RAW STORY, HOT THRILLER, PERFECT PITCH . . . "THE WELFARE OF THE PEOPLE IS THE SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND"--CRIMINAL JUSTICE: NOTHING CUTS DEEPER--STATEMENT ABOUT PLEA BARGAINING--OFTEN A TRAVESTY OF JUSTICE! BUT, THAT MOVIE STATEMENT, IS DEAD WRONG . . . THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION, IS THE SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND! I HAVE SAID THIS, SEVERAL TIMES, AND I WILL STATE IT AS MANY TIMES AS NEEDED, UNTIL IT SINKS INTO THE MINDS OF THE CRIMINAL JUSTICE PLAYERS: (1) COPS; (2) PROSECUTORS; AND (3) COURTS OR JUDGES . . . IN THIS COUNTRY, JUSTICE IS METED OUT, THROUGH A COMPLICATED, INTRICATE, SYSTEM OF RIGHTS, AND IT IS NOT FOUND, IN THE HEADS OF COPS, PROSECUTORS AND THE COURTS OR JUDGES, WHO ALSO, MUST FOLLOW, THE RIGHTS, PROTECTIONS, AND GUARANTEES THAT ARE FOUND IN THE "BILL OF RIGHTS!" THE FIRST THING, THAT A GOVERNMENT OFFICIAL, CHARGED WITH WRONG DOING WILL, SCREAM FOR, EVEN HAVING VIOLATED THE RIGHTS OF OTHERS, MAYBE FOR DECADES, IS THEIR CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS! CASE IN POINT, TWO FORMER UTAH ATTORNEY GENERALS, CHARGED WITH CORRUPTION, BRIBERY, MALFEASANCE AND MISFEASANCE IN OFFICE, BEING SEEN GETTING ARRESTED, SAID, I AM JUST GLAD THAT I HAVE MY CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS TO PROTECT ME! ONE OF THOSE FORMER AG'S, WAS A NAMED DEFENDANT, IN MY CIVIL RIGHTS SUIT, AGAINST THE STATE OF UTAH, DEPARTMENT OF COMMERCE, DIVISION OF SECURITIES, FOR VIOLATING THE RIGHTS OF TWO OF MY CLIENTS, FOR TAKING AWAY THEIR SECURITIES LICENSES, WITHOUT DUE PROCESS OF LAW, EQUAL PROTECTION, 6 VIOLATIONS UNDER THE U.S. CONSTITUTION, AND 29 VIOLATIONS UNDER THE UTAH CONSTITUTION! ONE IS THE SUPREME LAW OF THE LAND, THE OTHER, THE SUPREME LAW OF THE STATE, BASED ON THE FEDERAL DOCUMENT, BUT WITH DETAILS ON HOW TO RUN THE STATE, RATHER THAN THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT OR DICTATING THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THE TWO, AND THERE ARE EVEN MORE RIGHTS, PROVIDED, IN SOME OF THE STATE CONSTITUTIONS, AND THOSE ARE FOR THE MOST PART, IN HARMONY WITH THE U.S. CONSTITUTION, BUT GIVE ADDITIONAL RIGHTS TOO. AS LONG AS THE TWO DOCUMENTS, DON'T CONFLICT, A CITIZEN IS ENTITLED, THROUGH INCORPORATION OF THE 9TH AND 10TH AMENDMENTS TO THE U.S. CONSTITUTION, GIVING CITIZENS DUEL CITIZENSHIP, AND DUEL RIGHTS AND PROTECTIONS, THAT ARE NOT TO BE SUMMARILY DECIDED BY A COP, PROSECUTORS, NOR IS THE LAW TO BE FOUND IN THE HEAD OF SOME JUDGE! THE LEGISLATIVE BODIES IN THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT, OR CONGRESS IS TO CREATE THE LAWS TO CARRY ON THE BUSINESS OF THE NATION, AND EACH INDIVIDUAL STATE LEGISLATURES TO CARRY ON THE BUSINESS OF THE STATES, AND THEN YOU HAVE STATE CONSTITUTIONAL PROVISIONS, THAT LIMIT WHAT THE STATES CAN TO, IN REGARDS TO COUNTIES, WHO ALSO HAVE LEGISLATIVE BODIES, COUNTY COMMISSIONS, AND SO FORTH, TO CITIES, TOWNSHIPS AND MUNICIPALITIES, WHO HAVE LOCAL LEGISLATIVE BODIES, CITY COUNCILS, AND SO FORTH! WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY OF LAWS, NOT RANDOM THOUGHTS, FOUND IN SOME HEAD OF LOCAL, STATE, AND NATIONAL OFFICIALS WORKING UNDER COLOR OF LAW . . . AS AN ATTORNEY, LEGALLY TRAINED, WITH FOUR BAR MEMBERSHIPS, 3 MORE THAN MOST JUDGES, I SHOULD WITH ALL CONFIDENCE, BE ABLE TO GO TO THE CONSTITUTIONS, STATUTES, IN OUR COMPLICATED SYSTEM, A FEDERALIST SYSTEM OF A FEDERAL GOVERNMENT, AS WELL AS 50 STATES THAT ARE SOVEREIGN, AND PREDICT, PRETTY CLOSE WHAT THE CHANCES OF MY CLIENT, EITHER WINNING OR LOSING THEIR CASE, AND TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT WITH SOME CERTAINTY, WHEN DEALING WITH A BENCH TRIAL . . . JURIES, MAY THROW A KINK IN THE OUTCOME, BUT, THAT JUDGE, JURY INSTRUCTIONS, AND THE LAW, STILL SHOULD DICTATE . . . THERE ARE GRAY AREAS, BUT, THE LAW, IS THE LAW, IS THE LAW! YESTERDAY, I WATCHED, SOME COOL MOVIES: (1) DEADLY MATRIMONY (1992) AND ABSOLUTELY GREAT DEPICTION OF WHAT, I GOOD COP, IN THIS CASE, OR ATTORNEY, IN MY CASES, FACES, WHEN WORKING WITHIN A VERY CORRUPT COUNTY . . . THIS ONE WAS FILMED IN CROOK COUNTY, ILLINOIS, A TRUE STORY, OF A LAWYER, THE MOB, DIRTY COPS, PROSECUTORS AND BOUGHT AND PAID FOR JUDGES . . . EVENTUALLY, THE GOOD COP, HAD TO GO OUTSIDE HIS COUNTY TO THE FEDS TO FINALLY GET JUSTICE AND RESOLUTION, WITH ALL THE CORRUPTION IN HIS PRECINCT, DEPARTMENT, AND THE COURTS! MY PROBLEM WAS, THAT IN MY CASE, I COULD NOT EVEN GO TO THE FEDS, BECAUSE THEY WERE IN ON IT TOO, GIVEN THE MORMON CHURCH CONNECTION WITH THE FBI, CIA, NSA, AND OTHER ALPHABET SOUP AGENCIES, AND IN ONE CASE, MARCH 9, 2012, IN THE FRANK MOSS FEDERAL COURT HOUSE IN SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH, TWO FBI AGENTS, WERE IN ATTENDANCE, WATCHING THE FEDERAL MAGISTRATE AT THE TIME, NOW A FEDERAL DISTRICT COURT JUDGE, LITERALLY THROW THE U.S. CONSTITUTION OUT OF THE COURTROOM, AND I ACCUSED HIM OF DOING THAT, AND THAT STATEMENT SHOULD BE ONE THE RECORD, THAT HAS NOW BEEN DOUBLE DOCKETED, TO COVER THE CORRUPTION AND THEFT OF THE CASE! BUT THIS, MOVIE, IS A GREAT EXAMPLE OF SYSTEMIC CORRUPTION, AND SHOWS WHAT A COP, HAD TO FIGHT, EVEN WITHIN IS OWN DEPARTMENT! GOOD STUFF! NOW TIMES THAT BY THE LOCAL, STATE AND FEDERAL CORRUPTION AND RAMIFICATIONS IN MY CASE, DURING AN ELECTION CYCLE WITH A MORMON PRESIDENTIAL CANDIDATE, AND THE CORRUPTION, ESCALATED, SKY HIGH! THE COP GOT, THE FEDS TO TAKE DOWN THE MOB AND THEIR CRONIES, THROUGH, RICO CHARGES--RACKETEERING, MONEY LAUNDERING, GAMBLING, PROSTITUTION, ATTEMPTED MURDER, CONSPIRACY TO COMMIT MURDER, ETC., AND (2) JACK REED: A SEARCH FOR JUSTICE (1994) AGAIN MOB, BIKERS, CONTROLLING THE COP SHOPS, COURTS, AND PROSECUTORS, ALL INVOLVED IN THE COVER-UP OF A MURDER, INVOLVING A MOBSTER, WHO MURDERED THE MOTHER OF HIS UNBORN CHILD, BECAUSE HE WANTED HER TO KEEP DANCING IN HIS NIGHT CLUB, SEEING HER MORE AS HIS PROPERTY, NOW DAMAGED GOODS BEING WITH CHILD, SO HE KILLED HER. AS THE COP, TRIED TO INVESTIGATE, HE WAS BLOCKED, FROM DOING A STING OP ON A CHOP SHOP, ALSO RUN BY THE MOBSTER, AND EVEN COMES TO FIND, 3 COP VEHICLES, UP ON THE BLOCKS, RATHER THAN THE STOLEN VEHICLES THAT NORMALLY WERE THERE . . . MIND YOU, THIS FILM, WAS MADE, BACK IN 1994 TO OTHER 1992, BACK WHEN I FIRST STARTED SEEING THE CORRUPTION, IN STATE OFFICIALS, EVEN ON THE FIRST WEEK ON THE JOB, AS AN ASSISTANT ATTORNEY GENERAL, STAFF ATTORNEY FOR THE UTAH PROSECUTION COUNCIL . . . I WENT STEALTH IN THE GOVERNMENT, LITERALLY, ONE WEEK ON THE JOB, SEEING COPS, PROSECUTOR AND JUDGES ASSOCIATIONS FIGHT OVER SURECHARGES TACKED ON TO FEES AND FINES FOR ALLEGED CRIMES AND CONNECTED TO CONVICTIONS! I BECAME, THE SELF APPOINTED, "UTAH PROSECUTOR" TO PROSECUTE THE STATE OF UTAH FOR THE PEOPLE, BY LAW OF THE UNITED STATES AND STATE CONSTITUTION! ANYWAY, GOOD WATCHING FOR ANY COP, PROSECUTOR, OR JUDGE, WHO MIGHT FIND THEMSELVES, DOING THINGS RIGHT, AND GETTING FUCKED, SET UP, AND KILLED FOR DOING SO! ADD WHAT 20 SOME ODD YEARS TO THAT, AND ALL THE TECHNOLOGY, AND YOU CAN SEE THE COMPLEXITY OF WHAT I WAS DEALING WITH, ELECTRONIC FILING, NSA OBSERVATION, INTERCEPTING AND SENDING ALL MY EMAIL COMMUNICATIONS THROUGH WASHINGTON, D.C., HOMELAND SECURITY AND THE DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE, WHO WERE JUST AS PRONE TO CORRUPTION, IF NOT MORE SO, GIVE THE POWER! I FOUND, THAT IF NOTHING ELSE, SOMEONE WRONGED, WANTS THEIR STORY TOLD, WANTS PEOPLE TO SEE, UNDERSTAND THE CORRUPTION, AND IF JUSTICE CAN'T BE SERVED, AT LEAST, SEE WHAT IS GOING ON, EXPOSE THIS SHIT AND FIX IT, BECAUSE, 'TIL IT HAPPENS TO YOU", YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA! JUST THIS MORNING, IN A CONVERSATION AT, YES, THE POVERELLO CENTER FOR THE HOMELESS, WHICH, I DARE NOT BE ANYTHING ELSE, BEING A SITTING DUCK TO BE ABDUCTED AND MURDERED SOME NIGHT, WITHOUT ANYONE KNOWING WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, BUT HE SAID, WITH ALL YOUR WORK WITH THE GOVERNMENT OR YOUR BLOG, DON'T YOU THINK YOU ARE BEING PARANOID--FUCK NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE BODY COUNT IS MOUNTING, THE DANGER NO LESS . . . I AM A FUCKING LEGAL FICTION, THEY HAVE BLOCKED ME FROM GETTING BACK MY I.D. AND IN THEIR MINDS, THE FACT THAT, I HAVE NO I.D., I DON'T FUCKING EXIST AND I HAVE, AT LEAST 6 DOUBLES READY TO TAKE MY PLACE, AND THEY, THE SUPER MOB, IS USING ME TO TRAIN, MY OWN REPLACEMENT! THESE BITCHES HAVE TO DO WHAT THEY SAY, THEY ARE AS DIRTY AS THEIR MASTERS, THEY ARE GOVERNMENT MOB, MENTALITY, AND THEY ONLY EXIST, TO DO ONE THING, TAKE MY PLACE AND FUCK ME OVER! I HAVE BEEN CHASED, SINCE FALL OF 2011 . . . I AM JUST SMARTER THAN THEY ARE, AND THEY ARE GREEDY, MAKING ALL THE MONEY OFF ALL THE WORK I DO! MAYBE, SOME FUCKING COPS, PROSECUTORS AND JUDGES, CAN GET AN EDUCATION, FOR WHAT AND WHOM, I AM DEALING WITH, AND WHAT SOME OF THE PROBLEMS ARE . . . AND IN BOTH TRUE CRIME STORIES, THE TWO WOMEN WHO WERE MURDERED, HAD DONE NOTHING! BUT THE COP, INVESTIGATING THE TWO CASES WAS . . . HE WAS THREATENED, NEVER PROMOTED FOR GETTING SOME COPS LOCKED UP FOR LIFE, HE HAD COPS COME TO HIS HOUSE AND THREATEN TO SHOOT HIM, HIS FAMILY WAS THREATENED . . . I MEAN COME ON! HOW HARD IS THIS TO FIGURE OUT? I THINK YOU ARE FUCKING RETARDED NOT TO SEE IT, BUT, I AM A FEMALE, AND WITH OR WITHOUT A SCARF ON MY HEAD, OR A BURQUA COVERING ME, AND MANY OF YOU WITH THE MENTALITY OF THE SEALS, COMMANDOS, AND DELTA FORCES, WOULD RATHER SLAP A WOMAN, THAN LISTEN TO HER . . . I HAVE DONE, MORE THAN ANY FUCKING MAN ALIVE, IN THIS BATTLE ON DOMESTIC SOIL, TO PROTECT, PRESERVE AND DEFEND THE CONSTITUTION, OTHER THAN LIKE PRESIDENT WASHINGTON AND LINCOLN! I HAVE THE SCARS, BATTLE WOUNDS, AND STORIES TO MATCH! LIKE YOU SPECIAL FORCES, THERE ARE BATTLES BOTH DOMESTIC AND FOREIGN, I HAVE BEEN BATTLING ON THE HOME FRONT FOR FUCKING 20 YEARS, I AM A FUCKING VETERAN, NOT OF FOREIGN WARS, BUT OF THESE LESS KNOW, BUT JUST AS INSIDIOUS WARS, THAT ARE DESTROYING THIS NATION! GET A CLUE, WOMEN FIGHT TOO!

