SCREAMBOX. SPLITTING HEADACHE. TREAT YOURSELF SWEETLY. TRICK. FRESHLY BREWED SIPS. YOU GOT THIS! CINNAMON ROLL SHAKES. WHAT DO YOU GEEK? DONE THAT. FLAME THROWER GRILLBURGER. LOVESPEND. ROCKHARD. CAMPOLONGO. OLD HAUNTS. HALLOWEEN. IT'S ON. PARTY CITY. OH, IT'S ON! THE DEADLY NEIGHBORHOOD. GUNSMOKE III. THE DEADLY HARVEST. TREATS. PUMPKIN PIE BLIZZARD. TENNESSEE FARMER GROWS 900 POUND PUMPKIN, MAKES BOAT OUT OF IT! YEAH, IT FLOATS! MANIAC PUMPKIN CARVERS. TWO FRIENDS, BOTH ARTISTS, STARTED CARVING ART IN THEIR PUMPKINS. NOW HAVE A THRIVING BUSINESS CARVING THE CLASSICS, LIKE STEVEPHEN KING'S "THE SHINING!" OR EDGAR ALLAN POE'S THE "RAVEN!" KIDS WATCH THEIR FIRST SCARY MOVIE AROUND THE AGE OF 10. WHAT SCARED THEM AT THAT TIME, STILL SCARES THEM! SOME BABYSITTER SHOWED MY SON, ELLIOT, YOUNGEST, ONE OF THE FRIDAY THE 13TH OR HALLOWEEN MOVIES, WHEN HE WAS 5. HE IS STILL SCARED BY WHAT HE SAW! EL TURNED ME ONTO THE MOVIE "HEREDITY" WHICH I WATCHED WITH MY GRANDSON. THERE'S GRANDMA! LOL. I TOLD MY ALMOST 16 YEAR OLD GRANDSON, THAT I WOULD COME BACK AND HAUNT ALL MY KIDS AND GRAND KIDS, JUST LIKE THE GRANNY IN THE MOVIE! LOL. HE SAID, THEN YOU WOULDN'T BE THE SAME GRANDMA! LOL. I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR 7 YEARS. 7 IS THE NUMBER OF COMPLETION. LOST CHILDREN ARCHIVES. PAYBACK IS A WITCH! LOL. PRECIOUS VICTIMS. THE HANDSOME FAMILY! CLUE. MOVIE TRAINING FOR THE SPOOKS, GHOSTS, AND GHOULS, IN THE CLOAK & DAGGER WORLD I LIVE IN: (1) SKULL ISLAND; (2) SIDE EFFECTS; (3) THE CLIENT. SEE IF YOU ARE SMART ENOUGH TO FIGURE OUT WHY, FILMS AS OLD AS 1991, WOULD BE OF SYMBOLIC MERIT TO ME? THE MORMON MOBFATHER. I ATE BREAKFASTS AT THE MCDONALD'S, AT THE BOTTOM OF BLUFF STREET. I WAS ORDER #229: 1 2 BURRITO M1-HB, 2 HOT PICANTO; 1 L DIET COKE. REGISTER SIDE2. 10/26/2019. 07:38 AM. SUBTOTAL: 3:99. TAX: 0.31. EAT-IN TOTAL: 4:30. CASH TENDERED: 10.00. CHANGE: 5:70. REPORT ISSUES WITH VISIT: 435-275-7419. ON COLUMBUS DAY, I GOT THE SAME BREAKFAST AND PAID, WITH A CREDIT CARD OR DEBIT CARD, FIRST SECURITY BANK, AND PAID, SEATTLE PRICES. I WAS SHOCKED TO FIND OUT THAT MY ORDER WAS $2.00 MORE EXPENSIVE THAN I REMEMBERED IT BEING IN UTAH OR MONTANA! I ATTRIBUTED IT TO TRUMP'S FUCKED, TRADE OR NO TRADE DEAL WITH CHINA! THEY LOVE MCDONALDS! THE CHINESE THAT IS. THIS IS HOW THEY DO IT, BABY! WHEN I DITCH THE COOP, WITH A SURPISE EXIT, LIKE I