Friday, April 17, 2015

REFRESHINGLY FABULOUS . . . BIG EYES--HUSBANDS (JERRY, BRETT, ALLAN AKA FRANK--LOVE MY WRITING & WORK, KIDS!) TOOK CREDIT FOR WIFE'S WORK FOR YEARS, SHAKESPEARE, IRONMAN, MICK JAGGER, AFGHANISTAN NATIVE ATTAINS COLLEGE DREAM, TOP OF THE CLASS, THERE'S ONLY ONE . . . UTAH SUMMER GAMES OPEN . . . THE TRUE STORY OF DIXIE BURNING, SO CLOSE TO THE TRUE STORY OF MISSISSIPPI BURNING BACK IN THE 60'S, WHEN THREE CIVIL RIGHTS ACTIVISTS, DISAPPEAR, WITH THE HELP OF THE LOCAL SHERIFF, KKK CLANSMEN, AND A COVER-UP! UTAHAN'S VIE TO BE NINJA WARRIORS . . . WHAT WOULD YOU DO FOR FREEDOM? NICE QUESTION FOR SOUTHERN UTAHANS TO ASK ME: WHAT I HAD TO DO FOR FREEDOM? READ THE OVER 200,000 PAGES OF THIS BLOG AND YOU MIGHT GET THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG, CLUE OF WHAT I HAD TO DO FOR THE FREEDOM TO SIT IN DIXIE, RIGHT NOW, WRITING THIS BLOG! THE MORMON CLANSMEN, DIRECT DESCENDENTS OF THE CEDAR CITY HIGH COUNCIL, SWORN TO SECRECY FOR 75 YEARS, THE KILLERS OF THE MIGRANT SETTLERS AT THE MOUNTAIN MEADOW MASSACRE & THEIR DNA CHARGED, MODERN REPLICA & VERSIONS OF THE SAME MENTALITY OF CLANSMEN--SHERIFFS, COPS, PROSECUTORS, JUDGES, COLLEGE ADMINISTRATORS, FAMILY, IN-LAWS, CAR BOMBS, HOME RAIDS, TRUCK SABOTAGE, PIPE BOMBS, BOGUS WARRANTS, POISON, MOB HITS, CHASING, HOT PURSUIT--NATIONWIDE, GOING AFTER THE INNOCENT, SUPPORTING & GUARDING THE GUILTY, THROUGH LIES, THEFT, BURGLARY, ROBBERY, STOLEN, MANIPULATED, SUBSTITUTED, DOUBLE DOCKETS, DOUBLE ATTORNEYS--FAKE & REAL, FALSIFIED COURT DOCUMENTS, FORGED SIGNATURES, LYING CLIENTS, BRIBES, AND BIG ASS COVER UPS! WHEN IT COMES TO CIVIL RIGHTS FOR WOMEN, TAKING IT THE ASS FROM BAD ASS CON LAW CHICKS LIKE ME, BLOOD, MONEY, POWER LUST . . . GIVING IDEAS TO THE BRETHREN, WILLING TO MURDER, CREATE MAYHEM, THREATEN, INTIMIDATE, INCARCERATE, USE ABUSE OF POWER, BRUTALITY, TO A LIFE THREATENING EXTENT, FORCING EXPOSURE TO EXTREME TEMPERATURES OF BOTH HEAT & COLD, CROSSING FROM COAST TO COAST, NORTH TO SOUTH . . . TO PRESERVE, POWER, PUSSY, POLYGAMY, PERKS, PRESTIGE, IMAGE, PERCEIVED & IMAGINARY OF MORMON DOMINATION, IN THE AREAS OF MUSIC, CASE LAW, SECURITIES, CIVIL RIGHTS, HOT ATTORNEY RESUMES, AND BLOGGING THAT ROCKED THE WORLD! FUCK YOU, MOTHERFUCKERS . . . TAKE YOUR MEDICINE, YOU DESERVE THIS!

Within A Half Hour, There Was Not a Dry Eye In the Room . . . This Story Needs to Be Told

Now, this is not referring to my story--no tears fall for me, in this Mormon enclave, it is a quote from The Spectrum & Daily News, Friday, April 17, 2015, 1A, 3A, talking about a panel discussion, sponsored, ironically, at Southern Utah University, entitled, What would you do for freedom?, birth place and home, of the beginning of my fight, not only for the civil rights of my clients, Haylee Cheek, Shane Michael Clark, and Travis Braun, all alleged, criminals, or guilty by association with each other, who dared to take on the local cop forces, county attorney, Division of Family & Child Services, and challenge the criminal justice system in the 5th Judicial Court, with its tangentially, connected, Washington County, almost an extension of Iron County, with shared Narcotics Task Forces and other governmental areas of a five county radius, with me filing two civil rights cases, that broke out nationwide, making me the #2 in the nation for civil rights defense . . . go figure!  This is just another form of civil rights cases, with a female attorney!

About a week ago, I happened upon, a FBI Files, Special, if memory serves, entitled, The True Story of Mississippi Burning, when the FBI was called into the state, after 3 civil rights, 2 whites & 1 black--all suddenly disappeared one night, all from out of town, came to town, at a time of civil unrest, with new federal legislation, giving blacks the right to vote at local polling booths, not separate, but equal booths, that were segregated, several well educated whites, and their help, came to make sure that civil rights were allowed, and to start a campaign to educate, not only the black community of their rights, but to let the white segment of the majority, that there were people from the north, who were backing them up, and going to insure, their safety, and rights at the ballot boxes, in the up coming election.  They moved into town with posters, literature, people armed with information, and support.  Mississippi, much like Dixie, or Washington County, down here and their counterpart, up in Iron County, considered themselves, distinct from the rest of the country, as one of the most prejudice, resistant belligerent and obstinate parts of the country, and going to stand firm in their hatred for blacks (alleged druggies, female attorneys), and any equality that the government might give them.

Analogous Comparisons With the 60's in the Discussion

Beery, one of the panelists, said he was asked to summarize the situation Nikpai faced in a Hazara in in Afghanistan: 

"A black Mormon in the south in the 1960s if that puts it into perspective for you."

I am going to be going back and forth, between this article and what I experienced, as the attorney, not only in the criminal civil rights case for my three defendants, but in a civil, civil rights, case, representing, local financial planner, Henry S. Brock, and a Salt Lake City, financial planner, Jay Rice, my two plaintiffs, in a $357 million securities case, against the state of Utah, or better, with affront to the Mormon theocracy that runs the state of Utah, both filed in 2010, respectively, with a Mormon hopeful, running for President, Mitt Romney, almost a native son, due to Olympic Games and Church connections, with a black President Obama, and I am living in the reddest of red states, in the reddest county in the state, Washington County . . . sitting on a mere fortune, that can be used, abused, claimed, and donated to Mitt, if, that is, I wanted him for president, which I did not, do not, and never will!

Another participant in the panel, staff Sgt. Whitney Houston, knew that Nik, was in danger because of work with the coalition forces, offered him a place at his house in Cedar City.  This is the concern he had, as Houston described the living conditions in the city, the panelist, came from:

"When you look at a country that is full of violence, hatred and intolerance, and Nik, he's full of love and tolerance . . . He radiates goodness against myriads of sadness and hatred.  Cedar City is a great community, I knew that he would find a good life here,"  Houston said.  "It was the people of Cedar City I had faith in."

Oh, really, is that the same, community, county, court system, cop system, prosecutor's office, and citizenry, who I had created the sadness and hatred, I experienced between 2010 to the present time, since I have a house in Parowan, Utah, just 15 minutes north of Cedar City, that I can't even go to the city without the U.S. Marshells, deputy sheriffs, or local cops, show up with the Iron County welcome wagon, trying to intimidate me, because, the first child of Richard & Helen Southwick, Shelley, born the same day, as former, local, legislator, Dixie Leavitt, father of former Utah Governor, Mike Leavitte, as a 50 year legislator, started the Dixie Political Machine, also a childhood friend of my father, being raised in Cedar City, with mother, Helen, going to Cedar City, to teach junior high health and P.E.  

Shelley, was christened, appointed, as attorney, JoAnn S. Secrist, extrodinaire, or ME!  Shelley, moved in my house, 291 North 100 East, Parowan, Utah, the home of Allan Rex Bess, my clients, who was murdered by Shelley, Frank aka Allan, of InterPol, who was brought in by the government, to take me down, and all my cases, replacing me and Allan, with fake shit, assholes, Shelley, allowed to go and argue in court as ME, as seen by locals, who were inmates with me, after I was falsely arrested, my truck taken, my house raided and robbed by local cops, allegedly helping a dirty ass judge from Grand County, allegedly taking if for the fucking Jewish attorneys, who never took my truck, but were allowed, with the help of Iron County sheriffs, to take about $20,000 worth my personal property!  I simply went to town, to protect my client's CIVIL RIGHTS!  To a city, county, area of the state, so filled with violence, hatred and intolerance . . . I was just doing my god-damn, fucking job, you fuckers!

The plan was to take, both me and Allan out of the game, and replace us with Shelley and Frank, aka, JoAnn S. Secrist & Allan Rex Bess . . . they just couldn't ever catch me!  But what I have had to do for freedom would shock even the most skeptical, cynical, sarcastic, critic of the government, corruption, and abuse of power, that few would even believe, seeming beyond fiction, but, nonetheless, as true as the three civil rights workers, that the FBI, back in the day, they were not all Mormon goons, were found buried under 14 feet of dirt, on the private property, of a local, after the sheriff, picked them up, around 9:30 p.m., the night they disappeared, and he said he released them . . . yeah, he did release them, after the KKK clansmen, were all summoned to the cop shop, to follow the civil rights workers, who had done nothing wrong, so they could have their way with them, following them, with a cop pulling them over, and clansmen, taking them into the woods, beating them, then shooting them, and then burying them under the dirt mounts on a private piece of property!

Have We Changed Since 1960?  Most of this Shit Happened to Me in 2011 to the Present--2015--45 Years After the Fact!

We have a more than qualified, black female, attorney, Loretta Lynch, a U.S. attorney general, for the district of New York, but she took on the cops in New York, she takes on the mob, corruption, and has handled about ever type of case, as I have, showing, that there will be justice for all, regardless of race, color, ethnicity, creed, religion, and age . . . are the 70% of the Mormon, FBI, CIA, DIA, NSA, all worried, she might lynch their fucking asses over my case, if she is sworn in? My guess, is not only yes, but, HELL YES!  So, the under powers in D.C., are working over time, to figure out, how to protect the guilty and fry the innocent!  She is just doing her job, not playing the political gamesmanship, that other U.S. AGs have done to keep peace in the troops.  Here is where the rubber meets the road, like Nominee, Ms. Lynch, said . . . RIGHT Is RIGHT, and Wrong is WRONG . . . should you chose to break the law, she is going after your sorry asses, and she should, and so did I!

Cedar City, St. George, heads might fall, and they fucking should!  Mitt Romney might fall, and he should along with my two clients, Hank Brock, Jay Rice, and my father, 85 year old, former, special agent, in the Air Force . . . even the fucking Mormon Church, leaders, agents, parents, don't get to decide that one daughter is more worthy of being, a, the daughter, that did all the great things!  Go figure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most attorneys, will do about one, of about 30 of the great things, that I have done . . . and my contributions and record, will probably be accomplished or broken by one of my children, like, by my daughter, Greta Secrist Hyland, who will be attending law school, at the University of Montana, in Missoula, Montana, this fall, or possibly my son, Elliot Taylor Secrist, who is also considering going to law school, currently, a music major at God's university, the University of Utah, where I taught family law for about 7 years, at the same time I was an attorney, and also teaching, argumentation and research, at Utah Valley University, I won't mention, BYU, it is not worth mentioning, as part of this bull shit . . . the government, the church government, doesn't get to break the laws of this country, and go after a civil rights attorney, a bad ass con law chick like me, who specializes in constitutional law, and steal her life in some special op plan!  Fuck you, MITT!  I was doing my job, to protect, preserve, and defend, the United States, Constitution, and the Constitution of the state of Utah!

