FRAME YOUR LIFE WITH FAITH. A-ROD & J'LO. IT'S HARD TO WALK AWAY FROM LOVE. IT MAY NEVER COME AGAIN. I'LL GET HIM HOT AND SHOW HIM WHAT I GOT! THE EAGLES HAVE LANDED. PEOPLE OVER EVERYTHING! FIGHT CANCER WITH STRATEGY. ONE FOR ALL! IT'S ALL IN MY NAME. ALL OF IT IS HERE! FEEL THE NOISE! THUNDER DOWN UNDER. THUNDER CLAP! 2,000 LIGHTNING STRIKES. SEAHAWKS WIN BENGALS! WHAT DO THEY CALL YOU IF YOU PASS THE BAR EXAM BY ONE POINT? AN ATTORNEY! 21 TO 20 IS STILL A WIN! GO HAWKS! KISSES. DR. TUTORING. IN-HOME TUTORING. YOU TARZAN. ME JANE. YOU BE GOOD TO ME. I'LL BE GOOD TO YOU. YES. IT IS THAT SIMPLE! IF I COULD, I'D CATCH A FALLING STAR, HANG IT OVER YOU, SO I WOULD KNOW WHERE YOU ARE. SMILE. DID YOU EVER DREAM OF BEING KING, THEN BECOME ONE? BABY, IF I COULD CHANGE THE WORLD. I'D BE YOUR UNIVERSE. I'D BE THE SUNSHINE IN YOUR WORLD. BAND-AIDS DON'T FIX BULLETS HOLE. YOUR LOVE WAS ALWAYS ENOUGH FOR ME. SUN HALO. NATURAL PHENOMENA. A RAINBOW THAT ENCIRCLES THE ENTIRE CIRCUMFERENCE OF THE SUN! EXTRASLICE. NERDS TO GO. KEEP ON SUCKING. WE TASTE WITH OUR SUCKERS. FROM LANGLEY TO BUCKLEY. I FEEL SO RIGHT DOING THE WRONG THING. I FEEL SO WRONG DOING THE RIGHT THING. CONFLICT OF INTEREST. PARADOX? TAKE THAT MONEY AND WATCH IT BURN. TAKE THAT MONEY, THE LESSONS I'VE LEARNED. DOUCHE BAG. LOL. FUN CONVERSATION I OVERHEARD, THIS MORNING AT MCDONALD'S CROSSROADS. CUTE HUBBY AND YOUNG WIFE, WITH SMALL SON, A FRIEND, AND HISPANIC MOM, ALL MEETING OVER BREAKFAST. TALKING ABOUT BRO-IN-LAW? WIFE IS TRYING TO DEFEND SOMEONE, HUSBAND, IS RIPPING ON. DUDE LEAVES HIS PREGNANT WIFE IN A SHELTER, AND, WE ARE SUPPOSE TO LISTEN TO THE DOUCHE BAG? LOL. I SECOND THAT MOTION AND OBJECTION! DURING THAT TIME, THE SON, IS TRYING TO GET DAD'S ATTENTION. DAD. DAD. DAD. WHAT?! LATER HE KISSED HIM, AND TENDERLY TALKED TO HIM, BUT DURING THE IMPASSIONED, DOUCHE BAG RANT, DAD WAS NOT SO PATIENT! LOL. LATER, WIFE SAID, DID YOU EAT HIS HASH BROWNS? LOL. DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DADS AND MOMS--ONE WILL SACRIFICE FOR HER KIDS, DADS DON'T REALLY THING ABOUT IT. HE WAS EATING A PANCAKE. YEAH, HE ATE IT! NOW HE WANTS HIS HASH BROWN, YOU ATE. LOL. LATER, SOMEONE TOLD A JOKE, AND DAD, SAID, I CAN TELL YOU ARE AN AMERICAN, BECAUSE ONLY AN AMERICAN WOULD GET THAT JOKE! LOL. NEW BORDER CROSSING CHECK POINTS, WHEN, TRUMP'S NEO-NAZIS TAKE OVER . . . YOU EITHER GET OUR AMERICAN HUMOR OR YOU DON'T! WHAT IS THE PASSWORD FOR ENTRY? LOL. DIG ON MODERN DAY PARENTS AND COUPLES. I ABOUT DIED WHEN, MY DAUGHTER, NEWLY MARRIED, 20 YEARS AGO, REFERRED TO HER HUSBAND AS DUDE! LOL. CARRY ON. OH, WHAT FUN, PARENTS HAVE IN STORE FOR THEM! SMILE. SOME OF US, TRULY NEED CHURCH. I DECIDED, YESTERDAY, AFTER ATTENDING DOXA CHURCH, BECAUSE OF THEIR NEW MURAL ON THE OUTSIDE OF THE BUILDING, GIVING, THEM A DEFINITE NEW CURB-APPEAL, AND AFTER SINGING THE FIRST SONG, BEING BROUGHT TO MY KNEES, AFTER, WANTING THE NEW CYBERSTALKERS & STALKERSIDENTIFIED.COM, TO KILL EVERYONE I KNOW, THAT, MISSING ROUGHLY TWO YEARS OF CHURCH, HAS DONE ME NO FAVORS! NOR THE PEOPLE I KNOW! LOL. SO, LAST WEEK, WHEN I GOT IN TOWN, THE DUDE AT LA FITNESS, SIGNED ME UP, TRIED TO GO OVER A FEW DETAILS WITH ME, THAT I ALREADY KNEW, LIKE A FEW CHANGES IN THE MEMBERSHIPS. THEN HE STARTED TO GO OVER SOME ISSUES LIKE, BEING COURTEOUS AND, TREAT OTHERS AT THE FITNESS CLUB WITH RESPECT. BLAH. BLAH. BLAH. THEN, HE STOPPED AND PAUSED, AND SAID, "YOU LOOK LIKE A NICE PERSON?" IT SEEMED TO BE PUNCTUATED WITH A QUESTION, RATHER THAN A PERIOD. WHAT DOES THE WORD, "IS" MEAN, IS CRITICAL TO AN ATTORNEY. I DID'T STOP TO ASK HIM, WHY HE PAUSED ON THAT, NOTE, BECAUSE THE GUY DIDN'T KNOW ME FROM ADAM? SO, I STARTED BY DEFENDING MY POSSIBLE CHARGES, AND SAID, THE ONLY PERSON, I HAD ANY ISSUES WITH, OVER THE TWO