TRYING TO CATCH YOUR LOVE, IS LIKE CATCHING STARS BABY! THE PRINCESS & THE FROG FAIRY TALE SEEMS LIKE THE ORDER OF THE DAY: (1) I WROTE ABOUT A CARTOON, BY KIRK, SHOWING A PRINCESS, HOLDING A FROG ON A ROYAL PILLOW, WITH A CROWN AND A "T" FOR TRUMP, AND A CAPTION THAT SAYS: KISS HIM AS MANY TIMES AS YOU WANT, HE WILL NEVER TURN INTO A PRINCE: LOL; (2) THEN I WROTE THIS WEEK ABOUT PRINCE HARRY WANTING TO COME LIVE IN AMERICA FOR THE SUMMER, HOPING TO HAVE FUN AND MEET A LAID BACK AMERICAN GIRL, WHO HE MIGHT WANT TO MARRY; AND TO CARRY THAT THEME FORWARD, THIS MORNING AFTER "TRAMP CAMPING" IT FOR THE NIGHT, I WENT TO THE POVERELLO CENTER FOR THE HOMELESS TO EAT BREAKFAST AND TAKE A NICE WARM SHOWER . . . OUT OF THE TWO HUNDRED FOR SO, DONATED TOWELS, THE DESK CLERK, HANDED ME A TOWEL, THAT HAD A HAPPY FROG WITH A BIG SMILE, SITTING ON A LILLY PAD . . . HE MAY NOT BE ROYAL, BUT YOU DO HAVE A FROG OUT THERE WHO LIKES YOU! LOL! FROGS HAVE LONG BEEN IN MY PERSONAL FOLKLORE OF BIZARRE LOVE CONNECTIONS . . . BEFORE ME AND MY 2ND HUSBAND WERE MARRIED, AND I WAS ALSO DATING ANOTHER GUY, WHO TOOK ME HIKING, AND WE HEARD TONS OF FROGS WHICH I LOVE, BUT I COULD NEVER SEE ONE THAT TIME IN THE MOUNTAINS, SO I TOLD MY OTHER GUY, THAT I WAS GOING TO MARRY THE GUY WHO COULD FIND ME A FROG! LOL! I AM A BIT BIZARRE TOO! TO SAY THE LEAST, BUT FROGS HAVE FUN CONNECTIONS FOR ME, HAVING GONE TO GIRL'S CAMP IN THE UINTAH MOUNTAINS, EVERY YEAR FOR 6 YEARS, HIKING LUSH GREEN MEADOWS, RIVERS, OVER LOGS, AND COMING ONTO HIGH COUNTRY PONDS WITH TONS OF FROGS! ALL THE WAY UP TO CAMP, I WOULD LOOK AT THE BEAUTIFUL MOUNTAIN SCENERY, AND DREAM OF HAVING A PICNIC BY ONE OF THE MEANDERING STREAMS, LAYING ON A BLANKET, MID-EVIL DRESS, FEEDING EACH OTHER GRAPES, LAUGHING, TALKING AND KISSING IN THE WARMTH OF THE LANDSCAPE AND SUNSHINE, WHILE THE REST OF THE GIRLS ON THE BUS WERE SINGING 100 BOTTLES OF BEER ON THE WALL! BLAH! BUT, I FOUND IT INTERESTING TIMING ON THE CUTE, SILK FROG ON MY TOWEL THIS MORNING, BECAUSE I HAD WRITTEN ABOUT "LEAGUES OF ANGELS, THAT I NEEDED A HERO" NOT REALLY THINKING OF A PRINCE, BUT, JUST SOMEONE WHO COULD NOT NECESSARILY RESCUE ME, AS MUCH AS, FUCKING BELIEVE ME AND ALL THE SHIT THAT I GO THROUGH, TO JUST LISTEN AND SAY, I GET IT, OR I CAN SEE . . . THE LAST GUY WHO DID THAT, ENDED UP DEAD, BUT HE WAS AN AMERICAN PRINCE, COWBOY, MARINE, BIKER, WHO GAVE HIS LIFE, TO GET ME TO THE UNITED STATES SUPREME COURT! I REMEMBER MEETING HIM, TELLING HIM ABOUT BEING POISONED WITH POISONOUS AFRICAN TREE FROG GUM . . . REMEMBER THE POISONOUS DARTS, THAT PYGAMMYS IN AFRICA USED TO SHOOT INTO THE NECKS OF MEN AND WOMEN, IN THE AMAZON, OUT ON JUNGLE EXPEDITIONS IN THE OLD TARZAN SHOWS . . . YEAH THAT SHIT . . . BUT MY CLIENT HAD BEEN I CORP MARINE OR INTELLIGENCE IN VIETNAM, AND HE SAID THE SECOND I TOLD HIM ABOUT THE FROG GUM HE BELIEVED EVERYTHING I TOLD HIM, BECAUSE THE MARINES AND INTELLIGENCE HAD USED THE GUM ON THE VIET KONG DURING THE WAR, AND THEY PUT IT ON THE STEERING WHEELS OF THEIR JEEPS, LIKE SOMEONE PUT ON THE STEERING WHEEL OF MY CAR! JUST THAT, AND FEELING UNDERSTOOD, IN THIS CLOAK AND DAGGER WORLD I LIVE IN, THAT IS SO RARE AND FOREIGN TO MOST PEOPLE WHO JUST CAN'T RELATE TO THIS SHIT, THAT HE DEFINITELY BECAME NOT ONLY MY HERO BUT MY ANGEL AND MY PRINCE! HE WAS ONE OF KIND, WHO BLED RED, WHITE AND BLUE, WAS TRUE TO HIS OATHS, AND DIED IN ACTION, DEFENDING THE WOMAN HE LOVED . . . WHEN JAMES ANGEL KENNEDY, WALKED THROUGH THE DOORS OF THE BUTTE RESCUE MISSION, HE REMINDED ME, OF THIS HERO, THIS MAN WHO ACTUALLY ENDED UP GETTING HIS WISH AS A MARINE, TO NOT BE TRAINED AS A KILLING MACHINE, BUT STUCK IN AN OFFICE AS INTELLIGENCE, WHEN HE WAS SENDING ENCRYPTED MESSAGES INTO THE BATTLEFIELD, KNOWING THAT THESE ORDERS WERE THE DEATH SENTENCE TO SOME OF HIS FELLOW MARINES AND OTHER SOLDIERS. THIS SAME MARINE, TURNED BIKER, WANTED TO GET SOME OF HIS FRIENDS, WHO ALSO SERVED IN THE MILITARY TO DO RECON ON MY HOUSE, IN ST. GEORGE, WHEN THEY WERE TRYING TO TAKE MY HOUSE! I WASN'T SURE WHAT THAT WAS BACK THEN, BUT I KNOW NOW! I CAN JUST SEE HIM, SNEAKING AROUND, IN CAMAFLAUGE, FACE PAINTED GREEN AND BLACK, SCOUTING OUT THE SITUATION FOR ME! LOL! SO, EVEN BEFORE, KENNEDY TOLD ME HIS NAME, A NAME CONNECTED WITH AMERICAN PRINCES, CAMELOT, AND THE KENNEDY CLAN, HE HAD STATUS WITH ME, JUST IN AND OF THE FACT, HE REMINDED ME OF THE COWBOY, MARINE AND BIKER, THAT I MOURNED HIS MURDER FOR 7 MONTHS, ALMOST BLOWING MY SUPREME COURT CASE! GENERALLY IN THE MORNING, I BOOK IT OUT OF THE POV OR MY TRAMP CAMP, A TERM I GOT FROM KENNEDY, GO SOMEWHERE TO WRITE MY BLOG, BUT, LIKE LAST SUNDAY, I STOPPED AT THE BUS SHELTER, ACROSS THE STREET, AND BASKED IN THE SUNSHINE, RELAXED FROM A CLEANSING SHOWER, JUST KICKING BACK, WATCHING THE BRILLIANT SUN STARTING TO WARM UP THE EARLY MORNING COLD, UNTIL THE I DRIFTED INTO A RESTFUL SLEEP APPROPRIATE FOR THIS DAY OF REST, SUNDAY. AFTER SO GUY CAME AN INTERRUPTED MY PERFECT SUNDAY MORNING, SAT BY IN THE BUS SHELTER, I DECIDED TO CONTINUE MY JOURNEY TO MCDONALD'S, NEEDING A DIET COKE, LIKE A HORSE NEEDS WATER! I HEADED TO THE WATERING HOLE, BUT FOR SOME REASON, I HIT UP THE CLOSEST WATERING HOLE, THE ZIP TRIP, FOR DIET COKE, TWINKIES AND KETTLE HONEY DEJON CHIPS . . . THEN WENT TO THE DANCE STUDIO, BEHIND THE GAS STATION, TO SIT AND AGAIN, ENJOY SOME PEACE AND QUIET . . . UNTIL SOME ASSHOLE, BROKE THE SILENCE OF THE MORNING, AND IN 200 PARKING PLACES AROUND THE STATION, CREEPED OVER TOWARD ME, AND POINTED HIS HEADLIGHTS FROM HIS TRUCK, RIGHT AT ME! SCREAMMMMM! WHAT THE FUCK . . . IF I WANTED COMPANY, I WOULD BE CLOSER TO THE BUILDING! I RAISED MY ARMS IN THE AIR, LIKE WHAT IS UP WITH THIS INTRUSION? HE WAS EITHER CLUELESS OR A HIT MAN! LOL! DUMB ASS! EVENTUALLY, MY FRIEND, PATRICIA CAME AND I WAVED HER DOWN, AS SOMEONE, I ACTUALLY ENJOY TALKING TO, ONE OF THE FEW! LOL, ELITIST SNOB THAT I AM! BUT, I TOLD HER ABOUT THE FUNNY FROG ON MY TOWEL, WANTING LEAGUES OF ANGELS, MY FUCKED UP CELL PHONE, SHE ALSO TRIED TO FIX, BUT REMAINING, IN "UNREGISTERED SIM" CARD STATUS . . . BUT, SHE HAS A NEW GUY SHE LIKES, POV LOVE! LOL! THAT STARTED THE 4 HOUR MARATHON OF GIRLS TALKING ABOUT BOYS! ENDING WITH KENNEDY AND STRANGE SHIT, THAT HAPPENED WITH HIM, EVEN CONNECTING HIM TO THE FROG ON MY TOWEL! LOL! THERE IS PSYCHIC CONNECTION, THAT HAS CREATED SOME UNEXPLAINED THINGS, FROM BOAT SHOES, OR BOOTS SHOWING UP TWICE, IN VERY OBVIOUS PLACES THAT I WOULD WALK, THEN GOOGLE, HAD MEN'S SHOES ON THEIR DAILY ART SEARCH ENGINE DESIGNS, RIGHT AFTER I TOLD MY FRIEND ABOUT THE DURANGO BOOTS, AND THE MARTHA'S VINEYARD, OR HYANISPORT BOAT SHOES THAT NOBODY IN MONTANA WEARS FOR SURE! THREE RINGS, STRANGE LOVE BOOKS, KNOCKS UNDER THE BED, NEW VIDEOS ON "BAD TIME TO FALL IN LOVE" --GRAND FUNK RAILROAD. OH, I FORGOT TO TELL YOU OF SOME OF THE FUN, CRAZY, INTERESTING, SEEMINGLY PSYCHIC PHENOMENA, CONNECT TO ME AND THE GUYS, I HAVE LIKED OVER THE YEARS. BACK TO THE MOUNTAIN FROGS AND SAYING I WOULD MARRY THE MAN WHO CAUGHT ME A FROG . . . THE HERCULEAN CHALLENGE? LOL! TEST OF THEIR LOVE FOR ME? LOL! CERTAINLY NOT THE MATERIAL GIRL! LOL! I AM THE MOUNTAIN GIRL, LOVE MY MOUNTAIN MEN! LOL! BUT, ONE DAY AFTER CHURCH, MY BOYFRIEND AT THE TIME WAS OUT IN THE GARDEN WHILE I WAS IN THE HOUSE, EITHER ON THE PHONE OR CHANGING MY CLOTHES TO JOIN HIM IN THE GARDEN WE HAD PLANTED TOGETHER . . . ALL OF THE SUDDEN HE CAME UP, AND TOLD ME TO SHUT MY EYES, AND OPEN MY HAND. I DID, AND HE PLACED THIS SLIMMY, COLD, CLAMMY THING IN MY HAND, AND I SCREAMED AND THREW IT ACROSS THE ROOM, AND THE OBJECT, I COULD NOT HAVE GUESSED, HIT THE WINDOW! SPLAT! SCREAM! WHAT WAS THAT . . . A LITTLE FROG, FLORESCENT GREEN WITH A PINK BELLY! OH, WHERE DID YOU FIND IT? THAT IS NOT INDIGENOUS TO UTAH? HE DIDN'T KNOW WHERE IT CAME FROM, BUT IT WAS THERE, AND GIVEN MY REQUEST FOR THE ACT OF VALOR FROM MY FUTURE PRINCE, WE WERE BOTH, KIND OF SHOCKED! TO SAY THE LEAST . . . I FIGURED HE SET ME UP ON THAT ONE, SO I DIDN'T MARRY HIM, AT LEAST FOR AWHILE! LOL! GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS. BUT IT WAS A FUN WEEK, FILLED WITH FROGS, PRINCES, FROLIC AND FUN . . . TALES OF LOVERS PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE! HANDSOME DEVILS! THE OTHER DAY, WHILE I WAS LOOKING FOR NEW WEB SITES, TO TRY TO FOOL THE NSA, SO THEY DON'T STEAL MY BLOG, USING SITES THAT ARE STRANGE OR DIFFERENT, I JUST HAPPENED TO SEE, "BRIDES" MAGAZINE, AND SO I TOOK A LUCKY SHOT AT "BRIDE.COM" TO SEE IF IT WAS A SITE, AND IT WAS HUGE ASS HITS, SO I TYPED IN "BRIDESMAIDS.COM" AND IT ALSO HAD HUGE ASS NUMBERS, IN THE MILLIONS IN JUST SECONDS . . . I KIND OF FREAKED OUT, HOPING THAT YOUNG BRIDES OR FUTURE BRIDES WERE NOT GETTING THEIR PREMARITAL ADVICE FROM ME! THE CHICK WHO