TRUSTAGE. KISSLOCK. LINGERING STENCH. POW! PHYSICS ON WHEELS. GAMES. ANIMATION. FILMS. STEAL THE STARS. THE DOOBIE BROTHERS. HOTSTAR. HOTSTAR. SIMPLY DELICIOUS. OUR DAILY DELIGHT. SET YOUR OWN COURSE. COMPLETE CARE. REDBULL. UNRULED. INTERGOTHAM. IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO TAKE YOUR SHOT. GET DIRTY. ZILLOW. FIND YOUR WAY HOME. REDHOOK WAREHOUSE SECTION. SAVING IS A BEAUTIFUL THING. NATURE MAKES US BETTER. HOT-N-READY. TASTE THE WILD! THE COOL KIDS. TEMPTATIONS. CAT'S CAN'T RESIST. MY SON. MY SAVIOR. SLOWBURN. MADMAX. FURY ROAD. LIFE CAN CHANGE IN A SECOND. SOME THINGS YOU CAN'T FORESEE. LEVERAGE. LET'S BE DOCTORS AGAIN. NEW AMSTERDAM. COMPREHENSIVE EASY TO USE PROTECTION. BLACKMAIL. MR. & MRS. MARSHALL. A MILLION LITTLE THINGS. SMOOTHIES. NATURAL BALANCE. FUN SIZE. ON STAGE. COPS KIDS O.D. HOPE. NEW MOON. MOLESTATION. DAWN OF A NEW AGE. PICK AS SIDE. THE GIFTED. ANSWER THE CALL! LIVE ALIVE. SWORDFISH. MAN ABOUT TOWN ESCORTS. REPUTATION IS EVERYTHING IN MY BUSINESS. GO. GET. REWARDED. NOBODY LIKES TO BE STUCK ON HOLD. #INITTODISCOVERZIONS. IT MUST BE DIFFICULT TO SEE THE MONSTERS OUT THERE, OTHERS DON'T SEE. I WAS NOT ABOUT TO PAINT A BULL'S EYE ON A GOOD COP. REGISTER TO VOTE. PARENT MAP. BACK TO SCHOOL. TWO COUSINS. FISH. HUGE MONEY IN BARELY LEGAL TEENS. MACY'S. WE ALL HAVE A DUTY TO STOP WHATEVER MIGHT LEAD TO SEX TRAFFICKING OF YOUNGER WOMEN. VERY CUTE BLACK UNDERAGE FEMALE, WEARING A WHITE DRESS, SUNDAY SHOES, AND AN OLDER SUIT, WITH NO HEAD, BUTTONING UP HIS JACKET? SUGGESTS, THIS SHIT TO ME . . . WHO AND WHAT, DOES, THAT, OTHERWISE, WINDOW COVER, SAY, OR GIVE IN SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES . . . I DON'T HAVE A DIRTY MIND, I AM JUST TRAINED IN STREET AND PORT CRIMES! THAT HAS BOTHERED ME, SINCE THE FIRST TIME, I CAME TO SEATTLE AND CREEPS ME OUT, EVER SINCE--WHEN, LAST NIGHT, LAW & ORDER: SPECIAL SEX CRIMES UNIT, DID AN EPISODE OF YOUNG GIRLS BEING ABDUCTED, BY USING A RUSE OF HAVING NEW PUPPIES IN THE BACK OF A VAN, THEN, HAVING A PARTY WITH A CLOWN, THEN, SPECIAL DRESS UP DAY, PLAYING PRINCESS FOR KIDDIE PORN FILMS, AND THE NEXT DAY, SEX AND DEATH . . . THIS GOOD CITIZEN IS GOING TO JUST BRING IT TO MANAGEMENTS MIND, WHO SEES IT AS NOTHING MORE THAN AN AD FOR SUNDAY BEST. THERE IS ALSO, A RACIAL COMPONENTS, THAT SUGGESTS, THAT LITTLE BLACK GIRLS ARE JUST THERE FOR THE TAKING, AS WE KNOW THEY WERE IN THE DEEP SOUTH, PLANTATION AND SLAVE DAYS! AVOID THE VERY APPEARANCE OF EVIL AND CRIME! IT'S A VILLAGE WE ARE SAVING! FOLLOWED BY STAR. IT DOESN'T HAVE TO MAKE SENSE. JOINT PAIN COULD MEAN JOINT DAMAGE. SHE DIDN'T ASK TO DO PORN, SHE WAS FORCED TO DO IT! ON SET. A MILLION LITTLE THINGS. INTERGOTHAM. THE PERFECT HAPPY HOUR! ADMIT NOTHING. DENY EVERYTHING. THIS IS HOW WE PIN THEM DOWN. CAPE FEAR RIVER. PORT OF SEATTLE IS THE NUMBER ONE PORT IN THE COUNTRY, MAYBE WORLD, FOR IMPORTING, DRUGS, SEX, LABOR, AND OTHER ILLEGAL TRADE OUT OF ASIA AND RUSSIA! IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO SAVE A VILLAGE. SAVING IS A BEAUTIFUL THING! IT'S DREAM INTERPRETATION TIME! SINCE IT IS SUNDAY, SOME SUNDAY SCHOOL! SMILE. YOU CAN TAKE THE GIRL OUT OF CHURCH, BUT YOU CAN'T TAKE THE CHURCH OUT OF THE GIRL. TRAIN A CHILD UP, IN THE PATHS THEY SHOULD TAKE AND THEY WILL NOT DEPART FROM THEM . . . CRITICAL YOUNGER YEARS! BIBLE TRUTHS. SIMPLE TRUTHS. GET. GET. GOT!

