FISCAL CHICKEN HAWKS. EARSHOT. WARRIOR GRIND. METRO ALL ELECTRIC. CODING. BOOK OF MYSTERIES. PROTERRA BATTERY ELECTRIC. WHAT THE PHO! OLD FLAME SHOWED UP AT THE CORNER OF HAPPY & HEALTHY, WALGREENS. ATTRACTIONS ARE BASED ON CHEMISTRY, SORRY TO SAY, THOSE DON'T END, WHEN THE RELATIONSHIP DOES. YOU DON'T ANSWER YOUR PHONE. BELLEUVE COPS HAVE THEM BOTH. STOP BY. NOT A CHANCE. COZY SHOULDN'T BE COSTLY. EYES JET TO THE STREETS. COPS. SHERIFFS. I KNOW WHY THE CAGED BIRD SINGS! GOTTA GO, GETTING TIRED, NEED CIGS. IDENTIFIED ME? SIGNS WALKING DOWN THE STREET. PHO. SALLY BEAUTY SUPPLY. COME ON IN. MCDONALD'S, NO SECURITY GUARDS, REMOTE CONTROL CLICKING TO RESTROOMS. BUS SIGNS, "SOMETHING ROTTEN." PLATT TRUCK (PLAN). DUDE IN MCDONALD'S, BALD, GOATEE, WITH BRAIDED BEARD, JUST LIKE MY HAIR STYLIST, WHO USED TO CUT MY HAIR THE WAY HE WAS INSTRUCTED TO DO, JUST LIKE THE RUSSIAN CHICK, WHO BUTCHERED ME AT THE GREENWOOD GREAT CLIPS, NEVER SEEN AGAIN! YOUR PRETTIER THAN THE MODEL, WHACK! FIXED THAT, DIDN'T WE! BUS SIGN, " THE BARBER OF SEVILLE" WITH LOOK-ALIKE? CONFIRMED GOD INTEL. MY FRIEND, PARRIS, FAR TO CLOSE FOR COMFORT WITH THE COPS, PROSECUTORS, TRIES TO CONVINCE ME, THAT, WE ARE JUST LIKE ANIMALS, DRIVEN BY OUR CARNAL AND BASIC NEEDS AND DESIRES, PREDATORS AND PREY. OUR TRIBES OR DEN, AND I AM SURE SHE IS REFERRING TO THE COPS, PROSECUTORS, MY ENEMIES, ARE HER BUDDIES, SURELY, WILL PROTECT THEMSELVES AND THEIR SYSTEM, NO MATTER WHAT. WRITING ON THE WALL. RIGHT? LEARNING FROM ME? NO, THREE DATES, BEFORE, SLEEPING WITH A GUY, NOT ME--90 DAYS, IF AT ALL--95% NOT AT ALL! ANIMALS DON'T WORRY ABOUT GONORRHEA! SLIPPED ON THAT CALL FROM THE DOC! HOW'S THAT WORKING OUT FOR YOU? THE SCARE AND THE RELIEF? WEEKEND DUDE, BREAKFAST IN BED, SEPARATED FROM HIS WIFE, AFTER THE FUN, CALLS AND MAKES SURE YOU UNDERSTAND, THAT WAS JUST A THING, YOU ARE JUST A FRIEND. GET IT? IT IS CALLED, PRACTICING SMART AND SAFE SEX! EVEN GURU TALK SHOW HOST, WRITER, ACTOR, GAME SHOW HOST, SAYS, A GOOD TIME FRAME WITH ANY GUY, TO SEPARATE THE WINNERS FROM THE LOSERS AND USERS, IS AT LEAST 90 DAYS, OR UNTIL, THEY INTRODUCE YOU TO THEIR PARENTS . . . OPRAH, SAID IF THEY HAVEN'T INTRODUCED YOU TO THEIR PARENTS, WITHIN 9 MONTHS, DROP THEIR ASSES, NOT GONNA HAPPEN AND STOP WAISTING YOUR TIME! SAME OLD, WET PUSSY, ON RED CHAIR AS PROOF OF CONTIUNED TEMPTATION. BUT, I PRIDE MYSELF IN BEING FAR ABOVE AN ANIMAL, DRIVEN BY EITHER NATURE, NURTURE, PASSION, DESIRE, MISSING, AND DO WHAT IS IN MY BEST INTEREST. THAT IS NOT, GOING BACK, TO HIS WIRED IN BATTERY SYSTEM, TWINS, BROTHERS, MY SISTERS, SNOBRO! WHAT THE PHO? ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR! HE'S A COP, WOULD TURN ON ME IN A HEARTBEAT, AND I B3ELIEVE HAS . . . I AM AN ATTORNEY, AT WAR WITH BUSH, PAT RATS, AND WILL FUCK, HIS SORRY ASS IN A NEW YORK SECOND TOO! TAIL TALE SIGNS, BITCHING ABOUT HILLARY, SINCE I DEFENDED HER YESTERDAY, SILENT ON TRUMP SLAMS! CHRISTMAS DAY WAR! HOW I GOT INTO THE HOMELESS NETWORK IN SEATTLE. LIKED THE CITY, RELUCTENTLY, DENIED MYSELF THE PLEASURE OF BOW OF ALMOST 5 YEARS, OFF AND ON! A FOE IS A PHO! CODE. SIGN FROM, WHERE I WAS SITTING: "HARD" WAS ALL I COULD SEE. I AM SURE THAT IS TRUE FOR BOTH OF US. YESTERDAY IS HISTORY. TOMORROW A MYSTERY. BIBLICAL ADVICE--LOT'S WIFE WAS TOLD BY HER HUSBAND, TO NOT LOOK BACK AT THE CITY AND THEIR HOME, THEY WERE FORCED TO LEAVE . . . SHE DID AND TURNED TO A PILLAR OF SALT! VERY POSSIBLE! OR THE MORE DISCRIPTIVE, NEW TESTAMENT, ANALOGY, LOOKING BACK OR TURNING BACK, IS LIKE A DOG RETURNING TO THEIR VOMIT! NO THANKS. LOVE IS FOREVER. LIVING WITH SOMEONE, IS CONDITIONAL. TWO OPPOSABLE THUMBS UP FROM THE ORIGINAL SNACKERS. IF THESE EYES DON'T SAY "GET IN MY TUMMY" NOTHING