Thursday, October 22, 2015

MONSTER MASH CASH. LOVE TEST . . . PLEASURE FROM PAIN! MINE. THEY BUY JEWELRY, COINS, DIAMONDS, WATCHES, WE BUY GOLD & SILVER. A FAMILY FORTUNE . . . "THE WILL" THE "MOTHER LODE" . . . DYING INTESTATE, WITH NO CHILDREN, FORTUNE GOES UP TO PARENTS, NO PARENTS, TO SIBLINGS TO BE DIVIDED IN EQUAL SHARES! IF NO ONE THERE TO DISTRIBUTE FORTUNE TO, ESCHEATS TO THE STATE! DOUBLE DATA FOR LIFE? HELL NO! LOOSE CABOOSE, SOFT & COZY. NEW TREND IN LAW ENFORCEMENT, KILLING WIVES, WEB SITE, POV. BUDDY TOLD ME ABOUT, SUSPICIOUS DEATHS OF WIVES . . . REMEMBER, DREW PETERSON, WHO GOT AWAY WITH MURDERING 3 WIVES, GOT CAUGHT ON THE 4TH ONE HE KILLED. THE AGENT'S WIFE . . . NEVER SHOT HIS LUGAR IN 18 YEARS WITH THE FBI, SHOT HIS WIFE, IN AN ALLEGED ATTACK, CLAIMING SELF DEFENSE? TROUBLE WHEN MEN, SEE FEMALES, AS MERELY THERE TO SERVE THEIR NEEDS! ONCE TRAINING COPS, ABOUT 50 IN CENTRAL UTAH, ON DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, TOLD THEM, THEY HAD TO LET PEOPLE IN THE COMMUNITY KNOW, IT WAS NOT OKAY TO HIT YOUR WIFE! ALL AT ONCE, THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER, AND SAID, ALMOST, NONCHALANTLY, WE ALL HIT OUR WIVES? LIKE WHAT IS THE PROBLEM . . . NOW, THAT WAS 20 YEARS AGO, WHEN, I WAS AN ASSISTANT ATTORNEY GENERAL, STAFF ATTORNEY FOR THE UTAH PROSECUTION COUNCIL, CRIMINAL ENFORCEMENT DIVISION. TRENDING NOW, WHEN THE OLD WIFE, NO LONGER TURNS YOU ON, OR IS OF SERVICE, OR YOU FIND SOMEONE HOTTER, KILL HER . . . PROTECTED BY THE FRATERNAL ORDER OF THE POLICE? SEEMS LIKE IT!

Missoula and Bonner, Montana, Draped in Gold . . . With a Splash of Red and Orange for Accent Colors!

The Great Thing About Montana, Is It Is Still Wild . . . The Bad Thing About Montana, Is It Is Still Wild!  LOL!

The other day, for a change of pace, and to get out of town, I took the number 4 bus, on the Mountain Line, out of town a bit, to Bonner, because the bus, takes you winding through all the back roads, by homes, that are soft and cozy, with reminders of days gone by, Halloweens past, with over sized, candy corn, in the yard for a decoration, standing alone, but very reminiscent of simpler times and days gone by, with one house, all decked out, with cob webs, spiders, pumpkins, and an array of other signs and symbols, that, Halloween, is a fun time of year, and this family is into the ghouls, the goblins, the vampires, ghosts, witches, golden leaves, the kids, kick through as they Trick-or-Treat, neighbor to neighbor, to get a bag of golden goodies, that might last, a week, if the kids can keep the parents from grabbing some of the goods!  LOL! The golden tamaracks, mixed in with the pines, the clouds, dripping over the mountains, like quilt batting, pulled and stretched, over the misty, and moist, forest foliage and fauna.  What a fun time of year, so nostalgic, filled with memories, of dinner in a pumpkin, and dressing kids for the night of run and fun, going to as many houses, as little feet can get to before, tiring for the night, coming home with their pirates, booty. How fun!

A, fall in Montana, elegant, juicy, glorious, with every bite to be savored, relished, and cherished.  Along with the fall, delight, new statistics came out, in the last, few days, Missoulian, that Montana, has an unemployment rate of 3 percent! way to go Governor Bullock, and others in charge of economic growth and development, with evidence of new businesses, expanding to Montana, with a huge new office building or something going in between Missoula and East Missoula!  So fun to see, new start ups on home building, and the evidence of faith in the economy, in recovery, and that determined pioneer spirit, that forges forward with hope and belief in the good things still to come, seeing the best is yet to come!  There are help wanted signs, dotting the store fronts, the job service, and newspapers . . . I talked to one guy, who said, he had 6 job offers in one day!  Great stuff, the American dream at work!

On the other hand, Montana just got rated with the most dangerous roads.  At first, I thought, that is probably because you have, barely a million people, in the 4th largest state in the nation, and paving roads, sidewalks, and other safety measures, stretch the tax dollars, that are already spread thin, at best, but, in the Montana, spirit, it is roll up your sleeves and just get-r-done, whatever it takes.  But as I read further in the article, it mentioned the fact that, wild ass, Montanans, drive too fast, drink too much, and take too many chances on the freeways, highways and back roads, dotting the road ways with crosses, and signs of the evidence of this fact.  I have ridden with my friends, one in particular up in Kalispell, who would always get mad as me, for putting my seat belt on . . . she said, if you put yours on, it draws attention to me, not wearing one, and the cops, will pull her over.  I come from a state, Utah, where I have heard legislators, argue, during a hotly contested debate, in the house or the senate, that, people have the constitutional right, to not wear a helmet on their motorcycles, or before the seat belt laws, they have the right to die!

Well, that is all fine and well, but, you have to remember, you are not the only ones on the roads, and you, in your freedom, might take out, one of the rest of us!  I had that, teenage invincibility, that nothing bad can happen to me, until, just standing on a bike, trying to read, some stupid, saying someone had written on the asphalt, and being to lazy to turn my bike around, getting my leg, caught between the bike and the wheel, as it flipped, over and pinned me, forcing me to the ground, leaving my foot, stuck to the asphalt, not moving, while the rest of my body hit the ground, with pain, that you could taste, shattering my two ankles bones, and all other bones, but the femur, or the main bone, whatever that is called, and lucky not to have snapped, my foot off, and but for two good Samaritans, may have resulted in much, worse conditions, one picked up my foot, and gently placed in back in the right position, doing a masterful job, and another woman, seeing me go down in her rear view mirror, backed up, and let me crawl into her car, taking me to the emergency!  From that point on, seat belts, are not a problem, for this freedom loving woman!  That shit, HURT! as does any accident . . . not only do you owe it to yourself, but to other drivers on the roads in Montana, to make them a safer experience . . . together, we can make Montana the safest roads, in the nation!

Attorney General, Tim Fox, Public Service Announcement . . . Prescription Drugs, More Dangerous Than Meth and Heroin! 

Yesterday, while listening to the radio, AG Tim Fox, got on a pleaded with the people of Montana, to watch prescription drug us, and distribution!  And he warned of the potential danger, and told people to keep their meds, in a safe place, away from children, and don't share them with others, who bug you to have some, pain meds or something like that.  I know, before leaving Utah, there were 427 deaths, from overdosing on prescription drugs!  That is fucking huge, and I don't think the OD on meth and heroin, is that bad, or at least in all my years, working with the state and the attorney generals office, did I ever hear statistics like that. And that is scary!  I know that people, I have associated with, in various parts of the state, share their prescription med, may even sale them for cash, and some get them, just for that reason.  Easy to get prescribed, easier than getting a job!  So, watch that, and many kids, actually, raid their parent's meds, either for their own use, or to sell, or share with friends.  I have literally seen people, with 16 prescription meds that take daily, and those are open targets, in a living situation, like the Poverello Center.

States, have the specific, responsibility, to protect the health, safety and welfare of their citizens . . . but, the citizens, have that personal responsibility, to themselves, to the ones they love, and those they associate with!  Montanans get pissed, at too much government, to much intrusion in their lives, and at the thoughts of big brother, or big sister, playing watch dog over their activities, but, it does have a constitutional responsibility, to protect the citizens, even if it is from themselves, in certain situations.  If you don't want government, want smaller government, then, start taking personal responsibility, for safer living! Oh, and just a comment on the meeting, Monday, night at the new proposed, city ordinance, to make gun use, safer, at least in the city of Missoula . . . there is some speculation that any regulation of firearm rights, is an infringement on their 2nd amendment rights, to Congress, it is, specifically addressed in the 2nd amendment, with the first three amendments, being addressed directly to Congress . . . look at the structure of the Bill of Rights, Congress shall not . . . but, states, with the responsibility for the health, safety and welfare of their citizens, can, regulate, but I would guess, and I have not taken the time to look and digest the Montana Constitutional provision, that deals directly with the use and carry of guns, but I would venture a guess that there is assistant attorney general, or general counsel, or legislative counsel, who could, look that section, that I know is there, I go that far, in my knowledge, but, the state constitution, is the bible for state, county and local governments.  If all else fails, follow the instructions!

I do know, in the Utah Constitution, there is a right to bear arms, but, the legislature, can regulate!  That only gets the legal and constitutional analysis, part way, there is a section, that lists, if it has not changed, 27 things the state legislature cannot do, and those powers are reserved for the counties and the cities.  So, to get to the right, constitutional result, one has to start with the federal Constitution, then go backward, to the 10th amendment, that any duties not specifically, and expressly given to the feds by the states, those powers are reserved for the states and the people.  So, if there is a provision, and there is, about guns, in the Montana State Constitution, go backwards, look at what that says, then, check for the division of responsibilities, between state and counties, counties and cities, generally, there is that distinction made, and go from there.  If there is an open door, rely on the city's, heightened, responsibility to protect the health, safety and welfare, of the citizens, being the closest, to the people, therefore the first responsible!  Good luck!  I will do the analysis for you, if you want, but, I am going to start getting paid!  I am at a fucking homeless shelter for damn sake!  LOL!

I have a passion for this stuff, so it is easy to just spit it out, but if you want a detailed, analysis, you know where to find me . . . the people I did the Salish-Kootenai water compact analysis threw me under the bus, for my fucking double, who probably got paid a fortune to claim the work I did, and then fuck over the very people, involved, doing that, playing both sides of the debate . . . learning from the world bankers, they make more money, the longer the fight goes!  I don't play that game, I get-r-done right! LOL!  Montana spirit, Utah raised, California born!  What a mix!  LOL!

First of all . . . I actually AM AN ATTORNEY, fraud broads are NOT!

Comments on Mayor Engan's Surgery . . . Some Brains, Tell Body, It is Hungry, Minutes After a 7 Course Meal!  Judge Not!

I was sympathetic, as I read about the Mayor's upcoming surgery, after suffering, through, over the yeas, a 600 pound, lose, over the years, with dieting, yo yo, shit, and all that jazz, that people who struggle with weight have.  Scientists have found, that there is an element in some people's brains, that makes them trigger the hunger button, within minutes of just eating.  I know, that I ate breakfast at roughly 5:00 A.M. yesterday morning, full ass breakfast, and I swear by, 7:00 A.M., I was hungry again!  It makes no sense to people who don't have that genetic or brain malfunction, but, they have found it to be real.  And so much of weight in genetic . . . some people can eat anything they want, and never gain a pound, in fact, I know people who have to struggle to GAIN weight, oh, to have that problem!  LOL!  I would love it!  Some is age related, and if you don't watch everything you eat, you will gain, about 10 pounds of hard to lose weight, every 10 years.  So, there are many factors to weight gain, emotional eating, stress eating, and all kinds of stuff, so for someone to sit back and judge someone else, or discriminate against

I literally, have people on both sides of my family, who have weighed up to 400 pounds!  I know, for me, dieting does not work, or I never tried it, because, if I even thing about it, I want to EAT!  LOL!  Never say, never . . . it doesn't work.  I find the best way for me to lose, is to eat whatever I want, relax about it, not like I have ever stressed about it, much, but, then start drinking water, and exercise, focus on getting a gallon of water a day, down, and exercising, and that tends to take my mind off, eating, and refocuses, my thoughts, and I remember, having a check list, and when I worked at the Utah Medical Association, when I had about 20 pounds to lose, and I did this, never, thought of cutting back my food. and one day, it dawned on me, that I had not had a thing to eat, painless, dieting, and had to force myself to eat an apple!  Nice challenge for someone, like me, who loves to eat!  I have, until recently, not met a man, I liked more than a sirloin burger, fries and Diet Coke!  LOL!  Priorities!  LOL!  

I love the bus bench, down below, Arthur and Keith, the next one on the right side, with a happy looking, girl, carrying a grocery bag, with the slogan, better choices, as her veggies, are sticking out of her bag, and move more!  If you just start thinking, do I eat the desert or the veggies?  I have found, that the Poverello is the best place for me to lose weight, because there are always donuts in the mornings, so, I don't ever want them!  LOL!  And, the meals are very, very healthy, with all 5 of your fruits and veggies, in ONE meal, so you are filling your body with all the vitamins and minerals you need for the day, and that some how, satisfies the body, and you start opting for the good stuff, and I noticed, that even though I can readily have the cake or the pie, I am seeing myself, after eating all the good stuff, not having a craving for the sugary stuff, which is a first in my life!  And the other part of the bench, wisdom, just move more.  There was a study, using a shit load of people, dividing them into two divisions, and they told the controlled study group, to just MOVE, Michelle Obama's theme, when you are waiting for a bus, or in line at the grocery store, or wherever, but, kick your legs, or move them, inside and out, circle your arms, move your neck . . . all of that takes, effort and burns calories!  It is a numbers game, and the group that was not controlled, just did whatever, had no change to some weight gain, and the group, that was told to just MOVE, had weight lose, finding, that some actually burned up to 1,000 calories a DAY!

Hell, when I was running 5 miles a day, I think, I was only burning 700 calories!  So, this is a pretty effortless, or not noticed way to burn, calories all day!  And you don't have to take any time out of your day!

GOOD LUCK MAYOR!

Death of One of Their Own . . . Semper Fidelis!

Or forever faithful . . . I was watching a true crime, FBI Files, episode, Dishonor, last night, where an inter-racial couple, both in the Marines, were getting separated, and all the sudden the black wife, with a stellar, military record, and loved by many, with a solid family, and supporting community, all of the sudden, just up and disappeared!  And true to form, the FBI was called in, because, jurisdictionally, any, crime, which it appeared to be--murder, that takes place on a military base, comes under the powers of the federal government, and FBI, when in America, as this crime, at the Quantico, Paris Island, Marine training base did, where the Sargent, I think that was her title, disappeared and was feared to be dead.  The husband had recently moved to the area, after a distance in the last assignments, so they could work on their relationship. At one point, the husband, was released from his duties, as a Marine, for, less than honorable service, where later, after being escorted, off the military base, he was dismissed without time to clear out his office, the military investigators, or the NIA, I think, found a disk, that led to the arrest of the husband in the death of his wife, because, while there was not a body, the disk, showed an 11 or so step plan to kill your spouse!