BELIEVES IN MAGIC, LOVE, ROMANCE, FROG AND PRINCES! LOL! PLUS I DON'T HAVE THE BEST TRACK RECORD WITH 4 HUSBANDS! LOL! THEY SAY THOSE THAT CAN'T DO, TEACH! THAT WOULD BE TRUE IN MY CASE, BUT I HAVE LEARNED MORE FROM MY MISTAKES THAN MY SUCCESSES, IF THERE ARE SUCCESSES? LOL! I DO BELIEVE IN LOVE, STILL DO, AND MAYBE, MY FANTASIES OF PRINCES, FROGS, MOUNTAINS STREAMS, PICNICS, LAUGHING AND FEEDING EACH OTHER GRAPES AND BASKING IN THE DELIGHTS OF MOUNTAIN GRANDEUR AND LOVE, REACHING HEIGHTS, BREADTHS, EMOTIONS, THAT ARE SO PURE, SO TRUE, SO AMAZING, THAT, NOTHING COMPARES AND THE MEMORIES LAST FOREVER, MAYBE MORE REAL THAT REALITY, WITH NEW LOVERS . . . ONCE I HAD THIS DREAM, ACTUALLY TWO DREAMS, THAT HAD A HANDSOME, BRAVE, GORGEOUS, HALF BREED, MUSCULAR, ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, GALLANT AND MANLY . . . BEFORE THIS HUNK DIED, HE HIT ON ME, WE KIND OF DANCED AROUND EACH OTHER, BECAUSE, I WAS TRYING TO BE FAITHFUL TO THIS ATTORNEY IN LAS VEGAS, A HEART THROB, WHO DANCED WAY WITH MY HEART, WHILE I WAS MARRIED, OF ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS, SOMETHING I WOULD NOT WISH ON ANYONE . . . WE CAN'T CHOOSE WHO OUR HEARTS LONG FOR, BUT WE CAN CONTROL WHAT WE DO WITH THOSE EMOTIONS, AND AT THE TIME, MARRIED WITH FOUR CHILDREN, I FOUGHT THE FEELINGS FOR 5 FUCKING YEARS, NEVER ACTED ON THE EMOTIONS, UNTIL I FELT LIKE A FRAUD, CAUSING ME INTERNAL STRIFE AND CONCERN, MAKING LOVE TO ONE GUY, THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN, AND BEING IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER MAN! I WOULD NOT WISH THAT ON MY WORST ENEMY, BUT, THE MORE I RESISTED THE EMOTIONS, THE WORST THEY GOT! I NEVER FELL, BUT THE RESULTS WERE THE SAME, WHETHER, I DID ANYTHING WITH HIM OR NOT, SIDE BAR, BUT, THAT IS THE REASON, I DIDN'T DATE THIS GOOD LOOKING AMAZING GUY, WHO ENDED UP, DYING INT A MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT, ALMOST DESTROYING ME . . . BUT AFTER HE WAS DEAD, I HAD TWO DREAMS THAT, HAVE BEEN GUIDING LIGHTS, FOR SOME REASON, BUT AS I AGE, PERHAPS, I OUGHT TO ABANDON, BUT IN THE FIRST DREAM: (1) I WAS SITTING WITH AL IN THE HOSPITAL, AND HIS HEAD WAS BANDAGED BUT HE WAS FINE--THIS DREAM HAPPENED AFTER, HE WAS DEAD . . . BUT, I DECIDED AGAINST GOING TO HIS FUNERAL, AS APPROACHED THE FUNERAL HOME, WITH THE SCRIPTURE OF WHAT CHRIST SAID, "LET THE DEAD BURY THE DEAD" ON MY MIND, AND UNFAMILIAR WITH DEATH, I LEFT . . . BIG MISTAKE, BECAUSE, YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH DEATH, NOT AVOID IT OR DENY IT, LIKE I DID. BUT IN THE FIRST PLACE, I WAS SITTING BETWEEN TWO OF AL'S BEST FRIENDS, WHEN THE BISHOP ANNOUNCED OR TO ME IT WAS AN ANNOUNCEMENT, HE TOLD OF AL'S DEATH AND THANKED EVERYONE WHO HELPED WITH HIS ACCIDENT AND DEALING WITH FAMILY MEMBERS, BEING A STUDENT WARD AT BYU. I REMEMBER, THE SHOCK, DENIAL, AND ABSOLUTE, DISBELIEF, THAT THE GUY, SO PROTECTIVE, SO HANDSOME, SO COOL, WAS ACTUALLY DEAD? JUST A FEW WEEKS BEFORE THAT, WE HAD PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE, AND AS WE WALKED INTO A CONVENIENT STORE, TWO GUYS WERE CHECKING ME OUT, AND TO MY SURPRISE, AL PICKED BOTH OF THEM, UP BY THE NECKS, AND THREATENED THEM IF THEY EVER LOOKED AT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN, HE WOULD KILL THEM, OR SOMETHING TO THAT EFFECT. WE HAD JUST DANCED TOGETHER, SHORTLY AFTER THAT AT A CLUB HE WAS A BOUNCER AT, AND WE FLIRTED A BIT, BUT NOTHING MORE, OTHER THAN HE IMPRESSED ME, WHEN HE SAT BY ME IN CHURCH, AND INFERRED THAT HE WANTED TO TAKE ME OUT, AND IT TOLD HIM, I WAS DIVORCED AND HAD 4 KIDS . . . THIS "REAL" MAN, SAID, I DON'T CARE IF YOU HAVE 10 KIDS, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. SO THAT IS THE SETTING FOR THE TWO DREAMS. DREAMSCAPE: (1) SO WE ARE IN THIS HOSPITAL HOLDING HANDS, AND I SAID, AL ARE YOU OKAY? I HAD BEEN ASKING EVERYONE, DID YOU KNOW AL IS DEAD? WHAT WOULD IT BE LIKE TO WORK WITH HIM AND THEN HE WAS GONE? OR I SAW AL'S TRUCK OR ONE LIKE IT, SO STRANGE TO HAVE HIM DEAD. THEN, MY EX-HUSBAND AND FRIEND, SAID, JO . . . DO YOU KNOW AL IS DEAD? THE DREAM WOULD INDICATE THAT I, IN FACT, KNEW, BUT WAS NOT DEALING WITH HIS DEATH WELL. AND IN THE DREAM, AL MORE CONCERNED FOR ME, SAID, "ARE YOU OKAY?" ALMOST SAYING, I KNOW I AM DEAD, IT IS YOU WHO IS NOT DOING WELL WITH MY DEATH, AND ARE YOU OKAY? THAT SECOND, I STARTED TO CRY UNCONTROLLABLY, GOT ON MY BIKE, AND JUST ROAD AND ROAD, CRYING HYSTERICALLY, NOT EVEN PLAYING ATTENTION WHERE I WAS GOING, UNTIL I CAME TO A PARK, WHERE I TOOK SOME PAPER OUT OF MY POCKET AND PENNED A LETTER TO HIS BEST FRIENDS THAT I WAS SITTING BETWEEN WHEN I FIRST HEARD OF THE DEATH . . . I WROTE THAT THEY WERE THE CLOSEST THING I COULD GET TO AL, AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY SORROW, SO, I JUST WROTE THIS LETTER, AND SOMEHOW, WITH THEM READING IT, I WAS CRAZY ENOUGH TO BELIEVE THAT THROUGH "QUANTUM PHYSICS" OR SOME CHANNELING, AL COULD GET MY REGRET FOR NOT GOING TO HIS FUNERAL, OR TELLING HIS FRIENDS, WOULD DO SOMETHING, STILL BAWLING MY EYES OUT, WHEN I DELIVERED THE LETTER! I AM SURE THEY THOUGHT, I WAS INSANE, AND MAYBE I WAS, BUT I BELIEVE IN THE AFTERLIFE, AND THAT WE CAN HAVE COMMUNICATIONS WITH THE DEAD, AS IN THE CASES OF GHOSTS, SPIRITS, AND JUST FEELINGS. (2) IN THE SECOND DREAM, AL AND I WERE UP IN THE MOUNTAINS, ON A SUNNY, BEAUTIFUL MORNING, I THINK, THE SCENE WAS VIVIAN PARK, OUTSIDE OF PROVO, UTAH, WITH A CRAGGY MOUNTAIN, ISLAND OR PART OF THE LAND THAT JUTS OUT INTO A BEAUTIFUL LAKE, AND THE ROCK DOES SO IN A DRAMATIC NATURE . . . BUT WE ARE BOTH STANDING ON THIS BRIDGE, OVER THE WATER. I DECIDED, THAT SINCE AL WAS DEAD, ALTHOUGH HE WAS STANDING MY ME, AS HANDSOME IN DEATH AS IN LIFE, I FIGURED THAT, I COULD ASK HIM SOME QUESTIONS, SO, SINCE HE HAD BEEN TO HEAVEN, HE WOULD KNOW . . . SO, DOES "TRUE LOVE" EXIST? AND RIGHT AS I SAID THAT, THIS MAGNIFICENT UNICORN, SHINY AND GLISTENING, RISES MAJESTICALLY, OUT OF THE WATER, GOING IN A HALF CIRCLE, AND AS IT RISES AND FALLS BACK INTO THE WATER, GRACEFULLY, A MALE UNICORN, RISES, GOING AROUND IN A CIRCLE . . . AND AL, ANSWERED ME, SAYING, YES, REFERRING TO "TRUE LOVE," DOES EXIST, AND IT IS WORTH WAITING FOR. THEN THE DREAM WAS OVER. I STILL BELIEVE THAT . . . EACH RELATIONSHIPS, TAKES ME ONE STEP CLOSER, TO THOSE FEELINGS, AND I AM 61, BUT FEEL 35 YEARS OLD, I CAN SAY, THAT I HAVE COME CLOSE, BUT, I AM NOT SURE, THAT, I AM THERE YET. PERHAPS, IT IS MORE A PROCESS, WITHIN MYSELF, THAT, IS ALL ABOUT ME, PERSONAL GROWTH, AND WHEN I AM READY, IT WILL HAPPEN? RELATIONSHIPS ARE MORE ABOUT US, MIRRORS, PROJECTIONS, LEARNING, PERSONAL PERFECTION AND GROWTH . . . MARRIAGE IS THE SAFEST WAY TO TEST, EXPERIMENT AND GROW . . . I BELIEVE YOU CAN OUTGROW A PARTNER, OR THEY CAN BE TOO HEALTHY FOR YOU! LOL! YOU CAN ONLY LOVE SOMEONE AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF. MAYBE IT IS A PROCESS OF LEARNING TO LOVE OURSELVES? SO WHAT WORKED WHEN WE WERE 20 DOESN'T WORK IN OUR 50'S, OR MAYBE YOU GET LUCKY, AND FIND A MATE THAT IS FULLY ACTUALIZED, LOVES THEMSELVES, THEREFORE, THEY CAN LOVE YOU AND VISA VERSA? I AM STILL JUST FIGURING IT OUT! I KNOW THE SCRIPTURES, STATE, IN EPHESIANS, THAT A MAN WHO HATES HIS WIFE, HATES HIMSELF. THAT COINCIDES WITH MY THEORY, BUT, I BELIEVE, THAT YOU CAN ALSO, THROUGH LOVE, REACH A POINT WHEN NO MORE GROWTH IS GOING TO TAKE PLACE, AND WHILE YOU LOVE THIS PERSON, YOU, YOURSELF, STARTS TO DIE IN THE RELATIONSHIP, AND FOR WHATEVER YOU WERE BROUGHT TOGETHER, HAS BEEN FULFILLED, AND FOR FURTHER GROWTH, YOU NEED TO MOVE ON, TO A NEW CHALLENGED OR NEW PART OF DEVELOPMENT. THIS IS NOT TO BE AN EXCUSE, BUT A REVELATION, KNOWING THAT, CHILDREN, CAN FEEL, CHANGED IN THEIR PARENTS RELATIONSHIPS, AND MAY, AS MY SON, ELLIOT DID AT AGE 5, ASK ME AND HIS DAD, IF WE WERE GETTING A DIVORCE . . . NO, HONEY, WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT? NOT 10 MINUTES LATER, WE GOT INTO A DISCUSSION THAT LED TO OUR DIVORCE! AFTER TELLING OUR KIDS WE WERE GETTING A DIVORCE, CHRIS, ONLY ABOUT 8 AT THE TIME, BEING RAISED IN A VERY MODEST FAMILY, CAME OUT OF THE BATHROOM AND A BATH, AND RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS SISTERS AND THE REST OF THE FAMILY, ALMOST IN AN ACT OF FREEDOM AND JOY . . . THREW OFF HIS TOWEL AND HE WAS BUTT ASS NAKED AND LAUGHING! LOL! ALTHOUGH, A DIVORCE IS TRAGIC, IT MAY ALSO BE FREEDOM AND THE HEALTHY THING TO DO? THE SONG . . . MAYBE SOMEDAY, BABY, WE'LL FIGURE ALL THIS OUT, SOMETIME WE MAY BE BETTER OF, MAYBE SOMEDAY WE'LL PUT AN END TO ALL OUR DOUBT . . . SOMEDAY WE'LL LIVE OUR LIVES OUT LOUD, AND BE BETTER OFF SOMEHOW? SOMEDAY WE CAN START ALL OVER AND LEARN HOW GOOD THINGS CAN GET? NICE SONG, NICE TIMING. I HAD A THIRD DREAM JUST THE OTHER DAY . . .