DOES. OLE' MISS. DITTO. THE ORIGINAL KALE SNOTS WERE NOT FROM PORTLAND. KALE IS WHAT'S UP. COME ON IN. BUS TUNNEL SIGN: "HERE'S YOUR SIGN. DROP YOUR OLD BANK." MOMENTS AWAY TO FLAMBE. RESEARCH & CARE, GO HAND IN HAND. EQUIPMENT SERVICES. ALANTA BASE. SNOBRO. IDENTICAL TWINS. MEET ONE GOING TO WASHINGTON, D.C., TAILWIND, TO WASHINGTON STATE? DOUBLE THE LOVE? DOUBLE THE TROUBLE? OLDER BRO TOO? IS IT STEALING IF IT IS ALREADY STOLEN? FOR ONE PERSON TO BE IMMORTAL, EVEN IF MANY HAVE TO DIE . . . MOVIE "IN TIME." BEFORE I GET INTO THE PRIORITY TRAINING, THAT CAME TO MIND, THIS MORNING AFTER, A DREAM, I HAD OF MY OLDEST SON, CHRIS, FUTURE POTUS TRAINING, I WANTED TO GIVE A FEW FUNNY THOUGHTS, THAT HAPPEND AFTER, THE 29 YEAR OLD, MOST LIKELY, UNDERCOVER D.E.A. COP, WITH COP FRIEND, WHO AFTER HE LEARNED OF MY REAL, NOT PERCIEVED, AGE, SAID, TO COVER . . . ALL I THOUGHT, WHEN, I SAW YOU, WAS SHE'S BEAUTIFUL. FLATTERY WILL ALMOST GET YOU ANYWHERE! LOL. SO, AFTER GONIG TO THE GREENWOOD LIBRAY, AND POSTING MY BLOG, I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE GOING IMMEDIATELY, BACK TO HAMMOND HOUSE, TO HANG WITH THE HOT TRAMPS OF GREENWOOD, SO I STOPPED AT TACO DEL MAR, FUN, TO JUST GET A BITE AND CHILL, ALMOST A REGULAR, FAMILIAR TO EMPLOYEES. SO, WHILE I AM STITING THEIR, HOT FEMALE CHOCOLATE FROM NEW YORK, NOW THAT MAY BE A CONNECTION, BECAUSE, MILES USED TO LIVE IN NEW YORK, THAT IS WHY HE CLAIMS TO HATE HILLARY, WHEN, EVERY ONE ELSE FROM 9/11 ON, LOVES HER FOR GETTING COMPENSATION FOR FIREFIGHTERS, COPS, FIRST RESPONDERS, WHO DIED AS A RESULT OF THE VERY PREVENTABLE, USE OF MASKS, TO PROTECT, THEM FROM THE SOOT AND ASH! BUT, SHE, STOPPED BY, HOW'S IT GOING LEGAL EAGLE? GREAT. WE CHAT ABOUT MEN, WHAT IS NEW! LOL. I TOLD HER ABOUT THE 29 YEAR OLD. SHE IS ABOUT 50, DIGGIN' ON SOME DUDE FROM LAS VEGAS, WHO RECENTLY MOVED TO SEATTLE, WITH HIS SON. SHE SAID, WELL, YOU KNOW, YOUNGER MEN, LIKE OLDER WOMEN, BECAUSE THEY CAN TEACH THEM A THING OR TWO. NOT THIS ONE. SHE'S LIKE, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, JUST FINE TUNE THEM A BIT. THAT IS PREMISED ON THE FACT, THAT YOU KNOW MORE THAN, THEY DO! LOL. SHE'S LOOKING AT ME, LIKE, BLANK, AND DOESN'T GET IT? I WAS RAISED, A PRUDISH MORMON, ANOTHER REASON, MY KIDS, DON'T THINK THIS BLOG IS WRITTEN BY THEIR MOTHER! LOL. I AM ALL TALK AND NO ACTION, BELIEVE ME! THEN, SHE PROCEEDED TO TELL ME ABOUT HER MAN, AND THAT WAS THAT, BUT, I CONTINUED ON THOSE THOUGHTS, FOR ANOTHER, HOUR OR SO, BEFORE GOING HOME. I THOUGHT BACK ON THE STATEMENT IN MY JUST POSTED BLOG, ABOUT, NOT UNDERSTANDING MEN, AND TAKING, UNTIL NOW, TO FIGURE OUT, HOW TO TREAT THEM, MAYBE? THEN, I THOUGHT, BACK AT MY SORT OF EVOLUTION, TO MY EARLY DAYS AND THOUGHTS ON MEN. I REMEMBER WHEN, THE REVOLUTIONARY BOOK, "MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS" FIRST CAME OUT. I THOUGHT, COME ON. MEN ARE JUST LIKE ME WITH A DICK! THERE IS NOT DIFFERENCE. DIDN'T READ THE BOOK, FOR YEARS, AND EVEN AT THAT TIME, I WAS STILL UNDER THE ILLUSION, THAT THEY WERE, RATIONAL, INTELLIGENT, LEVEL HEADED, MEMBERS OF THE HOMOSAPIAN CLASS, NOT MEMBERS OF ANIMAL HOUSE, AND NEVER, COULD, STILL CAN'T CONCIEVE, THAT, SOMEONE OF ANY INTELLIGENCE AT ALL, WOULD REPLACE ME, WITH SOME BUBBLE CHESTED, BLEACH BLONDE, WHEN, IT COMES TO TRAINING THEM ON THE LAW! HOW WRONG I WAS AND AM. BUT, I REMEMBER, GETTING MARRIED WITH THIS IDEA, AND THINKING, OKAY, THIS MAN, IS DEFECTIVE. I BELIEVED THAT HE MARRIED ME FOR MY BRAINS, AND AFTER DIVORCE, HIS BEST FRIEND, ASSURED ME, LIKE HE HAD, BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED, THAT HE MARRIED ME FOR MY LOOKS, PERIOD. I DON'T BELIEVE THAT! NOT ON YOUR LIFE. HUSBAND #2. WHAT THE FUCK, HE IS DEFECTIVE TOO! I WANT TO