He was charged and tried, on circumstantial evidence, and convicted, spending the rest of his life in prison, shocking in the discovery, after thousands of soldiers, helicopters, and cops from various involved agencies, searched for the missing Sargent, but never found her, but he revealed as part of a plea agreement, if I remember, that he took her body back to Pennsylvania, and dumped it down a mine shaft, and threw dynamite down the hole, blowing her body in to a thousand pieces.  The thing that struck me, was the fact, that the women, he was cheating on his wife with, and used to spy on his wife, was that projection, and taking what the man, himself, was doing, and projecting those behaviors and actions, onto his unsuspecting with!  I just don't understand, where men get off, actually, thinking that a wife is some kind of possession, to be used, abuse, cheated on, and discarded, when she is no longer interested in him, or he can't get anything from her, like seemed to be the case here!  Maybe there is some type of male collective consciousness, residual, from centuries past, where women, could not possess property, and it all belonged to their husbands, and wives, were almost considered, the husband's property!  It used to be that a husband, could beat his wife, with a stick, no bigger than his thumb . . . but, he was also, held guilty for any of her crimes, too!  So, at least some justification, for having some supervisory duties over her . . . but times, laws, and attitudes, hopefully have changed with the rest of us!

Let the Cowboys Ride Against the Wind!  Bob Seger

Now, take the attitude of this errant husband, abuser, user, murderer, with so little thought to his wife, as to blow the shit out of her body, leaving no trace of her very existence, and apply that to my case, with a son, worth a small fortune, and me with $700 million worth of cases, on my desk, with huge ass multi-million dollar cases, at stake, and almost coming into fruition, and payment, when, I was, married, allegedly to my client, Allan Rex Bess, and later found out, he had been murdered, a faithful MARINE, and maybe one of the main players in the ending of the Vietnam War, with a a direct line to President Nixon, knowing where every missile was placed, Intelligence Corp, who got him out of the Marines, when he could not go into the field to fight with his comrades, and was reading all the body counts, sending messages into the field, thinking he was sending his fellow soldiers to their deaths, and made a statement, by leaving the service, faining a nervous breakdown, when I was really, married to a fake Allan, who not only killed the real one, took his place, and took Allan's families fortune, rifling through all the stocks and certificates, and ransacking the house, in search of family treasures! then went after, ME, whom the Marine loved and wanted to marry . . . 

Now, both of these men were Marines, and I could see the difference, between the pictures of the real Allan, and Frank, aka, Allan, with one, never going into battle, and the other, saying he was a platoon leader, with 83 Marines, going into battle with only 52 coming out, so big difference in stories!  Later, seeing the different sizes, the 200 pages of difference, and writing the the police, the adult probation and parole, the real Allan had been my client, the sheriff's department, and anyone, I could think of, and getting FUCKING NOWHERE!  So, without recourse through, the police, FBI, and other agencies, who should be working on this case, I noticed, how, kick ass, big time, effort, was put into this woman's case, with Apache helicopters, deployed in search of her body, and tons of soldiers searching the base, for this woman, very impressive, and also, saw, one seen, that showed, a train, with the words, READING . . . and I thought, maybe, I should go after the Marines, to help, with this case, of literally, one of their own, being MURDERED by one of their own!  Both MARINES!  One forever faithful, and one a total disgrace to the Marines!

Profit Sharing Checking . . . Auction America!

So, this man, who is one of yours, who swore to uphold the United States Constitution, and defend, protect and preserve, it with his life, both on foreign and domestic soil, not only is in violation of that, and your moral and ethical codes, but, is a treasonous enemy of the people of the United States, with this hair-brained, British/Mormon shit, new, subversive, plan, to restructure the constitutional outline, of power, who is commander in chief, putting himself, the CIA, and other military, in a coup, against the United States, in a, military coup, to destroy the very fabric of America!  Frank, aka, AB, and a total, ABSOLUTE BASTARD vs. ABSOLUTE BITCH, or me, has declared an all out war, against me, my family, stealing, lying, cheating, destroying, killing, threatening, someone, who actually, is noted, connected and a very viable player, on a national scene, and bringing if fucking whores, who are willing to do whatever, to show, in Frank's sick, love test . . . that they will inflict as much pain, on me and mine, destroying, raping, stealing ever last penny, if not life itself, for this fucker, that is ONE OF YOURS!

I feel that it is in your best interest, as well as mine, to FUCK THIS SCHMUCK to GOD DAMNED HELL, AND BACK!  I would try his ass for treason, for aiding and giving comfort to the enemies of the UNITED STATES!  You may say, well, Britain is our ally . . . not if you look back far enough, and with the dumb ass scheme, to turn, the American, Constitution, putting it under the Marines and the Navy, which is fucked up, Constitutionally, and against all of your oaths, and totally stupid, using much of the ill gotten gains, from me and mine, to fund this TOTAL SHIT!  I feel that for the honor, and fidelity of the Marines, to all they stand for, and hold dear, to try this man, in a military court, and FRY HIS SORRY SKINNY ASS, OR CUT HIS UGLY FACE OFF!  I will volunteer for any of those duties, including a firing squad, and relish the fact, that I am a horrible shot, and it might take me twenty shots to put the THE MOTHERFUCKER OUT OF OUR MISERY! 

I see, nothing in this man of honor, nothing or merit, and nothing worth, destroying the reputation, of the Marines, who have a long history, of good works!  Brainwashing my son, lying to say, that that fucker, has anything to do with him, is ludicrous, at best . . . my marriage to him, is a sham, because, it was performed under the guise of him, being, Allan Rex Bess, not FUCKER FRANK!  I wrote in my divorce paperwork and brief, that he, Mr. UGLY, that he had NO RIGHT OR CLAIM ON MY CHILDREN, and it does not matter, what my son, says, who he is claiming is his father, or whom he has been THREATENED into saying is his father, DNA will tell the truth, and I will personally, oversee the chain of evidence, and NEVER FUCKING LET IT OUT OF MY SIGHT, not for one god-damned second, knowing this lying sack of shit, and his shit crew, will lie and do anything to make it look like the government whores, are his mothers, burying me under the TOTAL DOG PILE OF SHIT! 

Tying A Woman to A Pole, Throw her Grapefruit . . . FUCK YOU!

Let me put this a delicate as I can . . . you can Shelley, or the girlz club, is Elliot mother, and at the end of the day, she is not, cannot be, and will never be, no matter who much she wants to claim she is, or how hard Frank, wants to distance himself from his own children, who are probably worthless, with a worthless piece of shit father, like him, and only God, knows the sick parenting he would do, and Shelley, well, I know what that bitch did to her children, and she doesn't get to come in when mine are raised and try to take credit, for good kids, and dis her own, fucked up kids, because they had a whore for a mother!  When all is said and done, Shelley is not an attorney, dress her in a monkey suit, giver he a desk at the U.S. attorney generals office, send her to court, every fucking day, and at the end of the day, she is still NOT AN ATTORNEY!

The clowns at the FBI, the CIA, and whatever other dumb ass government alphabet soup shit agency, can say, that the bitch squad is me, they can read all my blogs, change it make it look like their whores wrote the, or had the brains, the writing skills, or stories to write this blog, which they don't . . . and at the end of the day, none of them, wrote SHIT!  I don't care how fat, how ugly, how, whatever, else these loser, sacks of shit think, I have eaten their lunch over and over and over and over for 4 GOD-DAMN YEARS!  LOL!  So, tell me who is lazy, who is stupid?  HUH?   YOU STUPID FUCKS!  And you had all the PRISM SYSTEMS, the spies, the 1000 foot soldiers, and me and God beat your sorry LOSER ASSES!

Begging the Military To Clean This Up! 

ELI MANNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 

P.S., some vital statistics you might need to prove that I am me, as if this blog, all 670+ doesn't, but I have no idea if you are getting it in the pure form, after the fucking DIA, scans it and changes the content, to protect the FUCKING GUILTY!  Two years ago, I tried to get my birth certificate, ordered it, and then got it stolen, probably paid the guy I was renting from to steal it, but last year, February, frustrated, not only about losing the $93 I paid, but getting the certificate hijacked, I attended a homeless, work day, where people from the community, with programs to help the homeless came and helped get vital documents, so the person could get on this their lives.  That day, I literally, had to go to the booking mug shot, when the judge, who illegally, unlawfully, and unconstitutionally, had me arrested, to cover his sorry ass, and so, my legal work, creating new laws and a 10 prong test, dealing with alimony and cohabitation, could be claimed by one of the cunts, that worked with ONE OF YOURS, but, thank God, I was able to get an official, government document, having had my I.D. stolen over the last two years, and not being allowed to replace any of them, being controlled by government agencies, with staff who has to answer to the fucking FBI, MO style MOB, but, through this agency, and I am not sure of the name, WORD, I think, I was able to obtain a mug shot, when I was arrested in Grand County and booked into jail, for contempt of court, better known as CONTEMPT FOR COURT, but all part of the lies, the MOSHIT!  But, the notary, would not, sign for a new birth certificate, if I didn't have a picture I.D. and after trying for hours, I was able to obtain, it and thus get the ONLY I.D. I have been able to get, since the boyz, sleaze club, stole it for the sleazy bitch blow job galz . . . but, the notary did her job, and we got the Grand County Jail to scan and send a copy of the booking picture!  No, Shelley, Kay, or any of the liars, didn't represent, Hope, murdering cop, double, nor write the law on the 10 prong new test that will help women from across the country, starting with Utah! And again, they can lie, the judge can lie, the court of appeals can lie, and when all is said and done, and the day is over, that doesn't change a god-damned thing, I STILL WROTE THE NEW LAW!  And Shelley is still NOT AN ATTORNEY!  A LIAR, YES, WHORE, YES, RELATIONSHIP DEPENDENT, YES, an ATTORNEY, NO, ELLIOT'S MOTHER, NO, FUCK NO!  ANY OF MY KIDS MOTHER, FUCK NO!  But these numbers are off the official, state of California, Health and Human Services, Center for Health Statistics and Informatics Vital Records!

  • date received: 2/9/2015
  • bank note . . . clue, to who did this for me, and how to get the notary's proof of who I am: 003971955
  • 1074, state file #, 54 295732, district #, 5600, registrants # 3820!

SHELL CASING . . . HELPING TO BUILD THE CASE AGAINST THE BITCH! SHELLEY!

