DOGHUNK. EVILCAUGHT. PROPHETSTOWN. CAT-SCRATCH-FEVER. SCAREDY CAT. HELLCAT. HELLGATE KNIGHTS. HYSTERICAL. CINDERELLA HANGING WITH THE POV. RATS, GUTTER SNIPE, DRUGGIES, AND GHETTO GYPSIES! YOU GOT THE EVIL STEPS! HYSTERICAL. THINK CRITICALLY. EXPLORE CREATIVELY. LIVE ETHICALLY. TIT-AN MACHINERY: (1) STINK OP PLANNED FOR SATURDAY MORNING, BEFORE 6:00 AM; (2) MOST CREATIVE HIT MAN, AFTER DITCHING OUT OF THE POV. SEEING THE LOCAL DEA OFFICER PEEK AROUND THE CORNER IN THE ENTRYWAY TO SEE IF I WAS STILL THERE, WITH COWBOY WHO JUST BOUGHT A RANCH, IN ARLEE, STAYING AT THE POV., RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CHICKEN WITH HIS HEAD CUT OFF THE LAST DAY OR SO, HOOKING UP WITH A KAY, LOOK-ALIKE, MR. WEAVER, RETURNING FROM INDIANA, I WALKED OVER TO CALIFORNIA BRIDGE, TO DO SOME GENERAL BUS EXERCISES, WATCH THE SUN COME UP OVER THE CLARK FORK RIVER, EAT A SANDWICH, AND READ, BUT, I NOTICED THIS THING, LUMBERING, BEAR LIKE, FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE RIVER, BROWN FUR LOOK, BARELY BEING SEEN OVER THE BRIDGE, BUT, WALKING A LOT LIKE A BEAR WOULD--WHAT THE FUCK? POSSIBLE. SO I WATCHED, AND I BELIEVE WHEN I DIDN'T REACT OR RUN, THE DUDE, FINALLY PULLED THIS FUR LIKE BLANKET UP OVER HIS HEAD AND WALKED THE OTHER WAY ON THE BRIDGE TOWARD, BROADWAY; (3) I AM LISTENING TO MY MUSIC, STILL EARLY, ROCKIN' OUT, AND STRETCHING, OR OTHERWISE DISTRACTED, WHEN, ALL THE SUDDEN MY PEACEFUL MORNING, THIS LARGE DUDE, STANDS OVER ME AND SAYS, DO YOU HAVE ANY TOILET PAPER? NO. HE STANDS THERE GLARING AT ME, AND SAID, NO NAPKINS. NO. STILL STANDING OVER ME, I SAID, LOOK, WALK DOWN THAT ALLEY, FOLLOW IT TO THE POVERELLO CENTER, JUST ACROSS THE STREET THERE ARE BATHROOMS THERE. STILL STANDING THERE . . . I SAID, LOOK, I AM ENJOYING MY MORNING, GO OVER THERE! HE SAID, "GIVE ME A BREAK." I SAID, NO GIVE ME A BREAK! HE SAT THERE ON THE OTHER, OUTCROPPING, FOR A FEW MINUTES, THEN, SLOWLY AND I MEAN SLOWLY WALKED OVER THE BRIDGE, BUT HE PACED BACK AND FORTH, LOOKED LIKE HE WAS COMING BACK, ONLY ME AND HIM, AT THIS POINT, I TOOK OUT MY PHONE, TO CHECK THE TIME, SO HE MIGHT THINK I WAS CALLING THE COPS. HE THEN, WENT DOWN BENEATH THE BRIDGE. TOOK A SHIT OR SOMETHING? THOUGHT HE WAS GONE, AND AGAIN, HE WAS SNEAKING BACK OVER TO WHERE I WAS SITTING! SHIT! HE WENT BACK TO THE OPPOSITE OUTCROPPING OVER THE RIVER, AND WAITED . . . I GOT UP AND LEFT! YES, GIRLS, I COULD HAVE STAYED AND DEMANDED MY PEACE, BUT, THIS FUCK WAS, TWICE MY