DID, GO! GO! GO! FROM BELLEVUE TO ST. GEORGE, ON THE 11TH AND THE 12TH, LEAVING MY TAILS, TRAILS, AND STAKE OUTS IN THE DUST, THEY START DOING, MONEY TRICKS! I JUST DISCOVERED ANOTHER, SISTER SHIT SHOW! I USED TO COME USE THE WASHINGTON COUNTY LIBRARY COMPUTERS, BEFORE, I STARTED PRACITICING LAW AGAIN. BUT I NEVER GOT A LIBRARY CARD! SO TODAY, I GOT DOWN TO THE BASEMENT IN THE LIBRARY, TO WRITE A SURPRISE BLOG, BUT TO MY SURPRISE, THERE WERE NO COMPUTERS? DUDE IN THE BACK ROOM, TOLD ME THERE WAS A FLOOD AND ALL THE COMPUTERS HAD BEEN MOVED TO THE SECOND FLOOR! FILLED WITH SURPRISES, I HAVE A LIBRARY CARD? AND I OWE, 30 CENTS FOR A LATE FEE, ON AYN RAND'S, "ATLAS SHRUGGED?" I NEVER, NEVEER, EVER CHECK OUT BOOKS! LAW SCHOOL BURNED A HOLE IN MY BRAIN, TO TAKE NOTES, HIGHLIGHT, AND, WRITE NOTES IN THE MARGINS OF ANY DOCUMENT, NEWSPAPER, OR BOOK I READ! EVEN MY PAPERBACK BOOKS I GET FREE, ARE OF NO USE TO ANYONE AFTER I USE THEM, BECAUSE, THEY ARE DOG-EARED, MARKED, AND MUTILATED! NO, I HAVE PURCHASED, AN "ATLAS SHRUGGED" PROBABLY FROM, BARNES & NOBLE, WANTING TO READ IT AGAIN, AFTER TALKING TO GRETA AND DALLAS, WHO HAD RECENTLY RE-READ THE BOOK BACK, WHAT, 10 YEARS AGO! I PAID FOR SHELLEY'S, OVER-DUE BOOK, THAT WAS LEFT ON THE RECORDS OF THE LIBRARY, FOR ALL POSTERITY TO WONDER IF THAT WAS ME WHO CHECKED OUT THE BOOK, RATHER THAT THE FEIND, WHO PRETENDS TO BE ME! I LOVE AYN RAND, PARTICULARLY, "FOUNTAINHEAD" . . . NEVER COULD, OR WOULD I READ A LIBRARY BOOK OF RAND'S, BECAUSE I WOUJLD MARK ALMOST EVERY FUCKING PAGE OF IT! THE LIBRARIAN, WHOM, I AM GUESSING, PROBABLY KNOWS, SHELLEY AS ME, FOR THE LAST, 10 YEARS, SUGGESTED THAT I PAY THE FINE, AND SHE WOULD TAKE MY NAME SAKE OFF THE LIBRARY ROLLS! I AM WRITING THIS BLOG FROM, COMPUTER #21 . . . FOREVER 21! INTERSESTING! MCDONALD'S WORKS FOR ME? OR HER? SMILE. SOME SAMOAN CIA AGENT, CAME IN MCDONALDS, AT AROUND 7:30 AM, WHEN, MY DAUGHTER DROPPED ME OFF. HE LEFT, BUT HE CAME BACK IN LATER. HE SAT IN THE FIRST BOOTH, RIGHT NEAR THE SODA FOUNTAIN, WHERE HE WAS SURE, I WOULD, MAKE AT LEAST, 3 TRIPS, BEFORE, I LEFT THE RESTAURANT! SAMOAN DUDE WAS, TALL, STOCKY, WEARING A NAVY BLUE, T-SHIRT, LEVI'S, AND THE MOST DISTINCT FEATURE OF HIS DISCRIPTION, WAS THE BUN IN HIS JET BLACK HAIR! EVERY TIME THIS SODA JERK, WALKED TO THE FOUNTAIN DRINK, HE HAD HIS HEAD BURIED IN HIS CELL PHONE! TRYING TO NOT BE