THE BOXER VS. SANTA CATS (CIA) . . . LIBRARY OF SOULS, SIX CROWS . . . THE NAUGHTY LIST (NA) . . . I ALWAYS TOP SANTA'S GOOD LIST--ALWAYS HAVE! LOL! NO LIE! BRAVE ENOUGH . . . REBEL WITH A CAUSE! PROVE MY OWN CASE--NO ONE ELSE WILL! TO SOLVE ANY CASE, AS IN MINE, YOU HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE START, ESPECIALLY WITH MY LEGAL CAREER, PROFESSORSHIPS, COMPARED TO THE FRAUD BROADS, ESPECIALLY, SISTER SHELLEY, OLDER SISTER, HEIR APPARENT, CHRISTEN BY GOVERNMENT, TO STEAL MY IDENTITY, SUPPORTED, PROTECTED, FOSTERED, DEFENDED, USED AS A BLUDGEONING TOOL AGAINST ME, FOR ANYTHING FROM KILLING COP AND PROSECUTORS LEGISLATION, GETTING 9 FEDERAL AGENTS FIRED, TO A $357 MILLION SECURITIES CASE, AGAINST THE STATE OF UTAH, AND SAME DEFENDANTS, STATE OFFICIALS WHO, ORIGINALLY CUT SHELLEY A DEAL, TO SAVE HER ASS, AND MY FATHER'S ASS ON THEIR OWN SECURITIES CHARGES . . . NOW WITH LITTLE SISTER, TEARING IT UP ON, THE GOVERNOR AND ATTORNEY GENERAL, WITH SUPERVISORY DUTIES OVER THE DEPARTMENT OF COMMERCE AND DIVISION OF SECURITIES, ATTORNEYS AND INVESTIGATORS, WHO WHERE RIGHT OUT OF A LEGISLATIVE AUDIT, FINDING THAT IN 111 CASES, ALL PLANNERS AND WEALTH ADVISERS, GETTING THEIR LICENSES YANKED, THAT OVERZEALOUS INVESTIGATIONS AND PROSECUTIONS, WITHOUT DUE PROCESS, USING ARBITRARY AND CAPRICIOUS STANDARDS ON WHO WAS INVESTIGATED AND PROSECUTED, SEEMINGLY POLITICALLY MOTIVATED, AND IN A RELENTLESS BATTLE TO THE UNITED STATES SUPREME COURT, WITH ME, THE FORMER ATTORNEY GENERAL, PREVIOUSLY POISONED FOR TAKING OUT MEDICARE/MEDICAID FRAUD UNITS, LEADING TO A NATION STANDSTILL ON PHYSICIAN INVESTIGATIONS FOR UP CODING AND FRAUD, FOLLOWED BY A $56.7 MILLION LAWSUIT AGAINST COPS, PROSECUTORS, JUDGES . . . LISTENING TO BOB SEGER, "HERE'S PROOF YOU CAN'T BEAT THE SYSTEM!" WE SHALL SEE . . . I HAVE HAD MANY, FIRSTS, IN MY LIFE, BRING HARVARD LAW GRAD, COLUMBIA LAW PROFESSOR, TO HIS KNEES, IN LAW REVIEW WATER LAW ARTICLE--CASE LAW DOESN'T SUPPORT THE WAY YOU WROTE THIS PAPER, ONLY TO BE REITERATED BY THE OHIO OR IOWA LAW REVIEW, USING MY WORDS VERBATIM, TO BEATING THE LARGEST, ALLEGEDLY BEST SALT LAKE CITY LAW FIRM, WITH 87 ATTORNEYS AT THE TIME, RAY QUINNEY NEBACKUR, ON A HIGHLY TECHNICAL, AUDIO EQUIPMENT CASE, FOR PATENT INFRINGEMENT, IF I REMEMBER, BY SONY--NO SURPRISES THERE, SON'S MUSIC THEFT--THE LAW FIRM FUCKED UP THE PATENT, TO PROTECT THE INVENTOR, SO, ME AND THE ATTORNEY, ONE OF SHELLEY'S BUDDIES . . . DOES MY I.D. THEFT GO BACK TO ONE YEAR OUT OF LAW SCHOOL? POSSIBLY--FBI/CIA SERIAL KILLERS--OBSESSED SISTER AND FATHER, OSI, PRECURSOR TO CIA, SECURITIES TEAM, BOTH JEALOUS AS HELL, WANNA BE ATTORNEYS, PROTECTED BY THE ATTRACTED, YET THREATENED BOYS CLUB, OF THE ALLEGED FEDERAL FRATERNITY OF COPS! THE STORY OF THE TEN TOM (CIA) TURKEYS FEATURED IN A PICTURE IN TODAY'S, DAILY INTER LAKE, KALISPELL, MONTANA . . . FEMALE BIRDS ON THE SIDELINES . . . COVERING THE BOYS CLUB, WHO ARE REALLY FIRST AND FOREMOST TO BLAME FOR THIS WHOLE FUCKED UP MESS, THE PENIS FACTOR . . . THEY WANTED TO FUCK ME, PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, LEGALLY, IN MY FAMILY . . . COULD NOT BEAR THE FACT THAT, I WAS AN ATTORNEY WHO CAUSED THEM GRIEF, PUT THEM TO SHAME, TRASHED THEIR PET MONEY MAKING PLOTS, FROM ASSET FORFEITURE, TO SECURITIES INVESTIGATION, AND ON TO DOCTOR FUCKS, IN ALLEGED UP CODING, FOR GOVERNMENT BILLING! WHO HAS THE POWER, TO TAKE EVERYTHING FROM TRASHING A PERFECT REPUTATION, THAT HAS GLOWED SINCE BIRTH, REPLACING IT WITH, A WELFARE QUEEN SISTER'S, SPOTTED, SECURITIES CHARGES, WARRANTS, BILLS, INVESTIGATIONS . . . AND SWAPPING LIVES, GIVING ME HER SHIT, AND HER BEING CROWNED WITH MY CROWNING GLORY, UNSPOTTED, AND NOBLE? ON TOP OF A STELLAR CAREER, I HAD A ROCK STAR SON, AND THREE OTHER AMAZING KIDS, THAT I NEVER SACRIFICED FAME FOR MY FAMILY! THEY JUST COULD NOT STAND IT, SO THEY DESTROY, A BEAUTIFUL LIFE, WORTHY OF EMULATION, REPLACING ME WITH LIES, TREACHERY, MURDER, LIP TRIX, INCOMPETENCE, AND REAL SOPRANO MAFIA BULL SHIT, THAT CORRUPTED PREVIOUSLY WELL RESPECTED, GOVERNMENT AGENCIES, CHURCHES, MOVING TO CORRUPTING LOCAL, STATE AND FEDERAL ENTITIES, FROM COPS TO PROSECUTORS, TO JUDGES, NOW HALLS OF SHAME . . . HOW FUCKING PATHETIC! GREEDY! LOSER! BIG TIME HATE CAMPAIGN! NOT ONLY FOR A FEMALE WHO CAN BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ALL 10 TOM (CIA) TURKEYS, LEAVING ALL THEIR TRAINED BITCHES, THEY THROUGH THEY COULD REPLACE ME WITH, STANDING ON THE SIDELINES, HAVING EVERY ADVANTAGE IN THE FUCKING CIVIL AND CRIMINAL WORLD, WITH THESE MEN HAVING EVERYTHING, FROM DNA TESTING TO AERIAL SURVEILLANCE FROM OUTER SPACE, AT THEIR FINGER TIPS, TO FUCK ME, KILL ME, STEAL MY LIFE, LIBERTY AND PROPERTY--ALL OF WHICH THEY DID, AND I STAND--UNSTOPPABLE, UNBROKEN--FUCK YOU! I AM ON SANTA'S GOOD LIST, ALWAYS . . . YOUR FUCKERS ARE ON THE NAUGHTY LIST! ALLEGEDLY, THESE MEN ARE ABOVE SUSPICION, WHEN IN REALITY, IT IS I, WHO, HAVE LIVED A LIFE, RECORD, THAT IS, FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES, TRULY A CUT ABOVE, AND BEYOND SUSPICION, SHINING THROUGH THE LIES, COVER-UPS, CORRUPTION, IN ITS PURITY . . . I HAVE A PASSION FOR PURITY! YOU CAN'T HOLD A GOOD WOMAN DOWN! REMEMBER THAT WOMEN, WHO HAVE NOW BEEN GIVEN THE KEYS TO EVERY BRANCH IN THE MILITARY TO SERVE THEIR COUNTRY . . . HOPEFULLY, THEIR MALE COUNTERPARTS, WILL RESIST THE NEED TO SEXUALLY HARASS AND ASSAULT, RAPE THEIR COMRADES, AS MINE HAVE DONE TO ME! LEAVE SEX IN THE BEDROOM NOT THE WAR ROOM! BOARD ROOM, INTELLIGENCE ROOMS . . . GOOD OLD FASHIONED, DOWN HOME, BLOOD, SWEAT AND TEARS, WORKS ALL THE TIME! MY TWO DAUGHTERS, FUCKING LOVED THE MILITARY . . . NAVY INTEL, AIR FORCE--LINGUIST . . . THEY CAN'T IMAGINE THEIR LIVES WITHOUT GOING IN THE SERVICE! BOTH DAUGHTERS ARE AS FEMININE AS YOU CAN GET, LONG BLONDE HAIR, THIN, SMART AS HELL, BOTH GRADUATED WITH TOP HONORS, GOLDEN KEY LEVEL, FROM THE "AMERICAN UNIVERSITY," THE WORLDS LARGEST WORLDWIDE UNIVERSITY . . . LOVE IT, EMBRACE IT, EXCEL AT IT . . . GOOD LUCK, SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTERS! AND SONS! IT IS ALL ABOUT HONOR! KISSES, GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!

TEN TOM TURKEYS STRUTTING THEIR STUFF!

Attorney, JoAnn S. Secrist, reporting, this morning, from the Montana Coffee Trader . . . locally owned and operated, I believe, fun, lively, festive, with Christmas colors, and charm, and no, I don't drink coffee, I have never, ever, even tasted the stuff, but, I love coffee shops, the laid back and cool staffs, that generally gravitate to this line of work, I dig the type of people who frequent coffee shops, and they always have wi-fi, making blogging easy, and uninterrupted, which, is top on my list of any eating or drinking establishment, even if, today, I am forced to drink, Diet Pepsi, the rival to Diet Coke! but, I am glad, that they have the stuff, making due, for me in a pinch!  Anyway, to the task at hand . . . the law is about, definitions and hair splitting, and such is or should be the duty of thinking men and women, especially when it comes to the criminal and civil justice system, if they still exist.  Lines of demarcation and loyalties, need to be redrawn, not for cop, non-cop, black/white, male/female, but to right and wrong, corrupt or not corrupt, legal or illegal, legal or not legal . . . you get my drift, regardless of job, position, station, side, preference, or favors, but law abiding or non law abiding!  I think I'm going to Katmandu, (Cat Man Do), if I ever get out of here, I'm going to Katmandu-I figure, I have nothing to lose, I'm going to Katmandu-Bob Seger.

In the morally depraved and corrupt, society, with psychopaths winning, Wall Street sharks, the ruthless, the CIA, Tom Turkeys, had an easy time convincing EVERYONE, that the easy way of, power, pussy and perks, the easy way, was the preferable way . . . maybe for a while, until the very fabric of society, starts to rot, crumble, morals, values, foundations, that are time tested, and durable, are replaced with, the shifting sand, the ebb and flow of the tide, with loyalties, shifting from, one side to another, depending on ability, to entertain, with cheap tricks, easy money, loose women, and shoddy work, selling those offered this choice, which has ventured beyond the confines of just affecting me and mine, and has spilled out starting local, and going from state, to national, to world, influences, expanding the Halls of Shame, to the former, pillars, rock bed, and foundation of any lasting society, with great societies, lasting a mere 200 years, when, all sense of right and wrong, disappear, and anything goes to the highest bidder.  What type of world, society, church, government, do you, really want?  I am going to invoke a very, secular, presentation of the issue to you, in layman's terms, in a choice, that leave religion aside, lest, I lose some of you, as the founding fathers were afraid they would, and adopt, a great western philosopher . . . It's time to search your soul and start again . . . Seger . . . perfect time: users, fakers, takers . . . caught up in their schemes and their useless dreams . . . I can see where I'm going, but I can't see the light . . . time to take a different road and start again!  Mediocrity is easy, good things take time . . . time to rock and roll, time to come in from the cold, and start again!  Time to get control, time to search the soul and start again, I've been down this road, I've seen things get old, LET'S START AGAIN!

I believe, it was Emanuel Kant, who said, simply, Don't do anything, in your life, you would not want, EVERYONE TO DO!  If you are willing to lie, to take a bribe, to bend the rules, the law . . . do you want your mayor, legislator, governor, Congress members, President, boss, employees, husband or wife, children to do what you are entertaining doing?  If you would not want the whole of society to do what you are thinking about, or being offered, stop and think, if you want, everyone else, presented with the same choice, to do the same thing!  That to me is sobering thought.  The ramifications, of this simply, human philosophy, boils down, your basics of living, to the most complex, of human endeavours, contemplated.  I was struck, by the big, bad ass, Ice Man, the hit man for 5 mafia families, who thought nothing about blowing away some one's mother, brother, sister, father, child, but, when separated and in prison, awaiting the death penalty, he was asked if he were to do it again, would he do things the same way . . . NO!  And as he thought about never seeing his wife and children again, he cried like a baby!  Now, my question, and here is where the empathy and sympathy of doing unto others as you would have done to you . . . would the Ice Man, want a hit man to kill his wife, his brother, his mother, his children?  The issues, go deeper than money, deeper than loyalties, beyond reputation, to the very core of what it means to be human; do you want all humans to do what you do, live like you live, treat their children and wife, or husband, like you treat yours?  WHERE WOULD WE BE, IF WE FOLLOWED YOU?  Think about it . . .

ACLU Found that State Crime Labs, Doctor and Manipulate Lab Results to Favor Cops and Prosecutors . . . Corrupt DNA Tests, Lie Detectors?

Often, people will ask me why I don't sue the shit out of the fucking CIA, FBI, NSA, government, Mormon Church, going after dirty cops, prosecutors, judges, and others who have done this to me . . . the title should be obvious, corrupt, officials in public positions, that could make things worse for me, than they had before, I tried to remedy the situation . . . who has access? badges and keys to the jails and prisons? access to doctor court dockets, crime labs, bribe judges, to get favorable reports, to reverse the role of the victim to that of the perpetrator? to falsify, DNA results, drug testing, lie detector results? you got it, all the people, I would be suing, and tangentially connected to their buddies in the offices, courts, cop shops, that could make going after my enemies, more deadly, that running for years, or getting poisoned, at least 4 times!  In order to go after the whole fucking state of Utah, and all power structures, we are talking, taking on Washington, D.C. power structures, with 70% of the intelligence communities, or more, in some instances, even higher, connected, religiously, into that system, as well, as their government positions, that they deem, to be one and the same, with no separation of church and state, in form or substance, and the same, dirty ass, judges, who stole or allowed, others to steal my multi-million dollar cases, are the same ones, who jurisdictionally, I would have to go, in front of, maybe with their colleagues and friends, listed as named defendants . . . how well do you think that would work for me?  Yeah . . . that is why, my blog is so fucking critical to me, used as a means to educate, train, reshape, and change, a VERY BROKEN SYSTEM!