SIZE. ALWAYS ERROR ON THE SIDE OF SAFETY, EVEN IF IT IS UNFAIR. (4) SO IF THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH, I STARTED BACK TO THE POV. FOR LUNCH, HATE SATURDAY BUS SCHEDULES, BY THE TIME THEY COME, LIKE 10:15 AM, THE MORNING IS HALF SHOT, IT IS TIME FOR LUNCH, NO TIME TO BLOG, SO I TOOK A RIDE OUT TO BONNER, MY SANITY DRIVE, JUST TO GET SOME FRESH AIR AND GREEN! ON THE WAY BACK, ON BUS 1, TAKING THE LONG WAY TO THE POV. , THIS DUDE I HAVE KNOWN FROM THE POV. FOR YEARS, HE JUST EATS THERE, BUT LIVES IN BONNER, GETS ON THE BUS, NEAR, THE SOURCE FITNESS, WHERE I BELIEVE HE HAS A MEMBERSHIP. HE DOESN'T LOOK AT ME. STRANGE, WHATEVER, DOESN'T ACKNOWLEDGE ME, SO, I FIGURED HE WAS IN A PENSIVE MOOD. WE BOTH GET OFF THE BUS AND HE BEELINES IT TO THE POV., I TAKE MY TIME, WHEN, I NEAR THE GATES TO THE YARD AT THE POV. THAT I NORMALLY CUT THROUGH TO GET TO THE DINING AREA, WAS, CHAINED, SHUT? I GLANCED DOWN THE PARKING LOT, AND THERE IS NOT JUST ONE COP, BUT ANOTHER ONE BEHIND THEM, AND NO APPARENT DISTURBANCE, BUT IT COULD BE JUST ENDING, OR A FIGHT BROKE OUT? ENTERTAINMENT IS FREE, BUT WHEN I NOTICED, KEVIN, I THINK THAT IS HIS NAME, HAS A MOHAWK, OLDER DUDE, FIT, TAN, SMALL, SHAVED HEAD, BUT FOR THE CROP OF BLOND HAIR ON TOP, WAS, JUST STANDING OUTSIDE THE BACK ENTRANCE OF THE POV.? HE IS USUALLY, FIRST OR SECOND IN LINE, AFTER, THE HANDICAPPED, WHEEL CHAIRS, AND CANES, SO? IDENTIFIER? I BELIEVE HE HAS BEEN INVOLVED IN A STINK OP BEFORE. THIS IS NOT LOOKING GOOD. i WENT AROUND THE CORNER, AND, SAT FOR A SECOND OR TWO ON THE CEMENT GARBAGE CAN. A SHERIFF TOO? BIG TIME, HUH? SO, I WENT OVER TO THE CLARK FORK MOTEL AND SAT FOR A SECOND, THEN I SAW THE CHIEF OF POLICE, ROUND THE CORNER TO THE BACK OF THE POV., CHANGED MY HAT FROM RED TO GREEN! LOL. JUST IN CASE. SEEMS LIKE THERE WERE AT LEAST, 6 OR 7 COPS VEHICLES, IN LESS THAN ABOUT 5 MINUTES! FUCK LUNCH! I WALKED OVER TO THE BUS SHELTER ACROSS FROM FRESH MARKET, AND TALKED TO SOME DUDE. ONE JUST CAME BACK FROM LUNCH AT THE POV., HE THOUGHT THE COPS WERE THERE FOR SOME CHICK, AND SAID THE FIRE DEPARTMENT AND EMT WERE THERE . . . I NEVER SAW EITHER ONE OF THEM? BUT, I THOUGHT, IT MIGHT BE CLEAR . . . WE WATCHED THE ALLEY AND THE FRONT OF THE POV. NEAR, TIA'S TAMALES, BUT NEVER SAW THEM LEAVE--MUST HAVE GONE OUT THE BACK WAY? NOW TO FINALIZE MY DAY, NO SURPRISE, THAT YES, IT WAS AN ALL DAY, WE ARE GOING TO GET THIS INNOCENT BITCH, IF IT KILLS US! THE DUDE AT THE FRONT DESK WHO