P.S., I thought, I better help with a skeleton sketch of Allan Rex Bess's murder!  I am hoping I can get the dates and years right.  I believe the cops, in Iron County and Parowan, falsely arrested Allan for allegedly, an attempted homicide, then changed to a felony assault, as I recall.
  • Allan was arrested, Christmas Eve, 2009, when cops took two trips to the hospital, for live in friend, Ms. Vickie Bentley, a black widow, who had three previous dead husbands, working on her 4th, and nobody would question her!  I think they wanted Allan, since Vietnam! back in 1976, when he got out of the Marines, and came back to Parowan, Iron County, Utah . . . the name who knew too much!
  • I got the case, either in late August, early September, and had a suppression hearing, on the three firearms, that were seized, and added 30 years to Allan's sentence, with mandatory minimums, of adding 10 year gun enhancements, and then, there was the trial, October 29, 2010, going until 1:00 A.M., on purpose, with Judge Michael Westfall, being involved in the RICO, Mormon shit, making and giving Shelley credit for being the former assistant attorney general, who rocked, Iron County, suing them for $56.7 million, for civil rights violations! so they could steal the case, the money, and get credit for saving Allan, now, Frank, aka, Allan
  • Allan got off, thanks to me, with a three year probation, on or about December 20, 2010, if I can remember, there was a sentencing hearing, December 6, 2010, with Judge Westfall, giving him an additional 14 days, in a one year jail term, of being illegally, held, former attorney, Howard Dent, was just going to see Allan in jail, once a month, to collect, Allan's government benefit check
  • January 2011, Allan contacted me, and said that the city of Parowan, had not let him back in his family home, at 291 North 100 East, Parowan, due to the fact that they said he had to get a new electricity box, before they felt it was safe for Allan to move back in his house . . . I called the city and threatened to go after him, if they did not let him back in his home!  He was back in, in about 5 minutes!  Allan had been staying with Joe, childhood friend, can't remember his last name, but he seemed to be in cahoots with Frank, claiming that I threw away all the stocks and certificates of ownership of property, of the Bess family, as I cleared out the house, when I later moved in . . . I also represented his son, Joe Ridley . . . it came back, on charges of an unregistered license and whatever, insurance, that I had to drop, when the cops tried to kill me in Parowan, sabatoging my truck, engine, oil filter, and transmission! hoping I would die on my way to federal court in Salt Lake . . . no this was not that fucking whore and bitch KAY!  Look at the Bountiful High School, year book and you will see the bitch that you think is ME, GOD! NO!  That is Brett's shit bitch, to make up for losing me!  I don't want Brett, don't want Kay, they deserve each other, SICK SHITS!
  • April 18, 2011, I stopped by to see Allan, to see if he needed help on some of his civil issues, and also, to tell him that I loved Panguitch Lake and would take one of the lots, up at Scoot's Creek, where his family owned three lots, and he offered to pay me with one of the lots.  I stayed, for about two hours and started to like Allan.  When I got home, Judge John fuck Walton, had some make shit, allegedly legal authorization to have me move out of the house, that I won in a federal law suit.
  • April 19, 2011, I called Allan and told him, that the Fifth District Judges, through Walton, a former, prosecutor from Iron County, working in concert with Washington County, had posted a note, to be out of my house in about 5 days . . . with a lawsuit pending and about two fucking years from being done, and I knew I could win, and so did they!  Allan said, as long as he had a house, I had a house and he said, like a true Marine, a a man of honor, that he would move into his cabin and I could have his house . . . that was the last time I ever talked to the REAL ALLAN BESS!
  • May 5, 2011, with war going on at my house in St. George, Utah, I stopped by Allan's like I promised, to take him up to see his cabin, for the first time in a year and a half!  Only, it was not Allan, who came out of the door, but, at the time, I was in a chaotic state, having, Wells Fargo, Judge Walton and the vipers, liars, going after my house, the day, mark this the day or two before, I was to fly to Denver, May 8, and argue MY $357 million, securities case, Brock et al v. Herbert et al, so I decided, while I was locked out of my home, I decided to take Allan to the lake, and cabin . . . so, when Frank, came out, wearing a cowboy hat, down filled coat, to cover his skinny shit, ugly, 80 year old body, and cowboy boots, trying to pass it off, for the real Allan, who was 3 inches taller, and 60 pounds heavier, a body, I loved, not this sickly shit, who told me he had cancer, got in jail, and had lost weight, when I asked, why he looked so different? What did I know, other than to believe him . . . remember the projection thing, I am honest, I assume others are, BIG FUCKING MISTAKE WITH THIS LYING ASSHOLE!  Who preferred, to be called AB, or Absolute Bastard, and he was!  I think Frank was so, shocked, at my normal aggressive nature, it took him a while to get back to the real him, asshole shit, ugly motherfucker!
  • I believe, that between, April 18 to May 5th, when, Shit head, showed up, Shelley came down, stopping in to allegedly find me, with Allan, horny as hell, after being in jail for a year, and wanting sex, asking me if I would like him, and I said, no, I was his attorney, conflict of interest, and ethics and professional responsibility, something Kay, who fucked opposing counsel, minutes after taking depositions, when she practiced in San Diego, and Shelley, not an attorney, and totally unfamiliar with ethics of ANY KIND!  But, I had Rachel, stop by and pick up a check, once, about this time, so, Allan, was getting familiar with the Southwick girls, or my sisters, hags that they are, and I am sure, Shelley, with 4 children, all from different fathers, not the one she was ever married to, but she would have, with murderous intent, and criminal enterprises and a plan, would have slept with Allan, so further that crime, the Frank, would show up and join, in getting rid of the body!
    • after marrying, Frank, aka, Allan, never slept with either man . . . probably would have with Allan, but the weasel, AB, Frank, actor, double, NO!  I hate SKINNY MEN!  Blah! Especially, after catching him one, morning without the props, of big coat, hat and boots, on! SCREAMMMMMM!  Maybe I should chain him to a SUPER SIZED MCD'S TRUCK, and force feet the weakling!  LOL!  So, I was unfamiliar with the bodies, but, Shelley, never let anything bother, her psycho pathology, and sick motives, all about gain and money!  I believe that Shelley, using Frank's favorite method of assassination, he had told me about, striking me as a strange conversation!  But, I figured that Shelley dropped in, the two started talking, went to bed with each other, and Shelley shot him, behind the ear, with a 22, after Allan had gone to sleep!  When I moved in, and cleaned the room, that Allan had slept in, there was a small, blood spot, right where Allan's head would have been, had he turned over and gone to sleep after sex.
    • I believe that Frank was around, and after Shelley shot him, Frank came in, pretending to be Allan, and they used, Allan's chainsaw, cut the body up, and burned pieces in Allan's new furnace in the basement, took the ashes, cemented them in the cement, around the window to the wood and coal window!.  Allan, had given me a tour of his home, right after he got back in, sometime, round January or February, and the place, was immaculate, other than the upstairs storage room. But, within days, after, Frank was in the home, with me, not noticing the mess, due to the chaos, in my life, I just didn't pay attention, not thinking about the condition of the home, after Frank moved in . . . it had been ransacked, totally torn apart, probably Shelley and Frank, looking for money and evidence of the families wealth!  Allan and I were forced, to go in the family booths at the jail, not being allowed in the attorney's booth, because, I think they knew, Allan and I were a deadly combination to the government, with Allan having sued the V.A. and U.S.A. and won, and me having a shit load of cases, against the government . . . but the case, I believe, if the government did bring FUCKER FRANK it, UNLAWFULLY . . . they have NO FUCKING GOD DAMNED RIGHT TO KILL PEOPLE, MARINES TO BOOT!  but, I think the TRISTAN LAMOREAUX case was of concern, involving the reputation of the National Guard, with three deputy sheriffs, serving both the NG and the county, with cops, killing Misty, Tristen's wife, Allan had a picture on the wall, and wanted to help me with the case, or I tried to assign some reason, for the MURDER!
    • I married, Frank, thinking it was Allan, after my house was taken, and I moved in June 8, 2011, into Allan's house, where it was trashed, but, I was able to go through all Allan's families documents, seeing that Allan and his family, were worth, a small fortune, millions!  So, having taught family law, for about 8 years, between BYU and the U of U, the law, is, that if there is any fraud involved in a marriage, the MARRIAGE IS A TOTAL SHAM!!!! and it is NULL and VOID BY LAW, AS A MATTER OF LAW, so Fucker Frank, has NO claim on the cabin, or the house, or any of the MONEY HE AND SHELLEY STOLE FROM THE HOUSE . . . EXECUTION IS IN ORDER!
  • hopefully this helps . . . oh, and the young woman, murdered, at the town square, on the corner of one of the two Mormon churches on the square, not replaced by a new church, FRANK murdered her, to take me off his trail, he drove the truck, I bought, first him, until he said, he liked me CHAUFFERING him . . . KEY TERM, he also, had tabs, something Allan never had, Frank was familiar with transferring and doing bank transactions on the phone . . . Allan was paying Christa Bess, $200 a month just to pay Allan's bills, the government took Allan's pontinmyolitis out of his brain!  Another piece of evidence, that Frank and Allan, are totally different MEN! or one a MAN, the other a MOUSE!

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

MURDER BECAME OKAY! TRUE LOVE . . . REASON TO KILL? IF YOU ARE RELATIONSHIP DEPENDENT! SCARY!!!! FEAR OF PENDING DISASTER! TRUDEAUMANMIA, ALLEGEDLY CANADA'S NEW PRIME MINISTER, LAUDED AS THE CANADIAN EQUIVALENT TO PRESIDENT OBAMA? LOOKS MORE LIKE MITT ROMNEY? CHARISMATIC NEW LEADER, OR JUST ANOTHER PRETTY FACE? ANYWAY, CONGRATULATIONS CANADA, YOU SWING AS MUCH AS WE DO, CONSERVATIVE TO LIBERAL! LOL! IN THE LAST 17 YEARS IN AMERICA, THE DEMOCRATS HAVE STAYED, PRETTY CONSISTENTLY, JUST LEFT OF CENTER, BUT REPUBLICANS, HAVE CONTINUED TO GO FURTHER AND FURTHER TO THE CONSERVATIVE EXTREME, SO MUCH MORE EXTREME, THAT EVEN THEIR OWN PARTY, DOESN'T RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER, AND EXTREMIST ON ANY SPECTRUM, IS A MARK OF LOWER INTELLIGENCE QUOTION OR I.Q. REASONABLE PEOPLE AGREE TO DISAGREE, PUT DIFFERENCES ASIDE, AND WORK TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD OF THE COUNTRY! HOPEFULLY, SENATOR, PAUL RYAN, CAN DO WHAT IS CALLED, "HERDING CATS" AND GET ALL THE REPUBLICANS, TO ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING BESIDES, PLAYING POLITICS, AND GET TO THE BUSINESS OF MAKE AND PASSING LEGISLATION TO RUN THIS COUNTRY, NOT JUST SHUT IT DOWN! IT LOOKS LIKE IT MAY HAVE BEEN JUST AS SAFE FOR HILLARY TO USE HER HOME SERVER, SEEING THE STATE DEPARTMENT HAD MORE HACKERS AND SECURITY BREACHES THAT HILLARY PROBABLY HAD AT HOME! LOL! AND AS FOR BENGHAZI, AFTER 22 HEARINGS, AND HILLARY NOT BEING THE ONE TO GIVE ORDERS TO "STAND DOWN", THAT IS MORE THE PROTOCOL OF MILITARY POLICY, IN A GIVEN SITUATION, AND WITH, OBAMA, RICE, AND CLINTON, MERELY, REPORTING THE INTEL THEY GOT FROM CIA OPERATIVES IN THE FIELD OR FROM CIA INSIDE THE STATE DEPARTMENT, AH, REPUBLICANS, OUGHT TO REIGN IN THE CIA, PERHAPS, LOOKING AT THE WRONG PARTY LOYALISTS? IT WAS 2012, WITH MITT ROMENY, MORMON, AND REPUBLICAN, AND HE ALLEGED TO KNOW MORE THAN THE PRESIDENT, EARLY ON? JUST PLAYING THE DEVIL'S ADVOCATE! THAT'S MY JOB, ASKING THE OTHER SIDE OF THE QUESTIONS! LOL! THINK OUT OF THE BOX! YOU MIGHT BE SHOCKED WHAT YOU FIND, WHAT DISCOVERIES YOU MAKE, AND WHO IS BEHIND WHAT! I'M JUST SAYING . . .

HINT, HINT, HINT, TO LAW ENFORCEMENT

If, cops are still confused as to whom I am, just go request the surveillance tapes, at Wells Fargo Bank, the street, west of Ryman, right there close, and check out the tape, between, 4:15 and 4:30 A.M., I am in pulling money out of my account, and my government benefits, that tie me directly, back to being diagnosed with Pick's Disease, and a straight line of connection, for the last almost 16 years, taking you back to when I was general counsel of the Utah Medical Association, a professor at the University of Utah, my anger management company, and writing programs for Quicknowledge, and to my four children!  I am wearing all black, with the exception of an orange, the new black, ball cap, and after getting the money, I turn, look up and throw a kiss to the surveillance cameras . . . use them for once, in MY favor, rather than against me! You can also, check out the surveillance cameras at the Poverello Center, leaving at 4:00 A.M. sharp, seeing that, the women you think, well one of the women, you think is me, and who has presented herself as me, was not there with me, and a sheriff and cop vehicles, both passed me, as I walked away from the Pov. up Broadway.  Come on, how fucking much easier can this be, and I have been hunted, tracked, surveilled, harassed, intimidated, for fucking 4 years, at least, since being sworn into the United States Supreme Court Bar, January 23, 2012, any connections to Mitt Romney?  Do ya think?  

I withdrew $300, for fear that the bitches, who have been given access to my account in the past, would take my money, as they have, millions, if not billions, but I guess that amount is too little to go after, unless, you are getting grants, foundations, scholarships, or better still, war ships, to take over the fucking world! Hitler, Mussolini, and Stalin are Brett's heroes, and Shelley, Kay, and Rachel, are under the influence, and in a dependent relationship!  AMAZING!

Yeah, That's ME!  Smile . . . Your on Candid Camera!  LOL!  Well, I Am!  

So, easy, so straight forward, and you fools, still believe the cops/bitch squad of liars!  Do, your homework, get the evidence, it is that fucking EASY!  And I have NEVER, EVER, seen, Kay, Shelley, Rachel, or the rest of the bitch squad, at any of the shelters, and sure as hell, not the Poverello, unless is was for a fund raiser, using my money!  Oh, and I have a very distinguishable ass . . . this bad ass con law chick, writing this bad ass blog!  You can also verify with cooks, the waitress I am friends with--the best type of new pay rollee to bribe, if they have not been paid off, which is a big if, but I had breakfast at the Oxford, orange juice, two eggs, four pieces of bacon, hash browns, and sour dough . . . that is symbolic, those with the dough are sour, as hell, can you believe it, but MURDER became OKAY!  I believe I paid, with cash, right about 5:30 A.M., and my bill came to $7.75 out of a $20.00, with a $2.25 tip!  I got $10 in change, from the cook with the long brown hair, pulled back in a blue baseball cap, hair in a pony tail, on the 11:00 P.M., shift to 6:00 A.M., when my female waitress friend, came in . . . she is generally on the night shift, and to VERIFY, the guy she was living with, spent all their rent on meth, so she is in a motel, spending about $265 a week for weekly rental!  VERIFY, short, salt and pepper hair, V-neck, striped shirt, Levis, earring and necklace, gold . . . you can't get easier than that!  Your lucky you don't have a murder on your hands!  

VERIFY, for God sake, I am sick of writing this, getting my shit stolen, my kids threatened, and those fucking bitches, ruining my GOOD NAME . . . hint, that is why they want it, their names are shit, and my was good, so they stole the easy virtue!  Put us in a line up in front of a crowd, and read, their real names, gasps will come from the crowd, they are no name, babes, pretending to be ME, then read my name, and they will be equally shocked, thinking I am that hag, Shelley, like you dumb asses do--she worked hard for my money, so you better treat her right! . . . and I don't give a rat's ass, if you like her better, I like inmates at any prison, better than cops, right now, after four fucking years of your stupid ass bull shit, and cover-ups! Too bad, I have to rely on your sorry asses to help me!  I guess I could go ballistic and blow they all away, but they are not worth going to prison, myself for . . . so, do your fucking job, you don't need kick backs! Just good old fashioned police work . . . nothing more beautiful . . . how come all the cops on the true crime shows, seem to get it right, do it right, and try?  What's up, these are real cops, what the fuck are you guys?  Sorry, just venting!

Now, I am at, McDonald's, right off Brooks!  I took #7 bus! at 6:45 A.M.  And, just like the bad old days, there were at least 5 screens open to the "get connected" home page . . . I refused or went to the bottom of the screen, and then, it changed to ONE, "get connected" and had a burger, with the huge ass word, OOPS!

Sick, Symbiotic or Dependent Relationships!

You could say, a woman who hooks up with a serial killer, becomes one herself, trying to please her man, knowing she can't do without him!  This morning at the Oxford, I was watching my addiction, true crime stories, and this was on Deadly Women, I think it was called, Lethal Obsession. In this particular episode, this housewife, with a baby, living a normal life, comes back in contact with her serial killer boyfriend, and she has been conditioned either through her family, or society, or she just believes that a woman is merely on earth to satisfy her man, no matter what is required to satisfy him, in order to keep him!  Blah, screeeaaammm!  Anyway, there are women out there, and their male counterparts, who see it just that way! In fact, I believe, the woman in the story, or true crime incident, was named, Kathrine, maybe it is unique to the name, there are characteristics that are connected with names, and they are much more powerful than people realize, 17 serial killers, have the first, middle, or last name of Wayne, so avoid that one!  But, there is a woman, at the Poverello, right now, that I would say, is relationship dependent!  She looks, like Shelley and I am sure, that she is paid to lie, and say that I am her, Shelley that is, and Shelley is me, as are others there, who start as friends and turn into viper, enemies! 

But, the first words out of Katherine's mouth, the first night, were, I am here to find a husband!  We all laughed as said, you are coming to a homeless shelter to find a husband to take care of you?  Seriously, or maybe she is FBI, and she knows there are plenty of other agents, who she might scam into marrying her sorry ass!  Then, she modified this statement, and said, well, I just want someone to ADOPT ME!  What the fuck!  It is almost sickening to see her . . . perhaps, she got her new boob job, she is SO proud of, knowing these fucks, FBI, are just into one thing, and that is huge ass tits, real or fake, blah!  Remember, Utah is the number one, top plastic surgery capitol of the world!  GOD!  I am glad I am gone!  But, Katherine, spends, all her time at the Pov. working the men, walking with her boobs, sticking out, as far in front as her ass is sticking out in back!  LOL!  She always wears a dress, more feminine, I guess, supposedly eye candy! LOL!  And she is always, hanging out with a DOM, or an alleged, dominate male, who thinks, at age 26, he is smart enough that he can make every decision right, so that he is worthy of being followed.  Him and some other nut cake guys, sit around reading scriptures, as if that, is going to get them by, and this fruit cake told me the first time I saw him, that some chick was going to show up, on Sunday, his future bride . . . MO's!  