RUNNING HOT! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, POVERELLO HOMELESS CENTER! HOME SWEET, HOME, FOR THE MOMENT! LOL! NEW STUDY REVEALS TRUE REASON PEOPLE DON'T GET JOBS--THEY ARE TOO GOOD LOOKING--DEFINITELY MY PROBLEM! SERIOUSLY, THIS STUDY FOUND THAT, ESPECIALLY GOOD LOOKING MEN, THREATEN BOSSES, AND THEY ARE AFRAID THE LOOKERS, WILL BE BANGING ALL THE CHICKS IN THE OFFICE, THEREFORE, THEY ARE LESS LIKELY TO HIRE A RIVAL MALE . . . AND HOT CHICKS, COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, THAT THERE ARE MORE MALE BOSSES, THAT, HAVE NO PROBLEM HIRING YOU . . . BUT A LONG TIME, FEMALE ADMINISTRATIVE ASSISTANT OR OFFICE MANAGER, MAY BE YOUR UNDOING! IT HURTS TO BE BEAUTIFUL! LOL! IT'S MORE FUN TOO! LOL! HONESTLY, THE HOTTEST GUYS, I HAVE EVER SEEN, OTHER THAN IN THE MOVIES--HOMELESS SHELTERS: KENNEDY, PHIL, CHARLIE, CHRIS, ETC.--AND WE ARE TALKING, I HAVE WORKED IN OR WITH, THE HOTTEST PROFESSIONS, BUT WITH NERDS, ATTORNEY, GENERAL COUNSEL TO THE UTAH MEDICAL ASSOCIATION--DOCS, AND A PROFESSOR AT THREE UNIVERSITIES! ALL IS NOT TRAGEDY AT THE HOMELESS SHELTER . . . POV LOVE IS ALIVE AND WELL! I TOLD YOU I WOULD GIVE YOU A BREAK FOR THE CHRISTMAS SEASON--THE ONLY BREAK YOUR GOING TO GET, IS, I AM WRITING FROM THE BREAK CAFE'; I DON'T DRINK COFFEE, BUT THEY HAVE DIET COKE! QUICHE AND PASTRIES, KILLER! I GOT TOO PISSED OFF, READING THE MISSOULIAN NEWSPAPER, ON BUS 11, THE LONG WAY TO THE TRANSIT CENTER, AND ONTO THE BREAK, OUT TO THE AIRPORT AND AROUND TOWN, DIGGING WATCHING MISSOULA WAKE UP, BUT READING THE PAPER, MADE ME TOO PISSED OFF TO REMAIN SILENT, 'TIS THE SEASON, ON THREE TOPICS: (1) UNIVERSITY OF MONTANA, ENTERTAINING CUTTING HUMANITIES! SCREAM! MORE POWER IN YOUR HANDS! COLLEGE TAUGHT ME HOW TO WRITE! IN MY FIRST ENGLISH CLASS, THAT I VOWED I WOULD NEVER TAKE, UNLESS I EVER GRADUATED . . . WHICH WAS UNLIKELY, GIVEN TOO LITTLE TIME, AND SO MANY MEN, BUT AFTER I GOT MARRIED AND SETTLED DOWN A BIT, AT LEAST FOR A WHILE, MY HUSBAND ASKED ME TO TAKE AN ENGLISH CLASS, AGAINST MY BETTER JUDGEMENT, BELIEVING AT THE TIME, THAT, YOU WERE EITHER BORN WITH WRITING SKILLS OR YOU WERE NOT! AND I WAS IN THE LATTER CATEGORY. MY FIRST ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT, WAS TO WRITE "ONE" FUCKING PARAGRAPH, AND IT TOOK ME ALL DAY! LOL! THE HOUSE WAS TRASHED, KIDS RUNNING WILD, AND ME ALMOST IN TEARS! LOL! NOW I KICK THIS SHIT OUT, LIKE, I CAN'T HELP MYSELF, I LOVE IT SO MUCH! BLOGGING, AND IT TOOK A LOT TO GET ME TO THIS POINT, IT IS SO POWERFUL, MIND BLOWING, AND FUN! WHATEVER YOUR PROFESSION, YOU BETTER BE ABLE TO COMMUNICATE OR WRITE ABOUT IT, OR THE GREATEST DISCOVERING ON THE PLANET, WILL GO BY THE WAYSIDE--THE BREAD AND BUTTER OF ANY COLLEGE, IS "PUBLICATIONS" OF FACULTY, IN SCHOLARLY JOURNALS AND MAGAZINES--BRAGGING RIGHTS = $$$$$$$! SO GET REAL! (2) OKAY, A WEEK OR SO AGO, SECRETARY OF DEFENSE, CARTER, SAID, THAT ALL BRANCHES OF THE MILITARY, WOULD NOW BE OPEN TO WOMEN . . . AND I GUESS A SURVEY WAS GIVEN TO THE ALLEGED, "ELITE FORCES"--SEALS, DELTA FORCE, AND COMMANDOS, THEIR RESULTS AND REACTION WAS APPALLING, AT BEST! SOME SAID, THAT MEN AROUND THE WORLD WOULD RATHER, SLAP A WOMAN, THAN LISTEN TO HER . . . PROJECTIONS, PROJECTIONS, PROJECTIONS . . . NO, YOU WOULD RATHER SMACK A WOMAN THAN LISTEN TO HER, EVEN IF SHE IS 10X SMARTER THAN YOU FUCKERS! BRAWN VS. BRAIN--I VOTE ON THE BRAIN--ANYTIME--DON'T FIGHT HARDER, FIGHT SMARTER! YOU SAID, A 130 POUND WOMAN, COULD NOT DRAG A 225 POUND MAN TO SAFETY . . . PERHAPS, SHE COULD WRITE THE STRATEGIC PLANS FOR YOUR NEXT STEALTH MISSION! I LOVED SEC. OF DEFENSE, CARTER'S RESPONSE, HE SAID, IF WOMEN CAN HANDLE THE ENTRANCE INTO THESE "MISOGYNIST MALE BASTIONS" BY WAY OF STAMINA, INTELLIGENCE, PROFESSIONALISM, AND CONTRIBUTION, IN A MULTIPLICITY OF AREAS, NOT JUST MUSCLE POWERED, THEN THEY WILL BE WELCOMED! YOU SAID, YOU WERE WORRIED ABOUT YOUR WIVES JEALOUSY . . . NO, WORRY ABOUT YOUR OWN FUCKING DICK, STOP BLAMING YOUR WIFE, FOR YOUR INFIDELITIES . . . CHEATING IS ABOUT "YOU" NOT HER! YOU SAY YOUR TEAMS ARE FAMILIES . . . HOW MANY FAMILIES, DON'T HAVE WOMEN, SISTERS IN THEM? CHRIST SAID, TREAT EVERY WOMAN LIKE YOUR MOTHER, EVERY YOUNG WOMAN OR GIRL, LIKE YOUR SISTER! THINK ALONG THOSE LINES! ISRAEL, HAS FOR DECADES, REQUIRED WOMEN TO SERVE, IN THE MILITARY, RIGHT ALONG SIDE THE MEN, ALL FOR TWO YEARS . . . FIND OUT HOW THEY MAKE IT WORK! AND IF YOUR WANT TO LIMIT SEXUAL ASSAULTS IN THE MILITARY, CUT YOUR FUCKING COCK OFF TO SAVE YOUR OWN SOUL . . . WOMEN SHOULD NOT BE DENIED, SERVING THEIR COUNTRY, I WHATEVER CAPACITY THEY CAN, BECAUSE OF YOUR SEXUAL DEPRAVITY AND WEAKNESS! GET A GRIP ON IT! ONLY YOU CAN PREVENT, FOREST FIRES . . . DON'T PLAY WITH FIRE, AND YOU WON'T GET BURNED! (3) MUSLIM WOMEN, ARE CONSIDERING IN LIGHT OF THE RECENT TERRORIST ATTACKS IN PARIS AND IN SAN BERNEDINO, DISCARDING THEIR HEAD SCARFS OR JIHABS . . . MY VOTE IS YES, IT DOES DRAW ATTENTION TO YOU, AND YOU CAN BE A FAITHFUL MUSLIM, WITHOUT THE HEAD GEAR! YOUR LIVES ARE FAR MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR SCARF! IT IS TO SOME POINT, A REMINDER TO FEMINIST WOMEN LIKE ME, THAT, MALE REPRESSION, DID THIS TO YOU, CREATED THIS DRESS AND RELIGIOUS DECORUM, MUCH FOR THE SAME REASON, AS THE SEALS, DELTA FORCES, AND COMMANDOS, DON'T WANT WOMEN IN THE MILITARY, BECAUSE, THEY ARE GOING TO DENY WOMEN, AND MAKE THEM PAY FOR MALE WEAKNESS! DON'T YOU THINK IT IS ABOUT TIME? YOU AS A CULTURE AND RELIGION, ARE BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, WITH GORGEOUS HAIR, AND THAT IS IN GLORY TO YOUR HUSBAND, GOD AND ALLAH! I WOKE UP TO A SONG, THIS MORNING, "PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN" WHERE AT LEAST I KNOW I'M FREE, AND I THANK THE MEN AND WOMEN, WHO FOUGHT FOR THAT RIGHT FOR ME . . . AMERICA IS ABOUT FREEDOM, AND YES, THAT RIGHT IS NOT FREE, PEOPLE ABUSE THAT FREEDOM, BUT, OBVIOUSLY, THERE WAS SOME REASON YOU CAME TO THIS COUNTRY, AND ADOPTING ITS SOCIAL STYLES, DOES NOT MEAN, YOU SACRIFICE YOUR RELIGIOUS BELIEFS, AND BEING MODEST IS IN STYLE! THERE IS NOTHING MORE SEXY, THAT, A BEAUTIFUL, MODESTLY DRESSED WOMAN, LEAVING TONS TO THE IMAGINATION, BUT HIDING YOU UNDER SCARFS, DETRACTS FROM THAT BEAUTY AND MAKES, SOME PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE, LIKE ME, FROM A WOMAN'S PERSPECTIVE, SYMBOLIC OF HIDING US, SILENCING US, MAKING US, NON-ENTITIES . . . JUST MY PERSONAL OPINION . . . BUT HEY, SMACKING WOMEN AROUND, AND REFUSING TO LISTEN TO THEM, FITS RIGHT IN WITH THE BIG BOY MILITARY CLUBZ! CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG . . . DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH THE SCARFS, BUT, JUST LIKE THE DRESSES AND STRANGE WISPY HAIR DO'S OF THE POLYGAMIST WOMEN, IT DRAWS UNWANTED ATTENTION TO YOU, AND SOMETIMES THE IRE OF PEOPLE LIKE, THE DONALD TRUMPS OF THE WORLD! THIS IS JUST A CULTURAL THING, AND I WOULD NEVER, EVER, TELL YOU TO STOP YOUR RELIGIOUS BELIEFS, BUT, WHAT THE FUCK DOES THE HEAD GEAR HAVE TO DO WITH PRACTICING YOUR RELIGION? I DON'T NEED IT TO LOVE MY GOD, WORSHIP AND REVERENCE HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST, YOUR SECOND IN COMMANDO MAN, JESUS! I LOVE HIM IN A DRESS, IN PANTS, OR IN A SWIMMING SUIT! LOL! ERROR ON THE SIDE OF SAFETY! I AM GOING TO RE-PUBLISH, THE BLOG I WROTE, ONE YEAR AGO, AFTER THE OPENING OF THE NEW POVERELLO CENTER, MISSOULA, MONTANA . . . GOVERNOR BULLOCK WAS THERE, MAYOR ENGEN, REPRESENTATIVES FROM ALL THREE CONGRESSIONAL DELEGATES, AND A HUD, HEAD HONCHO FROM DENVER, WHO COMPLIMENTED POVERELLO BOARD MEMBERS ON THE GREAT FACILITY, WONDERFUL PLANNING OF THE CENTER, AND THE AMAZING HELP AND SERVICE THAT IS PROVIDED FOR THE HOMELESS, MANY JUST GOING THROUGH A "ROUGH PATCH" IN THEIR LIVES! SOME CURRENT PICTURES TAKEN LAST NIGHT AND YESTERDAY . . . I APOLOGIZE FOR ANY PEOPLE'S PICS, THAT I TOOK OR POSTED WITHOUT PERMISSION . . . I TRIED TO GET THAT, BASICALLY OUR ROCK STAR STAFF, AND THE BACKS OF HEADS! I AM PUTTING AN UGLY SELFIE, IN, SHOWING OFF THE POVERELLO FUND RAISING HAT, I HAVE AND CHERISH AS PART OF MY LIFE . . . I HAVE AN ORANGE POV HAT, AND A BLACK ONE . . . SO TWO BLACK ONES, WITH THE NEW BLACK BEING ORANGE . . . I GOT THESE TWO VERY NICE AND MADE WITH QUALITY CONSTRUCTION AND MATERIAL, DUMPSTER DIVING, IN THE UPSTAIRS, POV WOMEN'S DORM GARBAGE, WHEN SOME FOOL DISCARDED TWO BRAND NEW HATS, THE ENVY OF STAFF AND RESIDENT ALIKE! LOL . . . THAT IS WHY I AM PUTTING THE PICTURE IN! LOL! TO MAKE THEM JEALOUS . . . MANY WANT TO BUY THEM FROM ME . . . PRICELESS! LOL!