MICRO TO MACRO DREAM

30 OF 35 YEARS BACK . . . 5 YEAR OLD SON, RED HEAD CUTIE, CALLS ME, CRYING, WITH SOAP IN HIS EYES . . . CAN'T GET IT OUT . . . HURRY HOME!

A simple dream, loaded with meaning.  Elliot is the one who first, actually, brought up, divorce to me and my husband . . . mom and dad, are you getting a divorce?  No, why would you ask?  He, left for school.  It is healthy, to fight, mix it up, get into it, and blend, two people's lives, into one . . . that is called marriage and actually, sort of the definition of marriage, between two people, who, then, become, for all intents and purposes, one entity, working for the good of the family.  We never, argued, until the day, Elliot, lit a flame to the raging emotional fires underneath, that through, spontaneous combustion, in one fell swoop, ended our marriage, eventually, but in rapid decline.  There was nothing big, no monumental issues, just, as I used to describe, it, more like Chinese torture, one drop of water a day, in the center of my forehead!  

Being the cold analytical bitch that I can be, and was more so, back in those days . . . life tends to beat you up and humble you a bit as time roars, on, but, I was, somewhat, learned in, family and human relations, having started a master's degree, in just that, wanting to be a marriage and family therapist, until, me and my professor, discovered that I was not therapist material, and was more akin to giving advice, as in being an attorney, much, more, suited to my personality--my husband, after I had done a genograph, a tool used, to chart out, what you know about, four generations or more of you ancestry, which is becoming very hip today to look into, I had, designed, a four generation, thing, based on personal knowledge, and genealogy, of both my husband's family and mine, and decided that our marriage, and we, as a couple were, just a victim of family patterns!  It happens!

ACCUSED OF BEING, TREATED, JUST TWO LAB RATS, TO BE DISSECTED, AND ANALYZED, WITH NOTHING LESS THAN, A SCALPEL, AND KNIFE, LOOKING AT WHO WOULD BE BEST TO TAKE THE KIDS, BASED ON: AGES OF THE CHILDREN, MOTHER'S CONTRIBUTIONS TO WHAT AGE, AND A FATHER'S CONTRIBUTIONS, PERSONALITY, INCOME, FUTURE INCOME, NESTING INTERESTS, PROPENSITY TO STAY HOME AND BE THERE, PASSED BEHAVIORS AND CONTRIBUTIONS, AND OUTSIDE INTERESTS AT THE TIME . . . AND OF COURSE, I WAS THE ONLY ONE TO HAVE A SAY!  LOL.  FIRST, I WAS DECIDED THAT I WOULD HAVE CUSTODY AND KEEP THE HOUSE, UNTIL, I HAD A DREAM TO GO TO LAW SCHOOL, THAT CAME DURING THE 90 DAY WAITING PERIOD, THEN, WE JUST FLIPPED, EVERYTHING THE OPPOSITE WAY, AND HE TOOK THE CAKE!

I TOOK FAMILY AND RELIGIOUS HEAT, BUT, WE DID WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS RIGHT FOR "OUR" FAMILY AND "OUR" CHILDREN, WITHIN THE LAW AND THE PARAMETERS, OF LOGIC, REASON, RATIONAL BASIS, AND HOPES OF CHILDREN'S SURVIVAL AND FUTURE.  WE DID NOT WANT THE KIDS TO HAVE ANY PRESSURE, TO CHOOSE, OR TO HAVE TO TAKE SIDES, WE NEVER TOLD THEM, MUCH OF WHY, WE JUST DID WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS BEST, FOR US AND OUR KIDS!