RETURN HIM TO MAKER! AFTER DEFECTIVE PRODUCTS, #3 AND #4, I JUST DECIDED, THAT, I HADN'T FOUND THE RIGHT, ME WITH A DICK! LOL. I'M YOUNG. GRANDMA DIDN'T MEET HER TRUE LOVE UNTIL SHE WAS 78, SO, I HAVE TIME TO MAKE WAY FOR THE WILDLIFE, UNTIL HE SHOWS UP ON MY DOORSTEP. MY SON, ELLIOT, SAID, AFTER OBSERVING ME FOR YEARS, THAT I WAS JUST NOT MARRIAGEABLE MATERIAL. GRETA MY OLDEST DAUGHTER, REITERATED, THAT NOTION, AND I TENDED TO AGREE WITH THAT, PLUS SHE SAID, THAT I WAS MARRIED TO MY BLOG. VERY TRUE, GOING ON 5 YEARS. BUT ABOUT EVERY FIVE YEARS, I FEEL THIS NEED TO PARTNER WITH SOMEONE TO GET OLD WITH, AND SIT ON THE FRONT PORCH WITH, WATCHING THE SUNSET. THE PROBLEM IS, I AM YOUNGING, NOT GETTING OLDER, AND THE MEN, MY AGE HAVE NO APPEAL TO ME, WITH A FEW EXCEPTIONS, JAMES KENNEDY, MR. HYPER ACTIVE, HIMSELF, AND HIS ALMOST RIVAL, PHIL, MR. STURGIS, WHOM, I WAS NEVER SURE, WHETHER HE WAS FRIEND OR FOE, ASSASSIN OR JUST FOLLOWING ME OUT OF INTEREST, OR WHAT, SO, AS I ALWAYS DO, I ERROR IN THE SIDE OF SAFEY, AND RAN FROM HIM, ONE AN EASY LIKE SUNDAY MORNING, AND RUNNING INTO HIM, AT 5:00 AM, AFTER A SCARE AT THE POVERELLO CENTER, MISSOULA, MONTANA, ONLY TO HAVE, PHIL, WHO I AM NOT SURE WASN'T A FED, IN CHARGE OF EITHER CHARGING ME WITH, GOD KNOWS WHAT, OR KILLING ME, ALLEGEDLY, WORKING AT THE OTHER END OF TOWN, SHOWED UP, AFTER A NIGHT OUT, ENDING UP AT THE OXFORD, BREAKFAST, BLOG, AND BUS, WITH HIM, LURKING IN THE DARK, ME DITCHING OUT! IF ANY GUY, DID WANT TO GET TO KNOW ME, THEY WOULD HAVE A HELL OF A TIME, CATCHING ME. I THOUGHT, NOW, IF TRUMP OR SOMEONE, FROM WASHINGTON, D.C. OR WASHINGTON STATE, WANTED TO GET IN TOUCH WITH ME, THEY COULDN'T BECAUSE, DUE TO MY PAST, I KNOW, ONE MODE OF PROTECTION, AND THAT IS TO RUN, THEN, WRITE ABOUT IT AFTER THE FACT! CASPER THE GHOST, IS JUST STARTING TO FEEL, NORMAL, UP UNTIL, RECENTLY, OR NEW LOVE INTEREST, WAS MEMORIALIZED IN MY BLOG . . . I LOVE LOUD! THAT IS WHEN THE BUTCHERED HAIR HAPPENED, AND NON-STOP COPS, HAVE BEEN TRYING TO STOP ME FROM, EATING RIGHT, OR GETTING IN SHAPE, BUT THAT IS NOTHING NEW, BUT THERE SEEMS, THIS INTENSE, RUN OF PRESSURE AND CONTACT! THAT MAY BE DUE TO STROLLIN' & STRIPPIN' LAYER AFTER LAYER, EXPOSING, ALL THE PLAYERS, IN THIS HUGE ASS FRAUD! I AM STARTING TO GET TRACTION, AND THERE IS ALWAY, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, THIS HOPE, THAT IF I AM WITH AN UNDERCOVER COP, HE IS ONE OF MINE! OR LOYAL TO THE UNITED STATES AND THE CONSTITUTION, NOT THE FUCKING GOD DAMNED PATRIOT ACT, INTENDED FOR FOREIGN TERRORISTS, NOT BAD ASS CON LAW CHICKS, LIKE ME! I AM GETTING OFF TRACK, FROM, WHAT HAPPENS WITH, A YOUNGER, LOVER . . . WHILE, I AM OLDER, AND MORE MATURE, IN SAY THE WAYS OF THE WORLD, OR IN LAW, OR POLITICS, AND THE WAY, GOVERNMENT WORKS, I AM NOT, SOPHISTICATED IN THE AREA OF LOVE! RIGHT AFTER, I LEFT, OLD LOVER BOY(S), LOL, WHO IS 20 YEARS YOUNGER, BUT MUCH MORE WORLDLY AND SEXUALLY, SOPHISTICATED, THE OLD, "LIKE A VIRGIN, SHINY AND NEW" WAS PLAYING, JUST WHLE THE 100% RIBEYE BURGERS, AT JACK IN THE BOX, THAT INSPRIED ME TO THINK OF NEW POSSIBLE, AS RIBEYE STEAK, NORMALLY, A NORMAL SIZED BUS AD, SHOWED UP THIS MORNING AS A FULL BUS WRAP, INTERESTING. BUT, ANY MAN, YEARS YOUNGER THAN, MYSELF, WILL FIND, THAT, WITH SEX, THERE IS A TOTAL ROLE REVERSAL, THAT TAKES PLACE, JUST LIKE IT DID WITH ME THE ATTORNEY, AND MY CLEINT, WHEN IT CAME TO ROMANCE, HE WAS KING, I FELT LIKE A LITTLE GIRL, FOLLOWING HIM AROUND HIS YARD, ONCE I BECAME AWARE THAT I WAS ATTRACTED TO THIS MAN, LOOKING AT HIM AS A MAN, NOT A CLIENT, IN AN ORANGE JUMPSUIT! LOL. THAT HAPPENED WITH, LOVE FRESH, LOVE LOCAL, LOVE FOOD, GUY TOO . . . ALL AMERICAN HUNK, SMILE, I FELT THAT REVERSAL HAPPEN, GOING FROM, ME BEING