It is hard to fight city hall, state hall, national hall . . . and I think, I would have a better shot of justice with foreign courts, sitting in the jury and judge's box!  It is so telling to me, that Edward Snowden, the one who ratted out the NSA, was sought as a criminal in our country, tracked worldwide, and found, asylum, in Russia, allegedly our enemy, not only in country values, but in political systems, so, what is up with protecting, someone who is promoting civil rights, and seeking to expose the government, for violating those rights?  Will we, as Americans, live to see the day, when Russians are more capitalistic than we, as Americans are, more rights oriented, and China as well? because it is sure, moving in that direction.  And guess what, I can't do it myself, nor can, Edward Snowden . . . you have to pick a side, and fight for it!

ALL I CAN PROMISE, IS YOU WILL BE ON THE TOP OF SANTA'S GOOD LIST!  LITERALLY . . . THAT'S IT!

I saw my fears, played out, in a true crime, episode, called something like, Forensic Files, Kiss of Death, doing what, all, power structures do, to a victim, they revictimize her, him, and turn the tables, on the one truly wronged, and make her defend her record, putting her on trial, in this case, her teaching record, and past, as we see with rape victims, cases of sexual harassment, putting a boss against his female victim, or a whistle blower, exposing corporate corruption and short cuts, often, leaving the person victimized, by, the acts of others, devastated, being shunned, while the perpetrator, is received, welcomed, even cheered, for having defeated the person they victimized.  In this episode, the victim's name is JoAnn Chambers (my mother's maiden name is Chamberlain), she is first grade teacher, with a style of her own, free loving, creative, loving her students, her position, having fun with teaching first graders, often wearing, Mickey Mouse sweatshirts, seen, dancing, singing and having a great time with her students, who lover her, with the parents, thrilled to get their children into her class, and now, she is having, threatening letters written, indicating that this person can put poison in JoAnn's coffee cup if she or he wanted, moving from, verbal threats, to physical, death threats, drive by's, forcing her off the road, to Barbie dolls, wearing clothes, like JoAnn often wore, identical, with her throat slit, and red paint, running down her clothes, or the dolls clothes, shit being put on her chair, under her desk, etc.

JoAnn and Paula, Both First Grade Teachers, One Loved, the Other Very Strict and Traditional . . . Shaping up to be a Hate Campaign Against JoAnn!

Authorities, wanting to get to the bottom of this and find out who was responsible for the threats, wondering if it might be, coming from, inside school sources, did video surveillance, and watched, JoAnn's class room, and saw another, first grade teacher, named, Paula Nawrocki (Paula, is the name, of one of the Tom Turkey's second wife, allegedly a psychologist of note, back east, and Jack Daniels, is some how connected to the case, as is Jack King Strode/Ware, who was the first person I met in Kalispell, Montana, also, who lied about, me going with him to Pennsylvania, or accepting his invitation, back in 2012, to go with him, by train, back home, to meet his family . . . I went to Utah . . . did he, sneak Shelley, who was up in Kalispell, claiming to be me, with the train, officials, going after me, appearing to me, back on my second trip to Kalispell, before, I had ever, ridden the train, at least by 7 months, November to May, when I took the train, but with Shelley, my shadow, claiming to be me, Jack, telling me how much like his ex-wife, Paula, I was and how much, I would like her, blah, blah, blah . . . Jack disappears for the whole time, I am out of Kalispell, and magically shows up, when I return!  He also, promised, he could protect me from the cops . . . I thought, top cop or mafia, are the only category of men, who could promise me that!  As is the case with the symbolic, name, JoAnn Chambers, very spot, right on, so is this name, Nawrocki . . . Na rock I or Shelley/Paula, Not Rock I . . . Elliot, my rock star son, claimed to be Jack's and Shelley's, or Kay's and Bretts, everyone's kid, but the ones, he belongs to . . . now that Elliot has put on weight, he is the SPITTING IMAGE OF HIS FATHER, Richard Clifton Secrist! no mistaken genes there!  Don't bother with DNA or genetics! that would prove parentage, and that would kill you fuckers!), also, a first grade teacher, in the same school, and a down the line, very traditional teacher, strict, and not well liked by her students or their parents, was the one, caught on camera, leaving the classroom, of JoAnn's with JoAnn, coming back to get the coffee cup later, also the woman, JoAnn sees, run her off the road!  

All Threats, Incidents Against JoAnn Stop, While Paula is In Jail

Prosecutors, have a totally circumstantial case against, Paula, who, when both teachers are given the lie detector test, JoAnn passes, and Paula fails, so, all evidence, while indirect, points to Paula/Shelley.  So, Shelley and her husband, hire a former cop, now private investigator, to look into the DNA samples on the stamps and on the envelopes, of those threats that go to or had been going to JoAnn.  The evidence, comes back as, not Paula's or her husbands, and the typewriter, doesn't match, that of the couple.  So, at that point, the cop, turned, private investigator, turns his skills and knowledge against JoAnn.  It is found that, it is JoAnn's DNA on the stamps and envelopes, and looking back at the records a previous schools, JoAnn taught at, reported that, she had made similar claims at her old school, and even reported, the shit, incident; therefore, the jury, surmised that, JoAnn was doing this to herself to get attention.  Reporters were surprised that, as in a rape, JoAnn was shunned, as she came out of the courtroom, having, even moved schools, to avoid working with Paula, and to stop the threats against her, so she was out of the old school, while the perp, Paula, remained, in her position, and she was gathered in her fellow teachers arms and congratulated, for winning JoAnn.  While the case was not retried, or appealed, the reporter, and the TV show, made note, that, this appeared to be a SCHOOL WIDE HATE CRIME AND CAMPAIGN AGAINST JOANN!

I have found, that, I am envied by the women, who are jealous, of me being able to pull of being an attorney, professor, business owner, program writer, now blogger, and I am a threat to men.  You see, prosecutors and investigators, love, to start, right where we are, and ignore, all the facts, from the passed, and then proceed to go from point, M to point Z, completely ignoring, a whole history of success, as opposed to a whole history of missteps, as a woman, in her career, if she could say there was one, and as a mother.  The song, is You know who he is with, the prosecution, the prosecution, the prosecution . . . the song, is called Persecution Smith!  It is so bizarre that I can, not listen to the music, then, tune, in as the lyrics, go hand in hand with what I am writing about.  Right now, with this blog, I have handily proven that Shelley is not, Elliot's mother, nor is she an attorney, I believe that Shelley could have been the one, being a biology major, and having worked with a pharmacutical company in Park City, and an avid researcher on the computer, with easy access to knowledge of what to poison someone with, detectable or undetectable, but I believe she, being the benefiicary of my life, so to say, could have been the one who created the poison that got me the first time at the Utah Medical Association, and she also has an interest, in getting rid of me, as she came to Whitefish and Kalispell, as my shadow, right off the bat, after I got, first exposed, in Montana, fall of 2012, when I attended a documentary viewing of, the FBI raids on the medical marijuana growers in Montana, writing a very powerful, email, that went viral, on how I took out, 8 cops, and wrote to the Utah District, U.S. Attorney, Brett Tolman, about the dirty play and marijuana grows by cops, in Sourthern Utah, getting cops fired, and with him, putting tails on me, protecting me, knowing that every cop in Utah knew my name and HATED ME!

So, I like the teacher, JoAnn, moved, thinking, okay, Utah is Utah, and I was willing to take up root, leaving my home, my family, my children, my practice, my clients and friends, in exchange for LIFE!  But, what these fuckers did, is follow me up to Montana, and that fall, I allegedly, died in a auto wreck . . . and I have been dead ever since, with Shelley, like PAC man, sent, here and there, but in style, using my money from any venture, claiming my cases, my legislation, my blog, my son, and having ACCESS, PROVIDED ACCESS BY THE NSA!  I have always retreated, never been the aggressor, and then, as is the case with this teach, and there already has been a character assassination, this poor teacher, had pictures of her, nude, pictures of her, calling her a whore, or a lesbian, passed around, going to the school and the parents of her student!  Who knows what the fuck, has been passed around, about me.  The night, Mitt Romney, lost the elections, I was with Jack the Ripper, only knowing him, one day . . . and amazingly that night, when Jack was suppose to go get gas, left me stranded on the corner, of Main, across from Red Lion, and now, Starbucks, while he allegedly went and got gas . . . he never came back, and of course, I didn't have money, being run from state to state, not being able to stay in a town, once I wrote about, the FBI marijuana raids, with cops, looking for, me, running me from Vegas to Kalispell . . . and like I said, song on . . . I wanna be a doctor or a lawyer, or professor, member of the UMC . . . I was an attorney, a professor and over all the doctors in the state of Utah!  There has never, even now, biggest fucking blog in the universe, been a time, that I have not contributed, been a winner, outstanding in whatever I did from law to teaching at a university, or saving doctors, financial and wealth planners, to tax payers from asset forfeiture!

I have had a non-stop trail of success, starting from 7th grade, to now . . . continual, only interrupted, when attacked . . . Shelley, has had a long line of failure, so sympathy, goes to the loser in life, whom people will gather around and support, even taking my whole fucking life, with me homeless, car less and her taking a billion fucking dollars, living in a ranch, living my DREAM, because she gets pleasure out of my pain! PSYCHO BITCHES AND BASTARDS . . . and I am still happier than they are!  I am who I am, and I did, what I did!

God Damned Right . . . This Was a Campaign of Hate, Jealousy, Envy, Rejection for Men, Threatening to Government Agents and Agencies, Courts, Cops, Prosecutors, and All Losers Will Side with the Under Dog . . Shelley or the Girls, Who Like the Turkeys/Males, Were a Sideline, To Their Show, Using and Abusing the Women, as Fronts for Their Own Insecurities, both Sexually and Professionally!

HATE CRIMES AT THE HIGHEST LEVELS!

BECOMING FREUD + SHERLOCK HOLMES! LOL! AUTHENTIC SURVIVAL GEAR! THE GOOD TEEN--KNOWLEDGE IS POWER. !

QUIET GUT

Great style, never gets old!  I am sitting at Super 1, next to a fireplace, eating fresh out of the oven donuts, that come out, about 6:00 A.M., FYI, and drinking my daily poison . . . Diet Coke . . . and loving life!  The Daily Inter Lake, Sports section, from yesterday, is staring me in the face, Montana St. Drops Utah Valley!  I have considered myself, a Montanan for the last, almost 4 years, therefore, seeing that Montana State University, beat, my old, haunt, Utah Valley University, where I taught argumentation and research, in the English Department, for about 5 years, starting my third year of law school--lazy me . . . oh, I'm sorry, that must have been my sister, Sue Schmidt, assigned to take credit for that, she has a degree in history, but my mother got her a job, teaching English, that she was not qualified to do, even back then, to junior high school students, let alone, thinking, she can pull off teaching college English, which she can't, but I did, therefore, Sue magically did!  I will hand it to the old fam, they are creative in their stretching of the truth! LOL . . . anyway, I am glad the local university, beat, a Utah school in basketball!  I cheer for any college that plays, a Utah school!  LOL!  Loyalties, loyalties, loyalties . . . ha! and turn about is fair play!

The Classic Battle Between the Good Cop and the Bad Cop

In the true crime movie . . . I got sick of the reality, TV, true crime, starting to get in to proving the time of death, using, maggots, and fly larva, no thanks!  LOL . . . I am a big picture gal! and a big gal, goes hand in hand, don't want to get into the nitty gritty, details of proving a case.  I just want the story line, the facts, the evidence, the eternal conflict, between the forces of good and the forces of evil, the resolution of the case, but hang the maggots!  So, I switched over, to a new, addiction, the movie versions of true crime movies!  I have watched documentaries on Ted Bundy and John Wayne (that name again) Gacy, and holy shit, they were much scarier when played out, on the screen, presented at the men they were, rather than, as case files and statistics!  But, as I warned people in yesterday's blog, to be careful of cops, or people claiming to be cops, because, both Bundy and Gacy, posed as cops, to lure or trap their victims, getting easy compliance and access to them, many victims, going with blind obedience, even when the scenario didn't make any sense . . . as, is the case, but a bit more realist, since he was a real cop, does the bad cop, vacationing cop, do, in the China Lake Murders!

Bad guys that are psychopaths, are scary enough, but a psychopathic cop, bad guy, is even scarier, due to all their training, their understanding of cop work, the ways they have seen other criminals play the system and the cops, the erasing of the lines of demarcation, that we have allowed, especially, with the advent of the Patriot Act, for cops to erase those rights, of privacy, sanctity, and personal property and information, allowing them, almost complete and total access to people's lives . . . so, a cop, who is a psychopath, is fucking scary as hell, including incredibly dangerous for law enforcement themselves!  This movie, made in 1987, again, a true crime movie, based on a true story, will cut you to the core, how this man thinks, the senselessness of his murders, the incredibly, effective, creaks, and cracks, played by the music, that show the fragmentation of the mind of this guy . . . especially, in the cafe scene, when a couple of guys come in the cafe, and touch the ass of the waitress, who is flirting with this guy!  His sense of control, is amazing, which is something cops, would have to develop, over the years, to keep from killing all of us, or at least those who don't obey, such as is the case, with many of the cases, and cities, as of late, that are paying out, large settlements, without the victim's family even filing, knowing how egregious the deaths were . . . and most likely the perpetrators, will have personalities, I would guess similar to this guy, and cop shops, might want to weed them out of the department, rather than protecting them behind the blue brotherhood! or the fraternal order of police!

The good cop, puts two and two together, and realizes that, this dirty cop, is a serial killer, and every year on his vacation, he comes to the area to visit his sister, who is basically, none existent, just a cover, and for the last 5 years, there have been about 15 murders, along a particular stretch of highway, out in the middle of fucking nowhere . . . I think the name, China Lake, must be a mistake or joke, that place is so desolate, out, in Nevada somewhere, that, if there is a lake, it would shock me!  But, in this true crime case, the psycho cop, goes into the good cops house, snoops around, makes himself at home, plays cat and mouse with the guy, taunting him, and coming damned close to killing him, as he does, one of the sheriff's deputies, that comes up on the cop, playing cop, and stuffing one of his victims alive in the trunk or their car, to die and rot, in the heat of the Nevada sun, and we are talking maggots, flies, larva!  Anyway, it always, helps, I think, to see, good juxtaposed against evil to make a point and give examples.  The three most persuasive methods of convincing someone, is facts, statistics and examples.  This bad cop is one fearless dude!  I would say, my 4th husband, the one who looked like, my client, and helped Shelley murder him, Frank of InterPol, or taken right out of prison to deal with me, and assassin type for sure, would fit this bill, and has the arrogance, the cruelty, as I saw, in killing my client, and a girl, to get a cell phone, or distract the cops, from me, ratting him out, as the murderer, and a double!  I have never seen a temper like that . . . Brett contained his!

The Stepfather! Brett, Brett, Brett!