NOTICED! SHIT, DUDE, BUY SOMETHING! OR YOU ARE EITHER ;LOITERING, OR AN UNDERCOVER COP, THAT IS NOT BEING KICKED OUT, WHEN YOU DON'T ORDER! I WAS THERE FOR THREE FUCKING HOURS! DUDE! I AM PISSED FOR THE STORE. WHEN IN ROME, DO AS THE ROMANS. MORE PROOF THAT HE WAS AN AGENT! MCD'S IS NOT REAL FOOD! LOL. OR THEY HAVE THEIR WEIGHT CHARTS THAT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT! BORING. I FOLLOWED SOME OLDER LADY, INTO THE RESTROOM, AFTER MOVING, BOOTHS TO ALLOW NEW COMERS TO THE FAST FOOD JOINT, A PLACE TO SIT, WHILE, I MOVED UNDER THE SURVEILLANCE CAMERAS, AND WAITED, IN HOPES TO GRAB, GRANDMA'S AND GRANDPA'S, NEWSPAPER! FINALLY, I DECIDED, THEY WERE GONG TO DO THE "CROSSWORD PUZZLE" LATER! SO, WITH BACKPACK IN MY HANDS, LATER ON MY BACK, I STOOD OVER NEAR THE HALLOWEEN DECORATIONS, SPIDERS, WEBS, GHOST, PUMPKINS, AND WHATNOT, THEN, I BOLTED FOR THE DOOR, AND WAITED FOR THE SUNTRANS, PICKING IT UP AT THE BACK OF "QUALITY INN" AT 10:49 AM! SOME AGENT, LATINO, PRETENDING TO BE LOOKING AT THE BUS SCHEDULE, WEARING SUNGLASSES FOR A DISGUISE, CHECKED THE TIME, ON THE POST, AND, THEN, WALKED ON, WHEN I TOLD HIM WHAT TIME THE BUS WAS COMING! LOL. AGENTS, FLOODED, ST. GEORGE, NOW THEY ARE ALL RUSIHNG TO LEAVE, TO GET TO MONTANA BEFORE, I GET THERE! KEYMAN. WILL YOU WATCH MY SOCIAL SECURITY BENEFITS? THEY WILL BE ALL OVER THEM, TO STOP ME FROM LEAVING THE STATE . . . STOLE, $200 LAST MONTH, ALMOST GOT THE WHOLE THING, THE MONTH BEFORE! LIKELY PAID ON THE 1ST, BECAUSE THE 3RD LANDS ON SUNDAY! GAMES, SO WATCH, DAYS BEFORE AND DAYS AFTER! I HAVE BEEN PAID AS EARLY, AS, THE 29TH! HINT FOR POLITICAL THRILL SEEKERS--AGENTS, IN AREAS, ARE LIKELY, MADE UP OF LOCAL MINORITY GROUPS! SEATTLE--ASIANS. MONTANA--NATIVE AMERICAN INDIANS. UTAH--SAMOAN'S, WOMEN OR BLACKS! THERE WERE AT LEAST, 4 AGENTS THERE THIS MORNING! SAMOAN DUDE, CHICK PRETENDING TO BE HOMELESS, BLACK DUDE, TALKING TO HER, AND, DUDE DRINKING COFFEE AND ON HIS IPAD, BOOTH IN FRONT OF ME! ON SOUTHERN EXPOSURE! COOL BIKE RACE, INDICATIVE OF AGENTS, LEAVING TOWN, IN HORDS! WHAT COP AGENCIES ARE ABOVE THE CIA? INTERPOL? SECRET SERVICE? PORT AUTHORITY? OSS? ALL OF THE ABOVE? NOT NECESSARILY. SKULL ISLAND, THE MOVIE WITH, HOPPED UP FBI AGENT, PLAYED BY LEO DECARPRIO, GREAT JOB, BY THE WAY . . . IS IN ON THE RAIDS, IN GERMANY, WORLD WAR WITH HITLER, WHERE, HIS NAZI'S AND SS MEN, WERE PERFORMING