IN CHARGE, TO HIM, ME 16 TO HIS 19, TYPE FEELING. THAT HAPPENED AGAIN, YESTERDAY . . . I AM LOOKING AT HIM, HE IS TALKING TO THE OTHER CHECKER, AT KEN'S MARKET, AND I AM, BEING THE CERERAL MONSTER THAT I AM, TALKLING MYSELF, OUT OF ALL RELATIONSHIPS, FOR ONE REASON OR ANOTHER, I AM THINKING, NO, HE IS WAY TOO YOUNG! THEN, HE TURNED AND SMILED AT ME, CAUGHT ME LOOKING AT HIM, AND, THAT, OLD, 16, 19 YEAR OLD RATIO, HIT ME, AND I THOUGHT, OKAY, HE'S NOT TOO OLD. HE COULD BE THE AGELESS MAN, LIKE I AM THE AGELESS WOMAN, AND IT IS WORTH A TRY . . . I WAS GOING TO BLOW OF LA FITNESS, USING THE EXCUSE, THAT IT IS SUNDAY, A DAY OF REST! NO, HIT THE GYM, YOU HAVE A DAY OF REST, EVERY NIGHT, AND THE POINT IS, TO GET SOME REST, SOMETIME, AND YOU DO! THE COMMON DENOMINATOR, I FOUND, MARRYING, WHAT I CONSIDERED, FOUR DEFECTS, WERE ACTUALLY, JUST MEN, THIS IS WHAT MEN ARE, THEY ARE NOT, ME WITH A DICK! LOL. OKAY, SO, I AM FORCED, TO GET IN SHAPE, AND NOT COUNT ON THEM, TO BE WITH ME BECAUSE, I AM BRILLIANT, A GREAT BLOGGER, AN AMAZING ATTORNEY, BUT FAT . . . THEY JUST DON'T SEE ME THE SAME AND WHEN , I AM THIN. HOWEVER, THEN, I RUN INTO THAT, GNARLY, TITS & ASS THING, BEING OBJECTIFIED, AND FAT IS A FEMINIST THING. SO, MEN ARE MEN, THEY ARE NOT CHANGING, BUT, AS I LOSE, THEY ARE CHANGING IN REGARD TO ME, SO, I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE FACTS, THEY WANT ME TO LOOK GOOD, AND JUST LIKE MY FIRST HUSBAND, WHO FACILIATED MY INTELLECTUAL GROWTH TREMENDOUSLY, SUPPORTIVE AND NEVER COULD, OR WOULD HAVE DONE ME WITHOUT HIM, HE WAS FIRST ATTRACTED TO ME FOR MY LOOKS. PERIOD. SO, NATURE AND DRIVEN BY NATURE, FOR ONCE, WITHOUT, IT COMING NATURAL, LIKE YOUNGER GOOD LOOKS, I HAVE TO PLAY THE FUCKING GAME AND GET IN SHAPE! LOL. DRIVEN BY NATURE. THE WORLD NOR MEN ARE GOING TO CHANGE. BACK TO THE MY LACK OF EXPERIENCE, AS I WAS THINKING ON WHAT MY HOT TRAMP, NEW YORK FRIEND, ,SAID, KNOWING, THAT MOST, NORMAL MALES, ARE GOING TO BE FAR MORE EXPERIENCE THAN, ME, UNLESS HE IS MORMON! LOL. THEN, WE ARE BOTH IN THE DARK, AND IT IS THE BLIND, LEADING THE BLIND, BUT FUN! I WALKED INTO THE RESTROOMS OF THE TACO JOINT, AND A FUNNY SING, WAS ON THE POSTER, "MISSION STYLE BURRITO" . . . I JUST HAD THE SUNDAY SPECIAL, AND IT WAS A BURRITO, CHIPS AND A DRINK . . . IF THAT IS NOT A SIGN OF MY EARLY DAYS MARRIED! LOL. I STILL HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT, DON'T DARE ASK, WHY, A BLOW JOB IS CALLED A BLOW JOB? BECAUSE, YOU REALLY DON'T HAVE A FUCKING GLUE, WHAT IT IS, DUE TO THE FALSE NAME, IT IS GIVEN? LOL. IF THINGS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE DONE, THE WAY THE NAME IS, THEN, I HAVE BLOWN THE JOB, ONCE FOR EACH MARRIAGE, BUT FOR THE LAST! BOYFRIEND, NONE! LOL. I COMPARED, ORAL SEX, WHICH MY FIRST HUSBAND, TRIED TO TALK ME INTO, MUCH MORE ADVANCED, THAN HIS PRUDISH WIFE, THAT THIS WAS OKAY, BUT, BEING THE BORN DEBATOR, AND ATTORNEY, IN BUD, THIS IS LIKE ME HAVING AN ORGASM ON YOUR NOSE! I WILL, HOWEVER, GET YOU A MONKEY FOR CHRISTMAS, I HAD AN ANTHROPOGY CLASS, AND WE LEARNED THAT ONE MAN, WHO HAD A PET MONKEY, USED TO GET BLOW JOBS FROM, THAT, LICE, INFESTED, BEAST! HAVE AT IT! LOL. AFTER I GOT A DIVORCE, MY FIRST BOYFIREND, WAS SURE, THAT I HAD ALL MY KIDS, BY, IMMACULATE CONCEPTION, BECAUSE, I WAS MORE INNOCENT AND NAIVE, THAN, ALL THE BYU COEDS HE DATED AND THEY WERE PRETTY CLUELESS, SO HOW COULD I BE MARRIED AND NOT, KNOW THIS SHIT? BECAUSE. I AM A LADY AND I DON'T DO THAT. SMILE. PRETTY DAMNED, PURE. I AM SURE, THAT IS HALF THE REASON, THAT, MEN, MY JUNIOR, ALL THE SUDDEN FEEL OLDER THAN ME! BECAUSE, I DON'T KNOW JACK SHIT, WHAT I AM DOING! IT'S ALL UP TO YOU BUDDY, AND THE FRINGE BENEFITS, NEED A RATIONAL BASIS FOR THEM, AND