YEARS, WAS THIS 12 YEAR OLD GIRL, WHO DROPPED IN THE POOL ON A SUNDAY AFTERNOON, 2 HOURS BEFORE, FAMILY TIME WAS SCHEDULED, AND TOOK MY LANE! HEY! GET OUT OF MY LANE, I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR A LONG TIME FOR THIS LANE. SHE GOT OUT OF THE POOL, LEAVING, ALL HER POOL TOYS, AND BROUGHT HER DAD, DOWN, TO STAND NEAR THE POOL, TO TRY TO INTIMIDATE ME. DIDN'T WORK, I FELT VERY SELF-RIGHTEOUS, AND KNEW THAT WAS THE RULE, NO KIDS, UNTIL, FAMILY OUR FROM 4 TO 8, ON SUNDAY AFTERNOONS! THAT WAS BACK WHEN, I CARED ABOUT WHAT THE RULES WERE! LOL. I WAS GLAD I TOOK THE TIME TO READ THEM, SO I COULD GIVE THIS LITTLE, LINE CUTTER, A PIECE OF MY MIND, BACKED BY THE RULES OF THE CLUB! NOW, I JUST HAD THE ONE OFFENSE, PRIOR TO THE FEELINGS I WAS HAVING THIS WEEK. SO, ON SATURDAY, I GOT THE LA FITNESS, CHECKED TO SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE IN THE POOL. THERE APPEARED TO BE THREE, ONE IN EACH LANE. NOW MY DREAM IS, NOT ONLY TO HAVE A LANE TO MYSELF, BUT, TO HAVE THE WHOLE FUCKING POOL TO MYSELF! LOL. WELL, I WILL WAIT. SO AFTER DOING THE WEIGHTS, AND THE KETTLE BALL, PERFECT EXERCISES, I WAS ABOUT TO BAG, SWIMMING, IF THE POOL WAS FULL, AND I HAD TO WEIGHT FOR A LANE. OH, GREAT, THERE ARE ONLY TWO PEOPLE IN THE POOL! YAHOO. AN EMPTY LANE! BY THE TIME I GOT MY SWIMMING SUIT ON, AN ATHLETIC EXPERIENCE IN AND OF ITSELF, THERE WERE FUCKING, FULL LANES, SEVERAL PEOPLE IN THE HOT TUB, AND, A FEW THAT CAME JUST SHORTLY AFTER ME. I GOT IN THE HOT TUB FIRST, AND, WATCHED FOR A BREAK IN THE FLOW OF NEW SWIMMERS! MY FOES ARE BACK AND TRYING TO BLOCK ME FROM SWIMMING, THE MAIN, POWER PART OF MY ENTIRE WORK OUT! THIS IS JUST NOT NATURAL! THIS IS A FUCKING SATURDAY AFTERNOON, WITH FEW OTHER PEOPLE IN THE ENTIRE, GYM! PERIOD. NOW, I DON'T NATURALLY, DISCRIMINATE AGAINST ANYONE, BUT FOR, TONS OF ASIAN FISH, ON SHELLEY'S, OR KAY'S OR RACHEL'S, FUCK, HER SWIM, CALL LIST ASAP! I AM NOT PARTIAL TO THE LATINO, WHO WAS WAITING IN THE HOT TUB, WHO LATER LOOKED LIKE HE JUST LOST A $30,000 HIT PAY OUT, FOR, TAKING ME UNDER, IN THE POOL! I FOOLED THEM. I WORE, MY BLACK, BALL CAP, WITH MY SPECIAL, EXERCISE, MP3 PLAYER, ATTACHED, IN A MAKE SHIFT, GHETTO BLASTER, TAKING ME FROM A NORMAL, WORK OUT OF AN HOUR, TO UP TO TWO AND A HALF HOUR, ROCKIN' WORKOUTS, WHEN, I CAN! NOW, I HAD, I THOUGHT FULLY CHARGED, MY MPC PLAYER, SMALL TURQUOISE, AND PURPLE, PLAYER, THAT I HAVE USED BEFORE, WHILE I WAS AT THE BELLEVUE LIBRARY, WRITING MY BLOG. IT WAS CHARGING, SO, WHY, ONCE I GOT IN THE POOL, THERE WAS NO JUICE, IS NOT A MYSTERY, BUT EXPECTED SHIT, TO AGAIN, FOIL MY ENJOYMENT AND BLOCK MY WORKOUTS! ONCE, AN ATTRACTIVE, ASIAN, GRANDMA, GAVE ME HER LANE, WE WATER WIENIE WORK OUT, WATER AEROBICS QUEENS, STICK TOGETHER, WE KNOW THAT OUR EXERCISES ARE JUST AS VALID AS SOME, LAP SWIMMER, AND WE NEED IT MORE! LOL. BUT, I FINALLY, GAVE UP ON MY DEVICE, THAT SEEMED TO HAVE HAD THE JUICE DRAINED OUT OF IT, ONCE I PUT IT ON THE COMPUTER AND THE DEVICE, SIGN CAME UP . . . NEVER CHECKED IT AGAIN, BUT THIS IS HOW, STUPID AND PETTY THESE BITCHES AND BASTARDS ARE! UNBELIEVABLE. BUT THE DUDE IN THE HOT TUB, GLARED AT ME, AS IF LOOKS COULD KILL, LIKE I TRICKED HIM, AND CHEATED HIM OUT OF MY DEATH! WHAT'S UP WITH YOU DUDE. NOW THAT WAS NOT ALL. I SAFELY HAD MY LANE, AND NOTHING, NOBODY WAS GOING TO TAKE ME OUT OF IT, NOR CUT MY WORKOUT SHORT, ONCE I TOOK THE TIME TO GET UNDRESSED AND IN A SWIMMING SUIT! BUT THAT DIDN'T STOP, TWO MEN, ONE LOOKED, INDIAN, FROM INDIA, NOT A NATIVE, AND THE OTHER, FROM SOME, MID-EASTERN COUNTRY, AND BOTH, STOOD, RIGHT NEAR MY LANE, WITH ANOTHER, PERSON, ALSO SWIMMING, AND PUT THEIR HANDS ON THEIR, HIPS, LIKE, IF WE WERE IN OUR COUNTRY, A WOMAN, WOULD, YIELD HER TIME TO A MAN! WELL, FUCK YOU ASSHOLES, IN THIS