Holy shit, this guy, plays Brett's part so well, from start to finish, and is so close to being like he is, finding a woman, with a ready made family, adding himself into the picture, for the picture perfect family, under the Mormon glow . . . but, so fragile, under all that control, that if everything, and he makes sure, he controls everything, so perfectly, that there is no chance for error, or discovery, redlining everything, manipulating, controlling, exerting power and influence, taking what he wants, substituting what he wants, and, you will see, bumping out who he wants, or who gets in his way, and if that is the family . . . he brutally attacks them, leaving entire families, slain, bloodied, and strewn all over, what was to be the perfect family, who had disappointed him!  When Brett, and my family, being manipulated by Brett, or actually, maybe not, because my father, is just as into the perfect family as Brett is, and that is why, when his star daughter, got poisoned, and even at his own hands, or involved, to steal grandson's music, getting both parents, not the perfect Mormons, any more, so they needed to be extricated from the family, taking, all the Secrist family accomplishments, and putting, Mo faces and family members, in the heathens places, but, never letting that bragging right, go, having grown, very accustomed to showing off this daughter's shit . . . but, when she put on weight, which was the plan, to give Shelley or someone else a chance to stand in the sun and shine, I suddenly was less that perfect, as I had been, close at least, and now, I was banished, an embarrassment, something to shun, hid, disclaim, while still, taking credit for all the great stuff I did! as Brett did with Kay . . . JoAnn, is everything I want, her name, career, family, kids, etc., but, I like Kay's looks better, she is thinner, and likes to roller blade and mountain bike, looks better in a suit; therefore, I will just take all that is JoAnn's and give to Kay, including her children, much better than Kay's, and her grandchildren, that neither, Kay nor Brett, will likely get, so, steal JoAnn's, how convenient, that I would raise the perfect family, for THEM! WOW . . . leaving me, manipulating, family time, parties, and Brett, having fucking NO right or claim to MY kids, nor does, Shelley, Sue, Rachel, Tiffany, etc.!, but, through abuse of power, try, to separate, mother from children, continually, using cops, robbers, courts, newspapers, etc. . . . using that old fascist, mantra, do whatever it takes, with no exceptions and no limits, including, in a family, nothing is sacred!

But, the movie, so brilliantly, portrays, the transformation, from the murderer in the first scene, and shows how good, someone like Brett or the actor, can clean up, and is smart enough to, get fingerprints, names, his past, erased, as this guy does.  And when one wife, or family, is not perfect, with order and precision as he wants, he goes ape shit, starts to unravel, but, he also takes many souls with him, murdering who he will to keep his secrets, including, the family he tried to give order to and keep perfect!  Now, both Kay and Brett come from broken homes, were never active in the Mormon Church for the most part, don't have strong extended family structures, but, when about, getting what they wanted, weaseling their way, through, eliminating me, into my family, gaining entrance and access, through me, to use me, and then, repositioning themselves, so they, through their, masked charm, that I don't need to use, because, I just am who I am, and their good looks, actually, convinced the whole fucking Mormon Church, bought it with Elliot's band's money, got them to put, Brett on calendars as Christ, for hell sake, and Kay, as the woman, caught in adultery . . . at least that is the truth!  LOL!  But, the pair, both sick as shit, were able to fool the very elite of the Mormon Church of the FBI, CIA, and about anyone, getting into huge ass positions, through playing on the cop hatred for me, as Frank did in Parowan . . . he was not worried, he told me, they all hate you, and he used his psychoses, to manipulate and use the cops too!

How in the Hell, Did I Survive, In an Army of Psychos?

Just seeing the one cop, his mentality, and knowing I was dealing with a county, a state, and a nation full of this type of cop, scared the holy shit out of me.  You know, by the way you got chased, the sting ops, the intimidation, the tracking, the obsessive use and abuse of power, etc., that you are dealing with, some raging testosterum, but, after seeing this guy, the mental images of what he would like to do to these two guys, and later, actually does, to one of them, terrorizing the victim, almost killing him, just for, touching his waitress, while not cool, nor acceptable, this guy's reaction to it, is even worse!  I look at the many times, I kicked, Frank, of Interpol, out of my truck, and I am lucky he didn't dismember me in my sleep . . . he did, however, bring and hide a chainsaw, in my bedroom, but I caught him, and forced it out of the house!  But, while maybe not dealing with an army of this type of cop . . . I was well aware, that, in each cop shop, there were guys, like this, with trigger tempers, and that were hot to trot, to arrest my ass, or kill me, whether, I had charges or had committed a crime, which I have not . . . I have, however, excersised my first amendment rights, to critique and criticize cop actions, from time to time, killed their legislation, gotten some fired, at all levels, local, state and federal, etc.  But, seeing the real, McCoy, of what, I might have run into, had these lone wolfs, ever caught me, I shutter to think, what they could, would, or might have done! and not with department sanctions, although, there would be few tears, and they knew that.  The cops in Utah, Parowan, would rather take a serial killer, than me . . . simply amazing!

As I watched, Ted Bundy, and know, that Brett bragged about being the Iceman, and talked of serial killers, and sang Helter Skelter, and used rotary saws, seemed to want me to take marijuana, so he could, actually kill me, to get what he wanted, and that, was EVERYTHING, I had . . . either for himself or for Kay, or whomever, would further is wants and wishes, no matter what that cost, anyone, but him, or whom he was fucking at the moment, with neither, Kay nor Brett, known for virtue, fidelity, but, maybe, two negatives, cancelled each other out . . . they were a balance of power, because, both would cheat on the other, in a New York second and with either sex!  The one, who cares least, CONTROLS!  There is one scene, that is so, scary, but it shows, the total control, of the way, this man, portraying this psycho, who wanted the perfect family, used . . . the new daughter, doesn't like her stepdad, and gives him trouble.  She learned of the family, he killed, or she suspected he killed.  So, she wrote the newspaper, who reopened their investigation on this family who was murdered, at the request of the brother, of the slain mother of the not so perfect family--and asked for a picture of the murderer--as none are . . . although, mine comes close!  LOL!  

The young girl is watching daily for the newspaper and a picture of the murder to come in the mail.  But, Daddy, and he always says, Daddy Knows Best, as in the old 50's TV series, which is the era, he seems to want his families to be in and emulate, but, he intercepts the mail, and sees this letter addressed to his stepdaughter, who is onto him, and has seen, his secret "crazy switch" go off, while in the basement, one day, but, the guy, sees his picture, and that starts the melt down, but not yet, he still has some control, he gets the picture and replaces it with a man, who looks, like the young girls, dead father . . . alienation of affection, turning the kid(s) against her own father, in a subtle way, just by using his picture, as the serial killer, putting suggestions in her mind!  The daughter, who is copping with her father's death, is seeing a psychiatrist, who she turns to, for help . . . he, disguises himself, knowing, the stepfather, will recognize the name, and who also refuses to meet with him, and the shrink, calls as if, wanting to be shown a home, the step was a realtor.

The psychiatrist, is not as smart as the psycho, and through a series of questions, the realtor stepfather, is able to see through his lies, and cover, and he kills him, to protect his secrets!  The scene is brutal and terrible, for a man, who is not a good liar, not used to it, and as a natural thing, tells the truth . . . psychopaths are good at lying and rarely fuck up, and they can easily tell, outright lies, they are good at it!  But, the guy is relentless, in getting the perfect family.  And when the girl, is told that, her buddy had an accident, she cries, already struggling and turns to the stepfather, as he hugs her.  They break'em and then remakes them!  He goes ape shit, on any person, who could have the power to break up the perfect family.  His MO is to, start, forming another life, as the old one unravels, and he does this, because the daughter is caught kissing a boy, for the first time . . . psycho stepdad, sees them, and actually accuses the kid of trying to rape her, on her front porch, the good relationship, turns to shit again, as the stepdad, loses control . . . the end . . . almost, scary, scary, ending . . . but the young girl, is awesome!

Sometimes, Life Puts Us In a Situation, Of, It is Me or Him . . . This Cop or That Cop, Me Going Down, or the Liar Going Down, a Time of Reckoning, a Point of No Return, Where Tough often Deadly Choices Have to Be Made!  The Question is: Are You Strong Enough To Make the Right Choice?

BROCK OH! BOOMLET? UH, NO . . . BEAUTY CAPTURED! CRAZY HEALTHY. SEASON OF ADVENTURE--IT'S IN OUR DNA! GIVE THEM THE WORLD! BE EXPLICIT . . . TOP COP FIRED, CROOK COUNTY, CHICAGO! VIDEO REVEALED TROUBLED COP CULTURE, POLICE BRUTALITY, CULTURE OF SILENCE, PROTECTING COP SHIT, LYING, COVER-UP, AND NOT JUST IN LAQUAN MCDONALDS CASE . . . MAYOR RAUM EMMANUEL? WHO KNEW WHAT? ILLINOIS ATTORNEY GENERAL ASKS UNITED STATES ATTORNEY GENERAL, THROUGH REQUEST TO DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE TO LOOK INTO 15 YEARS OF COP TROUBLES--I HATE TO TELL YOU SO, HATE BEING RIGHT, AGAIN--CHECK THE DATES THE NUMBER OF YEARS, COINCIDES WITH THE PASSAGE OF THE PATRIOT ACT, MAKING COPS THINK, THEY NO LONGER NEED TO GIVE PEOPLE THEIR CIVIL RIGHTS--NO DUE PROCESS, BEFORE TAKING LIFE, LIBERTY OR PROPERTY, NO EQUAL PROTECTION; RULED THEMSELVES, JUDGE, JURY AND EXECUTIONER ON THE STREETS OF CHICAGO, FERGUSON, NEW YORK, FLORIDA, ST. LOUIS, YOUR TOWN, MY TOWN! I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING THIS SHIT, SINCE 1997, STARTING WITH ASSET FORFEITURE! IT IS ABOUT TIME WE STARTED TO HOLD PEOPLE ACCOUNTABLE, STOP GIVING THEM A "GET OUT OF JAIL FREE" CARD, BECAUSE OF THEIR "MONOPOLY ON POWER" OR POSITION IN THE GOVERNMENT, BE IT THE ATTORNEY GENERAL OF UTAH, PENNSYLVANIA OR THE GOVERNORS, STATE LEGISLATORS, SPEAKERS OF THE HOUSE, SENATE, UP TO CIA, FBI, NSA, TO THE WHITE HOUSE! WE NEED A HOUSE CLEANING IN AMERICA . . . IT IS THEM OR US! CORRUPTION IS REAPING, DEATH AND DESTRUCTION IN OUR POLITICAL SYSTEMS, SYSTEMIC IN NATURE, ROTTEN FROM TOP TO BOTTOM! THIS IS NOT THE AMERICA WE WANT! IN ORDER TO HAVE A WELL ORDERED SOCIETY, YOU HAVE TO HAVE, MUST HAVE, NEED TO HAVE, IT IS IMPERATIVE THAT YOU HAVE AN AGREED UPON SET OF RULES, LAWS, STATUTES, ROOTED IN CONSTITUTIONAL LAW, THAT DICTATES THE TERMS OF ENGAGEMENT, BETWEEN THE GOVERNED AND THE GOVERNING! WE THE PEOPLE, CREATED THE FUCKING GOVERNMENT! ELECTED OFFICIALS, STATE AGENTS, LAW ENFORCEMENT ENTITIES, SERVING BODIES . . . YOU FUCKING WORK FOR US! WE ARE NOT HERE FOR YOU TO TRAMPLE, STOMP, SHOOT, UNCONSTITUTIONALLY JAIL OR INCARCERATE--TO GUN DOWN, INVADE OUR HOMES, WITHOUT WARRANTS, SEARCH OUR BODIES, OR SEIZE OUR PROPERTY WITHOUT, FUCKING DUE PROCESS OF LAW . . . AND THAT ENTAILS, NOTICE OF WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE UP TO, AND WHY, BASED ON PROBABLE CAUSE, SO WE KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THE CHARGES, ALLEGATIONS, OR INDICTMENTS YOU HAVE AGAINST US ARE, SO WE CAN PREPARE A DEFENSE, GET COUNSEL, REPRESENT OURSELVES, WITH THE RIGHT TO A SPEEDY JURY TRIAL, WITH A JURY OF OUR PEERS, IN A TRIAL, THAT PROVIDES US WITH AN UNBIASED JUDGE, THE ABILITY TO FACE OUR ACCUSERS, AND TO QUESTION THEM! WHAT WE HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH, IN THE LAST 15 OR SO YEARS, IS SO FAR FROM AMERICAN, RESULTING, IN JUST THE FUCK, WHERE WE ARE IN THE LAQUAN MCDONALD CASE, AND WHAT HE WAS DOING, CARING A KNIFE, ENTITLED TO SELF DEFENSE IN A CITY RIDDLED WITH CRIME, A FUCKING 3 INCH KNIFE IS NOT OUT OF LINE! AND A GROUP OF LEGALIZED THUGS, PULLING UP IN MASS, AND GUNNING THIS BOY DOWN, IS SO, DISGUSTING, GROTESQUE, UNCONSCIONABLE, AND UNCALLED FOR . . . TELLING HIM TO GET OUT OF TRAFFIC, WOULD BE CALLED FOR, QUESTIONING HIM, WITH PROBABLE CAUSE ABOUT, LEGITIMATE CONCERNS FOR SLASHED TIRES, CAR BREAK INS . . . THAT IS YOUR JOB, SO WE ARE OKAY WITH YOU STOPPING SOMEONE LONG ENOUGH, TO INQUIRE AS TO THEIR INTENTIONS, AND WHAT'S UP WITH BRANDISHING A KNIFE . . . MY SUSPICION IS HE WAS WORRIED ABOUT THE COPS, AND STARTED TO CROSS THE STREET TO AVOID THEM . . . SERVING AND PROTECTING? YEAH? LAQUAN AND ANY BLACK YOUNG MAN, SEEING A GROUP OF COPS, WHITE OR BLACK, WOULD BE, LITERALLY, AFRAID FOR THEIR LIFE! AS OF RECENT EVENTS! I MEAN COME ON . . . WALK A FREEWAY IN LAQUAN'S SHOES! CHICAGO, HAS PAID OUT, $1.5 BILLION, IN MONEY TO COVER, BAD POLICING! THIS IS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE, THIS IS CALLED, FOLLOWING THE HIGHEST RULE OF LAW IN THE LAND, THE SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND, THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION! WITH THE GENERAL RULE, WARRANTS, PROBABLE CAUSE TO BELIEVE A CRIME, A REAL CRIME IS BEING COMMITTED, OR HAS BEEN, BASED ON OATH AND AFFIRMATION, THEN LISTING WITH SPECIFICITY, OR PARTICULARITY, EITHER OR BOTH, THE THINGS TO BE SEIZED OR PERSON TO BE ARRESTED, SEARCHED, OR QUESTIONS . . . ALWAYS KEEPING IN MIND, THE PRESUMPTION OF INNOCENCE! AND THE FUCKING STATE HAS THE BURDEN OF PROOF . . . THE STATE, COPS, PROSECUTORS, HAVE TO PROVE BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT, THE GUILT OF THIS PERSON, AFTER AFFORDING THEM DUE PROCESS--NOTICE AND HEARING . . . THEN THE STATE CAN HAVE THEIR WAY WITH THE SUSPECT, DEFENDANT, OR THE CONVICTED! BUT, NOT BEFORE! I FIND IT INTERESTING, THAT, THE SHOOTER, IN COLORADO SPRINGS ABORTION CLINIC, KILLING OF THREE, EVEN AFTER A STANDOFF AND THE MURDER OF THREE, WAS CAPTURED, AND PROVIDED HIS DUE PROCESS RIGHTS! NOW, YOU TELL ME, WHICH PERSON IS MORE THE MENACE OF SOCIETY, THE ABORTION KILLER, OR LAQUAN, A 16 YEAR OLD KID, AVOIDING A CONFRONTATION WITH COPS, MOVING ACROSS TRAFFIC, TO GET AWAY, FROM JUST WHAT HE ENDED UP GETTING ANYWAY! IT IS A BRAND NEW MORNING, ITS A BRAND NEW DAY . . . WE ARE WERE WE ARE, AND WE ARE STARTING BACK TO THE FUTURE! WHERE WE NEVER SHOULD HAVE DEPARTED FROM 15 FUCKING YEARS AGO WITH THE PATRIOT ACT OR THE UNPATRIOT ACT . . . SAVE THAT SHIT FOR THE TERRORISTS, NOT CITIZENS . . . SAME RULES DON'T APPLY, LEARN, DISTINGUISH, GET SMART! WE CAN DO THIS AMERICA, WE CAN DO THIS WORLD . . . HUMAN LIFE IS WORTH, CIVIL RIGHTS! THE TED BUNDY MOVIE . . . EVEN A MAN WHO MAY HAVE MURDERED, BRUTALLY, UP TO 150 WOMEN, WAS GIVEN HIS RIGHTS. THE COP WHO CAUGHT HIM, AFTER THE SECOND ESCAPE, HAVING JUST MURDERED A 12 YEAR OLD GIRL, I AM SURE, FELT LIKE BLUDGEONING BUNDY TO DEATH, AFTER CHASING HIM THROUGH A FIELD . . . AND I THINK IT WAS REASONABLE, TO CLUB HIM A FEW TIMES WITH HIS BATON OR GUN! I LOVED THE EXECUTION PREP . . . IS THIS GOOD, UNCLE BOB? AS THE COPS, BACKED, TED'S ASS, WITH COTTON, TO STOP HIM FROM SHITTING HIS PANTS, WHEN HE GOT ELECTROCUTED! I WOMAN COP PULLED THE SWITCH, POETIC JUSTICE, AND THE WORLD CHEERED . . . BUT HE STILL GOT HIS DUE PROCESS!