Friday, December 12, 2014

SPECTERS OF 4 FLYING NUNS, SEEN, HOVERING OVER THE NEW POVERELLO HOMELESS CENTER, AS MISSOULA, MONTANA DID THE FOUNDERS RIGHT, WITH THE LOVE AND JOY, FLOWING OUT THE DOORS AND INTO THE YARDS, ON THIS BRIGHT SUNNY DECEMBER MORNING, WITH CROWDS PACKED SO CLOSE THEY RESEMBLED SARDINES, PEOPLE STANDING ON CHAIRS TO SEE OVER PEOPLE'S HEADS, TO GET A PICTURE OF THE MAYOR, GOVERNOR, DIVISION 8 HEALTH & HUMAN SERVICES DIRECTOR, DENVER OFFICE, AND OTHER DIGNITARIES, WHO HONORED THE VISIONARIES, THE WORKERS, THE CONTRIBUTORS, THE VOLUNTEERS, THE ARCHITECTS--AN ARCHITECTURAL BEAUTY--AS CROWDS, CHEERED, CLAPPED, SMILED FROM EAR TO EAR, MANY KNOWING WHAT A MONUMENTAL EFFORT THIS PROJECT WAS, WITH STATE OF THE ART KITCHEN FACILITIES, THAT I OVERHEARD SOME GUY, SAY, THIS RIVALS THE KITCHEN AT THE UNIVERSITY OF MONTANA, A BIT OVERWHELMED BY THE SPLENDOR, GROWING BOXES OUTSIDE, TO HAVE FRESH PRODUCE ADDED TO THE DONATED FOOD, GATHERING ROOMS, DORMS, DAY ROOMS, OFFICES, AND HUGE ENTRANCES, ALL IN MODERN DECOR, WITH QUALITY PRODUCTS, WITH, APPEARING TO ME, NO EXPENSE SPARED; HOWEVER, THE HHS DIRECTOR FROM DENVER SAID, THAT MISSOULA, SPENT THE $1 MILLION THE FEDS CONTRIBUTED TO THE OVERALL COST OF $5 MILLION, WELL--NEEDLESS TO SAY, NOT ONLY HE WAS IMPRESSED, AND SAID THAT HE WAS SO IMPRESSED, THAT THE POVERELLO CENTER, WILL SERVE AS A MODEL, NATIONWIDE; HE ALSO COMPLIMENTED MAYOR ENGAN, AS ONE OF THE LEADERS IN THE 350 MAYORS ACROSS THE COUNTRY, WHO HAVE VOWED TO END HOMELESSNESS IN THEIR COMMUNITIES--WHAT A HAPPY DAY, PERFECT WEATHER, AND THE FOOD, DONATED AND SERVED BY GOOD FOODS GROCERS, I THINK, WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING, AND FIT THE CLASS, STYLE, AND ELEGANCE, IF YOU CAN BELIEVE IT OF THE JOYFUL OCCASSION! ONE MAN IN TOWN STOPPED THE MAYOR THE OTHER DAY, AND SAID, YEAH, BUT WHY WOULD YOU PUT A HOMELESS SHELTER, RIGHT IN SUCH A VISIBLE PART OF TOWN . . . BECAUSE THAT IS THE PROMINENCE, THE PEOPLE OF MISSOULA THINK ALL HUMANS, ESPECIALLY HOMELESS VETS WHO HAVE FALLEN THROUGH THE CRACKS, DESERVE TO BE SEEN, RESPECTED, AND TREATED WITH TOTAL DIGNITY . . . WHAT A GREAT RESPONSE, AND WHO CAN ARGUE WITH SUCCESS. AS I LEFT THE POV PREMISES, HEADING TOWARDS THE CENTER OF TOWN, I LOOKED BACK AT THE MAGIFICENT BUILDING, THE COLORS, THE DESIGN, THE STRUCTURE, AND ITS STATURE IN THE CITY, AND WAS AMAZED BY THE INSPIRING EVENTS OF THE DAY, TRULY PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARDS MEN, WOMEN, AND CHILDREN, WHO CAN HEAL, LEARN TO FEEL AGAIN, BE TOUCHED BY THE CARE OF A LOVING COMMUNITY, WHO PUT THEIR MONEY AND HEARTS WHERE THEIR MOUTHS WERE . . . I ALSO, HOPED THAT THE HOMELESS, WOULD RAISE TO THE ESTEEM THE CITY SEES THEM IN, KEEP THE GROUNDS NICE, THE BUILDING SHINING, AND THEMSELVES AN EXTENSION OF WHAT IS BEING DONE HERE . . . WHAT AN AWESOME THANKSGIVING & CHRISTMAS PRESENT ALL ROLLED UP IN ONE, A MODEL OF LOCAL, STATE AND FEDERAL COOPERATIONS IN SERVING THE NEEDS OF THE HOMELESS . . . LIKE I SAID, THE POV IS WORLD FAMOUS, OR IMFAMOUS! LOL! HAVE A GOOD ONE!

December 12, 2014, Marked the Opening of the $5 Million Dollar, Poverello Center!  Tomorrow is the One Year Anniversary!  Treats Welcome!  LOL!

THANK YOU, MISSOULA, MONTANA . . . THE COMMUNITY; THANKS FOR ALL THE DONATIONS OF SERVICE, FOOD, CLOTHES, BEDDING, DISHES, AND MOST OF ALL, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING!

Merry Christmas From the Folks Here At the Pov!

KISSES, HUGS, LOVE, FOR YOU AND YOURS!

GOOD LIST? SOMEONE NAUGHTY? SANTA? FATAL FUN-GUS. ALRIGHT, ALL YOU PSYCHIC SCROOGE VAMPIRES, DARK GRINCH DRACULAS, AND ANTI-SANTA CRYPTIC ZOMBIES . . . CHRISTMAS EVE IS 14 DAYS AWAY, AND THE STREETS ARE DARK, AND NOT EVEN A MOUSE CAN SEE! CHALLENGE, IN THE NAME OF CHILDREN, EVERYWHERE, JUST ONE, BRIGHT, STRING OF CHRISTMAS, OR HOLIDAY, IF YOU WILL, LIGHTS, ON A DOOR, IN A WINDOW, ON A BUSH IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE, OR LINING A FENCE, A LIGHTED STAR, A CANDY CANE, OR PLASTIC SANTA, ELVES, OR RUDOLPH, A MENORAH, SCENE OF THE HOLY BIRTH . . . COME ONE, HISTORICALLY, CHRISTMAS EVE IS THE TIME THAT WARS HAVE STOPPED OVERNIGHT, IN GOOD WILL, THAT MIRACLES FOR THE LESS FORTUNATE ARE PERFORMED, THAT GESTURES OF NEIGHBORLY LOVE OR THE GOOD NEIGHBOR POLICY, COME INTO PLAY. CONSIDER THIS A GIFT TO YOUR NEIGHBORS, TO THOSE MEMBERS OF THE COMMUNITY THAT DRIVE THE STREETS, IN HOPE OF FINDING JOY, PEACE, LOVE, SHARING AND CARING, THAT CAN BE AS SIMPLE AS ONE SINGLE STRING OF LIGHTS. REMEMBER, WHO SIMPLE CHARLIE BROWN'S CHRISTMAS TREE WAS DECORATED, AND HOW POWERFUL THE MEMORY OF THAT LITTLE SKINNY TREE, ALMOST BENDING UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THE LIGHTS, STAR AND CHRISTMAS TREE BULBS . . . THAT IS MAGIC, DOESN'T HAVE TO BE MUCH . . . AND THE GIVING IS WORTH MORE THAN THE GIFT, A COLLECTIVE GIFT TO MANY, TO ALL, TO BE GIVEN UP, ON THAT SILENT NIGHT, WHEN CHRIST WAS BORN, BRINGING PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TO MAN . . . GIVE CHILDREN, SOME OF THE NOSTALGIA WE GOT, BACK IN THE 50'S WHEN FAMILIES WERE TOGETHER, AND AS I REMEMBER, THERE WOULD BE ONLY ONE HOUSE IN 50 WITHOUT CHRISTMAS OR HOLIDAY LIGHTS, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND . . . MAKE PEACE HAPPEN! LET'S END THIS YEAR, FILLED WITH MAGIC, HOPE FOR THE FUTURE, AND THE POSSIBILITY THAT LOVE, JOY AND PEACE WILL RING IN THE NEW YEAR, AND THESE LIGHTS ARE SYMBOLS OF A NEW BRIGHT AND MAGICAL FINISH TO THIS YEAR, AND A BRILLIANT DETERMINATION TO MAKE THE NEXT YEAR THE BEST, YET TO COME . . . MERRY CHRISTMAS!

It's A Wonderful Life

Every time a bell rings, an angel gets its wings . . . but when the innocent are shot and killed, all the angels weep . . . (Koterda, Chicago)

Poverello Center for the Homeless

Between you and homelessness, can be just one missed paycheck, one child's broken leg, or 201 university jobs cut.

So, what might we do now?  Contact any of the following organizations: Partnership Health Center, United Way's "Reaching Home" program or the Poverello Center.  An easy way to help and learn it to spend a few hours on January 29, 2016, during Project Homeless Families and Individuals, about 200 volunteers are needed.  Contact skennedy@co.missoula.mt.us.  'Tis the Season . . .

Homeless Resident at the Poverello Center, Missoula, Montana--Soft Christmas Landing

Santa . . . Montana Board of Regents Needs to Be on Your Naughty List!

One University in Montana, is killing the other University . . . these are federally funded, state universities, entitled to due process and equal protection, for funding, grants, endowments, support, matching state funds to federal fund allocations!  Just for a second, let's pretend that the Montana Board of Regents, is the parent, and the Montana State University and the University of Montana are both, children, both with different talents, attributes, contributions to the state, nation and world, different, but should be equal, in the love and devotions, a parents, would put into and support, each children with a unique personality, drive, and goals, and because it 'tis the season, it might behoove, a parent figure, to turn to the good Book, and see that parents are admonished, not to allow children to fight, quarrel with one another, or to compete for love and attention; therefore, being the one in charge of the distribution of joint and several appropriations, monies, gifts, endowments, foundation allotments, faculty pay and distribution between the two schools, any wise, parent figure, would treat, both children, fairly, given their distinct and different abilities, all being part of the contributory whole of the wellness of the state, with a high priority on the value of not only getting well paid jobs, after graduation, but, in truly, loving knowledge, wisdom, philosophy, the arts and humanities, seeing how empty the mind and world, no less Montana, would be without them,

I Love Missoula, Love the University of Montana, Love Montana, and Fucking Love the Humanities and Fine Arts! 

Christmas Cheer From the Missoula, Montana, Bus Terminal

Happy Holidays From the Break Espresso Cafe'

Home and Study Hall for the Griz . . . Don't Sleep Next to a Grizzly!

EACH HOUSE, APARTMENT, STORE FRONT . . . LIGHT UP OUR WORLD WITH ONE BRIGHT STRING OF LIGHTS FOR CHRISTMAS PEACE AND JOY!

Talk about the Break Cafe' . . . As a Christmas Gift to You . . . I Am Not Going to Write for Two Weeks, Until Christmas Is Over!  Give'n You a Break!

Bad Ass Con Law Chick, Reporting from the Poverello Center, Missoula, Montana

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!

STEAMPUNK! THE MAGIC BUILDS DAY BY DAY . . . CHRISTMAS CHEER . . . THANKS TO DECORATORS AT MISSOULA, MONTANA, BUS TERMINAL, POVERELLO CENTER, CITY STREETS, MALLS, SHOPS, COFFEE SHOPS--HOMES AWAY FROM HOME, PRIVATE HOMES . . . THANKS TO THOSE STILL KEEPING THE MAGIC OF CHRISTMAS ALIVE! CONGRATULATIONS TO THE SAN BERNADINO POLICE DEPARTMENT AND OTHERS IN STOPPING THE TERRORIST . . . I KNOW I RAIL ON COPS ALL THE TIME, PERSOANALLY MERITED, GENERAL POPULATION, NOT MERITED, AS COP SPOKESMAN, MIKE MADDEN, SAID, ADMITTING THAT SOME OF THE CRITICISM IS WARRANTED, OF COPS, 99.5% OF THE TIME, COPS PROVIDE PEOPLE WITH THEIR RIGHTS, ARE CONCERNED, DAILY ABOUT THE HEALTH, SAFETY AND WELFARE OF THE CITIZENS OF THEIR COMMUNITIES--SEEING IT AS AN HONOR TO SERVE AND PROTECT, AND THAT WAS SEEN IN THE WELL TRAINED AND MANAGED RESPONSE TO THE ATTACK ON THE, I THINK, SOCIAL SECURITY OR SOCIAL SERVICES BUILDING, SERVING THE DISABLED, AS ONE OF SOME 33 LOCATIONS THROUGHOUT CALIFORNIA--WHILE WE MOURN THE LOSS OF THE 14 LIVES, AND PRAY FOR THE RECOVERY OF THE OTHER 31 OR SO PEOPLE WHO WERE THE TARGETS, OR IN THE LINE OF FIRE FROM THE TERRORISTS, FROM WHAT THE FBI SAYS, THERE WAS ENOUGH AMMO, EXPLOSIVES, TO KILL HUNDREDS, AND FOR THAT, WE ARE GRATEFUL, THAT THESE MEN AND WOMEN, PUTTING THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE, DAILY TO PROTECT OUR SECURITY, A HARDY THANKS AND APPRECIATE, IN A SOMETIMES THANKLESS JOB--YOU DID GOOD! I SAW A MOVIE ABOUT FIREFIGHTERS, WHO OFTEN WORK HAND IN HAND WITH COPS, AND ALSO RISK BRAVING RAGING FIRES, GOING INTO DILAPIDATED BUILDINGS, TO RESCUE SOME PEOPLE, ALLEGED THROWAWAYS, THAT OTHERS WOULD NOT EVEN CONSIDER WORTH, PUTTING OUT THE FIRE FOR, AND YOUR FAMILIES, SACRIFICE GREATLY TOO . . . THANKS TO ALL OF YOU, FOR DAILY SERVING, PROTECTING, SAVING, AND RISKING LIFE AND LIMB, FOR OUR COMPORT, SAFETY AND SECURITY! IT DOES NOT GO UNNOTICED . . . HAVE A PERFECT CHRISTMAS, HOPEFULLY, LOW ON CRIME, FIRES, TERRORISTS, AND OTHER PUBLIC MENACES!