COUNTRY, #SHE IS EQUAL! BOTH WERE SKINNY LITTLE DICK HEADS, WITH PENCIL DICKS, SO, ANYONE, WHO OBSERVED THIS, SITUATION, WOULD DEFINITELY VOTE FOR ME TO STAY IN THE POOL, BECAUSE, I NEED THE WORK OUT MORE THAN, SOMEONE, THE FUCKING WIND COULD BLOW DOWN, WITH A LIGHT, SUMMER BREEZE! LOL. NOW THE INTERESTING THING ABOUT, MOST OF THESE ON THE PAYROLL, ON CALL, BASIS, IS THEY ARE NOT WORTH THEIR SALT OR SHIT AS SWIMMERS! JUST LIKE THE LITTLE 12 YEAR OLD, POACHING ADULT TIME, IN THE POOL, THESE FUCKERS, SWIM, A FEW LAPS, STAND THERE, AND TALK, OR DO FUCKING JACK SHIT NOTHING, TAKING UP SPACE, AND JUST PISSING PEOPLE OFF! SOME ARE GOOD FOR 4 LAPS, NOT EVEN WORTH, MORE THAN, BLOCKING A LANE. ONCE I AM IN, THE MASSES, SEEM TO TAPER OFF! I MEAN, DRAMATICALLY! IF THESE BITCHES WANT TO GET IN SHAPE, GO FOR IT, BUT DON'T STOP ME FROM, DOING IT! 7 YEARS OF THIS JEALOUS SHIT? MALE AND FEMALE! I HAVE NO PROBLEM WORKING OUT, 6 TO 7 DAYS A WEEK FOR SEVERAL HOURS! I PAID FOR, ALL LAST YEAR, BETWEEN, THE SUMMIT IN UTAH AND LA FITNESS IN BELLEVUE, AND PROBABLY GOT, A TOTAL OF LESS THAN, 10 TIMES WITHOUT, BEING HARASSED, AND FISH PACKING THE LANES, JUST ENOUGH, TO TRY TO STOP ME! THIS IS SUCH, LOW LEVEL, ACTIVITY AND MINDSETS, I CAN'T BELIEVE, THESE PEOPLE GET ANYTHING DONE, EVER! FUCK? SO, THAT STARTED ME, RECOGNIZING THE NEED FOR SOME REDEMPTION. SUNDAY MORNING, AT ST. PETER'S, CONFIRMED THAT I WAS BECOMING, EVERYTHING I HATE IN PEOPLE! LOL. THERE IS THIS CHICK, WHO, YELLS, CRAZY SHIT, ALL THE TIME, EACH AND EVERY NIGHT. COME TO FIND OUT, SHE IS AN ATTORNEY! OR WAS ONE! NO WONDER, THAT, GAVE ME NEW INSIGHT INTO HER PAST! LOL. WHAT WAS SHE A FIGHTER, LIKE ME? THEY FINALLY GOT TO HER? SHE WENT NUTS, LIKE THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE ME GO? BUT, THE COMMENTS, ARE ALWAYS, FUNNY. SOME CHICK IN RESPONSE TO THE ANNOYING OUTBURSTS, SAID, AS HE LAY ALMOST UNDER HER COVERS WITH THE LIGHTS JUST BEING TURNED OFF . . . SOMEONE NEEDS TO GIVE THAT WOMAN AND EXORCISM! LOL. LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE! THE FOLLOWING MORNING, CHRISTINE, AND I WERE TALKING. NOW MOST PEOPLE DON'T TAKE THE TIME TO KNOW HER . . . A VERY SMART, SAVVY, CHINESE LADY, WHO, HAS SOME, LANGUAGE, LIMITATIONS, BUT SHE COMES FROM A DISTINGUISHED FAMILY, IN CHINA, HER FATHER WAS A REVOLUTIONARY AND PROFESSOR, WAS JAILED, AND, I AM NOT SURE, MIGHT HAVE BEEN MURDERED FOR HIS PARTICIPATION IN PROTESTS AND TRYING TO MODIFY THE GOVERNMENT. WE TALKED ABOUT RIGHTS AND OTHER COUNTRIES, WANTING, THE RIGHTS WE HAVE IN AMERICA. I ASKED HER ABOUT, HONG KONG AND WHAT SHE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT. SHE SAID, I TAKE THE POSITION OF MY GRANDMOTHER, SHE SAID, THE TIGER, FIGHTS THE TIGER, AND THE MONKEY, WAITS. THEN THE MONKEY RULES! THAT IS PRETTY DAMNED SMART THINKING, WHEN YOU THINK OF IT! IT IS ALWAYS, SCARY WHEN, THERE ARE THREE CANDIDATES, LIKE A ROSS PEROT, WHO PLAYS, FROM, BEHIND, BUT, WAS ABLE TO SWAY THE ELECTIONS, BACK WHEN, BILL CLINTON WAS RUNNING AGAINST, WHO WAS IT POPPY BUSH? PRETTY TIGHT RACE, AND, THOSE WHO WERE GOING TO VOTE FOR PEROT, DID WHAT HE SAID AND THREW THEIR WEIGHT TO CLINTON! ME MIGHT HAVE WON ANYWAY, BUT THE MONKEY, RULED IN A WAY. WE SAW THAT WITH, BERNIE, AND JILL STEIN, WITH STEIN, TAKING THE NUMBER OF VOTES, TRUMP WON, IN THE THREE RUST BELT STATES, THROWING THE ELECTION TO TRUMP, RATHER THAN, GIVING, HILLARY THE CORONATION THAT WAS EXPECTED. STEIN WAS ALSO WITH, TEAM PUTIN, RIGHT THERE ALONG WITH, FORMER, NATIONAL SECURITY ADVISER TO TRUMP, MICHEAL FLYNN, WHO WAS FIRED FROM THE OBAMA, ADMINISTRATION FOR ATTENDING THAT DINNER IN MOSCOW, WITH RT NEWS OR RUSSIAN NEWS! CONNECT THE DOTS. IN REFERRING TO THE PROTESTS IN HONG KONG WITH, MAINLAND CHINA, AND THE COMMUNIST PARTY, CHRISTINE