HUMAN EXPERIMENTATION . . . ONLY TO FIND OUT, THAT, AMERICANS ARE PREFORMING, EXPERIMENTS, ON HUMANS ON SKULL ISLAND! I WAS TAKEN BACK BY THE MENTION OF THE OSS! THAT STANDS FOR THE "OFFICE OF STRATEGIC SERVICE" THAT, HAD AS PART OF IT, THE "OFFICE OF STRATEGIC INTELLIGENCE" WHICH, MY FATHER WAS IN, AT THE TIME OF MY BIRTH, IN PORT HUENEME, NAVY BASE, CALIFORNIA, BACK IN 1954. THE MOVIE, SKULL ISLAND, IS BASED ON THE ERA, FROM, 1954. MY FATHER WAS, AN OSI AGENT, OR SPECIAL AGENT, FOR THE AIR FORCE, AT THE TIME OF MY BIRTH. THE CIA WAS, CREATED, IN 1947, SO, ROUGHLY, 7 YEARS BEFORE, MY BIRTH . . . THEREFORE, THE OSS WAS STILL IN OPERATION AFTER, THE CIA OR THE CENTRAL INTELLIGENCE AGENCY WAS FORMED, YEARS BEFORE, TAKING IN ALL THE AGENTS, FROM THE BRANCHES OF THE MILITARY, AND PULLING THEM INTO "THE COMPANY" OR THE CIA. BEFORE, I LEFT, UTAH, I WAS LOOKING AROUND FOR MY FATHER'S STASH OF CANDY IN HIS OFFICE CLOSET AND NOTICED, A NEW, FRESHLY STITCHED, BLACK, BALL CAP, WITH GOLD LETTERS, OSS! I WAS SHOCKED, BECAUSE, EITHER HE OR SOMEONE, LED ME TO BELIEVE THAT ONCE THE CIA CAME INTO OPERATION, THE OSS WAS DEAD! IS THIS THE AGENCY THAT MADE ME A LAB RAT AND TOOK ALL I EVER EARNED AND HAD, AND GAVE IT TO MY FATHER'S OTHER DAUGHTERS WHO WERE NOT DO GIFTED AND BLESSED? YOU ARE ALREADY ONE OF US. NO, I QUALIFIED, ALL THOSE WHO ARE NOT WORTHY OF YOU! BUT YOU WILL MAKE DUE, JUST USING ME, TO BE THE WORK HORSE AND, THE REST OF THE GALS, EYE CANDY, GOVERNMENT WHORES, AND, FUCK BUDDIES! ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING! INTERESTING DISCUSSION WITH MY DAUGHTER, LAST NIGHT . . . IT SEEMS LIKE MEN ARE JUST CONDITIONED OR IT COMES NATURALLY TO HAVE FUN . . . WOMEN, NOT SO MUCH? I ALWAYS HAD FUN! I NEVER PLAYED BY THE RULES OF SOCIETY! I DID FOLLOW THE LAW, BUT, IN EXERCISING MY RIGHTS TO BE FUN! SHE MUST BE PUNISHED FOR BEING BETTER, SMARTER, COOLER, WORTH MORE, AND, HAVING A BIGGER WORLD, IMPACT, AND BEING MORE PERFECT THAN ANY MALE AGENT, THAT, HAS EVER SERVED THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! I WAS TELLING MY SON, IT TOOK ME, WHAT, FROM, 1986, WHEN, I GRADUATED FROM WEBER STATE UNIVERSITY, IN OGDEN, UTAH, AS AN ENGLISH MAJOR, EARNING THE HONOR AND DISTINCTION OF BEING, NAMED, "OUTSTANDING ENLISH MAJOR" AND, WITH A MINOR IN COMMUNICAITONS, BEING NAMED, "HONORED, HUMANITIES STUDENT" . . . BUT BEING, SECOND, WITH