ROUGHNECK. WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO, DROP A HOUSE ON YOU? THE WIZARD OF OZ! LET'S MAKE CONNECCTING THE DOTS A BIT EASIER, FOR COPS TO PROVE, THAT, I WAS POISONED AND BY WHOM, BACK IN THE FALL OF 1999, WHILE, GENERAL COUNSEL, AT THE UTAH MEDICAL ASSOCIATION, PROFESSOR OF FAMILY LAW, AT THE UNIVERSITY OF UTAH, WHERE MY SON, ELLIOT, WILL BE GRADUATING FROM, MAY 5, 2017, A BUSINESS OWNER, AND ONLINE PROFESSOR, NOT BAD, AND A GREAT RESUME TO KILL FOR, AND TO DIE FOR, RIGHT? NCIS: "THE WALL" . . . THIS CONNECTED, TWO CRITICAL DOTS FOR ME, THE VIETNAM WAR, AND A DEADLY POISON, BECAUSE, ONE OF MY CLIENTS, LATER, SUPPOSE TO BE HUSBAND, ALLAN REX BESS, WHO WAS MURDERED, BY DIA OFFICER, NORAD, AND OTHER, MILITARY, UNDERCOVER AGENTS, INCLUDING, FRANK, OF INTERPOL, KILLED FOR KNOWING TOO MUCH, AND BEING ABLE TO SUBSTANTIATE MY CLAIMS THAT I WAS, IN, DEED, POISONED BACK IN ROUGHLY 2000, WITH THE ENDGAME DEATH! MY MARINE, COWBOY, BIKER, HUSBAND, MARRIED BY PROXY, THROUGH A GOVERNMENT ASSHOLE, NOW MARRIED TO SHELLEY, CLAIMING SHE IS ME, LOL, WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT, AND JOKE, THAT HAG, COULDN'T BE ME IN A BILLION, YEARS, BUT IT WAS WORTH A BILLION DOLLARS, STILL IS, PROBABLY, MADE, BETWEEN $15 MILLION TO $30 MILLION, ON THE THREE BLOGS I WROTE YESTERDAY! LOL! I NEVER GET A DIME, WHY DO YOU THINK THEY STEAL, LIE, CHEAT, BEG, BORROW, BRIBE, THREATHEN, AND KILL? WELL WORTH IT TO THEM! BUT, THE "REAL" ALLAN, NOT THE "REEL" FRANK, THE "FAKE" ALLAN, TOLD ME, AS A MARINE, AND HE WAS, I-CORP. OR INTELLIGENCE CORP., SO PRIVY, TO ALL KINDS OF INFORMATION AND INTELLIGENCE, LIKE THE CHEMICAL OR POISONS, USED ON THE VIET KONG. NOW I WAS TOLD BY THREE COPS, BEHIND THE BLUE BROTHERHOOD, OF THE FRATERNAL ORDER OF THE POLICE, AT THE TIME I WAS POISONED BUT NO LONGER, IN THAT SICK, FUCKED, UP, ORDER OF THE PENIS, THAT WOULD SUPPORT, A SHELLEY, KAY, RACHEL, SUE, MARCIE, TIFFANY, OR ANY FAKE TIT ASS BITCHES, PRETENDING TO BE ME, LAW ENFORCEMENT, WHAT A CLOWN ASS JOKE! GOD? BUT, IN THE NCIS EPISODE, ALL DEALING WITH NAVY CRIME INVESTIGATION SERVICE, OR WHATEVER, I HAVEN'T WATCHED IT THAT MUCH, BUT IT DID YESTERDAY, AND SO GRATEFUL, BUT, THE INSTANT DEATH OF A YOUNG SOLDIER, CONNECTED WITH A GROUP, CALLED, "HONOR FLIGHT" AND MORE SIGNIFICANCE TO THAT NAME, TOO, BUT, THEY WOULD FIND, VIETNAM, VETS, FLY THEM TO WASHINGTON, D.C., TO "THE WALL" THE NAME OF THE EPISODE, SO THEY COULD, READ THE NAMES OF THEIR FELLOW SOLDIERS, COMRADS IN ARMS, PLATTON AND SQUADRON, BUDDIES FROM VIETNAM, WHO DIDN'T MAKE IT BACK FROM THE WAR. TWO PEOPLE IN THE EPISODE WHERE POISONED, BOTH THROUGH INJECTIONS, AND BOTH, WITH THE TOXIN, POISON, "BOTULINUM" ONE OF THE MOST POISONOUS BIOLOGICAL SUBSTANCES KNOW, IS A NEUROTOZIN PRODUCED BY THE BACTERIUM CLOSTRIDIUM BOTULINUM. THERE BACTERIA, ELABORATES, 8 ANTIGENICALLY DISTINGUISHABLE TOXINS. I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS DOWN BELOW, BUT, THE FAST NATURE OF THE DEATHS, AND THE CONNECTION TO VIETNAM, MADE ME WONDER, IF THE POISON, THAT I WAS POISONED WITH, DISGUISED AS PICK'S DISEASE, OR A TERMINAL BRAIN DISEASE, WAS THE SAME, AGENT, AS THE ONE, USED TO KILL, THE SOLDIER, AND THE WOMAN, WHO WORKED AT A FORMICA PLANT, WHERE THE KILLER, WORKED. THE NCIS OFFICERS WERE ABLE TO FINALLY, GET, SOMETHING OUT OF THE VET, ABOUT A WOMAN, WHO, BUMPED UP, AGAINST THE YOUNG SOLDIER, WHO DIED, SHORTLY THEREAFTER, AND WHO ALSO, BEGGED THE VET, TO ALLOW HER TO TAKE THE CAB, SINCE SHE WOULD BE LATE FOR WORK. THE OTHER VICTIM, WORKED WITH THIS KILLER, AND WAS READY TO EXPOSE, UNETHICAL AND COMPROMISED, CORRUPTION, COOKING THE BOOKS, AND OTHER CRIMES, WHEN SHE WAS KILLED, AND SHE HAD CALLED THIS EXCELLENT, SOLDIER, WHOM EVERY LOVED, HAD NO ENEMIIES, BUT HE DID WORK AT A SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE, AND THAT IS THE CONNECTION TO THE CHICK, WHO WAS ALSO KILLED! SO, I GOT OFF THE NCIS SITE, CURIOUS ABOUT THE POISON, ONLY MENTIONED, ONCE, AND FOUND IN THE SOIL, OF THE SOLDIERS SHOES, AND THE VICTIM