LOOKS, LIKE A COP, AND HAS BEEN INVOLVED IN MANY STINK OPS OVER THE LAST TWO YEARS WHEN, I DROP IN TOWN, JUST MINUTES AFTER I CAME THROUGH THE FRONT DOOR, WENT OUT THE DOOR, LOOKING PISSED AND FRUSTRATED, LOOKED BOTH WAYS, LIKE HE WAS LOOKING FOR SOMEONE, BUZZED INTO THE DINING AREA WHERE I WAS, GLARED AT ME, AND WALKED ON . . . ALL ADDED TOGETHER, THE COPS, FEDS, PLANTS, DEA, AND WHATEVER, ARE STILL GOING AFTER ME???????? CRAZY ASS FOOLS. MOB IS SLIPPING RIGHT THROUGH THEIR FINGERS, IN FACT, DIRECTING THE OPERATIONS, AND THEY ARE GOING AFTER ME? WHAT THE FUCK EVER! GOD? 7 SENIORS, 1 FEMALE, AND 6 MALES, WERE ARRESTED FOR HAVING AN ORGY IN THE PARK. ONE BY ONE, THEY WERE PULLED IN FRONT OF THE JUDGE FOR THEIR ARRAIGNMENT, TO PLEAD, INNOCENT OR GUILTY. AS EACH ONE STEPPED IN FRONT OF THE JUDGE, HIS HONOR, CHOKED BACK THE ACID REFLEX, AND, GAGGED, COUGHED, DRY HEAVED, AND FINALLY, AFTER EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM, PLEAD, NOT GUILTY, HE TURNED AND LEANED OVER HIS GARBAGE CAN, AND BARFED! LOL. AFTER LUNCH, THINKING ABOUT THIS TORRID SCENE OF SENIOR CITIZENS, ON PUBLIC DISPLAY, CHUCKLING, TO THINK OF THE KEY PLAYERS IN THIS, SHIT SHOW, WE ARE DEALING WITH, TO THIS SECOND, SHELLEY, FRANK, JACK, MICHAEL, TONY, JERRY, AND COWBOY, ALL CAME, VIVIDLY INTO MIND . . . AN ORGY WITH THIS CROWD, WOULD MAKE ME VOMIT TOO! LOL. AND THE TOWN, CHOSE THEM OVER ME? LOL. SIMPLY AMAZING. I AM ON THE "CATHER" OR WILLA SIBERT CATHER COMPUTER, AT THE MISSOULA COUNTY LIBRARY, DOING WHAT, MAKES THE MONEY, SHELLEY GIVES TO BUILD THE NEW LIBRARY, ACROSS THE STREET . . . DO YOU FUCKING REALIZE IF I QUIT, YOUR FUNDING, AT LEAST FROM THE BIG DONOR, SHELLEY, STOPS TOO? SHE IS A NOTHING BURGER! I HAVE DONE, ALL THAT YOU HONOR HER FOR? I MAKE ALL THE MONEY, SHE AND FRANK AND OTHERS, STEAL IT AND DISTRIBUTE IT AS IF IT IS THEIR OWN. WHY? BECAUSE, OF LATE, I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO GET ANYONE TO BELIEVE ME OR EVERYONE IS SO FUCKING CORRUPT, THEY, WANT ME OUT OF THE WAY, SO THEY CAN USE MY WELL EARNED, AND DESERVED, MONEY, UNENCUMBERED, AND WITHOUT GUILT! ORDER TO KILL? WAS THAT WHAT THIS WAS ABOUT TODAY? THIS IS NOT UNCOMMON IN MY LIFE OVER THE LAST 7 FUCKING YEARS, SHIT THEY TRIED TO KILL ME, BACK, 20 YEARS AGO! THE MAGNIFICENT 7, MINUS, THE RIGHT WOMAN! CLOWN SHIT FROM WHAT I SEE. 20 YEARS AND YOU CAN'T PULL THIS SHIT OFF? LOL. EITHER TOTALLY INCOMPETENT, OR COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY STUPID. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, TO DESCRIBE THIS CREW OF LEACHES, AND LOSERS? BREAKIN' THE CHAINS AROUND ME! BREAKIN' THE CHAINS! OFF WITH THEIR HANDS! OWN HANDS PRODUCTIONS! WHATEVER YOU BRING IN YOUR HOME, OR YOUR TOWN, MATTERS! ACTIVITY KEY. KILLER MOTIVES: THEY JUST WANTED TO CONTROL HER! POP POLAR. IMPOSSIBLE WHOPPER IS HERE! WE WISH YOU WERE HERE. I AM HERE. I HAVE BEEN HERE! OFF AND ON FOR THE LAST 7 YEARS! RADON SOLUTIONS. MISSOULA SLAVIC CHURCH KID'S CAMP. ALL WE KNOW IS ALL WE KNOW. THIS MUST BE JUST LIKE LIVING IN PARADISE. I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME . . . LUCY, YOU'VE GOT SOME 'SPLAINING TO DO. CREEPY CRAWLY FASCINATING FUN! THE VIDEOS! WHAT WOULD MAKE MY KIDS, TURN ON ME, AFTER A LIFETIME OF LOVE? SHELLEY OR THE LAZY CATS, TAKING TWO VIDEOS OUT OF CONTEXT! ALWAYS GET THE FACTS, FROM A TO Z BEFORE MAKING A JUDGEMENT, PARTICULARLY IF IT APPEARS TO BE THE TOTAL OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT YOUR MOTHER! PORN QUEEN STAR, #1, RIGHT AFTER, THE NOVEMBER 6TH OR 7TH 2012, PRESIDENTIAL ELECTIONS, BETWEEN MORMON MITT AND PRESIDENT OBAMA, THAT VERY NIGHT, HAVING WATCHED, OR HEARD THE OUTCOME, EARLY, ON, ME AND, JACK, SHELLEY GOES WITH ALL THE MEN, AFTER I REJECT THEM, OR SHE KNEW THEM AND THEY USED THEM TO SET ME UP! SO, JACK IS PISSED, ABOUT THE ELECTION, LIFE TIME REPUBLICAN, HE IS THE ONLY PERSON, I KNOW IN KALISPELL, MONTANA, MET HIM, DAYS BEFORE THE ELECTIONS, WE ATTENDED, A BIPARTISAN, WINE AND CHEESE, AFFAIR, TO WATCH THE ELECTIONS RESULTS AT THE CHILDREN'S MUSEUM, BUT, WE GOT IN A HEATED DEBATE, BEFORE GOING IN, AND HE WAS AFRAID I WOULD MAKE A SCENE IF, PRESIDENT OBAMA LOST, AS HE PREDICTED, AND PLANNED. I KNEW AND HAD WORKED, WITH SENATOR, TESTER, AND HIS CREW, EVEN HAD THE WHOLE OBAMA, ADMINISTRATION ON MY PERSONAL EMAIL, SO, NO HEARING THAT PREZ. O WON, AND MITT, WHO, ALONG WITH THE MORMONS, MOBSTERS, AND, MEN IN BLACK , PLUS DOWN LINE COPS, WERE LIKELY TO BE PISSED, NOT ME! I LEFT JACK IN THE CAR, GOT UP THE STAIRS, AND SOME, LADY, HEAD, BOWED, MAYBE CRYING, SAID, PRESIDENT OBAMA WON. GREAT! $118 MILLION DOLLARS OF MINE, WAS STOLEN FOR MITT'S CAMPAIGN, I AM THRILLED, I STARED DANCING UNDER THE SINGLE LIGHT BULB ON THE LANDING OF THE STAIRS! JACK WAS PISSED, AND, AFTER FIGHTING OVER THE ELECTIONS FOR AN HOUR OR TWO, MY CAR, WAS LOW ON GAS, AND I WAS LOW ON FUNDS, AS NORMAL, DRIVING BACK AND FORTH TO UTAH, FINISHING MY CASES, SPENDING ABOUT $1,000 PER MONTH ON GAS. WE PULLED AROUND THE CORNER, TO THE PARK, ACROSS FROM THE RED LION, AND THE CAR DIED! JACK VOLUNTEERED, TO GO GET SOME MONEY FOR GAS, AS, I JUST SAT THERE GLOATING OVER THE ELECTIONS, NOT EVEN WORRIED ABOUT MY CAR, WHICH WAS PARKED NEAR THE INTERSECTION OF THE MAIN STREET, BUT, KALISPELL, SIDEWALKS ROLL UP AFTER, 8:00 PM, SO, I WAS NOT WORRIED, NOT EVEN WORRIED AS SOME OFFICER, CAME, PULLED BEHIND ME, AND, WE TALKED ELECTION STUFF, HE WAS JUST AS HAPPY AS I WAS, WE TALKED SHOP, AND FINALLY, HE SAID, I AM GOING TO PARK BEHIND YOU, UNTIL YOUR FRIEND COMES WITH THE GAS . . . JACK NEVER SHOWED! POOR LOSER, FORMER, FOOTBALL COACH, BUT, I WAS SO HAPPY, THAT I WASN'T EVEN UPSET, WHEN THE OFFICER SAID HE HAD TO HAVE MY CAR TOWED. THE TOW TRUCK DRIVER WE NICE, AND HE SAID, HE WOULDN'T CHARGE ME A SHIT LOAD, SEEING HE WAS OUT IN COLUMBIA FALLS, WHICH, I DIDN'T KNOW THEN, WAS, A BIT OUT OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD. THE NEXT DAY, I FOUND JACK AND RIPPED HIM A NEW ONE. INTERSECTION WITH THE RUSSIAN MOB . . . SO, WE WERE LOOKING FOR, WHATEVER, AND THIS MASSIVE, 6'7" DIMETRI WITH A RUSSIAN ACCENT, FINDS, JACK AND REMINDS HIM, HE IS IN FACT, HIS SON-IN-LAW! OH. NOW, I DIDN'T GET A CHECK FOR ABOUT, ANOTHER, WEEK OR SO, SO, MY CAR, WAS GOING TO BE IMPOUNDED, FOR A WHILE. JACK NEEDED SOME PAPERS HE LEFT IN MY CAR, AND, I LOOKED AT THE IMPOUND AND FEES, AS HIS FAULT, SO . . . DIMETRI WHO WANTED TO HELP JACK, PAID FOR THE IMPOUND FEES, OF $150.00. DIMITRI TOOK OVER JACK'S LIFE FOR A FEW DAYS, BUT, AS THE NOVEMBER, WEATHER IN KALISPELL, STARTED TO TURN COLD, ME, WITH NO WHERE TO LIVE, LATER, RENTED FROM, A CLIENT'S KID, ON OREGON STREET, BUT AT THE TIME, I WAS SLEEPING IN MY CAR, SO, BEFORE, THE CAR WAS OUT, I WAS, FUCKING FREEZING! I BELIEVE THIS WAS ON PURPOSE, THIS WHOLE FUCKING THING, PLANNED, TO TRY TO COMPROMISE ME! SO, JACK GOT A ROOM, PAID FOR BY DIMETRI, AT THE COMFORT INN, NEAR THE MCDONALD'S, ME, JACK AND NOW, SAM, HAD, DIET COKE AND COFFEE AT EACH MORNING. JACK PROMISED ME, THAT HE WOULD GET TWO ROOMS, NO FUNNY BUSINESS. SO, I SHOWED UP, AND, HE SMILED, AS THE WINTER, WIND BLEW, OUTSIDE, AND SAID, I DREW YOUR BATH FOR YOU? YOU WHAT. I LOOKED IN THE ROOM AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE BED! WHAT THE FUCK. JACK? I WON'T TOUCH YOU. THE BATH DOES SOUND GOOD. TV ON, JACK SAID, "IF YOU THINK FOR ONE SECOND, I AM GOING TO SLEEP WITH A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, IN THE SAME BED AND NOT TOUCH HER, YOUR CRAZY. WE MESSED AROUND A BIT, NOTHING MUCH. QUICK-N-DIRTY SURVIVAL! CAR WAS STILL NOT OUT, YET. DIMETRI IS MOVING ME TO THE BLUE AND WHITE MOTEL . . . YOU CAN STAY WITH ME AGAIN IF YOU WANT. 20 BELOW ZERO OR A WARM MOTEL ROOM? A GIRL HAS TO DO WHAT SHE HAS TO DO, WITHIN REASON! LOL. I KNEW I WAS BEING TRACKED AND I WAS UNDER SURVEILLANCE, SINCE LEAVING, UTAH, AND THE HEAT WAS ON ME, FROM, THE SECOND, I TALKED, AT THE WHITEFISH, MEETING, IN OCTOBER, OF 2012, ABOUT, THE FBI RAIDS ON THE MEDICAL MARIJUANA GROWERS, NOT KNOWING, THAT, A BUNCH OF THEM WERE WAITING SENTENCING, AND THE ACLU, WAS, CONDUCTING THE MEETING, SHOWING THE WAR OVER MEDICAL MARIJUANA . . . JACK, PICKED UP ON ME, THE FIRST BUS RIDE I TOOK, AFTER PARKING MY CAR, IN THE WALMART PARKING LOT, WITH, FOUR COP CARS, SCANNING THE PARKING LOT, LOOKING LIKE THEY WERE LOOKING FOR SOMEONE . . . ME, PROBABLY! JACK PROMISED IF I WAS WITH HIM, I WOULD BE SAFE? TO PROMISE SOMETHING LIKE THAT, HE HAD TO BE MOB OR BRASS ASS COP, OR FED! FIRST NIGHT, NOTHING MUCH, BUT, I THOUGHT, THERE WAS SURVEILLANCE, JUST THE WAY THE TV LIGHT WAS ON, AND, JUST THE WHOLE THING, BUT, ICE ON THE PUMPKIN, OUTSIDE WAS NOT TOO, INVITING! IN THE MORNING, I NOTICED, TWO WHITE VANS, PARKED ON BOTH SIDES OF OUR ROOM, A MONTANA, COMPANY, BUT THE VANS, HAD UTAH LICENSE PLATES ON THEM! SCREAM. MITT'S MONSTERS ARE ON ME EVEN UP HERE. THE NEXT NIGHT, HOWEVER, JACK, WHO HAD BEEN RATHER TAME, THE NIGHT BEFORE, WANTED ME TO SWITCH, SIDES OF THE BED . . . HE IS A LARGE MAN, AND, PROBABLY BLOCKED ANY VIEW OF ME! QUICK-N-DIRTY SURVIVAL! NOTHING MORE THAN, MY BACK, WAS EVER EXPOSED TO THE VIDEO, THAT I THOUGHT MIGHT BE HAPPENING, BUT, WASN'T EXACTLY SURE, BUT HE LEFT THE BATHROOM DOOR LIGHT ON, AND, WE CHANGED SIDE, SO I WAS SURE TO KEEP THE SHEET OVER ME! SO IF IT WAS RAUNCHY, SOME OTHER, PORN STAR, MIGHT HAVE BEEN ACTING MY DOUBLE! OLD MORMON, BYU, CHURCH UNIVERSITY SAYING, "STAY MORAL, GO ORAL!" WHATEVER. 20 DEGREES BELOW ZERO IS LESS INVITING, BUT NOT MUCH, AND I DID LIKE HIM AT FIRST! I THOUGHT IF THESE JACK ASSES ARE WATCHING, I AM GOING TO MAKE THEM ALL JEALOUS! TWO BLOW JOBS ON HUSBAND, THAT WAS MY EXPERIENCE. I DID ONE AND HE KEPT BEGGING, FOR MORE, SAYING HE WAS GOING TO HAVE TO MARRY ME, AND, WHATEVER, BLATHER HE WAS SPOUTING, I THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY, THAT IF HE WAS A SEX TRAINER, FOR THE FBI OR THE CIA, HE WAS LOOKING THE FOOL