Temptation, Deceit, Betrayal
I think the first time I learned not to do anything with another girl's guy, which, I didn't, he did, but I got blamed for it, but I was swinging on a swing, and my best friend's alleged boyfriend, as boyfriend and girlfriend, as you can get at that age, came up behind me and simply pushed me on the swing. Without knowing that anything was wrong with what had just happened, my friend, Jan, came up and started yelling at me, telling me I was stealing her boyfriend, and she gave me the silent treatment, dissing me to other friends in our circle of friends . . . really? I had not been the one, who came up and pushed him, flirted with him, it was he, she should be mad at, not me. I remember, not only the unfair accusations, but that thought, that it not something, I will ever do to someone, else. And to my knowledge, with the proper information on some one's relationship, I have never done, tempted, perhaps, but it is totally hands off.
I took that personal code of honor, to the extreme, so that even if me and group of friends were going dancing in Park City, Utah, or Las Vegas, Nevada, if we even walked into a club, and one of my friends, said, I dubs him, the guy over their with the red shirt, it was hands off, unless, he actually, came up to me first, and asked me to dancing, leaving her no choice in the matter, which happened often, but she dealt with it. So, this is one of those things, matters of the heart, that I don't tread on, nor do I want someone doing it to me. Last night, I was watching another movie, I think it was Betrayal of the Heart, if, I remember right, with two very close sisters, almost living as recluses, together, who have a plan to just entice a guy to their home, and then get pregnant by him.
Sisters & Brothers?
One of the sisters, actually, falls in love with him and he her . . . but the other sister, who seemed to be joined, or who felt, connected by some quantum physics, to her sister, was jealous, and one day, sent her to the store, and seduced the guy, who had a dream the night before that she came in his bedroom and started to tempt him, into having sex. Which he did . . . the sister was disgusting, but the guy was also! It was at least understandable for the sister to be jealous, one guy, two young women, and the two where very close, but I would hold the guy more responsible, he was in love with the other sister, and still had sex with the envious sister, who ends up killing him, because he really is in love with the one sister . . . and I ended up having to stop watching the movie, because, John and I went to look at the blood moon, that happened at 4:00 a.m., in a much less dramatic way than either of us suspected. The story behind all the hype on the Internet, is that it has something to do with a dramatic event, like end of times, or something . . . John's stuff.
Friends? Have You No Class?
Boys will be boys, is not a good enough reason to cheat on a partner, no matter who tempting, it is you, who has the relationship with the other person, not the third party; therefore, the greater amount of the blame, lands on the one in the committed relationship, so it always, surprises me, that one of the cheaters, either kills the innocent spouse, to get rid of them, of the one involved, actually kills the third party! While the cheater, seems to appear to get off Scot free, without paying the price for their indiscretions. There was another movie, called, The Good Mistress, who is hit on by her best friend's husband, whom the new friend, having just moved to the same town with her friend, and getting a job with her, and has never met her husband, and knows him by a different name than this new, seemingly perfect match, who has just killed another mistress, so to say, and is running for a political office . . . but, once she finds out that this is actually her friend's husband, she tells him in no uncertain, to leave her alone, that this is over, and she means it. So, in reality, she really was not a mistress at all, because she never knew the guy was married, and did everything to get rid of him, stop him, reject him, refuse to read his emails, and the story ends up, with the good mistress actually catching this guy, through the exact same note, he wrote to both the victim and herself, but it is the wife friend, who is mopping up the sticky little details to take care of her husband's political career, her rivals, and wife is killing the women, he seduces!
Fact is stranger than fiction . . . way stranger, you could not make these stories up! Anyway, just a couple I thought, the reader might be interested in, by way of don't do this, or stay away from this type situation, or this guy or gal is trouble, think twice, or just for your entertainment, and legal training, on the cases, that help form the laws, that we are dealing with today, or that protect us today. Most of these free movies, under true crimes, are like it says, true stories, and have some kind of significance, or merit to them, thus, someone made them into a movie, but they are older films, 1991 and up, but they are great, you just have to ignore the clothes, the cars, the hair do's, and the crappy quality of the films, but the stories are great and very insightful, and serve as a warning, if you haven't already gathered that three is a crowd!