HAD WRITTEN, "FORM" BEFORE SHE EXPIRRED. BUT, AFTER READING, THE NATURE AND CHARACTERISTICS OF THE POISON, THE DIFFERENT STRAINS, THE DISEASES THAT CAN BE CAUSED BY THE BOTULINUM, OTHER COSMETIC USES, THE USE OF SMALL AMOUNTS OF THAT, IN BOTOX, ALSO, CONNECTED TO BOTULISM, POISON, ASSOCIATED WITH MAINLY, CHICKEN, WHEN, NOT COOKED, LONG ENOUGH, OR WHEN IT IT LEFT OUT, AND NOT REFRIDGERATED. BUT, THE SYMPTOMS, WERE WHAT STRUCK ME, THE MOST, THAT OF "RESPIRATORY" FAILURE, LEADING TO HEART ATTACKS! NOW, MOST, TERMINAL ILLNESSES, COME ON GRADUALLY, AND YOU START TO GET SYMPTOMS, THAT START TO APPEAR . . . YOU DON'T JUST GET IN YOUR CAR, PERFECTLY HEALTHY, ONE AFTERNOON, IN ABOUT, OCTOBER OF 1999, AND SUDDENLY, START HAVING, WHAT I THOUGHT, WERE "PANIC ATTACKS" AND THE LACK OF ABILITY TO BREATHE, IMMEDIATELY, OPENING MY CAR WINDOW AND LITERALLY, SUCKING AIR IN, NOT ABLE TO BREATHE, AND JUST FREAKING OUT, WITH MY HEAD OUT OF THE WINDOW, GASPING FOR AIR! I THOUGHT, I HAD, SOME TYPE OF CLOSERPHOBIA, FELT, CLOSED IN, WONDERED IF I HAD, SUNLIGHT DEFICIENCY, DISEASE, BUT, I REMEMBER IN THE DAYS AFTER THE POISONING, TAKING MY CHAIR OUTSIDE, NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATHE INSIDE THE UTAH MEDICAL ASSOCIATION BUILDING, THE OLD ONE, ON ABOUT 500 SOUTH, AND 500 EAST, IN SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH! I WAS USED TO SPACIOUS, OFFICES THAT OVERLOOKED, THE WHOLE SALT LAKE VALLEY, FROM THE CAPITOL BUILDING AND I WENT TO A 70'S ENERGY, SHIT WHOLE, SMALL BUILDING WITH, A "U" SHAPED DESK, LOOKING AT A PARKING LOT! SCREAM! UTAH WAS MY OFFICE, WHILE WORKING FOR THE UTAH ATTORNEY GENERALS OFFICE AND THE DIVISION OF AGING, SO, THIS CRAMPED QUARTERS, I ATTRIBUTED TO MY CONDITION, THAT WORSENED, AS TIME WENT BY, JUST LIKE THE CHARACTERISTICS OF THE POISON! NOW, SISTER, SHELLEY, THE MOB, MORMON, MAFIA, GOVERNMENT, FBI, APPOINTED, REPLACEMENT FOR ME, CAN'T WASTE THAT GREAT RESUME, ON A DEAD WOMAN, WE CAN'T CONTROL AND WHO MIGHT, BE TOP COP, OR CONGRESSWOMAN, GOD FORBID, IS OUT AND THE GOVERNMENT RAT, BITCH, THE BIOLOGIST, WHO WORKED FOR A PLASTIC SURGEON, HAD BOTOX, TREATMENTS, AND TONS OF PLASTIC SURGERY, WHO ALSO WORKED FOR A PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANY, WOULD, HAVE READ UP, ON THIS BOTOX, THE HEALTH RISKS, THE POSSIBLE LETHAL DOSES, THE EXPERIMENTS WITH CERTAIN, STRAINS AND TYPES THAT CAUSE DISEASE, AND ALSO, THAT IN HEAVIER DOSES, THE NATURAL TOXIN, IS, LETHAL AND KILLED, 50% OF THE LAB RATS AND MICE THAT WERE EXPERIMENTED ON. THE PERFECT MURDER? I THINK THE ONLY REASON, I DIDN'T DIE, IS THAT, MY EXPOSURE, TOUCHING THE STEERING WHEEL OF MY CAR, WHERE THE POISON WAS ADMINISTERED, EITHER DIDN'T HAVE A PROPER DOSE TO KILL ME, OR PERHAPS THE DISEASE WAS THE GOAL, BUT, I ONLY LIVED, RIGHT UP THE STREET, ON 5TH EAST, SO THE TIME TOUCHING THE STEERING WHEEL, WAS PROBABLY NOT LONG ENOUGH FOR THE DOSE TO KILL ME! IF WAS ADD ALL THE DOTS, THE CLAIM, I HAVE HAD, AND COPS, SUPPORTED, NOW, MY PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS, WHO OUTRIGHT TOLD ME I WAS POISONED, HAVE A COMMON, ELEMENT, SHELLEY. SHELLEY + BIOLOGY MAJOR + WORKING FOR A PLASTIC SURGEON + ACCESS TO BOTOX + INFORMATION PROVIDED FOR DOCTORS ON NON-LETHAL AND LETHAL DOSES + LIVING IN THE AREA + A GOVERNMENT RAT + COMPROMISED PERSON WITH SHIT HANGING OVER HER HEAD + THE SECOND GOVERNMENT MONEY MAKER FOR COPS, GOING DOWN THE TUBE, DUE TO LITTLE SISTER + SISTER LOOKING SOMEWHAT ALIKE, ALTHOUGH, SHELLEY, IS BRUNETTE, HAZEL EYES, AND STANDS A GOOD 3 INCHES, TALLER THAN, ME, SISTERS, CAN WITH WIGS, CONTACTS, AND OTHER PROPS, LOOK, SOMEWHAT ALIKE + RUNNING IN THE CIRCLES OF THE UTAH ATTORNEY GENERAL, DUE TO RATTING ON SECURITIES ALLEGATIONS AGAINST HER, HER HUSBAND, AT THE TIME, AND HER BOSS, A MAFIA BOSS + MY SON, ELLIOT, HIS BAND, "PARALLAX" . . . NAME CAME FROM COMIC BOOK CHARACTERS, OR SUPER HEROES, HE WAS WAY INTO THAT, AND I JUST LEARNED THAT YESTERDAY! BUT, HE WAS ROCKIN OUT CD'S, IN THE GRUNGE HEAVY METAL SCENE, PLAYING SMALL CONCERTS, COTTAGE