NOT ME! LOL. PRO REVERSED THE STING, MAKING HIM, THE LOSER! THERE WAS NOT A DAMNED THING, ANYONE COULD HAVE SEEN, OTHER THAN, MY HEAD, WITH MY BACK COVERED WITH, SHEET! SO????? DID THEY BUD OVER IT? MAKE IT MORE STEAMY? THEY DID THAT WITH, MY SPEECH, TO THE FEDERATION OF REPUBLICAN WOMEN, AT THE MONTANA STATE CAPITOL. VIDEO TRICKS? SHELLEY IN THE LEADING ROLE, GOT REAL DOWN AND DIRTY WITH A WIG, AND COSMETIC, AND NAME GAMES? SHE WAS WITH HIM, AFTER I WAS, JUST LIKE WITH JERRY, TONY, MICHAEL, AND COWBOY. NOW THIS MIGHT SHED SOME LIGHT ON , THE CURRENT SITUATION. COWBOY HIT ON ME, A YEAR AND A HALF AGO, I BELIEVE AROUND CHRISTMAS, BUT I TOOK OFF TO SEATTLE. WE CONNECTED AGAIN, A FEW MONTHS, LATER, BUT THERE WAS, NO BIG, DEAL BETWEEN US. WHEN, I CAME BACK, IN MAY OR SOMETHING, HE SHOWED UP, AGAIN, AND WE, HAD DINNER TOGETHER, AND TOOK THE RIDE, WENT SHOPPING, THAT IS IT! NO BIG DEAL. BUT I GOT THE GUT FEELING THAT, SHELLEY WAS LURKING, IN THE BACKGROUND SOMEWHERE, SO THAT, THE LIPTRIX, COULD START, AS THEY HAD WITH ALL THE MEN, SINCE MY DIVORCE, FROM, JERRY TO BRETT, AND NOW FOLLOWING ME UP TO MONTANA! SHE WAS THE ONE WHO, WENT TO THANKSGIVING, DINNER IN PENNSYLVANIA, AND I BELIEVE WAS THE STOW AWAY! I GET BLAMED! I WENT TO UTAH! LEFT JACK AT THE CASINO, ALONE, DIDN'T EVEN TELL HIM, I WAS LEAVING! SHELLEY IS THE LIKELY PORN STAR, NOT ME! (2) NOW, MILES AND I MET, IN MAY OF 2013, SO NOT A FLY BY NIGHT RELATIONSHIP BY ANY MEANS. HE IS THE "ONLY" MAN, IN ALMOST, 12 YEARS, SINCE LEAVING HUSBAND #3, THAT I HAVE HAD SEX WITH, AND MAYBE, LESS THAN, MAYBE, 5 OR 6 TIMES, THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN, MAKING LOVE AND HAVING SEX, OR BETWEEN, HAVING SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU LOVE, AND JUST HAVING SEX! WE DID AND STILL DO CARE DEEPLY ABOUT EACH OTHER . . . THERE FORE EACH OTHER, OVER THE YEARS, WHEN, NEITHER ONE OF US, HAD ANYONE ELSE TO RELY ON! I BELIEVE HE WAS LIKELY FORCED TO VIDEO, HE WAS BEING FOLLOWED FROM, SPOKANE, TO SEATTLE AFTER, WE MET . . . MY COMPUTERS ARE HACKED ALL THE TIME, WATCHED AND MONITORED, AND MY PHONES, TEXTS, OF LOVE, MIGHT LEAD THEM, TO HIM, AND BLACKMAIL HIM FOR THIS OR THAT? ONE TIME, HE TOLD ME HE WAS MEETING ME IN 5 MINUTES, AFTER HE GOT OFF WORK, I WAS AT MCDONALD'S WRITING MY BLOG, BUT, THEN, HE CALLED ME, AND SAID HE WAS IN TACOMA? WHAT THE FUCK? THE LAST TIME WE WERE WITH EACH OTHER, WAS THE NIGHT, THAT OUR LOVE MAKING, SESSION, PRETTY, MUCH, FOLLOWED A PREDICTABLE