Dream, Two Nights Ago?

I tend to be very loyal, even to men, I just like, never kissed, never even touched, creating something out of nothing, but, with hope and enough to make me think of possibilities.  So, I like two, men, who have occupied my heart and mind, off and on, for, one three years and the other, Kennedy, for a year and a half . . . so this dream, was totally out of the dark and left me wondering, what the fuck was going on?  Was there a message, something I needed to learn, some growth, a time filler?  Anyway, last fall, this tall, dark, handsome, stranger from California, tripped through the Poverello, probably the only place, someone could, get my attention, but, even there, I discount, any attraction, generally, wondering if they are an undercover cop, or a fed, or an assassin, or bounty hunter, making me, take a strange and stand-offish, position, toward them, and even if they were just a normal guy, that suspicion is always, in the back of my mind.  So, this guy, who, is actually, very attractive, cute, fun to talk to, and just an over all cool guy, started to come to McDonald's, getting on his computer, at the same time, I did, in the mornings.  Eventually, we struck up a conversation, seeing each other around the Pov. or town.  He, was a stand-out, different, dressed better, not your average run of the mill, homeless guy, and after meeting him, talking to him, hitting it off, conversation wise and just, like friends . . . one day, he said, after working and banking his paycheck . . . I just feel like getting a hotel room with some chick, and fucking her brains out.

I started looking around for some girl, who, he might do this with, crossing myself, automatically, off his list of suspects . . . and, I looked in the kitchen and there was, this staff chick, I thought, might be more age appropriate for him, seeing, he is not, over late 20's or early 30's, and I would be shocked at that, if he were, knowing that guys often think I am, much longer than I actually am, and seeing someone like him, is like sleeping with my sons, even though attracted to him, those thoughts, vanish, and I would kill some woman, my age, for hitting on my two handsome, but young sons, so, I don't do anything, I wouldn't want someone to do to me, and so, I just kind of blow off  his conversation.  After that, we talked, always, say hi, sometimes, check on each other's status, or work, or just make small talk, but not much, after that initial day. Although, he told me of some, to me, sick, sex craze, that I was just disgusted at . . . different generations, and I kind of trashed, his connection with or knowledge of whatever it was, I must have washed that shit right out of my mind!  LOL!  I am pretty prudish!  My kids even laugh about, funny episodes from their youth, when, this or that happened, and they were more adult than their mother!  LOL!  The gap may have furthered, more by now.  This guy, generally has a job, and he is up early and so am I, we sometimes talk, but really nothing, for a very long time . . . making the dream even more troubling and puzzling for me?

Where the Hell Did this Dream Come From?

As I have said, dreams are warnings, instructional, informational, insightful, and give us insights to our psyche's, and I have always paid attention to them, as I have written and will often, when I have one that sticks, write about it, generally with some, idea of what, the dream, might represent, what even God, might be telling me through this dream.  Now, I will admit, that a week or so ago, and I have been gone from the Pov, so my contact is limited, but I think his is too . . . plus he was saving money, so he could do this or that, and maybe go back to California, but the last time I saw him, he walked by, and he has always struck me, as handsome, interesting and cool, just doing his thing, figuring life out, and saving money, which is great.  But, as he walked passed, I thought, too bad he is so young, because he is hot and a stud, and seems to have his shit together for a younger guy, which always, leads me back, to, is he undercover?  He is the perfect type. But, that happened, probably, weeks ago, so?  The dream was simple, no big deal, other than, the context and him, just being in the dream?  I puzzled over this for an entire day?  I wrestle with dreams, especially, stuff like this, when, it is so out of the blue, that, I can't figure out what the hell, or where the hell this would come from?  Song, when love puts you through the fire, when it puts you through the test, nothing, does it like time, love and tenderness.

The dream, was low keyed, simple, real time, and so ordinary, but so, weird.  In the dream, I don't even know his name, nor do I ever think I asked him what it was . . . again, strange.  But, we are in the dining area of the Poverello, and he often, worked behind the counter, helping in the kitchen, which is cool, because, you work long hours, and most people, don't want to work there, and he seemed to be always, volunteering, even on top of his normal chore, and unlike me and others, who want to avoid the work, case in point, I love sleeping out, because, I don't have to check in, come in early, all about freedom for me, and I like to sleep in overflow, so I don't have to get a bed, which, means you have to have a chore!  LOL!  I have always done my jobs or chores, but given a choice, I would prefer to ditch out!  LOL!  So, here is this guy, gorgeous, sometimes works, all day, leaving at the early morning hours, and he is always, doing extra stuff?  What the hell for?  LOL!  But, I used to joke with him, tease him about serving or doing the dishes, or taking out the garbage . . . I have convinced myself, that he deserves better than me!  LOL!  So, in the dream, it was simple, I remember, seeing him, walk by me, and the thought, came to my mind, Why not?  Slow response to him, wanting, to go to the hotel and fuck, someone's brains out!  LOL!  I'm not getting younger, and going with some guy, I know, will never develop into anything, has proven to be, the best thing in the world for my self esteem, sexually, because, there are no, emotional expectations, and I know, nothing will happen, and there is not risk, just, a base attraction, maybe sex, maybe not, and at this point, I am a great deal for some young stud, in a holding pattern, like I am . . . committed to nothing and nobody, so WHY NOT?

IN TRUE JUNIOR HIGH FASHION, MY EMOTIONAL LEVEL . . .

God, does have a sense of humor, I just typed "IN" and, it didn't end up where I wanted it to be, but, the cursor, jumped up to the words, out "IN" of the blue!  LOL!  This dude, reads my blog, sometimes, and it is as if, he is saying, I am IN!  LOL!  I have a lot of younger guys, hit on me, and I shut them down, ASAP, and maybe, God is saying, look, there is difference between just having sex, and having sex with love, even if it is not going to go anywhere, in the long run.  I found this to be true with my two black, lovers, the most healthy sex, I have had, and I would say, I would put this in the same category.  I figured, that nothing would come of the relationships, and I was just curious, interested, relaxed, and encouraged them to get married and have kids, but enjoyed their sex and their company, in the mean time!  That may be racist, but, hey, I am from Utah, had never really been around, blacks much, met both of them, within three days, and loved the hell out of both of them!  LOL!  I was completely honest with them, just like I would with this guy, seeing, nothing in the future, but, I could see, living with him, getting an apartment, getting to know each other, aside from sex, and having someone, I like, think is good looking, and if sex, happens, who is complaining!  LOL!  Sure as hell not me!  With both of the black dudes, neither had been married, nor had kids, and I was 19 years older than the one I fucked the most!  LOL.  Howard, didn't like the fact that I was seeing both of them, but, totally honest and in the open, about, whatever they wanted to know, strongly encouraging them, but loving them too.  Howard, was more, like, the type of husband, I want, than any guy I had ever been with!  LOL!  But he was way sensitive.  Both from good families, professional, fun, and something any girl would want!

I found the sex to be mutually, beneficial, and would not have done it, if I felt that it hurt anyone, and there was definitely love involved.  Miles could not have got me to Spokane or Seattle, on my own dime, just to have sex, but he always needed help on, this or that legal issue, and the sex, just seemed, part of it, for some reason, and we could not get down to business, without, first getting that minor detail in our relationship, the mutual attraction for each other out of the way, first!  Both, Miles and Howard, wanted to live with me.  I could not see the point.  But, with this other guy, it is hard to get together, first and last months rent, plus a deposit together, and many people at the Pov. team up, and help each other, get their shit together, and live together . . . I think it would be fun!  I would much rather have a male roommie, than a female!  That seems more normal to me . . . years of marriage, shared bathrooms, and if nothing happens, well, that is okay, and if it does, so be it.  I remember, one time after talking to Miles, that his sex cleansed me, for some reason, and I didn't feel like I was breaking God's commandments, in fact the opposite, because, I know scriptures, that say, all things are pure to me, it is you clowns, who assign cleanliness or uncleanliness to whatever!  Romans: 14:14.  Miles and I would go months, and not talk, and then, out of the blue, one of us, would get a hold of the other, totally, missing each other, horny, just loving talking to each other, was sexual, and turned us on.