COLOR ME HAPPY! HEARTS & CUPS FILLED . . . THERE ALL MY FAVORITE! COWBOY WANTED, DEAD OR ALIVE . . . INTERESTING MOVIE: EDWARD NORTON (2008) "DOWN IN THE VALLEY." TALK ABOUT A CLASH OF CULTURES--COWBOY COMES DOWN FROM THE HIGH COUNTRY, ON A RANCH, TO TOWN, TO STRIKE OUT HIS FUTURE AND FORTUNE, MEETS SWEET, WILD SURFER CALIFORNIA CHICK--BLONDE HAIRED, BLUE-EYED BEAUTY . . . IT IS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. SHE INTRODUCES HIM TO SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME, FROLICKING IN THE OCEAN, DRUGS, NEON DANCING AT CLUBS, AND FUN IN THE CITY. UNTIL COP--SHERIFF, DAD FINDS OUT ABOUT THE NEW GUY, AND THE TRAGIC ROMANCE, NOT UNLIKE SHAKERSPEARE'S CLASSIC, ROMEO & JUILET, STAR CROSSED LOVERS, UNFOLDS, WITH THE PROTAGONIST, THE MAIN CHARACTER, THE UNSUNG HERO--WHO READS THE CONTROLLING FATHER, THE TRAPPED KIDS AND HE TRIES DESPERATELY TO FREE THEM FROM HIS CLUTCHES. THE ANTAGONIST, THE FATHER, HAS REASON TO BE CONCERNED, NEW DUDE COWBOY, SPENT A YEAR IN JAIL FOR THEFT . . . BUT, FROM WHAT I HAVE GARNERED, FROM PAROWAN, UTAH AND MONTANA, TO MOST COWBOYS, JAIL IS A BADGE OF HONOR, WEARING IN ON THEIR SLEEVE LIKE A BOY SCOUT PATCH, HAVING ARRIVED, BECOME A MAN, AND WITH THAT INDEPENDENT, START KNOCKING THE SYSTEM, FROM THAT POINT ON . . . BATTLING RANGE WARS, ENDANGERED SPECIES, LIKE PRAIRIE DOGS WHO RIP UP THEIR FIELDS AND FUCK UP THEIR TRACTORS! TAKING CHANCES OF PUTTING CHEWED BUBBLE GUM, IN THEIR HOLES, OR JUST OUTRIGHT, TAKING THE CRITTERS INTO THEIR OWN HANDS, SHOOTING THE SHIT OUT OF THEM! THE HERO AND THE ANTI-HERO, CLASH, OF COURSE, WITH THE COWBOY, STANDING FIRM, RESPECTING THE FATHER'S PROPERTY RIGHTS, BUT, NOT BACKING DOWN ON HIS PURSUIT OF LOVE FOR HIS DAUGHTER! LIKE ALL ROMEO & JULIET DRAMAS OF UNREQUITED LOVE, IT NEVER WORKS TO KEEP YOUNG LOVERS, OR OLD APART, BECAUSE, THEY ARE FOREVER IN THEIR HEARTS, ANYWAY. THE INNOCENCE, BUT POWER, THE DETERMINATION, OF THE COWBOY, GOING AGAINST A FATHER, WHO HAS THE RESOURCES, TO MAKE THE YOUNG MAN'S LIFE, A LIVING HELL, AS WELL AS HIS DAUGHTERS. THE GIRL, KNOWS HER DAD, FIGHTS HIM, BUT, SHE IS ALSO CAUTIOUS WITH THE COWBOY, WARNING HIM, THAT HER DAD WILL KILL HER IF THEY GET TOGETHER, AND HE DOESN'T LEAVE . . . SO HE DOES FOR AWHILE, BUT COMES BACK, WITH THE SOLUTION, HE HAS MONEY, PACKS HER BAG, AND THEY WILL RUN AWAY AND GET MARRIED! SHE IS YOUNG, MAYBE 16 AND FEARS, NOT ONLY FOR HER LIFE, BUT HIS LIFE . . . HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND IT. THIS NEXT PART, IS CONFUSING, AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS COWBOY REFLEX, OR THAT COUNTRY BOYS WEAR THEIR HEARTS ON THEIR SLEEVE TOO, AND HE DRAWS HIS GUN, TWO ON HIS HIP HOLSTERS, WITHOUT THINKING, HE SHOOTS HER IN THE STOMACH . . . OR IS IT BECAUSE HE CAN'T LOSE TO THE FATHER, LOVES HER SO MUCH AND LOSES IT WHEN SHE TELLS HIM, SHE CAN'T GO? THIS IS WHERE THE STORY GETS DICEY, BECAUSE THE TRAGIC HERO, STILL FEELING THE NEED TO RESCUE THE TWO KIDS, HE HAS GROWN CLOSE TO, AND TAKE THEM SOMEWHERE SAFE--AND I THINK HE SEES THIS, AS TRUE SURVIVAL FOR THEM, BASED ON SOME OF THE STATEMENTS HE MAKES ABOUT THE LITTLE BROTHER, WHOM HE IS GENUINELY CONCERNED FOR, SEEING HIM, ALONE AND SAD, HE TAKES THE KID ON HORSEBACK, COMICALLY, TRYING TO GET OUT OF THE CITY, TO SHOOT GUNS, AND TEACH THE KID, BUT, THE HORSE, AND THE TWO GUNSLINGERS, END UP SHOOTING GLASS BOTTLES, RIGHT UNDER THE CEMENT FREEWAY, MAYBE INDICATING, THAT, NO MATTER HOW HARD THIS COWBOY, WHO PLAYS BY OLD SCHOOL COUNTRY RULES, IS TRAPPED IN A CEMENT JUNGLE. COWBOY, KNOWS HE IS IN TROUBLE FOR SHOOTING THE GIRL, SO HE TAKES OFF, SHOOTS HIMSELF, IN THE STOMACH TOO, COMES BACK FOR THE BOY, AND TELLS HIM, TO GET HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE AND AWAY FROM A FATHER, WHO DOES LITTLE WITH HIM, AND CARES NOT FOR THE BOY, OR THE GIRL, OTHER THAN GIVING THEM THE BASICS OF FOOD AND SHELTER, FOR TOTAL CONTROL, AS COPS ARE KNOWN TO DO WITH FAMILIES, BUT HE TELLS THE KID, THAT IT WAS HIS DAD, WHO SHOT THE DAUGHTER--AND IN A WAY, HIS ACTIONS, DENYING YOUNG LOVE TO PLAY OUT, GOING FROM A RAGING FIRE, AND LETTING THE FIRE, SLOWLY DIE, TO THE EMBERS, OF MORE MATURE PASSIONS, AND IN THAT SENSE, HE IS NOT LYING WHEN HE TELLS THE SON, THE FATHER WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR HER BEING SHOT. THE KID HAD TOUCHED THE GUN AFTER THE COWBOY SHOT HER, AND HE WAS TO BE QUESTIONED IN THE MORNING, ANOTHER REASON TO RUN, IN THE COWBOY'S MIND. BOB SEGER SONG ON . . . SHE'S LIVING INSIDE MY HEART NOW, AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID TO DESERVE HER, BUT I'M NEVER GOING TO LOSER HER . . . SHE'S LIVING INSIDE MY HEART, LIVING INSIDE . . . YOU CAN'T EXTRICATE LOVE, EVER--OH, I NEVER BELIEVED HOW MUCH SOMEONE COULD COME TO MEAN TO ME, SHE'S LIVING INSIDE MY HEART! BACK TO THE STORY . . . SO COWBOY ON HIS WHITE HORSE, WHITE COWBOY HAT, SIX GUNS ON HIS SIDE, LITTLE BROTHER, SAVING IN TOW, RIDES OFF INTO THE SUNSET--WITH DAD IN HOT PURSUIT BEHIND THE TWO! THE TWO GET BUSHWACKED, OUT BY A FIRE, SHOTS ARE EXCHANGED, BUT THE BOY, AGAIN, CHOOSES THE COWBOY OVER HIS FATHER. THEY END UP, RIDING INTO A MOVIE SET, FOR AN OLD WESTERN--WHEN COWBOY WAKES UP, HE HEARS A THE SOUND OF COUNTRY MUSIC AND DANCING GOING ON OUTSIDE, WHERE THE TWO ARE HOLED UP . . . YOU DON'T KNOW IF THE COWBOY IS TOTALLY NUTS, OR WHAT, BUT, HE IS IN HIS ELEMENT, AND JOINS THE TOWN PARTY, TO SWEAR THE NEW SHERIFF IN--CAMERAS FILMING, WHEN DAD AND HIS POSSE ROLL INTO TOWN, IN A GRAY CROWN VIC, THE TRADITIONAL COP CAR . . . COWBOY GETS WARNED FROM THE SON, AGAIN, SHOWING HIS ALLEGIANCE TO A MAN, WHO THE KID KNEW, CHANGED HIS LIFE! JUST LIKE AN OLD FASHIONED GUN FIGHT, ON THE DUSTY STREETS, OF TOMBSTONE OR LAREDO, THE COWBOY DRAWS BOTH SIX SHOOTERS, TAKES ON THE DAD, HIS COP BUDDIES, KILLING TWO BEFORE, BEING SHOT, WITH DAD, HIDING IN THE UNDERCOVER SQUAD CAR, SON GRABS THE WHITE HORSE, FOR THE COWBOY WITH THE WHITE COWBOY HAT, ALL SYMBOLS OF PURITY, GOODNESS, PEACE AT FIRST--HE TRIED OR WANTED TO TALK TO THE DAD, BUT THE COP DAD, PULLED A GUN ON THE COWBOY, POINTED IT AT HIS HEAD, EARLIER, BEFORE ALL THE DRAMA STARTED, SO THE ANTI-HERO, THE COP, IN TRUE COP FASHION, USED HIS GUN AND HIS BADGE, FORCE, THREATS TO GET CONTROL OF THE LOVERS . . . BUT LOYALTIES ARE DEFINITELY ON COWBOYS SIDE. THE SON AND THE COWBOY MOUNT UP, AND RIDE OFF TO FIND, SHELTER . . . COWBOY, IS SHOT IN THE SIDE, AND WITH THE PREVIOUS WOUND, HE IS LOSING BLOOD, GETTING WEAK. THE GUN FIGHT, WITH COWBOY AND HIS HORSE, AGAINST THE UNDERCOVER COP CAR, JUXTAPOSES, THE DIFFERENCES OF LIFESTYLES, CULTURES, MENTALITIES, AS DO THE TWO MEN, BOTH DETERMINED IN THEIR OWN WAY, BOTH RIGHT, FROM THEIR PERSPECTIVE, BUT THE FATHER, LEFT THE LOVERS NO OTHER ALTERNATIVE, OTHER THAN TO JUST CUT OFF LOVE, WITH THE HOT PASSION OF LOVE BURNING . . . NOT GOING TO HAPPEN DAD! LIKE IN ALL TRAGIC HERO STORIES, DAD TRACKS TO TWO COWBOYS . . . YOUNGSTER IS FASCINATED WITH BECOMING A MAN, SHOOTING, AND GETTING TO HANDLE A GUN, SOMETHING HIS FATHER NEVER ALLOWED, EVEN THOUGH HE HAD GUN COLLECTIONS ALL OVER THE HOUSE . . . THE GUN CULTURE IS SECOND NATURE TO COWBOYS AND COWGIRLS . . . MONTANA HOMES HAVE AN AVERAGE OF 27 GUNS PER HOUSEHOLD, LAST SURVEYED, MANY I TALKED TO, HAD MANY MORE THAN THAT! EVENTUALLY, THE WOUNDED COWBOY, OUTNUMBERED, IN THE NORMAL, CHICKEN SHIT WAY, THREE TO ONE, WEAK, GETS SHOT SEVERAL MORE TIMES, DAD TAKES ONE OR TWO, TOO. COWBOY'S WHITE HORSE, HIDDEN IN THE GARAGE, GOES NUTS, KICKING THE METAL DOOR, TRYING TO GET TO HIS MASTER, SENSING TROUBLE, BUT CAN'T KICK ITS WAY OUT . . . COWBOY CRAWLS INTO THE DRIVEWAY, OUT IN THE SUNSHINE, AND DIES. THE SON, RUNS TO HIM, CRADLING HIM AND LOVING ON HIM, AS HIS FATHER STANDS BY, URGING HIM, TO LEAVE THE COWBOY, AND COME WITH HIM--HE DISOBEYS. START OF THIS 13 YEAR OLD, TURNING INTO A MAN, IN HIS OWN RIGHT . . . IT WAS ALMOST LIKE AN INITIATION FOR THE QUIET, SULLEN YOUNG, LONELY MAN, STANDING UP TO HIS FATHER. THE NEXT THING YOU SEE, IS THE FATHER, DAUGHTER--RECOVERED, AND THE SON, DRIVING UP TO A PLACE THE TWO LOVERS HAD SPENT A WONDERFUL DAY TOGETHER, KISSING, PLAYING ON A TREE SWING, MAKING LOVE, OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN THE HIGH COUNTRY GRASS . . . THE GIRL AND BOY, LOOKING OVER THE VALLEY BELOW, WONDER WHAT TO SAY . . . SHE SAYS, DON'T SAY ANYTHING . . . AND THE WIND TAKES, COWBOYS ASHES AND BLOWS THEM OUT OVER THE GRASS, INTO THE SKY ABOVE AND OVER THE VALLEY . . . YEAH, THE CARDS ARE STACKED AGAINST, ANYONE, TAKING ON THE POWER THAT BE, HEROES, FIGHTING TO KEEP, AMERICA, THE HOME OF THE FREE, BECAUSE OF THE FREE! GOD BLESS THE AMERICAN COWBOYS . . . IF WE REMAIN FREE, THEY WILL PLAY A KEY ROLE, WITH THE INDEPENDENT SPIRIT, THAT CONQUERED, WELL, TRIED TO CONQUER THE WILD, WILD WEST . . . LET FREEDOM AND LOVE RING, FOREVER! COPS CAN USE THEIR BADGES, GUNS TO RIDDLE OUR BODIES WITH BULLETS, JAIL US, BEAT US . . . BUT, THEY WILL NEVER, EVER WIN OUR HEARTS AND SOULS!