UNDERGROUND, SEEING BIG MUSIC DEALS, AND CONCERTS AS SELLLING OUT, BUT WITH THAT MUSIC MARKET EXPLODING, AND THIS LITTLE BAND, WAS ROCKIN' PORTLAND, AND THE WEST COAST! THAT IS WHEN, THE COPS, I BELIEVE, AND THE FIREFIGHTERS, PARTICIPATED, IN THE FOUR MURDERS, AT THE "PROVO DEATH CAVE" WITH FOUR YOUNG PEOPLE, DEEP IN THE MUSIC SCENE IN PROVO AND SALT LAKE, DYING IN AN UNDERWATER CAVE, THAT MY SONS HAD BOTH BEEN, IN AND WERE INVITED AFTER ONE OF EL'S CONCERTS, THAT, HE DIDN'T GO, BUT, THERE WAS A 5TH DUDE, WHO DIDN'T GO IN THE CAVE, THAT NIGHT, STOOD WATCH, I BELIEVE, BLOCKED THE EXIT, BLOCKING A GIRL IN THE PASSAGEWAY, AND THE OTHER THREE FOUND, IN THE CAVE, RUNNING OUT OF AIR, UNABLE TO GET OUT! THE KID WAS FROM, RENO, NEVADA, WHERE MY BROTHER, RICHARD WENT ON A MORMON MISSION, HE WAS ONLY TWO YEARS YOUNGER THAN, I AM, AND HE WOULD HAVE GONE AT 19, SHELLEY ALSO, LIVED IN CARSON CITY, NEVADA, A CONNECTION TO THE KID, WITH ISAAC, INTO THE MUSIC SCENE, ALL THE SAME FRIENDS, BUT, EVERY BAND, ELLIOT JOINED, WHEN, BIG, AND ISAACS, NEVER DID, OR HE DROPPED OUT, BEFORE THEY GOT BIG, LIKE "MARALOKA" . . . I BELIEVE, THEY WANTED TO EXPLOIT THE YOUNG BAND, WITH CHARISMATIC AND HANDSOME BLAKE DONNOR, BEING 27, THE MAGICAL AGE OF JIM MORRISON, JIMMY HENDRIX, JANIS JOPLIN, AND KURT COBANE, OF NIRVANA. I THINK ORIGINALLY, THEY WANTED TO GET RID OF ME, AND ELLIOT'S DAD, SO THEY COULD GET AT THE MUSIC, MARKETING IT UNDERGROUND, AND THEY WERE KICKIN' CD'S OUT LIKE CANDY! BLAKE WAS MOBBED, BY KIDS, WHO ALL GRABBED THE MIC, AND SANG WITH HIM, HE ALMOST HAD A CULT LIKE CHARM, THAT, KIDS WERE MESMERIZED BY. ELLIOT WAS A SHY, BACKGROUND, BASS GUITARIST, BUT THE CREATIVE GENIUS, BEHIND A LOT OF THE MUSIC, LYRICS, AND RHYTHMS! BOTH OF MY BOYS WERE INVITED TO THE CAVE THAT NIGHT, AFTER A CONCERT, BUT LUCKILY, THEY DECLINED THE OFFER, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN, THAT THER WERE NO SINISTER, NOTIONS IN MOTION THAT NIGHT, WHO MAY HAVE THOUGHT, MY SONS WERE IN THE CAVE! BUT, THE KID FROM RENO, DIDN'T GO TO THE COPS, HE WENT AND GOT ELLIOT, WHO, CONTACTED THE COPS! FIREFIGHTERS AND COPS, RESPONDED AND ELLIOT, TRIED TO GO IN THE CAVE AND THEY TOLD HIM THEY WOULD ARREST HIM! HE WAS FURIOUS AND SAID, THEY COULD HAVE BEEN STILL ALIVE, IN THE CAVE, AND HE KNEW IT WELL. ELLIOT TOLD ME, THAT, HE WAS BLOCKED AND IT TOOK ANOTHER, 6 HOURS, FROM THE TIME, HE REPORTED THE INCIDENT, FOR THEM TO GO IN AND BRING THE BODIES OUT! ONE HELL OF SENSATIONAL STORY, TO ADD TO THE LURE OF THE MUSIC, TRAGEDY, THE MAGICAL NUMBER, THE CHARISMATIC, BLAKE, AND THE PLAYERS, INVOLVED, COPS AND FIREFIGHTERS, ALL WORKING TOGETHER, ALL INVOLVED, IN A CASE I ALMOST TOOK, A CHEMICAL PLANT OWNER, USED TO WORK WITH THE DEA, DECIDED TO STOP DEALING WITH THEM, THEY WERE STEALING MONEY AND TAKING CHEMICALS BACK TO HIS PLANT, TO RETURN, THE CHEMICALS FOR MORE MONEY . . . FIREFIGHTERS AND COPS, SAME CREW, INVOLVED, BLOCKED, MR. PARRISH, FROM PUTTING OUT THE FIRE, SET, AT HIS CHEMICAL PLANT, WHEN HE WOULD PLAY WITH THE DEA ANY MORE, WITH THE FIGHTFIGHTERS, WHO WORK WITH COPS ALL THE TIME, BLOCKING PARRISH AND SAYING "BURN, BABY BURN" THREATENING TO ARREST, THE OWNER, IF HE PUT THE FIRE OUT, HE SAID, COULD HAVE BEEN PUT OUT WITH A GARDEN HOSE, ALLOWED TO BURN A SMOLDER, FOR TWO WEEKS, AS THE NEWS, BLAMED, PARRISH, WHILE, COPS OR OTHERS, WERE SEEN BY THE MAYOR OF VINEYARD, ON TOP OF HIS BUILDING WITH AXES, PUTTING HOLES IN THE ROOF TO MAKE IT BURN FASTER AND MORE! THE CHEMICAL PLANT WAS ABOUT TH SIX OF COSTCO OR WALMART, NO SMALL OPERATION! ISAAC, WAS ELLIOT'S CLOSEST COUSIN, BUT HE WAS ALSO A RIVAL, THEY SHARED FRIENDS, SHARED BANDS, AND SHARED MUSIC, BUT, ELLIOT, DID WHAT HIS MOMMY DID, ME, WE EARNED OUR PLACES, EXPERTISE, AND GIFTS IN MUSIC AND THE LAW, EARNED AND NEVER GIVEN, BUT SHELLEY AND ISAAC HOOKED UP WITH THE COPS, WHO MUSCLED, US, OUT, STEALING ALL THE PRODUCTS, RESUMES, MUSIC, AND TRIED TO DESTROY THE AUTHOR, THE ATTORNEY, THE MUSIC GENIUS, WHO WILL BE GRADUATING FROM THE UNIVERSITY OF UTAH, WHERE I TAUGHT, FAMILY