No fail, one of us, would even put sex in the terms of, I need some sexual healing!  And we both meant it . . . it was healthy, loving, good, kind, loving, and generous.  The two great commandments are, to love God, and to love your fellow man, so I did, took that one to heart, love them all!  LOL!  No, seriously, I knew he loved me, and I think, he would say, I loved him . . . it was just a different kind of love, different kind of sex, and there was nothing selfish about it, is was like, just part of the relationship.  Eventually, Miles took my advice and got a girl who also wanted a baby and he called me and said, we are co-parenting, and we are pregnant.  He thought he could carrying on a relationship with me?  NO, the mother of your baby, needs you, baby comes first, then the needs of the mommy, then daddy, and I am out of the picture.  The baby will be, actually, two years old, I think, in September . . . and, Miles, was so excited the last time I talked to him, they had picked out the name, and I am sure he will not regret that decision and the trade off, ever.  Mommy is sick and has some, terminal, ghastly disease, and he will likely raise the child alone, but, during that time, I kept seeing this ad, with a black dad, with a young son on his shoulders, smiling, ear to ear, happy as a clam.  Miles has a 168 I.Q. and I told him, the imbeciles should not have kids, but the smart people need to bless the earth with children!  Howard, showed up in Kalispell, I believe, either last summer, wanting to take me to dinner or a movie, but I was busy, taking down the two former attorneys generals of Utah, and typed for 16 hours straight . . . finally, he gave up and left!

The nice thing about men, is that they can have babies, forever . . . Howard was 56 at the time, so, he is probably, 58 or so, now, never too late and he would make a perfect husband and daddy; I thought, it would be selfish, of me, to date him or Miles and deny them the opportunity of having children, or marriage, and that was all done in LOVE!  I would assume, that if I got with this guy, or not, whatever happened, would not be by way of relationship, but, sex would be an expression of love.  I can see that.  For all I know, both guys I like, could be married, and either they will stay with their wives, girlfriends, or, getting with either of them will take some time.  I thought, perhaps, this is something to get me moving in another direction . . . like I said, loyalty, or love for that matter, is something that comes from inside me, and I tend to be faithful, before a relationship even happens, and I hold on, long after, there is no hope . . . and most likely, I have nobody to blame but myself, didn't play my cards right, and time tends to take care of everything, or makes our decisions for us.  Kennedy tried a bunch, and I resisted, because of this or that, was worried about who he was or was not, and guys who are good, generally don't last long, and in modern society, sex, often, seems to be the connector, with guys, and I am old fashioned, and who is to say who is right . . . timing is everything, even God, I felt, told me to act, and I was too hung up on this or that, so I didn't follow the promptings, fucked up, on this or that, wanting to wait, and guys don't tend to do time, no sex well, so, I made the choices and decisions I did, and I may regret them, or I may be glad, down the road.

Like in the dream with my dead friend, Al, the one with the two unicorns, male and female, true love, does exist, and it is WORTH WAITING FOR!  I have even wondered, believing in life after death, that Al himself, dead, but communicating through dreams, that perhaps, given my idealism and romantics, real guys are TOO real for me, and maybe, Al is waiting, or Allan, the cowboy, the Marine, the biker?  Mormons believe that you can be married for eternity, and that is a hell of a long time, so taking my time, doing it RIGHT, is critical to me . . . all I have EVER WANTED, since those early days going to girls camp, is ONE GREAT LOVE!  All the money is bull shit to me, take it, have it, but real love, I will wait forever for one chance, one day, one love . . . I have served God and Man all my life, for one end, to find the LOVE OF MY LIFE!  I am getting old GOD!  LOL!  STILL SINGLE, STILL FREE, AND STILL UNBROKEN!  SMILE!  Maybe to reach personal perfection, I need 5 more partners?  LOL!  I can deal with that, God has been good so far . . . dream boy, is HOT!  Time for a NEW adventure, NEW growth, NEW ideas!

I forgot the last part of the dream . . . in the dream, new young hot lover boy, just kidding, walked by me, and I reached out, and kind of brushed my hand, against his.  And that was the end of the dream?  I may never see him again, or I may, but I will probably be too, weird to do anything!  God will have to talk to him, subliminally, for me, or nothing will get done!  But, I will ask him, about the living situation . . . actually, since I met that pretty female cop, it looks like she told the male cops to back off, that I am exactly, who I say I am, the attorney, the blogger, the lobbyist and bad ass con law chick!  THANKS!!!!!  I had the dream the night I talked to the chick cop, so, thanks for that too!

I need some guy to inspire me to exercise and get in shape . . . just the male presence will help . . . I can get hot too, 6 months! or maybe we can work it off the fun way!  LOL!

LEAGUES OF ANGELS! I NEED A HERO . . . BUT I FEAR IT WILL NOT COME. I AM DROPPING MY END OF THE TUG-O-WAR ROPES. I HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, LOVED MUCH, PRESERVED LIVES . . . TIME TO LET EVERYONE FALL ON THEIR ASSES! FUCK THE DAMNED CELL PHONE. I DON'T FEEL LIKE GETTING TOGETHER UP IN GLACIER NATIONAL PARK. I NEED SOME TIME TO RECOUP. TIME TO REJUVENATE. TIME TO THRIVE AND ENJOY BEING ALIVE. THIS WARRIOR IS LAYING DOWN HER SWORD. HAVE AT IT . . . SEE THE MOVIE "TRUE LIES" 1994 . . . SAYS IT ALL!

WHISKEY SLOUGH! SEE NO EVIL! GOOD DEEDS PUNISHED! I WENT TO WALMART TODAY, AND PURCHASED A NEW CELL PHONE, STRAIGHT TALK WIRELESS, LG 329G, SERIAL # 840352391071550351, PLUS A $30 ALL YOU NEED PLAN, ON MY WALMART MONEY CARD, ENDING IN #8599, FOR $44.84, 06/18/16, AT 13:27:58. I ASKED THE TECHNICIAN AT THE PHONE AND ENTERTAINMENT SERVICE DESK, AND TO GIVE ME MY OLD PHONE NUMBER, 406.218.1777, WHICH HE DID. HE TOLD ME TO WAIT AN HOUR OR SO, AND THEN TO TURN ON THE PHONE . . . I DID, AND IT SAID, THAT I HAD AN "UNREGISTERED SIM" CARD--SIM #840352391071550351. I GOT ON LINE AT STRAIGHTTALK.COM, AND TRIED TO "ACTIVATE" MY NEW PHONE, IT SAID I WAS SUCCESSFUL? BUT NOTHING, UNLESS I HAVE TO WAIT AN HOUR? I THEN TRIED TO "REACTIVATE" MY SERVICE, THINKING THAT SINCE I WANTED TO USE MY OLD NUMBER, THAT PERHAPS, I SHOULD REACTIVATE THE SERVICE? I GUESS THAT I HAVE TO WAIT AN HOUR OR SO, THEN TRY. BUT LAST TIME, I GOT A NEW PHONE, USING THE SAME NUMBER, THIS ONE, THE PHONE WAS NEVER ACTIVATED WHEN I BOUGHT IT . . . SOME GUY CAME IN AND SET IT UP FOR ME, BUT HE WAS ON THE PHONE FOR AN HOUR, SEEMINGLY GIVING TONS OF CODES AND NUMBERS? I HOPE THAT THIS IS NOT THE SAME, WITH AN "UNREGISTERED SIM" CARD, THAT IS THE THING THAT THE FBI OR NSA CAN TRACK, SO I AM CONCERNED, HOPING THAT, WITH A NEW PHONE, NEW SERIAL NUMBER, NEW REGISTRATION NUMBER, COPS COULD CLEARLY SEE, THAT THESE FUCKERS, HAVE BEEN RIDING "PIGGY BACK" ALL OVER ME . . . WHENEVER I GET SOMETHING NEW, WHATEVER IT IS, GOES THROUGH THE SAME PATTERN: (1) LIKE THIS PHONE, I BUY SOMETHING, TRYING TO GET SOMETHING THAT IS DIFFERENT FROM THE FUCKING LEACHES, DOUBLES, BITCHES, BASTARDS WHO ARE SUCKING THE VERY LIFE OUT OF ME, WITH EVEN THE MOST SIMPLE SHIT LIKE A NEW, CHEAP $14.99 PHONE, FOR GOD SAKE, CAN JUST GO EASY, BUT IT NEVER DOES; (2) THE MOB OR THE FEDS, OR THE SUPER MOB, THEN, DOUBLES UP WITH ME, ACTING LIKE THERE IS JUST ONE PERSON, WHEN IN REALITY, THERE CAN BE ANYWAY FROM 1 TO 6, RIDING ON ANYTHING FROM MY PHONE, TO MY COMPUTER, TO MY CASES, TO MY BLOG, TO WHATEVER, EVEN DOUBLING UP ON BEING A MOTHER TO MY KIDS AND A GRANDMOTHER TO MY GRANDKIDS! (3) SO IT APPEARS THAT, THERE IS SAY, ONE BRAIN, AND TWO PEOPLE CLAIMING OR GETTING CREDIT FOR WHAT I OWN, OR WHAT I DO, OR WHAT I PRODUCE . . . THEN; (4) GIVEN THE CONNECTIONS THROUGH THE FBI, CIA, NSA, MORMON CHURCH, FAMILY, MOB, THE BITCHES OR BITCH, DEPENDING ON WHAT IS BEING TAKEN OVER, THEN MAKES A POWER MOVE, TO TAKE OVER WHAT I STARTED, LIKE THIS PHONE NUMBER! THESE FUCKERS HAVE BEEN FIGHTING TO GET THIS FOR AT LEAST A YEAR AND A HALF! (5) SO WHAT WAS ORIGINALLY, MINE, IS MUSCLED AWAY THROUGH THEFT, POWER TOOLS, ACCESS, 23/7 SURVEILLANCE, SO THAT WHEN THERE IS AN OPPORTUNITY LIKE THIS, TO STEAL, KNOWING THAT I WOULD HAVE TO GET A NEW PHONE, AFTER LAST NIGHT, NOT BEING ABLE TO RETRIEVE MY CELL PHONE BATTERY, THAT WAS MOST LIKELY TAKEN AND REPLACED WITH THE CLONE, OR A DIFFERENT ONE ALL TOGETHER, SO, THAT MY CONTACTS, KIDS, TEXTS, ARE NOW, SAFELY IN THE LIARS HANDS, RATHER THAN BEING IN MY CUSTODY, AS THEY HAVE BEEN, SO THAT, MY TRIP, LIKE TO SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH, THE WEEKEND OF APRIL 22 TO 24, LOOKS LIKE RACHEL, THE GOVERNMENT OR WASHINGTON, D.C.'S ME OR MOTHER, APPEARS TO BE THE "TRIP PLANNER" RATHER THAN ME, THE "REAL" MOTHER, CELEBRATING ELLIOT, CONNECTING THE BANDS, PARALLAX, GOD'S REVOLVER, MARALOKA, THE DITCH & THE DELTA, WORST FRIENDS (EXTENDED FAMILY) BANDS! WHICH BRINGS IN EVERYTHING ELSE, CASES, BLOGS, WATER COMPACTS, LEGISLATION, RESUME HISTORY, ETC. THAT HAVE ALL BEEN ROBBED YEARS AGO! ELLIOT MAY WANT TO ALLOW THE THEFT OF HIS MUSIC IF HE WANTS, LIKES BRETT, OR WHOMEVER, BUT I AM NOT GOING TO ALLOW ANY STEALING OF ANYTHING OF MINE, REGARDLESS OF WHAT MY KIDS HAVE DONE, OR WHAT THEY MIGHT BE . . . THEY ARE ALL ADULTS, ALL RESPONSIBLE FOR WHATEVER THEY DO, AND I AM NOT WILLING, ANY LONGER, TO CUT THEM SLACK FOR A SPOUSE OR A LOVER, WHO LIES, ABOUT WHO I AM, OR WHO MY CHILDREN'S PARENTS OR GRANDPARENTS ARE! STAND BEHIND ME--PROTECTION; STAND NEXT TO ME--RESPECT; STAND AGAINST ME--NO MERCY! I HAVE GONE THROUGH TOO MUCH, TO LOSE ONE FUCKING THING ANYMORE! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I WILL NOT GO DOWN, IN THE INTEREST OF LIES, EVEN IF IT COMES FROM MY CHILDREN OR THEIR PARTNERS!!!!!!! FUCK THEM ALL! I AM TO THE POINT, THAT, ALL BUT MY LIFE HAS BEEN TAKEN, AND I AM NOT GOING THERE! WE WILL ALL BE HELD LIABLE FOR OUR CHOICES AND THE CONSEQUENCES OF THOSE CHOICES, THAT COULD BE PRISON, FOR PERJURY! THAT CARRIES A SENTENCE OF UP TO 25 YEARS, SO IT THEY WANT TO GO THERE . . . THEY CAN, NOT MY FAULT, IF MY CHILDREN CANNOT READ, SEE, AND BELIEVE WHAT THESE FUCKS HAVE DONE TO ME, AND CONTINUE, EACH AND EVERY SECOND OF EVERY FUCKING DAY, THEN FUCK THEM! ALL I DID, WAS GOOD DEEDS, WHAT I THOUGHT WAS IN THEIR BEST INTEREST, AND TRIED TO PROTECT THEM, UNTIL THEY COULD PROTECT THEMSELVES . . . NOW IT IS UP TO THEM! WHY THE FUCK, COPS HAVE NOT MATCHED DNA, IS YOUR CALL, I KNOW IT IS BECAUSE THEY ARE ALL ON THE TAKE, THE SHAKEDOWN, BECAUSE, THAT IS THE FIRST THING, ANY GOOD COP DOES, TO FIGURE OUT, FAMILY TIES!