MODEL HOME. MODEL DIVORCE. NO ATTORNEYS. NO COURTROOM DRAMA.  NO HATE. NO FIGHTS. FRIENDS WITH KIDS IN COMMON, BOTH WORKING FOR THE "BEST INTEREST OF ALL INVOLVED" . . . WE BOTH DID OUR PARTS WITHOUT EVEN DISCUSSING, ANYTHING . . . IT WORKED; HOWEVER, THAT DIDN'T LEAVE, CHILDREN, POSSIBLE VICTIMS, OF THOSE WHO WOULD, DESTROY AND LAY IN WAIT, TO DESTROY, WHAT WAS AN ALMOST PERFECT DIVORCE!  PARENTS WHO STAYED TOGETHER FOR THE CHILDREN. OR DIVORCED SISTERS, WHO, CREATED A LIVING HELL FOR THEMSELVES, AND THEIR CHILDREN, AND DUMPED THEIR SHIT ALL OVER THE EXTENDED FAMILY!  MY MOTHER, PAID ME A HIGH COMPLIMENT--THANK YOU, FOR, TAKING CARE OF BUSINESS, AND NOT INVOLVING ANYONE IN YOUR DIVORCE.  THE KIDS TURNED OUT GREAT, AND, RELATIONSHIPS WITH ME, AT LEAST, WERE GREAT . . . IN SPITE OF, TRADITION, COMMON PRACTICES, AND EVEN, NO CHURCH ATTENDANCE AND NOT WORRYING ABOUT, KIDS, WHO, WERE FREE TO BE, OR NOT TO BE, WHO THEY WANTED TO BE . . . GORGEOUS MILITARY DAUGHTERS, AND HOT ROCK AND HIP HOP, RAP, STAR SONS!

ADD TO THAT, A ROCKIN' CAREER, AND LATER, A FUCKING FORTUNE?  OH, FUCK NO!  LIKE LOBSTERS IN A TANK . . . WHEN ONE STARTS TO CLIMB OUT OF THE MESS OF THEM, THE OTHERS, CLAW THEM DOWN!

SOAP IN YOUR EYES, CAN, BE HARMFUL, CAUSE IRRITATION, AND CREATE THE SENSATION OF BLINDNESS . . . WHITEWASHING, OR DETERGENT, OR DETERRENT, CAN DAMAGE, THE EYES.  PLEASE MOM, GET HOME SOON!

THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE!

THE SECRISTS ARE JUST A BRANCH ABOVE THE REST!  WE UPSET THE APPLE CART . . . TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD, WE HAVE IT ALL, EVEN WITH OR WITHOUT THE MONEY.  ACCORDING TO THE SOUTHWICK, MORMON BUBBLE . . . MY KIDS ARE STILL THE COOL KIDS!

WE DID WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS BEST . . . NOT THE SIMPLEST, OR THE EASIEST, OR WHAT WAS EXPECTED, BUT, ALL THINGS CONSIDERED, BEST, AND IT WORKED . . . TO THE ENVY, OF THOSE WHO, IN MY FATHER'S WORDS, STAYED THE COURSE, AND DID THE MORMON THING . . . DEFECTORS MUST PAY!

IS ANYTHING MAKING SENSE?

GOOD.

GET THE IRRITANTS OUT OF YOUR EYES!

FRESH WATER WORKS WELL!

KISS.

ELLIOT WAS YOUNG, BUT ELLIOT IS BRILLIANT!

ROUGH STUFF . . . MANIPULATED, NOT BY YOUR PARENTS!  ALTHOUGH, ON THE BUS, THE OTHER DAY, WONDERING, HOW, ANY OF THIS COULD HAVE HAPPENED, I SAT BY SOME DUDE, NEVER MET, ON THE BUS, PACKED BUS . . . WENT CLEAR TO THE BACK, AND SAT, ON THE BACK BENCH, LAST SEAT, AND THE DUDE ACTED A BIT BUGGED THAT, I WOULD, TAKE THE 5TH SEAT, AND, MAKE THE OTHER 4 A BIT, UNCOMFORTABLE AND CLOSE . . . IT'S RUSH OUT DUDE AND, I WAS RIGHT OUT OF THE POOL, WET HAIR, SO, CHLORINE SMELL, MAYBE, BUT CLEAN . . . HE MELLOWED OUT, BUT, AGAIN, I WAS THINKING ABOUT, HOW, OUR FAMILY, STILL, AMAZINGLY, IN TACT, GOT HERE . . . JUST AT THAT MOMENT, THIS MAN, GOT UP, TURNED TO GRAB HIS BACKPACK, AND GLARED AT ME, AND HE LOOKED, LIKE MY EX-HUSBAND, NOT AS GOOD LOOKING, BUT, A SIMILAR, LOOK AND HAIR, ALL GREY, BUT, AS I WATCHED HIM, WALK OFF THE BUS, AND WALK AWAY . . . HE WAS LIMPING, ON HIS, RIGHT FOOT . . . HE WAS HURT, AND THAT MOST LIKELY, PASSED TO, OF COURSE, MY SONS' WHO, MIGHT HAVE, FELT EQUALLY, ABANDONED AND LEFT, EVEN THOUGH I WAS WITH THEM ALL THE TIME AND I THINK THEY HAD MORE FUN, WITH BOYFRIEND AND HIS SONS!  FUN, FUN, TEEN YEARS . . . ALL WAS WELL, UNTIL, THE GOVERNMENT, THROUGH FAMILY GOT INVOLVED!