Legal Legacy to My Children

  • scholarly writing award, Female Circumcision in Ethiopia, written and presented to an International Law Class, Prof. Goldsmith, BYU Journal, 1993
  • Louisell Internship, Americans United for Life, Chicago, Illinois, summer of 1992, these attorneys testify in Congress for or against, Supreme Court Justices, as they did with Justice Sonya Sotomayor
  • staff attorney, Utah Prosecution Council, Criminal Enforcement Division, Utah Attorney Generals Office
    • wrote Domestic Violence 101: A User Friendly Manual for Prosecutors & Law Enforcement on Domestic Violence & Sexual Assault, wrote the grant, designed the manual, wrote the cop portion of the manual
      • award under the Violence Against Women Act, under President Clinton, serving as a national model for other states
      • being adopted by the Department of Justice, for fighting, human body trafficking, see circle chart of isolation, that is my graphic, and can be found in the original manual, not the one Kris Knowlton fucked up, after I left, and probably let Shelley pretend to be ME!  Shelley could tell victim stories, she was abuse, I have never been slapped once!
      • 10 statewide trainings for cops, prosecutors, social workers, judges, medical staff, and shelter workers
    • wrote Powers and Duties of County Attorneys, still being used by the Utah Prosecution Council to train new county attorneys, and I am sure shared with other states, but I can't confirm
    • wrote monthly newsletter, called the Utah Prosecutor, used to train, inform, educate, and keep 350 statewide prosecutors and assistant attorneys general up to date
    • member of SWAP, Statewide Association of Prosecutors, working on legislation 
    • killed Utah Medical Association, 3,000 doctors, attempt to change mandatory reporting for domestic violence evidence, upon discovery in office visits, a one page letter to Utah Health Committee, who killed the attempt, put it on the consensus calendar!  That and training docs on domestic and dating violence, on 22 Intermountain Health Care Campuses, led to being asked to be general counsel to the Utah Medical Association, to the consternation of the docs, especially the psychiatric association, led by Dr. Foote, all hated me, fought, and objected to me being hired, paid me back saving the docs from federal fraud units, Medicaid/Medicare upcoding investigations and prosecutions!  The thanks I get for saving physicians nationwide, with work!  Later I was poisoned, and two doctors, two brothers, the McDonald brothers, one in Heber City, and the other in St. George, Kent, cut my clitoris off!
  • administration, assistant attorney general, under AG, Jan Graham, 13 staff, 1800 volunteers, over three statewide programs: (1) constituent services, 3600 phone calls a month; (2) victim services, court support and other help; and (3) Safe at Home Programs, videos, brochures, literature for: domestic and dating violence, elder abuse and fraud, child abuse/stranger danger education; and gang violence
    • hired as AG double, for speaking engagements, until I started to get top billed over the AG! LOL!  And that was not hard!
    • killed asset forfeiture legislation . . . rocked cops and prosecutors, pissed to this day!
      • where I cut my teeth as a con law chick, did an analysis of the legislation, that violated 2 solid pages of both U.S. & Utah Constitution civil rights and protections
        • only took a 2 hour screaming debate of the floor of the House, and 10 minutes for the Senate to throw the legislation out!
      • I was demoted, taken out of administration, off supervising staff and volunteers, threatened to ding pay, until I told AGs Office, I would go to every newspaper in the state, and tell them . . . backed down!  I was just doing my job, preserving, defending and protecting the Constitution, from cops, prosecutors, etc.
        • billionaire, George Soros, funded ballot initiatives in 50 states, with 27 states passing resolutions, initiatives to curtail cop incentives, money from the seizures
  • assistant attorney general, driver's license and health divisions . . . thought they buried me!  LOL!  You can't hold a good women down!
    • handled, 270 DUI cases for the Department of Drivers License and Motor Vehicle Division
    • still over the Victim Assistance Programs, victim's reparation, restitution for crimes committed against them
    • in the health division, I beat, one of the gnarliest, pit bull, attorneys, in court, thought to be an impossible task, stopping the attorney generals office from making in roads with the personal injury defense bar, collecting the states money for paying for victims insurance and medical expenses, prior to getting large settlements, with the defense bar, refusing to pay back the state's money, working with the Office of Recovery Services . . . until I came along!  LOL!
      • I wrote a letter to the personal injury section of the Utah State Bar, the richest recovering attorneys, while being considered the ambulance chasers . . . this is where Kay Burningham gets her ass burned, I was invited to the section of the bar, and also to Dusnip & King, if I can remember, to see if the AG's office would soften our approach to the collection of settlement money . . . before that, they never paid!
        • I collected almost a half a million dollar check from just one case!  More than the other assistant AG had in 8 years!
        • I refused to be pushed around by Recovery Office staff, who I was not sure even graduated from high school!  Boss, Billy Walker, and I got in fight over the plain language of the statute, or the law, which, clearly said, that we were not to represent the agencies . . . Billy wrote the legislation, but he didn't convey, through statutory interpretation what his intent was, so I did what the law said, he was pissed!  Maybe that is why, he worked with the special ops plan to make sister acts, ME, and going after my license, so non-lawyers, could use my great name and resume, and then using law enforcement to chase me, harass, and run me out of the state to cover, THEIR CRIMES . . . I didn't do any!
      • I excelled in any division I was in . . . Palmer DePaulis, former mayor of Salt Lake, after seeing what I did with the community programs, said it was not a mistake to hire me, but he thought that my goals were not just in Utah, not even restricted to the nation, nor the world, but somewhere in the Universe . . . I gave Jan, 7 programs, in 6 months, a statewide kick off, teams of presenters, and a library providing literature for the whole damn state at once!  I did have on my resume, under personal interests, saving the world!  20 years later, I am still trying!  LOL!  I am a believer!
  • staff attorney, Utah Division of Aging, working with Areas on Aging, Senior Centers, League of Towns & Cities, County Associations, cops, prosecutors, dealing with elder fraud and abuse protections
    • got a statewide system of guardianship/conservatorship panels through, to protect the elderly who didn't have family, friends, or others who could take care of them . . . they had been trying for 15 years, it just took me, one presentation to the Governor's Commission on Aging
    • I presented to seniors all over the state of legal tools, protections, living wills, wills, and other instruments that would protect their wealth, health, and homes from family vultures
  • general counsel, Utah Medical Association, offered the job, dealing with 3,000 plus doc issues
    • worked on state and federal legislation, bills, issues, and information that concerned docs
    • presented at statewide trainings and conferences on legal issues, that effected physicians in their practices, especially with the elderly, living wills, wills, types of powers of attorney, end of life care, and palliative care issues, or pain management
    • contract negotiations with largest hospital system in the state
    • published article for the University of Utah, Medical School, Annual Review, Holistic Healing for Domestic Violence, or something like that, PDF, but could not find it, after they buried or took credit for my work!
    • probably the most critical, was when 15 St. George, doctors, Taj Becker and her partner, got targeted for Medicaid/Medicare fraud or upcoding, and I teamed with her, and her husband, Adolf Becker, who was an attorney, but not a member of the Utah State Bar, but a former, Lt. Governor, again, using the U.S. Constitution, 4th amendment, and other civil rights, that were being violated by investigators and prosecutors . . . getting a former AG, fired, for not following federal regulations, later 9 federal investigators and attorneys fired, transferred, or retired
      • Taj Becker, became a national spokes person for the issues . . . she also, was friend of Rachel Southwick Hickey-Moosman, sister act double, daughters, Stephanie and Becker kid, in early college at Dixie State advanced placement!
        • I had been poisoned, so any bitch could step in, take credit for my work . . . father kept the letters the Utah Medical Association wrote thanking me for saving all the docs, after they participated in poisoning me, and cutting off clit!  NICE!
  • professor of family law, undergrad, Family & Consumer Science Dept., University of Utah; 1/2 semester of family law, undergrad, Child & Family Life Dept., BYU, jealous of publications, regretted, listening to bitching student, who was graduating without the most important degree, the celestial kingdom with a husband, took it out on professor, divorce'; and professor of argumentation & research, English Dept., Utah Valley University
    • got an award from U of U, campus wide, including medical and law school, for being the toughest grader with the highest student approval rating!
    • got status as official adjunct, for being considered valuable to the department and university

Told I Was Dying Of PICK's Disease, 2000, Dead by 2002 . . . How to Get Rid of Smart Female Attorney, Who Keeps Kicking the Shit Out of the Government!  Took 8 Years of My Life, My Relationship With My Kids . . . Stealing ID!

SOME OF THE CASES--REACTIVATED LAW LICENSE IN 2009

  • member of Utah State Bar, U.S. Federal District of Utah Bar, U.S. 10th Circuit Court of Appeals, and the United States Supreme Court Bar, January 23, 2012, 4 Certificates of Good Standing from the Utah Supreme Court . . . until the day, I got sworn in to that court, chased, harassed, intimidated, character assassination, death threats, attempted homicides, by scores, continues to today!
  • reactivated law license 2009, October 1, 2009, for the Brock et al v. Herbert et al, $357 securities case, news broke out nationwide, January 17, 2010, New York Investment News . . . No Big Love in Utah, not kidding, still isn't!
    • what the fraud units, had been doing to the physicians, they were now going after financial planners securities license
    • clients looked for 10 years, for an attorney who would and could take the case . . . you needed understanding of constitutional, civil, criminal, administrative, securities law . . . just securities attorneys were worth, $500 to $700 per hour, I took the case, with the understanding that I would get 1/3, at the end of the case, win, for $20 per hour, until the appeal to the 10th Circuit, and then for a mere $60 per hour . . . how do you like them apples, that after I won, slaughter, really, Brock and Rice, teamed with government to cut me out of the winnings!
      • wanted me to pay tithing--NO, wanted me to donate to BYU--NO, no campaign contributions, either, and I was an Obama supporter, and was going to use my $118 million to set up a constitutional law firm from hell, to be the fourth arm of the government, watching every civil rights violation that came down the track and train the best and the brightest new attorneys coming out of law school, in my way!  The American Way, the red, white and blue, true, freedom, liberty, rights, etc. . . . they didn't want that!
  • most of my cases were landmark, trend setting, and bringing back the constitution, read by many, paid to be read by many law firms across the nation, making a shit load of money for the U.S. federal district court of Utah, and again, the very people who were benefiting thanked me by giving my cases away, bribing, cutting deals, without the winner attorney involved, deals were made, then steals were had . . . there are a thousand ways to steal, kill, hide money, divert, double docket, steal e-filing accounts, court clerk wheeling and dealing, with non-attorneys, and fucking the integrity of the courts!
    • Cheek et al v. Garrett et al, $ 56,7 million, took down narcotics cops, planting 51 pieces of evidence in Shane Clark's house, Cedar City, among other things . . . Iron County Corruption case, every cop in the nation, knows this case . . . Garrett and Judge Westfall, Judge Walton, all said that Shelley was me!  I even gave them copies of my U.S. Supreme Court Bar Certificate!  No excuse that they didn't know that I had taken the case to that level!  Listed in Eagle, Legal Eagle, as great case . . . buried once I discovered it!  Kelly Ann Booth, was given the case, President Monson, Mormon Church Pres., granddaughter, let Garrett and Judge Miller off the case, Haylee is still in prison, or suppose to be serving a 6 years sentence, but I think as part of the deal to let Garrett, Iron County Attorney, off the hook, she was released, they, the local newspapers, just run an article, like the other day, that Haylee was denied early release, bull shit, she was probably let, back in 2012, when the deals on the case were cut, and I was safely chased into Montana!  Misty & Dennis, purchased 2 homes in Las Vegas, worth $1 million, and got $1900 per month for their grandchildren, or Haylee's kids . . . check that one out!
    • Thomas G. Vail, about $400 million worth of cases against, Las Vegas Review Journal, state of Nevada, Pioneer Insurance, and others . . . called me after we had demand letters and I had put up with the fucker for a year and half, all but free, with the 1/3 looming for two $10 million, until Tom said he had lunch with the CIA, and probably Kay, and then he started to say he never had a contract with me, really, I sent him a retainer agreement, he paid me $2500 and partook of my services, and later after meeting with the CIA, said he never signed the contract . . . dumb asses, have they ever heard of an IMPLIED CONTRACT, the old milk case . . . you drink the milk, you have an implied contract and you PAY!
    • State v. Allan Rex Bess, originally for attempted homicide, lowered to aggravated assault, and drug related charges . . . I got Allan from looking at 45 years in prison, down to 3 years probation, until, assassins, Shelley who shot Allan, with a 22 behind the ear, Frank's favorite method of assassination, and Frank came in a cut up the body, burned it in the new furnace, mixed up the remains with cement, that was used to plaster walls, until I brought Frank down from cabin at Panguitch Lake, then he tried to remove ashes and evidence . . . I would check, window in the basement, with the cement, half wall, and I bet you could find DNA, crapping the walls.  I married Frank, thinking it was Allan!  Frank & Shelley were to be, Me and Allan! They deserve the death penalty for this shit!  Firing squad is great!
    • State v. Michael Shane Clark, purchase of drugs from confidential informant, controlled buy, set up by cops, Adams smoked too, later Officer McIntyre, dropped drugs at work site of Shane, to frame him for threatening cop's confidential informant, who followed him to work, taunting him, the night after Haylee had been arrested and a day before, Travis Brauh was arrested . . . all friends, all against criminal justice, or criminal injustice system
    • State In the Matter of Haylee's Kids v. Haylee Cheek, parental termination case, Judge Higby, dip shit!
    • State In the Matter of Guthrie Kids v. Josh & Cindy Guthrie, parental termination, bitch assistant attorney general, Holt, met her match
    • State v. Baum, took three assistant attorney generals, tag teaming me on this one
    • State v. Lamerauex, alleged homicide, with cops shooting his wife, Misty, framing Tristan, I took case, after he was sentenced, and got a new trial against assistant attorney general, but Iron County would not pay me, after a year and a half of working free!  I qualified on all counts by statutory laws for contract attorneys, they just knew I would take out the cops and National Guard!  That is why Delta Force Intelligence were brought in, Frank and crew, to save cops and National Guard!
    • State v. Travis Braun, Feds v. Travis Braun . . . I beat U.S. Attorney, Paul Kohler, or Co liar, stating that Rachel, or Shelley, or Kay did the gig . . . FBI Foote was a liar too, both knew me, no excuses!
    • Hope Carlton-Levin v. Levin, former Playboy Bunny Centerfold v. JewiLsh, One wonder rock star . . . move to Utah, they will protect you!  And they did, but Hope threw me under the bus, for money!  I created a new, 10 prong test, to determine alimony payments/cohabitation claims, I did that in a 19 page brief to Judge Lyle, Lie All, Anderson, Shelley's last name was Anderson, again, credit went to some other bitch!  I appealed the case up to the Utah Court of Appeals, which must have been into the fraud too, and a federal court clerk, Patricia Bartholomew, was murdered, with her husband, up in the Unitah Forest, allegedly being hit in a head on, while riding their motorcycle!  She was an acquaintance at the courts, and we had talked on several occasions . . . I had three cases on appeal, one was my house, at 3770 Sugar Leo, St.  George, after winning at the federal court level, Judge John Walton with Shelley and the crew of judges, Tena Campbell, Ted Stewart, and others, who worked with Iron and Washington counties to steal it back!
    • Rachel Hickey Moosman vs. Wells Fargo, American First Title, Christian Hickey . . . these guys lost on a default, from Judge Brook Wells, U.S. Magistrate . . . they took the house, even after a win, and being in the house for over a year and a half, totally decorated, and Judge John Walton, took the house, when the case was not even two years from its completion, as confirmed by Dennis the clerk of the 5th District Court in St. George, but they did take it the day before, I was to argue in the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals in Denver, where Kay, with Brock and Rice, argued down the hall, from where I was suppose to argue after I kicked the shit out of the government attorneys!  Forgery, representing herself as me, first a deal, then a steal at the U.S. Supreme Court, with the knowledge of the court!
    • Farley Anderson v. State of Utah . . . unanimous win at the Utah Supreme Court, name listed on that, voting issues!  Third party candidate
    • State of California v. David Morgan, small domestic violence case, husband trying to stop wife from arguing in front of her children, postpartum depression, baby 2 months old, she kicked a glass table, cut her face--not much more than a butterfly bandage . . . 3 cops came, told he had an arsenal of guns (he had put them in the back yard, to get them out of wife's reach), they told him to give him the baby, and as he gave the baby to them, they handcuffed him, and beat the shit out of him, split his head open, took 18 staples to put his head back together . . . when he would not agree to a plea bargain for a 4 year prison sentence, the balifs would take him out during jury breaks, and beat him, while the judge and the prosecutor watched . . . he was one of the most handsome men I have ever seen, local Parowan, Utah boy, married to a very politically connected woman, daddy in legislature, trained attorneys on tax information, or something like that . . . making a political statement against guns, in California!  He was housed, now a parapoligic in a wheel chair, by the time I saw him, originally to go to the Pleasant Valley Prison, but after jumping through all the hoops to get a visit, the day before I was scheduled to go to California, my own expense, they moved him to San Quentin Prison, up by Oakland and San Francisco, and it took me two hours more driving.  I was told I had a full 8 hours to talk to him, once he started to tell me about the cops, prosecutors, and judges, dirty, abusing power, violating his constitutional rights, civil rights he demanded, were reason for beatings, throwing him in gang riots, taking him 150 miles to get medical treatment, putting him the back of a van, not strapping the wheelchair in, and letting him bang, hit, fall all over the back, laughing as he fell and couldn't do anything . . . but the second he told me anything, feds, stormed out, wheeling him away, while I was screaming they couldn't take his rights, he is looking back, trying to give me paperwork to substantiate his claims . . . when I came in, I noticed a stately looking black attorney, and saw that he was driving a car with U.S. government plates, and as we waited for our prisoners, he said what are you here for, and I told him a civil rights case, I asked him, he said, to listen!  At the time I didn't know what he was talking about, thought to listen to his client, no, it was to listen to me, but there was a complete violation of my clients civil rights!  The next time I went 700 miles to see him, they staged a fake riot at the prison, and forced me to go, just as David started to tell me what happened and give me paperwork . . . but, I believe, that by this time, he and his family had been bribed, because he didn't seem as happy to see me, his whole demeanor changed, and he didn't seem upset at the interruption, because the government, could see that I was not giving up, so they saved the California Penal System the trouble and the exposure and bribed the Morgans, because from that point on, they had money, seemed more interested in going to dinner, gambling, and doing everything but sitting down and getting stuff on the case done . . . but this is the pattern for all my cases, fucking huge cases, and just like clockwork, the government meets with them, promises them whatever, once I have won the case, and they have no other option, but to let me win and take the contingency fees, and they sure as hell don't want me to get paid for MY WORK!
  • a case against the Department of Justice and Homeland Security, representing a woman, in a case of collection on the Home Town Hero Act, any person killed, within three years of 9/11 was automatically, entitled, or their spouses, were entitled to a $350,000 insurance policy award, if they were a cop or a firefighter . . . this woman's husband, had been both, in fact, the day he allegedly drove off a 40 foot cliff on his 4 wheeler, while working unarmed, watching 12 hard core prisoners, out supervising, them digging fence posts, in some fire conservation measure, some murderers, rapists, all very hard core, but no worry, this former, hard ass, former bull rider, and rancher, man handled this crew, with regularity . . . and it looked like they took a shovel to his face, smashing his face in from the side, implanting his sunglasses into his face, then staged an accident.  They, the government had refused to compensate his widow, for 6 years, and so after viewing the tapes, which I saw as a cover up for total negligence for not allowing Arie to have a gun out in nowhere land, with criminals and inmates, who had every opportunity to hurt, kill, or maim him and run, were completely negligent, and I was going for a wrongful death case, rather than just the insurance, which had been denied . . . that night, my home office had been broken into, and the CD, that was originally thought be an autopsy report, was actually a cover up for a murder, was taken, and within days, my whole office, house, law practice, furniture, art, grand piano, clothes, briefs, computers . . . everything was stolen, they just rolled me up, to use a jail or prison term, when they are getting rid of you!  
    • my emails were being rerouted from me, to Washington, D.C., to Sara Lily, the case worker on this case, and then going to my clients, who alerted me to the face, and the dentist who told me, a healthy, 40 year old, weight lifter, Mormon, was allegedly drunk, riding his 4 wheeler, down the hill by his house, and ran into a telephone pole, killing him . . . symbolic of the case he ratted the government on, riding a 4 wheeler to his death--I guess this was a sign and a message to me, that they were not taking this case lightly, and they proved that by killing the dentist, and raiding the evidence, and when I noticed right off the bat that the DVD, that looked like fabricated joke, covering the negligence, ending with motorcycle helmets on a shelf indicating in this silent film, that had he worn a helmet, he would have been okay!  Bull shit!
  • I had a bunch of mortgage foreclosure cases, that I would just, at least for the most part, do court appearances, but I was getting wins, on issues that no one else in the nation was, and saved a few houses, one $700,000 home in Salt Lake City, Utah . . . I am sure, sister, Shelley, took credit, no, the judge had filed a motion to dismiss, at the point I took the case, and won, forcing an attorney from Van Cott Bagley, to his knees, giving my client his house back!  I think that Shelley, did some type of Quieten motion, or a brief, working with Attorney General, Mark Shurtleff, using my work, and ideas, to get the multi-million lawsuit or money that was suppose to go to homeowners, which led to him, helping her steal my identity, shutting down my house, the day before I was to fly to Denver and do oral arguments in the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals, May 9, 2011!