JUST GETTING EVIDENCE ON THE RECORD!

JoAnn S. Secrist, J.D., Attorney for the OUTRAGED!  This is pure bull shit . . . trying to block me from a $14.99 phone?  Steal billions, and this?  SHIT!  Anyway, I will BEAT THESE FUCKS, if it is the last thing I do . . . I am sure, once the fuckers, got their hands on my cell phone battery, which doesn't have much on it, they thought, now, they have finally arrived, they are finally me, after 16 FUCKING YEARS TRYING TO GET THEIR FUCKING LITTLE HANDS ON EVERYTHING, but if you set a trap for someone, you will fall for it themselves!  I have found that to be 100% true, eventually, they will get caught, for this shit! Anyway, I am sitting on my computer, writing this, after eating breakfast, watching a few true crime episodes, and trying to get my phone going.  NOW, after registering my sim, they are saying that my keypad is locked, so I have to figure out how to fix that!

MANIPULATIVE, INSANE, LOSERS!

AFTER 16 FUCKING YEARS, GET YOUR OWN FUCKING LIFE . . . I AM NOT GIVING UP MINE, AND I AM THE WARRIOR ALL OF YOU ARE NOT!

SO, FUCK YOU ALL!  LOL! 

RAZED & CONFUSED. SEX MACHINE. LIVING IN AMERICA --JAMES BROWN. THE OTHER DAY WHEN I WROTE ABOUT PRINCE HARRY COMING TO AMERICA, I THOUGHT OF THIS SONG, ONE OF MY FAVORITES, "LIVING IN AMERICA" FROM ROCKY 4, BECAUSE IT COVERS AMERICA, BIG ASS CITIES IN AMERICA, THE COLORS AND FLAVORS OF THE DIFFERENT NATIONALITIES, TYPES OF EMPLOYMENT, THE SCENERY, AND OF COURSE, LAS VEGAS IN ALL ITS GLITZ AND GLAMOUR, BOXING, ONE OF AMERICA'S FAVORITE SPORTS, CELEBRATING, LIVING IN AMERICA. I THOUGHT PRESIDENTIAL CANDIDATE, DONALD TRUMP, SHOULD COME DOWN OFF THE "TRUMP TOWERS" AND MEET AMERICA, SEE WHAT "LIVING IN AMERICA" IS ALL ABOUT! LOL! FBI DIRECTOR SCHOOLS TRUMP, TELLING HIM THAT MUSLIMS IN AMERICAN COMMUNITIES ARE "KEY" TO FINDING "RADICALIZED MUSLIMS"--DIRECTOR JAMES COMEY, IS WELL AWARE THAT RACIAL PROFILING IS UNCONSTITUTIONAL; HOWEVER, PROFILING "RADICALIZED" BEHAVIOR IS NOT! THAT GOES FOR ANY OTHER KIND OF BEHAVIOR THAT IS A THREAT TO THE CITIZENS, LIFE, LIBERTY OR PROPERTY, OF THIS COUNTRY! REGARDLESS OF RACE, RELIGION, COLOR, CREED OR SEX . . . WE ALL HAVE A FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY, TO STOP VIOLENCE IN THIS COUNTRY, WHETHER IN OUR HOMES, ON OUR STREETS, IN OUR CHURCHES, SCHOOLS, OFFICE BUILDINGS, OR ON THE NATIONS CAPITAL! EDUCATIONAL CAMPAIGNS, SEEM TO WORK BEST IN THIS COUNTRY OF THE FREEDOM LOVING PEOPLE . . . SO WHY DON'T WE ALL START, NOW, WITH A "ZERO TOLERANCE FOR VIOLENCE OF ANY KIND!" OUTFRONT. CORRODED TRUST. EXPOSURE. BOBBING FOR BAD APPLES . . . DEBUG THE POLICE; HAND OVER YOUR BADGES AND WE WILL FIND A BETTER WAY TO I.D. BAD COPS! HANDMADE APPLE FRITTERS ARE A BEAUTIFUL THING. FULLY LOADED. MONEY SHOTS. UP IN SMOKE. PLAYING CHICKEN. BELIEVE HER OR NOT. MIXED MEDIA. WAX DOLLS. WHAT WARS LEAVE BEHIND. LESSONS FROM THE MASTER. THE SMARTEST SMOOTHIE. CHOOSE LIFE. PRESERVE THE EARTH. PEACE, LOVE & HAPPINESS. TIPPING POINT. BOXED OUT! HERE TO HELP LIFE GO RIGHT. MOTHER JONES. LIVING IN AMERICA . . .

THINK "PAC MAN" . . . EAT EVERYTHING I DO AND WRITE!

P.S., I have recommended this Jame Brown song, Living in America, and YES, I have written all, what 1017 blogs.  The other day, when I told you I was blocked from 57 attempts to get on the Internet, in several venues and sites, in addition to trying all 8 versions of my blog, being denied access to MY OWN BLOG, I remembered, that in addition to that, I got into my diagnostic tests, to see what the fuck was up, knowing damned well, that not only does the NSA have access, to my computer and blog, and they have made it look, like every one of my blogs, MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, more valuable than real or personal property, with the only thing more important to me, it my GOOD NAME, that has been used and abused, by the waxing dolls, so far inferior, in the area in intellectual capabilities, that they have to lies, steal, cheat, and kill, to stop me . . . in the totality of the ring of sisters and ex-friend attorneys, the sum total of their brains, do  not equal mine and it is a fucking insult for them to take credit for my work for the last 23 fucking years, after taking me out, for 8 of those, taking every dime, I have made, which is in the millions if not billions, and these, alleged sex machines, could NOT write even ONE OF MY BLOGS!  But, as I got into the FIREWALL diagnostic, like I have brought to the attention of the NSA cyber cops, that there are two fucking open portals to my computer, one 80, now that is Shelley's, cloned computer, so two heads out of ONE BRAIN OR COMPUTER, MINE, #443, but portal #80, shows first, which I assume, makes it look like, Shelley or Kay, FBI BITCHES OR COPS SHIT, wrote the blog, rather than ME, #443, just like my blog, is posting PACIFIC FUCKING TIME, RATHER THAN MOUNTAIN TIME, WHERE KAY LIVES, ASSHOLES, THAT IS INTERNALLY SET, AS IS THE IP AND FIREWALL SHIT! but the other day, when I was blocked, the 80 was free and clear to go, while, me the OWNER OF MY BLOG AND COMPUTER, was blocked for fucking HOURS, on 443, and in the process of this search and discovering what I already KNEW, was that THREE FUCKING IP ADDRESSES POPPED UP, DURING AN HOUR OR SO . . . ISN'T AN IP ADDRESS UNIQUE TO THE COMPUTER?  I brought to the attention of THE NSA, law enforcement, who is razed and confused, dip shits, for sure, MO ASSES, who are involved in the MORMON FUCKING, CONSPIRACY, FBI DIRECTOR, JAMES COMEY, YOUR AREA . . . THIS SHIT NEEDS TO BE FIXED . . . CONTROLLING ME, SO YOU CAN HAVE FREE ACCESS TO MY MONEY AND MY SON'S MUSIC MONEY, IS FUCKING BULL SHIT AND OUTRIGHT CRIMINAL, TO THE TUNE OF A BILLION DOLLARS AS I FIGURE THE NUMBERS OVER THE YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I AM NO RESPECTER OF PERSONS, SO GET YOUR COP SHIT TOGETHER, OR HAND IN YOUR FUCKING BADGES!  

LYNCH INSULATION NEEDS TO STOP!  FUCK THE DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE?  LAW ENFORCEMENT?  FUCK, WHAT DOES INJUSTICE LOOK LIKE?

I did, however, meet a cool, local cop chick, at the Break Espresso Cafe' last night.  We were both at the cash register at the same time, I told her to go first since she was on duty, but she kept insisting that I go first, we struck up a conversation, history in the making! lol, but I asked her why she became a cop?  I love to know the reasons and stories behind, this or that, wondering if her father was a cop, or something.  She said, no, actually they were against her becoming a cop, and were surprised why she did, seeing that growing up, she was afraid to stay home alone . . . now she is out cruising the streets, in protective vests, geared to hilt, wearing guns, badge, and all kinds of heavy shit, love tough girls!  She is very pretty too, so of course, I had to get into her personal life!  LOL!  Do you date guys in your department?  Yeah, she just broke up with some detective.  I asked her, seeing she is one of the few chick cops, if she was worried, that the guys were kissing and telling, you know, shop talk, locker room shit?  In true, sexually, liberated, and free wheeling, Montana girl style, she laughed as said, as if she didn't give a rat's ass, that she was always sleeping with someone in the department!  LOL!  I said, enjoy it while you are young, gorgeous and in shape!  I look back, and I guess this could apply to now, why I was so uptight, when I was young and HOT!  LOL!  By the time you hit my age, you don't care anymore!  LOL!

Maybe, a chick cop, who knows I was there, at the Break, creating a contraption to get my cell phone battery, made up of a broom, masking tape, me holding a flashlight, out from behind the big ass book shelf, or kitchen hutch, that sits in the cafe', where I first placed my battery, after learning that 200 agents, FBI, were in town to investigate the Russian mafia, taking over the South Hills, but seeing tons of them, hanging out in the Break, where I write my blog, when, my office at McDonald's has been over used, for a few days . . . first placing my little black box, my battery, on a small electrical cord covering, but, I thought someone might see it, so I pushed it a bit, and it fell off the ledge, to the floor, leaving me wondering, if it fell to the basement, with nothing more than a few contacts, mainly my 4 kids, Greta, Nicole, Chris and Elliot's numbers, but by far the most precious and valuable contacts, but also containing shit that the FBI can use to trace my location!  LOL!  I DID HAVE TWO FUCKING STING OPS, THE FIRST TWO DAYS THEY WERE OBVIOUSLY IN TOWN!  One the first day, I put my battery, where it is now buried, forever, since the dust, over the last few weeks, since I dropped it there, made the tape worthless, and I knocked it either under the hutch, or down the two holes, going to the basement . . . the counter girl at the Break, checked for me, while I talked to the female cop, as she ate her sandwich for dinner, both of us, admitted that we were techno retards, with most technology, beyond us!  LOL!

JUST IN CASE . . . ALWAYS ERROR ON THE SIDE OF SAFETY!  EVEN WITH FEMALE COPS!  AT LEAST, SERVING AND PROTECTING IS NOT REDUCED TO MY "F.Q" OR MY "FUCKABILITY QUOTIENT!"  LOL!

My least favorite, little, motherfucking, NSA, of course are watching all that I write, so they can intercept, this blog, scan it, steal it . . . I just did a typo, signs, streal or steal real!, but, when the spell check is fucked up, I know the asshole MO BUT FUCKING FAGGOTS, IN UTAH, THE CYBER SPIES ARE FUCKING WITH MY BLOG!  BELIEVE ME THIS IS DAILY ACTIVITY SHIT FOR THEM! FUCKING VOYEURS!