DREAMS GIVE ME A CHANCE TO CLEAR UP, ISSUES, WITH KIDS, WITHOUT, DEALING WITH THE PAIN, UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL.

COMPASSIONATE. CHALLENGING. INCLUSIVE.

WE WILL SURVIVE!

TOO DAMNED STUBBORN NOT TO.

YOUR WORDS, SON.

LOVE.

DIFFERENT KIND OF MOM!

BLESSED, WITH COOL KIDS, WHO HANDLED, AND STILL HANDLE LIFE, WITH DIGNITY, GRACE, AND CLASS!

THE LAST DREAM, THE MACRO DREAM, I CAN ONLY ASSUME, HAD TO DO WITH, POSSIBLY, A GREAT WORLD EVENT, THAT OF NORTH AND SOUTH KOREA, SIGNING A "PEACE AGREEMENT!"  WHAT WOULD I HAVE TO DO WITH IT . . . BLASTING THE INFORMATION ALL OVER THE WORLD!

CELEBRATE!  

CHALLENGE OTHER COUNTRIES TO FOLLOW SUIT!

HOW REFRESHING, TO THOSE IN THE PATH OF WHAT COULD BE DESTRUCTIVE, HARMFUL, AND DAMAGING . . . CHANGED TO, ENLIGHTENMENT, PROGRESSIVE ACTION, AND LOVE . . . BOTH COUNTRIES WILL BENEFIT, AS WILL, 

EVERYONE!

IN THE DREAM, I WAS, AT A VANTAGE POINT, OF, SOMETHING LIKE A BLIMP, OR IN SOMETHING, VERY HIGH OFF THE GROUND, SO, IT WAS A AERIAL VIEW OF WHAT, IN MY MIND'S EYE, WAS, BRITISH, OR EUROPEAN UNION LEADERS, IN AN ORCHESTRATED, CHOREOGRAPHED, BUT, SEEMINGLY, SPONTANEOUS, CELEBRATION, WITH TONS OF BRASS, EACH, PERSON, DANCING ON STAGE HAD A BRASS INSTRUMENT, SO, TOP BRASS, ASSES, IN A GOOD SENSE OF THE WORD . . . DANCING, PLAYING, PEOPLE, HAPPY AND CELEBRATING!

THE BRITISH ARE GENERALLY, PORTRAYED AS, RATHER, BORING, STOIC, NON-EMOTIONAL, AND IN CONTROL, IF NOT MANNERED AND REFINED, COMPARED, TO THEIR, AMERICAN WILD CHILDREN, PROGENITORS, OR PROGENY, MIGRATING ACROSS THE POND! OR THE UNREFINED, LOUD, ROWDY, REBEL, UGLY AMERICAN ATTITUDES!

LOL.

AND PROUD OF IT!

AS PRESIDENT TRUMP, BRAGS OF CONGRESS, APPROPRIATING, $780 BILLION, LAST YEAR, AND $780 BILLION THIS YEAR TO BUILD UP THE AMERICAN MILITARY COMPLEX, GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT FOR?  THE REST OF THE WORLD, IS, MOVING TOWARDS, PEACE, CLIMATE CONTROL, FREE TRADE, AND SHARING, SUCCESS, BUSINESS, AND TECHNOLOGY SECRETS.

PRESIDENT EISENHOWER, WARNED, AMERICANS, AGAINST, THE BUILD UP, OF THE MILITARY COMPLEX!

WHAT IS TRUMP DOING?

USING AMERICAN TAX DOLLARS TO PROTECT, BUSINESS INTERESTS, AROUND THE WORLD?

WE WANT A PEOPLE MODEL, NOT A GOVERNMENT MODEL . . . GOVERNMENT OF THE PEOPLE, BY THE PEOPLE, AND FOR THE PEOPLE!

