KICK IT OUT! SURVIVOR & LOVER BOY(S). LOVER GIRLS TOO. SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE GOOSE WHO LAID THE GOLDEN EGGS? FRUIT DOES'T FALL FAR FROM THE TREE! THE SPOKESLISTENER. VOICE RECOGNITION. GAME OF THRONES SEASON FINALE. MULTIPLE ENDINGS SO THERE IS NOT LEAKING ON HOW THE STORY ENDS. TOO MANY STARS. SAGE STEAL IS BACK. I'M A BITCH, I'M A LOVER, I'M A CHILD, I'M A MOTHER, I'M A SINNER, I'M A SAINT . . . YOU KNOW YOU WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY! 100% JUICE SMOOTHIE. BOILING POINT. STRIVING FOR ZERO WASTE. FUEL FOR FLIGHT. TOO MANY WINS. OMAHA. CANTINA LENA. TEA BUBBLE. VITAL MECHANICAL SERVICES. I'M DROPPING THIS ON YOU! YOU'LL MISS ME WHEN, I'M GONE. LOL. X-FACTOR U.K. PAINTING IS NOT AN UPGRADE! LOL. BIRDBUSTERS. THE CREATURES GOT WHAT THEY DESERVED. MEMORY FOAM. MOTHER . . . MAY GOD HELP YOU! PREMIER ON PINE.COM. VENGENCE IS MINE, SAITH THE LORD. I WILL MEET YOU IN THE BATTLE FIELD. THE LORD HATE INJUSTICE. GOD HELP YOU. IMPACT. LET'S HIBERNATE. IDI PINK PANTHER. JOKE. Y.U.A.N. (WHY YOU ANN OR JOANN? BECAUSE I DID IT ALL, DUMB ASSES, LIKE IT OR NOT!). THIS REMINDS ME OF WHEN, GRETA JOINED OR WAS THINKING ABOUT PLEDGING A SORORITY, AT THE UNIVERSITY OF UTAH, WHERE I WAS TEACHING, AND SHE WAS NAMED, PIKE PRINCESS BY ONE OF THE FRAT RAT HOUSES. SHE ASKED THEM WHAT SHE SHOULD DO, AND THEY SAID, MAKE US COOKIES OR SOMETHING. SHE TOLD THEM, SHE WAS NOT LIKELY TO DO THAT, AND THEY SAID, GET YOUR MOM, TO DO IT THEN . . . SHE IS EVEN LESS LIKELY TO DO IT! LOL. GRETA, DAUGHTER AFTER MY OWN HEART, SHIT CANNED BOTH THE SORORITY AND THE FRATERNITY! LOL. SHE DID, HOWEVER, SERVE IN THE NAVY, OFF THE ISLAND OF GREECE, ON CRETE! I DON'T CARE TO BE YOUR COP QUEEN, OR SO THE GAME SEEMS TO BE, HAVE KAY, SHE RAN FOR DAIRY PRINCESS, MS. UTAH AND ALL THAT SHIT . . . I THOUGHT IT FOOLISH IN HIGH SCHOOL, AND I DO NOW! WHITTLE KAY CAN HAVE THAT DISHONOR! FUCK! INTERESTING DREAM LAST NIGHT, PART I: (1) IT WAS WINTER, AND I WAS AT SOMEONE'S HOUSE, UNKNOWN, AND I WAS TRYING TO GET A SMALL BOY, INTO MY VW BUG; (2) EVENTUALLY, HE GOT INTO THE CAR, AND WE DROVE OFF, INTO THIS LONELY WINTER SCENE, IT REMINDED ME OF A STRETCH OF LAND, IN THE UTAH PRAIRIE, BETWEEN NEPHI AND SCIPIO, BUT WE WERE NOT ON THE FREEWAY, WE WERE LIKE ON AN OLD HIGHWAY, OR DIRT ROAD: (3) AT ONE POINT, THERE WAS TOO MUCH SNOW ON THE ROAD, AND THE VW BUG CAME TO A COMPLETE STOP, AND I GOT OUT OF THE CAR TO SEE, WHAT, NEEDED TO BE DONE TO GET THE CAR, BACK ON THIS SNOWY LONELY ROAD WHERE WE WERE ALL ALONE. IT REMINDED ME OF ONE OF ELLIOT'S SONG TITLES ON HIS "LITTLE BLACK HORSE WHERE ARE YOU GOING WITH YOUR DEAD RIDER?" CD, GOD'S REVOLVER BAND, HARD ROCK BAND OF 2008, CALLED, "THE LONG & LONELY DRIVE TO HELL!" THAT WAS THE END OF THAT PART OF THE DREAM . . . PART II: (1) WE, ME AND WHAT APPEARED TO BE MY SON, DIDN'T REALLY LOOK LIKE EITHER CHRIS OR ELLIOT, WERE AT MY MOTHER AND FATHER'S HOME, HAVING A FAMILY DINNER OF SORTS, WITH A FAMILY WHO LIVED UPSTAIRS, OR MAYBE IT WAS THEIR HOUSE, BUT, I THINK IT WAS MY PARENT'S HOUSE, AND IT WAS A