BOTH OF THOSE TITLES, COMING IN, 0.44 PERCENTAGE POINTS, BELOW THE MALE CANDIDATE? WHEN ALL THIS HAPPENED TO HILLARY CLINTON, BACK IN 2016, THIS RUSSER THING AND AN IDIOT, BEING MADE PRESIDENT IN A RIGGED ELECTION, OVER THE EMALE THING, IT DAWNED ON ME, THAT A MYSTERY HAD BEEN CLEARED UP . . . THE LAST TWO, SOLID, "A" GRADES, IN MY LAST TWO CLASSES, IN COLLEGE, WERE NEVER ADDED TO MY ACCUMULATIVE, GPA? I EVEN WENT TO THE ADMINISTRATION, ARGUING, AND WONDERING WHY, MY GPA, WAS, LIMITED TO, A SCORE WITHOUT, THOSE LAST TWO, 6 CREDIT HOUR, A'S ADDED TO MY OVERALL GPA? WAS IT THAT MIKE BRIMLEY, THE TOP MALE STUDENT, HAD A LOWER, ACCUMULATIVE, SCORE THAN, A FEMALE? WITH FOUR KIDS, I NEVER TURNED A PAPER IN LATE. MIKE, ON THE OTHER HAND, SINGLE, WAS ALWAYS REQUESTING ANOTHER TWO WEEKS EXTENSION ON HIS ENGLISH PAPERS! GET REAL, MOTHERFUCKERS! THE CIA, TRIED TO RECRUIT, FROM MY ENGLISH CLASS, MR. ALLRED'S, I BELIEVE . . . SEEING IF I WOULD TAKE THE BAIT OR NIBBLE? THE CIA HAD THEIR EYES ON MY KIDS, BEFORE, THEY WERE ALL IN SCHOOL! GRANDPA'S DNA? WAS THEIR FATHER A CIA AGENT? SMART MOM AND DAD! FOUR PERFECTLY BEAUTIFUL, SMART, TALENTED, STELLAR KIDS! GET THOSE KIDS! SIBLINGS, HAVE THE CLOSEST DNA, TO EACH OTHER. OBVIOUSLY, DNA DONATED FROM THE SAME PARENTS. PUT THAT DNA IS DIFFERENT, IN MANY WAYS. THERE IS THIS NEW SCIENCE OF GENOTYPING, THE DNA, AND, EVEN WITHOUT, A DNA SAMPLE, PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT ON THE CODIS OR AFID, WHATEVER DATA BASES, FOR HAVING COMMITTED A CRIME, CAN BE RECONSTRUCTED, OR DISCOVERED THROUGH, THEIR PARENTS, OR SIBLINGS DNA. WHAT IF THEY PRETEND, THAT I AM DEAD, AND HAVE BEEN FOR 20 TO 65 YEARS, EVEN DIED AT BIRTH, SO THEY COULD GIVE, MY BIRTHRIGHT TO SHELLEY, THE OLDEST DAUGHTER OF RICHARD AND HELEN, SOUTHWICK, BECAUSE SHE WAS, THE BASTARD CHILD, AND ALL THE GIFTS, TALENTS, AND BEAUTY, FLOWED TO THE NEXT CHILD IN LINE, OR ME? GUILTY PARENTS? MAKE ME PAY FOR THE SINS OF MY FATHER AND THE PAIN OF MY MOTHER? OH, FUCK NO! THIS IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I AM SMARTER THAN, BOTH MY FATHER AND SISTER, PLUS THE WHOLE FUCKING FEDERAL COP, AGENCIES, OR I WOULD BE LONG, LONG, LONG, DEAD BY NOW! SITLL KICKING, STILL SINGLE, STILL UNBEATABLE! THEY HAVE "UNDENIABLE ACCESS" TO EVERYTHING ME! THEY ARE STILL LOSERS! HOGSLAND. NOTHING IS EVERYTHING! COCA COLA FREESTYLE--100% ME!