Back to the female cop . . . you never know if someone ratted me out, where I was, and she was sent into do whatever?  Just to be safe, I didn't go back to my computer, to eat my carrot cake and drink my Diet Coke, nectar of the gods!  LOL!  I stayed at the table where I was attempting to retrieve my cell phone battery . . . the pretty cop, was helpful, serving, and suggested that I might be able to go get a new batteries at a place like, Battery Plus or Battery Bulb, which I will check out, seeing where it is, yesterday, while I was getting donuts in honor of good cops, at Krispy Kreme, then going to Walgreens, to buy my search and rescue package of tape, flashlight, etc.  VERIFY, VERIFY, VERIFY . . . I used my Walmart money card, at both business establishments!  My battery was not in the basement either!  So new is the order of the day, or I will have to get a whole new phone, which would not kill me, but expensive, and may be worth it, since, I have had a battle, ever since, Grand Junction, function, ditching my phone, in a similar challenge to the GJPD, who were on my ass, until I ditch the phone on a shelf in Walmart!  LOL!  I kept my number, but an FBI agent, came a put all kinds of codes and shit on my new phone with the same number, that has been stolen, and attempted to be put in the enemy sister's hands, when Annie, an alleged, friend from Kalispell, stole my phone, until I wrote about her, and she put it back!  I have even had encrypted messages on that phone, cloned when they could not steal it!

Can I tell you how shitty, it is to have every fucking thing you have ever had in you life, stripped from you, from every form of property, intellectual, real, personal, even MY DNA, in my children, so the fucker cops could claim, that my fucking AMAZING children, fruit doesn't fall far from the tree assholes, so they can get 4 very bright, beautiful, cool kids, to fuck there mother, by brainwashing them, putting false memories, and lies, non-stop into their minds, through, in-law agents, who infiltrated my family, years ago . . . a constant little devil in their ears, you mother, did this and that . . . great relationships, until, I was run out of the state, and I was worried the super mob would murder my kids, so I didn't contact them for their safety and mine!  Then they kept stealing every form of communication tool, like vehicles, computers and cell phones!  God damn it! If you want to know my knee jerk reaction, about my cell phone battery seeing where it was, is that as challenged to do, the FBI, did retrieve it, because, I kept checking the placement of the kitchen hutch or book selves . . . they had been moved and pushed back, further to the wall!  The other day, some guy, tried to help me, try to move the furniture, but it was too heavy, and when he shined his cell phone light, on my battery, it was much further in, and it was precariously, placed, in almost an impossible position to be retrieved . . . It was balanced between two holes, on a sketchy angle, sure to fall this way or that way, if even touched!  There is NO FUCKING WAY, that battery, jumped from that little ledge, and landed, right between two holes . . . NEVER!

The super mob, most likely took mine, and replaced it with Shelley's, or Kay's, Rachel's or some cloned version, so as usual, the original, ME, through tricks, flashbang, lip tricks, and magic shit, tricks, gets into the hands of the liars, to make it look, like MY KIDS ARE THEIRS!  THE GOLDEN ARCHES OF THE SECRIST FAMILY!  THE GOAL FOR THE LIARS AND THIEVES, IN LAW ENFORCEMENT FOR FUCKING 16 YEARS SINCE I WAS POISONED, AS GENERAL COUNSEL FOR THE UTAH MEDICAL ASSOCIATION, bringing me in contact, with FBI and the federal programs, that I PROTECTED THE NATIONS DOCTORS, FROM ALLEGED UP CODING FOR GOVERNMENT BILLING FOR HEALTH CARE!  I am sure, that great feat, that COST ME 8 FUCKING YEARS OF MY LIFE, has been attributed to some bitch, who is to lame ass, to even think of doing the things I have done!  I guess their bra size is bigger and their FQ is higher!  GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

SEXY DREAM LAST NIGHT!

I think there is a sting op going down . . . gotta go . . . female cop, must have, put my MIND IN THE MOOD, to be a SEX MACHINE, LIKE I AM!  LOL!

ME AND THE COP CHICK WISHED EACH OTHER A GOOD NIGHT . . . I TOLD HER TO BE SAFE!

When the female cop, left, seeing her sneaking slowly up the street, it may have dawned on her, my computer, a sure sign that YEAH, that was me, BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK, and all I did is avoid the place and evidence of ME!  LOL!

ABOUT 15 SHERIFFS CRUISED PASSED THE POV. THIS MORNING . . . SOMEONE FOUND MY TRAMP CAMP . . . THERE WAS A BAR OF "IRISH SPRING" SOAP IN THE PLACE OF MY TOILET PAPER OR TISSUE, 'TIS YOU!  THAT IT IS TRUE!!!!!!!

MURDER IS A CRIME!

FATAL IDENTITY! GIZMODO. ANIMATED REACTION. FEED'EM OF THE PRESS! CONSPIRACY: (1) KNOWLEDGE OF THE ACT; (2) WORKED ON THE FURTHERANCE OF THE ACT; (3) WILLFUL BLINDNESS; (4) AWARE OF MESSAGES, TEXTS, CALLS, GPS LOCATIONS AND BOTH PEOPLE AND PLACES CONNECTED TO THE CRIME; AND (5) WITNESS TO THE TEMPLET OF THE CRIME, COMPLICIT AND AWARE THAT THE ACT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN OR DID HAPPEN. I WATCHED THREE "TRUE CRIME" SHOWS TODAY OR TONIGHT THAT AGAIN, ARE "LACED WITH THE TRUTH" AND GIVE INVESTIGATORS AND DETECTIVES MORE INSIGHTS INTO MY CASE . . . ALL OF THESE ARE EPISODES FROM "MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS": (1) "WHO WANTS TO MURDER A MILLIONAIRE"; (2) "IN LOVESICK DOCTORS"; AND (3) "I DIED . . . OR DID I?" ALL VERY INTERESTING AND INFORMATIVE . . . I SWEAR, EVERY DAMNED EPISODE OF "TRUE CRIME" HAS SOME CONNECTION TO MY CASE . . . I HAVE ONE PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND . . . MY DIRTY LITTLE LIES: "THE PRICE OF MURDER!" IN THIS ONE, A WIFE IS MURDERED, HUBBY IS A CHEATER, HAS A HUGE "PONZI" SCHEME, USING HIS WIFE, WHO IS THE "GOLDEN GOOSE" THE WHOLE SCAM IS BASED ON . . . HUBBY HAS A TON OF LOVERS, AND AT THE TIME OF HER MURDER, THERE WAS A WOMAN ON THE SIDE . . . HUB LIED ABOUT HIS WHEREABOUTS AND ALIBI, AND THE COPS SEE THAT, THE GOOD BUSINESS WOMAN AND WIFE, THE SOURCE OF MONEY, WHO IS GETTING HEAT FROM HIS WIFE, IF NOT THE BANK, BECAUSE THEY WERE BUILDING A NEW HOME, BUT HUSBAND WAS TAKING ALL THE MONEY! HE COULD FOOL THE BANK, BUT NOT HIS WIFE. HE LIVED OFF HIS WIFE, HE LIED, HE CHEATED, HIS WIFE FELT THAT SHE WAS HELPING HER HUSBAND TO GO FROM A SHOE SALESMAN TO A BUSINESS MAN . . . BUT HE BECAME A SMOOTH OPERATOR, WHO LIED, STOLE, CHEATED AND EVENTUALLY KILLED TO CONTINUE TO LIVE HIS LAVISH LIFE STYLE! SOUND FAMILIAR? THAT IS BECAUSE IT IS SPOT RIGHT ON!!!!!!!!!

"My Dirty Little Secrets"

WHO WANTED TO MURDER A MILLIONAIRE?

It is interesting, that, I remember this murder case, from Salt Lake City, Utah, going back sometime . . . for a long time, it was a "who done it" case.  The thing, that is interesting, about, old man, Bradshaw, is that, I believe either he was from Cedar City, Utah, and was a friend of my father, or he was related to the Bradshaw family, all involved and quite wealthy, in the auto parts business.  Mr. Bradshaw and his wife, and three daughters, lived a very humble and relatively low keyed life in Salt Lake, but the secret was that, Mr. Bradshaw was a hard worker, had a killer work ethic, and was, unbeknown to his family, worth about $20 million dollars, making him, one of the richest men in the state of Utah, along with the Huntsman, Rice, and Eccles families; however, no one knew this man was that rich, including his own family.  Bradshaw opened his doors, 7 days a week, until 9:00 PM, each night.  One Sunday morning, when all the other stores around his shop, was closed, Bradshaw was open, while the streets were quiet, and it was relatively quiet, in the shop.  Someone appeared to have broken in the auto store and shot old man Bradshaw, dead.  The cops were called, and at first it appeared to be, a robbery, and the cops worried that, it may have been, someone passing through town, and they may have been on their way out of town by the time the cops were even called.

The Bradshaw family, for all intents a purposes, seemed to be, a family that had it all, but, the family, especially, Mr. Bradshaw had many secrets he kept from his own wife.  As the cops, started looking around closer, they found, auto parts, boxes, that were not filled with parts, but had tons of money in them, and he had cash hidden all over the store.  Cops got to know Bradshaw, and realized, that while he had a ton of money, even found out that, he was a big tine investor in the stock market, and while paying his employees very little, he did share his stock market tips, with his men, and they seemed to do quite well, therefore, keeping them happy, when at first it appeared that the employees, might have had reason to kill him for telling them to deal with their salaries, or get another job.  They looked at the wife, she started buying nice clothes, and taking expensive trips, and really enjoying life, for once . . . Bradshaw had been a tight ass with money, rarely shared it with his family, and his wife, felt like they lived like paupers, rather than enjoying the money he made, she never had access to his money, and complained often, but, after awhile, she lived relatively normal, but they noticed that the widows money was actually, by in large, going to two family members, daughter Francis, who was living in, I believe, New York, living off her father, and for the most part, Grandpa was supporting this woman, and her two sons, and had been for a long time.  The youngest daughter was a spendthrift too . . . the second daughter, didn't seem to fit in with the other two daughters, who lived off their father's money, as did, their children.  I think the younger one was single.

Francis and Her Two Sons, Seemed More and More Likely the Suspects

One of the sons, was actually, in Salt Lake City, Utah, visiting his Grandmother and Grandfather, at the time of the murder, so the cops pulled him, in and interviewed him.  Eventually, he is arrested for the murder of his Grandfather, after detectives notice that Grandma is seeming to protect her grandson, and trying to smooth things over when cops, target and move in on her grandson.  Eventually, the son, who does have an alibi, but, not a solid alibi, so the cops arrest and charge the boy, with the murder of the Grandfather, knowing he often asked his Grandfather for money, and he was denied money, that led to some feelings between the two. When the boy was arrested, he decided to come clean, and blame who was really the one or ones, who murdered his Grandfather . . . his brother and his mother!  Apparently, the older brother, Mark, used his younger brother's name, to purchase a ticket to Utah, then he bought a gun, and killed his Grandfather.  When the cops, questioned the older son, he finally, told them what it was like to be the son of Francis Bradshaw, he told them, his mother put him up to it, and said, that if he didn't kill his Grandfather, who finally had it with Francis, her high and large lifestyle, on Daddy's dime, and threatened to cut her and her sons' off, from all financial support, and told her to go get a job, and have her sons' get jobs too!  

The mother convinced her son, that he had to do this for the family, because, it was best, and if he didn't do it, they would all be out living in the streets . . . he said, you don't say NO, to his mother, she was very manipulative and used her love, which she rarely gave, to control and get her son, to do the murder.  When the boys didn't do what mother wanted, she would kick them out of the house or apartment, for long periods of time.  The one time, she demonstrated her love for the oldest son, was after he came back from Salt Lake, and handed her the gun that killed, her own father!  This was a case of greed, secrets, and family manipulation . . . Daddy's little girl, was one girl that Dad could not deny anything to, but when he had finally had it, and was going to cut her off from her lavish lifestyle, she wanted him dead, so even if she had to murder, her father, she needed and wanted to keep up her social status, shopping, living.  Mark, her son, only got 12 years for his part of the murder, and his mother, Francis, got 13 years, but not much for the type of the crime.  Some say, crime doesn't pay, but in this case, it did . . . her mother died while Francis was in prison, but, the daughter who got the whole estate was Francis!