CHRISTMAS KISSES . . . FATAL FLAWS IN PERFECT CRIME. CIA FRINGE LAB RAT? "YOU NEXT!" "LET'S GET IT DONE!" WE OWN WORK . . . HERCULES BULLS EYE BRAND! COUNTRY SONG: "THERE GOES MY LIFE" . . . CUT DOWN AT 46 YEARS OLD, REBOUND BY 55, CUT DOWN AGAIN BY 58! TO SEE THE FULL EAR OF CORN APPEAR, YOU HAVE TO LET THE KERNEL FALL TO THE GROUND AND DIE: (1) DAUGHTER, GRETA, TRAINING ATTORNEYS BEFORE GOING TO LAW SCHOOL; (2) NICOLE, POLITICAL ANIMAL, COUNTY COMMISSIONER, SENATOR, CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HER--IN A COUNTY WITH ALMOST AS MANY PEOPLE AS THE WHOLE STATE OF MONTANA; (3) CHRIS, FUTURE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES; AND (4) ELLIOT, GOD'S REVOLVER . . . ROCK STAR! THERE GOES MY LIFE--ATTORNEY, POLITICIAN, NATIONAL LEADER, ROCK STAR! CHRISTMAS KISSES! HOME OF THE BRAIN . . . NO, I'M NOT A SAVANT! I HAVE BEEN SMART MY WHOLE LIFE, CUBE SMART, MEANING IN A 4 SQUARE WAY, ON ALL SIDES! TRUE GEEK SQUAD. LOVE IS ABOUT A SPIRITUAL RELATIONSHIP--SEX IS MORE ABOUT THE SPIRIT, THAN THE BODIES . . . MAKING LOVE WITHOUT A SPIRITUAL RELATIONSHIP IS, LIKE TWO BODIES WITHOUT A SOUL! HIS/HER CHEATING, HAS MORE TO DO WITH THEM, THAN YOU! SERIAL BOMBER. PURE HATRED OF BLONDES. THIS MAN IS A TEXT BOOK SOCIOPATH . . . HE IS A FUCKING ANIMAL--HE'S PERFECT--WHERE'S MY TATTOOS? ERASED--LIKE YOUR PAST! STEM CELL RESEARCH? EXCHANGED FOR A SERIAL KILLER . . . SHE DOESN'T LEGALLY EXIST . . . THAT MEANS WE HAVE A RIGHT TO KILL HER! WE'VE CREATED A MONSTER! TOO MUCH VESTED INTEREST IN, DR. MONROE'S FREAK SHOW? SWITCHED POSITIONS . . . AN HONEST MAN'S PILLOW, IS HE PEACE OF MIND. EVENTUALLY, THE PLACEBO EFFECT DIES . . . YOU CHANGE YOURSELF! FAKE AN EXECUTION TO SAVE A VERY TROUBLED MAN . . . SUIT'S SPORT, FOR NERDS? SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT FIT FOR SOCIETY; YOU CAN PUT A NICE MASK ON THEM, BUT A LEOPARD DOES NOT CHANGE ITS SPOTS. YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE! THERE ARE REAL MONSTERS, EVIL BY NATURE AND THERE ARE REAL MASTERS, GOOD BY NATURE! FUCKING DEAL WITH IT!

Lab Rat, For CIA Home Entertainment--FUCK YOU!

I remember, several years, after being poisoned, walking out of a convenience store, and looking at the license plate, that caught my eye, being directly in my eye sight, right in from of the door--LAB RAT.  And, I remember, pausing for a few seconds, wondering, if what, I was going through, is some sort of government experiment, probing my mind, my limits, my psyche, my character, my temperament, testing where my breaking point, limit, passion and desire, to be me stopped.  I dismissed it, summarily, at that time, but have revisited the thought, often, as I have learned more and more, about, say, the relationship between the CIA and the Illuminati, the Monarch Project, testing subjects, many against their wills, using hypnosis, brainwashing, sexual, physical, and mental abuse, trying new drugs, looking at the side affects, compared to the control group, given or told they were being used for the new drug, but being of that group, that was merely given salt or sugar water, to see, just how powerful the mind is, to cure itself, or gain the desired affect, of the proscribed, newly tested drug.  I wonder, about being told, I had a terminal brain disease, where no one has outlived it, after being diagnosed, with a life expectancy, of little more than two years, and how, I was forced to take drugs, arrested when I didn't, and put in a state mental institution, for refusing to take the meds again, in the hospital, seeing little connection between a genetic disease with no cure, and forcing me to take psychotropic drugs, with death as a side effect, on all of them.

I recall, being taken to a hospital, and having all kinds of colorful, clips of some sort, attached to my brain, and getting some type of electric shock, or activity through these red, green, yellow and blue, or primary color probes or clips, and remembering, my brain, showing the same colors inside as outside.  Family connections, back in Boston, looking back, orchestrated, rather than done out the good will, or love of a sister, rather, as part of some lab rat experience, or the suggestion, that I got to UCLA, to get some CAT scan, that could dissect my brain, by slivers, .18 whatever, with each, laser cut, to see what was wrong. And being the smart, logical, and practical person, I am, I said, I would rather, spend my time, with family, watching sunsets, and enjoying the freedom of the time I have left.  I also remember, when I didn't die, at the proscribed, 2 year mark, who, the terminal brain disease, morphed into some psychoses, some mental disorder, particularly, narcissistic personality disorder . . . what, my error, would be on the side of not taking credit for the work I did, not being self absorbed, no that came, in having to defend myself, being a constant barrage, of attacks, on people stealing my identity.  Hell, I got award, after award, that I never even took the time to go to the award ceremonies, or like the domestic violence manual, I let the very minor co-contributor go to the award ceremony in Washington, D.C., being too busy with the next project, to worry about being honored for the old project, that I never did, because of recognition . . . and in retrospect, it is the very people who wanted to steal my identity, who had the issues with narcissism, NOT ME!

CONTROL

In any abusive relationship, be it, domestic violence, abuse of any kind, systemic abuse, work force harassment, bullying, or any type of relationship, bordering criminal behavior, going all the way from the least invasive intrusion, by the perpetrator on the victim, to the most severe, that of rape, sexual assault and murder, there is this element of power and control being exerted, one person against another, or one group of people against another. And that seems to be the motivating element, that of control, through abuse of power, that seems to be at the root of what happened to me.  I could not be controlled under ordinary means, that of threats, demotions, withdrawal of authority and position, or even banishment to the lower forty of the Utah Attorney Generals Office.  In whatever, area of the law, or even professorship, doing public speaking, to owning my own business, I excelled; therefore, none of these avenues, used to control me worked, and my dogged determination, to make the system work, force government to work, within the confines of the Constitution, federal and state statutory regulations, or state law, per, purity in government, and fidelity to the law, landed me in opposition to the powers that be, that used traditional means of controlling the more ethical, honest, and obligatory, members of the bar in control, allowing the government to have its way with, whomever, whatever, and wherever it chose, even to obfuscating the very law itself!

What Do Power and Control Freaks Do With Someone Like Me?

The answer is very plain, and simple, in the political processes, you have one smart group of people, vying against another group of very smart people countering you claims, arguments, and challenging your positions, and the government, should have mustard, all their smart people, to counter this smart person!  And, if you could not beat me, fair and square, then, fuck you, you lose!  PERIOD!  The government, is not authorized to take my life, and do with it what they please, to tamper, poison, discard, deny a voice, tame the shrew, or silence the lamb!  Show me, what fucking statute, constitutional provision, federal or state regulatory authorization, rule, ordinance or provision, you took, my life, into your hands and fucked with me.  And if that was not bad enough, then, you tried to cover your fucking unethical, totally irresponsible, and aberrant behavior, by changing, my diagnosis to a mental condition?  Oh, hell, yeah, you fucked my brain, major, and it took me, 8 fucking years to get it totally back, if not on a par with my previous intelligence, but even superior, as the brain compensates, for injuries, and injuries there were!  But, then, after tainting me with, the label, as was just revealed while I was in St. George, Utah for Thanksgiving, again, trying to put that fucking, severe mental issues, label on one of the fucking brightest minds, not only in the law, but government, writing, and philosophy!  YOU FUCKING DUMB SHITS!  GOD . . . what the fuck is, SERIOUSLY and SEVERELY WRONG WITH YOUR LAME ASS MINDS . . . for it is you, who is, terminally ILL!

Oh, I Know . . . Fake An Execution, And Let's Sick a Serial Killer, Psychopathic Liar, Sociopath, in Every Way, On Her!  Good Idea!

Long before, I saw, so many of the true crime shows of late, I, on many occasions, wondered, at both, Brett and Frank, my third and fourth husbands, for, lame reasons of marriage, because, I was dying and wanted sex, or I had just had my house taken, and my client offered me his house as pay for saving him, from being set up by the fucking cops, framed, looking at, 45 years in prison, as part of another, little government taking of a life, that of Allan Rex Bess, who was a Vietnam War Hero, who, as I can gather, from connecting the dots, of what you have done to me, since murdering him, after taking out, part of his brain too, lending support, to you fucking my brain also, the star crossed, bleeding only red, white and blue, which should have been in alignment with, your oaths of office as well, pledging allegiance to preserve, protect and defend the Constitution, right along with myself, being, taken out of prison, being, not just your minor average, run of the mill, criminals, but, as many criminals are, very intelligence, some handsome, charismatic, and charming, but bad to the core, in the very worst ways . . . serial killers . . . I see this in both of them!  Easy, not a stretch, even seeing it while trying to deny it, but, being close to evil, with the vial of good, can be revealing of the intention of the government, as well! just kill her!

Everyone, has redeeming factors, and it is the dream of prison, jail and correctional systems, to believe, they can rehabilitate people, and some are, of that minimal, deviance, and can be taught to have remorse, find sorrow for their crimes, want to repay society, learn to empathize and sympathize with the plights of their victims and society as a whole.  However, there is another class of people, of criminals, who are so far gone, or so, damaged, that, to protect the health, safety and welfare of the state's citizens, it behooves the state, to either keep them under lock and key, forever, or to eliminate them from society, through the death penalty. There are many accounts, of people being paroled, and within hours or days of their, sometimes, untimely releases, or mistaken releases from prison or jail, that have gone back to their old ways, and have killed again!  There is a huge ass difference, between, a repeat offender for robbery, breaking and entering, property crimes, per say, and those of repeat offenders for rape, assault and murder!  That was the fatal flaw in the three strikes your out, sentencing, of locking you up and throwing away the key . . . all crimes are not of equal damage and horror, therefore, a distinction needs to be drawn between, the hard core, bad to the bone, rapist, torturer and killer, and the petty thief, although, many start with small time crimes, and graduate to the more egregious and offensive to society, and sometimes it is hard to tell!

You Would Never Have Given Me the Time Of Day!

In high school, I was never part of the parking lot crowd, nor did I hang out with them, or really, know any of them.  That was not out of being a snob, or arrogant or elitist, I was just not, in the circles or doing the things that would merit, knowing, or rubbing shoulders, with say, people on drugs, even smoking or drinking, let alone, sleeping around . . . I was the good teen!  There were many times after leaving Brett, who could be very polished, charming, and really, the Ideal Husband, but for, I believe, this bottom line difference in us--that of, what would I call it, staying power, confidence, faith in solid evidence of success in life, a sure foundation, and an ability to rise, to the top of any endeavor, when the need arises!  This morning, I watched the true crime episode on Forensic Files, called the Levi Bellfield case, of the Bus Stop Murders, about a man, who, early in life, was skinny and scrawny, and was generally rejected by women, until he started taking steroids and working out at the gym, gaining, some admirable, physical traits, and looks.

In this case, the psychologists, wondered, what triggered this man's absolute and utter hatred for blonde, young women, whom were always his targets.  Finally, this man, Levi was apprehended and charged with the deaths of two young girls, with the questions of at least 10 other murders, being, a possible connection with where this man was, at the times of several other murders, that could not be connected to him with hard evidence.  As the criminologists, looked into this man's past, to see what his motives might have been, they found, that, there was a classmate of his, a female, blonde, who died, while, Levi was in high school, and nobody ever was charged with her murder.  But, there was some suspicion, that, Bellingfield, might have been the one, to murder her, leaving authorities, wondering, who many women, disappearances, rapes and murders, might have gone undiscovered and undetected, since that girl was murdered, some 30 years earlier. Bellingfield is an interesting connection to Shelley, she used to sell school books to elementary school librarians, so school bell, school bus, came be a connection or symbolized, Shelley's arena . . . serial killers, like Levi, also, in Shelley's field, that of assassins, serial killers, all the stuff, of her book shelves, the Sopranos, Riches . . . yeah!

In this case, the boy, seemed to have a close relationship with his mother, who was a brunette, and I believe all his wives, and he had been married 4 times, were brunette, although, he was extremely violent with the wives, who eventually divorced him, it was the blondes that cause the murderous, senseless killings of school girls, for the most part, really young, like 14 years old, who just up and disappeared, being found, some months later, very decomposed state, but with no soft tissue left on her, skeleton . . . did he skin her down to the bone?  Nobody wanted to even venture as guess, what he did to this very beautiful little blonde girl, who's body, was discovered, out in the woods and pasture areas, where his ex-wife, interestingly enough, named, Jo Collins, a symbolic name, of course, Jo, a name close family and friends call me, and Collins, CIA lying, looking very much like, Shelley, my dark haired, older sister, whom Brett may have had a relationship with, before, the set up with me, or after, being more in his comfort zone, that the blonde, or me. Kay also has brown hair, and several of his girlfriends, had jet black hair, or the girls were Iranian, or of foreign dissent, or darker in coloring, and one, red-headed girl friend.

Early Rejection From Blondes?  The Dumb Blonde Mantra . . . I Could Not Be Smart and Blonde?  Brunettes are the Smart Ones?  Stereotypes?

If you look at the movies, you will see the more serious roles, government intrigue, played by people like, Sandra Bullock, or Segeorney Weaver, Susan Sarandon, and other actresses.  When, you want, movies, like Legally Blonde, with Rees Witherspoon, while getting into law school, and passing with flying colors, she is portrayed, as less serious, solves her cases, looking at her poodle or going shopping, or getting an idea from a shoe or her platforms, or something like that.  Sometimes, Michelle Pheifer, pulls off the serious attorney, but, it seems, even she was undermined by her client, in Sam I Am, Sean Penn!  I know, that Brett's mother, was a blonde, when I met her, a party girl, wild, drinker, and fun, so fun, that she would not give up the bar scene, to raise kids, and her husband divorced her when Brett was 2 years old.  Does he have some resentment for his mother . . . he seemed close, but they did argue a lot, over politics, religion, etc.

Ted Bundy, rejected by a very serious girlfriend in college, once she graduated, and being from a good family, dumped him, and later, Ted's victims, often had a similar look to that of his old girlfriend.  Brett was definitely good looking enough, nice build, and sweet, in many ways, kind to old people, etc,, that he could have, easily run in the popular crowd, but maybe, these particular skills, social skills, or study women, helped him later in life.  The interesting thing was, he was attracted to me, and got jealous, but, perhaps, he was being paid, to keep me isolated and off the grid, so to say, to see if I was getting better and what my goals were . . . it may have been as simple as that?  Or there could be those darker recesses of the mind, engaged in this, almost overkill . . . right as I am writing this, this very blonde with long hair, walked by . . . almost indicating, in a God, Intel, way, that he had long hated blondes and had issues with them.  Brunettes may be his comfort level, and who he feels most trusting of, seeing his mother, the blonde, bombshell, was not to be trusted as a wife or a mother?

Serial Bombers . . . The Salt Lake City, Bomber!