TWO STORY HOME, THE PARTY WAS UPSTAIRS AND I FOR SOME REASON WAS DOWN STAIRS, GETTING SOMETHING OR, I WAS IN A RECREATION ROOM OR LOOKING FOR SOMETHING ON THE LOWER FLOOR, (2) WHEN ALL THE SUDDEN, SOMETHING LIKE, ACID, CAME BUBBLING AND OOZING THROUGH THE CEILING, AND FOOD, IT SEEMED FROM UPSTAIRS, STARTED TO COME THROUGH THE FLOOR, TO THE BOTTOM LAYER OF THE HOUSE. I QUICKLY RAN UPSTAIRS TO TELL MY PARENTS WHAT WAS GOING ON IN THE BASEMENT, AND THAT THEY BETTER DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. (3) ONCE UPSTAIRS, THE FAMILY, MY PARENTS HAD TO DINNER CAME OUT, AND TO MY SURPRISE THEY, LOOKED, LIKE THE BAND, K.I.S.S., ALL IN BLACK & WHITE, GOTH, AND THEY CAME RUNNING OUT OF THE HOUSE, IN ALARM! BIG CONCERTS. BIG THRILLS. NOW, EARLIER IN THE DAY, I HEARD ON THE NEWS, THAT K.I.S.S. AND STEVE WONDER, MAYBE OZZIE OSBORN, AND OTHER BANDS, HAD A BENEFIT CONCERT, YEAH, FOR CHILDREN, OF THE HOUSTON HURRICANE HARVEY MESS, RAISING $44 MILLION DOLLARS! I BELIEVE, I EVEN WROTE ABOUT THEM, BEFORE THEY HAD THE CONCERT, SO THIS WAS A FOLLOW UP, AND I AM SURE THAT IT INFLUENCED MY DREAM. ALSO INTERESTING ON THE POWER OF THIS BLOG, I WROTE ABOUT, ANOTHER ROCKER, KID ROCK, WHO WAS FLYING THE CONFEDERATE OR REBEL FLAG AT HIS CONCERTS, SO, AGAIN, YESTERDAY AFTERNOON ON THE RADIO, I HEARD THAT HE HAD A PRESS CONFERENCE OR PRESS RELEASE, THERE HE SAID, HE LOVED, BLACKS & WHITES, BUT MOST OF ALL, HE LOVED THE RED, WHITE AND BLUE! GOOD FOR YOU, NOW DITCH THE REBEL FLAG, THE CIVIL WAR IS OVER . . . UNITED WE STAND, DIVIDED WE FALL! DO WHAT YOU WANT, BUT NOW, YOUR OUTED! LOL. I WILL DO A DREAM ANALYSIS, OF PART 1, AND PART II BELOW, PLUS, I WANTED TO MAKE A FEW COMMENTS ON SEVERAL MOVIES, I HAVE SEEN OF LATE: (1) AN OLDER FILM CALLED "THE LANDLORD" WITH A VERY YOUNG BEAU BRIDGES . . . SHORT VERSION, BUT HAVING MUCH BEARING, ON THIS DREAM, AND OTHER THINGS POLITICAL, AS OF LATE, FIGHTS I THOUGHT WE DID IN THE 60;S AND 70'S, ON RACE RELATIONS, THAT HAVE REARED THEIR UGLY HEAD WITH TRUMP, BANNON, STONE, AND OTHERS, CHARLOTTESVILLE, KKK, WHITE SUPREMACISTS, NEO-NAZI'S, AND NATIONALISTS, CULMINATING IN THE DEATH OF HEATHER AND THE UPRISING OF HATE GROUPS, FEELING EMPOWERED BY TRUMP AND CREW IN THE WHITE HOUSE. BUT IN THIS MOVIE, BEAU, IS THE SON OF A VERY WEALTHY FAMILY, BUT WITH AN OLDER BROTHER, THE APPLE OF HIS PARENTS EYE, AND A SISTER, WHO IS A POT SMOKING, LIBERAL, BUT WHO WILL MARRY WELL. BEAU, DECIDED TO TAKE HIS MONEY, AND PURCHASE, AN APARTMENT BUILDING IN THE PROJECTS, THAT HAD ALL BLACK TENANTS, THINKING HE WOULD MAKE HIS REAL ESTATE FATHER, PROUD, ALWAYS IN BIG BROTHER, BANKER'S SHADOW . . . ONCE HE GETS IN, AND BECOMES FRIENDS WITH ALL THE BLACKS, DONIG HIS BEST TO FIX UP THE OLDER BUILDING, AND LEARNING OF THEIR STRUGGLES AND PLIGHTS, HE, IS CHASTISED BY HIS MOTHER AND HIS FATHER, FOR, NOT COLLECTING RENT FOR AT LEAST A YEAR! LOL. MY LAW PRACTICE IN A NUTSHELL! LOL. BUT THERE IS THIS GREAT SCENE, WHEN, BEAU HAS HIS COMING OUT SO TO SAY WITH HIS FAMILY, AND BASICALLY, SAYS, THAT, ALL BLACKS OR NIGGERS ARE NOT BLACK, IMPLYING THAT