FOR ME TO PERFORM THEM ON YOU! PLEASURE, IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH REASON, SOME DUDES, WANT TO BE BEATEN AND CONTROLLED TOO! LOL. FUNNY STUFF, THINKING ABOUT MY HISTORY! LOL. EASY TO FEEL YOUNG, WHEN, IN SO MANY WAYS, I AM! SHINY AND NEW, LIKE A VIRGIN! ASK GRETA, MY VIRGIN DAUGHTER, ME AND HER FATHER, DISGUSTINGLY ONLY HAD SEX, FOUR TIMES, AND THAT WAS TOO MUCH FOR HER, AT 8, AND NOW, SHE DOESN'T WANT TO KNOW, I HAVE EVER HAD SEX! THE MADONNA/WHORE SYNDROME! THE BOYS ARE PROBABLY LUCKY THEY WERE RAISED BY THEIR FATHER! ALTHOUGHT, THEY, WERE BOTH IN THEIR 20'S, PRETTY INNOCENT THEMSELVES, GOING ON LIKE ONE DATE IN HIGH SCHOOL! LOL. OKAY, SO, I COULD GO ON, BUT, IT IS TIME, TO ADDRESS MY SON'S HUNGER, FOR FOOD, AND I AM TALKING, TRAINING, BECAUSE HE IS LONG GONE, AND DOESN'T NEED ME TO COOK FOR HIM, BEING YOUNG IN THE DREAM, WITH ME WORRIED THAT HE WAS JUST EATING, BROCOLI, EGGS AND CHEESE, WITH ME WORRIED, THAT HE WASN'T GETTING THE NUTRITIAN AND NEEDS THROUGH HIS DIET . . . I THINK THAT IS SYMBOLIC, SO, I THOUGHT, WHAT IS THAT DREAM TELLING ME? I NEED TO FEED HIS PYSHIC NINJA! SO, YOU ALL BENEFIT, WHEN, I TRAIN, THE FUTURE POTUS . . . DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS? FIGURE IT OUT! HE GETS PISSED, WHEN, I MENTION IT, SO, I WON'T! SMILE . . . MEET ME IN THE HOLE, BELOW! I WANT TO SPEND JUST A SECOND ON THE DOUBLE TROUBLE THING, AND WHY IT DOESN'T WORK, EVEN IF THE CIA, USES IT ALL THE TIME AND I HAVE BEEN VICTIMIZED BY IT, BUT THERE ARE OTHER REASONS, TO AVOID ITS USE, UNLESS, IT IS FOR FOREIGN, HONEY TRAP, SHIT, AND I AM A CITIZEN AND NEVER SHOULD HAVE TREATED THE WAY I HAVE BEEN AND AM NOW, NEVER! BANNING ME FROM MY LIFE? WHAT THE FUCK? BANNER BANK? WHAT? HOW CONVENIENT, FOR THE ROBBERS, FOR THE LOSERS, FOR THE DOUBLES TO GET, A QUICK TRIP TO WEALTH AND FAME! FUCK THAT SHIT, TOTALLY, UNAMERICAN, BUT THE CIA, ARE UNAMERICAN AND SO ARE THE FUCKING GOVERNMENT HOOKERS, WHO, UNLIKE MYSELF, ARE TRAINED PROS AT SEX! NOT ME! MY FATHER, DID AN HONOR, FEMALE CIRCUMCISION ON THE WRONG DAUGHTER, JUST BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN BOY CRAZY, ALL MY LIFE, NOW MAN, CRAZY, MAY BE, BECAUSE, I NEVER MESSED AROUND, WAS A VIRGIN, SO NOT ATTACHED TO ANY PARTICULAR MALE, AND PRETTY DAMNED STRAIGHT MY WHOLE LIFE . . . I WOULD NOT CALL HAVING SEX WITH ONE MAN, OVER A 5 YEAR PERIOD WITH, 4 YEARS NOT EVEN SEEING EACH OTHER AS THIS WILD ASS WHORE! BOTH OF US, COMMITTED TO HELPING EACH OTHER IN NEED . . . KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAVING SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU LOVE, AND JUST HAVING SEX! IT MAKES ALL THE DIFFERENCE . . . THIS DOUBLE THING, IN MY OPINION, FUCKED, BOTH OF US, WITH SNOBRO IN D.C., LOYAL TO MY ENEMIES, CIA, FBI BITCHES, USING MY NAME, RESUME, CHEATING TO GET THEIR, WITH FORMER HUSBAND OR LOVERS, AND STEALING MY THUNDER, TO JUSTIFY STEALING MY SONS' MUSIC, MAKING A FORTUNE TO FUND, ALL THEIR BULL SHIT, CIA FUCK SHIT! MATTERS OF THE HEART ARE NOT TO BE MESSED WITH, HAVE YOU HEARD, CRIMES OF PASSION? THEY ARE OFTEN EXCUSED, DUE TO THE TEMPORARY, INSANITY, CHEATING, LYING, AND ALL THAT SHIT, CAUSES, ESPECIALLY, WHEN, THE GOVERNMENT, TOOK, MY LIFE, LIBERTY AND PROPERTY WITHOUT DUE PROCESS OF LAW, NO COMPENSATION, AND WITHOUT EQUAL PROTECTION UNDER THE LAW . . . NICE, FIDELITY TO THE LAW, TO FAITHFULLY EXECUTE THE LAWS, AS PART OF THE EXECUTIVE BRANCH! GOD? WHAT THE FUCK EVER! ALL THIS, I DID MY PART TO BREAK HER HEART, I BELIEVE, IT IS YOUR AGENTS AND ASSETS WHO GOT THEIR HEARTS BROKEN, AND NOW THEY WANT TO KILL ME FOR THEIR STUPIDITY! BORED I AM SURE, THOSE SHINY BOOBLES AND OBJECTS, LOSE THEIR GLOW AFTER A WHILE! ONLY A FEW PILLOWS DON'T GO FLAT!