Stroking Your Ego, With Someone Else's Heart, Not Cool
In, Danger of Love, you have a handsome, high school teacher and coach, who is basically seduced by another female teacher, but he really doesn't put up much of a fight. This woman, is rich, and unbeknown to him, has a history, of doing kind of like, fatal attraction, like stuff, remember Glenn Close, boiling the rabbit, in Michael Douglas' soup pot. You don't fuck around, and expect the other person, when you make up with your wife, or husband, to go merrily on their way, without feeling used and abused, and sometimes pregnant . . . oh, whooops, that didn't fit in my plans, for my life, see ya! I just don't think so. So this chick, obsessed, and I have found, that the more you reject and push away a fatal attraction, or obsessed relationship, the stronger they come on, the more determined they get, and the scarier it gets! I dated a psychologist, at the same time, I was trying to get rid of a fatal attraction, yet, playing with the emotions of the one, the obsessed, who eventually ended up, going to prison, for forgery, because he had to watch me every second, knowing my comings and goings . . . he was in prison for 18 months of my law school training, and he was released right about the time I was to graduate, and I thought, that seriously, I was going to have to wear a bullet proof vest, under my graduation gown!
It was not my fault that he got obsessed, nor went to prison, but I did play games with his heart, big time, sending double messages, using him as an experiment, to see what he would do if I did, this, or if I did that, and int he process, driving him insane, figuratively speaking, both pushing him away, yet, giving in to him, if he was persistent enough, really doing a number on him, with his friend, alarmed, and shocked, that Mr. Casanova, was tanking big time, to this older woman, whom, he really was obsessed with from the first, truly a fatal attraction, that I tried to stay away from, but flirted with the danger, for the fun of it! A gamer! He had come to his senses in prison, and he wanted revenge, like you will see in another movie, I am going to tell you about . . . sometimes, it is just in the stars, or a chemical reaction, or just fate, stupidity, or not knowing how to successfully reject someone either . . . I was definitely guilty, of fueling the obsession fire, just as a bright red, refinished, cool old truck, pulled in McDonald's, with flames of white, orange and gold, on the front, like God, through symbols, taking Paul's side, saying, hell yeah, you threw gasoline on a fire! In my defense, I will say, I tried to get rid of him, rejected him from the first second, he demanded either a dime or my phone number, and I gave him a dime!
This fellow teacher, the male teacher has an affair with, is not taking no for an answer, after he decides to be faithful to his wife, who he finds out, after, this fatal attraction chick, kills his alleged innocent wife, but she was not as innocent as he had originally thought, she was having an affair with a boss at the bank she worked at, for 9 years! The husband never knew, never suspected, but the wife, was somewhat cold in bed, good clue! In the first movie, the one with the sisters, the guy torn between the sister he loves, and the sexual vixen, but, the guy realizes, immediately that some of the passion, desire, and love, for the first sister, has died, due to his dalliance with the sister.
NOTE: don't say God, doesn't want people to learn, Paul's last name is Roybal, and a truck with that name, huge on it just rolled down the street . . . I kind of get the idea, that God would just him less culpable than myself! I considered myself the victim, and it appears that others might see Paul as my victim, but all is well that ends well, we are friends, and he is happily married, and maybe justly so, I am single, so justice does prevail, and I am sure that he sided with my enemies, and said, that sister's other than myself, were me . . . you will pay for your thrills, one way or the other! No LOL! In fact, I would say, that much of my predicament, justified or not, is due to rejection of a string of lovers, who want to literally fuck me over! But, I believe, that is due to their egos, not mine, and I don't think that justice would dictate the cruel and unusual punishment, I have receive at their collective hands, merely for leaving a relationship, when I didn't see it in the stars to work! I think I have the female prerogative, to change my mind! And, I don't think that former lovers, have a right, when they are not even in my life, or visibly in my life, to actually kill, rival lovers, who are present! This is not a war, and all is not fair in love and war!
The O.J. Simpson, mantra, of If I can't have you, nobody can, is not fair, right, just, nor a reasonable position to take! Nor, is using the women that would hurt me the worst, right, just to get back at me! That is not fair to them! Which leads me to the next movie, that is a combo, of several guys I have either dated, or been married to, without the bodily rape, but definitely a psychic, figurative, financial, career, name, family, etc., rape, that is actually, possibly much crueler than a physical rape, and it just keeps on going. While I am no innocent angel, by any one's count, they are monsters! Rejection is not a game these men are too familiar with, but I am not just any woman either . . . for God sake, there is something that comes with a law degree, something to be desired, more than the bar flies, and waitresses, that have fawned over them in the past. Mr. Interpol, James Bond, internationally renowned spy, said to me, I HAVE NEVER BEEN TREATED LIKE THIS BY A WOMAN! Yeah, I actually expect more of you, than good looks, and a big dick! You know, some intelligent conversation for starters, might be in order, and no, I am not enamored simply by looks, or sex for that matter, and when you think you have your hook in me, it is you, who is caught on my line! Generally, there is a role reversal, that happens with me and men. Smart is the new sexy, and the brain, is the largest sex organ . . . I just catch them unaware, and they can't get loose!