HIS FAMILY IS BLACK! LOL. HIS PARENTS ARE OUTRAGED, AND I THINK, HE DUMPS SOUP ALL OVER THE BUTLER'S HEAD, FOR PLAYING HIS FAMILIES, STUPID, RACIST GAME, HIM, ACTING THE JIM CROW BLACK, LONG AFTER THE CIVIL RIGHT ERA AND ACT. EVENTUALLY, HE FALLS IN LOVE WITH A BLACK, GIRL, WHO, IS PART IRISH AND BLACK, BEAUTIFUL, BUT, ONE NIGHT, WHEN, HE NEEDED COMFORT, AFTER THE DINNER, HE SLEEPS WITH ANOTHER, HOT BLACK CHICK, MARRIED TO A MAN IN JAIL, AND HE GETS HER PREGNANT! LOL. HE IS HONORABLE, AS IS THE WOMEN, WHO, REALLY LOVES HER HUSBAND, WITH ALL HIS WEAKNESSES. BEAU STAYS WITH THE WOMAN, OR SUPPORTS HER AND HER SON, UNTIL THE BABY IS BORN, SHE CAN'T TAKE THE BABY HOME TO HER VERY HURT HUSBAND, WHO WANTED TO KILL BEAU, SO HE TAKES IT TO HIS GIRLFRIEND, WHO, WILLINGLY, A SAINT, HELPS HIM, OR IS GOING TO HELP HIM RAISE THE BABY! HE GIVES THE APARTMENT TO THE CHICK HE GOT PREGNANT, AND HER HUSBAND. BEFORE, ALL THIS, BEAU'S MOTHER, COMES TO DECORATE HIS APARTMENT IN HIS BUILDING, AND IN THE PROCESS, SHE GETS TO KNOW, ONE OF THE BLACK, LADIES AND THEY BECOME FRIENDS, THAT IS ALL IT TAKES, FOLKS, AND SHE, CUTS LOOSE, HAVING FUN, GETTING DRUNK AND TRUSTING HER TO TAKE HER CREDIT CARDS AND MAKE CURTAINS FOR HER SON'S APARTMENT. IN THE END, SHE USES THE MONEY AND THE MATERIAL, AND MAKES, AFRIAN, SHIRTS AND HEAD DRESSES, BUT, BEAU WAS MOVING OUT ANYWAY! GREAT MOVIE, AND INTERESTING, EVOLUTION, MORE OF THE MOTHER; (2) WAS THE MOVIE "IT" AND, MY MIND WENT WILD WITH, WHY A REMAKE OF SUCH, A CLASSIC, MOVIE, SCARY, REALISTIC, TO THE POINT OF BEING ALMOST BELIEVABLE, AND STILL, FUN, TO THIS DAY? BUT, IT WAS PRODUCED, BY, "RATPAK" PRODUCTIONS, I JUST DID A TYPO, BYU? MADE BY BRIGHAM YOUNG UNIVERSITY FILM DEPARTMENT? THAT WOULD NOT SURPRISE ME, BECAUSE, THESE SHITS WITH MY MONEY, HAVE TRIED AND TRIED TO PUT OUT A FEATURE FILM, WORTH SEEING. I ALSO FOUND IT STRANGE THAT, THE DIRECTOR, WAS, KATZ SMITH, I BELIEVE, NOW, I HAVE USED THE NAME, CATS, FOR CIA, AND KAT IS MY DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, SO A PLAY ON THE WORD, KATZ, AND MR. & MRS. SMITH, BOTH SPIES. I THOUGHT, THESE CLOWNS, IN THE CIA, ARE INTO EVERY FUCKING THING, BUT, PROTECTING THE NATION, RATHER THAN, SOLVING FINANCIAL CRIMES, LIKE, THEM, AND THE FBI ARE DOING, THEY ARE COMMITTING THEM, AS IN, THE CIA MEETING WITH MY CLIENT, OR ALL MY CLIENTS, I WOULD IMAGINE, WHEN, THEY STOLE MY CASES FOR KAY BABY, THAT FUCKING X-FACTOR, ALL MEN, DITCH AND LEFT WOUNDED, POOR BABIES, VICTIMS OF SELF-INFLICTED WOUNDS . . . I AIN'T NO PUSSY CAT, AND ALLOW YOU TO DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO ME, I KICK BACK! THEY DON'T LIKE THAT, OR WOMEN, WITH EGOS, BIGGER THAN THEIRS! MY SPARK, THEIR DRIVE . . . BET, KENNEDY, WAS BEHIND PUTTING THE CONCERT TOGETHER, AS THE ALLEGED, FATHER OF MY RED JESUS, ELLIOT, USED THAT POWER TO CONNECT TO THE STARS AND ROCK BANDS! FUCK YOU ASSHOLE! SO, DON'T LET IT SURPRISE YOU FOR ONE SECOND, THAT, LIKE MY BLOG, LIKE MY SONS' MUSIC, AND LIKE THE MOVIE, "IT" THEY WOULD TAKE AN ALREADY SUCCESSFUL, MOVIE, STEALING THE WORK OF SOMEONE ELSE, NEVER, AN ORIGINAL, WORK OF ART, AND THEN, REMAKE THAT . . . OH, IT'S PERFECT, NOW, MAKE IT BETTER. I DON'T THINK THEY DID THAT EITHER. THEY SAY FOR COMEDY TO WORK, THERE HAS TO BE A CONNECTION WITH REALITY, CLOSE ENOUGH TO BE BELIEVABLE . . . THAT IS THE CASE WITH THE FIRST MOVIE, BUT NOT THIS ONE, SO OVER THE TOP, SO OUT IN THE OZONE, THAT IT IS UNBELIEVABLE, HUNDREDS OF DEAD KIDNAPPED KIDS, A TOWN, THAT HAS A HISTORY, OF MURDERS, LIKE 30% HIGHER, THAN OTHER TOWNS, SETTING UP FOR THE SEQUEL! THE OLD PENNYWISE, WAS, LIKE A REAL CLOWN, SCARY AS SHIT! I BOUGHT A PENNYWISE, MASK, EXPENSIVE ON, FOR THE HALLOWEEN PARTY, I HAD, THE NIGHT, JUDGE MICHAEL WESTFALL, KEPT ME IN COURT, ON ALLAN REX BESS, CASE, UNTIL, 1:00 AM, MAKING SURE THAT, EVERYONE AT THE PARTY, THOUGHT THE COOL HOUSE, THE NEW TRACK LIGHTING, THE ART, THE CATERING AND THE MUSIC, PLUS THE GREAT HALLOWEEN DECORATIONS WITH 30 JACK-O-LANTERS, AND FLAMES, AT MY FRONT DOOR, WERE THE WORK OF SHELLEY, WHO HAD BEEN HIDING IN MY HOUSE, FOR, WHAT, 10 MONTHS, PRETENDING THAT THERE WAS ONLY ONE JOANN, NOT, THAT THERE WAS A LOSER, OLDER SISTER, UNLIKE THE MOVIE, "THE LANDLORD" AND I WAS THE LANDLORD, SHELLEY, THE DO NOTHING, PAY NOTHING, LEACH, HIDING TO TAKE THE MONEY, AND STEAL MY LIFE, WITH THE HELP OF COPS, PROSECUTORS, JUDGES, OTHER ATTORNEYS, GOVERNOR, ATTORNEY GENERALS, REPUBLICANS AND MORMONS, OR MITT, ALSO TO STEAL, ELLIOT'S NEW, FIRST CD WITH SONY RECORDS! ANYWAY, THE MOVIE HAS ADULT LANGUAGE, AS DOES THIS BLOG, BUT, I HAVE ADULT READERS, FOR THE MOST PART, BUT, IT IS FUN. BUT, IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME, THAT, BEV, THE GANG CHICK OR GROUP GIRLFRIEND'S NAME WAS, MY MOTHER'S SISTER'S NAME, DON'T KNOW IF THAT WAS IN THE ORIGINAL, BUT, THE MEAN CHICK, WAS "GRETA" . . . WERE THEY TRYING TO SAY, THAT SHELLEY OR BEV, MY MOTHER'S SISTER, IS THE SWEET ONE, AND GUILT THROUGH ASSOCIATION WITH GRETA, THE MEAN ONE OR MEAN GIRL, IS JOANN? INTERESTING PLAY ON WORDS, AND ON HISTORY . . . MY WHOLE LIFE, I HAVE HAD A GANG OF GUYS CHASING ME: (1) EVERY DAY AFTER 2ND GRADE, 10 BOYS FROM THE NEIGHBORHOOD, CHASED ME HOME FROM SCHOOL; (2) IN JUNIOR HIGH, THERE WERE ABOUT 7 GUYS, WHO WOULD COME PICK ME UP, EACH NIGHT, OF SUMMER, AND WHOMEVER, I HAD WITH ME, OR WE BUSTED OUT OF THEIR HOUSES, AND WE COULD HANG OUT ALL NIGHT, TALK TO COPS, AND HAVE A GREAT TIME, IN THE COOL OF THE SUMMER NIGHTS; (3) IN HIGH SCHOOL, LATER, BOYFRIEND, LARRY WALL AND ABOUT, 9 OF HIS FRIENDS, STARTED SINGING, JOANN TAKES ME DOWN TO A PLACE BY THE RIVER . . . I AM SURE THAT BECAME, KAY, OR SOMEONE BESIDES ME, BUT, THEY CHASED US, ME AND BARBARA, UNTIL THE CAUGHT AND CORNERED US, AT A CHURCH, LARRY WAS A BOYFRIEND, FOR 4 YEARS, ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS, BUT HE WAS MY MAIN DUDE, HE KNEW IT, UNTIL I HAD A DREAM TO MARRY, THE FATHER OF MY FOUR CHILDREN, IT WAS THE DREAM, NOT THE HEART, AND A PAIN IN THE ASS FOR 12 YEARS, UNTIL WE FINALLY, GOT TOGEHTER, AND TALKED! (4) NOW, I HAVE A GANG, HUGE ASS GANG OF COPS, NATONWIDE CHASING ME . . . LEOPARDS DON'T CHANGE THEIR SPOTS!

TEA BUBBLE OR THE ME BUBBLE?

PART I

This dream was a bit depressing for me, as is the second part . . . because it is so, real and right on, but painful.  Even though, my kids, have known, some of the stuff I have done, cases, legislation, lobbying, and now the blog, it seemed, that they were in denial, for the most part, or, they had been brainwashed to the point, that they didn't believe, or could not accept, that, it really, was their mother, doing all this great stuff.  Or, that, they felt that, I had, somehow, in reaching my goals, hurt them in the process, or it is payback time, that, I reached my dreams and now, it is time for them, and I would agree.  I saw, a t-shirt, yesterday, when, I took a ride, up to Everette, to get out of the same old and to take a nap, relax and have a change of scenery, but the shirt said, Everything hurts and I am dying.

I believe, that I have been blessed, with the happiness gene, something that has just been discovered, by scientists, as is my friend, Parris, who has had her whole family, wiped out, along with, a fortune in record deals, when, her father's girlfriend, shot and killed him, her little brother, and wounded one, leaving him, blind.  We are both, happy, people, fun loving and into JUSTICE, not money.  So, when, I saw this shirt, I was somewhat bothered, because the dude wearing it, reminded me of someone, and the thought, that he could feel that way, and might, having access and reading my blog, might, actually feel that way, caused me more pain, that the thought, being applied to myself, with plenty of cause to feel exactly that way.  