NOT NECESSARILY, DOUBLE THE LOVE, BUT SURELY, DOUBLE THE TROUBLE!  IN THIS CASE, MAYBE EVEN TRIPLE . . . MEMORY FADES, YEARS BETWEEN?

The Meeting . . . The Girl on the Train

The problem with, the FBI and CIA Dating Game, Mix and Match, Facemaker Game, is, that, there are real people, with real emotions, passions, and if you are using, alleged, identical twins, sometimes even the parents can't tell them apart, so, who is to say, that some woman, who meets, one of them, on a train to Washington, D.C., can tell the difference?  I bet you can't either!  And if, the names or father is like, George Foreman, he named all of his sons, 5 of them, GEORGE!  So, I meet, Miles Thornton III, as I recall, who changed into, Miles Thornton II, because, I noted the changes, not the first time around, but, the second time around, and with this slight difference, they could claim, well, we didn't lie to her, or we used our real name, but like my secret bank accounts, with just one number off, my money is going to another person's account, small and harmless as that may seem!  Typical of a federal agent, working undercover, I  have noted, since, my world is a cloak and dagger world, of spies, and shit, that, they ALWAYS, make the first initial contact, and try to make it look, like, it was just a coincidence, and even the target's idea or choice, which, in my case, I was sound asleep, having been chased, by cops, all night, and trying to buy and car, in Kalispell, Montana, while I still had my driver license, and I.D., and having, agents, drive from one, car place to the other, stopping all purchases, ending up so pissed, that, my friend, a bus driver, chick, drove me to the Whitefish Amtrak Station, so I could go, fight, or lobby against the CISPA or the Cyber Intelligence Sharing and Protection Act, in Washington, D.C., after threatening, Senator Orrin Hatch, (R. UT) and the entire Utah Congressional Delegation, just days before, Edward Snowden, busted the NSA for spying on Americans, that I had been writing about for years!

A friend of mine, took me, straight to the observation car and that is where I stayed, not feeling safe, back in the assigned seats, not wanting anyone, to know, I was going, for obvious reasons!  Miles woke me up, out of a dead sleep, and asked me if I was okay, if I needed anything, something to eat, or whatever?  No, I am fine.  He didn't leave and soon, we were talking and he seemed to know, a ton of stuff on Washington, D.C., and the government, teaching me a few things, so, kindred spirits, as he kept writing, CIA, on a piece of paper, but, when, questioned, he claimed to have graduated from, the Culinary Institute of Arts, or CIA . . . wouldn't the proper term be, Culinary Arts Institute? or CAI?  I figured right off the bat that he was an agent, he later, when, I didn't fall for, allowing him to sit by me, back in my seat, assassin, for the government shit, nor, would I go in the lower deck and have sex, or so it seemed, nor, pretend, on a smoke break, that I was his girlfriend, nor go to Stratford, or Stanford, a safe house, he finally, got frustrated and said, you have no idea, who sent me!  I am suppose to protect you!  Whatever, nice excuse, no!  Can I touch hour butt before I go?  What?  He just did, his, signature, of affection, loves shit ass!  LOL.  Grabbed ass today . . . smile.

The Text Monster . . . Over 300 Texts in Two Months?

I learned, to text, from Miles, never even knew much about it, but he always communicated with me through text, so out of necessity, I learned and we wrote all the time, middle of the night, flash returns, almost instantaneous, even at 4:00 AM!  Does this guy ever sleep?  Miles III, wanted me to come to D.C., to help him with some legal issues.  I was going to go, but, I can't remember why I didn't or maybe it was, because, all the sudden, Miles II?, was back in Washington state, what?  The texts were not as often, the content changed, the responses were not as often, nor as fast, and this new guy, seemed distracted, and the focus, went from personal to legal, so whatever, but I was sure, that I was dealing with a twin, a double, already well aware of using, this honey trap and method to trap, get information, or to lure away, and this seemed to be it!  This Miles was much more combative, hostile, fought with me on every fucking issue, from what was the music, people in Spokane listened the most to, to, racism, feminism, and he turned from a lover to a sparing partner, but hey, I am an attorney, and always game for a fight!  Hot tempers, passion, fights, hang-ups on the phone, far cry from the nice, pleasant, kind, gentleman, I met on the train!  But the hook was, the PROMISE?

OATH KEEPER SPOOF?  BUT YOU PROMISED!  WHAT DID I PROMISE?  RACE BAITING ME . . . I'M GOOD ON ANY PROMISE I MADE AND FOR THE LIFE OF ME, I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT I PROMISED YOU?  SO, I KEPT EVERYTHING FROM SEXTING, THINKING I WOULD NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN, SO I DIDN'T CARE, JUST CREATIVE WRITING TO ME, TO LEGAL HELP!  LOL.  I DON'T SEE ANY OF YOUR BLACK SISTERS HERE HELPING YOU . . . FUCKING AND FIGHTING!  THE REASON, I AM SO, WILLING TO THROW, MILES I, II, AND III, COULD BE TRIPLETS, UNDER THE BUS, IS, THEY WERE THE ONLY ONES I HAD SEX WITH IN THE LAST 12 FUCKING YEARS!  THERE IS A MORAL SENSE OF DUTY, THAT GOES ALONG WITH THAT!  I MET HOWARD, RIGHT AFTER, I MET MILES, THREE DAYS AFTER GETTING BACK FROM D.C., HE WAS A FLING, SIMULTANEOUSLY, WITH MILES, BOTH UNDER THE 90 DAYS, WAIT AND SEE POLICY!  LOL.  IT IS FUNNY, THAT, STEVE HARVEY, USED THAT SAME, TIME FRAME, MINE WAS TO GET IN SHAPE, NEITHER ONE OF THEM WANTED ME TOO! BUT, MINE WAS JUST A "WAIT A MINUTE" UNTIL, WE SEE WHAT IS GOING ON!??????  BOTH HUNG IN THERE!  I WAS SURE, THAT THEY WERE BOTH AGENTS!

MIXING LOVE, HATE, COP, BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK, POLITICS AND A FUCKING FORTUNE, WITH TWO OR MORE MEN, ACTING AS ONE, IS, THAT ONE COULD LOVE YOU, WHILE THE OTHER HATE YOU, OR ALL COULD HATE AND LOVE YOU, OR ALL JUST HATE YOU!  LOL.  WHICH IS WHICH, CAN BE CONFUSING, IF NOT IMPOSSIBLE, HOWEVER, THEY ALL MADE LOVE DIFFERENT, BUT, THAT WAS AN AFTERTHOUGHT, HAVING GONE, SOMETIMES, 6 MONTHS BETWEEN SEEING THEM OR HIM, TO 4 YEARS!  I MUST HAVE CHEMISTRY WITH ALL OF THEM, BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS!  LIKE MY FATHER USED TO SAY, WHEN YOU HAVE ONE BOY, YOU HAVE ONE BRAIN, WHEN YOU HAVE TWO, YOU HAVE HALF A BRAIN, AND WHEN, MORE, NO BRAIN!

I WAS FINE WITH, THEM, ALL BEING AGENTS, OR COPS, BUT, THINGS SEEMED TO CHANGE, IN JANUARY, AFTER WE GOT BACK TOGETHER, AND LIKE TODAY, MILES, WHATEVER, WAS FOR TRUMP AND HATES HILLARY, AND I HATE TRUMP, SAME AS CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN, WE GOT INTO IT, BECAUSE I ASSUMED, BEING SMART AND A THINKER, HE WOULD SEE, THE ELECTIONS MY WAY, NOT THE REPUBLICAN BASE OR COP WAY, INSPITE OF HIS PROFESSION!

I FIND THAT THIS F.B.I. GAME, DATING GAME, C.I.A. MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION, DOUBLES GAME, MAKING MULTIPLE ME'S, IS THAT, WHILE THE SPECS ON A HONEY TRAP, MIX AND MATCH, POLITICS SEEMS TO GO UNDER THE RADAR OR IS NOT FACTORED IN, AND WHEN, YOU HAVE, BUSH, LOYALISTS, PAT RATS, VS. A BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK, WHO HAS A BIG ASS STICK TO BEAT THE HELL OUT OF COPS, NATIONWIDE, TO COUNTER, THE NATIONWIDE BATTERY OF ME, BY COPS, THINGS, DON'T ALWAYS GO SO WELL, AND WHEN, THE COP DOUBLE TROUBLE EVIL TWINS, SHOW UP, THEY SPARK ON THAT, DEEPER LEVEL, OF POLITICS, AND THE LOYALTIES, LIKE PARRIS SAID, A CODE NAME, FOR RACHEL, FRIEND, THAT FRENCH CONNECTION, THE PRIDE, THE PACK, THE TRIBE, WILL PROTECT ITS OWN, AND YOU ARE HUNG OUT TO DRY!  I NOTICED A HUGE ASS SHIFT, ABOUT THE THIRD TIME, ME AND MILES, GOT INTO IT . . . MEN TEND TO GO WHERE THE SEX IS, JUST LIKE, MY CLIENTS, I COULD ALWAYS TELL WHERE AND WHEN, THEIR LOYALTIES AND INTERESTS SHIFTED, EVEN TO BEING AGAINST THEIR OWN INTERESTS, WHEN THEY TOOK BRIBES OR CHANGED, DEALING WITH THE FEDS OR COPS!

IT IS A RARE, AGENT, LOVER, PERSON, HONEY TRAP, THAT, CAN, REMAIN CONSTANT, WHEN, THE VALUES AND LOYALTIES OF THE HEART AND DICK, SHIFT!  NOBODY  IS THAT GOOD!

JUST LAST NIGHT, ON 60 MINUTES, THERE WAS AN AGENT, WHO, WAS MUSLIM, WHO DID UNDERCOVER WORK, TARGETING, A SLEEPER CELL, IN CANADA, WITH DREAMS OF A SECOND, 9/11 . . . THE AGENT, WAS COOL WITH ABOUT ANYTHING, UNTIL, THAT PRESSURE COOKER, HOT POINT, HIT HOME, AND HE SAID, HE ALMOST BLEW HIS COVER, AND TOOK HIS PEN OUT AND STABBED IT RIGHT IN THE FUCKER'S EYE!  THE F.B.I. DIDN'T WANT TO RISK BLOWING HIS COVER, AND CALLED OFF THE FURTHER INVESTIGATION FOR THE AMERICAN MUSLIM WHO HAD ELUDED THEM, FOR SO LONG, BUT, ALL THE SIGNS, THE TRAINING, YEARS OF WORK, ALMOST HIT PAYDIRT, OR BUST, WHEN, THE POLITICAL SIDE OF THE GAME CAME INTO PLAY!  I LEARNED, LONG AGO, WORKING FOR THE UTAH ATTORNEY GENERAL, UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL, THAT, THIS POLITICAL SPLIT, IS REAL, POWERFUL, AND GOES TO THE CORE OF WHO YOU ARE AS A HUMAN BEING!  NEITHER LOVE, NOR MONEY, CAN CHANGE IT!

THAT IS WHY, I WALKED AWAY FROM MILES, TODAY . . . WE ARE FUCKING, WHO WE ARE, NOTHING HAS CHANGED, NOR WILL IT!  HARD.  WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT!

WE ARE JUST PROLONGING THE AGONY, I FELT IN JANUARY!  I HAVE HEARD, ONCE A COP, ALWAYS A COP . . . AND I WOULD SAY, ONCE AN ATTORNEY, ALWAYS AND ATTORNEY, MY OATH IS FOREVER GOOD, PAT RATS, WILL NEVER CONVINCE ME, OTHERWISE, IT IS THE FUCKING, "SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND!"

PERIOD!

KISS MY ASS!

INFIDELITY, FOREVER UNFAITHFUL, CHANGES THE CHEMISTRY . . . DON'T FOOL YOURSELF, THAT YOU CAN CHEAT ON A SPOUSE OR A PARTNER, AND NOT FEEL THE IMPACT, BECAUSE, WHILE THEY CAN'T PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT, THEY KNOW IT, JUST THE SAME!  I MIGHT HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH, THE DOUBLE AGAIN, SNOBRO!