LAW FOR, 6 OR 7 YEARS, AT THE SAME TIME I WORKED AS AN ASSISTANT ATTORNY GENERAL, STAFF ATTORNEY, FOR THE DIVISION OF AGING AND AS GENERAL COUNSEL FOR THE UTAH MEDICAL ASSOCIATION! SHORTLY AFTER I WAS POISONED, ELLIOT'S DAD, ZEKE OR RICHARD, PROVO CITY PLANNING DIRECTOR, OF TWO YEARS, WAS SUDDENLY, UP AND FIRED IN WHAT WAS ALLEGEDLY, THE NEW MAYOR'S PAYBACK, FOR SOMETHING, THAT SOMEONE, MY EX-HUSBAND, SUPERVISED, THAT HAD OFFENDED THE NEW MAYOR, AT A CITY COUNCIL MEETING TWO YEARS BEFORE? DOES THAT MAKE SENSE . . . MY MOTHER, SAID, IF ZEKE OR RICHARD, WOULD HAVE BEEN AN ACTIVE MORMON, HE WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED! NO SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE AND YOU CAN SEE, THE MENTALITY OF MY MOTHER, WHO WOULD HAVE EXPRESSED, MY FATHER'S POSITIONS, AND WHEN, WE HAD A GOLD MINE, IN ELLIOT, NOT TO MENTION, CHRIS WHO WAS DOING ELECTRONIC MUSIC, HIP HOP, RAP AND RECORD SCRATCHING, ON HIS COMPUTER, AND KEYBOARD, COULD BE EVERY BIT AS LUCRATIVE, AND TWO DAUGHTERS, GONE IN THE MILITARY, THE COPS, SHELLEY, THE MOB, THE FAMILY, THE MORMONS, THE GOVERNMENT, ALL WANTED THE KIDS, THEY WERE THE TARGET, UNTIL I STARTED MAKING MONEY AGAIN! YOU KNOW THE REST OF THE STORY. SO, NOW, I AM GOING TO GO INTO THE INTERESTING PART, WHAT HAPPENED, WHEN, I WAS POSIONED, MASKED AND DISGUISED AS A TERMIINAL BRAIN DISEASE THAT TOOK ME OUT OF THE GAME, NOT ONLY AS AN ATTORNEY, A POLITICAL THREAT TO COPS, BUT, TOOK ME OUT OF THE GAME AS MOTHER, FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS, AT A VERY CRITICAL JUNCTURE OF MY CHLDREN'S LIVES, BOTH BOYS, YOUNG TEENS, BOTH GIRLS IN THE MILITARY, AND BOTH MOM AND DAD, NEUTRALIZED, WITH NO JOBS AND NO INCOME . . . DESTABLIZING, THE BOYS, AND LEAVING THEM, ALMOST AS ORPHANS, GIVING THE TERRIBLE NATURE OF WHAT, HIT ME! RICHARD OR ZEKE, HAD JUST GOTTEN MARRIED TOO, SO, DEALING WITH THAT IN THE PROCESS! PRETTY SHITTY STUFF, ALL CLEAR POLITICS, AMERICAN GREED, VULTURES, JEALOUSY, ENVY, AND LOSERS, WHO WERE BEING REWARDED FRO BEING RATS, KILLERS, AND PAYBACK FOR ME, MY KILLING OF ASSET FORFEITURE, STOPPING ME FROM RUNNING FOR OFFICE, BEING TOP COP OR CONGRESSWOMAN, WHICH IS WHAT I REALLY WANTED . . . JUST FUCKING TOOK ME OUT OF THE GAME, ALMOST PERMENANTLY! FOR A BIOLOGIST, AND PLASTIC SURGERY BITCH, FULL OF STITCHES, SILICON TITS, BOTOX LIPS, THAT LOOKED LIKE DUCK LIPS, AND LIPO SUCTION. SHELLEY WAS LIVING AT "OLD FARMS CONDOS" A PROWSWOOD PROPERRTIES, IN SOUTH SALT LAKE, RIGHT AFTER GETTING, TONS OF SURGERY, REMINDS ME OF WHEN, RACHEL, ALSO GOT ABOUT $50,000 WORTH . . . BUILT TO SUIT? PROBABLY. ME, NEVER! FRIES BEFORE GUYS! I AM TOO SECURE TO FUCK WITH MY BODY, LIKE IT OR NOT! IF I GET COMPLIMENTS, I WANT TO KNOW I DESERVED OR EARNED THEM, KIND OF LIKE MY RESUME, EVERYTHING IS SYMBOLIC, I EARN, THEY STEAL, OR CHEAT, RATHER IT IS TO LOOK GOOD, OR TO BE AN ATTORNEY, THAT OLD , MORMON CIA, MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION . . . YOU WANT TO BE A COP? OK. YOU WANT TO BE AN ATTORNEY AND HAVE JOANN, OUT OF THE WAY? OK. YOU WANT TO GET CREDIT FOR ALL HER GREAT CASES, AND ISSAC GET ALL THE CREDIT FOR BEING HARD ROCK BAND OF 2008, SINCE, ELLIOT, LEFT ISAAC, LAZY ASS LIKE HIS MOMMY, ENTITLED, AND TOO STUPID TO DO IT THEMSSEVLES, BUT THE COPS, WILL JUST DO IT FOR THEM! FUCK? OKAY, FOR THE EXPOSE' ON BOTULINUM NEUROTOXIN CLOSTRIDIUM. YOU CAN FIND ALL THIS, AND MORE, ON THE INTERNET! I BELIEVE EVERYTHING IN READ ON THE INTERNET . . . WHO WOULD LIE ABOUT THIS SHIT? LOL! AMAZING, BUT MAKES TOTAL, SENSE, GIVEN THE FACT THAT SHELLEY WAS OBSESSED WITH HER LOOKS, ALWAYS WORKED IN SPAS, WITH FACIALS, OR PEOPLE WHO WERE ANETHSTATISTS, OR DID FACIAL ABRASIVE WORK, SHELLEY WANTED ME AND JERRY AT THE SAME TIME, TO GET, HER "RETIN A" FROM MEXICO, FOR FACIAL PEELS. SHELLEY ALWAYS WANTED TO BE RICH, HUNG OUT WITH THE PARK CITY CROWD, SUNDANCE FILM FESTIVAL, EVERY YEAR, AND LONGED FOR THAT, GAME, OF THE RICH AND FAMOUS . . . SHE FIGURED A WAY TO GET IT, BE ME! TOP 3, ALL ME! ONE LEGEND, THREE SIZES +!