The DOM is waiting for the woman to complete his sorry ass, and Katherine is waiting for another DOM, older, I guess to complete her sorry ass!  Good God!  Or they are just lame ass FBI agents, there to watch my every move and lie, about who is who, but they are pathetic.  Hell, Katherine is a nurse, and appears very smart, used to read, medical books, or that was a prop, to make me think she was a nurse, but if she is, what the hell is she waiting for . . . she can get a big signing bonus in some state, she has at least 5 good years, she can work, or more, but she needs a man.  A few months ago, before, I took off, for parts unknown, she was on a cowboy dating sight, and she, had 8 guys on the hook, and she was telling them, basically, that she would be their door mat, do anything, cook, clean, sex, and she is very traditional, and wants to be DOMINATED!  A receipe for disaster, in this world, of domestic violence . . . but, a lot of times, it is the aggressive, self-assured, confident women, that the guys, try to control the mousy, ones, they don't need to get under their thumbs, they will put themselves there!  YUCK!  Sometimes I hate, men and women, for their stupid games . . . NSA joined, OOPS again, after I refused to click on the page with 5 screens open!  Saving stupid agents, part of this new, submissive, smart, chick, male dominate? LOL . . . we need to put those damned ass aggressive women back in their place, before HILLARY gets elected PRESIDENT!  Then what will we do?  LOL!

Back to the, Now Couple, Serial Killers!

So, the Katherine in the murder escapade, has now, gotten into her boyfriends, sick, fantasies of having other women, join, in their sick sex life, of sadism, bondage, masochism, and depravity.  They start luring young girls, into the fun and games, need a bigger high, more and more, insatiable appetites, left unchecked!  So, they bring the victims in and tie them up, boyfriend, rapes the shit out of them, while Katherine watches, with both of them getting off on this, and actually making out, after he kills them, doing over the dead body.  Then he and she, find, this very beautiful, classy women, everything that Katherine is not, and she watches as he keeps this new victim alive, for about 3 days, then Katherine gets jealous, and as she watches, she is not longer turned on, and she grabs a knife, and tells him, seeing he is enjoying this too much, that it is her or the victim, holding a knife to her throat.  He agrees to kill her, or with one of the four victims, Katherine, actually does the killing, because, he says, it would turn him on to watch Katherine kill the girl, and she chokes her, and again the two make-out, and get off on the dead body.

Finally, with one of the victims, the couple, go to the place they indent to bury the body, where the other bodies are, and they start to bury the girl, and throw dirt, over her face, and when the dirt hits the girl's face, she starts to move, and she is not dead, so he stabs her a ton of times, and they think she is now dead, but eventually, again, as he is totally covering her mouth with dirt, she sits up, not dead, with the instincts to survived being some of the strongest, in humans, and he finally, gets an ax, and blasts her in the head, even shocking, Katherine!  Finally, a girl is tied up and escapes and tell the cops, who take the couple to the grave, and as they uncover, the newly buried, beautiful victim, Katherine, actually spits, on the dead woman!

I Believe, Both Kay and Shelley, Knew, Even Had Relations with Brett, Prior to Me Meeting Him

There are many things that indicate to me, that both, Shelley and Kay, especially, knew Brett, and the way they acted with each other from the first time, with Kay saying she was jealous of Brett, petting my hair, or putting sun screen on my face, that she was jealous and pouting, which to me was disgusting.  And, Kay totally, ignored, her alleged, fiance' saying that he didn't treat her right, and that he ignored her, as Brett was paying attention to me.  Kay asked me, who well I knew, Brett when I married him?  A strange question to me.  Brett had worked up at the University of Utah, where Kay, had a personal injury case, and they seemed to really get into the case, at dinner, allegedly the first time he, allegedly met Kay, my friend who traced me down, to get together, after not seeing me for at least 10 years!  But, Brett, was allegedly fired, for sexual harassment of some of the women at the U of U Medical Center, where Kay's patients had been, when the alleged injuries happened, in her case.  I am sure, he would have hit on her, and she may not have taken him at that time, but I am sure they would have flirted, or more, knowing, both of them and their histories, as cheaters, but, if they had come in contact, one of them would have initiated the contact, because, professional ethics are not on their radar, but sex, is! 

Brett told me of some of this other relationships, like the one, where he was dating or living with a pharmacist, or pharmacy student, and when they got in a fight, he took all her possessions and threw them out of the 2nd story window of their apartment!  Maybe an incident report.  And, both of his girlfriends, who were in the theater department of Utah State University, accused him of raping them, if he would wake them up, during the night for sex.  And, I know that the chick before me, was on a vacation up at Yellowstone, and he came in  her backyard, and laid down all these, rocks, or made some pathway of rocks for her, and she was furious, when she got home, because, she did not give him permission, and didn't want him over at her house . . . obsession, dependency, relationship, that gave him credibility, dependent in nature?  I am sure, that had I met, Brett, while I was practicing law, I probably would not have given him the time of day . . . in fact, he said, something like that to me, one time, that he was the parking lot crowd and I the popular girl, and I would never have been with him, in high school, nor after, I am sure, but death, or a death sentence makes you look at things in a different light, I was not the hot, kick ass attorney, but, I still had those credentials and kick ass kids . . . just switch out the women, keep everything, but the body, and substitute the one he could control, or the two he could control, with a personality, like Charles Manson!

Helter Skelter . . . Brett Sang that Song, One Night By the Fire!

One night, me and Brett, were sleeping out under the stars, just in the field, which, was rare, we made love, which was not rare, and with the fire, growing dim, he started to sing, the Helter Skelter song, that was connected with Charles Manson, the term he used to kill rich people, with the intent of having his soldiers of misfits, start a race war, by killing Bianca's, Sharon Tate and other famous people, then writing the word, PIG in blood, or carving WAR in the chest of one of the Bianca victims.  Like I said, Brett, studied, men who literally tried to take over the world, and I am sure, with money, he gained immediate, social standing, as would Kay and Shelley, who probably knew each other, through, their common, contact, Tim Brown, who was one of Shelley's good, friends in high school, and Kay's first husband, and I am sure, that at some point, they would have run into each other, and Tim would have been a common bond, as Brett became, and as I watch these, true crime, episodes, I can just sit back and see, there is Shelley, there is Kay, there is Brett . . . in fact, in the Deadly Women, episode on the women, who were under the influence of the charismatic Charles Manson, who looked, just like Brett, and he woed many a woman, I would imagine, as he did me, taking me out to the 23 acres in Mt. Sterling, and started by putting on his shorts, great body, good legs, and asking me to put lotion all over his legs, while he played the guitar for me.

Brett's family farm, was the perfect place for killing, and hiding bodies, of tons of women, he had all the equipment . . . about 5 or 6 old sheds, a rotary saw, dirt floors, in either all or part of the barns or sheds, in the house, converted from a horse barn, I always thought it was strange, that he had the place divided into thirds, two thirds, in cement, but with a very strange, curb, or raised portion, creating almost a swimming pool effect, that someone could easily be killed, butchered and the blood cleaned up, and the place, HOSED DOWN!  On the other third, there was just dirt . . . now when I was with Brett, he made a rock floor, with dirt in between the rocks, and had stories of the rocks, with me and him, represented by the rocks, and yes, they were very loving stories, he would position, me and him, like we were kissing, through the rock, representatives.  But, there was not running water, we got our water from the hose and pump outside.  He also had an old, white, GMC, with a shell on the back, parked out in the field, and that could have been operable, and been used to haul bodies?  Brett told me that, he . . . sorry, I was talking to someone, and forgot what I was writing.  But, I know, that during the time I was with Brett, there were many girls, missing and like in the episode on the Killing Fields in Texas, the cops just figured that they were runaways!

I think, that there were several times that Brett could have been preparing to kill me when I was married to him, but he never went through with it.  I think the one time, I referred to the other day, when he seemed to be dressing me out.  We made love all the time, but things were getting dicey with us, and I was getting better, so Brett started to get more and more possessive, which made me resist him, more the thing that starts to escalate, domestic violence, but I was leaving, all the time, for almost all day, but we were still pretty sexually active.  But, Brett would move the furniture which was a minimum, a lot, with the bed, up against this wall or that wall, and we were generally, always over on the side with the rocks and the wood burning stove, But, he had moved the bed, over into the far side, where there was this cement, lip, or divider, that was about 4 or 5 inches, high, the light, that was normally, white, was blue, casting an eerie, ghostly glow on everything . . . but, he took off all my clothes, and had a bucket of warm or hot water, and washed every inch of me, front and back, which struck me as strange, different, and bizarre, but, I just complied, maybe why he didn't do anything, and just watched curious, and I wondered if he was doing this to kill me?  What shocked me, was that he shaved, my pussy, which was never an issue, nor did he ever mention, that he liked that, nor did I, having not had sex with anyone, since my husband, Jerry in 2000, and having been through the feminist 70's, when women, were bucking the practice of having their pubic hair shaved, for the doctors, during delivery!  LOL!  I never knew anyone did this, at that time, so I found it particularly weird, but, I am sure, times had and have changed, which still seems bizarre to me, but, that kind of took me back.

We ended up, just making love and going to sleep, so?  Brett, studied what women wanted.  I was interested in the FBI profiler, Candice Delong, on the Deadly Women, episode of Charles Manson, who could have been Brett himself, with the fire, the guitar, and the philosophies, but, she said something that struck me, she said, Manson had learned to manipulate people in prison, and I wondered if Brett had been to prison, for several comments his brother-in-law, had made to previous girlfriends, and now he is dead?, but he also had starts of trees, from some prison program?  But, Delong said, that Manson, learned or said, that he had learned to get control over women, he would tell them exactly what they wanted, if they wanted to her they were pretty, he would tell them, they were pretty, if they wanted to hear, theJuy are smart, he would tell them, they were smart, etc.  Brett was good looking enough, that I would venture a guess, with his skills, and Elliot's music money at the time, he could charm his way, into 95% of the women's lives, easy!  

Frank, aka, Allan Rex Bess, also, could be a charmer, both of these guys were very witty and funny, which was more important to me, than their looks, or charm . . . Brett and I used to laugh, and laugh, until we both would be crying, and buckled up, just joking and playing on each other's humor.  Frank, was more of an ass, but he was hilarious, and people thought we were Mutt and Jeff, comedy team, and people all over, especially, Panguitch Lake, would laugh their asses off when we were together!  We had a great time, separate and aside from all the other shit that happened.  I remember, Frank, saying, It should be a crime to have so much fun!  And the car, in front of my truck, had a license plate that said, Funny Lady!  LOL! Both of them were a mixed bag, as every one is, but, I could see, both of them being, serial killers, and I am sure, well, I know, that Allan was killed by Frank, and so was the kid, killed at the Church in the Parowan City Park, and I gave Police Chief, Kent Carpenter, at least 100 or so pages of differences between Frank and Allan, and about the killing and what I saw, but I believe the sheriffs department, changed the evidence and staged the murder to cover, Frank, because they sheriff's department had gotten rid of Preston, to take control of Parowan, with the rich California and Nevada homes, and the ski resort, that would have brought in a lot of money, and Preston's brother, an Enoch cop, out of his jurisdiction, entirely, was with the three deputy sheriffs, who changed the evidence, to make it look, like I didn't see the murdered girl, and changed it to a friend of Frank's, or a woman, who had just been arrested for tons of drug charges, in exchange for her saying her nephew was killed, rather than the female, who was killed!  Yeah, serious shit!  I tried!

Justin Trudeau and Mitt Romney . . . Both Destined?

As I read the article in the Missoulian, yesterday, on the election of the younger, Trudeau, his history, being groomed, or the heir apparent, because of his father's connections, and his exposure as a young child to his famous father and the world of politics, I would compare, Justin to Mitt Romney, although his father, Governor of Michigan, and also, a auto tycoon, groomed Mitt, to also, run for elected office.  And he was with George, at his election affairs, and seemed to be a shoe in, with his good looks.  Looking at Justin, he looks like a young Mitt Romney, President Obama, came from more humble roots, and was not groomed, at least by his father, whom he never met, until he was 10 years old!  One, was more of a commoner, as in the charismatic leaders, that David A. Bell, symbolic, sister's man, with twin sister, professors, always wonder, what is going on, Kennedy, has two daughters who are at Princeton, daddy's almater?, but, Canadians compare, Trudeau, to President Obama, in the way he lights up a room, or makes it bigger then life, although he just comes to the office as an elementary school teacher, and Obama, was law review, the top of the top, law school nerds, the brightest and the best, not quite the same . . . 

Pretty Faces, Don't Good Politicians Make, Nor Do Sons or Daughters . . . Probably Helps . . . But, Coming From Canada, the Place Used to Launder My Son's Music, In Underground Revolver, 6 Park Ave., Glascow, BC, I Hope This Guy, is Not One of the Chosen, By the Super Mob . . . Wife Fits the Mold!

Hopefully, He is a Good One, Canada!

P.S., Verify, look at my representative payee, for my Social Security Disability, either, starting in 2004, around September, or October, you will find, Brett Stuart as my husband, and in charge of my money, until, I left him, about a year and a half later, somewhere in the spring, I think, when Shelley, got him off of it, and he started a relationship with her to hurt me, leaving his shit all over the place.  PROOF, PROOF, again of who, is ME!  I AM!  Fuck, JOANN S. SECRIST, J.D., Kay and Kelly Ann Booth are the only other attorneys, NONE OF MY SISTERS ARE ATTORNEYS, BUT THEY ARE USING MY NAME AND MY LICENSE!  Utah, U.S. Federal, 10th Circuit, and U.S. Supreme Court Licenses to practice!