TRANSGENDER

• tranny, in St. George, Utah?  Wow? or agent?  Interesting counter-help, this morning!  Seattle for sure . . . St. George?  Probably not.  FBI.
• GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
• if had a female, CIA agent, in Bellevue, formerly, resident, in Greenwood, Washington, probably doing a psyche evaluation of me, a year ago or so, say . . . you don't seem to have the woman-girl, hang-ups, the powerlessness, syndromes, that the rest of us have.
• What makes a girl like me, a girl like me?  How did I get this way?
• long time goals . . . FOOD & FUN!  LOL.
• I guess, I never let the MORMON, OR THE U.S., OR WORLD, PATRIARCHY OR MALE ORDER, CONTROL ME, NOR DID I EVER GIVE A SHIT, WHAT THEY THOUGHT OF ME, AND I NEVER DOUBTED, MY WORTH, OR MY SKILLS, OR MY INTELLECT, OR MY ABILITY TO WIN THE HEARTS OF MEN!  LOL.  FAT OR THIN!
• for the most part, now that I have my kids, career, grand kids, freedom, there is not a man, I wouldn't kick to the curb, for a Whopper, Fries, and a Diet Coke!  EZ.
• I had 10 boys, chasing me home from 2nd grade everyday, and I probably have, 10X that, chasing me daily, home from McD's, today!  LOL.
• I wear stuff, nobody wears, go places, no woman in her right mind, would go, on her own, and, I do whatever the fuck, I have money to do and want to do!
• I ENJOY MYSELF!  I DIG MYSELF!  I LOVE MYSELF!  I DON'T LOOK FOR OUTSIDE, APPROVAL OR SUPPORT, OR WHATEVER, TO BE ME!
• I golfed, by age, 14.  I hated to shop!  I loved and played sports!  I preferred, going to the Kamas Fish Hatchery over going to the mall!  I LOVE NATURE!  IT TURNS ME ON, AS MUCH IF NOT MORE THAN, ANY MAN--SAME WITH BLOGGING AND LAW!  I loved men, for being men, not for what they could do for  me or make me . . . I could do that myself!  I have never, ever, needed a man, to get me or make me something, amazing!  I never used, bargained or weaponized sex! never will . . . I like it as much as men do . . . but, I keep my pride and will not, go beyond what I feel comfortable, doing!  PERIOD!
• in, high school, over the DEAR HUNT, while all our boyfriends, were in the woods . . . me and my friends, all went, down on State Street, and dragged it for boys, in our parent's station-wagon!  We rushed, fraternities, pretending to be rushees from, sororities, putting paper bags, on our heads, covering our faces, and singing the Oscar Meyer Wiener song, refusing to take the bags off our heads, ending up with, frat rats, chasing us all over their frat house, at the University of Utah, trying to remove our bags!  THEY NEVER GOT US, NOR TOOK OUR BAGS OFF!
• when, we got back to high school, Bountiful, Utah, our home living class sponsored a panel of guys, or peers, to try to give, girls, the do's and don't's, of what to do while, dudes are deer hunting . . . basically trashing us for not sitting home, while they have fun in them their hills!  My attitude was, basically, FUCK YOU!  I WILL DO ANYTHING I WANT, AND THE ATTITUDE OF, MEN ARE LIKE TROLLEY CARS, THERE IS ONE COMING AROUND THE CORNER, EVERY 10 MINUTES, WAS PRESENT EVEN BACK THEN!
• me and my former, friend, also an attorney, my AKA, mocked, events, sponsored, by the school, girls' association, pep clubs, and other organizations!  When, they modeled, the new empire waist or granny dresses, the rage in the early 70's, we stole the limelight, by, wearing make-up on one eye, or wearing our mother's clothes, and, wigs, and cowgirl boots!
• I had my steady, top male, high school sweetheart, the heart throb, of all the girls in our rival high school, king of everything, stud of all sports, loyal to me alone, back in those days, while I roamed the field, had boyfriends from 8 high schools, but found that boring!  I wanted boyfriends from other schools, because, I didn't want, to worry or care about looking good at school, on a daily basis, nor did I want them cramping my style and freedom, and, if and when, I wanted to take time to look good, or had a good hair day, then, I would go pull him out of classes!  LOL.  He was homecoming king, and came over to my house, borrowed, or asked for one of my rings, so, he could show he was forever MY GUY!  At the dance, one of my besties, who was a steady of his friend, was talking to Larry, and he nodded, and directed her eyes to his toe, where she was sure to see, my ring!  HE WAS CONFIDENT ENOUGH, NEVER NEEDED TO WORRY, ABOUT ME CHEATING FOR REAL ON HIM . . . I AM LIKE A SHARK WHO CAN SENSE, INSECURITY IN MY MALE PARTNERS AND I HATE THAT!