I just recently saw two bombing cases: (1) the Mark Haufman, historical document fraud, who murdered three people with pipe bombs, one a friend of mine, Steve Christensen, also a rare documents collector and is was surmised that, Steve was about to expose Mark as a fraud, as he was ready to sell a fake document to the Mormon Church, hierarchy, worth $1 million, having been found authentic by the FBI and the Library of Congress, with Haufman having, about 600 forged documents still out on the market--pretty damned good con man.  He took out Steve's business partner, Gary Sheet's wife, to make it look business related, then someone else, and he blew himself up, as he was going to deliver other bombs around the Salt Lake Valley. Physical evidence doesn't lie, people do!  Mark, tried to make it look, like he was the victim of the bomber, rather than being the bomber himself.  (2) this man, sounded like the perfect psychopath, handsome, smooth talker, charming, likable, but cunning and mean, and with each bomb, in his war with the 11th Circuit Court of Appeals, where he had lost some cases, and had racial issues, this man, got more meticulous, crafty, and deadly with his bombs.  I think he took out at least 3 people, and would, not have stopped, had he not be, actually, turned in or ratted out by his second wife, telling authorities of her shopping trips with him, buying all the key elements of the bombs, getting more perfected, and specialized, as they went, covering all his tracks and evidence!  There are organized serial killers and unorganized.  This man was highly intelligent, clean, orderly, and did, almost the perfect bombings, with not evidence to connect him to the bombs, but for the testimony witness of his wife, who could corroborate all her statement with facts, and evidence, and one fingerprint of the print shop, where they ran off copies of the letters attached or delivered with the bombs!

The point I want to make this these two men, is that, they were good enough to fool the FBI, the Library of Congress, and alleged inspired, men of the hierarchy of the Mormon Church . . . and, like I said, Mark Haufman, still has 600 fraudulent documents out floating around somewhere!  Both Kay and Brett, literally bought off and fooled the Mormon Church leaders . . . you have two people, both from divorce, the other side of the track, so to say, an ax to grind, a common hatred and envy of me, adding Shelley and my father to that lot, and the cops and the government, all the way up, with Mitt Romney, my Brock case, and all, and possibly the pure hatred of blondes, in the intelligence community.  It would be interesting, to see how many agents, in both the CIA and FBI, are female and blonde as opposed to brunette?  I know, my family, can't buy fact that the cheerleader, bubbly blonde, can also be a kick ass, bad ass con law attorney .. . I was suppose to be the wild child, the social butterfly, not the campus crusader and constitutional law attorney . . . that doesn't compute to them!  LOL . . . DEAL WITH IT!  LOL!

I literally, have these fuckers, see me in court, read my blog, watch me write it, and be in complete denial, that I am the one who wrote it . . . it hurts to be beautiful!  For some reason, in the minds of little people, you can't be smart and beautiful, and social, and good mother and an attorney . . . women, you can have it all . . . you just need to fight, those fucking stereotypes . . . and they are long and hard falling!

Frank--The Dom and the Sub . . . What a Crock of Shit!

So, last night, killing time, this movie came on, and I missed the name of it, but it had another blonde mother, wife, who was being cheated on, while her husband, did his business thing, and so eventually, this young mother, dissatisfied with her husband, goes to a chiropractor, to relieve the stress in her back, due to the issues with her husband, and as this man, understands her, makes her feel like a lovable woman again, she finds out from a dark haired friend, that, this man, is having an affair with another friend, and having his baby in three weeks.  This sends this very attractive mother of two, on this sexually liberating quest, having been broken in by the doctor or chiropractor, setting the standard at adultery, and going from there, venturing in to younger men, sex parties, and finally, she gets attracted to an older man, who is a Dom . . . and he is looking for the perfect, Sub . . . Dominator and Submissive!  SCREAMMM!  So, the more the Dom and the potential, very interested, Sub, talk, the more enamored she becomes with this man and his very new but strange ideas.  This guy, is very professional, looks, like he could be an agent, of FBI or CIA, colors, living in a beautiful home, and finally, the two get together, as he takes her prime interest and curiosity.

I thought, I was literally going to barf!  She is to wear what he tells her to wear, she can't do anything he doesn't tell her she can do, like eat, or go to the bathroom, etc.  And she inquires what would happen to her, if she were to disobey him?  He would put his disobedient, Sub, on a pet leash and lead her up and down the neighborhood, letting the people all know, he had a disobedient, Sub!  And, I guess that is suppose to turn her on?  He brags of liberating very feminist women, bank presidents, doctors, lawyers, who want to be dominated by him.  He is a self proclaimed, Alpha man, and it is only those Beta males, like her husband, who want to control her through cruelty; he is of a much higher order, and, it is through submitting, that the woman, then becomes, most actualized and free?  So, the two play this sick game all weekend, and have tons of sex, and now, this very changed, liberated Sub, and her handsome Dom, part ways, her no longer needing his services, nor can he do anything further for him . . . gag me with a spoon!

At one point before the sex, the truth of the real man comes out . . . he is insecure as hell, and this is the only way, he can feel superior, and his game to get the sex he needs the pantiles women, and not be rejected! The Sub, asks him, why he got into this type of relationship with women, and he, very revealingly said . . . because I was sick and tired of trying to do this and that to them, and having them, move my hands, or push me away!  Really?  So, we are going to play games, with you acting like you are my guru? Uh, NO!  But, I can very much see, Shelley, Rachel and Kay, prostrating themselves at the feet of these allegedly, cooler than cool males, letting them tie you to a pole, leaving you for days, just throwing you a grapefruit or two, until you get to the weight your Dom, finds you attractive at!  LOL!  How in the fucking hell, do you think women, got so insecure and dissatisfied with out bodies in the first place?  In one scene the cheating husband, comes home, and after fucking his whore all business trip, sees that love looks well on his now cheating wife, and said, I am so horny, grabbing her from behind, and telling her that he has a boob job surgery scheduled for her, in the morning!  That is the straw that broke the camel's back . . . she tells him to fuck off, which I loved, she looked great, and got even better looking as she ditched all the men, and just became successful, without one, attracting more, now that she didn't care!  LOL, my style!

Dream on men . . . I have a better body image, 100 pounds overweight, obviously, not caring what any of you think, or I would play your fucked up, Dom/Sub, ugly shit!  But, I haven't seen a man worth it! LOL . . . Frank said . . . I have never been treated by a woman, like I have been by you! Amp up your game dude, you are dealing with an attorney, not some bar fly and mall rat!  LOL!  Men, like this, just don't know how to play the game with me!  Because, this dumb blonde is smarter than they are . . . they will want me long after, I leave them.  I had one of these fuckers, tell me, that if I were 30 or 40 lbs. thinner, he would be chasing me around the bedroom.  I left him and found, several guys who were smart enough, to get the spiritual connection, and chased me around the bedroom, just the way, I was, and had the greatest sex of their lives!  I dig smart men, black, white, of all shapes, sizes, heights and weights!  I don't want, soulless sex, and I am, very discriminating on that one . . . better be a connection, and love, or nothing dude!

Good Female Info on Sex

• once you discover that you are sexual, beautiful, at any size, shape and color, and start exploring your sexuality, you will discover, also that you have, at the higher levels of this game, between men and women, a moral, ethical, and social responsibility, not to hurt another person, with this power, love, passion, play, experimentation, and even playful games.
• remember, while liberated, from those old, long prescribed, social roles for women, that bind us, and liberate men, keeping us, locked and tied, letting them win a game, where we can rule every time . . . remember that men need sex more than women, they get built up with testosterone, until it is ready to drip out of their eyes . . . I heard one guy say, when you are starving, do you think someone is going to turn down a ham sandwich, waiting for steak?  LOL!
• men are more predatory, females can, due to this lack of total physical control of the penis, that is why there are so many rapes and assaults, they are driven to satisfy, that urge, right or wrong, and so they will get it where they can, and if they can't get it, they will murder, to get it and take and feed when they will!  Women, on the other hand, can afford to wait, pick the better men, those good for nesting, babies, protection, and have their pick of men, they find worthy of them.  Most men, keep those urges under control, normal, divert energy through sports, work, golf, etc.
• there are Alpha females . . . they can be particularly choosy, because, they can get any guy or most, whenever, whenever and however, and reject many advances by men, until they find one worthy of letting them, enter you, but only after they have proven, worthy, this woman, doesn't need to lower standards or rush anything, and she doesn't give a rat's ass, if they leave, because, there will be 10 guys to replace them.  She refrains from sex, not because he has to, but, because, she is waiting, watching, rejecting, and going for the cream of the crop, not just the crop!  LOL!
• sex should be on your terms, never with any one you don't want to be with, including a husband! Because it may just be a physical release for him, doesn't mean it will be for you . . . women are like cats, much harder to please and figure out, or get close to, men, are like dogs, some would say in heat, but, they are just happy to get a stroke on the head, and a rub on their stomachs for the most part!  I hate to make them that simple, but, simple beings they are . . . not much complication, driven by nature!
• and remember, you don't need a man, and you can be happy without one, sometimes, happier, or you could be miserable with one, or the best of both worlds, if you find a great, connected man, with a spiritual connections, and you have two bodies with one soul, that is best, shared, trusting, faithful, and loving.  When, this woman in the move, finally realizes she really doesn't like her husband, thinks this separation in making him a better father, because he has to deal with the kids on weekends, and his old wife, is replaced by a happier more confident woman, he comes back, wishing he had worked harder.  He stated a sad truth, that, I would like to promise that I could become the man you needed, before I cheated on you . . . but you wanted the man, I should have been, who never cheated on you.

We Will Figure Out This Battle of the Sexes!  It is In My Name to Do So . . . Jo (Male Name) + Ann (Female Name) . . . It is in My Soul To Rectify the Sexes, Psychic Survival!  LOL!

CHRISTMAS KISSES!

P.S., Men . . . I have never not had sex with a man, I feel, a connection, love, have soul with, or believe, that it would be a loving act, creating healing, goodness, or just healthy sport, if all parties, will be edified by this act!  Just two bodies coming together, for the shear physical act, with nothing going on . . . that is when you wake up in the morning, and wish the night before had not happened, or you want to sneak out before that person wakes up!  In other words, meaningless sex, is just that, meaningless!  There are many reasons to have sex, many good reasons, and I look at it, like this, if it is someone, I believe, is right, can be trusted, will be beneficial, for me and him, regardless of what, else is going on . . . rejecting someone like that, is like cutting off my nose to spite my face, I hunger too, but for the right reasons, bonding, closeness, healing, to express love.  Remember, love is the key ingredient, and without, it, might as well be a sport fuck, hard to get off, or either party, not fulfilling, and just as fulfilling as jumping on a tramp!  LOL!

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA. MAJESTIC, MUSIC & MONEY . . . NA, FORGET THE MONEY, GOD'S REVOLVER (2006): "BUY US SHOTS, THAT'S WHAT WE WANT . . . WE WON'T DO ANYTHING UNTIL YOU BUY US SHOTS!" WILL PLAY FOR WHISKEY! LOL! FROM SHAKEN BABY SYNDROME TO STOCKHOLM SYNDROME, AND NOW, BABY'S GONNA ROCK! FUN NEW 23 SET VIDEO/AUDIO OF GOD'S REVOLVER, STARTING WITH, CRUCIAL FEST 5, SPONSORED BY MICHAEL BRUNK, NWLENS.COM, REAL TIME, GOING BACK TO THE WHISKEY SLAMMING DAYS, OF NOT KNOWING WHAT THEY CREATED, GREATEST WESTERN EVER TOLD IN MUSIC! SERIOUS HEAD SLAMMING IN 8/23: (1) ELLIOT, WITH HIS GREEN KNIT BEANIE HAT, STANDING IN THE BACKGROUND; (2) MOVES UP TO THE FOREFRONT, STARTS TO ROCK THAT HOT BASS GUITAR; (3) GETTING DOWN TO BUSINESS, TAKES OF BEANIE, SLAMS THAT DOWN, GAME ON, TAKING TO THE MICROPHONE TO SING WITH ROUSE; (4) MOVES OFF CENTER STAGE, TO THE LEFT, STARTS SOME SERIOUS HEAD BANGING, GUITAR BANGING BRAIN EXERCISE, AND FINGER GYMNASTICS; AND (5) AFTER THE SONG IS OVER, EL MOVES BACK IN THE CORNER FOR A CIGAR! LOL! I TOLD MY KIDS, NOT TO TELL ME WHAT THEY HAVE DONE, UNTIL THEY TURN 40 YEARS OLD, AND TURNED OUT FINE! LOL! I HERE, IN BROSIS SPEAK, THINKING MOM'S NOT LISTENING, THAT ON GOD'S REVOLVER TOUR, BACK IN 2008, AS HARD ROCK BAND OF THE YEAR, ELLIOT, ON A WHISKEY HIGH, JUMPED OFF AN 80 FOOT CLIFF TO THE WATER BELOW, NEVER CHECKING THE DEPTH OF THE WATER, NOR SEEING IF THERE WERE ROCKS BELOW . . . COULD HAVE ENDED UP, IN BOXES DONE BURIED! SEVERAL YEARS LATER, I ASKED ELLIOT WHAT HAPPENED, THAT HIS BROTHER AND SISTERS WOULD NOT TELL ME ABOUT, ON HIS LAST NATIONWIDE TOUR . . . HE COVERED HIS ASS WELL . . . OH, I JUST GOT MADE AT ADAM, WHO IS NOT IN THE REFORMED BAND, AS DRUMMER, AND SMASHED HIS DRUMS OVER HIS HEAD! NICE, I DON'T THINK YOUR FAM CREW WOULD HAVE PROTECTED YOU FROM MOM, WITH THAT ONE! LOL! I AM GLAD I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THE CLIFF DIVING! BIG SISTERS AND BRO, KNEW THAT ONE WOULD PISS ME OFF . . . ERROR ON THE SIDE OF SAFETY, SON! ACTUALLY, THE MUSIC THIEVES MAY HAVE SAVED THIS, CRAZY BAND'S LIVES, BACK IN THE DAY! LOL! I THINK THEY ARE READY FOR SUCCESS! ANYWAY, THERE ARE SOME FUN OLDIE VIDEOS, AND LIKE IN THE LYRICS OF "IRON FUCK" THAT STATE: "THIS RUST WILL NEVER REST NOW" AND, HAD THEY NOT BEEN SABOTAGED, THEY MAY NEVER HAVE RESTED OR RUSTED . . . IN "THE DITCH & THE DELTA" CD, CALLED, "WE RUST" THERE ARE THREE MONKS ON THE COVER, SOUNDING MUCH LIKE THE ACAPELLA INTRO IN "HOLY BREATH" WITH VOICES BACK IN THE DAY, THAT MATCH THE FACES OF THE COVER OF THE TANGENTIALLY CREATED BAND, D & D, NOTING THE FACT, THAT THE INV

Roca Del Desierto . . . The Nation Had To Grow Into Your Music, Just Like the Band Did!

"Love left you hungry . . . left a dead man running, a dead rider . . . Just look to the sky, look to the Sun, just look to the sky!" --God's Revolver, Lead Singer, Reid Rouse, Screams to the Dead Rider in All of Us!