Tuesday, October 20, 2015

ONCE UPON A NIGHTMARE AND OTHER TALES OF HORROR! (MISSOULA HAUNTED HOUSE). CRUSADER PEST CONTROL--THE CULT OF GLORY--KILL THE NOISE! CONVENIENT & ACCESSIBLE! THE CHARISMATIC LEADERS AND AUTHORITATIVE FIGURES IN HISTORY, AND THEIR COMMON CHARACTER TRAITS AND PUBLIC IMAGE: (1) COMMON REPUBLICAN PATRIOTISM AND VIRTUES; (2) COMPARED TO LEGENDARY FIGURES EITHER IN HISTORY OR IN MYTH AND FOLKLORE, SUCH AS PROMETHEUS, WHO WAS DAILY CHAINED TO A ROCK, ATTACKED BY VULTURES, THAT TORE AS HIS FLESH, PLUCKED AT HIS EYEBALLS, FOR STEALING FIRE FROM THE GODS, AND DELIVERING IT TO THE PEOPLE; (3) SEEN AS STRONG, GENIUS, OF MILITARY BRILLIANCE, HE IS EVERYWHERE AND SEES EVERYTHING; (4) OF SUPERIOR PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS, STRIKINGLY HANDSOME; (5) AN INCARNATION OF MILITARY GLORY, PROPOGANDIZED AS SUCH, SELLING A PUBLIC IMAGE OF GRANDEUR; (6) HAS CELEBRITY STATUS, WITH A FACE THAT IS FAMILIAR TO THE MASSES, FOUND ON PICTURES, VASES, CUPS, TEA POTS, OR IN PAINTINGS; (6) BEING SEEN TO SOLDIERS, AS EASY MANNERED, CALM, HELPS LOAD CANNONS AND LEAD WITH EASE, PERSONAL CONNECTION; AND FINALLY, (7) INCREDIBLE MILITARY SUCCESS! SEVERAL SUCH MEN, ARE PETER THE GREAT OF RUSSIA, PASCAL PEOLE (FOUGHT FOR CORSICA'S INDEPENDENCE), GEORGE WASHINGTON AND NAPOLEON, TO NAME A FEW. AUTHOR AND LECTURER, DAVID A. BELL, OF PRINCETON UNIVERSITY, EXAMINES THE MILITARIZATION & CHARISMATIC AUTHORITY IN THE AGE OF DEMOCRATIC REVOLUTIONS, LIKE THE FRENCH AND AMERICAN REVOLUTIONS. HE PRESENTS THE MODELS OF CIVILIAN CONTROL OF MILITARY FORCES: (1) CLERGY, NOBILITY, COMMONS, SEEN AS THOSE WHO PRAY, THOSE WHO FIGHT, AND THOSE WHO TOIL; (2) ANCIENT REPUBLIC, THE ROMANS, THE FOUNDATION FOR EARLY AMERICAN EDUCATION, WHERE ALL CIVILIANS WERE TO SERVE IN THE MILITARY, SO INTEGRAL TO SOCIETY, DUE TO THE FACT THAT ANCIENT REPUBLICS HAD BECOME SO CORRUPT, DEGENERATED, DISTINCTIVE AND DEFECTED, THAT THE ARMIES BECAME DIVORCED FROM THE CITIZENS, WHERE ITALIANS STARTED TO HIRE MERCENARIES, SO THEY DECIDED THAT THEY DIDN'T LIKE CITIZENS SEPARATE FROM THE MILITARY, MADE THEM PART OF THE DISCIPLINE, SEEING THAT OFFICERS, AS IN MODEL ONE, PART OF THE NOBLE CLASS, WERE NOT TO HAVE THEIR ONLY DUTY, AS THAT OF BEING AN OFFICER IN THE MILITARY--HAVING TWIN THEATERS, IF YOU WILL, SLIPPING BACK AND FORTH, WITH NO DISTINCTION, HAVING POLITICAL VALUES (MILITARY COUP). THERE HAD TO BE ABSOLUTE LOYALTY TO CAPTAINS AND GENERALS, ROYAL ADMINISTRATION UNDER THE KING, OLIVER CROMWELL, AND POLITICAL INDEPENDENCE! (3) MODERN MILITARIZATION--DEVELOPMENT OF LARGE STANDING ARMIES, MERCENARIES, NOT CALLED THE ARMY, BUT A PERMANENT STANDING ARMY WITH LAW CODE AND RULES OF DISCIPLINE, MILITARY PROFESSIONALS . . . THE CLASSICAL REPUBLICAN VIEW POINT THEM, AS STANDING ARMIES ARE AGAINST PUBLIC VIRTUE . . . AND THEY ARE NOT TO BE USED TO CURTAIL THE LIBERTIES OF THE CITIZENS, SUCH AS IN THE GRIEVANCES MENTIONED IN THE "DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE" TO KING GEORGE, WHEN BRITISH TROOPS WERE SENT TO THE AMERICAN COLONIES, STANDING MASTER IN A STANDING ARMY. EMMANUEL KANT, PHILOSOPHER, SAID THE GOALS SHOULD BE PERPETUAL PEACE, IN A PIVOTAL PLOY, AND A CRITIC OF HEROISM, HONOR, AND VALOR, SEEING THINGS MORE THROUGH THE FRENCH ENLIGHTENMENT, AND THE DEADLY PROFESSION OF MILITARY AND WAR, AND PROMOTED A VISION OF A POLITIC HUMAN AND CIVILIAN SOCIETIES, WHERE WAR HAD NOT PLACE, ALTHOUGH WAR WAS NOT ALWAYS EVIL, THE ANCIENT CIVILIZATIONS NEEDED IT! THE REVOLUTIONS OF AMERICA AND FRANCE, REJECTED MILITARY AND CIVILIAN ROLES IN THE NOBLE CLASS, SEEING CHANGES, FROM STANDING ARMIES, OR A MILITARY OVER CIVILIANS, AS NOT NEEDED, NO THOUGHT FOR LONG STANDING ARMIES, AND WANTED PEOPLE TO GO BACK TO THE FIELDS, WHERE AGRICULTURE AND COMMERCE WOULD REPLACE WAR . . . WITH BALANCE OF THE MILITARY AND CIVILIAN LIFE, FOUND IN THE CONSTITUTION OF THE UNITED STATES, AND FRANCE, DESIGNATING WHO IS TO DO WHAT, WHERE AND WHEN, SEEING WAR ITSELF, IS A THING OF THE PAST, COMMERCE CHANGED EVERYTHING, AND THE FRENCH WENT AS FAR AS TO MAKE A "DECLARATION OF PEACE" WITH THE FRENCH MAKING CITIZENS, NOT MILITARY! SOME STILL SEE, WAR AS A NECESSARY PHENOMENA, OR A HEALTHY THING, BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT TO FEMINIZE SOCIETY, SEEING PEACE AS TAKING US BACKWARD, ONLY THROUGH BLOOD AND GLORY, SEEING COMBAT AND SACRIFICIAL DEATH AS SUBLIME, THE DEPRECATION OF CIVILIAN LIFE--NOT DENOUNCED AS CIVILIAN LIFE AS A WHOLE, BUT SEEING THE MILITARY, AS THE PLACE TO TOUGH THE SUBLIME, YOU HAVE TO STRUGGLE THROUGH SACRIFICIAL DEATH, ADDING SEXUALITY INTO THE SACRIFICIAL DEATH. THEY THOUGHT THAT WAR CAN HEAL DEBASED SOCIETY, AND REJUVENATE IT! ARE WE HEADING FOR A MILITARY COUP, USING THE MILITARY, ZULU MARINES, ALPHA BRAVO NAVY, CIA, AND SEEING THEM AS OVER THE PRESIDENT, THE CONSTITUTION, OVER THE PENTAGON, THE FBI, AND OTHER CONSTITUTIONAL CONSTRAINTS? THAT IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE TO ME! THAT IS TREASON! AND THE PROMOTERS SHOULD BE PUT TO DEATH, WE WILL SHOW THEM, WHO COMBAT AND SACRIFICIAL DEATH IS SUBLIME! LOL! HAVING BRITISH AND MORMON TROOPS OUT IN THE PACIFIC, PICKING OFF AMERICAN NAVY SHIPS, SINKING THEM, AND STEALING MILITARY CLEARANCES AND IDENTIFICATIONS, FUCK NO! THAT IS THIRD WORLD COUNTRY SHIT, WE DO NOT WANT TO BE SYRIA, EGYPT, AND OTHER COUNTRIES, WHERE THE PEOPLE ELECT A PRESIDENT AND IN OUR CASE, THE COMMANDER AND CHIEF, OF THE MILITARY, OVERTHROW HIM, AND HAVE A "REIGN OF TERROR" BY THOSE WHO GLORIFY WAR, BLOOD, GUTS AND ARE, BUTT FUCKED BY THEIR MILITARY LEADERS, TO GET LOYALTY . . . WE DON'T WANT BRITISH FAGS, TRENTON, AIR FORCE BASE COMMANDER, CANADA, WEARING WOMEN'S UNDERWEAR, AFTER RAPING AND KILLING THEM, IN OUR RANK AND FILE MILITARY--THAT MAY BE CULT SHIT, BUT NOT GLORY! IT IS WISE, IN SYRIA, TO SIT BACK AND WATCH, LET RUSSIA GET ENTANGLED FOR ONCE, AT LEAST THEY ARE SUPPORTING ASSAD, WHO THE PEOPLE ELECTED! THEN THEY CAN GO AFTER ISIS . . . ONE OF THE GENERALS, WHO TRACKED ME DOWN A FEW WEEKS AGO, SAID THAT ISIS, WAS CREATED BY THE SAME GUYS, WHO ARE DEVISING THIS, NONE OTHER THAN, MILITARY COUP! REMEMBER WHEN THE VIDEOS OF THE BEHEADINGS WERE SENT, AND THE ISIS SPOKE'S PERSON WAS, FUCKING, BRITISH, OR HAD A BRITISH ACCENT . . . DON'T FALL FOR THIS STUPID, MORMON PLOY, ALONG WITH BRITISH LUNATICS, WHO LITERALLY ARE TRYING TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD! THAT IS WHY, THEY HAD TO USE MY IDENTITY, SO THEY COULD, NOT ONLY STEAL THE MONEY FROM THIS BLOG AND GET ELLIOT'S BANDS, PARALLAX, GOD'S REVOLVER, MARALOKA, THE DITCH & THE DELTA, WORST FRIENDS, MONEY, FUNDING, BUT ALSO, I AM THE WRITER, HAVE THE BAR LICENSE, THE RESUME, AND HAVE BUILT THE PUBLIC VIRTUE AND TRUST, STEAL MY "VIRTUE" THAT THEY WANT TO SAY IS, SISTER, SHELLEY, FOR THE WORLD POLICE, UNDER THE FUCKING, UNPATRIOT ACT, AND BUSH, BRITISH LOYALISTS, SKULL AND BONES, FUCKERS! THEY WANT YOU TO THINK, THAT THE PERSON, YOU TRUST, WHO TAKES NO MONEY FOR THIS BLOG, IS HER, AND I AM HER, THE CRIMINAL BITCH, SPREADING HER FUCKING LEGS FOR THE GOD DAMNED COPS, WHO WANT THIS NEW MILITARIZED NATION, WITH A STANDING ARMY AND PERPETUAL WAR! I AM MORE OF THE BENT, AND PHILOSOPHY, FOUND IN THE BOOK, "THE SCIENCE OF POWER" WHERE THE AUTHORS STATES, THAT THE DAYS OF THE FIGHTING MAN IS OVER, THE CONQUERING DONE, AND NOW, IT IS THE FEMALE BRAIN, WHO WILL ACTUALLY SAVE CIVILIZATION! HILLARY!

Total War

This is another book, that author and lecturer, David A. Bell, wrote . . . and he could not be further from the truth!  It is funny, and totally, telling and symbolic, that I, was the only one in my very, Mormon family, to be born in California, on Port Hueneme, Navy Base, near, Oxnard, when my father, was a spy for the Air Force, Office of Strategic Services, Intelligence, or OSS/OSI, the precursor for the CIA! and still in operation.  Allegedly my father, got in some fray with a general, didn't like his duty, and got out the Air Force, with an honorable discharge?  You know, knowing the men, who are behind this asinine, Mormon/British bull shit, powered by MY family money, is that most of them had gender identity issues, so they need, women with pumped up, fake boobs, they need to butt fuck, new recruits, and they are homophobic as hell, and they need war machines, blood and sacrificial death, to touch the sublime, because they are so fucked up themselves!  Good God, we don't need men, like this, who create ISIS, to terrorize people into war!  We don't want it, it is total bull shit, and you are full of shit, so go sit on your daddy's lap, shut the hell up, and be his happy bouncing buddy, and take your fake bitches with you!

We are sick and tired of war, we have families, kids, grand kids, jobs, goals, dreams, desires, that need to be fulfilled and can be, and we don't need or what our kids, getting shot up, because the bastards who started these fucked up wars, want continual war, get their pussy, ass boys, and out, to serve missions for the Mormon Church, avoiding military service all together.  It is easy to send, all the boys and girls from the mid-west, or Montana, while your butt-fucking fags, wear Mormon missionary badges, white shirts, ties and black pants, and pander, people to join the Mo Church, so they can, then be paid by the perpetual missionary fund, to go to college, law school, and become, Mo CIA and FBI agents, or the damned little boy scouts, the FBI Youth Training Camps!  Do, you seriously think the American and the British public are this stupid?  You are more than willing, as is the Republican party to want to rule, pre-viable babies, and will bomb, kill and maim, living breathing persons, providing reproductive health and care to women, then when their babies, get born, you don't give a rat's ass about them, until they become 18, when the mandatory draft kicks in, and they you can use them for your perpetual war machines, killing, all, but your own, in battles all over the globe, even making up, the ISIS boogie men!

FUCK THESE ASSHOLES!