The Three Stooges, Moe, Curly and Joe . . . Monday, McDonald's

I told you I would be run out of town on a rail--yesterday's blog comments . . . I was just unhosted, by my host!  Not a surprise, trying to get me out of town, so my double, Joann Secrist, or me, a local celebrity, pretending to be me, with cops in tow, or buddies like my host, trying to get me out of town, before, I either settle here, or attend the Christmas Party at the National Guard Armory, the reason for being here this season, having loved that event, two years ago, missing it last year, due to the normal complications, such as this in my life--life as a professional rebel!  LOL!  I just consider the source, I am on, my home turf--but I never get to stay for long, so, now, the inherited turf, of my double--there are several, married, to one of the three stooges with the other two, friends of Jack the Strode Ripper, Ware, who along with, his other R.E.D.s, Sam Farmer and CIA stand in for, local Judge Robert Allison, or known by his aliases, Michael Willis or Michael McClintoch, or Missoula or Rattlesnake Canyon, fame, all gathered, here with me, on Monday morning, so they could, I am sure, further the lies, needing three witnesses to lie and cover, MY true identity, now that I am gaining my credibility back, after, being under federal lock and key, being stuck down, three times, since 2000, probably being, allegedly dead, insane, in a nursing home, or insane asylum where most people would be, having gone through what I have for the last 4 to 15 years, with, my new, 7 to 10 women, that it takes to fill my shoes, being lauded locally, from Las Vegas to Kalispell and Whitefish, as me, JoAnn S. Secrist, J.D., with exposure of her fake identity at stake, along with about a billion dollars in thefts, by the crew of Super Mafia, Mo Church, real mafia, cop mafia, federal cop mafia, and whom ever they need to buy off to perpetuate the TRUE CRIME of all of this . . . wanna new car, laundering now, at your local car lot!  LOL.

Hey, I was married to Ted Bundy, once, but, since he got a hold of my son's band money, my money, he bought himself a whole new image, identity and a shit load of credibility . . . money tends to influence people that way, and covers a shit load of murders!  But, who am I to say, perhaps, this national and worldwide celebrity, built on my name, through, magic shows, flash-bang, light shows, and fraud, mistaken identities, of stars for his plains, people seem, much more enamored, with a serial killer, than a constitutional law attorney, bad ass as she is . . . what the fuck, ever, but so true!  Not lol . . .

Who Was Ted Bundy? I Am Ted Bundy . . . I Am Ted Bundy . . . I Am Ted Bundy!  I Was Married to Ted Bundy--18 Months!

It is shocking, in deed, to think that 73% of the world's serial killers, a term, originated, with Ted Bundy, are Americans!  At the end of the movie, one shot at a time, there is a young boy, saying, I am Ted Bundy, next a little girl, holding a dead cat, by the tail, saying with a smile, I am Ted Bundy, and then several more kids, giving us an eye into the future, of what and who, makes or turns into a serial killer.  Have we in America, over glamorized violence, death, brutality, force, abuse, power and control, macho attitudes, that foster and cultivate, in the minds of the young, in our country, the makings of a serial killer?  At the end of the movie, they show, Ted Bundy, kicking up his heels with a wicked smile, on his face, as statistics, are super imposed on the screen, with one, very disturbing, and shocking statistic . . . that while Bundy was on death row, he had or got, 200 letters a day from women, saying they were in love with Bundy!  Now, his girlfriend of years, after, looking at him, while on a visit in jail, comes to the realization, that, the man she had loved, had sex with, cared about, exposed her young daughter to, and shared Christmas with, had murdered, women, in horrific ways, even while she was with him!  She has a dream one night, where, after reading of him sneaking into women's bedrooms in the dead of the night, that Ted, comes in her bedroom while she is asleep, and she awakes to his footprints, and she looks up, to she him, wielding a big ass machete or sword of some kind, and is about to hack her in half!  She awakes for the dream, screaming . . . the rational women, should be revolted, sickened, and would abhor what, her former lover had done, to these other women, while in his company, all those years.  And what kind of sick bitch, knowing the horrendous, horrors, of this man's violence, depravity, and animalistic behavior, would send him a letter, telling him, she loved him?

I have seen documentaries, on Ted Bundy, lived in Salt Lake City, Utah, when he was a law student at the University of Utah, knew of his comings and goings, during his time in Salt Lake, married my second husband, who told me of his first wife's encounter, luckily, with Bundy, she got away.  He told me of the Volkswagon, his ploys, telling women he was a cop . . . never go with a cop, who is driving an unmarked cop car, or not a cop car at all, always, question why they are asking you to go with them, never walk away from places were people are, or where there is good lighting, and if you are being pulled over, at night, respectfully, drive to the next town, or to a place where there are other people, and don't even pull over if you know, you have not committed an infraction, have not been speeding, or failed to do this or that in traffic.  When my sister, was a student, back in the 70's, at Southern Utah University, she had an acquaintance, who was going home for Christmas vacation, and was pulled over by a cop, somewhere between Cedar City, Utah and Las Vegas, who raped and murdered her . . . a father of 6, and a very respected cop, over all.  Nobody is above suspicion, and above a crime!  I had an old Marine for an English professor, and he said, anything any member of society does, is within the purview and capabilities, to do ourselves, as part of that spectrum of human behavior, no matter how gruesome!

Dr. Grove, English Department Chair, Weber State University, Ogden, Utah, also told us, never to be too good, or too bad, that society, tends to eliminate, the very best of society . . . Jesus Christ, Ghandi, Martin Luther King, John and Bobby Kennedy, Abraham Lincoln, etc., and they also, will eliminate, the very worst in society . . . Ted Bundy, Son of Sam, John Wayne Gacy, Jeffery Dahmer, etc.  He was a wise man, and told, us, not to try to be too perfect, to allow, chinks in our armor, so to say, because, the tighter wound we are, the more perfect we try to be, the more likely we are to crash, when we do the slightest thing wrong, commit the most small sin or crime, and we shatter, having failed to be that perfect, together, awesome, mother or father, boss, employee, and we have to remember we are human, and anything any human being can do, whether good or bad, we are capable of repeating or committing!  We have to remember, we are where we are . . . whatever, we do, make it a new day, a bright morning and just do our best, that is all anyone expects us to do!  We were all dealt a hand of cards at night, and it is how we play that hand that counts, just be smart.

True Crime . . . The Good Son Gets 100 Year Sentence

I watched this true crime, show yesterday, and it was so sad, such a good kid, caught in a terrible, situation with a psychopath for an older sister, who is slighted by her father, a Korean, turned American, retaining the old country ways, where that society, favors boy children, and slights female children, so a hard situation, at best, with the first of three children, a boy, dying of health complications, followed by a girl, who later rebells against her father, once in America, seeing, that this is not the way, Americans treat their children, their daughters, and with a mother, who is threatened with divorce, if she did not produce a male heir for the family name, which she did, but not before, making a huge impact, of the pressure, on her mother, to the daughter, who hated her father, his rules, his ideas, and once got in a physical confrontation, drew her father's blood, by scratching him on the chest, making her father draw a sword or something, saying they both die today!  But, the new son, who had a birth mark, I think exactly, like the older brother, then, became the perfect son, doing everything for her parents, without question, as a duty, getting good grades, and being the loving, object of attention, for both parents, but resented by his older sister, who was modern, and wild by age 16.

The father, eventually, succumes to an early death, devasting the mother, who had no viable working skills, going to work in a local dry cleaner, while her children, either fend for themselves, or, as in the case with this much younger baby brother, goes to the laundry with his mother, every day, until starting school, then after hours, he meets up with his mother, until at the age of 13, his mother is brutally murdered!  Shortly before his mother's death, she asks her son, if he was married with a wife and child, and she was still living, and he had to go somewhere, and he could only take himself and one other person, whom would he chose . . . his wife, child or his mother.  He said, I would, stay behind and make the three or you go ahead.  The mother said, no, he had to go, and choose, actually, I think his wife and child were a package deal, between her or his wife and child.  He said, I would figure, given your age, that you had lived a long and good life, that I would leave you behind, and take my wife and child . . . a man should leave his mother and father and cleave to his wife (scripture).  But, she, being left alone, tells him that, he could have more wives, and children, but he only had one mother!  So, she was putting her needs above that of his, and also playing big time guilt trips on this poor good son.  So, when she is murdered, he is devastated.

Big Sister, Can't Inherit Parent's Wealth, Take Guardianship of Brother

In the Korean culture, the girl children, are not figured in inheritance of their parents, all of it goes, generally to the oldest child, but in this case the older son is dead, therefore, it passes to the young son, who is just 13 with no other living heirs, nor without any other relatives, other than his big sister, as next of kin.  Bit, sister, is the all-American girl by now, determined, successful, greedy, ambitious, and wants the American dream, for her, her brother, and her boyfriend, who quickly moves in the parent's house, clearing out all the parent's personal property, clothes, and anything that reminds the two of their former life, with big sis, controlling her brother's money, and spends it exactly the way she sees fit, and it is substantial.  I guess the mother didn't get access to the mother either, or why would she work in a fucking laundry?  But, sis spends no time, taking over her boyfriends life, as well as her younger brother's life.  She dresses her man, in thousand dollar suits, a BMW, and sets him on a business deal with her, and they start to become very successful and seem to be doing the business well, being more like business partners than lovers by this point.  Younger brother is taken out of public school, and he is driving a sports car and going to a private academy, and becomes very popular, even a class president, well accepted in this white, prep school with few Asians.

As this kid, adapts to college life, is fun, outgoing, doing well in college, and starting his life with all the potential of achieving the American dream, and with his sister, at this time, selling the old family home, moving to a more hip part of town, gutting the residence and decorating it in the most fashionable styles, with very expensive taste, to reflect the successful couple's wealth and prosperity, until, the couple, who scare family and personal secrets are afraid to separate, with cheating on the horizon, sister calls, baby brother, and tells him, that her live in boyfriend is abusing her, and she needs him to take care of him.  By this time, the 13 year old, is a grown man, in his twenties, and as is the fashion, with super size me, fast food, and Americanization, the good son and brother, is bigger, and is now, being looked at as his sister's protector, and he took that role, seriously, seeing, she had been the only one to protect and care for him, doing a rather good job of raising him.  However, he was a bit reluctant to take on a man, whom he had come to love, almost like brother or father by this time, too.  So, sister, throws in the information, of who his mother's killer was . . . she tells him the boyfriend!  The mother had been stabbed, I believe around 31 times, in a very brutal attack, that seemed up close and personal, as stabbings are, considered, much more personal, especially, when there is overkill, as there was in the case of the mother.

The Good Son and Brother, Comes Home And Takes Care of His Mother's Killer and His Sister's Abuser . . . Shoots The Guy in the Head!

Both the sister and the brother are charged in the death of sister's boyfriend, seeing that she lured him into the garage, where little brother, had been patiently waiting for four fucking hours . . . premeditation, doesn't go over well, with juries, knowing, that the brother, was fully capable, of walking away from the murder, that he, while, fully understanding his rage, and the feeling of the need to protect his sister, should have gone to authorities, with the murder of his mother.  However, the sister, who may actually have been the one, with the rage, and could have been the one to have committed the murder of her mother, not the boyfriend, was really the mastermind behind, probably, the death of her mother, for inheritance, to get her hands on it while her brother was young, knowing full well, that if she waited until her brother was of age, she would not get a dime of the parents fortune, and they had been very successful in their own right, but she was also, the prime mover, in getting her brother, to take out the boyfriend, who was, going to claim, property, if she left him, or if they split, he could reveal the secrets, of the murder of her mother!  What a fucking mess, and so sad, that the brother, a great kid, with so much potential, was sucked into the fucked up mess with his sister, who had her own reasons, to at least entertain, thoughts of killing her parents, being victimized by the culture she came from being very unfair to female children . . . but, murder is not the solution, the girl was very bright, ambition, and driven herself, and could have been wealthy through her own hands . . . in coming to this country, she also got inflicted with this countries, sin, of American greed!

The sister, during the trial, actually got up and walked out of the court room and disappeared for a while, on the run, changing her name, residence, and eventually ended up on the FBI's most wanted list of fugitives! Even her roommate, didn't know here secrets, until, after the sister, turned herself in to authorities, to be extridited back to the U.S. to stand trial, or to be sentenced.  The jury, simply found her guilty for running, thinking that innocent people don't run--oh, yeah, rebels, knowing they are being falsely charged, and know damned well, they are going to be either killed, or taken to a federal detention center without any rights, having NEVER been charged, RUN!--so, she was sentenced, to life, as was her brother.  Her brother tried to contact her, through letters, both being in prisons, just 30 miles from each other, but she would never write back and told him, the brother, he was dead to her, and she had not brother.  

The kid, will be up for parole, by the year, 2034 or somewhere around there.  I thought of my own case, and of my own, big sister, and her influence on not only my siblings, but her parents, and her extended family, over men, over cops, and once endowed with my life, my name, my credentials, power of being an attorney, and not just the normal attorney, getting rich, off my work, she became the grand madame, and used the money, influence, that should have been mine, to control, manipulate, drive, corrupt, and even lead others to not only break the law, but murder, corrupting her own children, assassins, and serial killers, then wanting to ditch them, and claim mine, as her own . . . there are pure evil people who walk this earth, who see the world, only through their needs, desires, and have no boundaries, between what is yours and what is theirs, and they will steal, kill and destroy anything in their path, to get what they want . . . very sad . . . but, as is the case with his young man . . . he had alternatives, options, and could have refused to do her bidding, he made the choices to do what he did, and he is now, as sad as it is, paying the consequences of those choices!