YES, WE NEED, BUSINESS, BUT THAT IS NOT THE PURPOSE OF THE GOVERNMENT . . . IT IS TO PROTECT PERSONS AND PROPERTY, NOT REIGN BLOODY, TERROR AROUND THE WORLD!

WE DON'T NEED THE NIXON, KISSINGER, MANTRA OF AMERICAN POWER, CARPET BOMBING CAMBODIA, JUST TO DEMONSTRATE, AMERICAN POWER?

NO.  JUST BE CAUSING TROUBLE, CONFLICT, AND DAMAGE, ANYWHERE, NO MATTER, WHAT OR WHO, OR WHY, TO SHOW AMERICAN MIGHT?

THAT IS NOT MAKING AMERICA GREAT AGAIN . . . THAT IS OLD MEN, THINKING IN OLD WAYS, AND FUCKING, TAX PAYERS, AND THE WORLD OVER!

RESIST!

THIS MORNING ON CHUCK TODD'S, MEET THE NATION, THERE WAS SOME MAN, WHO WROTE A BOOK, CALLED, "ENEMY OF THE PEOPLE" AND HE WENT ON, AND DESCRIBED, THE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN, THE 1040'S UNDER HITLER, AND HIS SS MEN, AND WHERE, WE ARE TODAY, UNDER TRUMP, AND HIS ICE MEN . . . ICE IS GOING INTO, STATES, LIKE NORTH CAROLINA, AND, REQUESTING, VOTER REGISTRATION LISTS, SO THEY CAN INSPECT THEM TO SEE IF, THERE ARE ILLEGAL ALIENS, REGISTERED TO VOTE?

THEY CAN'T!

THIS IS JUST FASCISM!

ARE WE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOW PAPERS, TO TRAVEL ROADS, LIKE THEY DID IN HITLER'S TIMES?

THIS MAN, SAID, DON'T, THINK, AND MANY HAVE WARNED, THAT, THIS CAN HAPPEN TO AMERICA, AND DEMOCRACY ALSO!

RESIST!

REGISTER TO VOTE!

THERE ARE SOOOOOO MANY CURRENT AUTHORS WHO HAVE HAD POSITIONS IN THE GOVERNMENT, WHO, SAY, THIS IS NOT NORMAL!

SOME FORMER, PROSECUTOR, NAVY JAG OR JUDGE ADVOCATE GENERAL, MILITARY COURTS, COMMENTING ON, THINGS, LIKE, FIRING ROSENSTEIN, WHO HAD A RATIONAL RESPONSE, OF LOOKING AT THE 25TH AMENDMENT AS WE ALL WERE, EVEN AMOROSA, SAID, THE WHITE HOUSE STAFF HAS A JOKE, #TFA . . . TIME FUCK AT, TO INVOKE THE 25TH FOR THE PRESIDENT BEING "UNFIT" TO SERVE AS PRESIDENT . . . I THINK, ANYONE SERVING, WITH THE CHAOS, AND CRAZY SHIT, COMING OUT OF THE WHITE HOUSE, IS OR WOULD BE, DERELICT IN THEIR DUTIES, TO THE COUNTRY, TO NOT CONSIDER THAT, AMENDMENT AND SOLUTION, RIGHT NOW!

BUT THIS JAG, MADE A PROFOUND, STATEMENT IN MY MIND, AND IT IS MILITARY . . . ANYONE RECEIVING A LAWFUL, ORDER FROM THE PRESIDENT, HAS AN OBLIGATION TO FOLLOW THAT ORDER, BUT, ON THE OTHER HAND, AND EQUALLY, AS VALID, AND POWERFUL, ANYONE, RECEIVING, AN UNLAWFUL, ORDER, BASED ON ABUSE OF POWER, FROM THE PRESIDENT, IS, UNDER THE OBLIGATION TO REFUSE, THAT ORDER!

ON A PANEL OF EXPERTS, THE OTHER DAY, ON THE NEWS, MSNBC, THE CONTRIBUTORS WERE SAYING THAT, THERE ARE TWO AMERICAS . . . WHO SAID THAT WAY, WAY BACK, EVEN AT THE START OF THIS BLOG, 5 YEARS AGO, AND THE PRESIDENT IS NOT, DOING THE NORMAL, EXPECTED, AUTHORIZED, AND PREDICTED, SIDE OF THE TWO!

THIS PERSON WENT ON TO SAY, THE PRESIDENT IS AN ENEMY OF AMERICA OR THE STATE, AND THE BIGGEST THREAT, RIGHT NOW!

FEAR.

CAPE FEAR RIVER.

RESIST.