?  IT IS LIKE WHERE THE FUCK DO THEY COME FROM . . .  NOT MANY, BUT, SOMETIMES ONE OR TWO A DAY??????

RACISM BY A THOUSAND CUTS.  SEXISM BY A THOUSAND, SLASHES, AND BUG BITES BY THE HUNDRED THOUSANDS!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE??????????  THE BEST AND THE BRIGHTEST, OR THE MOST EVIL, DERANGED, SICK, TWISTED, AND ILL?????  WHO GETS PLEASURE OUT OF THIS SHIT?  I KNOW PSYCHOPATHS, FIND JOY IN OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN . . . TRUMP!

YOU CAN HAVE ONE, EGG OR SEED IN YOUR HAIR, OR SOMEWHERE, AND WHEN, SPRING TO LIFE, LIKE, I DON'T KNOW HOW, ALL THEY DO IS LAY OTHER EGGS . . . PEOPLE DON'T SEEM TO GET THEM AND I USUALLY, CAN FEEL THEM, BUT SERIOUSLY, THIS IS HORRIFIC, TO DO TO SOMEONE!  GOD?  IMMATURE AND INSECURE AS SHIT!

LIKE IS SAID AND THE BOOK SAID, THAT ONE, WEAK DECISION, IS THE MOST DANGEROUS, DECISION OF YOUR LIFE . . . IT SEEMS TO GIVE ENDLESS DIVIDENDS, EVEN AFTER YOU LEAVE SOME ASSHOLE, I HAVEN'T SEEN BRETT FOR, 12 YEARS AND I AM STILL DEALING WITH, HIS AND KAY'S ENVY?  JAME AND RACHEL'S, AND SHELLEY AND FRANK'S SHIT?  WHAT THE FUCK EVER!

THIS SHOULD ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO CONSIDER OR RECONSIDER, WHAT AND WHOM THEY ARE GETTING WITH . . . I THOUGHT I WAS DYING!  I NEVER EVER WOULD HAVE HOOKED UP WITH THESE FUCKERS, NEVER!

THIS IS FROM, PAGE XI OF THE INTRODUCTION . . . I WAS GOING TO OUTLINE THIS BOOK, BUT, I WAS UNDERLYING, EVERY, DAMN SENTENCE.  JUST READ IT.  IT IS WELL WORTH THE MONEY, BEST I HAVE SEEN!  LIKE I SAID, I STARTED A FAMILY AND HUMAN RELATIONS MASTER'S DEGREE, BEFORE LAW SCHOOL, AT UTAH STATE UNIVERSITY, SUMMER OF 1986, I THINK, VERIFY!  FUCK?  COP EVIDENCE 101 . . . I AM HERE AT SOPHIA'S PLACE, IN BELLEVUE, WASHINGTON!

 . . . finding a mate is to have a good partner with whom you can build a good life.

        That's why we encourage you to stop seeing your search as the quest for a soul mate or for marital contentment and start looking at yourself as a corporate headhunter out to find someone with whom you can run the business of life better than you can do it on your own.

        That doesn't mean we think you should wind up with a partner you can work with but don't really like, or that love doesn't figure anywhere into the equqtion, and that discussions about who will take out the garbage will requrie you to write four TPS reports.  Love and trust are important, but love doesn't last if your partner can't be relied on to do his portion of the work, make smart decisions, or keep promises, and if he doesn't share your long-term goals, wither they be having kids or training show ferrets.

        The states for keeping a marriage and business afloat are both sky-high' if you can't work with your partner to survive financial problems, stagnancy, and the sometimes-crippling annoyance caused by the other guy's weaknesses and obnoxious habits, you risk the pain of bankruptcy, divorce, or personal ruin.

        That's why investing in a long term partnership/relationship is about the most dangerous thing you will ever do in your life . . . and the business recruitment approach is the best way to screen out and avoid people who are bound to damage your life and break your heart, regardless of how desirable and exciting they seem in the short term.

        so, you can love someone deeply, but if you can also work well together with that someone as a partner, you're much more apt to like each other after ten or twenty years.  Which means, as hard as it may be for our romantically skewed minds to believe at first, the wish list of the human heart and of your average Head of Human Resources are remarkably similar.

. . . Even if you're unsure about ever wanting a marriage or a lasting commitment, this book is still useful; good relationships are good relationships, whether they're romantic, close friendships, office based, or sex-centric temporary couplings.  Knowing how to find good relationships in general and avoid the many, many, ones that  aren't is a skill you need to learn and practice all your life.  Becoming relationship savvy isn't just necessary in order to find a relationship that lasts--especially since marriage isn't the right goal for everyone--but so you can protect yourself from unnecessary pain, complications, and legal action.

. . . one of the most common traits that people claim to look for when, searching for a partner: charisma, beauty, chemistry, communications, a sense of humor, a good family, intelligence, and wealth.

. . . At the end of each chapter, we identify five major elements that every solid relationships needs--mutual attraction, mutual respect, shared effort, common interests, and common goals . . . That gives you a scorecard for rating these traits in candidates with the most potential.

. . . the relationships in this book should help you find will be more about reliability than romance, more about trust than lust!

 . . . When decent people with compatible values spend a life together and build something that is good and greater than themselves, they usually wind up loving one another deeply and enhancing each other's sense of safety, contentment, and trust.  It doesn't sound as sexy as the promise of fairy-tale romance, but if there's anything less sexy than a successful long-term relationship--in which both parties have washed each other's dirty underwear, cleaned up baby puke, and seen more galling tantrums than they'd want to count--we're not sure what it is.

KITCHEN TABLE WISDOM!  FROM A COUNTRY SONG . . . NEVER BE AFRAID TO CALL HER BABY, NEVER LET YOUR PRAYING KNEES GET LAZY, AND, NEVER BE AFRAID TO LOVE, HER WITH ALL YOUR HEART!