In God's Revolver's original CD, called, Little Black Horse Where Are You Going With Your Dead Rider?, the band was actually, writing and singing about, an actual, dead rider, found still on his horse, dead with his boots still on, and trusting dog, still near his side, found by one of the band members and his father, who were out riding horses, on a bright fall afternoon, up Provo Canyon, and noticed the strange sight, of the cowboy, with a small trickle of blood, running out of his ear, appearing lifeless and dead, and wondering, what happened, murder? suicide? lover's triangle?  It is a natural tendency, for people, who witness a traumatic event, such as a death, to wonder, what the fuck happened here . . . he is too young . . . and then, we like to connect the dots, creating a whole circle of events, to fill in the missing gaps, of the story of this young man's life, that was taken, when he was too young!  You took my pain away, then gave it back again . . . as young men, now a bit older, raise their arms, at a concert, as if feeling the pain, of this young lover, possibly, caught in a lover's triangle, shot by a jealous husband, or a murderous lover--Who's fucking bed are you sleeping in tonight?  The band does an amazing job, of capturing the words, the passion, and the music, that is so perfect, for the story, the epic western, and the passion of life, love, and death, all part of living.

The one thing, I love, being the passionate person, I am, is the total, unabashed, engulfing, passion, mostly male passion--this is guy music, speaking to guys, telling their stories . . . and it is with male bravado, that the band plays their music with, the way, Reid Rouse, lead singer, raising his arm to the air, singing--Come on boys, let's give'em, what for! as the band, answers and drills the music back home, in God's Revolver @ Crucialfest 5, a band, almost 10 years older, makes the music taste better, due to seasoning . . . Reid still strong, with a voice, close to Jim Morrison of the Doors, often compared, still feels the music, maybe more, now, than he did, back when he is completely out of breath, in 10/23, exhausted, and bent over, taking a few minutes to recover, to get his balance back, as he puts 100% into the lyrics . . . and Elliot, then and now, along with other band members, head bang, rock to the music, so into it, they almost fall backwards, living, breathing, and feeling to the core of their beings, even at a time, early on, that, most of the band members had never even had a girlfriend.

THAT WAS THEN . . . THIS IS NOW!

But--they have had girls, hearts broken or healed, by now, although, I remember, back in the day, Elliot telling me the reason they were not touring on their new CD, was that Reid was laid up for several months, unable to play, back in 2011, when the band released their second CD, that I have not seen since that time, when Elliot gave me a copy, of their first, of three, or that was the original plan, with Sony Records, but, Rouse and his girlfriend were up on the balcony of a house in Salt Lake City, Utah, and they got into a fight, and I think, Reid either lost his balance, or even worse, his girlfriend, pushed him off the roof, but, nonetheless, I don't think the young band, had any clue, just how good their music was, back then, how indicative of life and love, back when, they were too young, too young, other lyrics in Scratch Dealt Me a Dirty Hand, and he did, Brett, my 3rd husband, seen, standing in the audience, with the punk hair, trying to blend in, 5 years after I had seen him, standing a foot taller than the rest of the young crowd! and then, he skulks away, disappearing into the crowd, the coward that he is . . . fake bands, spotlights 20 feet over an imitation of 5, glass hanging crystal balls, to distract the viewers, can't make up, for passion, power, lyrics, and the ideas of the originals---who struggled with the death of the dead rider, and I get, that Scratch gets that too, as he turns and leaves, forever, I hope!  

Wisdom out of the mouth of babes, now men, coming out of the woods, coming into their own . . . being resurrected . . . "just look to the SON! look to the sky!" Reid pleads for the last holy breaths of this young man on the black horse, symbolic of youth dying, as all men do, "WE Rust" . . .  you might live, young riders, to take the reigns of your own destiny, control your own, very manly music, TO RIDE AGAIN!

The Stockholm Syndrome--Surviving and Understanding Predators 

When Elliot, asked me for his first, red electric guitar, back when he was 11 or 12, I was practicing law, as an assistant attorney general, in Utah, with an office at the state capitol building, and there was a new syndrome, called, Shaken Baby Syndrome, which was related to and attributed, to deaths of infants, that came as a result, of a parents, sitter, or someone, taking a new born baby, still with the skull, or a soft spot on their skull, still undeveloped and open, so that the birth of a baby was easier, on the mother and the baby, as the newborn, made it through the birth canal, so small, that the brain and bones, covering the brain, had to contract, just to come through the mother and out into the world.  One male attorney, in the Utah Attorney Generals Office was an expert on the syndrome and spoke to audiences, attorneys, and cops, nationwide to educate them on the dangerous activity of picking up a baby, with a soft spot, still open, and shaking the baby, out of frustration, play, or to interact with that baby.  I find it, interesting, that 20 years down the road, in a very related, activity, and one, near and dear to me, seeing Elliot, the Red Jesus, still head slamming and banging, 20 years later, as he and I embarked on music and law, at about the same time . . . to hear about a recent study, that, with all the head banging, there were actual benefits, rather than deficits, to banding the brain around, not in a loose skull, but, in a fully developed, tight, hard as nails, skull, and a protected brain, that can, endure any beating, with Elliot's head banging, consistent, constant, and completely wild! but safe, and he has the grades to prove it!

The Stockholm Syndrome Got Its Name from a Hostage Situation, That Took Place in Stockholm, Sweden

This morning, I was watching a true crime episode, in which, a young married couple, go fishing for the weekend, up at a remote lake in the forest, and spend hours, not being able to catch a fish.  There was another fisherman, up at the lake, who told the young couple, that there was another lake, about three miles, more remote, that he heard from other fishers, that the fish were biting like crazy, and if they wanted him to show them where the lake was, he would be glad to accompany them, because he was interested in better fishing too.  Once up at the lake, the two men, took a walk, and the young bride, celebrating her first wedding anniversary with her husband, was cooking dinner.  Suddenly out of the blue, she hears a gun shot ring out, and looks up, to see her dog, she had since she was a young girl, take off into the forest, to where the shot rang out . . . later she heard another shot, and the dog, stopped barking.  Eventually, Tom Brown, the name of the other fisherman, who showed the pair the sight, came to the fire, and told the girl, that he shot her husband and also her dog that attacked her.  The girl, only 17 years old, went into shock, and the man, much older, told her, she needed to stay with him, and he took her deeper into the woods.

After several days of walking and rape, taking place, periodically through the day, the man, softened by this girl's, nightly reading of the scriptures, decided, they needed to go back to town, and report the accidental shooting, which became the story, of both the man, and his three day or so, captive, whom he had killed, both her husband, boyfriend, since she was 15 years old, and her life long pet, which at first, the cops accepted, without question, seeing that the gun could have gone off, when the man, handed the 22 Model Savage Rifle, to the other man.  With the statements of both the man and the dead man's wife, who also lost her dog, in the incident, the cops, had no suspicions that the story, or the death, was the result of anything but, an accident, that can happen, up in the woods, and with guns.  However, as the girl's mother, much older and more experienced, knowing, more the hearts of men, and the innocence of her daughter, when hearing the whole story, said . . . this was no accident, that man, murdered your husband and dog, to get to you!  When the young woman, was able to process this incident, and make sense of it all, she was able to see, that, the man, killed what she loved, to get to her, and she changed her story, and the man, was charged with first degree murder!  And he was convicted!

4 Elements to the Stockholm Syndrome: (1) a traumatic event or episode; (2) isolation of the victim or hostage; (3) indoctrination; and (4) the promise of reward . . . safety for this young woman

As experts were called into the case, to rehabilitate the girls, first police statement, the criminologists and psychologists, said, this statement was completely consistent with the four phases and elements of someone, in a hostage situation, being held against their will, after the shooting of a loved husband and dog, in fear of her own life, being held, raped repeatedly by the same man, and hearing his side of the story, or his facts, and his version of the shooting, which, she was not close enough to see, making, it now her only version of what happened, being totally brainwashed and indoctrinated, with the promise, that she would be safe, which would totally be on her mind, in light of the fact that 2 people and a dog, went fishing, and only one person and the murder, would make it alive out of the woods!  This syndrome was applied to Patty Hurst, kidnapped and taken hostage, later, being involved with the captors, in a bank robbery . . . something she didn't need to do, with plenty of money, being the heir of the newspaper mogul father, William Randolf Hurst, whom I believe had been hit up for a ransom, in exchange for his daughter's release, and with her later, sympathizing with her kidnappers, even siding with them, over her father!  Many situations have risen, given, wings and meaning to this syndrome, first acknowledged, as the hostages in the Swedish incident, actually, denigrated their own country, and spoke against it, and for their new captors of another nationality.

This young girl, still, I am sure, in denial, shock and unable to process, this incident herself, still traumatized by the fact, that she was held by the man who murdered her husband on purpose, was surely, a victim and suffering from the Stockholm Syndrome.  As I finished the episode, I did what, I used to rarely do, but seem to be doing it at very strange times, I sneezed, as in 'tis you!  This man's name, in the TV show, and case, the murderer, was, Tom Brown, with double symbolic significance to me.  The CIA, had lunch with my client, Tom Vail, and basically, had someone, the other me, probably attorney, Kay, now with Brett, the same pair, who stole, Elliot's music, with family help, Shelley, closest cousin, Isaac . . . brown hair, brown eyes, and Kay's first husband, being Brown, as in Tim Brown, of Bountiful, Kay's husband and Shelley's friend, since high school!  So, the name, Tom, became, symbolic of the CIA . . . that is just how my mind works.  But, the man in the show, also, looked, very much like Brett! and he had that predator attitude, of taking whatever in the hell he wants!

Elliot Was the Prize Brett Wanted

Elliot and God's Revolver Band, where his trophy, the prize . . . after I left him, Kay, was close enough to be a substitute for me, and Isaac, at first, became a substitute for Elliot . . . Isaac, could be, genetically, explained away as the product or son of Brett and Kay, or Brett and Shelley . . . but brown and hazel, without blue, can't create, blue eyes and red hair of Elliot!  Predators, derive pleasure from pain.  I don't know, that I was a victim of the Stockholm Syndrome, but I was in a very isolated place, Mt. Sterling, with a captor, who had the truck, after a very traumatic experience, that of being told I was going to die, and having to give up my law practice.  I didn't need to be indoctrinated, the government, or Shelley, or the FBI, or whomever, poisoned me, had fucked my mind and brain up major, it was like being in a fog, and I was like a 5 year old hostage.  I guess the promise of a reward, was, not dying, having Brett take care of me, which he did . . . but as I started to get better, my will power started to come back, and he started losing control over me, until, finally I left.

However, even after leaving Brett, there was some residual, due to the fact that, it took another 4 years for me, to realize that I was not dying and to get my law license reactivated--but the mob, took my house, cases, furniture, right before I was going to the 10th Circuit, with Kay taking my place, and re-traumatizing me, followed by Allan Rex Bess's death, and non-stop since, and in a relentless fashion, have not let up since, the release of Elliot's band's, first CD with Sony, that, as far as I am aware, was never released--by the real band.  All the way along, I saw, step by step and plan by plan, sabotage by sabotage, how these fuckers took over Elliot's bands' music . . . and I think, God's Revolver, was second to Parallax, that had involved and sensationalized, Blake Donner's death, and the Provo Death Cave, incident, that had traumatized Elliot, big time!  You have a traumatized son and mother! and total access to the music and the money!  Actually, both parents were taken out of the game, about the time, Parallax was getting big back in 2000 . . . Zeke or Richard, Elliot's dad got fired from his 17 year job, and successful attorney mother, was poisoned, and suppose to die, then when the first band hit big time, in the underground music scene, popping out, CD's every time I talked to Elliot, Blake Donner, and three others were murdered!  Trauma, trauma, trauma . . . and who would understand this syndrome better than, an FBI or CIA agent?

New True Crime Series Coming Out . . . FBI Serial Killer

At the same time, that Elliot's band was hitting the big time, with God's Revolver, there was, back in about 2008, a new TV series, called 24 Hours, Keifer Southerland, FBI hit man, and I remember, both Rachel and my father, being so enamored with this series, taking it all in, loving and discussing it, along with Rachel, disappearing, along with Isaac, and Shelley for about a two year period, between, 2007 and 2009, when I knew, the family, with the help of Brett, and other family members, was stealing Elliot's band's music, and I even knew who was taking Elliot's place, Ryan Chambers, a red head guitar player, good enough, to at least fake the music on stage, with laser lights, and spotlights, above the heads, giving the illusion of a real band, but, without the passion and authenticity, that are so critical to lasting success and staying power!  I also, knew that the record label was Exigent out of Kaysville . . . that little CIA symbolism and signs, so agents can communicate without talking!

Double Trouble . . . The Death of JoAnn Catronack, of Catasauqua, Pennsylvania . . . Mother and Baby Murdered by Ex-Girlfriend of Husband!

It is one thing, when you are dealing with a psychopath for an ex-husband, a predator, a ruthless killer, and you are his prey, and so is your baby, but, double the trouble, when, his new girlfriend, allegedly you, or me, is also a predator, a psychopath, and they are both spies, for the government, teaming with a family, with a former spy for a father, and a few son-in-laws, hired and married to infiltrate a family, of targets, with all spouses teaming up about the time of little brother's band success . . . with total power, total access, and total, ability to steal the music, taking the money, from the band, to fund the new band, and efforts to keep the parents, isolated, without money, connections, and power of their own, that they both, used to have, making them financially, struggling, and then, go after them, time and time again, with all the power of the Mormon Church, using, members to harass both parents, with cops, prosecutors, planning departments, judges, legislators, etc., all under the allegiance of the church banner and whomever, they want taken care of these minions, useful idiots will take care of, without question . . . because, when the prophet has spoken, the debates over, and the same with the government, for these little stooby doos!

When a Man Is Left By One Wife . . . The New One, Always Has to Worry About a Rival in the Old Wife, and Even Worse, When You Have Stolen the Old Wife's Identity! Son's Band, and Career, Cases, Water Compacts, Continuing the Fraud to Protect the Original Goal of Taking the Music!  Whether They are Partners in Love, Or Partners in Crime . . . They Share Tons of Damning Secrets Together, Leaving them Totally Bound for Life!

So, in this true crime episode, I emphasis, the true crime, because, the friends, co-workers, fellow church goers, family members, cops, prosecutors, investigators, and judges, don't tend to see crime in their fellows who have made them money, brought fortune and fame to the state, and acclaim through a fucking huge ass case, that the first wife did! the real attorney, the real member of the U.S. federal court system . . . not a stand in fraud . . . no pretenders wanted here!  So, with so much skin in the game, that double, is trouble, from both sides of the game, from the original who can put, new girlfriend, now oldie moldie, to shame, and the thoughts of any happiness for the old wife, with a new man, is also a threat to ex-husband, who will kill him or them!  