BOTULINUM NEUROTOXIN CLOSTRIDIUM!

I am just going to bullet, out some of the information, on this poison, all natural, easy to buy on the Internet, given the fact that, strains of it, 8 of them, have been used for everything from medicine to cosmetics, given the dose, application, and what not.  Now that, I think about it, if Shelley, whom I refer to as the Bride of Frank(instein) or Frank of Interpol, assassins of Allan Rex Bess, with Frank taking Allan's place, and Shelley, taking my place as attorney, both parents of some of my kids, because, Shelley's are not good enough, or what they do is not sufficient bragging rights, and Shelley is suppose to be me, or is me?  Even if you took my brain out that dumb ass bitch, could be me . . when, I walk I the room she turns into a wallflower!  LOL!  I am sure wearing my mask for 17 years with all my degrees, honors and awards, she has morphed into, something much more than she was, just like, Jim Carey, did in the MASK!  LOL.  But, now that I know more about the shallow Hal's that work as cops, all her surgery and Botox treatments are starting to make sense . . . psychopaths, with permeate the alleged, hero, careers of military and law enforcement, are only focus on one thing, and that is the physical appearance of a person, their image.  That is why, I can beat them silly!  Too stupid for me, and they are only into, physical appearance, which, I had at the time, Shelley poisoned me, with the help of the FBI and the Utah Medical Association, someone had to have gotten into my LOCKED CAR!  COPS!  Shelley always bought off on that, appearance shit, I never needed to, I was naturally pretty, thin, at the time, did little to look, the way I did and Shelley's extensive surgery, fucked her looks up, in my opinion, she was much prettier, before!