But, I was not feeling that way, however, yesterday, I had no desire to write my blog, feeling, that if the loser, law enforcement, can't get this after fucking 20 years, and the last 4 holding their fucking dumb asses and hands, with evidence, after evidence of all the crimes that I say are happening, then, FUCK THEM!  The only reason I posted last night, about, 8:00 PM, Pacific time, was because of a book, kids, book, that, said, More. More. More . . . Said the Baby, part of the title, last night, and really, indicative and connected to my dream, if I were to guess, I would say, that the young boy, was Chris, who, as I analysis this dream, would reluctantly, be getting in the VW bug, symbolic, in and of itself, but, there is this hope, that, if someone is serious about, solving this billion dollar case, a long shot, seeing that the FBI, CIA, MORMONS, Trump, NSA, Republicans, are all thrilled with, stealing my money, and stealing the elections, with or without the Russians and not likely to do jack shit about it.

Special counsel, Mueller, making, much to do about nothing, focusing on the fucking letter? when, you have Eric Prince, Jared Kushner, 4 Russian banks, with sanctions on half of them? fuck . . . 16 top lawyers, only to put on a good show!but, I guess, I hoped that, someone would get Chris or all my kids, get in a room, and solve this thing with the help of my blog . . . but too many assets, too much time and effort, and great power, money, and success, has gone to the cheaters, bandits, pirates, all in powerful positions, making movies, putting on big concerts, and benefiting all my kids, without mom, in fact, being mom and dad, about 6 couples that I can see, blocking me, from, being even close or talking to them!  Far being it from me, to solve the whole thing in a day . . . charge, Trump with the same statute, that, Comey and others focused on, going after Hillary's emails, and where Hillary lacked the requisite, intent, TRUMP DID NOT!  I would say his and his closest buddies, are TREASONOUS!  But what fun would that be . . . ?

MOTHER, RELUCTANT SON, STRANDED, SNOW, LONELY ROAD

Back when, I was married to Brett Stewart, now, Kay is JoAnn S. Secrist, but, she goes, by Joanne, Brett once called all my kids, behind my back, and how he got their numbers, only a spy would know, with the help of the NSA! but he talked to each one, to see, which kid, would be the most problematic, if they did this gig, special op, against me . . . I remember, Brett, to my chagrin, telling me that he had called all my kids, and Chris, would likely be the one to help me, if I ever needed it.  And, it was Chris, who, was framed, charged, for, bull shit, charged, and with these fuckers, trying to break him, so they could remake him, in their image, not his mother's, dropping the bull shit charges, the day before, the trail, costing Chris and Kat, $10,000, in legal fees.  Elliot, I believe was framed, also, with murder charges, something big enough to get him, to willingly hand over, his music rights?

Nicole, was Republican and Mormon, so she needed little breaking, and was kept in the dark, and taken under the wings of the Southwick clan, no trouble from this gal, as long as she was kept in the dark, on what they did to her mother and the rest of her siblings!  They hit Greta, financially, in jobs, she could and should have easily gotten, brought, all three to their knees, so, they could then, get them to the point, that, they had a choice, to be loyal to their mother, or fight for the survival of their own, young families and self!  They, would know, I would, want them, to choose, just what they did, period, that I could fend for myself, as long as they were okay, I was fine and I would run, and run, until, they were free!  But, Chris, was the closest to the whole situation, he was with Elliot, young, when, their mother was diagnosed to die, he saw the music, both his and his brother's, he knew the bands, the players, the circle of friends and the kids who died in the Provo Death Cave, he lived with Greta and Dallas, and he also, talked to me about my cases, and court,when, I would stay with him and Kat, when, I had to be, in federal court, once a week, or he would spot me money, when, I was first on the run, between Utah, and Montana, when, they were early on trying to kill me!

KIDS, LONGING FOR FAMILY AND BELONGING, RUNNING STRAIGHT INTO THE HANDS OF THOSE WHO CREATED THE MESS IN THE FIRST PLACE, SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY SO TO SAY!