Okay, with that said, shortly before JoAnn's death, one night, three days before death, she got a disturbing phone call, later to be disclosed by a friend or her mother-in-law, after JoAnn and her baby's death, a call that came from a Patricia Roar, a former girlfriend, of JoAnn's husband, who wanted to get together with her old flame, and JoAnn, told her, he was married now, and had a baby, so she needed to leave her and her family lone--and she slammed down the phone.  It was guessed, that, Patricia got mad at the new wife--significantly younger than both the husband and Patricia, which might have added to the anger, when, JoAnn, told her to get lost, and stay away from her husband.  Looking at the phone call, and evidence, connecting dots, it looked like a very pissed off older woman, came to ex-boyfriend's home, cut the phone lines and electricity, later cutting her victim off at the car, as she buckled her young son, into his car seat, and Patricia took JoAnn and her baby, into the woods, in a rural area, first shot her, but the gun jammed, so she, then beat JoAnn to death, hitting her 19 times, leaving her and her 4 month old baby to die . . . the baby was found on her abdomen, and when Patricia was charged, she was also, charged with killing JoAnn and her baby boy.

Once Again, the Symbolic Names Can't Be Ignored!

If you take the first true crime episode, and this next one, you will get a big picture of my case, in its entirety:

• Tom Brown, Tom (CIA) Brown, husband of Kay Burningham Brown Buttars ?, or that name could serve as a class of men, all members of the intelligence community, either FBI or CIA, and I believe, all the insiders, the men, whom have been part of my life of the last 4 years, or more, starting with Brett, have been top cops, with an attraction to me, due to my government and constitutional preservation, protection and defense, against the Patriot Act, representing, a group of I would say, men, whom, have their way with women, as a part of their job, all knowing each other, sending one human male sacrifice, as soon as the last one is rejected by me, making a class of powerful men, who all are drawn to me, but, have long hated me as well! and they all are predators, and I am their prey, as is my son, somehow, I think, these men concocted, some hair ball scheme, that due to me killing asset forfeiture laws, that spread from what I did in Utah to, other states, not only in that area, but with doctors and financial planners, giving the government a huge ass hit, and set back, keeping men, like these from the cookie jar . . . so they made it Cookie's Jar . . . or their CIA chick's jar! all of me! Oh, I almost forgot, remember, I wrote about Elliot's favorite dark green knit beanie, he wore for years, it seemed, partly to keep warm and partly to keep his wild ass hair in place! but, in Playplaceland, here at McDonald's, some guy, a salt and pepper, gray haired, Brett look-alike, was sitting in with a kid or two, but he was wearing a green knit beanie!  I always thought, that someone stole that, hat, either someone close to me, or at my house, or after Elliot visited me, but, I knew, that it was due to the fact, that the hat would be worth a small fortune, or already was . . . Isaac may have taken it . . . I remember being pissed, because Elliot was always wearing it, and he missed it, and I knew, it was his favorite color, and the replacement black knit hat, wasn't as perfect for his red or copper hair, being a color suited for redheads!  I was just watching a new crime episode, in between writing, while eating lunch, and, the episode was called, Common Thread, the situation of a serial killer, who admitted to killing 10 women, several the cops didn't even know about, but what connected all the other killings they knew about, was a red fiber, found in one make of car, and found on all the victims!  The thought came to mind, as I walked by this man with a goatee, and looking like an older version of Brett, that, Isaac or someone close to me, might have given that knit hat to Brett! and perhaps, someone close to the case, will have seen him wearing it, and also, going to the video, 8/23, where Elliot yanks the green beanie off, throws it to the ground, and connects, the same hat to the predator and the victim or prey! 
• Patricia Roar, again, there is tremendous meaning in the killer's name, on several levels.  The actual acronym, of the Central Intelligence Agency, or CIA, is in the name of the killer, Patricia, indicating to me, a COMPANY gal, or insider.  Remember the song by Katy Perry, Roar . . . your going to hear me ROAR, this rival of the younger wife, having just had a baby, was a cowgirl, had won some contest in the rodeo, had horses, which was one of the things that connected her to the murder, the body had been dumped, out in a rural area, where there were horses near by, and this chick had some.  The thing that is interesting to me, is, that, once you take, away, all that makes a person, who they are, there is something very traumatizing to that person, and something very enabling to the person, who is then, anointed with your successes and titles, as is the case with sister, Shelley, who is not an attorney, nor professor, or anything, and has had shitty jobs, fending for herself, so if the FBI or the CIA, were to contact her, and ask her to help, take me down, you have the effect of an older sister, who may have been the one who made the poison that took me down, had everything to gain, sibling rivalry, always in MY SHADOW, wanting to kick me down a notch or two, making me, literally, and figuratively younger, or taking away my power tools, so to say, which is exactly what they did, when I was poisoned back in 2000!  So, it is the fraud broads who, ROAR, because, of the theft, they are seen as the ones, who did my cases, had my kids, had my more than stellar career, involving all the top professions: I am an attorney, was a professor, and worked, as the general counsel, over the doctors, saved them from government investigations, having still not recovered from what I did, then doing the same thing, with financial planners, only getting to them, before, much damage was done . . . so being assigned, not only the title of all I had done, and stripping me of all of it, leaves the affect of a much younger, more vulnerable women, and it was big sis, or rival Kay, who had the power boys and government behind them, as I had previously had!  I believe that both Shelley and Kay, had previous relationships with Brett, prior to me marrying him!  Both of them, may have rejected him, or he may have rejected them . . . Kay did everything in her power, to let him know she was jealous, she cooked, asked Brett to do this or that, Honey Do lists, and as the first meeting with Shelley, Brett, followed her in the kitchen and left me alone, I would say, indicating, this was a planned deal, they the team or the predators, and me their prey!  But, they, all three, plus, a few more Southwicks, could not get this Katy Perry Mason, to stop ROARING . . . I did it ALL you fucks!  Another aspect, is the male rival, and JFK, John Fitzgerald Kennedy, I have symbolically, connected to the word, Fitzpatrick, or connecting to James "Angel" Kennedy, whom, knowing Kay, and Shelley, and James . . . all parties may have fucked each other, with Brett and James, very much being Alpha males, and knowing men, competitors, therefore, adding a male rivalry to the female rivalry, and twisting and complicating everything, with male and female jealousy, envy . . . Brett had me when I was doing nothing, stole, my old career, then, going all the way to the United States Supreme Court, after being told I would never work again, attests to him, my superiority over, both Shelley and Kay, or Rachel, for James, or the fake James, all as being inferior, with the roar, of a fake, being drowned by the roar of Perry Mason, the attorney mom, on the son, born in May . . . all over the Internet, and famous in face and name, if not in money! trumping that butt fucking faggot Isaac, who participated, and blocking that fag, from his glory, by writing about Elliot in my blog, putting pictures of him, writing about his hair, and his stories and history . . . and lazy ass Isaac, is standing in his cousin's fame, once again . . . there is no short cut to success, dumb asses, and that goes for Rachel, who is ME as of late, being blonde with blue eyes, to cover, me, as Elliot's mom . . . no, Rachel's boys are fat asses! with flat pancake faces, like Rachel's!  And MOM ROARS AGAIN! as I can with all my kids!  All potential male lover, rivals, have been murdered by the possessive ex-husbands, but, James would be in their class, and with the Kennedy name, they seemed to just warn him, not kill him, but I am sure they would, if there was a serious threat, because, I am the TRUE QUEEN, and the TRUE KING maker!  Kay, Shelley, Rachel, etc. are only the Queens, as long as they are ME!
• JoAnn Catronack . . . JoAnn, the one who had the abortion, that strangely, my rivals want to claim, even the two mums, Shelley and Rachel, who had babies, part of the Triplets as they are called: (1) Tyrone Southwick, Shelley's brat . . . probably FBI too, giving jobs to her losers, never can do anything without Mommy Dearest who fucked them over so much! (2) Emily Hickey, Rachel's daughter, who, either just had a baby, out of wedlock, of course, like she would have 4 years earlier, had I not mothered her; and then (3) Tipper or MaryJane Nelson, at college somewhere, Mark and Marcie's daughter!  Had I not aborted, the baby I was carrying, the first 19 or so days in May of 1994 or 5, I would have had a baby, the Quads, making four babies born, all in the month of March, but I chose otherwise, so, Shelley had a baby, Rachel had a baby, and if I am not Elliot's mother, prove who had the baby I aborted? and prove who I am?  I can prove who these women or sisters, if by any stretch of your brain, you could classify them as sisters, are, if they are not me, because, they live double lives . . . so does Kay, therefore, who in the fuck am I, if not me . . . I am sitting right here in Missoula, at McDonald's at 2:32 P.M., and I will go wave at the surveillance cameras to prove it . . . I think I have a buck left on my money card, I will get a fudge Sunday to prove, card ending in 0192!  So, the last name is symbolic too, and this is how, the CIA and FBI, communicate, watching surveillance cameras, through gestures and symbolic messages and names, words, and codes, they can pass along information without talking, but, I have a knack, in doing this, having long, used symbolism in dream interpretation, and as an English major, using colors, words, and all to interpret, the subconscious messages of a writer or the conscious messages, in the Scarlet Letter!  I have mentioned that one of my words to connote, CIA is CATS or CAT, as in JoAnn Catronack . . . I have trained myself, not only to read your messages to each other, but to key into your subconscious messages, that are God driven . . . you can't help but reveal yourselves!
• Roger Dingeman . . . Ding E or Elliot Man!
• Peggy Courter . . . one of my signs for Kay, came, right after, Brett and Kay spent the arranged weekend together, while I was a sideline.  But, from that point on, I didn't want Brett and was just looking for the right time to escape, Mt. Sterling, and one day, I had taken a walk, to get out of the compound and away from my captor, and I was over hiding at the church farm house, across the way and field from our house, thinking and planning my escape, without a car and being watched 24/7 at home, but there was this peg board in the garbage at the house, and I thought, Kay must be getting bored, waiting for Brett, an obvious attraction, either from before or after, with me as a sideline, but a threat, I was NOT in true form, and not me, as I am now.  Brett started to expect more of me, in our relationship, as I healed, but I was not willing to give more, and Kay had cooked, worn aprons, and I could tell Brett liked a picture of Kay in shorts and mountain biking, maybe he took the picture?  But, I wanted out, don't like sloppy seconds, or trashy firsts, and I was mentally gone, anywhere, as soon as I had a way out!  Brett controlled my money too, as my representative payee . . . he signed the application to Social Security as HUSBAND, probably the only authentic proof of the status we had, under the nonsolemnized or non-ceremonial marriage statutes we used to get married!  So, this name is particularly telling, in and of the fact, that, Kay got credit for the Brock case, and the 10th Circuit Court brief, all fucking brilliant and famous! people were paying to get hot copy of my writing, just like they do now . . . Leopards don't change their spots . . . Kay wrote loser books, and her blog, now is loser! if you can find it, or it may be MINE, with a different name?  So, the boyz club and all the paid, bought and dead if they tell, killers on the loose, would say, Kay did the Brock and other cases . . . Peggy Courter or Kay Court Her!
• Trooper Robert Egan . . . Mayor of Missoula, Mayor Engen, and I always misspell it . . . but, Sheriff D.J. McDermitt, is surely one of theirs . . . may indicate, locals!  There was hardball politics played, in the race between McDermitt and to get, Undersheriff at the time, Jason Clark, or something like that . . . too many names, too many places, too many crime shows!  LOL!  City cops answer to the mayors, sheriffs answer to the people, what better, in this world of trying to unify cops, erasing lines of demarcation, than to get rid of that distinction between the sheriffs and the city cops, and make them all answerable to the mayor, through the sheriff? or putting insiders in the sheriff's department, to keep control away from the people, or at least split loyalty, keeping it with, cops!
• Ke Jun Kim . . . that is pronounced, KAY June (Isaac's birthday) Kin! that is how it is phonetically said or sounded!  And this guy was an entomologist or someone who studies bugs! Surveillance 24/7 gives spy gals, what I am doing at all times, I have to go through God and symbols, TV shows and other signs . . . I don't have the fucking government to help me, the fucking government is on my back, 24/7, giving the Company girlz, my information REAL TIME!
• Joseph Dizzino . . . Jo . . . Dies . . . I Know!
• Sarah O'Conner . . . mother, Sarah is the red head daughter of Sue and Kevin Schmidt, suggesting, that Susan is the mother of the red headed son . . . NO, Sue and Kev, have 2 brown haired sons, no redheads, but three redheaded daughters!  Believe me, they, have me so buried, you would be hard pressed to guess who I am, even if you knew me, due to lies, sex and video tapes, rock and roll, drugs and such.  No, I would never put this time, into my sisters' kids . . . only MINE, Greta, Nicole, Christian, and Elliot . . . the HOT HOUSE!  HOT MAMA'S MAKE HOT KIDS!

CUT IT OUT!  FAST FOCUS TV!

Finish Your Sunday Off Holy!

P.S., It is interesting, in the death of JoAnn and her baby boy, very symbolic, the defense team of attorneys for, Patricia Roar, refused to accept the theory of the prosecution, when they said the motive for the murders, was revenge for telling the ex-girlfriend, to stay out of their lives, that she and her husband were married, and had a baby--stating that normal people don't act like that.  And the prosecutors said, You are right . . . normal people don't murder people, when they don't like what they are told to do, and disagree with . . . and Patricia is NOT normal!  If there is anything, the one point, I want people to learn from my case, is that psychopaths, are not normal people, they don't react normal, nor do they do normal things, that is what makes it so difficult for, those of us, who society would classify as normal, people who respect marital boundaries, respect life, respect someone's sincere position protecting their family unit, and the greater majority of us, would never, ever, kill someone, for telling us to stay away from a husband or a wife, but, these people are not normal!!!!!!!  You could say, they are nice, charming, interesting, intelligent, smart, beautiful, but, they don't react normally, they don't think normal, they do things, other people would not do, and they get away with it, because, normal people can't believe ANYONE would do this or that, and the unbelief, is what stops normal people from acknowledging what I would consider, pure evil, masked, in whatever nice wrapping it comes in . . . stealing someone's ID, is not normal, but, there are many people who do it . . . but, actually claiming you are the person, taking everything from them, including trying to take their own children and grandchildren, is so far from normal, that it is unbelievable, and we refuse to believe it, so the person they are doing it to, gets re-victimized by the system, because, they due to unbelief, see no evil, hear no evil, and speak no evil, allowing the EVIL to get away, and the Good, left unprotected against these predators! 

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA!