DIFFERENT KINDS OF FOOD
I had this dream, that, takes me back in time, to before, I was divorced from the father of all my four kids, but only, two of my kids were in the dream . . . I was with, my ex-husband, but, I am guessing, we were still married, but, Nicole, BIRTHDAY GIRL TODAY, and Elliot, probably the kids, I have had the least contact with over the running years, of late, last 5 or 6, actually, dating back, to before, I was sworn into the U.S. Supreme Court, in January of 2012, but, in this dream, Nicole and Elliot were both little kids, about the age, they were, when, we got a divorce. But, the interesting thing about the dream was, that we, were living in a castle, not a modern, day castle, but one that dates, way back, like in olden days, in England or Germany, with roots, in my kids from both, but a castle, gray walls, but, alive. But, as a mother, not having been around my kids, for, about 20 years, starting with the poisoning, in late 1999, with my mind today, but, back, I looked at my small children, and I thought, what have they been eating all these years? I didn't feed them, so? But, they didn't seem to be hungry either. I was puzzled, wondering how they lived, survived, and thrived, as it seemed that they had, even under all the pressure, both me and their father, were under, going after us, taking both of us out, back in 2000, leaving fairly young kids, alone, to survive on their own.
So, it was a strange dream, not on you normal timeline, showing pictures from, say, the ages of my kids, back in 1989, when, me and their father got a divorce, but, seeing life, now, or, through, all the damage, injury, harm, that had been inflicted on our family, as a whole for no reason, other than, the government, the family, the feds, the intelligence community, wanting access, unfettered access to my children, staring back before, they were really, in school? Smart parents, all four smart kids? Lineage? But, there as a great sense of relief, as a mother, generally, in charge of family, nutrition and cooking, shopping, and feeding, children, that, after all this time, they didn't appear to be hungry. The thought came to mind, that, the placement of my children, me and my ex, in a castle, ancient, might have some, clue to the reason, that, the government had there eyes on them from you, and Rachel's words, that if my kids ever got famous, I would not get credit for them, if I got a divorce, came to mind? But, the actual, trying to make good on that promise, made, back in 1989, leaves me puzzled and wondering what did they know that I did know, about, possibly, myself or my kids? ROYAL BLOODLINES?
MARY WAS VISITED WITH THE ANGEL AND TOLD SHE WOULD BEAR THE SON OF GOD, BUT IT WAS JOSEPH, WHO ACTUALLY, CAME FROM THE ROYAL BLOODLINE, MAKING JESUS CHRIST, HEAVENLY, ROYALTY, AND ALSO, FROM A ROYAL LINE ON EARTH . . . MY FAMILY, BLOODLINES TIES INTO THE BRITISH ROYALS, AND GOES BACK TO ADAM AND EVE, THANKS TO THEIR GENEOLOGY, BUT WHAT ABOUT ZEKE'S OR RICHARD CLIFTON SECRISTS, FROM GERMAN STOCK?
There seems to be something, I don't know. Lately on several occasions, I see, the words, KNOW YOUR HISTORY. I think, I might be on the homepage of the Greenwood Library, or somewhere in that library, but I have seen it several times, of late and kind of blown it off. I am not a geneology buff, nor have I ever been. About the same time, that, this divorce, law school, and the conversation, about me not getting any credit for raising my kids, if I left and went to law school, like, what the fuck? Fifteen years, and I am not going anywhere, and no credit, like, double standard for dads, right? But there seems to be something about, my marriage to Zeke or Richard, that is royal or, that, there is some combination of bloodline or nationality, that matches. I think of my fourth husband, really, all my husbands, jumped at the chance of marrying me from Zeke, what I call him, to Jerry, to Brett, to Frank . . . aka, Allan Rex Bess, who is actually, GERMAN, he was to be, ZEKE, and SHELLEY ME? Recreating the bloodline of not, me and Allan, but me and Zeke? Was this the marriage of Germany and British bloodlines, some new world order deal or OLD WORLD, ancient grains? Does it have to do with Hitler, whatever?
I am not sure, but the castle, to me, meant, that while, it may have appeared, to my parents, my family, and others, that my kids were raised, very simple, not necessarily poor, but, modest for sure, with an emphasis on EDUCATION, INTELLECT and BRAINS, over say, looks, personality, and whatever. What from an outsiders, view, may have appeared, due to the house, we first had our kids in, in Ogden, that, the kids were being raised in a depraved, poor, and low level condition, that, my father used to indicate, that, only poor folks, had metal beds, not the richness of having Grandma Ulrich's bed, we cherished, but, what appeared, to be a negative environment, to some, was in actuality, rich, plentiful, with food, of a different kind, of intelligence, knowledge, understanding, adventure, of poetry, music, books, and brilliance? I think that, there is a fascination with my family, 4 X 4, all beautiful, smart, cool, with good, even temperaments, and all law abiding, solid citizens, and going into very, untraditional, fields of work, girls in the military, and boys into music, and they are wondering how, they can learn about the combination, when, they thought, it was wealthy homes, that produced, at least one, winner in a family, but never 4 of 4.
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