Legislation Worked on in Montana

  • Salish-Kootenai Water Compact, did several constitutional analysis, testified in the Montana Legislature, House Judiciary Committee, April 20, 2013, stopped compact from going through, saved the state tax payers, $55 million dollars and state's water
    • worked on the compact, constitutional analysis, Hellgate Treaty of 1855 analysis, wrote several blogs on the issues to educate, worked with Senator Verdell Jackson, but he may claim doubles, Republicans, since I am not a member of any party, and support Pres. Obama
  • Abortion . . . parental notification statutes
  • Wild Horses & Burros
  • Medical Marijuana legislation, did constitutional and new proposed legislation analysis
  • presented at the Montana Federation of Republican Women's Statewide Training, September 27, 2013 . . . originally suppose to train, on Constitution Day, the 17th . . . think,  Rachel may have substituted as a pure Republican version of me!  LOL!  I did the power training the week after, because, they said, that I died, back in Hamilton, Montana, around October or November 2012, just before the presidential elections . . . I am sure that Rachel got credit for being too smart to fall for their trap, but someone was murdered in my place!  Too bad Rachel wasn't driving, she would have been killed, but she is more than willing to take credit for all the really cool things I do, and I get credit for her fucking DUI in Utah and I don't drink . . . I get shit, they get GOLD!
  • in Utah, between 1994 to 2000 worked on legislation that had to do with my jobs, listed above, and I was very effective in both killing and passing legislation.

Speaking Engagements About 3 Times a Week to Hundreds

HIGHLIGHT EVENTS

  • being flown down to Girl's State, in the Governor's private jet, with O'lene Walker, Lt. Governor, and several other government state officials, in no other than Cedar City!  I told the girls, when asked what was the most important thing to do to become an attorney for a woman, and other than their grades, to learn to golf!  I was interviewed by a panel of 5 male attorneys who were all golfers, and in the personal part of my resume, I had listed golf as an interest!  And did that ever pay off, as me, my boss, a cop, several social workers, blitzed the state doing training on domestic violence, we would finish our training at around 3 p.m. and hit the golf courses!  All the other women, had to just walk around the course with us, and by the end of the trainings, I was beating all the male golfers!  Also in law school, they sponsored a golf tournament, and i was the only female law student, and the guys didn't want me on their team, because it was a best ball event, kind of a team game, and they didn't want a woman on their team, and much like in the practice of law, they underestimated my abilities, and I kicked their asses!  LOL!  We also had a golf tournament that the Utah Medical Association sponsored and the same thing happened, I was one of the only females in the legislative golf tournament, and again we were playing best ball, and the doctors were shocked at how well I golfed. I had been a golfer since, junior high, and I continued to play, for years, even pregnant . . . I was asked to play on the Utah State Women's Golf Team, before, or at the time the government was trying to compensate for the inadequate college sports, with regard to women . . . I never saw the people who asked me to be on the team, because I think the other colleges, were already on semester systems, and they were getting out, before the season would be over, but I got to golf free up at the Logan Golf Course . . . Loved it, no pressure, always played with men, but once played with a female BYU golfer, and she was fucking amazing, so far better than I was, but she was 19 and I hadn't played, and was about 36 years old, but fun and impressive.  So ladies, you have my advice, you are left out of about everything, if you are in professions like the law, medicine, business, because the deals are cut on the golf courses!
    • P.S., Rachel, Shelley, Susan, Tiff, don't golf for sure, unless, the government dip shits have figured out that there are some distinctive characteristics that make it impossible for them to steal my ID, and golfing is one of them!  LOL!  Kay might golf, because Brett did, or he hit balls, but I could beat her, without arms, as I can in the law!  LOL!
  • I was the Keynote Speaker at a health conference for teens at McKay Dee0 Hospital, to 1300 youth from around the state, training them on dating violence and other anger management issues, as I recall, that was fun . . . and they were a great, lively audience, there to learn!
  • I had my own anger management company, hooking up with Mitch Messer, of the Chicago Anger Clinic, who presented once at a domestic violence training I attended, and he agreed to let me promote his book, in return for using his material, which was the best stuff I had seen . . . so for years, I charged $500 per hour for a minimum of a two hour session, unless it was the tax payers of Utah that had to pay my bill, then I did it free, figured it was my tithes and offerings, that I refused to pay the Mormon Church!  LOL!  I was flown to Oklahoma to present to 750 public employees, way fun and good pay!  I trained cops, department of transportation, spoke at two governor's conferences, PTA statewide training, but AG Jan Graham stopped that one, I was getting top billed over her and she stopped my speaking engagements if she could!  Jealous!  But I spoke to tons of groups, and was in too high a demand, was going to go pro, but I couldn't get anyone trained, including Kay, to take my place, they just didn't have the style, the charm, the passion, the stories, and the power I did!
  • I was a shoo in for office, waitresses in Richfield, Utah, at 10:00 p.m., knew my name, and the cops, prosecutors, not judges at that point, but political enemies knew that . . . I could have won easily, by name recognition only, I very strategically, took every job offered to me, spanning from dealing with crimes, domestic violence networks, to the elderly, to physicians, taught at 3 colleges, over an 8 year period of time with literally, hundreds of student, who adored me!  Of course!  LOL!  So, I had it in the bag, but I wanted to be the 4th district, Congresswoman, from Utah, but I was 15 years premature, or they didn't give it to Utah, because they knew I would win, hands down at that time . . . census issues with missionaries was allegedly the problem!  RIGHT!

Just a Skeleton Sketch . . . Hogsback!  Yes, I Did All This and Much More, Just Doing the Basics, So My Future Law Firm, with My Attorney Kids, if They Want--is a Dream!  I Want Them to Get a Look at Mom's Credibility and Why They Want to Claim it All, Cool Shit!


Thursday, April 16, 2015

GENIUS TOUCHED YOUR SOUL; BE FABULOUS! . . . HOT FOOD! PRICKLY CITY . . . POWER OUTAGE, HOME TURF--WAITING FOR 50 SWAT TEAM MEMBERS TO COME CRASHING INTO DENNY'S, ST. GEORGE, UTAH . . . MEMBER OF THE ST. GEORGE, SPECTRUM, WRITER'S GROUP, PRESUMED GUILTY AT THE JUSTICE COURT, OXYMORON! SHOCKING TO WATCH 1998 FILM, ENEMY OF THE STATE--BEGINNINGS OF NSA SHIT--THINK I AM PARANOID . . . CHECK OUT HOW GOVERNMENT SANCTIONED GOONS & SURVEILLANCE CAN TRACK WILL SMITH . . . THINK WHERE SURVEILLANCE IS AT TODAY! SOME OF THE CLASSIC STATEMENTS, THAT ARE SO RELEVANT ABOUT THE CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM, MADE BY THE CHARACTER, GERARD BUTLER PLAYS, IN "LAW ABIDING CITIZEN" . . . WE HAVE A CREDIBILITY CRISIS IN OUR JUSTICE SYSTEM, NEEDS TO BE OVERHAULED! GOING BACK TO THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION, THE OATH ALL COPS, PROSECUTORS & JUDGES TOOK, IN ONE FORM OR ANOTHER, BEFORE ENTERING THEIR PROFESSIONS . . . MOST EITHER FORGOT THEY TOOK THAT OATH, OR THEY DIDN'T TAKE IT SERIOUS WHEN THEY TOOK IT, OR THEY CAN'T SEE THE RELEVANCE TO WHAT THEY DO ON A DAILY BASIS . . . AND THAT IS TRULY THE MOST PATHETIC! GOOD STUFF GOING ON IN UTAH TOO . . . SERVING OPPORTUNITY WITH ISLAND FLAVOR--AT-RISK YOUTH GET TRAINING TO RUN ISLAND GRINDS RESTAURANT; WATER CANYON SCHOOL, DRAWING NATIONAL ATTENTION, BRINGING POLYGAMISTS IN SOUTHERN UTAH, OUT OF THE SECRET CORNERS OF SOCIETY & THEIR COMMUNITIES, TO INTERFACE WITH THE COMMUNITY, SCHOOL DISTRICTS, LEAVING THE CONFINES OF THEIR RELIGION, FOR THE FIRST TIME, GETTING A TOUCH OF LIFE OUTSIDE THEIR CLOISTERED HIDEOUTS, PLAYING SPORTS, GETTING TRAINED IN MATH, SCIENCE, ENGLISH, SCHOOL SUBJECTS, PLUS TECHNICAL & TRADE EDUCATION, PREPARING THEM FOR LIFE IN THE OUTSIDE WORLD! WELCOME BACK!

Credibility is the Only Thing that Counts Now Days!

THE FIX IS IN!

Local member of The Spectrum & Daily News, St. George, Writer's Group, Ben D. Mahaffey, laments the fact that he was given a ticket by a local cop, recently, for an improper lane change.  Mr. Victim Misnomer, stated that, [T]he officer who cited me was sitting in his squad car, backed into the turning lane, next to a fireplug, facing in the opposite direction.  His vision to the rear was from a seven-inch rear-view mirror.  The distance was 150 feet.  He said that I made a right-hand turn directly into the inside lane from the outside lane.  I was upset at what I thought considered to be an unfair ticket and decided to appeal the case.
  • the clerk of the Justice Court tried to talk the appellant out of filing an appeal . . . Why are you doing this?  It takes up court time.  Just pay the ticket and be done with it.
  • the assistant prosecuting attorney, informed Ben that he would have to go to court, sit and watch all the current trials, until he decides to call him out . . . you are then privileged to talk to him, standing up, in a noisy hall, without privacy to discuss your case, in other words, making the prosecutor actually do his job!
  • this jack ass lazy ass attorney, just read the arrest warrant and looked at Ben, and said, You are guilty!
  • in response, Ben, said he had some photos and drawings to show to him.  The prosecutor just shoved them back to the alleged defendant and appellant, and said, What do these have to do with you being guilty of an improper turn?  I have processed hundreds of tickets by this officer and he is never wrong!  If you don't like it, go to trial.

NUREMBERG TRIALS

  • three armed sheriff's deputies in the hall; three armed sheriff's deputies next to the judge, and three city police officers in the audience . . . how dare, a little insignificant citizen, the cop's real boss, as tax payers, dare to question one of the judge, jurors, and executors, that terrorize our streets!  There is this sentiment, across the country, that each citizen has been broken into a value unit, of what the state, that can't earn or produce money, thinks it can extract from all of us . . . about $1,000 in fines and fees, tickets and whatever, to fatten the coffers of the gluttonous city, county, state and national budgets!  Mr. GQ citizen, said he was sure that his fine, was needed to pay for these lazy ass, welfare, cops, adding to the bloodsuckers off the system, that should be as offensive to Republicans as any welfare mother, homeless person, Vet, or the elderly, that 47%, Mitt didn't see he needed to cater to!  But the exponential and explosive growth, as seen in this courtroom, hell, they are not a burden on the system!  Are you fucking kidding me . . . generally, or back in the day, a few years ago, there was one bailiff who served that particular judge or courtroom . . . what the hell happened?
  • Ben was not able to present the possibility, that the officers, sitting smugly on the witness stand, bored and indifferent, might have had impaired vision or that the officer, himself, was illegally and dangerously parked, when he observed and ticketed him?
  • Ben's testimony, all the evidence, everything he tried to introduce, to the court was declared irrelevant . . . even Ben was considered IRRELEVANT!
  • surprise, surprise, surprise . . . Ben was declared GUILTY!  I am surprised that the court didn't order his home taken, all his furniture was to be absconded from his home, and his vehicles impounded, or targeted with pipe-bombs . . . oh, that would have been reserved for his attorney, if he had gotten a bad ass con law chick, such as myself!
  • Ben, had the audacity to wonder where his constitutional protections were, the presumption of innocence, equal protection of the law, the right to face his accusers and to challenge his testimony . . . because Homeland Security, Patriot Act babies, like these cops, prosecutor, and the judge, like Hitler's SS men, are above the law, and don't need to answer to mere citizens, who pay their fucking salaries!  And what about the speedy trial . . . you scum of the earth, citizen, what 13 months, is not speedy, we were hoping to take so long, that you would just forget about it!
  • Ben, reminds, me and the rest of the readers, that tickets are an important part of the city funding, and in another article, City coffers growing steadily, 1A, Thursday, 4.16.15, . . . the cops, prosecutors, judges, all get paid out of the funds, fight for the surcharges, that 90% addition, on top of the cost of the ticket!  And, when you, Ben, are long gone from the presence of the judge, he will have to work with the prosecutor and the cop, so, is there any wonder, that the innocent are found guilty, and the fucking guilty are let free . . . all sucking out of the same pot!

News Flash, Ben . . . The Fix Has Been in Since 9/11, When the Patriot Act was Passed!  Didn't You Know the Constitution is Just a Piece of Damned PAPER!  Pres. Bush II

Two Movies for the Very Smart, the Very Angry!

As I write my blogs each day, what I used to think was the brilliance of the YouTube gods, was actual computerized response to my own thinking and writing, kicking up movies, that seem to reflect some of the issues that I bring up, as I write, bitch and moan!  In the last two days, I reviewed, two movies, that I had seen before, but seem to have particular relevance to the world we live in today . . . Enemy of the State, which, not surprising to any of you who know me, down in this part of the state, country and world, will be fully informed, that I am considered a big time, enemy of not only this state, but the church, too!  And a more recent movie, Law Abiding Citizen, the story of a family, who, during a robbery, the husband, Butler, is tied up, with his mouth duck taped, shut, wounded, as he watches his wife murdered, almost raped, and his daughter, kidnapped and later found dead.  The prosecutor, some hot shot, Ivy league law grad, plea bargains the case out, a favorite of prosecutors, saves time, keeps their win/loss record, as spotless, and on the win, side of the ledger, regardless of where justice falls, and eventually, Butler, comes back to kick the prosecutor and his lazy ass, plea, giving the wrong guy the electric chair, for ratting on his partner in crime, culminating in the city being terrorized, many people being killed, until Bulter is able to teach the prosecutor, the cops, and the city, a lesson on criminal justice reform!

Enemy of the State . . . a horrifying look, at just how up close and personal, the NSA can get to watching your every move!  The movie, was filmed back in 1998, and I was so shocked to see that it was dealing with surveillance programs, what, almost, 20 years before, your average Joe Citizen, ever heard of Edward Snowden, or even that they were being spied on!  The movie opens with a Congressman, being murdered, who opposes the national act and legislation, on constitutional grounds of privacy, and also, because of the number of jobs, that companies in his district will lose because of the act, that is so invasive of a person's privacy rights, and other constitutional protections, against such invasions!  Not only is the Congress murdered, but a bird watcher, who accidentally, catches the murder on video, when discovered, is targeted, chased, and eventually murdered!  People say I am paranoid, really, I spent the last 4 nights, in Durango, Colorado, with cops, looking for me, at least, what I could tell, or knew about, there were 3 hits on me, in one night!  I have 25 people, who were murdered in connection with my cases, down here in southern Utah!  A friend, who had a Ph.D, worked for NSA and CIA, respectively, was just murdered, by the SS men, in Littlefield, AZ, for telling me to watch my blog, and that these bad dudes, were pissed, as I am sure they are about this blog today, and everyday, and they will be, until they trash, the Patriot Act bull shit, or at least apply it to foreign terrorists, where it was intended to be used, and stop targeting and spying on CITIZENS, who created the federal government, and other governments, to protect their rights, not take them away . . . we created you, and we can get rid of you!  There are roughly 400, 000 million people, and only a fraction of government employees, like cops!

Declaration of Independence . . . if ever, this form of government, doesn't meet the needs of the people . . . change it!  Anyone for SPRING CLEANING?  This is long overdue!

This is the Bad & the Ugly Part . . . Now for the Good . . . in the GOOD, the Bad & the Ugly!

Wow, I am hitting all the hot button issues in southern Utah, the Constitution, which is not only for all mankind, in modern, Mormon scripture, D&C, 98 . . . which states, that anything, more or less, than that, referring to the U.S. Constitution, which protected the early saints, from the government, they so fervently embrace now, that they have infiltrated so much of it . . . is EVIL!  And, as I have mentioned, even Mormons in Utah, take oaths of office, to basically, protect, defend and preserve the Constitution from both, foreign and domestic enemies . . . look at the partner in the next squad car, the prosecutors or the judge, who fails to uphold the Constitutions of both national and state!  Forget terrorists, we have enough to worry about in our own, fucking courtrooms, as Ben, so eloquently wrote about! Sorry, I took this GREAT oath seriously, and I intend to force you, as far as I can, to abide by it, as being part of my duty to preserve, protect and defend it!  To do less, would be evil, and when in Rome, do what the Romans or the Mormons do . . . . and preach out of their own books!  Nothing condemns anyone, more than their own texts, testimonies, and prophets!

The Islanders Are Bringing It Home For At-Risk Kids . . . And Not Just Kids of Their Own Flavor, but ALL Youth in This Community!

Paki and Tose Tiatia . . . are cooking it up for youth!  Paki used to be, or maybe still is a youth corrections officer, who saw that youth need help, to get somewhere in life!  Amen Brother!  Plato, in his essay, on the Republic . . . where we got the term a Republican form or representative form of government, said, that if parents fail to teach their children about the law, then society will.  The juvenile justice system, can do that, but loving members of the community, like this husband and wife, duo, who have the ability to go beyond the four corners of their own home and restaurant, open the arms in their circle of love, to include at-risk youth, not only letting kids work off community service hours, earn a bit of money, or get training on culinary art skills and life skills . . . teaching them to live, productively in this world, with skills, education and support . . . THANK YOU!  

Not everyone, is lucky enough to have great people, like these two as their parents, as reminded to me by a judge in Montana, who said, in a training last summer, when he said, he is shocked that some of the kids, who come in his courtroom, really are amazing, considering the parents, many of them, he had seen years ago, in his courtroom, strung out on drugs, in trouble with the law, or losing their own children, due to problems, but some of these kids just need a bit of support, loving guidance, some job skills, and they are off and running!  As demonstrated by this couple, we can do this for our kids!  Some of the goals of the academy, called New Beginnings Academy and Island Grinds Authentic Foods and Catering, is help youth and preserve cultures within our community through music, dance and food . . . what could be more fun than that?  This is not just for the youth, but for the whole community!

AWESOME . . . they serve 50 to 150 free meals a week, for those in need it and can be had every Wednesday from 2 to 5 p.m.!  Donations to kick back to the Wednesday event are always welcome . . . JUST PAY IT FORWARD!  I am all about this with the Tiatia's, they love doing this, and they love to help kids and they love food!  Now, I just need to find me a big Islander, so I can enjoy this food, with him, and forget these scrawny boys, and thinking about watching what I eat . . . I don't need to lose weight, I just need a BIGGER GUY!  LOL!

God Bless, Those Who Help Our YOUTH . . . They Are OUR Future!  Keep Up the Good Work, New Beginnings & Water Canyon School!  Changing Lives & Hearts for LIFE!

Another Turn of the Crank!  Genius Touched Your Soul!



Wednesday, April 15, 2015

HARD PUNCH--UNDER THE DEVIL'S THUMB--TWISTED X BOOTS . . . POINT OF INTEREST ON POWER TRIO: OLD SCHOOL PARALLAX, GOD'S REVOLVER, MARALOKA . . . LISTEN FREE ON YOUTUBE, FULL CD OF LITTLE BLACK HORSE--EVEN BETTER NOW THAT I'VE LIVED IN COWBOY CULTURE--TREY'S INFLUENCE, ONE OF THE PISTOL STEEL GUITARS OF GOD'S REVOLVER! PUT BRAKES ON PURCHASE OF CD, MONEY GOING TO WRONG HANDS . . . TRANSFER TO DITCH IN THE DELTA--PROMISE IT WILL BE GOOD TOO, TALENT IS TALENT, SO BAND GETS THE MONEY, SATISFACTION & RECOGNITION THIS TIME! THIS IS A CATCH 22 SITUATION--BUYING PIRATED, BANDIT PRODUCT--FAKE ELLIOT, ISAAC, SEE SINGER FOR EARLY MARALOKA VIDEOS--NOT GUITAR PLAYER, WELL COFFEE SHOP, ACOUSTIC--CHECK THIS OUT-- AS COUS TIC, OR AS COUSIN TICKED, CAN'T HIDE TRUTH--PART OF THE WORD--ABOUT TIME YOU WERE TICKED, PENCIL DICK!, SAID HIS FRIEND--BRETT, MY TWISTED X BOOTS & FRIENDS, MUSCLED THE OWNERSHIP OF LITTLE BLACK HORSE . . . IT HAD A POOR MAN'S COPYRIGHT, SO LEGALLY PROTECTED--BUT SUING AT THIS POINT NOT PRACTICAL; PROMOTER GOT PAID TO STOP PROMOTING HARD ROCK & METAL BAND OF 2008--GO FIGURE!, CUT BAND OUT, PLAINS MISTAKEN FOR STARS! PIGS KIDS SUBSTITUTED IN! MAMA, LAW ABIDING CITIZEN (MOVIE) IS VERY SMART & VERY ANGRY . . . DUNKIN' DONUTS RIGHT & LEFT AS SOLE AUTHOR & OWNER OF BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK BLOG--PIRATED TOO . . . THEY WILL PAY, THEY ALL BENEFITED FROM THE TUNE ROBBERS! FUNKY BREW BOOGALOO--WATCH WHAT GERARD BUTLER DOES TO COPS, PROSECUTORS & JUDGES IN FREE MOVIE, LAW ABIDING CITIZEN! AND THESE GUYS DESERVE IT EVEN MORE, THEY HATE THE PAYBACK . . . TOTAL CRIMINALS, LAUNDERING MONEY THROUGH CHARITABLE GRANTS, FOUNDATIONS, & FEEDING THE HUNGRY--BUYING LOYALTY, DOESN'T CLEAN THE MONEY, NOR ERASE THE PATTERNS OF CRIMINAL ACTIVITIES, RICO ACTIONS, MOB ACTIVITIES! HEAT & ASSASSINS ALIVE & WELL IN DURANGO, COLORADO LAST FEW DAYS, BOX TROLLS--NSA STOPPING TRUTH! HEADING TO BEAVER DAMN FOR BOOT CAMP; I WILL GET THESE GUYS--UNTIL THEY ARE EITHER IN JAIL OR DEAD! ROASTERS, ALL COPY PRODUCTS, JESTER'S COURT . . . I'M IN GRAND JUNCTION, COLORADO, LEAVING--THIS IS KAY'S, FAKE ELLIOT TAYLOR SECRIST'S MOTHER, AKA ME, HATE THE BITCH! LOL! DUMB BITCH--CLAIM YOUR SHIT KIDS--TERRITORY, SHE, THE GUILTY, IS PROTECTED BY COPS, AND BUDDIES IN DURANGO--INNOCENT TARGETED, THREE HITS & ONE COP CHASING ME THE OTHER NIGHT, BOOKED IT OUT OF TOWN, THIS MORNING, 7:00 A.M., VIA, ROAD RUNNER BUS--LEAVING DOUBLES IN THE DUST! BEST WESTERN . . . STAY TUNED, WILL GET EVEN BETTER AS GUILTY ARE BROUGHT TO JUSTICE, EITHER LEGALLY OR MY WAY! TURN ABOUT IS FAIR PLAY! BLOOD LUST FOR YOUR SORRY ASSES! GOD SAID, VENGENCE IS MINE . . . THE DAY OF RECKONING IS COMING! JUSTICE FOR ALL! YOU WILL NOT ESCAPE HIS JUSTICE! E.T. + NORMAN ROCKWELL = GOD'S REVOLVER! PHONE HOME, E.T.! MOM

La Musica

The one thing that is really great about being gifted in one area or another, God given talents, is that he blesses you with an unending supply of creation, if you develop the gift, getting better and better with time.  Remember the parable of the talents--God or the Lord, gave one man 5 talents, one 2 as I recall, and another just one . . . the last guy took his talent and hid is under a basket, to protect it . . . the others used their talents, and God blessed them with more, and took the talent from the one how hid his talent, and gave it to the ones who would use their talents . . . Isaac had talent, he just decided to steal Elliot's bands work, rather than use his own talents!  Too bad!  In a way, he put his talent, for singing, aside, while with Maraloka, to disappear, and join the fake band, using God's Revolver music, thus losing what he was given!  
Elliot and the other members of his bands, are gifted and talented musicians, that work, write, play, and create, for the pure pleasure of the making music, the thrill of seeing their fans rock, dig, dance, sing and raise their hands, in the joy of the shared moment of the brilliance of the lyrics, the blending of the beats, rhythms, tone, mood, and all that it takes to make great music.  They say, that works of art, art works of art, because they have universal appeal!  I don't think the whiskey slamming group of musicians from Utah, a place of beauty, with a religion, of strange and mystical notions, even realized what they had done, in their drunken stupors!  LOL!  With every early interview, before the mob got involved, the music critics, could not believe that these 5 boys, could ever have been raised, in UTAH!  

In the New York Writer's Guild, who, shockingly wrote about the band, back in 2007 or 2008, which was a feather in the band's hat, as well as amazing to come to this esteemed magazine's attention, for Elliot's mother, who was an English major, carrying Elliot, while attending school, wondering if Elliot got educated, in vitro, at the same time I did, as the article, uses, literary terms to both describe and compliment the band's genius, drawing parallels to writer, William Faulkner . . . I thought, ironically, of his short story, A Clean, Well Lighted Place, even before I read the article, having thought of the description Faulkner used, to tell of the lighting, a single light bulb, if I remember, hung over the table . . . a memorable image for me, for some reason, and that thought came to mind, when I heard first heard the music.  The magazine also compared the inspired and thoughtful lyrics of Little Black Horse Where are You Going With Your Dead Rider? CD, to revolutionary thought leaders, during the 60's and 70's, Bob Dylan & Joni Mitchell!

He Has Not Had A Guitar Out Of His Hands For 20 Years!

Rock, metal, junk, blues, classical, jazz . . . Elliot can play anything!  As a music major, attending college at the University of Utah, I am sure that you are going to get some of his newly acquired knowledge, training, skill, and sophistication, in this new music, that I have not heard yet, in Ditch in the Delta Band, working as hard on his music as ever, while working, snowboarding, attending classes, and playing in his usual three bands at once!  All the other musicians, are equally as dedicated to the music, but I don't even know who is in this new band, nor what their name means, and what inspired them to call it that . . . it better not have been determined by another twisted X boot, of mine, from Delta Force Intelligence . . . who also seemed involved in naming Elliot's college jazz band, called the Assassins--I wondered if Allan, aka, Frank of InterPol, 4th proxy husband . . . part of the thieves, set up the band and the name!  The jazz band, was made up of 7 hot guys, with incredible talent, and they sounded like they should be performing in the Kennedy Center in New York . . . Hey, James, maybe we can arrange that?  LOL!

Recently, I watched the movie, E.T., about the extraterrestial visitor of the family, appearing to the young boy, Elliot!  By the time you get to your last or fourth kid, naming it is an after thought . . . I liked the name Elliot, given to the actor, so that was his name!  I don't know if Elliot even knows that, I was pregnant and almost ready to pop, when we took his older siblings to see the movie, that now, seems, so symbolic of talents that are as heavenly given, as this little visitor, in the cute kid's movie--just as fun, 32 years old--Elliot's birthday is May 3, 1983, and it was fun to think of that little baby in my stomach, at the time, and the movie inspiration, that gave me the idea for El's name, Elliot Taylor or E.T.!  Being in a band has another effect on a person, they become used to attention and their name being out there . . . my other son, protests every time I refer to him!  So, I call him, generally, my son without a name!  LOL!  I don't love one son more than the other, one doesn't seem to mind me writing about him, and the other does!  My nameless son, is not loveless . . . I adore him, he just doesn't want anyone to know, and his talents are in other areas--however, he is a musician also, he does electrical music, on turn tables and computers, good stuff that was also stolen, just not as high profile or known!  The miracle of surveillance . . . Brett met both of my boys, and all the fun and games started, with Isaac, Shelley, Jessie and Tiffany, making "Bandit" CDs, without names and labels, setting up bank accounts, and raiding ATM machines nightly!    

Shelley's checks were all written and business conducted, under Sterling Financial . . . Brett and I lived in Mt. Sterling!  Any connections, I would guess so!  It was a set up, get rid of mom and dad, steal son's band, after killing lead singer, Blake Donner . . . died 2004!  Parallax was kicking out CD after CD, as the heavy metal and grungy culture, started . . . big time money!  American greed, murder, music, money!

Ditch in the Delta . . . Hopefully, Ditch the Delta!