I'M LOVESICK DOCTORS

When a doctor power couple, out on the town, to celebrate the wife's birthday, police are puzzled, finding that, both of the doctors, that seemed to have a life, that other people would envy, nice home, attractive couple, appearing to be a happily married couple, and totally clean practices in their doctors' offices and professional worlds.  So, who would want these two dead?  The cops, thought that perhaps, when the doctor husband, ratted out, a fellow doctor, for criminal behavior, the cops, thought given the professional nature of the job, it had to be a contract killing with a hit man or woman, who knew what they were doing. But after interviewing the doctor, the cops felt that, while he was pissed off, he didn't kill the other doctor. Finally, someone, who knew the couple, and was friends with the wife, said, what looked like the perfect power couple, was not all hearts and flowers, and the husband, was a big time cheater, and he had two former wives, that he cheated on also.  Plus he had a lot of female lovers, and the cops, finally focus on one woman, who, called the Doc, about 20 times in one day.  The woman said they had an affair for about 10 years, while he promised that he would leave his wives, but never did, although he always kept her on the string.  They wondered if this long time girlfriend, finally had it and either had him killed, or got someone else to kill her lover.

Eventually, the girlfriend came clean, after, some reformed, born again, Christian, former gang member, connected the Doctor, who wanted him to kill his wife, because he was not happy, and he no longer was attracted to her . . . the guy said, No.  Finally, the trail, led to a new boyfriend of the hot Latina lover, who the Doctor wanted, but didn't think she was of his same social status, as he thought of many, of the peopled he hung out with, coming from a very wealthy family, of a doctor father.  This bad boy lover, took $20,000 from the Doc, to kill his wife, but after the Doctor planned and orchestrated the murder of his wife, the bad boy hit man, was paid before he committed the crime, so, the reason he knocked off the wife, who had more bullets in her, he killed the husband, the Doctor too, because bad boy, could tell, that the Doctor would sing, if he was called in and questioned by the cops.  The Doctor and his high powered doctor wife, were both done in by people from the other side of the tracks, that they thought they were too sophisticated and good to hang out with legitimately.  The Latina lovers, seemed to be the mastermind, and bad boy, was the muscle, both were charged with the murders, and convicted of the crimes.

I DIED . . . OR DID I?  

PERFECT FOR MY CASE!

This episode starts out with a husband and his new wife, moving to Fargo, North Dakota.  The husband was charming and out going, so he made friends easy, and hooked up with people and friends easy.  Soon he is hired to be the accountant or bookkeeper for a small business man, who trusts this psychopath, totally, as does his pretty new wife.  All of the sudden, the man doesn't show up for work, and is missing for several days, so this boss, turns in a missing person report, and the cops, find the house all in order, but, the mail had not been picked up for some time, making it appear, that, they just left their furniture, packed up and left, or they were gone for a few days, but no on had seen them.  The man's name, was, Tim Wicks.  A female cop is assigned to track the man down.  Eventually, she just calls his cell phone and to her surprise, the man, answers.  She tells him, that there is problems with his bookkeeping job, and that his boss accused him of fraud, embezzlement and theft, which he denied, saying that he would be glad to come talk to her, because he had noticed that the business had not paid their taxes for a long time, and he could clear all of this up.

In the mean time, the female detective in Fargo, ND, gets a call from a detective in Wisconsin, about a man, named, Tim Wicks, who was a missing man.  She said, oh, I am going to see, Tim, this afternoon, but Tim never comes.  The two detectives start comparing notes, and find out that the two Tim Wicks, are not the same men, but they don't think it is likely that there are two men with the same name, social security and birthday!  The female cop puts out, an APB, or all points bulletin on the wanted man, across the country.  In the mean time, the male detective, gets a call, that someone had found a male body torso, but no hands and no head . . . that had been decapitated.  But, due to the nature of the murder, without teeth and hands, there was not much to use to identify the body.  The Wisconsin, Tim, was a musician, who told his friends that he had met a guy named, Dennis, who he met at the bar, who also played in a band, in Canada, who offered the young man, a gig, playing drums, and he would make $800 per week, playing throughout Canada.  But after he had been gone for a few weeks, his friends and family got worried, saying it was not like him, to not make contact.  Each detective, faxed each other, a copy of their, TIM, and they were not surprised to find that they were not the same, nor looked the same.

It appeared that they had a case of identity theft, if not a murder.  Finally, they got Dennis, Tim;s real name, and called him in for questioning, to see how he knew the "real" Tim Wicks.  Come to find out, Dennis, was actually, Tim's accountant and he did the musician's taxes, which gave him access to all his personal information, his former addresses, birthday and social security number.  He said, that, when Tim found out that, Dennis, had trouble with the law, warrants, taxes, and charges, Tim, said it was okay for Dennis to use his ID, because, Tim was going to Canada, so he could use his ID and start a new life in Fargo, North Dakota.  The cops were not buying it.  As they looked into the background of Dennis, there were plenty of reasons for him to want to steal Tim Wick's, Identity, and start a new life.  Finally, the cops find, Tim's head and hands, 35 miles from his torso, and they are able to identify that it is, Tim, the missing musician.  Dennis claims, that he did, steal his identity, but he never killed him.  The cops were worried that, Dennis, who they knew killed Tim, but, they could not prove it.  Finally, before Dennis got out of jail, for the fraud, ID theft, and embezzlement, his wife, who was terrified of, and feels guilty about the whole thing, turns in her husband to get the guilt off her mind.  Eventually, the cops convict him of the murder of Tim Wicks, justice was finally served for Tim.  (Kay Burningham, aka, Joann Secrist, Me, was married to Tim Brown, so even the name, Tim Wicks . . . Brett Stuart/Stewart is wicked!)

OVERALL VIEW OF THE WHOLE CASE!

PULP FUSION! WHY FEDS WANT THIS BAD ASS DEAD! HAPPY & HEALTHY. LIP SMACKER! PARK RAPIDS PANTHERS FASTPITCH! TURBO POWER! FIREFLY . . . AUSTRALIAN GOLD. DRAMATIC TRANSFORMATION, NOT DRASTIC MEASURES. ALLIGATORS & GORILLAS: TODAY YOU WILL BE A NEW PERSON, A WARRIOR AND YOU WILL DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT YOUR WORLD . . . PARENTS, BE THE HELICOPTER PARENTS IN DANGEROUS PLACES, AND A LIAISE' FARE PARENT WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR CHILDREN ARE AT HOME OR IN A SAFE ENVIRONMENT . . . THIS IS NOT BLACK & WHITE, ALL OR NOTHING, HOT OR COLD, THE CIRCUMSTANCES DICTATE YOUR LEVEL OF PROTECTION AND OVERSIGHT! KEEP THOSE BABIES SAFE, REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE SIGNS SAY! WHEN THEY ARE GONE, THEY ARE GONE! NUMBER ONE RESPONSIBILITY IS THE PARENTS, NUMBER TWO, DISNEY PARK, THE PLACE THEY ARE AT . . . ONCE THE BABY IS IN THE TEETH OF AN ALLIGATOR, IT IS TOO LATE! SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, BUT MAYBE THIS HORRIFIC LEARNING MOMENT FOR THE WORLD, SAVING OTHERS, WILL SOME HOW ALLEVIATE SOME OF THE PAIN OVER TIME. IN THE LAW, BUSINESS OWNERS HAVE TO WARN OTHERS OF THE POTENTIAL DANGER OF ANIMALS, OR THEY ARE LIABLE. A FREAK ACCIDENT, TWO INCIDENTS TOO MANY, IN THE LAST 30 YEARS, BUT, TO DENY ALLIGATORS THEIR NATURAL HABITAT OR HUMANS RARE OPPORTUNITY TO SEE THE MAGNIFICENT CREATURES WOULD BE A SHAME TOO! SAD. TRANSITION TO A FEW THINGS TO CONSIDER ON: (1) NATIONAL GUN CONTROL DEBATES; AND (2) THE ALLEGED "MONTANA WATER COMPACT" OR THE CKST WATER COMPACT, DIRTY MONEY, AND DIRTY POLITICS . . . WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE, THERE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT BOTH SITUATIONS . . . FUCKING VOTE! NO ONE IS NOT EXPENDABLE, NO ONE CANNOT BE REPLACED! YOUR VOTE AND YOUR VOICE COUNTS. CONGRESS, YOU MAY WANT TO CONSIDER THE DEMOCRATS BIG GOVERNMENT SOLUTION, THAT THE ATTORNEY GENERAL CAN DECIDE WHO IS ON THE "NO FLY" OR "NO BUY" LIST . . . YESTERDAY, I WAS DENIED ACCESS TO MY BLOG, 57 TIMES, ATTEMPTING TO ADD A WORD OR TWO! I TRIED EVERY VERSION, SEVERAL SITES, AND HAD TO COME BACK FROM KALISPELL TO WRITE ANOTHER BLOG, HAVING BEEN BLOCKED ALL DAY . . . ON A SURPRISE ESCAPE AND CREEPING INTO MISSOULA WITHOUT THE FUCKING SURVEILLANCE ON ME 24/7, I WAS ABLE TO FUCK THE FRAUD BROAD CHICKS . . . 3 WHEEL SCOOTERS: SHELLEY, KAY AND RACHEL; FOURTH HAND IS SUE! LAW ENFORCEMENT????????????????????? I AM STARTING TO THINK IT IS NON-EXISTENT! WHEN IT COMES TO "MUSIC & MONEY" ALL HITS, EVERY TIME . . . COPS TURN GREEN WITH ENVY! IT MINE, IT MINE, IT MINE! NO IT IS NOT! I ALREADY HAVE THE FUCKERS ON MY COMPUTER AGAIN, AFTER EARLIER BEING BLOCKED AT KRISPY KREME DOUGHNUTS, HOW APPROPRIATE AND SYMBOLIC, COPS, AND DOUGHNUTS! BAD COPS, NO DONUTS! THE DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE . . . BAD COPS, NO MONEY! GIVE ME AND MY FAMILY MY GOD DAMNED MONEY, YOU BUTT FUCKING FAGGOTS! GOD!

PRESUMPTIONS--LONG, PART OF OUR LEGAL SYSTEM!

• the presumption that you are innocent, UNTIL PROVEN GUILTY, beyond reasonable doubt!
• the presumption that you cannot give more property rights than you have!
• the presumption, that if a wife is pregnant, the baby is her husband's, and legally, IT IS!
• the presumption that wives or husbands, don't have to testify against each other
• presumptions can be overcome, and there are more than these, but you HAVE TO OVERCOME THEM!
• the Patriot Act, was not the CURE all for presumptions, making the BURDEN OF PROOF, fall on the suspect or the defendant . . . it is still on the local, state or federal government to prove!  Governments are the ones with endless resources, power, and attorneys, going from the lowest courts to the Supreme Court!

CONFLICT OF INTEREST IN THE DOJ!