SAID, THIS TIME, IT IS THE LION FIGHTING THE TIGER, AND, THE MONKEY WILL RULE AGAIN. IT WILL WAIT IN THE WINGS, AND TAKE THE SPOILS. THERE ARE THREE CHALLENGERS, WITHIN THE RANK AND FILE OF THE GOP, TO GIVE TRUMP A PRIMARY CHALLENGE. BILL WELD, MARK SANFORD, AND, THE FORMER, TEA PARTY MEMBER, TOM, SOMETHING, REPENTING FOR PUTTING HIM IN OFFICE! WHO WILL THE TIGERS BE? THE LION? WHO THE MONKEY? COOL IDEA, AND VERY, VISUAL FOR ME. IT ALSO REMINDS ME OF THE SIGNS AND SYMBOLS OF THE CHINESE CALENDAR AND YEARS. THE YEAR OF THE RABBIT OR THE HORSE OR THE MONKEY. SO, OUT OF THE BLUE, THIS, RELIGIOUS FREAK, WHO IS THE ANTITHESIS OF JESUS CHRIST OR A DISCIPLE, ALL THE SUDDEN, STARTS IN ON, CHRISTINE? BUT SHE IS TALKING, RELIGION AND CHURCH, AND CHRISTINE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT SHE IS TALKING ABOUT, AND, THE PASTOR IS TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH THIS, AND BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. STAFF TRIES TO PULL HER OFF HER RANT! SHE CHALLENGES, STAFF? HOPE SHE HAS A PLAN B!? THEN, SHE STARTS CALLING ALL OF US DEMONS, AND TALKING ABOUT, US WEARING, OTHER SUITS, AND, SKINNY CHICKS, PRANCING AROUND, LOOKING CUTE? THIS WOMAN, IS A CARICATURE RIGHT OUT OF THE MOVIES TOO, BUT ONE, LIKE, DELIVERANCE, OR THE SHINING OR MISERY! LOL. I WAS LAUGHING AS SOME OF THE CHICKS, TRIED TO GET HER OFF, HER RAGE, AND RANTS, PROTECTING, CHRISTINE WHO WAS OFF THE HOT SEAT, PUTTING ANY TARGET ON IT. SOMEONE, SAID, GET OUT SWINE! LOL. THIS LADY WALKS LIKE A POLAR BEAR, AND HAS THIS STRANGE BUN ON HER HEAD THAT BOBBLES AS SHE WALKS, THAT IS A SIGHT ON NORMAL CALM DAYS! LOL. IT JUST GOT MORE AND MORE FUNNY. HERE WE GO, THE COPS ARE GOING TO HAVE TO ESCORT HER OFF THE PREMISES! I DIDN'T GET ANY PREMONITIONS, OR, GUT FEELINGS TO TAKE OFF, IN THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING, BUT I SHOULD HAVE! LOL. I SAID, THE MORE MISERABLE IT GETS, THE MORE FUNNY IT ALL GETS TO ME! SO, I WAS JUST IN THIS SARCASTIC MOOD. TOO BAD, SARCASM DOESN'T BURN CALORIES! LOL. NOW, PRIOR TO THIS, THERE WAS THIS CHICK, WHO, TOOK IT UPON HERSELF, TO PUSH ME OUT OF MY #1 SELECTED SPOT, TWO DAYS IN A ROW? LIKE, IF YOU WANT TO CROWD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ACTION, AND LAND IN FRONT OF THE FAN, OR NEAR THE CHURCH PEW, TO USE IT TO GET UP IN THE NIGHT, OR TO SIT ON IN THE MORNING, THEN, JUST FUCKING GET THERE EARLY! JUST LIKE I DO! FUCK? SO, I TOLERATED THAT, SLIGHT. THEN, AFTER, TRYING TO SOLVER HER ISSUES, WITH HER, ARGUING WITH ME, ON EVERY SOLUTION, I FINALLY SAID, DON'T MAKE YOUR PROBLEMS, MY PROBLEMS! LOL. KAREN WATCHED FROM ACROSS THE ROOM, LAUGHING AT MY RESPONSES, BEING CALLED SELFISH? YOU HAVE TO BE SHITTING ME? LOL. I AM THE WRONGED PARTY HERE, AND YOU, DEAR ARE, THE INSECT, WHO, HORNED IN ON ME AND MY MAT, PLACED, RIGHT WHERE IT WAS BY STAFF, AND MOVED IT OVER TWO DAYS IN A ROW! SO IF THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH, I WOKE UP, AT ABOUT, 4:00 AM, AND, WHO WAS UP WITH ME? YOU GOT IT, THE LADY WHO CALLED ME SELFISH, AND, THOUGHT I WAS A DEGENERATE, FOR NOT, MOVING OR JUMPING WHEN SHE WANTED ME TO JUMP! YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME, SHE IS UP AT THE SAME TIME, AS ME . . . WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? SHE DOESN'T HAVE CLOTHES ON?!!!! BIG ASS BOOBS, ARE ALL I SAW, IN THE PHONE LIGHT, SHE WAS BLASTING ALL OVER THE PLACE! A NUDIST ON TOP OF THAT? IT IS AGAINST THE RULES, TO STRUT YOUR STUFF, ROUND, THE OTHER WOMEN, IT MAKES, US UNCOMFORTABLE! IT IS ONE THING IF SHE HAD A GOOD BODY, OR EVEN GOOD BOOBS, BUT . . . LOL. WHEN THE LIGHTS CAME ON, I HEARD THE STAFF, SAY, "WHERE ARE YOUR CLOTHES?" LOL. THIS NAKED JAYBIRD, PULLED, A SIMPLE BLANKET OVER HER VERY LARGE, BOD, AND, WENT