What inspired this blog, and the direction it took, was the bus was in Montros, or some small town, just as we were getting close to Grand Junction, and I noticed a truck on the side of the road, and several other items with the word, Delta, on them, taking not, because of this new band's name, and wondering what it stands for in the band's mind, but this truck, had markedly large, gold block letters, stating, "DELTA TRANSFER!"  I look at these things as signs, from God, as to what I should either do, or things seem to be instructional, from that extraterrestial being and my Intel guy, God, and I listen, read, think and wonder. So, I was that, and right after than, another billboard, that had a black horse, with a rider, and it was almost sitting on its, rump, looking like the horse was stopping from going somewhere or resisting going somewhere. That seemed related to the thoughts or directions the other sign was showing . . . I thought, stop pushing the old God's Revolver stuff, put the brakes on . . . and focus on transferring attention to Ditch in the Delta, solid gold!

So, here we are, to kill all of Medusa's heads or snakes, coming out her head, you have to cut off the head of the monster at the neck, ending life so to say for all the out shoots of the main source, or center, central, what the cops call, jail headquarters, and go for the leaders, who are making money off the old CD, no matter how good it is . . . this is where the Catch 22 comes in . . . my love for God's Revolver, the music, still gets me and moves me, the power of the message, the haunting lover's triangle, topics like pride, justification, sanctification, and other religious issues and Reid Rouse, lead singer, gives his heart and soul getting across the powerful messages of the songs, and leaving all that, and going for loyalty to this new band I know, nothing about!  But, I realized, there is a way, to meet the challenge of getting rid of the money changers, and thugs, who still get royalties, by not pushing purchasing the music, but still getting people to listen online, for free, as I did this weekend, with both God's Revolver and Maraloka, getting the biggest thrill from not only the music, but watching the evolution of the band, the members, the hair, the differences in the music, the growth, and love for my beautiful red haired son, that brings me so much pleasure and joy from his music.  Because he took the talents, and not only used the ones he was given, but he has increased the native talent, and improved it through pursuit of a music major in college . . . just love it, sit with a permanent grin, digging the hell out of the bands!

Like Mother, Like Son!

I remember telling Elliot, back in 2008, and again, in 2011, when his first Sony record came out, that the crew of bandits, were waiting like vultures, hovering over the music, both past and present to steal it away and Elliot, just said, I don't care.  What?  He was into another band, trying out new techniques, trying what he was learning in school, adding richness and depth to his music, he didn't have time to worry about music he had already gained the pleasure of making, it was onward and upward . . . he simply, loves to make music, he can't not make music, it is in his soul!  LOL!  I have heard to be successful in something, as well as make money, just do what you love, and the money will follow, which is not Elliot's focus.  I loved what Bernard Somners of New Order, the British band said in and interview, we didn't make the music for money, we made it to make HISTORY!  The Little Black Horse CD is historical, probably the first western made to music, or at least one of the originals to do that, blending two genres of music, peerless, rock & metal . . . I remember music critics not knowing exactly what to call the music, southern rock, metal, rock and metal, western rock, whatever!  The band probably would not change a thing!  It is just Elliot's pissed off mother!  I saw this from the get go, right off the bat, at the time, going to die, and sick at what Shelley and crew were doing!

As an attorney, taken out of the game, going to die, seeing your son, struggle with the legal aspects of protecting himself, although, very self-sufficient, I remember, feeling so helpless, with him telling me had done a poor man's copyright . . . remembering the term from law school, hoping that would keep their music safe from the sharks I saw circling the waters around him, after the pain of losing Blake and Parallax, after 7 years of struggle and playing together!  It may be more painful for the parents to see their children, shark bait, and having the tools to help them out, but not being in a position to help them!  But, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!  But, just like my son, I do what I do for the love of the law, love of the constitutions, love of writing, love of education, love of sharing knowledge and power!  I really don't give a rat's ass about the money . . . although, I object to people I fucking hate, taking either my son's money or mine, often using it against both of us!  In the intelligence world, they break'em and then make'em!  They act as if they are God, and they have the power to make or destroy, making them think that people are reliant on them, when in reality, the very people who destroyed them in the first place, are now appearing to be their friends and allies, turning them against the mother who drove the 12 year old band members, about 300 miles, twice a week for band practices, backyard concerts, and music lessons . . . it was done in love, but I hate to see, Shelley, Isaac's mother, who never, even ONCE, drove the three little rockers, ever, move in for the kill after doing none of the work!  That I object to!

Little Rockers of the Future . . . Evolution of a Rock God!

  • there is no short cut to success!  Rock stars don't just pop out of the wood work, unless they cheat, but all stars, spend years behind the scenes, learning from mistakes and failures, before they become stars . . . Beyonce' started at age 9, most stars do, they just get famous fast, after being discovered! So, it seems that this unheard of talent, is just discovered and bingo, they are famous overnight . . . rarely if ever happens!
  • use the talents you are given, and increase the ones that come naturally to you
  • always improve your talents, through practice, education, training, work, experience, sharing your talents
  • don't go into music or any other field for money, do what you do for the love of the work
  • they say, if you do what you love, you will always love what you do
  • God has unlimited power to increase your original talent, and he gives righteous stewards the increase, as taking from the man with one talent, and giving it to the man with 5, I think he also got the other guy's talents too, it seems like he got a total of 10!
  • practice makes perfect . . . Elliot got his first guitar at age 11 or 12, and he took lessons, or may even be still taking them now, he was last I heard, a year or so ago, and he always sees room to improve or learn from others . . . thanks to his teacher, Dave and others, who have loved, encouraged, and taught him his passion for music, even when his parents were rendered inoperable!
  • protect your music . . . the United States Constitution, has a provision that protects inventions, writings and the arts; therefore, if push came to shove and I sued the bastards and bitches that stole the thunder of the real magic musicians, they would face, the power of the Supreme Law of the Land, behind them, God's Revolver and the other power trio, of music, plus state laws and statutes, protecting copyright, patents, that line of intellectual property protections, but also, provisions protecting interference with contracts, as happened with the promoter, who got paid more to kill the band, and stop promoting the hard rock band of the day?  Does that make sense!  Hell no, foul play was involved!
  • don't give up . . . if there is one thing I have learned from my son, is to just keep truckin'!  He is all about the music, and moving forward, and God, seemed to say that today, don't worry about the past, look to the new band, Elliot is more talented today than he was back 10 years ago!  Because he has increased his talents, can't wait to see what he is up to!

Proud Mama . . . Happy Birthday, E.T.!

PHONE HOME!

P.S., I am just sitting at Roasted Expresso & Subs, writing this blog, in this funky coffee shop, rockin' the business today, crowded and fun music, while writing this blog about music.  I am looking at the books, stacked in the window, and one of them is entitled, SCUM, by Isaac Bashevis Singer!  How is that for a confirmation by God's powerful symbolic teaching . . . Isaac was Elliot's closest cousin, best friends, since birth, being born just months apart, so his betrayal is particularly painful to Elliot, I am sure, and Elliot's success was more than cousin could stand!  Isaac is talented, Shelley is smart, mother and son, could have been the same combo as me and Elliot, they just chose to steal their way to fame, fortune and acclaim, pushing the true people to the background with the help of fucking cops, prosecutors and judges!  But, once again, like mother, like son . . . both are fucking pond SCUM!  

Don't get brown haired, Elliot, of the movie, E.T., confused with Isaac, who actually has brown hair, that problem came to mind while watching the movie the other night, that the evil twins would use that to fuck the real Elliot--Isaac, means laughing one . . . God's Revolver, E.T., or Elliot Taylor Secrist, bass guitarist, for God's Band, is the red haired, boy,  or golden locked rock God of Maraloka, patterned after, Norman ROCKWELL's, painting of a young red haired boy, in overalls, with a frog in one hand, and a Yo Yo in another, freckled faced, and mischievous!

Isaac, is the DEAD FREE RIDER!  Enjoy, the Long & Lonely Ride to HELL!

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

SERIAL KILLERS INSIGHTS INTO THE DIFFERENCES OF WHAT DRIVES SEXUAL ATTRACTION; A SOPHISTICATED LOOK AT THE COMPLEXITY OF A RAPE WORTHY FACT PATTERN . . . NOT POLITICALLY CORRECT, BUT IT IS COMPLICATED! THIS SHADES OF GREY, IS DEDICATED TO LAURA, BOARD MEMBER OF THE MANNA SOUP KITCHEN & KAYLA, FLC INTERN . . . THEY WANT THE HOT JUICY STUFF! WE ALL LIKE THAT, LOL! IRONICALLY, THEY WROTE THEIR INFO ON, LA PLATA COUNTY SHERIFF, CPL. GARY MASON, LOVE IT, UNDER HIS NAME IS ALTERNATIVES TO INCARCERATION! AMEN! GENERALLY, PETTY CRIMINALS LEARN FROM OTHER MORE HARDENED INMATES, HOW TO COMMIT WORSE CRIMES! SHERIFF, CAN YOU GET THE CITY COPS UNDER CONTROL? THEY WERE ON MY ASS LAST NIGHT & EARLY THIS MORNING! I WAS GOING TO WRITE ABOUT THEM, BUT I AM NOT OUT OF TOWN YET! LOL! AND THE GALS AT THE MANNA, NEED SOME SEXY WRITING, PANTIE WETTING STORIES, THAT REALLY ARE WORTH WRITING ABOUT . . . JUST DON'T JOIN THE CITY COPS, AND ARREST ME FOR INDECENT EXPOSURE IN WRITING! LOL! I THINK I SAW YOUR UNDERSHERIFF AT 4:30 A.M., GAS STATION ACROSS FROM ALBERTSONS & WELLS FARGO? WARNING: THOSE WITH A PROPENSITY FOR HEART ATTACKS WHILE HAVING SEX MAY WANT TO SKIP THIS BLOG--THAT INCLUDES ALL MY KIDS, AGES 31 TO 39, WHO DON'T WANT TO KNOW THEIR MOTHER EVER HAD SEX, EVEN WITH THEIR FATHER! LOL . . . APRIL FOOLS!

Girls . . . It is Your Neck on the Chopping Block Today . . . But, You Will Dig the Lecture, While Having Story Time!

I have been pretty harsh on men, the frat rats, with the Jackie story in Rolling Stone Magazine, back in the news, due to the looming lawsuit, and the revelations of other sexist, racist, and discriminatory social media malfunctions, escaping the inner circles of bros at the frat houses, national leaders, and others, you jack asses wanted to share this shit with, but in all fairness, there are times, not necessarily when a girl, woman, lady, asks for a rape resulting set of circumstances, but there are times, when, through the combined chemistry, backgrounds, ideologies, mental gears, the differences between men and women, the biological factors, and yes, the religious and spiritual components that make up the psycho sexuality of our species, not to mention the issues of the Darwinian, process of natural selection . . . all of that comes into play, in our play!  LOL!  So, I am going to look at what a female can do to flirt with danger, try to push a guy to his limits, of restraint, pushing the envelope of sexually loaded touching, kissing, petting, and in our need, want, and propensity, to want to be desired, for a multiplicity of reasons, body, brain, touch, sexuality, looks, personality, and just to be close to you boys, men, guys . . . with a need to be respected, as a males, number one need from his woman, girl, gal, lady.  Complicated, complicated, complicated . . . to say the least.

Sexual Cornerstones . . . The Brain, The Chemistry!  All Else is Window Dressing!  It is all in the Kiss, the Spit, the Lips!

Now, I am not a sexologist, nor do I claim any special knowledge of carnal knowledge, or Biblically, knowing someone . . . but, I am a thinker, a dreamer, an experimenter, like to discover, analyze and synthesize my experiences, and funnel it through some process to increase the level of understanding, in my intellectual capacity to understand, learn, and assimilate, my knowledge base, and share it with others, who are as curious as I am, with a longing to understand the sexes, and the beauty, magic, wonder, awe of love, sex, healing nature of the sport, at times, and deeply satisfying relations, through physical contact, between a man and a woman.  I read a quote the other day, that when something like this, that, just one couple, who finds true love, through whatever means, has the power to heal the whole universe, change it, evolve it, and bring about a universe of mutual caring and tender emotions, through the science of quantum physics, transform, the whole of the human race.  "Be the light of the earth", so to say . . . so, it is within that disclaimer and also in that claim for humanity, through sexual expression, love, movement, touch, caress, and all that goes with sex, try to clarify and enlighten, whomever is brave enough to entertain, not necessarily new thought patterns, but to step outside the box, and think, perhaps at a higher level, adding insights, power, and thought, to what they already know, looking at other couples, to understand yourself and your partners, past, present and future better.

Love is Slippery, When It's Wet

There is a professor, up at the University of Utah, where I used to teach, who is a scientist of some type and studied the power of attraction, what attracts you to this person, as opposed to someone, perhaps, more physically good looking, but, for some unknown reason, just doesn't seem as appealing, even putting the brain, through mental gymnastics, causing twist and turning in our understanding, and popularly conditioned, response to one person over the other, creating a general mental dysfunction, disrupting all that we know, all that we have been taught, or all that our peer group, might think is what we should be attracted to, to please who?  Them or ourselves, in a long, satisfying, loving, sexually charged relationship?  This professor, said, those things that we think are the attributes that might or should attract us to the opposite sex, are not necessarily the ones that do.  You hear, that it is the smile, the eyes, the pear shaped female, the muscle bound male, their hair, their personality, or the male primal instinct to preserve our race, creed, lineage, to become immortal by passing our seed, etc.

This professor, and I apologize for not remembering her name, but she says, it is much more basic, simple, and scientific than that . . . it boils down to your spit, that chemical mixing of bodily fluids, juices, blending, something, actually, in the make up of yours, his, ours, that creates an attraction, that we may reject, can't explain, ponder and deny, or embrace and trust, or reject, because it is so foreign to what we have been told we should be connected and attracted to, that we just outright, even deny ourselves and this person a chance to get to know each other.

Serial Killers Analysis . . . Me & Ray, One of the Dating Kings of Salt Lake City, Utah, at the Mannequin Park Mormon Ward

I was watching this movie, on an author, a professor, who was also a serial killer.  He made a statement that hit me like a brick . . . he said, that men have to hunt for sex, they seek and search for their prey, so to say, their mate, work to find sex, go on the prowl until they mate; women, on the other hand, can have sex anytime they want, and withhold sex, sit back, and have the luxury of picking the man, who best fulfills their nesting needs, mothering instincts, and need to have children.  I think that there is beyond an element of truth to that.  That kind of goes to the ugly truth, that women give sex for love, and men give love for sex, which works quite well, and drives people to engage and get married or pair off.

By way of background, for those of you, not familiar with the Mormon Church, and the plan for eternal marriage, so the selection of your partner is critical, because you are not only going to be with person, until death do we part, but for time and all eternity, so a pretty weighty decision you are making, adding to the complexities of this mating process, natural selection, and chemical attraction.  It is necessary for you position in God's Heavenly courts, to rule and reign in the worlds beyond this one!  You are also, taught and encouraged, while single, to abstain from sex, outside of marriage.  Okay, with that in mind, enters the Monument Park Ward, with singles, looking for mates each Sunday, coming from a hundred miles away, meeting with about 700 of the LDS Churches, most eligible and desirable men and women, most professional, news anchors, lawyers, doctors, oil refinery owners, and other people of note, looks, and professions.  The Mormon Church, tried to get rid of this singles ward for years, but there was a lot of money, power and influence, in this particular group of people.  But, it was also a total meat market, an ocean filled with bait and Parana, and other sexually deprive and degenerate people!  LOL!

FIRST KISS, STRAIGHT TO SEX!  LOL!