PERHAPS, MILES III, THE ONE I LOVED, AFTER 4 YEARS, GOT MARRIED, HAD A BABY, AND SO, THE OTHER, THEIRS, THE ONE I DIDN'T KNOW, THE COP, TOOK HIS PLACE, SOMETHING CHANGED!

HERE IS WHERE THE RUB, ON THE IDENTITY THEFT COMES IN . . . MILES WAS THE FIRST TO KNOW, I WAS WRITING A BLOG, BACK IN 2013, WHEN, WE WERE HOT ON EACH OTHER, HE WANTED TO HELP ME, DO ADSENSE AND MAKE MONEY, HE SAW, HOW MUCH MONEY, I COULD MAKE, HOW MANY HITS AND RESULTS AND HE WANTED TO HELP ME, SO, HE MAY HAVE TOLD THE TWIN, OR SOMEONE, BUT WITHIN, 9 DAYS AFTER, I STARTED, THE BLOG ACCOUNT WAS, REDIRECTED!

SO, THE BOOK OF MYSTERIES, MORPHED INTO THE SHEET CONSTRUCTION BOOK!

THE SEXUALLY, INEXPERIENCED, BECAME, BETTY BAD ASS BETWEEN THE SHEETS, AND ALONG WITH THAT, THE CHEMISTRY CHANGED!

THE HEART OF A DOG . . . OR LIKE A DOG RETURNING TO ITS VOMIT?

NEVER LOOK BACK!

JUST ONE MORE NOTE ON DOUBLES . . . I BELIEVE, THAT, JAMES KENNEDY, HAS A COP DOUBLE, JUST LIKE RACHEL, IS MY DOUBLE, THERE IS A YOUNGER, PROBABLY C.I.A. AGENT, WHO TOOK JAMES PLACE, WHEN, I WAS SUPPOSE TO MEET, JAMES IN DURANGO, COLORADO, BACK IN 2015 . . . I AM NOT SURE ABOUT, JAMES DOUBLE, BUT, I KNOW, RACHEL, JUMPTED ON THE DOUBLE BANDWAGON, WITH THE ADVENT OF JAMES, AND IF HE GOT WITH HER, AND DUE TO WINTER COATS, OR WHATEVER, HE NEVER SAW MY BODY, NOR WERE WE INTIMATE, SO, EASIER TO MIX AND MATCH, WHEN A DOUBLE IS BROUGHT IN, THE EMOTIONAL BACKGROUND, DOES'T COME WITH IT . . . WE, JAMES AND I HAD A IMMEDIATE, ATTRACTION, SO, LET'S SAY, THAT, I GOT POISONED, WHEN, I WAS SUPPOSE TO MEET HIM, IN DURANGO AND IT TOOK ME TWO WEEKS ON MY DEATH BED TO RECOVER, WENT TO KALISPELL, MONTANA, WHERE FRIENDS MIGHT BE ABLE TO IDENTIFY THE BODY, SINCE, ALL MY I.D. WAS STOLEN . . . BUT, MOST GUYS, WOULD BE HAPPY, TO HAVE THE COAT PEELED OFF, AND RACHEL'S BODY, WORTH $50,000 IN SURGICAL ARTS, SO, HE MIGHT EVEN BE GLAD FOR THE CHANGE; HOWEVER, THE EMOTIONAL BANK ACCOUNT, FROM THE TWO OR SO MONTHS FROM LATE DECEMBER 2014, TO THE LAST TIME I SAW JAMES, AS LATE AS, JULY COMING TO SEATTLE, BUT I THINK THAT WAS THE DOUBLE, I SAW ON THE BUS . . . IDENTICAL TWINS, MIGHT HAVE THE SAME CHEMISTRY, BUT, SISTERS, I WOULD GUESS, PROBABLY WOULD NOT, AND ALL THAT HAPPENED AT THE BUTTE RESCUE MISSION, WHILE PROBABLY CAUGHT ON SURVEILLANCE, LEARNED, BY RACHEL, THERE WOULD NOT BE THE SAME EXPERIENCE OR EMOTIONS!  THAT IS ONE OF THE MAJOR ARGUMENTS AGAINST THE USE OF CLONES, IS, THAT, WHILE THEY MAY BE GENETICALLY, PERFECT, SCIENTISTS CAN'T RECREATE THE SAME EXPERIENCES, EMOTIONS, THAT ARE ATTACHED TO THAT EMOTION, THEREFORE, A SISTER, WHO MAY HAVE WANTED KENNEDY FOR PRESTIGE OR EVEN OUT OF SPITE FOR A SISTER, SHE WANTS TO BE, AND HAS LONG BEEN, IN HER SHADOW, WILL NOT HAVE THE LOVE, CONNECTED WITH THE NEW MAN, THAT CHEATS, BOTH!

I MAY BE A 20 BETWEEN THE SHEETS, BUT ABOUT THAT INEXPERIENCED TOO . . . THESE HEF CREATED, LAB CREATED, PORN QUEENS AND PROS, CAN'T FAKE THE INNOCENCE!

WE ARE EXPERIENTIALLY, THE OPPOSITES!  JUST LIKE MILES AND HIS BROTHER OR IDENTICAL TWIN, COULDN'T FAKE THEIR LOVE MAKING STYLES, ONE A SPORT FUCK, THE OTHER, REALLY, MADE LOVE, THAT CAN'T BE DUPLICATED, AND EVERY PERSON HAS, THEIR INDIVIDUAL EXPERIENCE OR BENT, FOR THAT PERSON!

REAL LOVE, IS HARD TO FAKE!
SEX IS NOT!

REMEMBER THE CLASSIC, FAKE ORGASM, MEG RYAN, IN "WHEN HARRY MET SALLY" AND SHE ACTS OUT THE ORGASM, PROVING THAT CAN BE FAKED!  BUT LOVE, IS MUCH HARDER . . . YOU FEEL IT TOGETHER!

GET REAL.  REAL REAL!