• MORE TO ENJOY . . . HOW MANY DUDES, GET A PRETTY GIRLFRIEND, WHO LOVES, SPORTS, LOVES TO GOLF, LOVES TO BE HIS PARTNER IN A GAME ON TWO ON TWO, AND, DIGS, JUST HANGING OUT IN NATURE,  HOW MANY DUDES, HAVE THEIR GIRLFRIEND, SO ENAMORED WITH THEIR PHYSIQUE, THAT SHE IS THE PEEPING JANE? BRINGS HER FRIENDS OVER TO BRAG OUT HER STUD?
• CONFIDENCE IE ATTRACTIVE IN EITHER MALE OR FEMALE!  GET SOME!
• quick story about confidence . . . so one night in Kalispell, Montana, I wanted to go dancing.  This was about, 7 years ago.  I love to dance by myself, really don't care to dance with males or females, just boogie on my own!  So there was this group of, single, 30 something, females and a few males, but all hot!  It was some chick's birthday, and she had about 15 friends, at the Bull Dog at the Outlaw Inn, for the celebration.  There was a very small, dance floor.  I was, up near the front, dancing by myself, wanting to just dance and not be bothered.  There was a DJ, and a dance video, I was watching, while dancing . . . all the sudden, this whole crowd of young people, simultaneously come on the dance floor and start, dancing.  All the sudden, I feel, someone, bumping and grinding on me?  WTF?  I kind of dance a bit away, but he came back?  What in the hell is this dude doing?  All the sudden, he is dirty dancing and, kind of hot breathing in my ear . . . YOU ARE THE MOST CONFIDENT WOMEN ON THIS DANCE FLOOR!  I relaxed and just enjoyed the moment.  Finally, this very fine, younger man, said, the least I can do is buy, you a drink.  I am a cheap date, I will just take water.  He left the dance floor and I continued to dance by myself, and this other, very handsome, younger guy, stepped right in his place!  By the time dude got back with the water, he was just someone I used to know!  LOL.
• I ALWAYS GET THE HOTTEST GUYS . . . CONFIDENCE IS SEXY!
• STRONG IS SEXY AND THE NEW BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• GIRLS. GIRLS. GIRLS!  STOP PLAYING THEIR GAME AND PLAY YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  EVENTUALLY, GUYS ARE GOING TO HATE THE GALS THEY, CREATED!  BORING.  NO CHALLENGE.  EASY TO LEAVE!  GET "YOUR" GAME ON!
• I swear, ad agencies are gong to change he world!  From racial prejudice against, interracial marriage, to, girls, just wanting to have fun!  We see, chicks, skating boarding, and getting into Caddy's, with their friends, dressed to kill, and colorful fun! or chicks, just hanging together, dancing, playing musical instruments, eating and beating, splitting headaches!  FUN. Fun. FUN!
• DON'T LET MEN HAVE ALL THE FUN, WHILE YOU PINE AT HOME FOR THEM, WHILE THEY HUNT, OR DIET WHILE THEY EAT, OR HAVE GOOD TIMES WITH FRIENDS, WHILE THE GALS, CAT FIGHT OVER, THEIR LOOKS, OR FIGURES, OR, WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• YOU ONLY LIVE IT ONCE, SO LIVE, GOD-DAMNED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• YOU ARE STILL OF WORTH, AFTER YOUR CHILD BEARING YEARS . . . SAD, THIS ATTRACTIVE OLDER COUPLE, PROBABLY MY AGE, CAME INTO, MCDONALD'S--WHILE THE HUSBAND GOT THE FOOD, THE WIFE, WIPED OFF THE CHAIRS, THE TABLES, AND CLEANED UP THE JOINT?????  WHY?  TO TRY TO MAKE HER HUSBAND FEEL SHE IS PULLING HE FAIR SHARE?  WTF?
• CONFIDENT FEMALE, HOUSEWIFE, MOVIE . . . "WAR OF THE ROSE'S" . . . COUNTRY SONG, "I LEARNED A LONG TIME AGO, WHAT A WOMAN CAN DO FOR A MAN!"  YOU DON'T NEED TO JUSTIFY ANYTHING!  I THINK, THEREFORE, I AM!
• MY SON, IS DATING A BEAUTY . . . HE JUST INFORMED HER, THAT, SHE WAS CO-DEPENDENT ON HIM.  OF COURSE, SHE DIDN'T LIKE THAT.  HE DOESN'T TEXT ENOUGH?  WOMEN, DON'T BE TOO AVAILABLE!  MAKE HIM WONDER.  NO PLAYING GAMES, BEING BUSY WITH YOUR OWN LIFE!  SURE YOU WANT A PARTNER, BUT, SHIT, SHARKS CAN SMELL BLOOD IN THE WATER!  CONFIDENCE, HE IS LUCKY TO HAVE YOU! JUST LIKE YOU ARE LUCKY TO HAVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!  CO-EQUALS, OR GET OUT NOW . . . IT WILL NEVER LAST!  TEACH HIM WHAT A WOMAN CAN DO FOR A MAN . . . IF HE DOESN'T ALREADY KNOW.  YOU GOT GAME GIRL, PLAY IT!  IT 'S CALLED THE GAME OF LOVE!  DON'T SKIP IT!  RYDER--EVER BETTER.