Ray and I had gone to high school together, and all the guys had warned, this shy guy, back then, about the Queen of Diamonds, to avoid me at all ways possible!  And on top of that, I had just broken up with Bart, another former high school chum, and I guess that the two had talked with each other.  Ray had been a straight Mormon boy, and had one girlfriend in high school, that he had sex with once a year, and always felt guilty for doing that, and later, when she was in an abusive relationship, he felt that because he went on a mission for the church, and left her, it was his fault, that she was in this situation.  At 30, and basically a virgin, he married this woman, and on their honeymoon, she got drunk, and wanted anal sex.  He got the marriage annulled and realized that she was not the girl he had left behind, some 12 years earlier, or she did something else to him, too, like have an affair with the divorce attorney, but a piece of work.  Basically, Ray is very religious, and had gotten a whole lot better looking since high school, and was a hot catch, financially very successful, and had a great home up near Cottonwood Canyon and the ski resorts.  I was in law school.  We were both pretty intellectual, and found a lot of comfort in that, spending most of our time talking, going to football games, etc.  Until, one night, there was a terrible snow storm, and Ray decided, that I should stay at his house, rather than risking getting back to my apartment.

Ray had never attempted to kiss me, and said he had been warned not to . . . my reputation proceeds me! So, being very different than most of my dates, he never tried to kiss me, which was okay, a bit weird, but, that was okay, and he was playing the field, and so was I, there was no exclusivity, whatsoever, but we liked each other.  So, Ray got us each a pair of pajamas, and just as if we were some couple who had been married for 12 years, we both had reading material, and I think gave each other a small kiss, good night. Whatever, I had 4 kids, and Ray had none, and that was all cool.  Then, to my complete surprise and to his also, he leaned over when the lights were off, and gave me another kiss . . . spit and chemistry hit!  I swear, one kiss and we were having not torrid sex, but great sex, and then it was over, so easy, so little work, so wet, wild, and then over!  Ray didn't talk, I just smiled.  He was mortified, I was satisfied! LOL!  Whatever you resist, persists!  I just kind of thought, it was totally fine, and whatever, I dig it, so? See what the good professor said, was completely true!

He Quickly Married the Alleged, Hot Commodity in the Ward

Ray was devastated, called me to repentance the next day, on the phone after church.  He quit going to church from guilt for several months.  Here is the difference in attitudes, he talked to the bishop, confessed his sins, and, I, with a law professor as a bishop, got a new church calling the morning after, lol, to be the spiritual living teacher, in the women's organization!  He told me, I should have turned that calling down, and needed to go talk to the bishop and repent.  Hell, no!  Either the bishop was not inspired to call me, or I was completely worthy for the calling!  I was fine with the sex!  I didn't feel sorry, and I was not going to repent!  I was not the Mormon Muffin, he had saved himself for, but I was the jackel who got him!  LOL!  We parted ways over that experience.

Several months later, Ray, who had married, in the interim, called me at the attorney generals office, and told me that he was miserable, that sex took so much work, that he felt like he was jumping on a trampoline and some strange connotations that came with that visual image, and he was totally sexually frustrated, and pissed off he got married.  I didn't have to run it in, didn't have to say a thing, just let the memories and thoughts of that snowy night, when sex was so easy, that it was effortless, and whatever!  I just let him vent, he made his bed, the priesthood, had told him what was sexy, and what was not, even thought I was hotter than hell, but I had four kids, and whatever, else was going on in his mind, but it was not me, sleeping in the bed, he made, and could have had a much more fulfilling sex life, and life in general.  I am not sure that I would have married him, but it was, definitely on the table for discussion.  Don't let others tell you, sell you, and brain wash you into thinking that you have to have this or that to get it up, if you know what I mean?  

I felt bad for him, but, hey, it is not like he didn't get a trial run, on what life would have been with me, and it was somewhat satisfying to know, that the rest of his marriage, his life, or whatever, he had to live with, the fact, that love is slippery, when its wet!  Kiss, spit, chemistry, bodily fluids, the power of sex and love, combined, rewarding, climactic, arousing, erecting and electrifying!  Sorry, sweetheart . . . I think men, fall prey to this thinking more than women.  We are looking for different things.

I Needed You So Desperately, But We Were Too Blind To See, But, Through It All . . . I Do Love You, Still . . . Commodores

What in the hell does the brain have to do with sex . . . fucking everything!  I was wakened on a train to Washington, D.C., two summers ago, by a young, black man, concerned about my welfare, and wondered if I was okay--I had fallen sound asleep, and I was not, but, doing as well as I could, going to D.C., to testify and lobby against the Cyber Intelligence Sharing & Protection Act, or something like that . . . young girls are my weakness . . . song that is on!  But, here is the mental part, if you took the opposite end of every polar opposite, from our race, to the part of the country we were from, to age, everything, you had me and Miles!  She knows I want her, she knows I love her, know how I need her . . . song on!  Sorry, but I have the Commodores in the background!  Miles had an I.Q. of 168 that intrigued me, and his father had worked for the Department of Transportation, and he knew a shit load about the government, agencies, and said he had been sent by someone high up in the government, and he was above the CIA.  Total fucking turn on!  

We talked for three days straight, he was pissed when I would not let him, sit in the chair next to me, when I went to sleep on the first night, and he tried desperately to get me in the lower deck . . . didn't work.  We had a stop and he wanted me to act like his girlfriend . . . areal surveillance, showing off for the other Secret Service, huh?  I was not attracted, at least at first physically, although, the Miles, I remember from the train, was built like a pro basketball player and tall!  But as the texts, turned into sexts, I found myself so attracted to him, and the tension, sexual and the need to see each other, started to take over the relationship.  Other my luscious ass, that black men, dig, like crazy, the first guy to tell me, not to lose an ounce off my ass, while I was away, which again, made me like him more too . . . what I viewed as a body flaw, he saw as a huge asset!  LOL!  The second we got together, fireworks, even thought I was, intellectually, saying this will never work, ever, not ever!  My body, was saying, I don't give a shit if you think, you two go together, your spit does, your brains do, and the chemistry, if taking over!

It's a touch down baby, anything you do is alright with me . . . song!  LOL!  We were even fighting or fucking, period!  I'll be there, and the love's there every time!  No matter what you do, I'm going to score with you.  I want the world to know, that your a superstar to me . . . the love's on every time!  The songs always match what I am writing about.  No matter how long we went between seeing each other, we made sure we saw each other, the passion, the fights, the phone slamming, but everything was alright with each of us!  LOL!  It was the combination we both needed, challenging, intellectual, brainy!  The sex was easy, never took work, didn't need anything, game on, at the dumpster, against a wall, with four offices, parking lots, and streets coming at us!  Security guards at the train station, ready to throw us out for fighting, and a walk around the corner, and hot sex.  LOL!  The relationship was SO WRONG, it was completely RIGHT!

Miles, not only pulled me out of my box, he kicked me out, pushed me out, dragged me out, and love was there . . . I will be forever grateful to him, and miss him, like crazy right now.  So, the brains, engaged first, at least for me, and the body, just kind of went along!  The magic of love was meant for you and me! Song!  In all my life, I have never had a love so true!  I love, I love only you!  Song!  I know it when we touch . . . only you . . . I don't know what would happen if we were to see each other again, but, my bet is, game on, touch down!  LOL!  So, don't let preconceived notions deny you love, sex, intimacy, healing!  I am just sitting here shaking my head?  Whatever?  LOL!

Another Physical Anomaly . . . Fred . . . Spit, Too Hot To Stop!

I was just hanging around, waiting to die, and one night, I went across the street from the St. George Temple Ground, that gave me peace and quiet to think, to what looked like a singles dance, not to dance or meet a guy, but to get some of the refreshments that I knew would be being served.  I would just go in, grab some grub and run out.  I was not dressed for a dance, that was the last thing on my mind, and it was going to be in and out.  While I was filling my small plate with a mixture of what was being offered, this guy, not much talker than me, and not my type at all, but relatively good looking, came and asked me to dance.  I promptly informed him that I was just there for the food!  He insisted, and it didn't take much, because, I love to dance, and this had nothing to do with him!  He was a good dancer, so, I stayed and danced.  I was not attracted to him that much, but he was a pleasant enough guy.  Again, we had intellect in common, and our conversation went on and on, and eventually, he asked me to go for a ride, another love, since I had given up my driver's license, afraid I would drive while driving, and kill people while I passed!  So, the ride was on, and he was reading me like a book!  FBI?  LOL!

As we sat up overlooking St, George, the lights, the conversation, and whatever, just like high school kids, he got more and more attractive to me.  He reached over and kissed me, too hot to stop!  What the fuck? Mentally, I was puzzled, I was not that attracted to this guy, but WOW, the kiss was amazing and I wanted more--I did't know about the spit, yet, so; he asked me to go get breakfast, rather than going home.  He was hitting all the right buttons with me, dancing, driving, kissing, and breakfast!  Hell yes!  We could not get enough of each other, and neither one of us, wanted to leave the other person.  He had a condo up at Brian Head Ski resort, and it was fall, another hot button season for me!  Do you want to go up in the mountains? Another score!  Yes, and we didn't come down for a month!  Having all the Mormon sex, without having sex, that couples with our backgrounds and beliefs would allow . . . but this is where the juicy part comes in and the lecture, I knew Fred was a very strong Mormon, and committed to his stand on not having premarital sex . . . I was not that opposed to not having sex, I respected his position, but did all I could to get him to break it!  LOL!  Him conducting scripture study each night didn't deter me, it only turned me on more, I like a Godly man, but Adam fell didn't he?  LOL!  I never listened, but planned the next night's torture for him to endure, sticking to his morals!

Animal Instinct

The Breaking Point, Forced on the BED, Arms Pinned Over My Head, Helpless, Levi Snap Dress, Ripped Open, Bra Used to Lock Arms Overhead, Knees Forced Between My Bare Legs, Looming Hot Body Over Me, Speechless, Focused, Trance-Like, Shocked At His Strength, Second Hand, Unbuckling His Belt, Unzipping his Pants, Anger, Collapsing, Rolling, Deep Breathing, A Tear Coming Out of the Corner of His Eye . . . Not a Word . . . So Turned On, Fighting, But Daring Him To Just Do It!

We had slept together for a month, but had our lines, my bra, and panties, his Jesus jammies . . . wandering hands, but, I would never let him touch beyond that point, not necessarily because I cared or didn't want it like crazy, but, just to play, punish, tease, game with him.  But, I on the other hand, put my hand down his bottoms, just enough, to miss his vital organs, if you know what I mean . . . he was kind of the strong, silent type, in these situations, an artist, a train, retiree, with an early retirement and pension, due to an accident, but he was a deep thinker, and didn't say much, just kind of trusted me, and I stopped him, if he pushed the lines, but a total turn on, the anticipation, and all.  Finally, one night, after playing chess, walking in the fall leaves, sitting by the fire and going out to dinner, after not wanting to take time away from us, to do laundry, needing to wash my panties, and other clothing, I opted, to go bare, with just my bra on, and wear a dress, rather than wash my normal clothes.

I was wearing a blue Levi, snapped from top to bottom, dress with just my bra on underneath, and he knew it.  I had messed around, feet under the table, kissing, challenging each other, mentally and physically, resisting going after each other in the restaurant, but when we go home, with all the lights on, I got the closest thing to being raped, with the man, I least expected, and it shocked the hell out of me, enough to fight him, learning the true strength of a man, not much taller than myself, with one arm that had the muscle removed because of an accident at work, where his arm got twisted in the machinery on the train . . . didn't seem to make one bit of difference, he was simply so much stronger than I was, it took me back, and I feared him for a while that night, and all the teasing was not a joke anymore, even though, I wasn't objectionable to having sex with him, was attracted to him, even wanted him bad, but something switched in him, turned, took over, and it scared me!  He got a bit mean and aggressive . . .

The Situation . . . Did I Deserve To Be Raped?  Was This My Fault, Passed Through My Head, As His Hot Breath Covered My Face, His Lips on My Breasts, All Over My Body . . . I Was In Ecstasy, And In Pain at the Same Time!  I Could Not Move!  What Was He Doing?

We had not been in the condo for very long, nothing really leading up to this event, other than messing around and playing during dinner, I think it may have been what I was wearing, one of those things that women hate to get questioned on in a rape trial, as if they provoked the rape, or that they asked for it . . . it was the furthest thing from my mind, it was really just a matter of being too lazy and preoccupied to want to do laundry, so that I had underwear, not much thought beyond that!  But, I could also understand, that, the only thing that had changed, was the fact that I was wearing an extremely accessible dress, and he knew I didn't have underwear on, because he had suggested all day that I do my laundry, did he think I planned this? Or that I intentionally wanted to tempt him, which I didn't think was possible, enough to get him, in this mode of, I am going to have my way with you, once and for all!  

Without warning, he pushed me back on the bed, hard enough to make me wonder what was going on . . . I thought he was joking with me, but that didn't seem to be evidenced by his remarks, his voice changed, and he started saying, something about being a tease, and now, you are going to get what you want or deserve, and I was like, for a month, we have been sleeping together, and you were as strong and resolved, as a saint, and now, you are doing what?  I tried to get up from the bed, and grabbed my dress that was covering me, only by a set of snaps, that were as easy to snap, as if I was a baby, being held down by a parent trying to get me out of my clothes and ready for a bath or something.  I started to say, what are you doing?  And thought, I could just get up . . . he forced me back down on the bed, and as if he was a pro, in almost an unbroken swoop of his hands, and just seconds involved, he forced my hands over my head, while I struggled to get loose, taken back by the whole thing, but it was not a joke, and he wasn't laughing or backing off.

Somehow, he simultaneously, held my hands over my head, tore the dress apart, took his hands, that had never touched my breasts, ran his other hand, up under my bra, and I must confessed, I was so turned on, but still scared, took my bra, up above my shoulders and upper arms, making the bra, act as a rope, or material, that was working in his favor, leaving me totally, unable to move my hands or arms, he kissed, sucked, nuzzled, moved his face, all over my breasts, pushing, softly biting my nipples, tense and terse with pleasure and pain, the other hand was all over my bare body, and there was not a thing I could do, or wanted to do, absolutely, dying with pleasure, but fighting his knees that were now trying to get between my locked at the ankles feet, and again, the task of forcing my legs apart, was like nothing, and he was buried as deep as he could go with his pants on, without a hint of consciousness, nor stopping.

Once, clearly in complete control of both the situation, me, my body, and my legs spread apart, he stood, between them, and reached and took off his shirt, crashing down on me again, I was dying with the skin to skin contact, wanting him so bad, but not knowing where this was going, or wear it would end, and as what cost, in emotional, physical, and spiritual price.  I was sure, he would get control and stop . . . he didn't, he, pushed up, with just shear, power, with what to prop him up, he started to take off his belt, and I was like, he is going to rape me!  Sex was one thing, rape, if you could call it that, I sort of protested, until I couldn't move, motionless, it became, a fascination with his face, his body, his strength, his willingness to want me beyond his resolve not to have sex, that turned me on big time, Adam, Eve, the sin, to me, always had been about sex, not the apple, nor Satan or the snake, but basic instinct, so natural, so easy, so right, so powerful, but so loaded with, now what?  As he pulled off his belt, and smothered me, with his whole body, the full weight, the full passion, and i am not going to lie, I wanted him as bad as he wanted me . . . and just about the time, both of us were going to cecum to animal instincts, his higher self kicked in, and he slowly, without a word, rolled over, onto the bed, and just totally collapsed, almost rubber-like, wasted, and just laid there, and I was kissing him all over, my motor was not stopping, and I didn't know what stopped him, or what he was thinking, he didn't speak for about two hours!  I kissed his eyes, his tears, but, I don't think the relationship was ever the same again, did I push him too far, did he, like Ray, feel he had sinned, needed to repent, or I never talked about it and neither did he, again.