Whether We Were Dealt a Bad Hand in Life, as a Child, Parent, Cop, State Official . . . We All Have Choices, We All Know the Difference Between, Right and Wrong, or We Would be Declared, Criminally Insane, and All of Us, Regardless of Circumstances, Will Pay for Our Choices in Life!

BE SMART, EARN YOUR WAY, FOLLOW THE LAW, AND STAY THE COURSE, NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT!

YULE LOVE THIS! EXOTIC, RARE & EXQUISITE! THE PROFESSIONAL RADICAL: CONVERSATIONS WITH SAUL ALINSKY (COPYRIGHT 1965) . . . SOME FUN QUOTES, THAT WILL MAKE YOU THINK, ME TOO! I JUST WANTED TO MENTION, BOTH BY WAY OF BEING FLATTERED, BUT CONCERNED--I HAD DINNER AT THE FLATHEAD COUNTY AREA ON AGING, BOTH YESTERDAY AND TODAY . . . GOOD, HEALTHY FOOD, FOR SENIORS. BUT, I WAS QUESTIONED FOR MY AGE, WITH THE STAFF, COMING BACK TO ME TWICE, TELLING ME I DIDN'T LOOK LIKE I WAS 60 OR OLD ENOUGH TO COME TO DINNER THERE. I ASSURED HER, THAT WAS A COMMON PROBLEM, BUT, I ASSURED HER, WITH ABOUT 4 PEOPLE EATING THERE BOTH DAYS, WHO KNOW HOW OLD I AM, BEING ONLY SEVERAL YEARS OLDER THAN ME, AND WHO HAVE KNOWN ME FOR YEARS, SINCE COMING TO THE AREA, LATE FALL OF 2012! I HAD MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE IN MY PURSE, SINCE I HAVE BEEN BLOCKED FROM OBTAINING COPIES OF ANY OF MY OTHER I.D., AND ONLY HAVE THAT, AS PROOF, BECAUSE A PROFESSIONAL AGENCY, GOT IT FOR ME, CIRCUMVENTING GOVERNMENT, OR MOB, OR SUPER MOB, INTERVENTION, WHO WATCHES ALL COMPUTER ACTIVITY, MONITORS PHONE CALLS, BLOCKS TEST MESSAGES AND EMAILS, ON A DAILY BASIS! BOTH YESTERDAY AND TODAY, I WAS CUT OFF FROM INTERNET ACCESS AT THE AOA, AND MY GUESS, IS THAT, STAFF, WHO FOUND MY APPLICATION OF SEVERAL MONTHS AGO, TO START COMING TO LUNCHES, SAT SILENTLY BY, HAVING MADE A REAL ISSUE OF MY AGE, ONLY TO LEARN THAT I WILL BE, 61, AS OF DECEMBER 17, 1954, WHETHER I LOOK LIKE IT OR NOT! BUT, FROM MY ENEMIES PERSPECTIVE, HOW CAN MY SISTER, RACHEL, AKA, ME, WHO IS 53 YEARS OLD, BE COMING TO THE SENIOR CENTER FOR DINNER? SHE CAN'T . . . SO, BLOCK ALL COMPUTER ACCESS, SO MY APPEARANCE AND ATTENDANCE, CAN BE COVERED, LIKE MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE HAS BEEN, FOR THE LAST 15 YEARS! YESTERDAY, WHILE I WAS TYPING MY BLOG, SOME STRANGE, NOTE CAME UP, SHOWING THAT, ON COOKIES OR THROUGH THAT ACCESS PROGRAM, 16 PEOPLE ON ONE COOKIE HAD ACCESS, AND 11 PEOPLE ON ANOTHER, HAD ACCESS, OR SO, THAT IS HOW I READ IT! 27 PEOPLE, ARE ON THE GRAVY TRAIN, GETTING A DISTRIBUTED CUT OF MY BLOG MONEY, BEING DIVERTED, ONCE I WRITE, THE BLOG IS SCANNED, AND COMES OUT AS IF, IT IS BEING WRITTEN BY SOMEONE OTHER THAN MYSELF! NO, ALL 736 OR SO BLOGS, ARE ALL WRITTEN BY ME, OR ORIGINALLY WERE, SOME, THROUGH THEFT, MAY HAVE BEEN EDITED, PUT THROUGH COMPUTER PROGRAMS TO ALTER A WORD OR TWO HERE OR THERE, GENERALLY, WITH LITTLE CHANGE, AS I HAVE CAPTURED THESE BLIPS, THAT HAVE PERIODICALLY, COME UP ON MY SCREEN, I AM SURE, UNINTENDED FOR, THE AUTHOR'S EYES! BUT, SOMEWHAT DISCONCERTING, AS BEING QUESTIONED ON MY AGE, WHICH IS, LIKE I SAID, COMPLIMENTARY, BUT, ALSO HAS ADDED TO GRIEF, SAYING I AM TOO YOUNG TO HAVE DONE ALL THAT I HAVE DONE, OR TOO YOUNG TO HAVE HAD MY CHILDREN, STARTING WITH MY OLDEST DAUGHTER, WHO IS 40 YEARS OLD--I WAS ON MO STANDARD BRIDE TIME, A TEEN MOM, NOT THROUGH A TEEN PREGNANCY, TOTALLY VIRGIN! AND GOING ON DOWN, TO ELLIOT, MY 32 YEARS OLD ROCK STAR, GOD'S REVOLVER, THE DITCH AND THE DELTA

My IP Number Today at the Flathead Area on Agency Lunch, As I Was Blocked From Connecting To Their Internet, Was . . . 0.0.0.0., So, As the Writer of Bad Ass Con Law Chick Blog, I Was Totally Cut Off! And How Many Other Times?

WHAT THE FUCK, EVER!

The Professional Radical!  I Could Totally Relate to the Jail Statements!  LOL!  Been There, Done That!

HAVE TROUBLE, WILL TRAVEL!

• reckless wit and cool detachment
• city set on edge--screams of rage, moans and groans, ruins of power structure dictatorship based on slum dwellers (Chicago, race, labor, tenant, immigrants, etc., 1960's)
• techniques of lynch mobs
• unlike his critics--Alinsky really believes in democracy!
• a personal relationship cannot substitute for a power relationships!  (Alinsky met with Mitt Romney's dad, George, when he was President of General Motors, dealing with labor dispute issues)
• the making of a an anti-fascist . . .
• a man's right to a job, transcends the right to private property
• I learned that you had to look at life, in a flexible, fluid way
• you have to have a sense of humor to survive--in doctrinaire people have no humor
• once your on top, you want to stay that way, you learn to eat at the best restaurants, fly first class, but the next thing you know, these things are essentials.  Your imprisoned by them . . .
• It that screwball ever shows up again, tell him I'm out!
• When you find yourself completely caught, subjugated, crushed in this kind of situation, you have a choice of two ways out: One way is to  blow your top--you say, "Who ever asked me to come into this world anyway?"  And you wind up killing your wife and your kids and yourself.  You read about these things in the papers.  The other way is what 99 per cent of the population does--you rationalize.  You say, "Go fight City Hall.  It's a tough world, tough for everybody.  And this isn't too bad.  I get my relief check regularly, and maybe my number will come up in the numbers, or my policy ticket--anyhow, it could be worse.  I'm better off than that guy down the block." And you just exist.  You keep all your anger, all your feelings pent up inside you.
• When you're in the field of action you have to do your thinking on the run.  You don't have time to figure out whether what your're doing really makes sense.  You don't acquire what the Greeks called, real experience.  IN order to get experience out of living and action you've got to go off by yourself and digest it.  Wise men in the old days knew this.  So they went off into the wilderness to think for a while.  Well, my wilderness turned out to be a jail in a Middle Western city where I was organizing people living in a miserable slum. . . . I had a very good deal in that jail--I din't suffer at all.  I had a private cell; they treated me very nicely.  (LOL!)
• Now there 's no place that is better designed for reflective thinking and writing than a jail. . . . I wrote my book, Reveille for Radicals in that jail.  Sometimes the jailers would tell me to get out when I was in the middle of a chapter.  I'd tell them, I don't want to go now; I've got a couple of hours' more work to do.  This really confused them.  But after a while they got used to it.  (I love it!)
• . . . But, I know that once you reach that point of accepting your own death, you no longer care much whether you're important or not important.  I've frequented the cemeteries too long--I know that that's it.
• I rarely reply to critics.  The reason is not the obvious one--that if I were to spend my time replying to critics I wouldn't have time to do anything else.  The real reason is this, and I try to get it across to my staff: once you become concerned about critics, subconsciously it's going to affect your actions and thinking the way you're thinking now, you're going to start pausing and wondering, "What's Harper's Magazine going to think about it? . . . And the hell with them, you know.  I told Silberman when he first came in to write about us in Fortune , "I don't care what you write.  It isn't going to make a bit of difference. . . . So the critics are going to read it?  They DON'T COUNT! (emphasis added)
• one of the worst crimes that has been committed on us, in quoting that line from Shakespeare, about who steals my purse, steals trash, but he who takes my reputation takes everything.  This is a damnable lie.  There's been more corruption because people were concerned about their reputations rather than their purse.  I think being concerned about their reputation is one of the worst prisons you can have.
• Let them call me rebel and welcome, I feel no concern for it; but I suffer the misery of devils, where I to make a whore of my soul . . .--Tom Paine.
• . . . churches were a big dominate role in civil rights
• Smugtown U.S.A. is a good name for that place.
• It those big fat-cats downtown write papers and calling Alinsky a dangerous, no good son of a bitch, then he must be alright!
• Mark Twain once said that an ethical man was a Christian holding four aces.  If you've got that, you can afford to be ethical.  The ethics of means involves a lot of things, such as who is the judge, the times, and whether you're winning or losing.
• All evening on TV you can watch plays where all the good guys win and the bad guys get killed.  Then you come to the ten o'clock newscast and your punched right into the real world where the good guys get killed.
• better to die on your feet, than live on your knees!
• If man has opportunity and the power to use that opportunity, then I'll bet on him to cross any bridge,  no matter how tough or seemingly hopeless it may look.  As a matter of fact, I've already bet my life on it.
• As an antidote to local apathy, Alinsky, launched an anti-pollution drive which moved into high gear after the city was suddenly darkened by what one columnist called a blanket of floating filth. When Mayor Daley denied that the pollution problem was serious, Alinslyu rejoined, What the hell does he breathe with--his ears.  LOL, this was in 1968 or around there!
• We talk about the black days of infamy.  So it's natural for them to react by saying, black is beautiful.  In the end they'll see that black is beautiful and ugly.  White is beautiful and ugly.  Every color is beautiful and ugly.
• Who ever heard of Jewish boys being arrested?  And they promised the police sergeant their boys would be punished plenty when they got home. My mother didn't take me home.  Instead she took me to the rabbi--I was very devout up to about the age of twelve.  The rabbi started telling me how wrong I was and I defended myself.  "They beat us up," I said.  "So we beat them up.  That's the American way.  It's also in the Old Testament: an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.  Bet the hell out of them.  That's what everybody does."  The rabbi answered, "You think you're a man because you do what everybody does.  Now I want to tell you something the great Rabbi Hillel said: Where there are no men, be thou a man.  I want you to remember that.  I never forgot that.

See it as your duty, to right wrongs, to defend the oppressed, to see that there is justice for all . . . you will find, great joy in that!--bad ass con law chick!