TO GET BREAKFAST? THE AUDACITY? LOL. THESE BLACK CHICKS, CRACK ME UP. THEY DON'T OVER-REACT, JUST, SEEMED, LEGITIMATELY CONCERNED ABOUT HER HAVING LOST HER CLOTHING? LOL! WHATEVER. ME AND KAREN DECIDED WE WOULD GO TO CHURCH, AFTER A MORNING LIKE THIS. I DECIDED, I NEEDED IT. ALL THE HOMELESS CHICKS, NOTICE, I AM NOT INCLUDING MYSELF IN THAT, MIX, BECAUSE, NO BODY HAS EVER GUESS ME AS HOMELESS, BECAUSE, I ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, PUT ON MAKEUP, AND, I ONLY HAVE A BACKPACK! SIMPLICITY. TONS OF BELONGINGS, BAGS, AND SUITCASES, JUST WREAK OF SAYING, HEY, EVERYBODY, "I AM HOMELESS!" NOW THE BUS DRIVER, WAS GREAT, KIND, PATIENT, WHILE I WAS GETTING MORE AND MORE, IMPATIENT, WITH ALL THE COMMOTION, AND BAGGAGE, HANDLING, AND SUCH. MS. NAKED, WAS THE WORST! AS, LUCK, HERS, NOT MINE, WOULD HAVE IT, THERE WERE NO MORE SEATS, LEFT, BY THE TIME SHE WRESTLED, ALL HER STUFF, ON THE BUS, UNDER THE BENCHES, AND, WHERE THE FUCK ELSE SHE WAS PUTTING IT. NOW, HER ASS, IS SITTING ON MY SEAT! OF COURSE! LOL. KAREN IS LOOKING AT ME FROM, HER SEAT, ALONE. SHE MADE IT A POINT, TO, SAY, AND SHE NEVER EVEN LOOKED AROUND AND ACKNOWLEDGED YOU. THAT WAS THE LEAST OF MY ISSUES WITH HER, I WAS READY TO SCREAM ABOUT THE TIME, SHE AND HER CREW, GOT OFF, THE BUS, GOING TO IHOP! LOL. YES. CHURCH, IS NECESSARY AFTER A DAY LIKE THIS, BEFORE, I KILL SOMEONE! LOL. BUT, THE SEAHAWKS WERE PLAYING AND LIFE WAS GOOD, SO. WE WALK OVER TO DOXA CHURCH, AS KAREN IS TELLING ME, THAT, DOXA WAS ESTABLISHED FOR, ASIANS AND HAWAIIANS? THAT'S STRANGE, I NEVER, THOUGHT OF IT, LIKE THAT, BUT SAW IT MORE AS A COOL, UPTOWN, FUNKY, HIP CHURCH, FOR, YOUNG PROFESSIONALS AND THEIR FAMILIES, SEEING THE SKYSCRAPERS, SURROUNDING THE AREA. WE WALK IN THE CHURCH, AND, A COPS IS WALKING IN WITH ME. BOTH, CHRISTINE AND KAREN, TOLD ME COPS LIKE THAT CHURCH. NEITHER ONE HAVE EVER GONE THERE? SO WHO GAVE THEM THIS INFORMATION? WHY IS THIS BELLEVUE COP, SHOWING UP AT THE EXACT SAME TIME AS ME AND KAREN? HE WALKS IN THE DOOR, AND TALKS TO SOMEONE, NAMED TIFFANY. I HOPE THAT IS NOT MY SISTER, TIFFANY? I THOUGHT YOUR FAMILY REUNION, WAS IN BRYCE CANYON. IT IS, OR SO I THOUGHT, HOPE THE FAM IS HAVING FUN! LOL. SO, I HIT THE RESTROOMS, WHILE KAREN GETS COFFEE, RIGHT AS WE ARE SITTING DOWN, CHRISTINE RUSHES IN WITH A COP IN TOW, AND SLAMS, TWO APPLES, A BAG OF HALF OPENED CEREAL, AND SEVERAL OTHER ITEMS. THIS IS NOT CHRISTINE'S CHURCH, SO, IS SHE AN IDENTIFIER? WHAT THE FUCK. WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS, OR SO I THOUGHT FOR, A FEW YEARS? SHE SAID SOMETHING ABOUT, NOT BEING ABLE TO BRING A BACKPACK IN . . . DID YOU FOLLOW US? THIS IS NOT YOUR CHURCH, SO? I JUST PASSED THE ITEMS OVER TO THE COPS, WHO CALLED, CHRISTINE, LIKE, CAROLINE OR SOME OTHER NAME, SAYING THAT, HE KNEW HER FOR YEARS? REALLY? GOT THE WRONG NAME, OFFICE. HE SEEMED CHEERFUL ENOUGH, UNTIL AFTER THE DELIGHTFUL, INFORMATIVE, MESSAGE AND WONDERFUL, SONGS! HE POSTED HIMSELF, AT THE RESTROOM DOORS. NOW ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME OR HAS READ THIS BLOG, KNOWS, THAT, GOING TO THE BATHROOM, BEFORE, DOING ANYTHING, IS PSYCHOLOGICAL FOR ME, HEARING MY MOTHER'S VOICE FROM, MY CHILDHOOD, YELLING TO HER EIGHT CHILDREN, TO MAKE SURE YOU GO TO THE BATHROOM BEFORE YOU LEAVE! INEVITABLY, SOMEONE, NEEDED TO GO THE SECOND WE GOT IN THE CAR! THE OFFICER ACTED LIKE HE NEVER SAW, OR MET ME BEFORE, ME, OR NEVER HAD THAT EXCHANGE, EARLIER IN THE DAY. THERE IS AN ESCAPE ROUTE, IF HE, IS REALLY THERE FOR ME! HE WAS STANDING AGAINST THIS WALL, THAT, WAS, LIKE FREE STANDING, OR STOOD OUT, IN FRONT OF BOTH THE MEN AND WOMEN'S, RESTROOMS, WITH A RED COVERED, CHURCH, BENCH OR PEW, SO, I JUST SLIDE OUT, WHERE, THE MEN'S RESTROOM WAS, BEHIND HIM . . . MET UP WITH KAREN WHO