Shades of Grey, In More Than One Way . . . On the Continuum, On a Rape Scale, from 1 to 10, Would He, Should He, Could He Be Ever Held Liable for or Charged with Rape?  I Don't Know, that I Said, Yes or No!  I Never Intended to Have Sex with Him, But?  It is Complicated!

I never thought we would have sex, never intended to have sex, teased him mercilessly, drew lines, with himself, and watched that I didn't cross his lines, no matter how close, I got to doing that, and he was always strong, and I was too.  I guess I never thought, the dress, or the fact that I was not wearing underwear, would have any effect on him at all, I just didn't think of it, and as for being called a tease, and him, kind of indicating he was going to give me what I deserved, what did I deserve, hadn't we been playing this game of touch, tease, squeeze, tempt, push a bit, stop, all the time, for a month, and we never crossed the line.  I am not sure what happened, that night, the dinner, the foot games, I had never done that before, so, what triggered a very different man?  The mystery of men and women, I don't know to this day, what changed, if anything.  A good topic to discuss with college kids, high school, is there something that women are not aware of, that pushes a guy beyond their extreme control, and throws them into an altered state, and a guy who you would think, would never entertain the thoughts of rape, nor lead me to believe he would, even while he had me pinned, and totally defenseless . . . did he want to show me he could if he wanted to, or was it a power and control thing?

We all know what a rape at a 10 looks like . . . a stranger, jumping out of the bushes, a knife to your throat, and forced, non-consensual sex in every way.  But, what about this situation, it is probably somewhere in the middle, or is is just a lack of understanding of men and women, a mistaken communication, misleading at best, and is that enough to either exonerate him, or find him guilty.  I didn't think either the dress or the underwear were an issue at all, the teasing was not new, so?  I am sure that guys and girls would have different takes on what happened, and both would be confused, as they tried to ferret out the intents, the minds, the culpability of the parties, if is were to go to trial.  As a Mormon, which would come into it, and much like with Ray, it happened, I enjoyed it, never planned on having sex, and I was shocked, but there was not element of force whatsoever, no shock, no pain, no element of surprise, just kind of like, well that is how nicely the male and female anatomy fit together, like a hand in glove . . . but, again, I never turned the corner, thinking we would start having sex all the time, or that what he did was right, while it goes down in my sexual history, as so pivotal, interesting and probably on of the most amped sexual experiences of my life, but had he forced sex with me, would I have reacted the same way . . . the whole thing became almost surreal, fascinating by way of understanding what was going on, almost an out of body experience . . . one that kicked in my intellectual side as much as it did my physical, and did my lack of resistance, recognition of his power, stop what appeared to be inevitable?

They say that rape is not about sex, but about power and control over another person, once he had achieved that power over me, and I relaxed, as if in a kind of surrender, and stop fighting him, did it break a fantasy for him, like it did the real rape attempt, I had when I college student, and the guy had me pinned, I asked him what he was doing, and he said he was going to rape me, and I said, no you are not!  That seemed to break the fantasy, which is exactly what they said on the radio program the day before . . . did the fact that I just laid there, not fighting and looking at him, knowing he could have done anything he wanted to me, made him realize, he was giving me no other choice, but his choice?  What was the collapsing, the tears, the silence?  These are the areas, that I think create the most trouble for colleges, for couples, for married people and single alike, do we ever want to force someone to have sex with us, even if we are strong enough to make them?  Men will, in most cases, always be able to have their way, so to say, with women, due to strength and I am a pretty strong woman.  Fred, was my size, but an inch or two taller, but he only had half his muscle in the on arm and still could do anything he wanted to, to me.  I was rendered inoperable, but it that the way you want it?  Who knows what would have happened, but things did change.  After that, I wanted to get away from the cabin, the mountains, and even kissing, didn't seem to hold the same charged up reaction . . . does love die with force?

There You Go, Laura & Kayla . . . Food for Thought, Provocative, Entertaining, and Distinctive!

What Do You Think?

Question . . . on a scale of 1 to 10, does the closer we move to power & control, force, non-consensual sex, kill the love that we all want?  What can it do to a relationship?  I don't know the answers . . . I provided the example, the discussion question . . . you come up with the possible answers, so we can have more lasting, rewarding, caring, loving relationships!



Monday, April 13, 2015

STARFIRE . . . ARE YOU HUNGRY? DITCHED IN DURANGO, DENNY'S TO GET WARM THIS MORNING AT 4:30 A.M.--WAITRESS, KATHY, OFFERED TO BUY ME BREAKFAST! NICE PEOPLE EVERYWHERE! RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS--WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD! USA TODAY . . . DEA, DRUG ENFORCEMENT AGENCY, DOING SWEEPING METADATA GATHERING 10 YEARS BEFORE EDWARD SNOWDEN EXPOSED THE NSA OR NATIONAL SECURITY AGENCY, DOING GOVERNMENT SWEEPING SURVEILLANCE FOR ALLEGED CONNECTIONS BETWEEN AMERICAN CITIZENS & WORLDWIDE DRUG CARTELS . . . BUT NO CONFIRMED CASES OF INTERVENTION WITH DRUG TRAFFICKING! THE PRESSING QUESTION, IN A KIND OF COST BENEFIT ANALYSIS, IS . . . IS IT WORTH CITIZEN'S RIGHT TO PRIVACY AND INVASION OF THOSE CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS? AT&T SAID THEY COMPLY WITH ALL STATE & FEDERAL REQUESTS FOR ACCOUNT INFORMATION, BUT DON'T COMPLY WITH ALL LAWS--REALLY? EXCEPT THE SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND, THE U.S. CONSTITUTION, IN PARTICULARLY THE 4TH, 5TH, 9TH & 14TH AMENDMENTS, VIOLATING SEARCH & SEIZURE, DUE PROCESS, PRIVACY AND EQUAL PROTECTION CLAUSES . . . IN ADDITION TO INTERFERING WITH CONTRACTS, PROVISIONS IN MOST STATE CONSTITUTIONS! NO BIG DEAL, I GUESS! WELL, THINK AGAIN!

Monitor the CIA, Not the Citizens!

Seven years before Edward Snowden, I was telling friends, clients, and family, that my emails were being sent through Homeland Security and the Department of Justice, being re-routed, between me and my clients, with my emails coming from a Sara Lily, whom, the client that told me about it, along with several others, ended up dying in a very symbolic death, with facts, very similar to the wrongful death case, I was working on, with a widow being denied, the Home Town Heroes Act, a special fund, set up to cover firefighters and law enforcement, for about three years after 9/11, being called an accidental death . . . my client, a dentist, in the Cedar City, Utah area, was awakened one morning, with 23 SWAT members and sheriffs, invading his home, six rifles pointed right in his face, waking him up!  He was suspected as a person of interest in a recent bank robbery, because he was going through a divorce, and it was alleged that he was having financial problems, as a result of the split up with his wife!  A pretty big leap, going from a messy divorce to being a bank robber!  He looked at the surveillance tapes to see what the robber looked like; he was 20 years older, about 40 pounds lighter, grey hair!  So, the guy, like all good civil rights cases, came to me to sue the cops, SWAT, sheriffs.  And magically, he ends up, allegedly dying, riding a 4-wheeler, down a street near his house, and this healthy, weight lifting, athletic dentist, drunk allegedly, a Mormon . . . accidentally ran into a phone pole?  Sounds about as squirrelly as an athletic former bull riding cowboy, bad ass, standing 6'5" tall, allegedly going down a hill on his 4-wheeler, and runs into a sand embankment drop off--all of about 4' high, and he fails to jump off, with the ATV accidentally, smashing his face in, and throwing him off the vehicle, that didn't have anything but a small chip in the red plastic!

I think the cowboy, firefighter and corrections guard, was negligently sent out into the wilderness with 12 inmates from the prison, doing conservation work, putting in fence posts, some were murderers and rapists, hard core dudes, and Arie was sent out to supervise them, without a gun or other form of protection.  I believe, one of the inmates, took a shovel to his face, staged the alleged death, his sunglasses were imbedded in his face, and his cowboy hat still on?  Sounds strange to me . . . benefits were denied for 6 years, and my computer was being monitored, and my emails, redirected through Washington, D.C. before going to my clients, who were shocked to see my emails coming under another name!  The evidence in that case, also disappeared from my home law office, and shortly after that, my whole house was seized and not only searched, but everything was stolen!  I think it is about time, that the government was held to the standards and levels of accountability, the rest of us are!  I do not believe that DEA and any other cop agency, should get special, exceptional treatment, and they should be punished for crimes, that they commit, and civil rights violations too! 

We Want to Punish the Poor . . . What the Hell do You Call Programs Like These, That We Spend Tons of Money On, with NO Results and Violating Major Civil and Constitutional Rights!  Welfare!

This totally kills me . . . my son-in-laws mother, worked for the Bureau of Indian Affairs, in St. George, Utah, sharing an office with the DEA agents, and during a time period of three years, I was watching the activities of alleged marijuana grow busts, in three counties, always taking place the 2nd week of August, better known as marijuana harvesting time . . . and grows were always discovered by some spurious hunter or hiker, that nobody ever bothered to get the name of, nor were there ever any suspects!  That is until, I contacted the U.S. attorney for the district of Utah, and told him of the exponential growth in DEA agents--going from 3 to what she called, a revolving door of DEA agents, these alleged bust, with questionable circumstances, and no arrests . . . oh, then there were arrests, two Hispanics, of course, who just happened to be walking along the part of the highway, that the alleged grows were, but up in the mountains.  One commented on how good his ex-wife looked, and his girlfriend, kicked him and his friend out of the car!

Federal and state cop jobs, to me, appear to be a ticket to the old boy networks, and doing no work of merit, or being on the benefits package, for cop organizations, perks, pussy, and power, but little to no work, and no results for all the growth!  When each magical marijuana grow was harvested, with at times up to 13 different cop-like agencies involved, in the alleged slash and burn piles of $13 million worth the marijuana, that looked like a few plants, with, what some of my clients, who were later harassed for years, until I was run out of the state, and I am not sure what the outcome of their cases were, but, one client hiked up Shirt's Canyon, in the mountains overlooking Cedar City, Utah, and found extensive drip systems for watering the plants, and the pine trees stripped up 6' to 8', so the marijuana, could grow without detection and evidence to small planes that might fly over the rough mountain terrain, that my client, said, you had to be able to access via, helicopter, due to the propane tanks, and other paraphernalia, found at the site, and video taped by my client.  He said, he felt sure that other than the small pile of plants, show for the press, being burned, the rest of the plants, were stored, at a dump or some site, and later, taken by the cops and sold to medical marijuana states, and also put back on the streets!

CIA, Heroin Dealers, World Distributors!  Spy on Them, Not ME!

These alleged marijuana bust, seemed nothing more than cop day in the mountains . . . on the Washington County raid on the grow and the harvest, there were about 50 cops involved in the alleged plant picking and destruction!  Why in the hell, do you take high paid law enforcement, and have them pick plants in the mountains, rather than taking inmates from the Washington County Correctional Facility, doing it for FREE? What a waste of tax payers money, and a money making machine, for cop agencies, if they were growing the stuff, then harvesting it, and putting some of it back on the streets, arresting the kids who purchased some of the pot, grown by the cops!  You see, then the cops can approach law making bodies, like their city councils, mayors, county commissioners, or the legislature, showing how much good their agencies are doing to keep drugs off the streets . . . justification for the surveillance programs too, when in reality, these same agencies are not only growing it, but, like in the case of the CIA, putting people like President Karsai of Afghanistan, the largest opium growing country in the world, and one of the biggest drug kings, in that part of the world, getting $10 million a year for what?  A cut of the drug trade?  After ratting out the CIA, running drugs into Kalispell, Montana, and taken over the border, to sell in Canada, with my source, being none other than a CIA hit woman, even taking me to the airport, to show me the planes used for the runs, and her son, down in Key West, Florida, getting a midnight call from the feds, telling him to relay the message that they didn't appreciate her telling me about the activities, throwing $30,000 cash on his bed, and telling him that when his mother did the ordered hit on me, she would be paid another $30,000!  What? 

Spy Program Survival . . . Accountability, Oversight & Results to Continue to Get Funding!

I mean, come on . . . 40 plus agencies, doing what?  And budgets, that are unlimited, and we don't even know about most of them!  It is about time, we called a spade a spade, a failure a failure, and welfare government program, exactly that, and stop going after the bottom of the entitlements programs, like Social Security and Veterans Affairs, welfare moms, and the elderly, and start going after the people who are bilking the system and tax payers money, at a rate of billions if not trillions with little to no results!  At least me can know that kids of welfare mothers, are being taken care of, and there is a direct result, in stopping some juvenile behaviors later on!  What the fuck, but crime, are we getting from these agencies.  This is the second article of investigative journalism, where these huge spy agencies, are producing, exactly, nothing! Or little to nothing, but collecting big ass, federal government pay checks, benefits, and retirements!  They are the real welfare babies, and getting a huge proportion of the federal debt . . . I read somewhere a few years ago, that welfare moms are only getting 1% of the budget, and about 100% of the blame for the debt!  That last comment in mine!  We need to straighten out this shit . . . the song, American Man, why is it morally righteous, if a man takes money for drugs, distribution, and deals with know world leaders in heroin and opium dealing, and that is somehow noble, and worthy?  I just don't get it!

Woman's Face on Twenty Dollar Bill . . . But Her Pay, Only Worth $12 in Utah, or $15.40 in Colorado, for Every $20 for Men!  Wage Equality?

So, let me get this straight, we are going to give women only a portion of the pay, for the same job as men, promote them over a woman, who is more experienced, then when a divorce happens, and she, traditionally keeps the kids, her income drops, and the man's triples!  And federal government employees of these spy programs, really are not producing a damned this, other than smoke screens, and bull shit!  It is about time we fixed all of this . . . we don't want to pretend anymore, we are not going to close our eyes to this, and we want some answers as to why these things are not only persisting in our government and systems, but pandered to and fostered, getting the nation a getting a result of a big fat nothing in return!  If the program sucks, why would we want to continue it . . . we don't have to stick with a failing program or one that doesn't have even on verifiable case to back of the need for the program!

This is not rocket science, it is a no brainer, and we have to change to handle the problems and inequalities, recognizing our successes and failures, and then have the guts to do some cuts, pet projects or not!

Anyway, My Two Cents Worth Today . . . Have a Good One!