REAL MISTLETOE. SANTA . . . BEING GOOD IS BORING! POWER WHEELS, DUNE RACER EXTREME. SMALL PLUSH HATS . . . HOTLANTA RECORDS--WARE--RIALTO. OUT & ABOUT, CIA ENTRANCE . . . TRAINED TO KILL, LICENSE TO KILL . . . HAL DEADMAN, LUCKIE! NUTSHELL--INITIATED INTO A SECRET WORLD--TRAINED FILTRATION INTO MY LIFE. WARNING--WATCH FOR CHILDREN! THE DESTRUCTION OF BEAUTY . . . SURVIVING EVIL. BLOODBATH. PRACTICAL INTUITION. MASTER MIND. HER LEGACY IS FIGHT! RIGHT PLACE, RIGHT TIME, PEPPER SPRAY . . . BLOOD, LIES & ALIBIS! POLITICS, POLITICS, POLITICS . . . MORNING CONVERSATION--TOO EARLY--MOMENTS OF SILENCE . . . SOMETIMES I SEE YOU TALKING TO YOURSELF? YEAH, AND I ENJOY MY CONVERSATION WITH MYSELF, OVER MY CONVERSATION WITH 95% OF THE PEOPLE I MEET! LOL! THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF HAVING KIDS . . . YOUR RAISE TO YOUR TASTE! LOL! I DON'T TALK BLACK FRIDAY SALES, OR NECESSARILY WHAT YOU DID FOR THANKSGIVING; I TALK, THE IDEA OF POLITICS OF COMPROMISE: (1) IN LIGHT OF THE RECENT SHOOTINGS AT THE COLORADO SPRINGS ABORTION CLINIC--KILLING THREE VERY ALIVE, PEOPLE WITH CHILDREN, SO WITH THE RIPPLE AFFECT, SPREADING TO THE NEXT GENERATION; (2) AND IN LIGHT OF INCIDENTS LIKE THIS SHOOTING, BRINGING UP GUN CONTROL ISSUES, AND WITH PRESIDENT OBAMA, SAYING THIS DOESN'T HAPPEN IN OTHER COUNTRIES, SUGGESTING THE PROBLEM IS GUNS, ACCESS, NOT STUPID PEOPLE, WITH GUNS, WITH FUCKED UP IDEAS OF JUSTICE, OR BLIND ASS STUPIDITY OF PRESIDENTIAL CANDIDATES, ACTUALLY BLAMING THE LIBERAL PRESS, THEN STATING THE GUNMAN VOTED AS A TRANSGENDER, COMING FROM A CANDIDATE, WHO IS ENDORSED BY AN ABORTION CLINIC BOMBER, A PREACH, WHO BELIEVES GAYS, OUGHT TO BE PUT TO DEATH, AFTER GIVING THEM TIME TO REPENT, AND OTHER EXTREMELY RADICAL POSITIONS THAT, NOT ONLY DON'T BELONG IN A SECULAR NATION, CONTROLLED BY A CONSTITUTION, THAT SEPARATES CHURCH AND STATE, AND THE ESTABLISHMENT OF RELIGION, RULING THROUGH LAW, RATHER THAN EMOTION, AND INDIVIDUAL RELIGIOUS BELIEFS, IN ORDER TO HAVE A SOCIETY, BASED ON ORDER, FORMING A MORE PERFECT UNION, RATHER THAN CATERING TO THE INDIVIDUAL LUNACIES OF EACH MAN BEING A RELIGION TO HIMSELF, AS THIS MAN, BLAKE MCCOY, WAS, OBVISCAITING THE LAW, AND REPLACING IT WITH PERSONAL BELIEFS, BREAKING THE 10 COMMANDMENTS, WE ALL CAN AGREE ON . . . IN ACCEPTING, WHETHER CIA OR LUNATIC FRINGE, "THOU SHALT NOT KILL!"; (3) TAKING THE LEGISLATIVE IMPOSED, BIGSISBRO OF MAKING A WOMAN, WATCH A VIDEO, OF A BABY AND WHAT DEVELOPMENTAL STAGES THE BABY IS AT, AT THE TIME OF HER, EXERCISING HER, 9TH AMENDMENT RIGHT TO PRIVACY IN, BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR HER REPRODUCTIVE CHOICES AND DECISIONS FOR WHAT IS BEST, INDIVIDUALLY, KNOWING HER LIFE AND CHALLENGES, DEFENDING HER 5TH AND 14TH AMENDMENT RIGHTS, TO DUE PROCESS, DENYING THE STATE FROM TAKING HER LIFE, LIBERTY OR PROPERTY--MOST PRECIOUS, CONTROL OVER HER OWN BODY, WITHOUT DUE PROCESS AND EQUAL PROTECTION . . .(4) PERHAPS, WE SHOULD, BEFORE ISSUING GUN PERMITS, REQUIRE, GUN OWNERS, TO WATCH A VIDEO, OF WHAT IT REALLY LOOKS LIKE TO SHOOT SOMEONE . . . NOT JUST A WHOLE, WITH A TRICKLE OF BLOOD, LOOK AT BLOODY SCENES FROM SANDY HOOK, CONNECTICUT, OR COLUMBINE, OR COLORADO SPRINGS, BEFORE THEY TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY FOR BEING A GUN TOTING COWBOY, CALLED, "QUICK DRAW, MCGRAW!" NOW THAT IS BRILLIANCE IN POLITICS, TAKING WHAT IS IMPOSED BY MEN, GENERALLY, ON WOMEN, AND APPLY THOSE SAME TACTICS, ON A GENERALLY, MALE PRE-OCCUPATION WITH GUNS! EXCEPT IN MONTANA! CONGRESS IS NOT THE ONE WHO CAN INFRINGE ON THE RIGHT TO BEAR ARMS, BUT STATES, CAN, BEING OVER THE HEALTH, SAFETY AND WELFARE OF ITS CITIZENS, PERHAPS, MAY WANT TO CONSIDER, LEAVING THE SILENCE, QUIET, WELL THOUGHT, DECISION TO HAVE AN ABORTION, THAT AFFECTS, FEW OTHERS IF ANY, TO THE QUIET OF A CLINIC . . . AND PUT, THE VIDEO DEMANDS, ON THE GUN OWNERS, WHO INVOLVED AND SICKEN A WHOLE FUCKING COUNTRY! MY DAUGHTER, GRETA, WITH ME EMBELLISHING THAT IDEA A BIT, BROUGHT THAT IDEA TO MY ATTENTION--SEEN SOMEWHERE ON SOCIAL MEDIA, COMING UP IN OUR POLITICAL DISCUSSIONS, YESTERDAY! THAT MAY, LEAVE, THE RIGHT TO A FIREARM, TOTALLY IN TACT, BUT, FORCE PEOPLE WANTING GUNS TO SEE, THE DRASTIC RESULTS OF, BEING IRRESPONSIBLE AND CRIMINAL IN THE USE OF THAT SAME GUN! THE NRA, HATES RESTRICTIONS ON FIREARM USE AND GUNS PURCHASE . . . YET, I WOULD VENTURE A GUESS, THEY WOULD BE FIRST TO LINE UP, AND FORCE A WOMAN TO HAVE TONS OF BURDENS, INVASIVE GOVERNMENT ACTIONS, AND VIOLATION OF HER RIGHTS, CONSTITUTIONALLY PROTECTED RIGHTS, WHILE THEY WOULD BALK, AT THE SAME MEASURES BEING INFLICTED, ON THEM, LEAVING A NATION, TO WITNESS THE HORROR OF THE BLOODY KILLINGS, THE MANTRA OF KILLING ABORTION PROVIDERS, STAFF, BLOCKING WOMEN, FROM A CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHT, JUST AS VIABLE AND ALIVE, SINCE 1973, SUPPORTED BY 7 OF EVERY 10 WOMEN, SOMETIMES A SILENT MAJORITY, AFRAID TO BE AS VOCAL, AS THEIR MALE COUNTERPARTS, IN INSISTING THAT ABORTION CLINICS, PLANNED PARENTHOOD, THAT IN REALITY, IS A PRO-LIFE, ADVOCATES, BEST ALLY, IN LIMITING, IF NOT PUTTING A HUGE ASS DENT, IN ABORTION NUMBERS, THROUGH, EDUCATION, PROVIDING BIRTH CONTROL, AND OTHER MEASURE SHORT OF AN ABORTIONS AS STEPS, PREFERABLE TO ABORTION! I CAN GUARANTEE, REPUBLICANS, OFTEN THE WORST OFFENDERS, ARE NOT, AND I REITERATE, NOT, GOING TO STOP SEX! JUST THIS WEEK, TWO OR YOUR MOST PIOUS AND ALLEGEDLY RIGHTEOUS CANDIDATES, JEB BUSH AND MARK RUBIO, WERE PURPORTED TO HAVE HAD AFFAIRS! SEX IS THE GENERAL RULE, ABSTINENCE IS THE EXCEPTION . . . UP TO 80% OF OUR TEENS HAVE HAD SEX BY THEIR SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL, SO WHAT ABOUT COLLEGE?!!!! IT IS TIME, WE FOCUSED ON THE REALITIES OF BEING HUMAN, MEN AND WOMEN, THE NEED FOR LOVE, TOUCH, AFFECTION, AND PLANNED ACCORDINGLY . . . LIKE IN FUNDING, PLANNED PARENTHOOD, THAT HAS BEEN AROUND, I BELIEVE FOR ALMOST A CENTURY, AS I RECALL, READING OF LATE? BUT, WHETHER IT IS 50 YEARS OR 100 YEARS, IT IS A NECESSARY, EVIL IF YOU WANT TO CALL IT THAT, OR A THOUGHTFUL APPROACH TO BEING HUMAN, SEEING SEX AS A NATURAL EVENT, RATHER THAN, SOMETHING DIRTY, UGLY, TO BE SILENCED, PUSHED ON THE DARK CORNERS, YET, SO HIGHLY EVIDENT, EVERYWHERE ONE LOOKS! IT IS TIME WE GOT REAL WITH GUNS AND REAL WITH SEX! SEX HAPPENS!

Santa . . . Add My Name To the Good Girls And Boys List . . . Because, It is Hip to Be Square!

This holiday season, there are so many, great efforts and events to hook into!  I am not sure, when the Tuesdaygiving, activity is, with advertisements on MSNBC, Misha, an anchor on, Morning Joe, news show, from like 5 to 7 A.M. each morning, or maybe even 4:00 A.M., but, the logo for the event is a heart, with crisscrosses, through it, indicating, acts of love.  Maybe that is today, I am not sure, but, the idea, is to share you energy, your joy, your talents, you education, or whatever it is, and contribute that is some form or another to your community, making it a nicer place, making you a nicer person, and as per, yesterday's blog, making you are more joyful and happy person, hitting what really counts, being dedicated to something you feel passionate about, and rather than acting for money, seeing, your contributions of what you have to offer, as a duty, as I do, writing this blog each day!  Rather than, singing about, peace of earth, good will to man . . . actually, create peace, and bring good will to man, through your great acts of giving, of YOURSELF, and there is nothing better, nothing more rewarding, and nothing more heart felt and gladly received!

Last night, on the Last Word, with Lawrence O'Donnell, the talk show host, talked about, his efforts, along with a group, called, K.I.N.D., or Kids. In, Need, of Desks!  If you are interested, in helping, kids in some country, I didn't catch that, Africa, or somewhere, get desks for their schools, so they can actually sit at a desk, with a bench seat and table, fitting about, 3 to 4 students, per desk, with great, sturdy construction, wood and metal, you can make contributions, to and I am guessing, lastword. com or msnbc.com, as a possible way to get to this organization and charitable effort . . . good stuff!  And I am sure, that Fox News or Opinion, being members of the religious right, is doing similar efforts to further their religious beliefs, of feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, and visiting those in prison, or taking care of the widow and the fatherless, rather than their normal, charity of giving big tax breaks to the wealthy!  Taking the bull by the horn, and doing whatever it is, that will either rival, the liberal press, or outshine them!  LOL! We shall see . . . 

Someone asked me, why all the Democrats seem to be rich . . . I answered, because they care about others! and God blesses them for their efforts.  I am in Kalispell, soon to be run out, of yet, another town, on a rail, for saying this, but, the bus system up here got an F, for service and providing access to the less fortunate, like me, and one of the bus drivers, asked me why, the city fathers and mothers, refuse to put money into the bus system as they do, down in say, Missoula or Bozeman, that I brag about to them, where the bus service is free, goes on Saturdays, and in Bozeman, maybe on Sunday, and there is service, until 9:45 P.M., on several of the most used routes, and this is college related, but the UDASH system, in Missoula, student owned and operated, and the city buses, in Bozeman, run until 2:30 A.M., on weekends, making sure that drunk college students--being responsible drinkers, frequenting the local bars, don't drive home drunk, making all of us, safer!, but, I said, because, the majority up here, are Republicans, they only care about the 53%, not the 47%, you and I belong to, other than in Whitefish, the wealthier and more Democratic, section of the Flathead Valley, with a city motto of Love . . . you do the math!  LOL!

Local Columbia Falls, MT., Man, Teaches Vets to Fish, Rather than Just Giving Them A Fish . . . Repairs Old Fishing Rods . . . Gives to Vets!

What a great idea . . . we are all familiar with the saying, if you give a man a fish, he has food for one meal, if you, teach a man to fish, he has food for his whole life!  What a great idea!  REEL REPAIRS!  Allen Erickson, a veteran himself, was at the local food bank, and realized, as he picked up some food, to make it from paycheck to paycheck, on a fixed income, that, if he could get Vets, fishing rods, they, could literally, sustain themselves, from paycheck to paycheck, veterans benefits to veterans benefits, and believe me, stretching that dollar or two, is hard to do as food prices, living expenses, housing and other things tend to creep up in prices, with benefits, not creeping up at the same rate, that fishing, as MANY vets do, in addition to staying at homeless shelters, or camping out, during the summer months, just to make a half decent life for themselves, usually, living alone, with little contact and connection to family or children, getting a free fishing rod, can make all the difference.  

Many of our vets, have a hard time, fitting back into the daily grind, having experienced, PTSD, and other service related, trauma and injury, or just, getting cynical about life in general, feeling that, there service, was neither, respected, nor admired, with many of us, too chicken shit to put on fatigues and camoflauge, let alone carry a gun and go to the deserts of Afghanistan, or Iraq, now Syria, Libya and other regions of the world, knowing that what happened in Vietnam, is being repeated, by way of cooking the books to  make our efforts, globally, look better than, they really are, so that Congress and the public, will continue to rah, rah, and send troops and money, after we are war torn and weary.  But, for whatever, reason, many of the men, I rub shoulders with, are our truly brave, men and women, of our armed services!  Some, like to get into the wilds, near nature, where there is peace, and the only wild life, they want to participate in, is, seeing the deer, elk, bear, moose, or sitting quietly, by a stream, and forget, what they have been through, for you and I!  So, hats off to this wonderful man, who I know, is meeting a great need, and one, that, provides, some distraction, from the horrors of war, with the challenge, of catching a fish, or wondering if you are smarter than a bull trout!  LOL!

To Donate: used fishing poles or materials to the Northwest Montana Veterans Food Pantry, call (406) 756.7304!

The Lists Of Good Things Good Girls and Boys Can Do to Help Santa and There Fellow Men, Women and Children, This Wonderful Christmas Season, Is Endless and Exhaustive!

Kisses and Hugs, From All The Elves, Rudolph, Mrs. and Mr. Claus, Up at the North Pole!

HELLO, GORGEOUS! BEAUTY TO HAVE AND TO HOLD . . . I WANT TO GLOW FROM THE INSIDE OUT.--KATIE HOLMES. BEAUTY BY NATURE--YOUR HAPPY PLACE--CROWNING GLORY! U GOT THIS. OWN IT! YOUR SECONDS AWAY FROM A BETTER MOOD . . . THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS: BUZZWORTHY--GLOW AGENTS--DETANGLE! INDEPENDENCE IS HAPPINESS--SUSAN B. ANTHONY. IF YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY, BE--LEO TOLSTOY. WHAT ARE JOYFUL PEOPLE DOING RIGHT? "THEY'RE GRATEFUL TO BE DOING WHAT THEY'RE DOING. THEY HAVE A DEEP SENSE OF GRATITUDE AND PEACEFULNESS. THEY MAY WORK FOR A CHARITY OR TEACH IMMIGRANTS ENGLISH--THEY'RE REALLY COMMITTED TO A CAUSE, AND THEY DO IT AS A DUTY. MAKING A LITTLE CORNER BETTER IS THE MOST VALUABLE THING THEY DO. ONE OF MY HEROES IS GEORGE ELIOT: IN "MIDDLEMARCH," SHE WRITES THAT THERE ARE BIG KINDS OF HEROES AND THEN THERE IS THE HEROISM OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE MADE THEIR TOWN A LITTLE NICER. SOCIETY IS BUILT ON THAT SMALL STEADY HEROISM." (ALLURE MAGAZINE--HAPPINESS ISSUE). I DON'T JUST OWN IT, I MASTER IT! IT'S FUN HERE . . . TREAT-N-PLAY! MAKE YOUR LITTLE CORNER OF THE WORLD BETTER TODAY! CHALLENGE . . . AS THE GLOBAL CLIMATE CONFERENCE GOES ON, WITH 150 HEADS OF STATE, MEETING ON THE ISSUE, DO YOUR PART, WALK, TAKE A BUS, PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION, RIDE A BIKE, CARPOOL . . . EACH ONE OF US, CAN DO JUST A BIT, TO MAKE OUR AIR CLEANER, CUTTING CARBON EMISSIONS FROM OUR CARS, TRUCKS, SUVS, RV'S! KISS! SOME STATES ARE BUCKING PRESIDENT OBAMA'S CHALLENGE TO CUT EMISSIONS BY 23% OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT . . . IF YOU SAW THE PICTURES, I SAW ON THE NEWS THIS MORNING, OF THE AIR POLLUTION IN CHINA, YOU WOULD GIVE UP YOUR VEHICLES, KNOWING THAT AMERICA IS RIGHT THERE WITH CHINA AS THE LARGEST CONTRIBUTORS TO BAD, UGLY, DIRTY AIR! AS A CHILD, LIVING IN THE LOS ANGELES AREA, I REMEMBER, GOING ON SCHOOL FIELD TRIPS, EARLY 60'S, AND HAVING TO PUT MY HEAD, ON MY FOREARMS, BECAUSE THE AIR WAS SO BAD IN THE LA VALLEY! I REMEMBER IT LOOKING LIKE CHINA DID TODAY . . . LA, TAKING THE CHALLENGE TO CLEAN UP THEIR AIR AND CARBON EMISSIONS, NOW HAS CLEAN SKIES, AT LEAST, THE LAST TIME I WAS THERE, SEVERAL YEARS AGO . . . NICE, HEALTHY, BEAUTIFUL! U GOT THIS, OWN IT!