I have basically, been, gone for 20 years, starting with them, the cops, FBI, family, Shelley, poisoning me, and then, with 5 docs telling me, that I would be dead, by 2002, with no chance of survival, never to work again, and with all people, being dead in 2 years of diagnosis.  I came back, for a short period, of time, 2008 to 2012, when, I was taken out AGAIN!  The one thing, Chris, wanted, and the kids, was, a gathering place, a place they could call home . . . thus, I got the Bloomington house, later the Parowan House, both, taken, in less than a year, with just, maybe a two year time frame, that, I was under siege, the entire time, taking on the government, again, suing the state of Utah, Nevada, Iron County, blah, blah, blah, leopards don't change their spots, never, ever!  Shelley is a rat fink, was and is, will sing, to save her ass!  

But, I am sure, with, little contact, with kids, over the last, 5 years, other than, by phone and Thanksgiving once a year, hearts, grow, colder, and minds can be poisoned, loving arms, replaced, by, the carefully, orchestrated, planned, and plotted, since back, 20 years before that, it appears . . . Rachel, saying prior ot divorce and law school . . . if your kids, are ever, successful, you can't take any of the credit?  Like what, so, President Obama's dad, he met once, not until he was 10, is blocked out, or Bill Clinton's father . . . we are a sum total of all our, lives, nurture, and nature, DNA, is more powerful, than, we know . . . I don't worry much about seeing my kids or my grand kids, under these circumstances, because, my grand kids are all about grandma, I am theirs and it is just known!  Nicole's kids, especially, her daughter, has only seen me, on a few occasions, and Nicole and George were shocked, last time I was there, how, quickly, normally, shy, took to me, and wanted me, to do everything with her, over, even her parents, let alone, strangers!  LOL.

A REAL GRANDMA'S REVENGE!  While I have not seen, my kids much, my extended family, not at all, nor do I ever want to see, them, after this shit, but, I know, they, my kids, NEED that family support!  I would NEVER, deny them, what they so desperately need, even if it comes from, the very people, who wronged them, in the first place, stole there money, tried to kill their mother, got their father fired, and chased me for the last few years, to this second, and hurt them, cost them jobs, money, and took all my kids had too . . . they broke them, but, I know my kids, and once safe, they will be fine, and if I have to suffer, for them, I fucking will, and have!  THAT, FOLKS IS LOVE, AND I WILL DO WHATEVER IS IN THE BEST INTEREST OF MY KIDS, EVEN IF IT MEANS, NEVER SEEING THEM AGAIN, AS LONG AS I KNOW THEY ARE SAFE!  GOD HATES INJUSTICE, AND HE WILL FIGHT MY BATTLES FOR ME, VENGEANCE IS HIS!

I strongly, felt, this was the end of the road, yesterday.  Would I do things differently, FUCK NO!  I have accomplished all I could ever dream of, helped and inspired, millions, if not, the United States and the World!  Remember, NATO, all the shit Trump had planned?  Yeah, no press, had the coverage and worldwide readership, that I HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  BILLIONS OF HITS, RESULTS DAILY, ON EVERY .COM, ON THE WEB!  WORTH, MILLIONS DAILY . . . I WILL GET ROOM AND BOARD!  GREY TRUCK, SAW IT THE OTHER DAY, SAW IT YESTERDAY, AND TODAY, JUST BEFORE STARTING THIS BLOG . . . AMERICAN GREED, PROTECTING THE SYSTEM, THE AGENCY, THE COMPANY, THE GOVERNMENT!  I WILL GET NOTHING, BUT THE PEACE, THAT I DID ALL I COULD, IN SERVICE TO MY FAMILY, MY COUNTRY AND MY GOD!

SYMBOLISM OF THE VW BUG . . . SURVEILLANCE IS BUGGING . . . STOP BUGGING ME, HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK, THEY KNEW WHERE IS WAS GOING, WHO I TALKED TO, MY STORIES, WHERE I WAS GOING BLOGGING, OR EATING WITH, OR MY COMINGS AND GOINGS, IT WAS WORTH THE LARGEST MONEY TRANSFER IN THE HISTORY OF MANKIND, ALL BEFORE, GETTING IN THE HANDS OF THE EARNERS, ME AND MINE!