Monday, October 19, 2015

MY SUPER POWER IS COURAGE . . . COURAGE ATROPHIES FROM LACK OF USE! SITTING HERE AT THE BREAK EXPRESSO CAFE', RAIN OUT SIDE, COZY INSIDE, I DON'T DRINK COFFEE, WATER IS GOOD, LISTENING TO BOB SEGER, "OLD TIME ROCK AND ROLL, BABY JUST SOOTH'S THE SOUL!" THIS MORNING ON THE WAY TO THE BREAK, I WAS LISTENING TO LOCAL NEWS, AND MISSOULA COUNTY ATTORNEY, KIRSTEN PABST, WAS GIVING THE LOCAL CRIME REPORT, AND MOST ALARMING TO HER, WAS FOUR FELONY DOMESTICS--BROKEN RIBS, CHOCKED, SPLIT HEAD, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, CAN'T PEOPLE GET OVER THIS. 20 YEARS AGO, WHILE AN ASSISTANT ATTORNEY GENERAL, I WROTE THE TRAINING MANUAL FOR COPS AND PROSECUTORS, ON DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT--AND THE FRUSTRATING THING, DEPRESSING AS HELL, AND MAKES ME PISSED OFF, IS THAT, IN SPITE OF ALL THE TRAINING, THE MANUALS, THE NEW LAWS, PEOPLE ARE STILL DOING THIS TO PEOPLE, THEY ALLEGEDLY LOVE? I THINK THE ONLY WAY TO UNDERSTAND DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT, IT TO LOOK AT IT IN TERMS OF "POWER AND CONTROL" OVER THIS PERSON. WHAT FOR? WHY? AND FOR WHAT REASON? WE NEED TO HAVE THE COURAGE, TO BE REAL MEN, AND WOMEN, APPRECIATE THE GOD GIVEN TRAITS, THAT DISTINGUISH US, ONE FROM ANOTHER. JUST THIS MORNING, IN GREAT FALLS, TERRY SOMEONE, TURNED HERSELF IN TO THE POLICE FOR SHOOTING HER BOYFRIEND? THE QUESTION TO ME, IS WHAT DROVE HER TO SHOOT HER BOYFRIEND? GENERALLY MEN, AND ALMOST WITHOUT EXCEPTION, EVEN GIVEN SIZE DIFFERENCES, ARE STRONGER THAN WOMEN. SO, IS THE GUN THE GREAT EQUALIZER? SOMETIMES, AND THE SCARY THING ABOUT MONTANA, AND THE AVERAGE NUMBER OF GUNS IN A HOME, BEING 27, IF YOU PISS SOMEONE OFF, YOU MAY END UP GETTING YOUR ASS BLOWN OFF! SERIOUSLY, MEN, YOU CAN PUSH HER AROUND, FORCE HER INTO SEX, BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER, BUT, EVENTUALLY, EVERY ONE HAS THEIR BREAKING POINT! AND WITH THE ACCESSIBILITY OF GUNS, WATCH OUT! WOMEN TEND TO BE MORE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE, WHAT THAT MEANS, IS THAT THEY WILL TAKE IT, AND TAKE IT, GETTING MORE AND MORE ANGRY, BUT JUST STUFFING THOSE FEELINGS, THEN, YOU HAVE SEEN THE SERIES, "SNAPPED" . . . YEAH, SHE WILL SNAP, AND GRAB THE GUN, THAT WILL GIVE HER THE SUPERIOR POSITION OVER YOUR STRENGTH, AND GET EVEN! MAKING A DEADLY SITUATION. IT SOUNDED TO ME, THE BOYFRIEND WAS EITHER IN CRITICAL CONDITION OR DEAD, BECAUSE THEY WERE REFUSING TO RELEASE THE NAME OF THE BOYFRIEND. SERIOUSLY, IS THIS THE TYPES OF LOVING RELATIONSHIPS WE WANT? COME ON, WE CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS. WITH THE USE OF SOCIAL MEDIA, CAN'T WE DISCUSS DIFFERENCES AT A DISTANCE, AND TEXT EACH OTHER PISSED OFF TEXTS? DON'T TRASH EACH OTHER ON FACEBOOK, FOR THE WORLD TO READ, AIRING DIRTY LAUNDRY, KEEP IT BETWEEN JUST THE TWO OF YOU! I USED TO ALSO HAVE MY OWN ANGER MANAGEMENT COMPANY, DOING TWO HOUR PRESENTATIONS, AND THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO DEAL WITH ANGER, BUT THE MOST EFFECTIVE, IS TO REMOVE YOURSELF FROM THE SITUATION! JUST GET THE FUCK OUT AND DE-ESCALATE THE CONFRONTATION, WALK AWAY, GO GET A BEER, COFFEE, DIET COKE, TAKE A WALK . . . BECAUSE THE ALTERNATIVE IS, GENERALLY BAD, HORRIBLE, INJURIOUS, AND CAN BE LETHAL AND DEADLY, WITH MANY THINGS THAT CAN BE USED FOR WEAPONS, INCLUDING EASY ACCESS TO GUNS! GUNS ARE TO PROTECT FAMILIES, TO FEED FAMILIES, TO HUNT WILD GAME, NOT HUNT YOUR SPOUSE OR BOYFRIEND, KIDS, ETC.! WE ARE RATIONAL BEINGS, WE CAN TALK OURSELVES OUT OF BAD SITUATIONS, WE CAN GET OFF OUR ASSES AND WALK AWAY! THINK BEFORE HAND, WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO DO, IN A TOXIC SITUATION, OPTION ONE, TWO, THREE! AND STAY AWAY FROM THAT FUCKING ALCOHOL! I LIKE A COUNTRY SONG, CALLED, "I HEAR VOICES ALL THE TIME" GRANDPA SAID YOU CAN HAVE A FEW, REFERRING TO BEER OR DRINKS, BUT NEVER, NEVER, NEVER CROSS THE LINE--I ADDED THE EMPHASIS . . . ALMOST WITHOUT EXCEPTION, IN ABUSE INCIDENTS, EITHER SPOUSAL ABUSE, CHILD ABUSE, PARTNER ABUSE, ALCOHOL WAS INVOLVED. WE ARE HITTING THE HOLIDAYS, A TIME FOR FUN, FAMILY, FOOD . . . CONTROL YOUR DRINKING! MAKE THEM A YEAR TO REMEMBER, NOT A YEAR TO REGRET! THE HIGHEST DAY FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE IT, BELIEVE IT OR NOT, "SUPER BOWL" SUNDAY! WHY, BECAUSE PEOPLE WANT TO WATCH THE GAME, DRINK FOR HOURS, STARTING AT THE PRE-GAME SHOW, AND THEY ARE SLOPPY DRUNK BY THE END OF THE GAME, AND IF A KID OR WIFE, DARES TO WALK IN FRONT OF THE TV, IT IS DEATH! I MEAN, REALLY? IT IS JUST A FUCKING GAME . . . AND PERHAPS, THAT IS A GOOD SAYING TO KEEP IN MIND, "IT IS JUST A FUCKING GAME!" AND THAT SHOULD PUT IT BACK IN PERSPECTIVE TO YOU! YOUR FAMILY IS THE, OR SHOULD BE, THE MOST PRECIOUS THING IN THE WORLD TO YOU, AND WORTH PRESERVING. AT ALL COSTS, PRESERVE YOUR LOVING RELATIONSHIP. THE GREAT THING ABOUT BEING A RATIONAL BEING, IS THE ABILITY TO CHANGE, TO CHANGE OVERNIGHT, TO REFUSE TO BE, WHO WE USED TO BE! PERSONAL PERFECTION! LOVE HAS A WAY OF FORGIVING FOR PAST WRONGS, AND ALLOWING FOR THE "NEW MAN OR WOMAN" TO APPEAR, AND TOTALLY TRANSFORM YOUR FAMILIES, CHANGE EVERYTHING, LITERALLY OVERNIGHT! WE, AS HUMANS, ARE BETTER THAN DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT! HAVE THE COURAGE TO BE A REAL MAN, AND WALK AWAY . . . GREAT TWISTED SISTER VIDEO, "WE'RE NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE" . . . AWESOME, VIDEO OF ABUSIVE FATHER, ROCKER SON . . . 80% OF THE YOUNG MEN IN PRISON FOR MURDER, ARE IN FOR KILLING THEIR MOTHER'S ABUSER! THINK, ASSHOLES, GET OVER YOURSELVES!

Washington, D.C., Top Lawyer, Counsel to the White House, General Counsel to Xerox, 5 Million Dollar Home . . . Almost Kills Wife, After Receiving Divorce Papers, 54 Year Old, Spending the Rest of His Life in Prison!

I believe this was a 20/20 episode, I watched yesterday, and frankly wished, I was shocked by this incident, the perfect family, dream lifestyle, Washington elite, access to basically, celebrity status, hanging out with presidents, members of Congress, and doing about anything they want.  But, the husband, 13 years older than the wife, was jealous, if his wife, even spent too much time talking to other people, and it didn't seem to matter which sex, because, it made him, feel, like he was not as desirable, or she didn't want to be with him and the worst thing, you could do to him, his wife said, was allegedly humiliate him!  What made my ears perk up, was the same issue, is what people dealing with serial killer, Ted Bundy, said, that he seemed perfectly normal, in every way, but what he could not tolerate was being slighted by a woman, or her making him fell humiliated!  Come on, men, be men!  Don't read in between the lines, don't taker actions as anything more than they are . . . she is talking to a friend, or a new acquaintance, she is not going to bed with them and it is really no reflection on you at all!  Just like you talking to another woman or man at a social event, and men do this all the time, leave their spouse or girlfriend, to talk shop, or to schmooze, socially, to make a network connection.  And remember, if your wife is home with kids all day, and you have a killer job, with little time at home, she is going to be craving conversation, interaction, to connect with people!

There is nothing personal about this!  This is part of the objectification of women, that they are there totally to serve your needs, sexually, emotionally, socially, religiously, financially, etc., they are NOT!  She has needs to get out, to feel like a person, to interact, to get her needs met, as much as you do!  So, don't take it personally, and as an a front, or a humiliation, if she wanders off to do her thing, out of the house, almost like a horse, needing water, running, sucking it up!  Most men, who have not stayed home with children, have no idea of the sacrifices, the isolation, the restrictions, babies, naps, meal times, nursing a baby, can be . . . my son, Chris, was a full 8 hour job, just to nurse him, not just every other hour, 24/7, but starting at the first of the half hour time, then going two hours, putting on 5 pounds the first month!  He had to play catch up, because he was the smallest of his 3 other siblings, two of them starting out, 2 pounds heavier.  So, think, you are a rational being, not an animal, not of the animal world, restricted to instincts, and driven by nature, your WIFE, HAS FUCKING NEEDS TOO!  And here again, is some fucked up notions that, can be extrapolated by scripture, the man is to be the head of the women, he is to rule over her . . . BULL SHIT, in the Garden of Eden, God created a HELP MEET!  Most people want to say it is a helpmate, indicating, that she is there just to help him . . . no, the word, meet, means to meet each other's needs, to meet each other half way, to fulfill the needs of both, by BOTH HELPING THE OTHER PERSON!

Detect the MONSTER, Behind the MAN!

So, this high powered, Washington attorney, had this mask of control, like nothing bothered him, until, every once in a while, the wife, would see, him unleash this beast, this anger, this rage, and generally, for the smallest, alleged offense, that most people, couples, husbands, would glide over, he would come unglued, threatening, cursing, screaming, but controlled, cold, accusatory, with a systematic verbal take down, just like he would a hostile witness, testifying in court.  So, this wife, with two small kids, decides, she can't take his verbal abuse any more, and filed for divorce, and the day she did, she made sure she was out of the house and gone, for good.  Well, he got a hold of her and promised to control his temper, if she came over to talk it out . . . remember, that in most of these situations, there is a nice guy, she fell in love with, years earlier, that can talk her into coming back, and talking things out.  To that point, he had never used physical violence against her, so she, thought she could handle the verbal battering, and maybe, just maybe, work through it!  HOW WRONG SHE WAS!

This, alleged, man, high powered, attorney, ran at her, knocked her on the floor, took out a large, like, cop, flashlight and started bashing her in the face, the head, with blood, spattering everywhere, she tried to get away and could not, and when he thought he had killed her, given the blood, from the head wounds, and this women, was beaten beyond recognition, and she was almost indistinguishable, a beauty, turned into a gory mess!  But, when he thought he killed her, he decided to kill himself, and turned to go get a gun or something, pills, I can't remember, and she, with blood oozing out all over the floors, losing blood fast, had the stamina to pull herself up, run, grab the two kids, on a few months old baby, and ran to the car, having left the keys in the vehicle, just in case, something didn't work out . . . and she said that made all the difference, and gave her the edge getting out of the house and down the street, before he knew she was gone. 

He was not only charged criminally, but she charged him civilly, he ended up losing everything, plus going to prison for the rest of his life!  SOUND FUN BOYS?  I mean, really, don't read things into your wives, actions, that are not there, understand the nature of her world, what she is dealing with, and stop being so fucking self-centered.  I find, from experience, that most women are too giving, and most men are too taking or selfish, so who should you be looking at, YOURSELF!  Stop trying to control your woman, partner, and give them some freedom!  I think one of the best indicators of a good relationship, is letting your partner, go, trip, being alone, and trusting them, that if you let them go, and they come back, they are yours, if they don't, the NEVER WERE!  Don't want someone more than your life.  The woman, who saw signs during their dating and quick courtship . . . hint, clue, fast engagements and marriages, can be signs of domestic abuse partners . . . hurry and get the person, hitched up, before they lose it and show their real personality types.

This woman, had to be in hiding for 5 years, while her attorney husband dragged out the legal process, and filed continuance after continuance, trying to prolong his freedom!  This woman came public, because she wanted to help other people . . . she was still a very beautiful woman, but you could see, even after extensive plastic surgery, that she had one side of her smile, she could not smile, right, and with scars, and the damage that flashlight did was extensive, but for the miracle of modern medicine and great plastic surgeons, she would have been marred for life!  Have the courage to let her go, let her be her, hold on loosely, but don't let go!  My third husband, Brett, Mr. Wink, Wink, and cheater, told me, I had to just deal with him, with his flirty ways . . . no, I don't, watch me leave, and I did . . . he has been trying for 10 years to make someone else be me, and spends ever waking minute trying to destroy me!  But, after a conversation once, and Brett told me, I had to deal with him and his flirting.  I took a walk, and was gone longer than he thought I should be, and when I got back, he said, or accused me of fucking some farmer!  What the hell, I did see a tractor, but no farmers, MR, INSECURITY!  LOL!  Oh, I see how well you deal with me walking, in 2,000 acres of farmland, with fucking NO PEOPLE!  LOL!  I didn't see a living, breathing soul, for my, what, 20 minute walk!  LOL!

Realize, Your Anger, Is About, YOU!

I read this book, about marriage, and I think, it took the best, most healthy, and insightful, look at marriage . . . relationships, marriages, friendships, and even work environments, are ALL ABOUT YOU! your personal perfection.  God, the universe, providence, nature, or whatever force you believe in, brings into your life, the very issues you need to work on! for your own personal perfection.  Generally, the reason we married someone, is the reason we divorce them!  Oh, she is so independent, fun, outgoing, and free, then we marry them, and want to put them under lock and key, keeping all their energy just for ourselves, and through POWER AND CONTROL, start this process of systematically, trying to put them under our thumb, giving them time limits, for tasks, taking them away from friends and family, watching gas mileage, following them, getting into their cell phones and computers, checking for other men, or women, women are just as guilty, they just are not as strong . . . why do men abuse, because they can, they are BIGGER, STRONGER . . . women are probably more verbally adept to a fight, and they are more complex thinkers, I think, so the battlefield, can, in some respects, almost lend itself to violence!  STOP IT ALREADY!