The Price She Paid . . . The Case That Led To Denying Custody Battles or Visitation Rights to Convicted Rapists!
In this case, Loni Anderson, is raped on the second date, by an acquaintance, held at knife point, and threatened with her life, if she didn't go along with the rape. She presses charges and the guy goes to prison for 10 years. When he gets out, he starts showing up in her life again, has a job, a home, nice car, and he is charming and handsome, again, a manipulator, who thinks he can have whatever he wants, whenever he wants. To get revenge for his years in prison, he goes for custody of her son, that was the result of the rape. He is granted, visitation, and starts manipulating the friend, who is to be involved in the supervised visits, sleeps with her, he plays on Loni's boyfriends insecurities, gets the kid, through lies to turn against his mother, temporarily. And she gets a call from an inmate in the prison, who tells her, that this guy's ultimate plans, are actually to kill her. He doesn't care about the kid, or anyone else, other than to use them as a pawn against Loni. Finally, he threatens to kill their son, if she fights him, while he is again, trying to rape, and kill her.
Eventually, as she is being held, again, at knife point, like the last time, when he cut her severely, and is ripping her clothes off, to rape her, stating that he can have her any time he wants her, the son, who is about 12 or so at this point, hears the commotion, grabs the bat, and hits the dad over the head, temporarily knocking him unconscious, so that Loni, can grab her gun, and she doesn't hesitate to blow him away, this time. The son, then realizes that the father was just manipulating him, to use him, to go against his mother. And boy, doesn't that sound familiar to me . . . my law practice was not enough, my houses, cabin, my 5 cars, my multi-million dollar cases, my legislation, my blogs, my name, my resume, my blog, my safety, my life, the lives of those who would help me, anyone that got in the way of this megalomaniac, was fair game, in this total abuse of power! Only, my abusers, were actually a string of abusers, who were all acquaintances, friends, or friends of friends, throwing my son's music into the mix as well, first out right stealing it, then manipulating him, to bring him into their inner circle with the lure of connections, power, influence, positions, and fame, once again, stealing everything either from me, or eventually going to the heart of my life, helping others, take credit, not only for my entire life, but even for giving birth to my children! Erasing me totally!
Are You A Victim of Domestic Violence--NO, But I Am A Victim of Systemic Violence . . . Totally Dismissed, as if One Man is More Damaging than a Whole System, These Men Used Against ME!
I am shocked, as I have been chased, intimidated, threatened, pursued, targeted, stemming from coast to coast, north to south, and back again, as I have talked to women, who do intake in shelters, or for other services, that systemic abuse is dismissed, as, well, let's just move on! Are you fucking kidding me! So, you are willing to help, listen to, provide, care and protect, a woman from one angry husband, or abusive partner, but a whole damn system of cops, prosecutors, judges, CIA, FBI, NSA and other entities, you are not only unwilling to suspect, just as in the early days of domestic violence and sexual assault, you are in a way re-victimizing me, by aiding and abetting the male patriarchal system that is after me, willingly turning me in, ratting me out, divulging my location, the times I come and go, a total breach of confidentiality agreements . . . you are my enemies, not my friends, assuming, like you used to with abusive husbands, rapists, and the perpetrator, that it is I, who is asking for it, or deserve it, or if I had not gone up against them, this never would have happened, or you are jealous, or envious, and participate in the SYSTEMIC VIOLENCE, rather than doing what you are either being paid to do, getting grants and federal monies to do, and as ignorant of this type of abuse, as everyone was years ago, going right back to the victim blaming, of yesteryear!
Or, the thought that, I am an attorney; therefore, I can protect myself . . . really, when they have stolen all my ID, and everything else, that is the evidence of that power, self-protection, stopping me from getting jobs, cars, housing, and running me to the point of exhaustion, relentlessly pursuing me, 24/7! I guess single handed, I am suppose to beat all of these entities, that are trained to listen to your phone conversations, know every apartment and job you call on, buy every used car you even look at on the streets, and stop all sales of new vehicles, even after employment is secured, and agreements, signed, or cars at the final signing!