• both the attorney general and the FBI are in the executive branch; therefore, if the FBI puts you on the "to watch list" or the "No Fly or No Buy" list, and the attorney general or the Department of Justice, who oversees the FBI, is in charge of deciding whether or not, a person, is to stay on or be taken off the lists, there is a conflict of interest, as in my case, that if the FBI, has a personal vendetta or some preference for a pair of tits, or a flavor of Mormon muffin, over another, or their dick barks when one women walks by, and one woman is an attorney, and the others, are controllable, as flight attendants, biologists, or history majors, or an attorney of inferior character and credentials, the DOJ, will, just like prosecutors do with cops, be influenced by personal preferences, favorites, and even putting both cops and prosecutors in the throws of crime, corruption, and pressure to do this or that, or leave this or that, giving privilege and justice to outright criminals, but protected by the cock suckers, and butt fuckers, or the chicks who will spread their legs for cops . . . and hurt the one, who would rather KICK THEIR SORRY LOSER ASSES!
• there is BRILLIANCE, in our founding fathers, creating a system of checks and balances, to prevent this sort of thing!  God ALMIGHTY!  Men are men, weak, stupid, penis crazed, and the women, who want favors, advancements, preferential treatment, create a quagmire of shit for the poor fools!  So, to avoid the very appearance of evil, I would recommend, to Congress, that they take the list makers, and the judges as to whom, is to stay on the list or to be taken off, coming from, different branches of the GOVERNMENT! 
• Case in point . . . I have the mother fucking NSA, all over my shit, right as we speak . . . yesterday, as I attempted, 57 times to gain access, to MY FUCKING BLOG, only the hottest, most read blog, in the fucking world, that the DOJ is allowing to STEAL, by the way, and you all FUCKING KNOW IT, ASSHOLES, because, I won't sleep with your ugly agents, or be their girlfriend, or wife?  You can take the semen, out of the man each time he jacks off, but, the next day or a few hours later, it is back, building up again, going to his BRAIN!  After going into my diagnostics, to see what the fuck was up . . . I noticed that I had two portals, one numbered 80 and the other blocked one, I am assuming MINE, the OWNER OF THE BLOG, 443, was blocked from getting on the INTERNET!  I found this in diagnostics, under FIREWALL!
• after a while, the NSA, all MORMON, spying on the western states, 30,000 of the shit heads, all favoring the Mo bitches, without law degrees, or if having a law degree, as shit bitch, lazy ass attorney, riding on MY LAURELS!, but, when they got sick of playing tricks on the diagnostics, eventually, they just, shut the whole fucking thing down, and just put up a page that said, this site is not available . . . oh, yeah, why in the fuck is it not available?  Because I caught your dick in a trap, or your bitches' tits in a ringer?  I went to Kalispell, then turned around in fast pitch style and came back, faster than you assumed I would, and while you were cumming between Rachel's big ass FAKE tits, I got home and back to Missoula, onto the INTERNET, while you were in bed!  NAPPING!

Recommendations to Congress

• due process is to come BEFORE, you deny, life, liberty or property . . . and since the 2nd amendment, is a right, protected by the U.S. and state Constitutions, it should be AFFORDED top priority, giving NOTICE AND A HEARING, BEFORE TAKING AWAY A CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHT!
• put the presumption of innocence back in, before, putting someone on a list, or watching them, or denying them INALIENABLE RIGHTS!  The government did not create the rights, nor can they take them way without, jumping through the hoops, of providing DUE PROCESS, whatever that process is!
• distinguish between alleged homegrown terrorists, enemy combatants, who are citizens, and actual terrorist connected ISIS, extremists, indoctrinated . . . and READ THE FUCKING DEFINITIONS, before jumping to conclusions; I am a fucking bad ass con law chick, you just don't happen to like!  I my book, YOU ARE THE FUCKING HOMEGROWN TERRORISTS AND ENEMY COMBATANTS OF THE PEOPLE . . . closer to TREASON, than I would ever be in 10 billion light years!  Get your oaths straight boys and girls!  Masonic, Illuminati, Mormon temple rites, or Tory's under a British oath of patriots, is not sufficient . . . the Constitution is the SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND, and you took a fucking oath to PROTECT, PRESERVE AND DEFEND, THAT AND ONLY THAT!  Get the fuck out of the country, if your loyalties and oaths, belong elsewhere!
• the NRA and Republican proposal, of a THREE day waiting period, is not too burdensome, invasive, nor intrusive government involvement . . . and it gives some cooling off time . . . definitely worth debating.  The courts are already burdened and overloaded.  There might be some type of administrative judge, used in a family, drug, court, who might be able to hear local issues after the fact, but the best way it to provide, due process, prior to taking away the right to bear arms!
• you are talking big time rights, and a constitutional expressly given right; therefore, tread lightly.  GOOD LUCK . . . IT IS WORTH THE FIGHT, TO GET IT RIGHT!

No Such Thing as the "Montana Water Compact"

Wednesday, while I was taking the shuttle, to Kalispell, I noticed a billboard, on highway 93, just outside of Missoula, going up the canyon, I believe, early on, before hitting St. Ignatius . . . I didn't catch it in time to read the whole thing, but, I did read the DAILY INTER LAKE, Thursday, June 16, 2016, OPINION section, the letter by, DAVID PASSIERI, St. Ignatius . . . I just wanted to bullet some of the highlights of his article . . . and make a few comments:

• Farmers and Ranchers for Montana (F.A.R.M.) an organization formed and funded by dark money, is at it again.  (this organization did not exist, back when I started to work on the Salish-Kootenai Water Compact . . . the money behind, this, FAKE organization, I believe, is connected to everything, I said above, the same people stealing, my money, my sons' money, and they are pro federal government, who has jurisdiction over the Indians, sole jurisdiction; therefore the people of the state of Montana, once, having lost control of the Flathead Irrigation District, Kerr Dam, and other waters, are basically turning their water back over to the federal government . . . I have heard that the Indians, were never behind the compact, and that the feds are just using them as a front, for a hidden agenda, that they can't pull off, or get away with, when ranchers and farmers are involved!)
• You have seen the media blitz across our great state touting the high praise of the Montana Water Compact.  (that is the first I have ever heard that name, and I have been involved since, late 2012 or early 2013! so this is NEW TO ME TOO! and I saw the billboard, trying to convince Montanans that all was on the up and up, and not only is the compact, UNCONSTITUTIONAL, it was not passed by 2/3rds of the Montana Legislature, so there is NO COMPACT, and the governor cannot sign a bill into law, that has not gone through the DUE PROCESS!)
• Therefore, it is clear, that F.A.R.M. employs the dubious art of deception.  (you know the fraud broads I talk about?  Yeah, the ones using my name, my credentials, or stealing and creating a similar version, and using a new name for me, like the alleged, famed attorney, Melissa Hornbein . . . these are code names, that have meaning to the insiders, in the group with the agenda . . . Me Love Lisa (sister of Kay) two "SS's" for the double use of the name, HORN, Brett, horny, horn dog, BE, IN . . . this is how, they communicate with each other, through, the newspaper, symbolic names, that only INSIDERS will recognize and they are not, above, making up, people, who are like, someone who had been involved in the issue, like I have, even steal their profile and resume, to promote their agenda; case in point, Sarah Palin, created in My image! really Rachel, my little sister!  these guys are gnarly fuckers, liars, cheaters, and want to take over the world . . . a Mormon President for the World!  That was on Kay's website, aka, Me, married to Brett, the title of a BBC documentary, shown in the UK, March 27, 2012! right after Mitt boy got the nomination, in the last election!  When you have millions and then billions of dollars, play money, politics is the name of the power game!  Whatever I get involved in, is like a competition, for these fucks, and at first they will, see what I am into, use the cops to chase me out, then bring in another version or double, and for awhile pretend to be on the same side, to get confidences and loyalties, charming psycopaths and federal agents, LET's be spies, cops, whatever, attorneys!  CIA, FBI, play this actor, actress shit show all the time!  Once they gain an inside road, they start to shift the game, from me, being on the side of the Constitution, which is a compromise, or the Hellgate Treaty is, and then the fuckers, come in and change it in favor of their CLUB, who has insider seats and trading, with all the Mormon connections!  SAME GAME, SAME PLAYERS, DIFFERENT ROLES, ALL FAKE!) 
• The great state of Montana future sovereignty and future new use water rights are at threat.  Crafted as certainty, the Confederated Salish and Kootenai Tribes Compact, aka, CSKT is the actual name of the federal threat that visits our watershed shores.  (up in the presumptions, I mentioned a presumption in the law of real estate and land . . . you cannot give more property or rights than you own!  Back in 1889, when Montana became a state, the United States Federal government, gave Montanans, all the water rights in ground, spring, surface, and wetlands and run off water, to the people of Montana!  IN the Hellgate Treaty of 1855, which came AFTER the United States Constitution, signed into the Supreme Law of the Land, around 1789, predating the treaty, that was to stop the wars, and that, was the deal, the U.S. federal government stopped sending the armies to kill all the Indians, in exchange for peace, and on that note, the, treaties were signed . . . giving the Indians, all the fishing they wanted in their traditional water holes, but as for the water, only that which is for their USE AND BENEFIT!  The government, cannot, give all the water in the state, based on the idea, that a fucking water right, is MERELY, for the use and benefit of anyone, who owns them, and if you don't use it, or benefit from it, you LOSE IT! it gone on down the stream for someone else's USE AND BENEFIT, that is just the way WATER RIGHTS WORK! for EVERYONE!  Indians are citizens of MONTANA, and they are required to record their water rights in the county recorders offices, as are their representatives, the BIA and the U.S. Government, on behalf of the Indians!  A water right, differs from a PROPERTY RIGHT, in and of the fact that it depends on USING IT!)
• so, it stands to reason, that, the commonly referred to Montana Water Compact is a federal propaganda fantasy.  Logically, a fantasy too is the recent blitz of advertisement high praise for this grand bargain to claim most of Western Montana's future growth of new water users into federal jurisdiction.  (In the enabling act, at the front of the Montana Constitution, Indians are the sole jurisdiction of the federal government, putting all the water in the Flathead and Kerr Dam, along with the streams and tributaries that flow, to and from the bodies of water, under the control of the U.S. federal government!  SORRY, even the federal government DOESN'T get to be INDIAN GIVERS, giving MONTANA ALL THE WATER IN THE STATE then TAKING IT AWAY! NO dice, UNFAIR PLAY!)
• Governor Bullock supports a federalization of Montana's watershed.  He affirmed the appointment of Chris Tweeten (Montana Attorney General, Tim Fox approves too, and the name Chris Tweeten, sounds like Tweet End, or now that we have this guy in charge, we no longer need to tweet, dude will take over. This is right up the line of Ms. Horn Be In! Meaning, that, the fucked compact, or the manipulated one, will win or be IN!  These fuckers, HATE THE CONSTITUTIONS, because it is CONTRARY TO THEIR NEW WORLD ORDER, under Poppy Bush and W., all this goes right along with the Patriot Act, and it is to FUCK AMERICA!  How do you control the people? take over the world? let cops run the whole fucking law enforcement for the world? control the WATER RIGHTS AND WATER!  Not only is this done with dark money, MINE, it is done with DARK AND CRIMINAL MINDS . . . these dumb asses, all of whom I know, are lame asses, psychopaths, sociopaths, narcissists! murders, liars and thieves!)
• for those who are interested in PROTECTING YOUR WATER, YOUR STATE, KEEPING THE TREASURE THE TREASURE STATE, FUCKING THE WATER KINGS, QUEENS, cheating you out of ALL YOUR WATER, go read the article.  I want to finish with the last paragraph . . . the missing part, is the fact that media blitz, that I can attest to, is up and going to make you be lulled into complacency, thinking, this is a WONDERFUL deal for MONTANANS, fucking water rights and control in 11 counties, 300,000 people in those counties!

MONTANANS WILL NEVER FORGET AND WILL NEVER QUIT.  The forever federal jurisdiction of most of Montana's future untapped new water uses is a threat to Montana's resource rich sovereignty!

BOTH THE MAIN PLAYERS ARE UP FOR RE-ELECTION!

VOTE, VOTE, VOTE!!!!!!!

P.S., I believe, Shelley, or even all of these people, presenting themselves as attorneys, which Kay is, but no one else, probably made a shit load of money, on the water compact!  Shelley jumped on it, right after I did, because, I was still going back and forth, trying to close out my practice in Utah, without, getting accused of "ineffective assistance of counsel."  When I came back to any town, or was close, or going to places where the water compact was going to be discussed . . . cops were used to run me out of the town or city, nice cozy relationship!  Shelley or someone, started using my identity, probably 16 years ago, and it worked so well, they just starting making more and more of me, using my ID, and my law degree, including my Social Security, and birthday, like the person, back in 2008, who was attending Dixie State College, later University at the time, using my name, my social security number, and my birthday!  It was easy, because, I thought, once, I let someone in the family, know that, I was onto Shelley, or Rachel, or Kay, Sue, Tiff, later and probably Marcie too . . . I figured that they would back off, afraid of being caught, or charged with fraud and identity threat; however, when it worked so well, I believe the cops, who already hated me, teamed up with this crew of thugs, and just expanded and expanded . . . they had already stolen music, and it grew from there!

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