THE MUMMY!  SCREAM!  ACCESS, ACCESS, ACCESS TO THE AGENT TO POISON!

This incident, comes to mind . . . Shelley had her kids, Jesse, Isaac, Alex and Ty, were all living out in the Holiday Area of south Salt Lake City, and she was working for, a Dr. Youngblood, a plastic surgeon, at the time--she  may have been living in his condo?  But, I had been working at the Attorney Generals Office, when, Shelley, turned her ex-husband and her boss in, and she showed up with a dead, black and white rat, that had been mailed to her, as a threat, but also as a sign of who she was working with, black and white, COPS!  I can't remember, exactly, where all this fits, into time, but, this incident is key, I was going to pick up, Shelley's boys, and often, on the weekends, we would switch off, kids, and Jesse and Isaac, would either come with me, or my sons', Chris and Elliot, would go stay with Shelley.  On this particular day, I showed up after work, and I think that particular day, I was dropping my boys at Shelley's place, because, Jesse, said, my Mom, wants to talk to you, and she needs you to stay for awhile.  What for?  Just wait and see.  Okay.  So, the boys, still young, all went to play, while I waited for an hour or so, and all the sudden, Shelley walked through the door, or who I assumed was Shelley, looking more like a MUMMY, all wrapped in white gauze from head to foot, face totally covered, all but her ponytail, that was sticking out of her early, Halloween costume!