The Problem Solvers . . . Old Drug, New Tricks

If man doesn't stop war, war will stop man.--President John F. Kennedy . . . No more Vietnam Wars!--Presidential Candidate, Bobby Kennedy

Just a thought, as we, and other countries, venture into Syria, deal with Assad and his rebel counterparts, with, allegedly, 6 separate civil wars going on, with refugees bleeding into the world, whom I am glad to hear, want to go back home to Syria, taking this into mind, happiness, for these people, would to be, to go home, where they belong, connecting them to their culture, their history, and their traditions.  World leaders, need to consider, the Syrian situation, from a holistic approach, looking at all the factors that will go, into settling down that section of the world, with world power, neighbors, like, Russia, Iran, France, Germany, and Britain, taking the lead, with the United States, a supporting world power, helping, as, commonalities, goals, directions, costs, interests, investments, and an over-riding, goal of helping bring peace, restoring, sanity, safety, and the rule of laws and countries, taking over the chaos, disorder, death, carnage, and displacement of the Syrian people . . . no easy task, but, we can do this world!

The other night, I was watching a special, on CNN, on the Sixties, which for a large part, was tainted by the Vietnam War, and how that tore apart the country, ruined the legacy of President Lyndon Bains Johnson, and others, McNamara and Westmorland, who stepped into a situation, and promised an outcome, that was not achievable, and the cost of learning that lesson, took, at least, 58,000 lives, with no solid declared victories.  I was struck by some of the soldiers, who said, there were hills, mountains, that were taken, and lost, three different times.  We need to let people, who understand the motives, the issues, from an insider's view, dictate, the roles, and directives, that will help, most achieve, the stabilization of that region of the world, enabling consistency in government, shoring up the economy, enabling refugees to come home, and secure, the order, that the surrounding countries need, to carry on, peaceful, and successful, living among the countries in the region, being led by those countries, most influenced and threatened by ISIS, and other enemies of the world.  I met the enemy, and the enemy was me . . .

'No More Baby Parts': Three Dead Adult Parts . . . A Cop, A Vet, and a Mother, Leaving 4 Children Without a Parent!

There are many reasons to kill a person, or people: (1) greed; (2) revenge; (3) escape, and (4) power and control over a person, place or thing . . . the shooter, Blake McCoy, involved in the Colorado Springs, abortion clinic, stand-off, murdered, three people, in the process of trying to stop abortions, a legal, constitutional, and reproductive right.  I have a hard time, wrapping my brain, around, the thinking of those who block abortion access; I have to do mental gymnastics, turn upside down and backward, to understand, how, these people claim to be pro-life, yet, take a doctor's life, or lives of other people, as in this case, and seem to see, no contraction in their ethical and religious approaches to this issue, that is a woman's right to privacy, her decision, a due process right, and completely, legal, as decided by the United States Supreme Court, having nothing to do with you, or Mr. McCoy, or others, who would block this right, in the most precious and sacred, property right at person has, that of ownership, control, and choice over their own fucking life!  Seven to ten women, want Roe v. Wade, left right where it is, that in the first trimester, a woman has a right to chose, what they will do, when faced with an unwanted pregnancy . . . and, it is also, mystical to me, how these same people, shooting abortion providers, bombing clinics, and others, also don't want, sex education, contraception, or information about, sex, to stop abortions!

In the second and third trimesters, as the child becomes viable, the state has a right, to intervene, on behalf or the developing child, putting safety measures, informational, and even legal loopholes a woman, then has to go through to get an abortion; however, once, she has complied with the law in that state, and she has satisfied, the requirements for a late term abortion, or whatever, then, that is it too!  There is a moving scale, of humanity, starting with the joining of two cells or the egg and the sperm, that could be placed as, say, 1 on the lowest level of human, life, and development, way far from viability, then, as the developmental stages of a pregnancy, reaches, the 4th month, and the baby starts to move, kick, and twist, the state, can get involved, as having an interest in the health, safety and welfare, of its citizen, with the baby, fast becoming a potential citizen, with no guarantees, that it will not be miscarried, still born, or die on the operating table . . . but, in the case of Blake McCoy, the shooter, he knew damned well, that the people he was shooting at, where full blown, humans, living, breathing, walking, talking, with families, children, spouses, and there is a big difference, or should be in the minds of these fuckers, between, a zygote, a joined, egg and sperm, and a live person, escorting a girl, friend, or person to get an abortion, which is here right!  Like it or NOT!

Independence is Happiness . . . Susan B. Anthony, Woman Suffragist

I am sure, that one of the reasons, I am a constitutional law attorney, today, is the simple truth, taught to me by my father, who seems to have departed far from this mantra, it that, Your rights stop at the end of YOUR NOSE!  We are the captains of our own ships, we determine our own heaven and hell, we are responsible for our successes and our failures, and that goes for taking full, responsibility for the choices we make over our bodies!  I just don't get, Republican males, of any religious background, having the audacity, to think they know, my life, or the lives of any woman, well enough, to determine, what she can and can't handle, how many children, she can raise or not raise, and know, intimately what is going on, not only in a woman's life, or in her psyche, to determine, what is the right and wrong thing to do, when life, comes at you, sometimes in the most unexpected ways, at the most unexpected times.  I think, that people of all walks, should, fucking mind their own business, and just accept the fact, that a person knows, what is best for their own lives, and if they make a mistake, oh, well . . . you do too!  

That is what it is to be human, that is what Christ died for us, for abortions too, for murder, for lying, cheating, and doing all the shit that humans do to each other . . . so, when did God, make you, his second in command, or his first, to determine, what, this woman, this person can do with their free agency, that the war in heaven was fought over, back in the day, before the earth was formed, back in the war, between Satan's plan . . . forcing every one to be good, as opposed to Jesus's plan or the fulfillment of God's plan, of giving people choice, agency, and with that, providing a savior for them, when they fuck up!  Seriously, who in the fuck, does this shit head think he is . . . and how much worse, to kill three living breathing parents of children who may never recover from the trauma of their parent's death, who obviously believe in life, and children! 

It is interesting to me, that as the footage from the Colorado Springs, stand-off, took place, in about three shots, from the TV cameras, there was a white Dodge Durango, shown, over and over again . . . that is the vehicle my parents drive or one like it, and I could not, escape the message, that symbolic vehicle represented, and how, they, 7 years after the fact, with a stellar career, my parents took bragging rights to, as they do now, but not through the daughter who did them--me, giving my assets to the good Mo sisters who were pregnant at the same time, who had their babies, but are not attorneys . . . with the question, which is more cruel--me who aborted a zygote, who didn't think, feel, move, know, or, my parents, who were not bothered, for 7 years, until my parents, learned that I had an abortion--turning their, admiration for their smart attorney daughter, into hatred, expulsion, anger, and exile? extending that hate to the next generation!

My very Republican, very Mormon, parents, knew little about my life, at the time--and that was on purpose, case in point, when I chose, after having, opened the Bible, letting God direct, my decision, on whether or not to get an abortion--the Word, fell open to Romans 14:14, all things are pure to God, it is man, who assigns the impurity--in addition to that old adage, judge not that ye, be not judged--til it happens to you, back in May of 1994, the week, I started my new job, at the Utah Attorney  Generals Office, staff attorney, for the Utah Prosecution Council, in the Criminal Enforcement Division, going to the abortion clinic, without being blocked, thank God, during my lunch hour, picking up my boss, later in that same day, having 4 children, alive and well, depending on me, and looking at $500 per month, law school loan payments--on shitty pay, of $32,000 per year, and the father, being a great addition, as a friend and lover, at times, during the previous 4 years, but, being too irresponsible to take care of me and a baby, and meet the needs of my other four children, with the first one, starting COLLEGE!  Until it happens to you . . .

Mother of 7 Stabs Herself and Unborn Baby

There used to be a halfway house for women, in Ogden, where, I lived, during the younger years of my married life, and there were these women, who would periodically, walk the neighborhood and come to my door, selling art, music, books, or whatever, appearing to me, to be very capable, smart women, in so many ways, and many of them, being solid, scriptorians, and over all, seemed to have it all together.  So, one time, I was talking to my Mormon ward, bishop . . . you know the guy, who the New Testament, writers, tell to have just one wife . . . and I asked, Brian, what the deal was with these women?  And I remember his answer, and he quickly responded to my question, with the answer, without thought, they had ONE too many children, and it threw them over the edge!  At that time, I think, I had 3 children of my own, and I full well, understood, the commitment a child takes, not to mention the physical demands of a baby, on your body.  Now some women, can have ten children, and do it with ease, they look better than they did before they were married, they just pop those little, 5 pound, 6 ounce, babies, right out.  They never have a day of morning sickness, labor is a breeze, and they just roll with it . . . that is NOT me.

I worked as a graphic artist for the state of Utah, shortly before I was married and up until I had my first baby, October 3, 1975.  I was deathly ill, throwing up, at least 20 times a morning, until the very bile in my stomach, would be barfed into the government building toilet!  I got that number from my very wonderful, boss, who had 7 children of his own, and allowed me, tons of leeway, to do what I needed to do, and that included running out of meetings, leaving clients, sitting in our shared office, or taking a three hour nap, because my boss felt too bad to wake me, by knocking on the women's bathroom door, when my lunch hour was up!  And I was one of the lucky ones.  Then, as if 5 months of feeling like I had the flu was not enough, add 36 hours of labor, and that, came after, waiting at home, until, I thought the baby's head, was hanging out of my downstairs compartment, having been sent home, earlier, in the week, with Braxton Hicks or false labor!  It took me 5 hours, to dilate, from a 1 to a 1+ in the cervix . . . my husband was pissed, because he was a student at the University of Utah, and I was in labor during finals and he didn't know whether to stay and reschedule his tests, or just take them--I had 5 women come and go, while I was in labor! . . . get the hell out of here, he was bugging the shit out of me, not too patient, with flocks of interns and student nurses, having a baby in a medical school, cooperating hospital, screaming at the last guy, with a fucking huge ass, Afro, sticking his hand up me!  Then came the delivery, the stitches, the hernia, the bleeding nipples from nursing . . . and a husband, who now had the responsibility of taking over the family finances, with me home with a baby . . . this is called, REALITY!  Men, may want to try it, the next time, they think of blocking an abortion clinic or killing someone helping some woman or girl, through a very traumatic, and not sought for, reality check!

The Law, Is the Law, Is the Law . . . Even On Abortion!

Be one of those, heroes, that simply make your town a nicer place to live, more understanding, more charitable, more law abiding, whether you personally agree with the law, as is or not, supporting, those who are given the responsibility of settling an issue, that tore a nation in part, but, having been decided, back in 1973 for God sake, and later, with the high court, reaffirming, Roe vs. Wade, in Casey vs. Planned Parenting, decided, before I had an abortion, while working as an intern, in Chicago, for Americans United for Life . . . yeah, I fought, researched, studied and wrote, trying to stop, the reaffirmation of Roe vs. Wade! But, I also, remember, coming home, from Chicago, and talking to a very smart, female professor at BYU, law school, and feeling defeated, dejected, and depressed that Roe vs. Wade, was NOT, overturned, and having her say, if you truly believe, that God is the author of life, don't you think, that he, has the ability, of taking the soul of that baby or potential baby and placing that in a home of another woman, who is ready, willing and able to have a baby? Well, yeah.  Okay, and I never thought much about the issue, until, I was faced with an unwanted baby, that was unplanned, and, totally, given my history, not going to work as I faced a new, demanding career, financial issues, going into shock, getting my first, payment book, on repaying my law school loans, being the responsible woman, I am!

Life is just a microcosm of the macro . . . what I would tell, world leaders to do, on Syria, is much like I did with my clients, considering a lawsuit, and what I did, when deciding to get an abortion . . . take every single, contributing factor, in this equation, cost, time, stress, situation, faith or religious thoughts, physical limitations and commitments, extended family, like children, the support systems, and you might, in fact get a very different, outcome, on what is not just a black and white issue, and being the higher beings that we are, we are given the god-given, ability to reason, to chose, to do the best we can, to be, to be independent, with the mantra of God, being, love, and men and women are that they might have JOY!  Like if complicated, it is hard, there are tough decisions that we might make differently if there were a different set of facts, or players involved, and most people are, just doing the BEST they can, given where they are at . . . so, in all your religious freedom, don't forget, the teachings of Jesus Christ, JUDGE NOT THAT YE BE NOT JUDGED!

HAVE A GREAT, HAPPY WEEK . . . GO TO YOUR HAPPY PLACE, BE A HERO, MAKE YOUR CORNER OF THE WORLD A NICER PLACE! 

ONCE UPON A FRESHLIFE CHRISTMAS! JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON! MARKED FOR DEATH! STAY SPUNKY! STAY AIMLESS! STAY UNSTOPPABLE! "THE ONLY THING WRONG WITH MY WIFE, IS SHE IS MY WIFE!" I WAS IN LOVE WITH THE AFFAIR . . . IT IS MUCH EASIER, NOT BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR SOMEONE ELSE'S HAPPINESS. THAT IS THE THING ABOUT WRITERS--ALL THAT IS PAINFUL, EVENTUALLY, GETS TURNED INTO MONEY! LOL! OBSESSED WITH A MARRIED WOMAN (1985) JANE SEYMOUR . . . MALE WRITER ASKED TO WRITE AN ARTICLE OF MISTRESSES, AS HE FALLS IN LOVE WITH THE WOMAN WHO REQUESTED THE ARTICLE, ONLY TO FIND THAT HE, WAS BEING FORCED INTO THE POSITION OF THAT OF A MISTRESS! AFTER HE FALLS IN LOVE, SHE, RESPONDS FOR HIS DEMANDS FOR MORE OF HER TIME, BY SAYING, "MY MARRIAGE IS IMPORTANT TO ME, DAMN IT!" HOW DO YOU TELL THE LIES? THEY LET YOU. WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO HURT ME THIS WAY? DON'T YOU HAVE ANY PRIDE? MARRIED WOMAN, PUTS, MALE LOVER'S PICTURE ON THE COVER OF HER MAGAZINE, "MY LIFE AS A MISTRESS." INTERESTING TWIST ON A VERY COMMON THEME . . . WHO GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO HURT ANOTHER PERSON? AS HE, COMES TO HER OFFICE, TO SEE IF THERE WERE CHANGES, SHE AGAIN, COMES ON TO HIM, AFTER A FIGHT . . . HE GETS SMART, "I WAS JUST YOUR MISTRESS, YOU'LL GET OVER IT!" IT IS ALWAYS FUN TO BE THE ONE IN DEMAND, THE ONE ALWAYS WANTED, THE ONE WHO CONTROLS THE RELATIONSHIP, DUE TO OTHER COMMITMENTS; HOWEVER, WHEN THAT PERSON GETS SMART, REALIZES THE LOVER IS NEVER LEAVING THEIR SPOUSE, AND TURNS THE TABLES, ON THE CHEATER, IT IS HER, LEFT HOLDING HER HEART! IT HURTS BOTH WAYS, SO WHY DO IT? MARRIAGE IS HARD, AFFAIRS ARE EASY . . . NO DEMANDS, NO COMMITMENTS, NO PROMISES--YOU JUST LOSE YOUR SOUL! WE ARE ALL TEMPTED, EVEN KING DAVID, IN THE BIBLE, 700 WIVES AND CONCUBINES, STILL WANTED BATHSHEBA, URIAH'S WIFE . . . HUMAN NATURE TO WANT TO PARTAKE OF THE "FORBIDDEN FRUIT" TO THINK THE GRASS IS ALWAYS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE, BUT WHEN THAT RELATIONSHIP, BECOMES "REAL" IT FACES THE SAME CHALLENGES! 90% OF THE DIVORCED PEOPLE IN THIS COUNTRY, SAID IF THEY HAD TO DO IT OVER, THEY WOULD STICK WITH THEIR FIRST WIFE! WE ARE WHERE WE ARE! GOOD MOVIE! GOOD INSIGHT! SMART RESPONSE! PRAYING MANTIS--FEMALE KILLS HER MATE AFTER MATING! ANOTHER GOOD MOVIE, SHOWS HOW EASY MEN FALL, AND HOW THEY ARE PLAYED! NICE--SHE WOULD BECOME WHATEVER, ANYONE WANTED HER TO BE. DEEP DOWN, SHE WAS A SERIAL KILLER--MURDER NEW HUSBAND, WHILE THE LOVE WAS STILL THERE, BEFORE THE LIES START, WHILE THEY WERE BOTH IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER! PERHAPS, WE NEED TO BE LESS ROMANTIC, LESS IDEALISTIC, MORE REALISTIC ABOUT LOVE . . . DON'T MAKE IT THE ONLY PROBLEM YOUR HUSBAND OR WIFE, HAS IS THAT THEY ARE MARRIED TO YOU! THAT IS PROFOUND! LOL! COUPLE OF OTHER GOOD, OLD MOVIES: "THE WRONG WOMAN" . . . GREAT, PERFECT FOR COPS, AFTER ME FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS! LOL! THE COPS, JUST COULD NOT IMAGINE, THIS CHICK WAS NOT GUILTY! LOL! I GUESS THAT WILL DO, I CAN'T REMEMBER THE OTHER MOVIE! MUST NOT BE IMPORTANT.