Yeah, you tell me, just how, I am suppose to do this, with what money, what car, what avenue . . . really, taking on local, state, and federal brotherhoods, not to mention the Mormon church, family, with infiltration of my family, back 10 years ago, forcing my children to chose between their mother, and their spouses, or significant others, who bring them family, stability, companionship, children, grandchildren . . . you tell me just exactly, how I am suppose to fight this, with poisoning children, lies, manipulations; "they" have money--MY MONEY, name, job titles, resumes, that gives them power, connections, taking all I have in the last 14 years, of them, a collective system, stealing anything that would give me a life for my children, taking houses, cars, money, all the trappings of parenthood, and being an attorney, that they are tricked, cajoled, forced, or paid to lie, to fit, the previous lies, thefts, and deceits . . . I may appear to be Super Woman, and on a level playing field can beat their asses, in mass, but they make sure the playing field is not even . . . and have fought off powers, dominions, and principalities, who have the power to make it look like everything I do, is done by someone else! If you were given a car, boat, house, simply for what you might consider a little white lie . . . seriously, saying that the woman you just had lunch with, was her sister, and I am either dead, disabled, in jail, or whatever lie, they want you to say, 99.9%, with the moral lacking public, would, lie without remorse!
Yeah, the price I had to pay, for looking ahead, getting a law degree, raising smart, beautiful, kind, talented children, taking many jobs, much to the chagrin of my mother, who said this will hurt you, NO, you mother will hurt me, claiming Kay is me, or Rachel, Shelley, Sue, Tiff, whoever is the flavor of the conglomerate it took to cover all MY bases! I every systematically took the jobs, I was offered . . . general counsel for the Utah Medical Association . . . yeah, they call and invite people to be their general counsel, and some fucking flight attendant, sister, who followed your advice, who is now jealous as hell of me, as are your other 5 daughters, if not your son, and all your in-laws, I can't help that you mocked me, yelled at me, chided me, made fun of me, for actually following a dream, to go to law school! Twenty years later, when you see the smart decision that was, and your other daughters, have never used their education and degrees, so you decide to ride on my laurels, education, resume, accomplishments, to bolster, the other 6 or 7 children, with Richard, allegedly dead, as Jesse is allegedly dead, probably the head money launderer, but taking claim of even MY CHILDREN? SHOCKING TO SAY THE LEAST . . . systemic violence, whether within the legal system, the law enforcement, the religious, the education for systemic domestic violence, like domestic enemies, needs to be recognized, systemic lying, systemic cover-up, systemic threats . . . all lying to cover the family secrets . . .
Betrayed By Love . . . FBI Agent Avery, Pretends to Love, Have Sex, Promises to Leave His Wife, to Get Information, Then Murders the Confidential Informant When She Refuses to Get an Abortion, and Wants to Make the Agent Pay for Using Her!
This case is the first one in the history of the FBI, and I would guess, the CIA, but sure as hell not the last, where the agents have used the confidential informants, or the person, they are investigating, and then turn around an throw them away like trash . . . I hope Agent Avery's 25 years in prison was worth it! There are damn good policy reasons, why agents should not sleep with their witnesses, their clients, their informants, because, you are playing with fire, whether you are satisfying your own selfish desires, using your occupation to merit and justify, going after matters of the heart. With my son, Elliot, the bass guitarist for God's Revolver & Maraloka, I would bet my life, that his old girlfriend, Rachel, and his new girlfriend, Lauren, are both paid girlfriends, on assignment, and will persuade him to do what the company wants, turning him against the very woman who gave him birth, bought him his first guitar, took him to lessons, concerts, practices, picking up band members over 150 miles apart, wrote my blog about the bands, giving them not only national exposure, but international exposure, but he is a man, he does have a dick, and love will get this tender heart of a man, every time, and kill him, to give up, a matter of survival . . . once that is in place, they can get him, as they have with the other children, who then have choices to make, with regard to matters of the heart!
I would say, this is hitting below the belt, and I am sure, that you love my children, as I do, with no right to them, pretending that they are not even the one, who raised them, are you fucking kidding! Simply beyond all decency, ethics, integrity, morals, totally unconscionable, without merit, cause, other than you manipulating, striping, stealing, and taking all form of family life from me, to control, and manipulate amazing children, who have thrived, in spite of your persecution, tampering with their lives, challenging their very souls, and then offering them, what you have taken them . . . a family life, while you chase me, put out false warrants, and claim my children as your own, when all of yours are probably dying, as you would rather, for money, choose mine over your own, can you even imagine, money is not everything. Yes, my children are at a stage in their lives, that the systemic violence you perpetrated, not only against me, but against them, makes them long for calm, security, prosperity, family solidarity, and you have taken that very thing from them, then turned around and offered that to them, join us, the Southwick extended family, the money, dis your mother, she abandoned you, hearing that over and over again, when I was with my children, more, before the poisoning, that your little fucking housewives were with their own, even while holding down big time jobs, teaching college, and writing manuals, and computer programs on the side!
They psychological method they are using on my children and my family, is break them, then fix them . . . they create the problem, and then they step into to solve the problem, same pattern for the government, the economy, the wars, etc., watch this pattern, not hard to see!