TOXIC LOVE!

• some true crime . . . red meat for my base, cops!
• simple facts.  A cute baby, catches a strange disease and dies, mysteriously.  Docs are confused, as to what would make this healthy, happy, baby boy, get sick overnight and die?
• shortly after that, some, man, got sick, with similar symptoms, a very healthy, 20 to 30 year old, up and died too?
• health officials looking into the two deaths, realized that, to their surprise, the baby, and the man, who died, were related?  WTF?  What did the two deaths, or relatives have in common?  Cops were pulled into help investigate the strange and illogical deaths, to see if there was some type of foul play involved, and if so, who has a family vendetta, bad enough to take out family members, a baby????????
• as the family, who seemed to be the target of this person, compared notes, a week or two before the deaths, had all gotten together, for some one's birthday, and it was narrowed down, to all the family members who, appeared to have had, lemonade to drink, all got sick, within days of the birthday party?  The three who didn't get sick, were, the hostess, a married, lady, named, Sandy, married to the man who died . . . she didn't like, lemonade and drank something else.  Her parents, didn't get sick they had coffee to drink.  But, the lemonade pitcher had been, consumed and the dishes done, along with the destruction of the evidence.
• then, the family, remembered and incident that took place at another family gathering, back three years earlier, when, Sandy's, former, high school boyfriend, showed up, with a gun, and threatened her and her husband, the dude that is now DEAD!!!!!!  The guy got arrested and locked up, but only for one year of his sentence.  Could he be to blame?  This young man, was shy, had a pocked face, issues had home, and, Sandy, a very popular girl, liked him, anyway, pulling him into the popular crowd, but later, being stolen, by her current, now dead, husband!
• after, ex, was let out of prison, he worked for a cancer institute, where, animals, mainly, mice, were experimented on, as scientists, looked for a cure for cancer.  There was a particular agent, that, was used, some, green, poison, that was used to test the rats and mice.  As the cops investigated more, they found that, this man's animals were brought to a town, veterinarian, with their teeth missing and other, strange, issues. The cops, got a search warrant, and found, this, cancer testing poison, readily available, through, the dude's work, for him to take home and experiment, on his own, animals, until he tested the strengths, necessary to either make people sick, or kill them!  I don't think the man, ever had another girlfriend, and he was still hung up on Sandy, the intended victim, but for, her not drinking the lemonade, and without the guy, knowing, that the baby, would drink and die or others.
• EX got the DEATH SENTENCE FOR THAT PRANK AND TRICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF THE OPPOSITE OF CONFIDENCE AND IS EXTREMELY, UNATTRACTIVE!

MY SON, HAD ME WATCH, THIS FUN, MOVIE . . . A SPOOF, ON THE 70'S MOVIE, "DELIVERANCE" WITH BURT REYNOLDS . . . SQUEAL LIKE A PIG!  THIS MOVIE, IS BASED ON THE PERSPECTIVE OF THE REDNECK, AND HIS IMPRESSION OF THE COLLEGE, CITY KIDS, WHO HAPPEN INTO THEIR BACKWOODS AND TERRITORY!

WARNING!!!  THIS IS GORY, BUT FUNNY!  BUT, THERE ARE TWO REDNECKS, WHO, MEET, A GROUP OF COLLEGE KIDS, AT A GAS STATION, OUT IN THE BACK COUNTRY, I THINK, IN THE OZARKS OR ON THE APPALACHIA TRAIL!  A GOOD OLE' COUNTRY BOY, A BIT HEAVY SET, BEARD, WEARING OVERALLS, WHO SEES, THIS HOT ALLEGED, CITY CHICK, IS SPEECHLESS, WHEN HE TRIES TO TALK TO HER, BELIEVING THAT, HE COULD NEVER GET A GIRL LIKE THAT . . . BUT THROUGH, IT ALL, HE COMES OUT AT THE COOL DUDE THE GOOD GUY, THE SMART AND SWEET, GUY, WHOM SHE DUMPS THE DUMB-ASSES IN THE CITY FOR, AND ENDS UP, WITH THE HICK FROM THE STICKS! 

TUCKER AND DALE VS. EVIL!

REALLY FUNNY.

IT IS KIND OF LIKE, "SHALLOW HAL" MOVIE, WITH, GWENETH PLOTROW . . . JACK BLACK, FALLS IN LOVE WITH A 400 POUND, WOMAN, HE COULDN'T CARRY OVER THE ALTER, EVER!

BUT HE SEES HER GOODNESS AND KINDNESS, AND FALLS FOR HER, SEEING HER AS A 125 POUND BEAUTY!

REMEMBER, THE BRAIN, IS THE LARGEST SEX ORGAN OF ALL!

THE TWO MEN, MOST OBSESSED WITH ME, ARE MEN, WHO LOVED ME BEHIND CLOSED DOORS, BUT, IN FRONT OF THEIR BUDDIES?  NOT SO MUCH!  THEY BOTH HAD RAGING GOOD SEX WITH ME!

WHAT A MAN WILL LOVE IN SECRET, THEY MIGHT, DIS IN, THE OPEN!

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN, SHE LOSES WEIGHT?

OBSESS, STOP HER PROGRESS AT 7 HEALTH CLUBS, CHASE, HER, KILL, LOVE RATHER THAN SHARE HER WITH ANOTHER MAN . . . TELL YOUR FRIENDS, SHE STINKS, SHE IS UGLY, OR STUPID?

LOL.

CONFIDENCE TELLS THE REAL STORY!

FURIOUS LOVE.

OBSESSION WILL KILL MANY.

THAT WAS YESTERDAY . . . DON'T STOP LOOKING TO TOMORROW?

KILLING IS AGAINST THE LAW!

DAH.