Sunday, April 12, 2015

POLICE STATE--JUDGE, JURY, EXECUTIONER & GOD . . . MILITARY BETRAYAL, RENEGADE FORCE--COUNTER-FORCE! FREE ON YOUTUBE, 2014 MOVIE ON WHERE WE ARE AT . . . AS I AM WRITING THIS, TWO BLACK & WHITE, POLICE SUVS ARE WAITING FOR ME IN THE PARKING LOT OF MCDONALDS . . . I NOTICED THEM TROLLING AROUND, WHILE I WAS WALKING OVER FROM THE PARK, AND LUCKILY, JUST AS I CAME INTO THE PARKING LOT, SO I STOPPED, PUT ON A HAT, MY GLASSES, AND CAME IN THE SIDE DOOR, OPPOSITE OF THEM! THERE THEY GO, PROBABLY DIDN'T THINK I CAME IN, OR DITCHED OUT . . . THINK I AM PARANOID, WATCH THIS MOVIE AND IT WILL DISPEL ALL THOSE NOTIONS, THESE MILITANT COPS WHO TOOK JUSTICE INTO THEIR OWN HANDS, KILLED FELLOW OFFICERS, PROSECUTORS & JUDGES, AS WELL AS CRIMINALS THEY FOUND GUILTY!--IT IS AMAZING I AM AS CALM AS I AM! COP'S GLARING LIGHTS SHOWN THROUGH SHELTER WINDOWS LAST NIGHT--AS I WAS A STREET LAWYER GOING WITHOUT SLEEP, A GUY TOLD ME COPS WERE SHINING LIGHTS IN THE WINDOWS--I WAS ALREADY GONE, BUT THEY WOULD NOT HAVE DISCOVERED THAT UNTIL ABOUT 9:30 P.M. . . . THIS IS WHERE WE ARE, TRULY AT--COPS MAKING UP THE RULES. THE SHOOTING IN NORTH CHARLESTON, SOUTH CAROLINA WAS NOT AN ABERRATION, IT SHOWS THE NEW ATTITUDE THAT COMES WITH MILITARIZATION--SHOT HIM FOR A MISSING TAIL LIGHTS, A WARRANT! FUNNY HOW WHEN TWO FORMER UTAH ATTORNEY GENERALS FOUND THEMSELVES UNDER CRIMINAL INDICTMENT FOR CORRUPTION, THE FIRST THING THEY BOTH SAID, WAS THEY WERE GRATEFUL FOR THEIR CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS--DUE PROCESS A BIGGIE! THINK TWICE BOYS & GIRLS, WHEN YOU WANT TO GET RID OF DUE PROCESS & EQUAL PROTECTION . . . YOU MAY NEED THEM SOMETIME!

I Am Too Pure To Hang With Cops!

As the Honey Traps, are sent year after year, hoping that if I was getting laid, that I would be nicer, or at least sex might take off the rough edges . . . dream on boys, never worked when I had a clitoris, and you are even less likely to have success, now that you have mutilated me, by mutual consent, as my punishment for taking out federal cops, investigators, and prosecutors!  Now, like is attracted to like, and there are a shit load of good looking cops; why, I don't know, nor do I know what makes someone go into that profession, a power tripper, maybe?  I am not into money, but I am way into power, and that may be the connection. A cop may be drawn to me, but after a short time, they will find, that I am so far, on the other end of the spectrum on what constitutes justice, liberty, rights, freedom, due process, and that becomes highly evident after a short period of time, then the gulf between us, just starts to widen!  I love this movie, Military Betrayal--Renegade Force, because it portrays, the fucked up mentality of the cops, about justice, which is precisely why me, any prosecutor, worth their salt, and judges, are hated by cops . . . and you take a constitutional law attorney, just as myself, and have actually sued the cops, and you have hatred on steroids!  

I would say, what the cops have done to me, amounts to much more than violation of rights, theft of property, intellectual, real and personal, putting my life and limb at risk, over and over again, falsely incarcerating me, stalking, tracking, threatening me, humiliating me with unnecessary strip searches, as the attorney on cases . . . go figure, what did they do, show them to the department?  Probably!  But, what they are doing, amounts to the very most extreme hate crimes!  Although, I agree with the basic premise of the movie, the message, the blatant conflict between ideologies, frustration even understood, for the most part, but it is our system of law . . . but the portrayal of the women, topless, toys, many, many boobs, but maybe that is to get cops and the boys club to actually be entertained enough to watch it . . . there is a single, smart woman, but she is taught, and puzzled by an FBI agent, who is leading her and teaching her all the way!  I just don't fit the mold of the type, the stereotype, the model, the fem fatal, or the type of woman who looks up to the big, strong, man.  This movie, seems to take women back, about 40 years to the 70's, rather than moving them forward and where we are now, tons of smart, educated, brilliant attorneys, cops, judges, and this is precisely, why I think U.S. Attorney General, Nominee, Loretta Lynch is being stopped from being confirmed!  She is a no nonsense attorney, much like myself, who has already kicked some cops around with a big ass civil rights suit, and winning it.

This Movie is About Cops Being, Allegedly, In Their Own Minds, Being Mistreated, Fired, Retired, or Disciplined for Civil Rights Violations . . . So the Cops Come Up With Their Own System of Justice!

Colorado has a timely bill on the books, putting prosecutors, right where they should have been all the way along, in charge of their cases, deciding without, undue influence from the cops, who are merely the investigators, the fact and evidence gatherers, interrogators, questioning, arresting, and jailing.  They work hand in hand with the prosecutors, once the prosecutor, decides to either proceed with prosecution, because there is enough evidence to charge and convict, or worth a try, or there is not enough evidence, to collaborate the fact, that the law was broken and a crime committed!  That is a matter of law, prosecutorial discretion, based on their education as lawyers, cops don't make that call, it is not their case, to see that this person, criminal, defendant, is taken to the electric chair so to say!  I have worked in enough areas of the law, working with cops, to know, that we had our disagreements, they did not push me around, control me, and it was my call, not theirs!  The problem is, prosecutors are reliant on the cops, to testify, gather more evident, be their legs on the streets to go talk to witnesses, etc., so they don't want to get them pissed off! But, even then, it is your fucking job to work with the prosecutor, even one you don't like!  Get over it!  The tail does not wag the dog . . . the dog wags the tail!

You have heard the analogy in the New Testament, we are all part of the body of Christ, all of us are necessary, the head, the eyes, the hands, the feet . . . that is also true with the criminal justice system! Cops have their role, prosecutors have their role, and judges have their role too!  There needs to be a separation of those role, and too many times there is not!  Often, they look at themselves, all on the same team, including state crime labs, and all the way up to the feds!  That is pure bull shit, and fucks the system! The system, should look more like a relay race, each carrying the baton for their portion of the race, with the judge at the end of the finish line, deciding who the winner is, or the jury!  These cops were mad at the system that they saw, letting the criminals off, and holding the cops responsible for their civil rights violations, and other mandatory cop procedures, that are all, part of due process!  These guys, decide, they are not going to provide, due process or equal protection of the law, they just gun people down . . . including 3 prosecutors and a judge!  This movie would be good for every legislator to watch!

It also shows the pressure, the cops put on the FBI prosecutor, to let a fellow officer off, who is lying about, shooting two victims, mob, from 5 inches away, when he tells them to put their hands up . . . once the hands are up, he guns them down, several units of military train almost recon units, go through the house, taking out everyone, and everything in the house, no witnesses, and everyone dead . . . 400 rounds of ammunition used, and not one shot missed.  Many women, who may have been involved in making porn, but not he money makers, are gunned down too!  The cops totally circumvent the legal system, and decide who will live or die . . . playing judge, jury, executioner and God!  The other cops, start to see, the connection between all these mass murders, and blood baths, and realize that it the cops doing it, they even take out some of their own, when it starts to dawn on them, who is responsible, yes, for these horrendous crime!  In the end, it is a battle of ideologies, with cop against cop, in a standoff!  Do we really want to go back to the old warlord days, archaic, barbaric, and lawless?

These Are Not Cops . . . They are Terrorists, Criminals, Anarchists to the Worst Degree!

I think that about says it, I could go on and on, giving story after story . . . just to give you one, that will shock you.  When I was assistant attorney general over all DUIs, statewide, taking about 270 in the year I did that job, running most of it from my office, talking to defense lawyers, looking at the facts, analyzing those with the law and statute, and bickering over license suspensions, it got back to me, that the cops were pissed that every case they thought should be taken to the limit, totally culminating in the lose of their licenses, through revocation, suspension, or whatever, regardless of the results of field sobriety tests, factors that might come into play, like gimp legs, being overweight, throwing the heel to toe test off, or other extenuating factors, that may not have come up, while out in the field!  I am not one to be pushed around, or fucked with . . . hopefully, the cops did their job, made the best call they could, then turned it over to me, as the prosecutor to dig a bit deeper, than they can while out on the road, generally, late at night, and at risk of their lives, even making some of these stops!  There was only one case, that the facts were so close, that, we had to go to court, and the other attorney wanted to take me to lunch after court, so I figured that was worth the drive to Park City, and get out of the office for the day, and have a bit of adult fun.  Most of the cases, could be handled on the phone . . . two smart attorneys, who respect each other, give each other the benefit of the doubt, or can openly discuss the case, debate it if needed, and come to a resolution, saving the state, the tax payers money, for travel, per deim, hotel and food!  I had to go to all jurisdictions in the state . . . figure 270 trips to court?  I cleared the docket!

I was taken out of that division, that was meant to be a punishment for me, having killed asset forfeiture, and the attorney leaving hated the job, and most people dreaded it.  I had my secretary run it, wheeling and dealing over the phone, knocking out, case after case, and still doing a ton of other law, business and related events . . . needless to say, I was not chained to this job, like the Attorney Generals Office, would have hoped!  Soon, they moved me to another, allegedly dreaded position in the AG's Office, and Mark Shurtleff, was my replacement, and he became the cops whipping boy!  They loved him, and had him running all over the state, taking their cases to the mat for them!  This was their kind of prosecutor, that fucking female, thought she could make a judgement, based on the fact, the law, application of the law, and general respect for the honesty of the other attorney!  Mark complained, hated the job, but, it all paid off for him, because, as I loomed on the horizon, as a possible candidate, my choice, for attorney general, something that people saw in me, from the first day I walked on the job, as staff attorney for the Utah Prosecution Council!  I was being courted for the job, taken to dinner, looking at the possiblities and a total shoe in for the job, five statewide jobs, teaching at three colleges, award winning manuals, huge name recognition, due to speaking engagements about 3 times a week, meeting hundreds, if not thousands of people each week, with late night waitresses, knowing my name in dinky Utah towns, so a real threat, and a no nonsense female attorney, not anybodies fool!  

Poison the Enemy--ME . . . Put in the Hand Selected Cops' Man, Who is Up for Criminal Indictment for Corruption!  As is His Hand Selected Replacement, Both, Possibly Looking at 30 Years in Prison; however, As is the Case with Other States, Mormon Utah has Buried the Case, Haven't Heard a Thing About it . . . BIG TIME SHIT!  AND I AM RIGHT THERE IN THE MIDDLE OF IT!

The hate crimes started in 2000, and persist to this second!  Cops should not look at the Fraternal Order of the Police, as a brotherhood, meaning that you are all one the same side, all the time, come thick or thin!  Corruption at any level, is so damaging to the public, to their trust, to the very essence of society.  It was amazing to me, as I watched this movie this morning, that the cops had so twisted the idea of trust, that they actually thought the public wanted them out killing, who they saw a criminals, taking them in mass off the streets, making it safe for the public!  They fucking shot cops, prosecutors and judges, for God sake!  In the law, they call it the slippery slop, at what point to you start to take justice into your own hands, and where does it stop . . . shooting someone because their tail light is out?  Or they took cigars and roughed up a store owner?  Or sold cigarettes, that had already been taxed, when Garner purchased them?  Playing God with human life, so callus and cruel, for so little?

The funny thing is or the revealing this it, I was in Utah, the day the indictments against a 2 former Utah attorney generals, one was forced to step down, and I had written a blog, the day, I saw the FBI, part of the fraternal order, dropped the probe against Swallow, so I picked up the guantlet, and wrote all I knew about both Shurtleff and Swallow!  They are both totally corrupt, totally and morally bankrupt, and have aided and abetted my sisters, in identity theft, sealing multi-million dollar cases, taking son's music, stealing furniture, houses, law practice, and, even with Shurtleff as a named defendant in my Brock, securities case, worth $357 million, no one batted an eye, when he order the Washington County Sheriff Constable, a friend of Shelley's, a co-conspirator, having everything to gain . . . she gets to dump her shitty life and be an attorney!  Force JoAnn on the streets, so she appears to be the aimless shit Shelley, and put Shelley, in JoAnn's attorney position . . . and it is not like, both Mark and John, don't know me personally, so there is no mistaken identity or confusion on their parts . . . go back 9 years, hell, I trained Mark!  Shelley was a rat fink, for the government, and they rewarded her with being me!  Wow, better than Christmas!  

I would bet the cops here, have been told, that I am Shelley, and when I write about her--the cops saw me walk to McDonald's, so no mistake, the person here in Durango, is blonde, blue eyes, and shorter than Shelley, but they just lie and say, Shelley aka JoAnn wrote this, she may be shadowing me, Jennifer and the shelter rats, will confirm, that it was in fact, Shelley aka JoAnn who was here, not me, JoAnn who is in Durango, and say that it is I who is stealing JoAnn's ID, and I am really Shelley!  LOL!  You have to consider the source, other fucking cops, who hate me!  Or chicks like Jennifer, who stand to benefit, getting a piece of my blogging money pie, or she may even start parading herself as an attorney, ME!  LOL! They are comical in their fucked up delusions, both the cops and the gals they try to elevate above me, not worthy to be my footstools!  Neither are the cops!

I Can, However, Sympathize With Some Aspects Of Their Work

When I was again, an assistant attorney general, and staff attorney for the Utah Prosecution Council, and over domestic violence, writing the manual, Domestic Violence 101: A User Friendly Manual for Prosecutors & Law Enforcement on Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault, award winner and national model, I will add . . . don't do shitty work, ever!  But, I got so immersed in the subject, the signs, the symptoms, the drama, the victims stories, that I started, only after one short year, to think that all men were abusers, kind of like all people are criminals!  I was involved, deeply for about two years, and some cops, are involved for 30 or more, with the underbelly of society, crime, bloodshed, and victims, so I can understand, how you feel to some extent, but I was wrong, men are not all abusers, and many are the most avid supporters of women, and do all in their power to stop abuse!  I had to stop myself from looking at the couple at dinner at the other table, and make the conscience effort, to say, you don't know jack shit about these people!  

When you are baptized in the waters of crime, so to say, dealing with the crud, scum, and dirt of society, it takes a conscious effort to dispel the myths, because more people are good than bad, at least that is the way I see it.

We Are Where We Are . . . Which Direction Do We Take From Here--Toward a Police State, or Toward a State Based on JUSTICE FOR ALL . . . even the scum bags!

P.S., I forgot the point I was going to make about the two former Utah attorney generals, under indictment for corruption . . . mind you, Shurtleff was one of my named defendants, and he and Swallow, met with me, prior to me filing the case, even encouraging me to file, stating that his hands were tied, due to threats of FBI investigations back then, and said that I would make a whole lot of people happy, including several legislators who were thinking about starting another, legislative investigation, with the first doing little to look into the civil rights abuses, abuse of power, the overzealous investigation and prosecutions, and the arbitrary and capricious manner in which the investigations were done . . . if you contributed to Mark's senatorial, or gubernatorial campaign, your securities investigation disappeared!  Come ON!  I was personally approached by, Tim Lawson, who ran for governor at the same time Mark ran for AG, back in 2000, when Mark wanted me, if I was not going to run, to be his campaign manager, as did he opponent, Frank Mylar!

My, my, my, I know a lot of details on my life!  I wonder if the gals do . . . they have 24/7 surveillance, and I do not, so who gets the information on whom, and who tells the facts clearer?  ME, it is my fucking life, my stories, my facts, and my history!  YOU dumb asses, do a fucking DNA!  Hell, no, then we could not keep stealing from Elliot Taylor Secrist's bands . . . our fun money, bribe money, and toy machine!  I still got waylaid!

The First Thing, AG's Shurtleff & Swallow Were Grateful for?  The Rights and Protections Guaranteed them, Under the U.S. Constitution . . . How Fucking Ironic, That is What I Sued Under, Section 1983 Civil Rights Violations, for Violating My Clients, Constitutional and Statutory Rights!  Funny How Former Cops, Prosecutors, and Judges, or Any of Us, Are So Grateful We Have Rights, When We Get In Trouble!