The friend, my ex-husband, Brett, replaced me, or exchanged, me, well, make me, with, or made her into me, fuck I would be furious, if I was her, seeing all he did, was, keep everything that was me, and bring, your body in to replace me, my resume, my experience, my family, my children . . . nothing of yours, Kay, LOL, but anyway, in Kay's previous life, she was married to Tim Brown, who used to box her ears, hiding the bruises, with her hair.  I felt like beating Kay a few times myself, but being equally verbal, I could handle her, but Tim was not verbal at all, and so the only way he could win an argument, was to box her ears, or hold her down, cover her mouth!  Women, generally speak 7,000 words a day, and men, only, 2,000, so, that is a disadvantage in a verbal fight, and so, sometimes, in frustration, he goes for the way he can even the score too.  

Women, need to watch it, I have literally, not seen, but seen the aftermath, knowing my male friend's, girlfriend, who was annoying as hell, but she would push him, push him and then, once thumped him on the head, and he turned around and blasted her on the chin, knocking her out!  NOT COOL, but NEITHER WAS WHAT SHE DID TO PROVOKE THE DAMAGE . . . there is NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSE, but we really can, invite it, push it, and bring it on, and we better be ready for the aftermath . . . this was a hot tempered, tough Boston chick, who I think, figured that Dave would never lose his cool, well she finally pushed him to his limits!  We are all human!

Remember, There is a Fine Line Between Love and Hate!  Don't Cross It!

Yesterday, this Russian chick, an acquaintance, pulled me aside, and she asked me if, men, had ever cast a spell on me?  I said, what do you mean?  She said, I find, that men, who want a relationship, with me, and I reject them, then do something to me, make me sick.  I was wondering, if in her broken English, she was taking a sick feeling with, having someone put a spell on her, kind of like in the Salam witch days, if you got sick and some woman, had visited your house the day before, you assumed she put a spell on you.  But, I knew what she was talking about, and I said, I don't know if they put a spell on me, but there is definitely good and bad energy, that a person can send, between them and you, quantum physics type stuff, that canb literally make you sick to your stomach!

Just the other day, the day, the James Kennedy, cleaned up version, Mr. GQ, came to the swimming pool, looking enough like James, at first glance, but not after thinking about it, but when I went in the dressing room, to get the hell out of the hot tub, and away, just in case, he was an assassin, trying to get me to think that it was, James, and I just couldn't remember what he looked like and it took a while, but looking back, and remembering, him dancing, asleep at the bus terminal, or looking at me across the room, no, this guy was not close, but, I was not risking anything.  So, not thinking, I went into the first stall in the shower room at the Currents Aquatic Center, the one, that I got locked into, the last time I saw an assassin type guy, out of place, as this guy was, in the pool and hot tub area . . . and I have seen, a few people trapped in, and lately, I saw, that stall shut, and no shower, and yeah, someone, must have had to crawl under the door!  But, before that, the day of the fake James, I, thinking, or not thinking, accidently went into that stall, not thinking or thinking that I was just being crazy or something . . . but I got LOCKED IN AGAIN! and luckily, this time, because someone had tried to fix it, I was able to bump and pull the door, so I could get out . . . but, I was sick to my stomach, thinking about the incident, and what could have, or should have happened, but for?  So, yeah, I get the sick feelings, she thinks is like a flu or something, which it is actually a guy making her nervous and getting a gut feeling that he might do something to her, yeah, I get it.

Stalking is a Way to Intimidate, Make Someone Fear, Thus, Getting a Reaction, Using Power and Control, Also!

So, the other day, after seeing the James look alike, I had wanted to go up hiking and see the leaves, up the Rattlesnake Canyon, but either on a newspapers, or somewhere, riding the bus, I saw, a note or sign that said, Watch for Rattlesnakes, and I decided, due to the experience, I had up Rattlesnake, thinking it was either a bear, mountain lion, or man, stalking me, up there earlier in the summer, a month or two ago, when I was there early, with few walkers, hikers and bikers, and learned that the bear population, was coming lower, with fewer berries, I had stopped going for awhile, but, I thought, my love of the fall leaves, would trump my fears, and I would master my courage up, and go up hiking.  So, after waiting, until almost all the leaves were gone, due to the James pool guy, getting locked in the stall again, freaked me out more the second time . . . the first time I didn't really put two and two together, at the time, just reacted, and got the hell out!  But, on the bus ride back, the driver, asked me if I had seen bears, because, they were having a larger than usual number of them coming into town for food . . . NO.  And he kind of made reference to the incident, a few months ago, saying he thought it must have been a raccoon, or something like that . . . all of the sudden, I got sick to my stomach, just like someone put a spell on me, and I said, no, that was a much larger animal, and one that was tracking me . . . most like either a mountain lion or MAN!

Still curious about the incident, and thinking about it, I looked up at just the time, I was passing the Theater, on Broadway, where the Missoula Children's Theater is, and I looked up on the marque, and the play, Sweeny Todd, is playing!  Scream, Brett Todd Stuart?  I have wondered if he was a serial killer and he just like me, so he didn't kill me after he lured me to his remote, old horse barn, turned house, on 23 acres with nobody to hear a scream, or anything!  But, I again, got this very sick feeling in my stomach, on how close I may have come to be murdered with him, he claimed to be, the Ice Man, one of the most notorious serial killers of all times, with a body count, of about 200, as estimates go, and watching all these true crime shows, lately, the thoughts, of being with Sweeny Todd in real, possibly at risk for 18 months I was with him, with him, once, dressing me out, in a way, washing me, shaving me, and doing things, he never did before, a strange blue light, over us . . . now remember, I thought I was dying, so, I was almost, intrigued by what was going on, fascinated by abnormal psychology, so I just laid there and watched him, what he was doing, and why?  I think, I was so trusting, like a 5 year old at that point, that, I didn't react, like, well, I had been married to him and living with him for a long time . . . but, there were several times, I wondered, enough to sleep with a knife . . . but he had a rotary saw out in an old shed . . . cutting up bodies?  I think, he simply loved me.  That is why I am alive today.  I can't swear he is a serial killer, but he seemed to want me to know, and claimed, every once in a while, and there was the incident, at Hastings, where the guys, who could be FBI agents, tried to warn or block me, saying that Brett still had the video, I Married An Ax Murder!

Ted Bundy, Suicide Hotline, Ann Rule, Crime Writer . . . He Was Getting a University Education in Serial Killing Techniques

So, when I got back to the Poverello for lunch, I was looking through the same, National Geographic Magazine, with Abraham Lincoln, and turning through the pages, and still a bit, upset by the hike, only the second, since that time of the whatever stalking me up Rattlesnake Canyon, the Sweeny Todd, this was a serial killer in England, who used to murder his victims, cut them up, and cook them as meat for his meat pies!  But, there was this picture of a man, in huge leaf, like, African trees, that just looked like a single tree, but a leaf, and there was a man, from an aerial photo . . . and I thought, did someone catch Brett, and I saw Brett, because, he never failed to read the National Geographic, every month, he had a yearly subscription or his mother did, and he had stacks of them at the barn/house!  Pretty creepy, and scary thinking who I might have been with, not just once, but my fourth husband, was meaner than a rattlesnake, Frank, of InterPol, or CIA, the double for my husband I thought I married, Allan, and AB, he used rather than Allan, stood for Absolute Bastard, but he met his match, in ME!  LOL! But, I have seen two serial killers, that look just like Frank, aka, AB, one, I think was called, Joe Hamilton . . . symbolic of me being killed in a car wreck outside Missoula/Hamilton, somewhere, October 2012!  Poor soul in the other Taurus!

But there is an episode that has disappeared, since I watched in, but it is a Dateline, 20/20, 48 Hours, or something like that, I couldn't find it, after watching it, wondering if that was actually, Frank? looked just like him, but the episode is the murders of two girls, I believe, both, Montana girls, Scofield and Servco, who used to be a news anchor, from the Flathead . . . maybe only one was, because, I believe after graduating from the U of M, she took a job with a small local TV station, somewhere?  But the killer, who was apprehended, looked just like my 4th husband, who was totally mean enough to be a serial killer!  He allegedly slept with 800 women, so not much more than a fuck to him.  But he had been to Montana, because he told me it was his favorite state.  He also looked like this serial killer, in New Mexico, was into sadomasochism, bondage, sexual torture, with a trailer, and about 40 victims!  Frank was so mean, I thought, did the government go into the prisons and take the meanest man they could find and sick him on me?  It would not surprise me!  LOL!  Again, I think, by this time, I was practicing law, and I was so mean, he had met his match, and took him by surprise!  He kept telling me he loved me, and prayed for me, and I would say, yeah, and the Oscars are coming!  LOL!

But, I was watching the episode, The Killing Fields in Texas, and there has been 40 years of killing girls and burying them in Texas, and no suspects.  These guys are smart, cunning, strategic, predators, and they dig beating the cops, see themselves as smarter than the cops, and love, beating them at their game!  What better place to hide from cops than to be one!  Remember that recent movie, Let's Be Cops!  Ted Bundy, pretended to be a cop, with the only surviving victim, who got away from him.  I would think that I have been with, I would say, 6 assassins, if you were to look at them, but, I am as ruthless and mean as they are, and they end up all liking or loving me!  LOL!  Power is attracted to power, I assassinate people with my writing, so, like is attracted to like, so it would stand to reason.  Assassin to assassin . . . I am just as brutal, and they dig it!  Frank works in concert with Brett and other, rejected love interests, there are Alpha Females . . . right here in River City!

I have had guys who, looked totally, mean ass, like in the most fit, mean ass military, mercenary, looking for me in a crowd at a Memorial Day Celebration, dancing through the crowd, looking like, actually, did have a Rugar, 2200 pistol, under shit jacket, I saw it when, he adjusted his jacket, and I kind of slide off into the crowd.  I had, since, I left the identifier, taken my black baseball hat out of my purse and changed my looks, with a silencer, easy to take me out, all eyes and ears on the band, and the speaker!  No, I think that was last year at the Veteran's Day Celebration, at the town square . . . I am sure, i booked it out of town.  He had the cut, cheek, fitness, cheeks, totally, amped, and moving through the crowd, Mr. Marlboro Man, James own description, . . . maybe it was James Kennedy, now that I think about it, he looked like him and had to beanie knit hat all, had the same nervous energy as Kennedy, never could stand still, that is why I appreciated the day he was a sleep and I could just look at him!  LOL!  This guy was a similar breed, and would have been attracted, or was, but, thought his was scoping the crowd, acting like he knew generals and military guys, who were not buying it, while he worked the crowd, and that gut, feeling was, he is looking for ME . . . sorry, Charlie, I'm out of here, and hit the shuttle out of town a few hours later!

Just this morning, there was a book laying on the table at the Poverello, during breakfast . . . HANNIBAL, as in Silence of the Lamb!  Sweeny Todd and Hannibal Lecter! great, two boys from the Donner Party, eat their victims!  Screammmmmmm!  Who have I really been with?

COURAGE ATROPHIES FROM LACK OF USE . . . MY SUPER POWER IS COURAGE!

Fear is Counter-Productive!  Predators, Whether in Rattlesnake Canyon, or In Our Own Homes, Dig You Cowering in FEAR . . . Remember, Abusers, Want POWER AND CONTROL Over Victims!

We are Far Beyond, Primordial Man . . . We Can Change, Control Ourselves, Not Others . . . We Don't Have Control Over Anyone But Ourselves, But When We Change, We Bring About Changes in Our Partners, Good Changes!

Holiday Season is Coming--Make It Good

  • recognize when you are relying on POWER and CONTROL, to manipulate your partner, children, wife, husband or wife
  • limit alcohol, to just enough to get buzzed, but DON'T CROSS THE LINE!
  • if your wife and kids are going to be an annoyance during football games, playoffs and Super Bowl, go to a friend's house to watch it, or encourage her to take the kids swimming or something like that, so nobody walks in front of the big screen TV while you are drinking, eating and partying watching the game
  • THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSE . . . SIMPLY WALK OUT THE DOOR, COOL OFF, GO FOR A DRIVE, RUN UP A MOUNTAIN . . .

WE CAN BEAT DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT, REPLACE IT WITH "REAL" LOVE!

NOVEL THOUGHT!