Champions for Jesus!  Multiply!

It has been several months since I have been to church, so I was very happy, to go to the old haunts, coming back, like Christmas's of the past, attending both, Freshlife Church and Hope City Church, formerly Crossfire Church.  As much as I cruise around the western states, with rarely a day the same, let alone a week, it is always nice to see familiar faces, common places, and be greeted by people who, sort of know your life, and the bizarre reasons you are hear, today, gone tomorrow.  Pastor Dennis, gave me some good advice and told me to go talk to the Kalispell City, Police Chief, let him, know you are in town, not to watch cops, or to criticize them, nor write about them . . . that is a life time ago.  I went and talked to a chief of police in Hurricane, Utah, several years ago, because the cops kept, harassing her son, because the neighbors, thought, this, widow, didn't have good enough control over her kids.  Rather than to help out, with the challenges, they expected this, now, single mother of 4 children, to do what it takes, both a father and mother to do, and expected the same level of supervision, as if she had a choice to work or not.  At first the cops, a sergeant and a chief, were a bit bristly to me, tried to stand tough, get in my face, thinking I was, coming to sue them, or put them in the hot seat, or whatever, when I was just coming along for the ride, with a friend who had issues with the cops.  

By the end of a three hour, come to Jesus meeting and understanding of the issues at hand, I was able to put them at ease, and actually alleviate, some of their fears, and up their knowledge level and skills, by distinguishing for them the difference between civil and criminal issues . . . in all cases, cops are not hammers, and people are not all nails!  But, by the end of the discussion, we were all better friends, and able to be honest and deal with the issues, rather than attack the persons, in the room.  It was very productive, and soon, I noticed cops all over the valley and county, dealing with people differently, and when the call was a civil issue, or all that needed to be done, was to just stand as a peace officer, restoring the peace, rather than a law enforcement officer, thinking you needed to arrest one party or the other in a dispute! 

Jesus said, if someone has ought against you, or injured you in anyway, pull that person aside and talk to them, if that doesn't work, bring someone along as a witness, and if that doesn't work, then pull out the legal guns!  Christ's approach, generally works with most people, and if not, you can always resort to man's ways, which, don't generally work as well!  LOL!  So, good advice from Pastor Dennis!

Freshlife Church, Aiming to Take Two Capitals: (1) Helena, Montana, and (2) Salt Lake City, Utah!  Mo Ville!  Oh, Yeah!  LOL!

No one can accuse, Pastor Levi Lusko, of lacking vision and ambition, for the Church of Jesus Christ, or a community of God, a church without walls!  Levi and his wife, 7 or so years ago, were passing through Salt Lake City, Utah, trying to decide where to start their ministry, and while in Salt Lake, Levi, got a feeling, that he should call his church, or rather, Christ's Church, as all churches are, and he felt that he should call the church, Freshlife Church . . . which is what drew me to the church, as a new comer to Kalispell, Montana, 3 years ago!  As he and Jenny, came with one baby, and another one on the way, they started this church with 6 or so members, counting the baby in Jenny's tummy, I think?, but now there are campuses, in Whitefish, Missoula, Bozeman, or course Kalispell, and one other place, Butte? with several places that do not have full ministering branches and campuses, but interested people.  Well, today, Levi started a series, of preaching that focuses on multiplying the ministry, teaching his sheep, helping people to understand the mission and ministry of the simplicity of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and wanting to set up a church in Helena, which, was not as receptive as some of the other spots in Montana, but I was elated to see that the young, energetic pastor, wanted to take the gospel, through, Freshlife Church, to the center and headquarters of the Mormon Church, in Salt Lake City, Utah!  LOL!  I THINK IT IS GREAT!

It is interesting being raised in the Mormon Church and indoctrinated, brainwashed, and baptized in the Mormon way, and being told that, the gospel would roll forth from the mountains, as a rock, rolling down hill, gathering speed, as it rolls.  As one of the only churches, claiming origins in America, claiming it to be an American church, and one of the fastest growing churches, or was, last I heard, a few years back, or cared to know, but, after finding, other non-denomination Christian churches, and digging the total focus on the Bible, and man's relationship with God, later, in the New Testament, and Jesus doing away with the old law of the Old Testament, being refreshed, so to say, that, it is grace, not works that would save, although the scriptures do qualify that with, faith without works is dead, keeping in mind, one has to take that step, of actually accepting Jesus Christ as your savior, acknowledging that Jesus died on the cross for us, and then believe that he raised, after being buried in the grave, and once again, after the resurrection, our bodies and spirits would once more be reunited, as per, Jesus Christ's death, dying for our sins, and making that reunion possible, saving our souls, the combination of our spirits and bodies.  The gospel according to JoAnn, and considering the source, you may want to seek a second opinion!  LOL!

FUN, FUN, FUN . . . the simplicity of the gospel, taking on the dogma, liturgy and traditions of the Mormon Church.  Levi is and should be concerned, that 92% of the people in Utah, Mormons, are not Christians, and need saving . . . AMEN!  LOL!  Levi, you need to start with the basics of the 10 Commandments for a starter!  LOL!  Thou shalt not lie, steal, kill . . . just for a starter!  I was thrilled to dump, all the shopping list or menu of things I had to do, to be saved in the Mormon Church, temple work, missionary work, genealogy, baptism for the dead . . . Jews are pissed about this one, visiting teaching, home teaching, relief society, priesthood, church callings, and on and on!  I think, the closer, we can come to the 2 greatest commandments: (1) loving God; and (2) loving our fellow men, women and children . . . the more to my liking!  All scriptures hang on these two, but sometimes the other scriptures, are needed to convince us, that God loved us first and sent his only begotten son, and therefore, we should love him, and in showing him, love, we should love our fellow beings, whom we can see, demonstrating to God, that, we know how to love, him, through loving his other children!

Montana Means Mountains . . . The Place of Rolling Forth the Gospel to All the Earth?  Maybe?

It is funny to reflect, just how I got to Montana, and the fact that my church, up in Kalispell, might, go to those heathens in Utah and convert them to Christianity, the 10 Commandments, the Beatitudes, and other principle, like, a bishop is to be the husband of one wife, etc.  I was having issues, in Utah, with a criminal and civil justice, or injustice courts, dealing with various Mormons, in all aspects of my law practice, and as things heated up, death threats were made real, and my life, was being stolen right from under my feet, in a state gang rape, not really looking for an alternative state, but, on a trip to federal court, early, 2012, I noticed that Montana was doing, a tourist or state campaign, in Utah . . . I noticed the billboard on I-15, going through Salt Lake City, of a pastoral scene, of three TeePees, out in a lush meadow of green, at dusk, with the mountains, famous blue skies of Montana, and light pink clouds, in the back ground and I remember, how restful that scene seemed to me.  I had never, been to Montana, never thought of it, and never entertained the idea of even going there.  But, over the course of that, few days I was, driving around Salt Lake, I almost hit a bus, with a wrap, again advertising Montana.  As I went to get dinner at some restaurant, of all the cars in 200 or so in this parking lot, a car with Montana license plates, almost backed into me!  I thought, God, is this a sign?  It soon after, became, life saving . . . escaped with my life!

So, before all hell hit the fan, in Utah, I took a ZipTrip to Utah, and fell in love with Helena, the Capital, Houser Lake, Canyon Ferry, the downtown area, and hooked up with Senator Tester's office, as well as dropping into, then attorney general, Steve Bullock's office, prior to him being elected governor, to see if I could be of help, on the Citizens United case, now all history.  But, once in the state, it was love at first sight . . . and the rest is history!  I was whisked away, from Utah, like a rival lover, winning, my heart, mind, and spirit!  So, it will be interesting, to see, exactly how, Freshlife Church, will be accepted by a generally Mormon population.  Pastor Levi, mentioned, the Provo, Orem, areas, strongholds for Brigham Young University, hot spot for mission work, as well, as a recruiting ground for the FBI and CIA.  Life, moves in mysterious ways, and maybe, just maybe, this exposure, to the simplicity, will ring true with younger Mo church members, college students, as, in politics, it is found that, the millennials as this generation is called, tech savvy, smart, connected to social media, and tons of information, they are not like their parent's generation, they, like a buffet of options, picking a choosing, what issues that will and will not support, rather than buying a political party, lock stalk and barrel, like previous generations did, and I can't help to think that, these new, much more liberal, yet, raised very religiously, kids, will not embrace this new approach, and see it as, freshlife, breathing new, fresh ideas, into a faith they already had, but, improving it, due to stripping out the excess, and hitting the basics of gospel living, that Christ calls easy . . . and it is!

Crystals, Rocks & Cool Stuff

So, How's That Working For You?

I am pretty consistent, I like the basics, not only when dealing with the Constitution, but when dealing with religion . . . the KISS, system, generally, works, keep it simple, stupid!  At one time before the whole, legal system in Utah, decided to gangland style, take me out, say I didn't exist, and then erased me from the earth in their minds, where I never did exist, don't now, and never will, the Utah State Bar Association, wanted me to be a mentor to new, attorneys in the state of Utah, who had just passed the bar, and who were embarking on their legal careers, because, I went right to the basics, starting at the root, or what should be the root of any law, the Constitution, looking at, the plain language, intent and history of the document, taking it in context with the times, and the problems the founding fathers were having, leading to the system of government we have now.  The bar attorneys, who made this request, said, so may lawyers, try to stretch the law, get out into the gray areas of the law, changing the original intent of the law, so much, that it no longer, can be recognized as having roots, in the Constitution.  And as an attorney, knowing the only thing, I did take an oath to do, was to preserve, protect and defend the Constitution, I am just as basic when it comes to the gospel of Jesus Christ, in its simplicity and plainness, boiling down, to LOVE! when all is said and done!  That is one of the reasons, I go to Hope City Church, Sunday, 1 PM, bottom of the Church behind the library, Central Christian Church . . . it is basic, gospel, and simple!

Pastor Dennis, has been teaching all year, that we can do it God's way, or we can do, our lives, our way . . . and his question is, how's doing it your way working?  Many of us, could say, not too well, right now.  As, I myself, can say.  Two years ago, I felt strongly, that, after getting this blog going, I ought to us this blog, and the power of social media, to teach of Jesus Christ, his saving powers, and amazing life teachings and example, added to his ability to save us from our sins and the grave.  Obviously, I didn't do what I felt, very inspired to do. I dedicated, several blogs to Jesus, or his teachings, or to what I learned in church, but, as for, following, purely what he wanted or put in my mind to do, I did not!  And it is not working well for me . . . my way, or his way?  We are all familiar with the story of Jonah and the whale, and how, Jonah was called by God to teach to the people of Nineveh, and he didn't want to, in fact, he took off, I guess thinking that the Lord, could not find him, and he, I believe, either went fishing, or the whale just came up on the shore, across the pond from Nineveh, where he was to preach, God's word, and after three days, the while took Jonah and spit him out, on the beaches, near Nineveh!  Whether you believe in the literal translation of the Bible or not, is beside the point, we all have a calling in this world, we have a mission, whether political, familial, governmental, social, or religious, and I firmly believe, that God will take you to the place you are to serve, humanity! whether you like it or not!

We Are All Of the Body of Christ . . . And Just Like the Parts of a Human Body, Each Part Has Its Function, and Without it, the Body Doesn't Work as Intended, and So it is With the Body of Christ--This is HIS World!

TRANSFORM YOUR MIND!

Jesus is the reason for the season . . . Dennis taught from the New Testament book of Romans 12, this is my favorite book in the whole New Testament, due to the practical advise and good suggestions for living. My daughter, Greta, has been reading the Bible, as of late, and she said, there is a lot of good stuff in the Bible, a lot of good things to remember in raising your children . . . I thought, why do you think, you four children of mine, turned out so good?, but I didn't say anything.  Children are much like men, when dealing with women, you have to make it seem like it was their idea, or they wound do it.  Case in point: I have told my son, Chris, and new father of a two year old, wild ass, baby cowgirl, who is driving him crazy, to say the least, and he said, last time I talked, we need to have another baby for Y.  Really?  Trying not to be sarcastic, I felt like saying and did imply, that, I had told him that for two years, never have just one child! I think children need siblings, and parents need a little buddy to keep the one child busy, giving them a friend for life.  I would always tell my kids, your friends will come and go, but your brothers and sisters will always be with you, or should be . . . I tend to be an exception, my family, ran me out on a rail and replaced me?

But, in a normal family, single children are hard to handle and make life harder for mom and dad, because they are the ones who have to entertain the kid, all the fucking time . . . too much work!  LOL!  Anyway, life is interesting, and I am sure, had I hounded my daughter about reading the scriptures, she would not read them, or may not, although she has in the past, rediscovering them on her own.  Same with my son, when he sees that another baby is to his advantage, not disadvantage and part of making a better family, he will do it on his own.  

But, the Book of Romans, is jam packed with great stuff, like that, just simple, thoughts, understandings and ideas, one of which is to change yourself, by renewing your mind!  Romans 12: (1) present your body as a living sacrifice; (2) so reasonable service; (3) do not conform to this world, but be renewed by transforming your mind; (4) you have not lost your salvation because you have sinned--if you gave away your salvation, you would not be, reading this; (5) some say, God can't love me because I have sinned too much . . . no, this is a FREE gift; (6) he has dealt each one of us, a measure of faith . . . faith of a mustard seed can move mountains; (7) don't think more of yourself than you should; (8) deal with the problem at hand; (9) we are all of the body of Christ, but all members don't have the same function; (10) we all have different gifts . . . body doesn't work as well, if we all don't do our part; (11) some it is given to prophecy, other to minister, to teach--to extort others to give liberally and generously, and (12) let love be without hypocrisy, cling to what is good!   

God Moves In Mysterious Ways . . . His Ways Are Not Our Ways!  Maybe If I Do Thing His Way This Year . . . Things Will Work Better For Me--I Don't Like Being, in the Belly of The Whale!  Not LOL!

JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!

ONCE UPON A FRESHLIFE CHRISTMAS . . . HAVE A GREAT ONE!