WAS GETTING MORE COFFEE! THERE WERE TONS OF PEOPLE, IN THE FOYER, NOW, SO, I DIDN'T PAY ANY ATTENTION TO THE COP, AFTER THAT! BUT THE MESSAGE WAS GREAT, AND, MY MOOD, OVER THE LAST FEW DAYS, SEEMED TO IMPROVE, FROM, WANTING, THE MUSCLE MEN WITH FIRE AND LIGHTNING, COMING FROM THEIR BOXING GLOVES, TO KILL MY 20 YEAR STALKERS, AND CYBERSTALKERS, TO, JUST BEING HAPPY TO BE BACK AT A COOL CHURCH. I DON'T NOW, PUSH OR, ENDORSE ANY PARTICULAR RELIGION, IF ANY AT ALL, BUT, THEY HAVE PROVEN THAT PEOPLE ARE, HAPPIER, WHO ATTEND, REGULAR CHURCH! I OFTEN ATTEND THOSE MOST CONVENIENT! INTERESTING THAT FOR TWO YEARS, I THOUGHT OF GOING TO THAT CHURCH, BUT IT TOOK THE BRIGHT, COLORFUL NEW, MURAL ON THE NORMAL, BORING, BROWN, PAINT, TO ENTICE ME TO THE PLACE OF WORSHIP! THERE ARE SOME COOL THINGS GOING ON THERE, AND, PLUGGING, INTO A CHURCH, GIVES YOU A SUPPORT SYSTEM AND, A STARTING PLACE! KAREN WAS, WRONG ON THE CHURCH, AUDIENCE, THERE WERE BLACKS, WHITES, ASIANS, LATINOS, AND ALL RACES AND NATIONALITIES! HELLO WORLD. HELLO CHURCH! SEVERAL SONGS AND A DREAM OR TWO. REAL INTERESTING ONE THIS MORNING, GOING FROM A DREAM STATE, RIGHT INTO A REAL STATE OF BEING AWAKE, AND STILL FEELING THE SAME, EMOTIONS! ST. FRANCIS, CATHOLIC POPE, BLESSED, A BENCH, WITH A BRONZE CARVING OF A HOMELESS MAN, UNDER A BLANKET . . . UNTIL YOU NOTICE HIS HANDS AND HIS FEET ARE PIERCED WITH THE MARKS OF THE NAILS HE WAS HUNG FROM ON THE CROSS, TO PAY FOR OUR SINS. JESUS SAID, BIRDS HAVE NESTS. FOX HAVE HOLES. I HAVE NO PILLOW BY WHICH TO LAY MY HEAD. THE SCRIPTURES ALSO SAY, WE ARE ENTERTAINING, ANGELS AMONG US. TO SOME IT IS GIVEN TO BE RICH. TO OTHERS TO BE POOR. WE WILL BE JUDGED ON HOW WE RESPOND TO BEING ONE OR THE OTHER. I WANT TO THANK, THE KIND BUS DRIVERS, WHO, STOP, RIGHT AT THE PARKING LOT OF THE CHURCH, ENTRANCE, RATHER THAN, GOING A BLOCK ABOVE IT, OR A BLOCK, BELOW THE CHURCH, BECAUSE, THERE ARE NO SIDEWALKS, AND, THOSE WHO HAVE TONS OF SHIT, OR EVEN ME, BEING, BEAT AND TIRED BY THE END OF THE NIGHT, ARE GRATEFUL FOR THAT, SMALL, ACT OF KINDNESS, GETTING US, RELAXED AND RESTING A BIT FASTER, THAN, IF WE HAD TO WALK THAT EXTRA BIT, THAT, IS ALMOST EXHAUSTING AFTER, BEING ON YOUR FEET OR ON THE GO ALL DAY LONG. THANKS TO THE DONORS. TWO WONDERFUL LADIES, SERVED A DELICIOUS MEAL TO US, LAST NIGHT, VEGETARIAN ENCHILADAS, PURPLE CABBAGE SALAD, WATERMELON TOO. SO YUMMY. I WASN'T HUNGRY, BECAUSE, I ATE, A BOWL OF CLAM CHOWDER AT IVER'S SEAFOOD, BEST IN SEATTLE AREA, BEFORE, CATCHING THE BUS, BUT THE FOOD WAS SOOOO GOOD, I JUST HAD A O HAVE ANOTHER, HALF! STAFF, ALSO, TREATED US LAST NIGHT TO ICE CREAM SUNDAYS, FOR, OBEYING THE RULES, AND MAKING LIFE, FOR THE NEIGHBORS, A BIT BETTER! THANKS TO THE NEIGHBORS! WE ARE NOT THE MOST WANTED, CREW, IN TOWN. BUT THANKS FOR YOUR TOLERANCE, AND OF COURSE THE CHURCH, THAT SPONSORS, THE HOMELESS. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IS IN YOUR CHURCH, PARTAKING OF YOUR FOOD, AND SERVICES. THAT CHICK, WHO WAS BUGGING THE SHIT OUT OF ME IN THE MORNING, STARTED TALKING TO ME, AND SHE IS FROM, ROMANIA, HER FAMILY, WERE IMMIGRANTS, AND SHE, FOUGHT, FOR THE RIGHTS OF THE ELDERLY AND AGAINST, SEX AND LABOR TRAFFICKING IN CALIFORNIA, BEFORE, FLEEING AN ABUSIVE HUSBAND! THE SECRET LIVES OF ALL OF US, ARE INTERESTING AND DIVERSE. IT MATTERS HOW YOU GOT HERE, OR NOT! I AM DAMNED PROUD OF THE PATH I CHOSE, THAT LEAD ME STRAIGHT TO SEATTLE AND SURROUNDING AREA! I LOVE IT! IF I WERE TO DO IT ALL AGAIN, I MOST LIKELY WOULD, DO IT JUST THE WAY, I DID! TOUGH. BUT NO REGRETS. MOST OF THIS WAS OUT OF MY HANDS. I JUST RESPONDED IN KIND. THERE IS A SONG, THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT WHAT I PUT MY KIDS THROUGH, AND WHAT THEY, PUT ME THROUGH . . . IT IS CALLED, I THINK, "I'M COMING HOME."