Sunday, October 18, 2015

DEADLY PLOT . . . GREEDY, SPOILED SON, WITH FAILING COLLEGE GRADES, GOING TO BE DENIED USE OF CAR, KILLS SISTER, MOTHER AND FATHER, TRIED TO GET TO HIS FATHER'S MONEY, PARENT'S ESTATE, BOUGHT NEW $107,000 NEW LEXUS, CLAIMED HE HAD A BRAIN TUMOR TO GET SYMPATHY FROM GRANDMOTHER, TO GET HER MONEY, SAID HE HAD A RECORD DEAL, HANGING OUT WITH TONS OF GIRLS, GIVES SOB STORY AT HIS FAMILY'S FUNERAL, SINGS A BIZARRE SONG, ACTING LIKE IT IS WHY HE HAS A RECORD DEAL; KID IS A PSYCHOPATH, A CHRONIC LIAR, FEELS NOTHING FOR ANY ONE BUT HIMSELF, AND WHAT HE WANTS. FAMILY FUN, VACATIONS, TIME WITH PARENTS, AS HUMANS, NOT JUST WORKING MACHINES, CAN HELP PREVENT SOME OF THIS TYPE OF BEHAVIOR. KIDS WANT TIME WITH THEIR PARENTS, GOOD QUALITY TIME . . . RADIO ANNOUNCER THIS MORNING, INTERVIEWING AN EXECUTIVE FROM DISNEY TOURS, ALSO INVOLVED IN THE TOURIST INDUSTRY, SAID, IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU TAKE A FORMAL VACATION, JUST THE TIME TOGETHER IS GOOD. MASTER CARD HAS A NEW AD, THAT SHOWS KIDS, BEGGING THEIR MOTHER AND FATHER, FOR JUST ONE MORE DAY OF VACATION, AND HE GAVE STATISTICS OF WHAT THAT ALSO WOULD PUMP INTO THE ECONOMY. HE QUOTED THAT IF EVERYONE TOOK THEIR YEARLY VACATIONS, EACH YEAR, THEY WOULD ADD $108 BILLION TO THE ECONOMY, HAVE FEWER HEART ATTACKS, ESPECIALLY WOMEN, AND THEIR COMPANIES, TEND TO PRODUCE BETTER RESULTS WHEN THEIR WORKERS ARE FORCED TO TAKE VACATION! ONE COMPANY, ACTUALLY PAYS THEIR EMPLOYEES $2000 BONUSES TO TAKE THEIR YEARLY VACATION, AND HELP WITH EXPENSES! NICE . . . BOSSES NEED TO SET THE EXAMPLE FOR THEIR EMPLOYEES, MAKING TIME OFF A PRIORITY, IT SETS THE TONE FOR OTHER WORKERS, MAKING THEM FEEL THAT IT IS IMPORTANT TO GO ON VACATIONS AND TAKE FAMILY TIME, FAMILY LEAVE WITH BABIES, AND THAT TENDS TO ENERGIZE THE WORK FORCE! PEOPLE WITH DISABLED CHILDREN, NEED A BREAK EVEN MORE, AND THERE ARE PEOPLE TO HELP, COMMUNITY RESOURCES. THE DEADLY PLOT WAS DONE BY A FILIPINO BOY, WHO'S PARENTS MOVED TO AUSTRALIA, PRACTICED LAW, MOM WORKED AS WELL, THEY HAD A BEAUTIFUL NEW HOME, ONLY ABOUT 7 MONTHS OLD, THE DAUGHTER WAS A VERY GIVING GIRL, GOT GOOD GRADES, AND RESPECTED HER PARENTS, THE SON ON THE OTHER HAND, HAD ISSUES FROM CHILDHOOD, AND REFUSED TO SEE A THERAPIST OR GET COUNSELING, ENDED UP A SPOILED KID, WHO HAD CONSTANT CONFLICTS WITH HIS PARENTS, OVER GRADES, TIME AWAY FROM HOME, AND HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS--EVENTUALLY THIS CAME TO A HEAD, BECAUSE THE FATHER, HAD HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR HIS SON, ESPECIALLY, IN GETTING GOOD GRADES IN COLLEGE, AND THE SON WAS LYING TO HIS PARENTS ABOUT HIS GRADES, THE FATHER FOUND OUT AND WAS GOING TO TAKE HIS NEW CAR AWAY! THE KID, SETH, TOOK A BASEBALL BAT, SMASHED HIS SISTER ON THE HEAD, THEN STABBED HER, HE STABBED HE'S MOTHER AS SHE CAME HOME FROM WORK, EVENTUALLY ENDED UP CUTTING HER THROAT, AND THEN ATTACKED HIS FATHER AS HE WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR, STABBING HIM, MULTIPLE TIMES, SINKING THE KNIFE INTO HIS FATHER'S THROAT, FOR THE FINAL BLOW. THIS IS AN EXTREME CASE, BUT, I AM JUST GUESSING THAT LIFE WAS JUST ALL ABOUT WORK, LITTLE TIME SPENT WITH KIDS, ALL ABOUT MAKING MONEY, DRIVING THE NICE CARS, LIVING IN THE NEW HOUSE, AND LITTLE ABOUT, ACTUALLY, TAKING TIME TO JUST HANG OUT WITH OUR KIDS! SOME CHEAP FUN IDEAS, THAT I HAVE SEEN JUST THIS WEEK, IN MISSOULA . . . . FALL FAMILY FEST, HALLOWEEN FAMILY FUN IN THE PARK, HAY RIDES . . . I TOOK ONE, SO FUN, BEAUTIFUL DAY, MARSHMALLOW ROAST, OPEN FIRE, YUMMY, GUNNY SACK RACES, INTERESTING WILD LIFE DISPLAYS, BABY GAMES AND CLIMBING OBJECTS, KETTLE CORN, FOOD, MUSIC, PARACHUTE GAMES, HOOLA HOOPS, ETC., GRANDMA'S AND PA'S, MOMS AND DADS, AND TONS OF KIDS . . . PUT ON BY PARKS AND RECREATION, FUN, FUN, FUN, OH, PUMPKIN HUNT! THEY ASKED FOR A ONE DOLLAR DONATION! HELL, ANYWHERE ELSE, YOU WOULD PAY, AT LEAST $10 TO $20 FOR JUST THE HAY RIDE, IT WAS LONG, AND THE SCENERY GORGEOUS! THE RADIO ANNOUNCER, WHO WAS DOING THE INTERVIEW THIS MORNING, SAID, HIS VERY FAVORITE, MEMORY OF HIS FATHER, WAS THAT HIS DAD, BOUGHT A SLIP & SLIDE WATER, YARD TOY, AND THEN SPENT THE DAY PLAYING WITH HIS BROTHERS AND SISTERS! IT DOES'T COST AN ARM AND A LEG TO HAVE FUN WITH KIDS, AN EVENING ON THE FRONT PORCH, A WALK THROUGH THE PARK, FUN IN THE MOUNTAINS . . . MONTANANS ARE GOOD AT THIS TYPE OF FUN! I JUST WANT TO MAKE A FEW COMMENTS ON GOOD FATHERING AND THE DIFFERENCE A FATHER MAKES!

Fun at the Swimming Pool!

Right now, I am sitting in the lobby of the Currents, Aquatic Center, just off Greggs St. in Missoula, Montana . . . I think that is the street, I wanted to put that, because, nobody knows where the indoor swimming pool is, including long time residents living in Missoula their whole lives, the outdoor pool is visible from the road, so that is not a problem, but it is down by the skate park, and McCormick Park, maybe they don't know, that the building is a swimming pool?  Anyway, I come to the pool, about every day, and I can't tell you who cool it is to see dads, just having fun, playing water basketball, or hitting beach balls around the pool, or seeing dads, laughing with their daughters who are usually, hanging all over them!  LOL!  Some cuddle time with dad!  Do it now, dad, because if you wait, and kids grow up fast, it may be too, late!  I remember, always wanting to sit on my dad's lap, but he was busy, or talking to my mother, or doing this or that, generally working, and when I was about, 13, and hit an easy streak in work, making a lot of money, and he had more time, he, asked me to come sit on his lap, and I said, no, and by that time, parents were not cool, and sitting on my dad's lap, should have happened years ago, not when I was a teenager, entering that rebellious age.  I think it hurt my father's feelings, but I remember thinking to myself, a bit late, don't you think dad . . . I didn't say that, but thought it, and how many times did I want to get on your lap and you didn't let me, or where too busy.  There is a certain time a parent or a grandparent has to bond with their children and grandchildren, and that time is not long, so when they ask you, get on it, put down your newspaper, stop doing the dishes, mowing the yard, and spend some time, that works for spouses too!

Anyway, there is a party, going on, in the Ripples, Party Room at Currents, it is great, about 12 or so, moms and dads, with kids, not only the birthday boy's age, but babies, and younger siblings, are all there to celebrate this kids, birthday and I would assume to go swimming!  What a great support system for this kid, and a fun activity, that the boy gets to know, both the mothers of his friends, and their father also, and the parents, too, get to engage with one another, and share their friendships as well!  That is awesome, and must be a new thing, because, I don't ever remember either going to a party, or having one for my kids, or taking them to a friend's birthday party, and having the dad's there!  I know my daughter, Greta and her husband, Dallas, and their friends, are very supportive of kids, come to birthdays, and so, that is way cool.  When I was getting my education certificate, to teach, secondary grades, in public school, in one of my classes, we had a list of 28 support systems kids needed to do well in life!  The obvious, family, school, church, neighbors, friends, sports, extra curricular, community programs, etc.  The crowd in the room just sang, Happy Birthday, and what a glorious sight, kids and parents, how wonderful!

My oldest daughter, just turned 40 this month, my Halloween baby, so fun in October, favorite holiday, favorite time of year, and a good thing, because the pregnancy was terrible, so some reward, when all was said and done!  Anyway, the time flies by, so fast, take advantage, they don't stay young for long, and time really does fly.  SIMPLIFY, SIMPLIFY, SIMPLIFY YOUR LIVES, take the time, it goes by like light speed!  One of my nieces, often commiserates with my daughter, both of them had three sons, and all like a gang, that took over mother and father's lives for awhile just to get control over the bouncing baby boys, so fun, so cute, so alive, and so much energy, but someone told her on a bad day, that all you have to do is turn around and they are gone!  She said, I just keep turning around and turning around, and they are still there!  LOL!

The Difference a Father Makes

I am not advocating divorce, by any means, but, if, you do, consider the ages of the kids, the sex of the children left at home, and the personalities of the parents . . . hopefully, you will all just be smart and stay together, being realistic of life, cycles, and changes.  But, at the time I got a divorce, my daughters were 10 and 13, and my boys, were 8 and 5 years old.  I struggled with the idea of who would be best to take the kids, I had been home, doing almost constant duty, with dad, having not only the full 40 hour work week, but he, a city planner, also had night meetings, several nights a week, or church meetings, on week nights, and also, on Sundays, so I had been the primary care giver, and with the kids all the time, and I was ready to go dancing, go golfing, and go to law school, I was burned out, and felt like a single parent, all the time, already, now, I wanted some of the advantages . . . yeah, spouses, can go by the wayside too!  NOT LOL! But, after I was accepted to law school, during the 90 day waiting period, and it didn't look like we were going to get back together, I studied, the differences, between kids who were with their mothers and who ended up with their fathers, and it seemed to boil down to ages and sexes of the children, more than the parents.

I learned that, when the kids are young, they need their mothers more, they are better as telling them, to brush their teeth, make their beds, do their homework, change their underwear, stuff like the daily, every day, hygiene, type things.  But the fathers, are still very important, they find that, if the child sees the dad, reading, just 10 minutes a day, they are better readers, and the kids see reading as important.  Mothers didn't seem to make much of a difference, probably, because she is reading them nap and bedtime stories, since birth, so they don't count what mother does . . . which used to piss me off to no, ends!  LOL!  I remember my kids, saying, after I had just cleaned the entire house, done the yard, and make cookies, Mom, we know what Dad, does all day, but we don't know what you do!  WHAT?  You see what I do every day, and you don't even see what you father does!  Well, we know that he works!  LOL!  Yes, being a mother, often is a thankless job, but all it takes is one day with dad, home, taking care of the kids, and they will appreciate mom, both dad and the kids, things go better with MOM!  LOL!  But, since I felt that my daughters had a very strong role model, with me, home, most of their younger years, except taking a college class here and there, I was home, keeping the home fires burning!  But, my young sons, had not been around dad, much, and they needed a strong male influence, now that they were heading into the magical age of 12, the stage in almost every culture, that boys, actually, are considered young men, and start to identify with the males more than the women.

At the Playground, Going Down a Slide for the First Time . . . Mom, Be Careful, Hang Onto the Railings!  Dad, Get Up That Slide, and Go, Just Go for It!  LOL!

I saw this Hispanic father, with his very, very young son, at the swimming pool, the dad was trying to put goggles on the, really baby, I would say under 2 years of age, and at one point, the dad, let the son, go under the water, and it seemed so long to me, looked like the kid was drowning, and all of the sudden the father, grabbed the kids hand, as he was flailing around in the water, looking to me, like he was drowning, totally! LOL!  I was relieved, when the dad, pulled the son, up and they, high fived each other!  LOL!  I would never have done that, but it was apparent, the father, was very into swimming, was digging being with his tiny son, who seemed to be much older, even toddled over to get more toys for them to enjoy together!  LOL! Dads, just give that something different, that sure and steady hand, that security, that push them, more than mom would, or they pay a little less attention when watching them, making them more, adventuresome, and they seem to, I don't know, not worry about every little stupid thing!  LOL!  I have one huge regret, and that is, once my husband, wanted to get a family gym pass, and for some lame ass reason, I worried about money, or maybe, I was in school, and with church, didn't think we would have had time together as a family, and that would, maybe, have made all the difference, something fun, something dad, initiated, which was rare, I was a control freak, and I regret, that I didn't listen to him, dads, tend to be more FUN!

Some people have compared them, or even referred to dads, as another child!  LOL!  That is not necessarily a bad thing, because, moms are burned out, want to just sit on the side of the pool and veg, or talk to a friend, or just read a book.  Dads are the family back up system, that have not been with the kids, and therefore, are ready to jump in with the kids, and just let their hair down, and just have a great time, go on water slides, get wet, splash and play, with the kids!  Today, I saw about 5 dads, alone with the kids, and about 5 moms, doing the above.  Kids are a lot of work, and it takes two.  Be grateful, the dads, think they are hot shit in a swim suit and will just strut their stuff, regardless of how they look!  LOL!  Women are hiding in the water, or putting their towels around them and seem more self conscious around the water, than the guys.  Males, by 93% think they look great!  Women, only 63%, and I would say that is high!  So, who do you think, at at swim party, is going to get in the water, mess around with the kids . . . if not dad, who? LOL!  I remember, going to St. George, for Easter, our big family activity, extended family, and I didn't even know, someone took the picture, but, Zeke/Richard, was in the hot tub, with Chris and Elliot, and they were young, I would venture I guess I was playing cards, pool side or hanging out with the sisters, back in better times!  But, that picture of my ex-husband, hub at the time and my two young sons, was on the brochure for the Single Tree Inn, for I swear, 20 years!  That would not have happened with MOM!  LOL!

Social Benefits of a Father . . . Many, But a Few Effecting Teens

When I was researching who should get custody, or take the kids, and there were not fights over this, we are both reasonable people, didn't ask the kids, what we decided, was it, and we did our own divorce, but, when I read, that there are fewer drugs, runaways, pregnancies, less alcohol, school truancy, suicides, deaths, that was it . . . you guys are going with DAD!  Not to mention the fact, that he made, $80,000 per year, 25 years ago, and as a new school teacher, I would have made, $14,000, the going rate for teachers, starting to teach in Provo, BYU, feeding grounds, cheap labor!  I am not a home body, he is, he was sick of being away from home, so when he came home at nights, he stayed home, I had been home for almost 15 years, at that point and I wanted out.  They say, that often, in this modern world, as the dad, is ready to come home, has his career under control, mom is ready to leave, and heads out the door, and they totally miss, that in between time, with mom jumping the gun, ready to run!  I have to smile with my daughter, who is very smart, and is able to learn from her mother's mistakes, and make better decisions, family wise . . . while I did everything, family, school, church, then law school, work, etc., she has for the second year in a row, turned down a spot in law school.

Last year she didn't feel ready, and moving her whole family would have been difficult.  This year, she was up, most of the summer, in Oregon as a hot shot firefighter or wild lands, firefighter, and going to law school by August 27, this year, was pushing her family, too much!  She is one smart cookie, and she will, get or did get in to every law school she applied to, and even got a scholarship, to the U of M, and so, I am sure, if the school, feels they can't accommodate the changes, or feels slighted, Greta can get in another law school . . . family first, there is no success that compensates for failure in the home . . . you pay forever!  Thank God, I had great kids, and made some good decisions, and in spite of all the added challenges, my children, continue to RISE!  They are amazing, in and of themselves, and at times, they feel that I should not get credit, like, ah, really?  LOL!  No, they also, are very smart, are very concerned about family issues, and they put their spouses and kids first, while continuing to grow and develop themselves, a hard balance!

ANYWAY . . . JUST SOME THOUGHTS HERE, ON A SUNDAY AFTERNOON!  Thanks to all the GREAT Moms and Dads that RAISE such GOOD KIDS!

KISSES AND HUGS FROM SOCIETY!

And, It Does, Take a Village to Raise a Child . . . Thanks for ALL the Support Systems, My Kids Had!