Me driving a VW bug, is SOOOOOOO symbolic, of who is really, the DRIVER of this LEGAL MACHINE, THAT MADE ALL THE MILLIONS FIRST IN CASES, THEN, BILLIONS ON THE BLOG, ME!  But the fact, that I was IN, the VW bug, shows, that it was her, body, or her, vehicle, that I was contained in, Kay Baby, hooking up with Brett, or possibly, FBI, before, getting with him, but, both, in this scam, and scheme, together with Shelley, first, who was already, the bandit on Elliot's music through, her sons', Jesse, and Isaac, who knew just how good Elliot was, and how good Chris was . . . last I talked to Jesse, he said he loved Chris, more than any person on earth and he would get his face tattooed on his chest and belly, now why?  FAME, RICHES, GLORY, THE MUSIC! just like Isaac, and Elliot, but nobody, but, Jesse, probably knew about Chris's music, I only heard one song, and he had been doing, DJ record scratching, rap, and hip hop, which is huge, for years, and the pirates, only had to go straight in his computer, easy for NSA, and steal it, easy, without anyone knowing, Elliot was harder, because he had bands, he performed and I was blasting him on my blog, over and over again!

But, yes, all that I did, was attributed to that, skinny, bald, hag ass, boy, with boobs, loser, who, globed onto me, in junior high, science, knowing that her rising star, was attached to me, or bust, as was her, legal star, being a shit ass lawyer, going in debt, $10,000 per month, not hard to talk that bitch into, taking my place, wanted to be me, the second she saw me in junior high, her short, ugly, hair cut, probably, the reason, she orders, shit hair cuts, on me, through, her fuckers, doing her bidding, she shakes, she is weak, she is timid, but, nice.  Snow, has always been a symbol for me, for Kay, probably because, Brett, skied, therefore, Kay would too, she did younger, and I think, her and David, and her kids lived in Jeremy Ranch, to ski?  For some reason, I attached her to Olympia Snow, a Senator, from somewhere? why?  So, the VW, getting stuck in the snow, on an impassable highway, old, probably, indicating, this goes way, way back, like I said, this, for sure, dates, back, maybe even to the mid, 1980's, when, the CIA, started watching me, Kay would have already been in law school, and they recruit, attorneys, and my family, has FBI connections, so?

I believe, that, through DEEP COVER, I was buried in Kay's life, that mix, match and attach, maybe going back to birth!  We both went to the same, junior high, the same high school, the same college, for the first year, the same law school, and easy, cover, right!  NOT IF YOU LOOK AT SKILLS AND WHAT I HAVE DONE, COMPARED TO WHAT SHE HAS DONE, NOTHING WITHOUT MY FIRE, MY NAME, MY RESUME, MY JOBS, MY KIDS, UNDER HER, BELLY . . . OR IS THAT FLAT ON HER FUCKING BACK, WITH HER LEGS, SPREAD?  As I was walking up, 9th Ave, and about, Pike, a white VW bug, crossed my path, and the license plate, had the name, BEN, on is, a sign for Chris, can't remember, the connection, but, anyway, that is one, confirming, that, it was Chris, in the car with me, and the one hope, I had, that he might be, involved!  

But, like Christ, who could not, heal, due to the lack of faith, the people in Nazareth had for him, often, a prophet, or a mother, is without honor in her own, family . . . I think, kids, don't want to know their parents, had sex, or are sexual beings, and writing about that, fuck no!  I believe that most of this blog, was blanked from their minds, and Kay was easier to believe, than their mother, living in shelters, on the run, so while they all knew I wrote, I don't think, it registered, that the HIP MOM, was really, THEIR MOTHER WRITING!  LOL!  KAY  MAY HAVE BEEN A CONVENIENT TRANSFER, OF COOL, OR SHELLEY, SURELY, NOT OUR MOTHER, WE DON'T EVEN WANT TO KNOW, SHE KISSED OUR DAD, LET ALONE A BLACK MAN!  LOL!  THE LANDLORD SYNDROME!  LOL.

GROW THE FUCK UP, KIDS, YOUR DEAR OLD MOM, IS THE COOOOOOL ONE!

DEAL WITH IT!

LOVE YA!

KISSES, HUGS, LOVES, FOREVER!

I KNOW, YOU DON'T CONTACT US, WE CONTACT YOU, NEW RULES . . . SMILE!

CATCH ME IF YOU CAN!

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DIGGIN' ON LIFE, HOPE YOU ALL ARE TOO!

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SMILE . . . I'M FINE, REALLY!