You Were J.D's Friend?

Yes, I Was His Friend . . . SOB.

I don't know how this writing got red, but, whatever.  In this dream, someone, died, and it seemed to be someone named, J.D., I think, or that was the name, that, came to mind, in the dream.  I had all these pages and verses, underlined in a book and I was going to write something that seemed appropriate for this man, who lived and died, probably without much ado from anyone.  As I got to his stuff, his remains, there were just a few blankets, and, a board game.  I started to open the book and look at the passages, and, changed my mind, closed the books, and decided to just let him rest in peace.  Then, I took his blankets and folded them in a pile, and put them on top of the board game.

There were three other men, or homeless men, sitting, around, where this dude's, last days and nights were spent, and, as I folded the blankets and stacked his stuff, one of them, said, So, you were J.D's friend?  All I could say, was, yes, I was J.D.'s friend.  Then, I started to cry.  What was strange, was, the tears were running freely down my cheeks, and my nose was running, and, I reached a place of cognitive reality or wake, and thought for a second . . . who was this I am crying over?  I don't know anyone named, J.D.?  I am not even in Montana, where, I am near, men, in a homeless situation?  In Seattle, the men and women, are very separate and the two, at least where i have been, rarely meet.

I continued to cry for this unknown soul.  I thought of the statistics, of most homeless people, dying, between the ages of 35 to 45, when living, hard core on the streets.  Then, I thought of, me living for 7 years in this situation, not by choice, but by force, and, being, harassed, chased, intimidated, and, pushed and shoved.  I am, almost 65 in about, 3 months, so I have, long out lived, the statistics, but, I didn't start in the streets, at that age, and, I am, as healthy, or more so, than, more people my age, look, about 20 years younger than, I have a right to, so?  I thought, did this, J.D. represent, my law degree, of having a juris doctorate?  Did the significance of the board game, under the blankets, represent, the end of this, fucking, game, I have been forced, into without notice, or recall, or even a voice or choice?