PATTERN, LIKE MOST PEOPLE, I AM NOT THAT ADVENTURESOME NOR EXPERIENCED, AND, DON'T EVEN KNOW, WHY WERE WERE HAVING SEX, OTHER THAN, WHO WAS COMPLAINING!? LOL. BUT WE HAD NOT SEEN EACH OTHER FOR 4 YEARS. DID HE GET MARRIED? HE WANTED ME TO MOVE IN WITH HIM? I GOT A GUT FEELING THAT, NO MAN IN HIS RIGHT MIND WOULD TURN DOWN, CASUAL SEX, UNLESS, HE HAD, SOMEONE ELSE IN TACOMA? ON WEEKENDS HE WOULD SAY HE WAS GOING TO VISIT HIS BROTHER TO DO MUSIC . . . . TWICE I GOT UP TO GO DROP IN FOR SOME EARLY MORNING DELIGHT, BUT, I SAW, YOUNG BLACK CHICKS, WITH BABIES, BEFORE, REACHING THE PINK ELEPHANT ON DENNY, WHERE MILES, LIVED, ON JOHN! I ALWAYS STOPPED, AND WONDERED ABOUT THAT, MCDONALD'S INCIDENT. I DON'T DO MARRIED PEOPLE! I DON'T THINK, THAT WOULD HAVE STOPPED, MILES, I THINK WE BOTH, LOVE EACH OTHER TO THIS DAY. I THINK OF THAT SONG, LET'S GET IT ON . . . HOW CAN IT BE WRONG IF WE LOVE EACH OTHER? I COULDN'T DO THAT TO HIS WIFE, IF HE HAD ONE! LAST TIME, I HAD SEX WAS WITH HIM, MARCH OF WHAT, 2017. I JUST DON'T SLEEP AROUND! JUST BEFORE, I STOPPED SEEING MILES, HE TOLD ME THAT, SOME, BLOND, WITH BIG BOOBS, WAS HANGING AROUND HIS APARTMENT PLACE . . . HERE WE GO AGAIN, RACHEL! SCREAM. CIA KISS AND TELL GAMES, OR VIDEIO SUBSTITUTE FOR THE STAR OF MY LIFE AND MOVIE? WAS HIE IN ON IT? HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS ABOVE THE CIA, WHEN, I MET HIM! I STARTED TO NOT TRUST HIM, THEN, THE NIGHT, HE SEEMED TO BE PLAYING TO THE CAMERAS, THEN, THE INFRARED MARKS IN THE ALLEY, THIS AND THAT, AND I STOPPED SEEING HIM OR TAKING HIS PHONE CALLS! HE IS NOT THE FIRST GUY TO BE BOUGHT, BY THE MOB! I WOULDN'T DOUBT IT HE WAS, WITH, RACHEL, KAY AND SHELLEY, AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER! THEY HAVE MY MONEY. MONEY CAN'T BUY YOU LOVE. BASED ON HIS PHONE CALLS OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS, UP TO AN INCLUDING THE LAST FEW MONTHS, HE MISSES, THE LOVE, NOT THE SEX. SO, PAINTING ME LIKE A WHORE, SHOWING MY KIDS WHO KNOW LITTLE OF WHAT I HAVE DONE UP IN MONTANA AND WASHINGTON, SURE, I CAN SEE, THEM, FREAKING OUT, AND BEING DISGUSTED, BY, WHAT THEY MIGHT HAVE BEEN TOLD WAS ME! ME? NOT SO MUCH. I AM WORTH, MORE THAN A FUCKING BLOW JOB! MILES, IT WAS LOVE. HE HAS TO ANSWER FOR WHAT HE DID? I WOULDN'T PUT BLACKMAIL, BEYOND THE GIRLS, NOT FOR ONE SECOND, WIFE IN TACOMA? I BET HE LOVES HER AND MIGHT HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR MUCH LONGER THAN I KNOW? MISS HIM. SOB.