I was speechless, when she walked through the door, and figured, working in domestic violence, at the time, having met, Dave Yeman, her man, who, even at their, engagement announcement, while Shelley was pregnant, with her stock broker's baby, that Victoria Secret shit, must work, but he slide his knees, in between mine, and I about had a heart attack, but didn't have the heart  to tell her . . . I probably should have saved her the grief!  But, it led her to being me!  Probably the best 17 years of her life!  LOL!  But, I assumed that Dave had beaten the shit out her.  I was furious!  What the fuck happened to you?  Only I didn't swear in those days.  I could see, the bruising, black and blue, eyes, mouth, and what little I could see, was major fucked up!  What did Dave do to you!  I want to know!  Shelley said, calm down, he got remarried, to this chick named, Anne, who used to either work for him, or was a secretary, and Shelley was so depressed, that, she had to do something, physical, to match the mental and emotional pain.  She got a face lift, blown up lips, new boob job, the works!  I was shocked, because, even now at 62, I would never consider, going under the knife, never!  Shelley also, tried talking me into a boob job, after Elliot and Isaac were born, while she was still living in Carson City . . . no, I just could not make a man that happy!  LOL!

I might have even been in law school at the time.  I remember thinking, what the hell, I think, Shelley, couldn't have been, even 40, only 15 or so months, older than, myself.  I was like, what are you thinking?  Crazy.  But, Shelley, had, a fascination with, looking good, and probably figured that Dave, left her, because of some flaw, Dave also, was vain and shallow, and had tons of plastic surgery too, and maybe he put her up to it, but fuck, that is for old ladies, at best, so what the fuck are you thinking or not thinking.  But, Shelley is definitely, okay with, nipping and tucking, to look better.  I think part of Shelley's pay, was in kind, plastic surgery, and easy access, to everything, vanity could want and buy, including, access to BOTOX, at Dr.Youngblood, whom, she stayed connected to, for years, and may have, even relied on him, financially, I think, I recall, that he was a witness too, during her work with the attorney generals office, making deals with Mark Griffith, and all the players, that later, I SUED! All happened before, 1999. 

In my $357 million securities law suit, end of 2009. amended complaint, 2010, and I remember, Shelley, asking me why I was suing all my friends, Utah Attorney General, Mark Shurtleff, and Francine Gianni, formerly with the Governors Office, teamed  on Elder Fraud and consumer issues, now, Francine was, director of the Department of Commerce over the Division of Securities, and I was like, they either violated, my clients' rights, or, they were responsible for oversight over them, and did nothing, even after, a legislative audit, found, that there were overzealous prosecutions and violations of due process, in taking away the securities licenses of 110 financial planners and securities dealers!  All the connections were made at this level, Shelley on the government rat side and me on the sue the fucking shit out of the motherfuckers!  LOL!  I don't think, I made all the connections between, Shelley being charged with securities fraud, turning state's evidence, like 10 years earlier, and all he same players, involved, in my lawsuit, just figured, she met them all, working on he Children's Justice Center, and looking back, I think, that was part of her community service, for getting off, on securities charges!

SETTING THE STAGE, PLAYERS, AND GAME FOR KILLLING ME!  TOP COP, NEVER!

Like I said, I was, working, left work, late October, 1999, and couldn't breathe, that led to a rapid decline in my health, leaving, guessing what was wrong with me, moving twice in two weeks, costing me about $5,000, and freaking out, with my attention, going in the toilet, could work inside, finally,, collapsing and work, being hospitalized, going downhill, at a break neck, speed, my work suffering, my teaching at the U of U, going from being a stand up comedian, and receiving an award, for being the toughest grader, on the campus, with the highest student approval ratings, going, to barely being able to read my notes with no humor, my hallmark, and just flat-line, lectures, and Shelley, actually, came watch me teach, I believe my last class, not knowing if I could make it through, that last lecture, a normal, three hour class, where I had to rush for time to give all the stories, to just making it through class.  What was funny about, my family and Shelley, Rachel, looking back on it, they said, well, your boss, had to follow you around and check your work, as if, I was a shitty general counsel, not poisoned, and fucked, I the brain, almost dying and going from, this position offered to me, taking on the Medicaid/Medicare, fraud units, FBI, and about 27 male attorneys and cops, forcing them to follow, due process and equal protections, and telling them, when, and how they would conduct, their investigations against MY doctors in the state of Utah!

I went from that, to being diagnosed, at a fucking 5 year old level, in less than, about 4 or 5 months, with the diagnosis of a death sentence, but, I think, the sisters, who were to benefit, from my demise, judge me, AFTER, the poison, not BEFORE the poison and figured that, being an attorney or being a professor was EASY!  LOL!  Much like President Trump, looking at President Obama, criticizing everything and anything he did, from executive orders to foreign policy and health care, once in the job, realizing, this job as president is much harder than, I thought, and health care is more complicated, and shit, this job, is harder than what I was doing before . . . I am sure the sista, club, of replacements, doing only a portion of what I did, singly and without help, coaching, or backup, by every fucking cop, prosecutor, attorney, judge, FBI, CIA, DEA, blah, blah, blah, are feeling much the same way, do it all, the great kids, the high level and top pressure jobs, teaching, manuals, awards, honors, this and that, add it all together and WHAT THE FUCK, I look back and wonder how I did it all, not just one or two years worth, but almost 20, and with all the opposition, fuck!  A bit harder, than, taking one or two aspects, of my life, and dressing like an attorney!  LOL!  Pretty wild, but I was also being courted to run for AG, but I wanted Congress, the 4th district, I think they held back on the census, not counting the foreign missionaries, or afraid, that before the poisoning, I might actually win it!  NO DOUBT, probably the single highest recognized, attorney, other than, Jan in the state!  And I was TOP BILLING HER, ON SPEAKING ENGAGEMENTS!

TAKING ME OUT OF THE GAME, BIG TIME! THE FIRST TIME!