I AM BOARD OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND . . . EVEN THE SWIM GAMES, ARE THE SAME . . .OVER AND OVER AND OVER, THE SAME SHIT!  WHATEVER TEST I AM SUPPOSE TO HAVE, BEEN PUT THROUGH, I PASSED WITH FLYING COLORS, SURVIVED AND THRIVED!  SO WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?  I AM FINALLY, GOING TO BE COMPENSATED FOR 20 YEARS OF SERVICE TO MY COUNTRY?  I WOULD HOPE SO . . . IS THIS RED, THAT, POPPED UP, FROM, WHATEVER SOURCE, SYMBOLIC OF FAMOUS WRITING?  IT SHOULD, LONG, LONG TIME WRITING!  OR IT IS THE TRAINING?  

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN, YOU TAKE WOMEN, WHO SHOULD HAVE BEEN ON THE STREETS, AND TAKE SOMEONE WHO WOULD NEVER HAVE LANDED ON THE STREETS, AND SWITCH PLACES WITH THEM, TO SEE, IF YOU CAN PULL IT OFF, AND STEAL, ALL THAT THIS PERSON, EARNED, AND GIVE IT TO YOUR FUCK BUDDIES?  IT SHIT A "MY FAIR LADY" IN REAL . . . A HENRY HIGGINS, WHO TOOK THE GUTTER TRAMPS, AND TURNED THEM INTO THE REFINED, ATTORNEY, PROFESSOR, LOBBYIST, BLOGGER, MOTHER, AND, THE GAME WAS TO SEE, IF THAT COULD BE A SEAMLESS, PAINLESS STEAL, WITH OUT ME KNOWING?

YOU FAILED.  I KNEW EVERY MOVE YOU MADE, ALL THE WAY ALONG!  THERE IS ANOTHER SONG, I HEARD TODAY, AND IT WENT SOMETHING LIKE, "ONE DAY YOU WILL ACCOMPANY ME . . ."  BUT WILL I WANT TO?  I HAVE IMAGINED, BEING, BACK ME, AFTER, 20 YEARS OF SHIT, GAMES, LIPTRIX, LASER SHOWS, DRAMA, STAGED SHIT, FOR WHAT? AND BEING, INTRODUCED, TO THE CIA AGENTS, OR THE FBI, OR THE FEDS, WHO CHEERED MY 1243 PERFECT SCORE, THEN, ASKING ME TO SAY A FEW WORDS.  I COULD ONLY THINK OF TWO I WOULD, WANT TO SAY--

FUCK YOU!

Coming Home

Dirty Money

I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits
And they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming

I'm back where I belong
Yeah I never felt so strong
I'm feelin' like there's nothing that I can't try
(I'm back, baby)
And if you with me put your hands high
(Put your hands high)

If you ever lost a life before, this one's for you
(And if you with me put your hands high)
And you, and you and you and you
(Your dreams are filled, you're rapping with the best)

I hear The Tears Of A Clown
I hate that song
I always feel like they talking to me when it comes on
Another day another dawn
Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math, I'm gone

What am I 'posed to do when the club lights come on
It's easy to be Puff, but it's harder to be Sean
What if the twins ask why I ain't marry their mom?
(Why Damn!)
How do I respond?

What if my son stares with a face like my own
And says he wants to be like me when he's grown
Shit, but I ain't finished growin'
Another night the inevitable prolongs

Another day, another dawn
Just tell Keisha and Teresa I'll be better in the morn'
Another lie that I carry on
I need to get back to the place I belong

I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits
And they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming

A house Is Not A Home, I hate this song
Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone?
And niggas got the nerve to blame you for it
And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it

But you felt it and still feel it
And money can't make up for it or conceal it
But you deal with it and you keep ballin'
Pour out some liquor, play ball, and we keep ballin'

Baby, we've been living in sin 'cause we've been really in love
But we've been living as friends
So you've been a guest in your own home
It's time to make your house your own, pick up your phone, come on

I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits
And they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming

Ain't No Stopping Us Now, I love that song
Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y'all that we won't stop
We back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks

It's what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
Drove me away than embraced me, forgave me
Forgave from all of my shortcomings, welcome to my homecoming
Yeah it's been a long time coming

Lot of fights, lot of scars
Lot of bottles, lot of cars
Lot of ups, lot of downs
Made it back, lost my dog
(I miss you Big)
And here I stand, a better man
(A better man)
Thank you Lord
(Thank you Lord)

I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits
And they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming
Coming home
Home

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: GRANT ALEXANDER / HAFERMANN HOLLY / CARTER SHAWN / COLE JERMAINE A

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