I AM JUST GOING TO BULLET, LIKE I SAID AND GOT DETOURED:

• Botox in clinical practice "miracle poison" is one of the most poisonous biological substances known, used in almost every sub-specialty, 4 to 7 days after injection
• the affected nerve terminals do not degenerate, but the blockage of neurotransmitters release is irreversible
• function can be recovered by spouting of nerve terminals and formation of new synaptic contacts, this usually takes 2 to 3 months (I was never treated for anything, death sentence)
• postganglionic sympathetic neurons
• 24 to 72 hours to take effect reflecting the time necessary to disrupt the synaptosomal process
• some individuals may receive as many as 5 days for the full effect to be observed
• peaking at about 10 days, the effect of botulinum toxin last nearly 8 to 12 weeks . . . I was poisoned, near the end of October, collapsed at work, in December, and down and out, totally, by January 18, 2000, so right on, with the 8 to 12 weeks, give or take a week!
• large dosages, KILLED 50% of the mice used to experiment with the miracle poison!
• Botox was approved in 1989 by the FDA, so still a relatively, new product, Dysport, was the name of one of the products first approved
• there was a difference in the strain of bacterium, preparation, diffusion, and potency testing
• injections should be given at the lowest effective dose and as infrequently as possible
• the patient can develop antibodies
• my risk aspiration
• large amounts of toxins can mimic the symptoms of botulinum
• there are several diseases, that are related to the use of this stuff, one is Eaton-Lambert Syndrome, neuropathies, psychological unstability . . . Dr. Foote, the psychologist, that I was referred to, also one of the psychiatrists, head of the division at the Utah Medical Association, was one of the most, vocal and opposed, doctors, also, part of the group that, as an attorney general, had, a bitter debate over, especially, psychiatrists, reporting of domestic violence, from my life, before, going to the UMA!  Foote was recommended to me, by Leon Sorenson, Director, and I NEVER liked this guy, never, and I think the feelings were mutual, and Shelley, was given ALL ACCESS TO MY MEDICAL RECORDS!  She was not my attorney, NOR IS SHE ME, so what the fuck?
• when I didn't die, at the 2 year mark, the terminal brain injury, morphed into alleged mental health issues . . . how do you get rid of a smart female attorney who is a threat, of running for higher office, your right, attack the brain, then, go to mental issues, all part and parcel of this miracle poison!  NICE!
• this stuff is used commercially, in medicine, cosmetics and research
• MOST ACUTELY LETHAL TOXIN KNOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• INTRAVENOUSLY OR INTRAMUSCULARLY ADMINISTERED, OR INHALED . . . I think it was spread on my car steering wheel, and one of the private investigators, who worked for me, 10 years later, said, point blank you were poisoned, and my client, I-corp. Marine, client, whom I thought I married, in 2011, after $700 million dollars worth the cases, all against the government, said, once you told me where you got poisoned, on the steering wheel of your car, he said, I believed, everything you said, from that point on, because, we used, poisons on the Viet Kong, all the time and had recon, put it on their steering wheels!
• I was told by the cops, now, or then, private investigators, that, I was poisoned with poisonous African tree frog gum!  That is one of the reasons, I was curious, about the NCIS episode, not only did it link, Vietnam, to being poisoned, but the method of injection, and I possible could have been, in the episode, it was a bump, and brush, with an injection so small, it was almost undetectable by the untrained human eye!  Not likely to even feel it, but, I clearly, seemed to have gotten in the car . . .  odorless, tasteless, poison?
• WARNINGS: death is associated with its uses
• 7 types capable of causing diseases in time
• can cause arrest and death
• cerebral palsy--toxin can block nerves controlling RESPIRATORY systems or heart, resulting in DEATH . . . I always felt that, living so close to work, saved my life, and I was, getting a watered down, dose, everyday, going to work, with death as the goal, but the dosage or exposure, time was not taken into account!

GIVEN THE "TOTALITY OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES" OF THE GAMES AT STAKE, THE PLAYERS, THE ACCESS, THE BENEFICIARY OF THE DEATH, I THINK IT IS EASY TO SEE, I WAS FUCKING POISONED, WHICH, I DIDN'T KNOW, UNTIL 9 FUCKING YEARS LATER!

THEN, THEY TOOK ME OUT A SECOND TIME, TO PROTECT, THE BITCHES WHO WERE ALREADY, PRETENDING TO BE ME, AND PLAYING, DRESS-UP, BIG GIRL ATTORNEY, WITH FIRST MILLIONS, THEN, BILLIONS TO GAIN!

IF YOU CAN'T FIND, PRISON, IN HERE, THEN, YOU DO NOT BELONG TO THE HUMAN RACE!

WE HAVE ALL THE ELEMENTS OF A CRIME: INTENT + MOTIVE = CRIME!

EVERYTHING AFTER THAT, WAS THE "FRUITS OF THE POISONOUS TREE" LITERALLY!

TOOK ME OUT FOR 8 FUCKING YEARS!

DAMAGES, DAMAGES, DAMAGES, INJURY, INJURY, INJURY . . . ADD MULTI-MILLION CASES, AND A BILLION DOLLAR BLOG!  GET THE PICTURE?

WELL WORTH IT TO THEM, AS IF, GOD'S REVOLVER, AND OTHER BANDS, WERE NOT, TO START WITH, JUST SWEETENED THE POT WITH THE MOTHER LODE!

ADD CHRIS'S MUSIC, NICOLE'S AND GRETA'S BOOKS, OR SOON TO BE RELEASED BOOKS, THE SECRIST FAMILY MONEY TREE!  SHELLEY'S LONG DESIRED, "MULTIPLE STREAMS OF INCOME" ALL FROM THE SAME NICE LITTLE FAMILY, WE JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF THE WAY!