LOVIN'. DRINK IT UP! WILD CARD POKER, WARDRIP, OLNEY . . . THE NEW DETECTIVE: "INVISIBLE DEATH" AND "TO KILL AGAIN." THE LEGAL DEFINITION FOR A SERIAL KILLER, IS A PERSON WHO KILLS THREE OR MORE PERSONS. THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF, THAN HAVING ONE OF YOUR CHILDREN MURDERED, IS TO HAVE THEM BE THE KILLER THEMSELVES . . . HOW DO WE INSTILL, "EMPATHY" IN OUR CHILDREN? HOW DO WE MAKE THEM FEEL? CARE? IDENTIFY WITH ANOTHER PERSON'S PAIN? AS I WAS WRITING ABOUT PSYCHOPATHS, LOOKING AT THEIR CHARACTERISTICS, I REALIZED, GIVEN THE RIGHT CIRCUMSTANCES, FACTS, AND SITUATION, I HAVE MANY OF THE SAME CHARACTERISTICS. I HAVE A HISTORY AND A CAREER, BASED ON THE ONE THING, THAT PROBABLY DISTINGUISHED ME FROM A PSYCHOPATH, "EMPATHY" HAVING WORKED ON ISSUES LIKE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, CHILD ABUSE, ELDER ABUSE AND FRAUD, CIVIL RIGHTS, ETC.; HOWEVER, I AM RUTHLESS, TOUGH MINDED, INTELLIGENT, METHODICAL, FOCUSED, I'M A RISK TAKER, CUT THROAT, AND DANGEROUS IN MY KNOWLEDGE. LIKE I WROTE YESTERDAY, ONE OF THE PROFESSIONS THAT OFTEN DISPLAYS PSYCHOPATHIC BEHAVIORS, IS THAT OF THE LAW . . . AND, THE LAUNDRY LIST OF TRAITS, OF A PSYCHOPATH, MOVE ON THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF SOCIETY, TO THE POSITIVE . . . ATTORNEYS ARE LOOKED AT, AS MODERN DAY GLADIATORS, SENT INTO AN ARENA, TO GO TO BATTLE, WITH THE HOPES OF WINNING FOR YOUR CLIENT. OFTEN PEOPLE WITH PSYCHOPATHIC PERSONALITY CHARACTERISTICS, END UP BEING THE HERO OR HEROINE BECAUSE OF THOSE VERY FOCUSED AND DRIVEN TRAITS. SO, I DECIDED THAT I WAS A "CONDITIONAL PSYCHOPATH" AND GENERALLY CALLED INTO ACTION, BY AN ALLEGED BULLY, AS, SEEN IN MY BLOG, THE OTHER DAY . . . ON THE "REAL I.D." ACT, WITH THE FEDS TRYING TO CRAM THAT TYPE OF IDENTIFICATION CARD, ON MONTANANS, WHO HAVE DECIDED, THE INFORMATION WANTED, IS AN INVASION OF THE PRIVACY RIGHTS OF THE PEOPLE IN MONTANA, A WAS VOTED DOWN, AS UNCONSTITUTIONAL! I WOULD AGREE, AND DECIDED, THAT IF THE STATE WANTED TO RETAIN MY SERVICES, FOR PAY, AFTER WORKING THE LAST 3 YEARS FREE, DOING EVERYTHING FROM DOING UP TO 6 CONSTITUTIONAL ANALYSIS ON THE SALISH-KOOTENAI WATER COMPACT, TO TESTIFYING AGAINST THAT LEGISLATION OR THE APPROVAL AT THE LEGISLATURE, DOING ANALYSIS ON THE NEWLY PROPOSED, BY THE FEDS, I MIGHT AD, MEDICAL MARIJUANA REFORM, TO WILD BURROS AND HORSES LEGISLATION, AND OTHER LEGAL TOPICS, IN ADDITION TO HELPING MANY PEOPLE, WITH THIS OR THAT, AND TAKING A CASE TO COURT, IN KALISPELL, AFTER A COURT APPEARANCE AND WRITING TWO EXHAUSTIVE LEGAL BRIEFS! THIS TIME I AM GETTING PAID, OR GOOD LUCK! I AM NOT GOING TO ALLEVIATE THE CONSCIENCE OF THE FEDS WHO SHOULD HAVE BEEN INVESTIGATING MY CASE WITH ALMOST 700 BLOGS, WRITTEN, OVER THE LAST TWO YEARS, TO AID IN THE DISCOVERY OF THE ACTUAL PSYCHOPATHS, THEY THINK DUE TO BOOB SIZE, THE KINDNESS FACTOR, OR THE CHARM . . . SOME OF THE VERY DISTINCTIVE CHARACTERISTICS OF THE PSYCHOPATH, WITH EVERYONE LIKING THEM BETTER THAN ME--I DON'T NEED A POPULARITY CONTEST, I NEED JUSTICE, AND GOING TO TEACH AT THE COLLEGE TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER, THAN ME LIVING AT THE POVERELLO HOMELESS SHELTER, IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN . . . I AM GOING TO TRASH YOUR ASS, UNTIL YOU FUCKING ARREST THESE PSYCHOS, YOU HAVE HELD UP TO BE ME, AND AIDED AND ABETTED IN THE PERPETRATION OF A PLETHORA OF CRIMES, BOTH STATE AND FEDERAL! I AM DOING ALL I CAN, TO AID YOU IN THE REVELATION OF WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE, HAVE DELIVERED THEIR HEADS ON A PLATTER, MORE THAN ONCE, TO KNOW AVAIL. SO WHEN YOU STOP BEING THE PATHOLOGICAL LIARS, YOU ARE, COVERING UP THESE CRIMES FOR YOUR, NOW, COWORKERS AND BOSSES, WHO HAVE TAKEN CREDIT FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE, WHO MY CHILDREN ARE, AND ALLOWED YOU TO BUTT FUCK THEM, MALE AND FEMALE, I WILL HOLD YOU ACCOUNTABLE AND EVENTUALLY, YOU WILL BE CHARGED WITH OBSTRUCTION OF JUSTICE AND ABUSE OF POWER, JUST LIKE PRESIDENT NIXON AND CREW! MAKE YOUR CHOICE, EITHER DO YOUR FUCKING JOB, LIKE ME OR NOT, LOVE THEM OR NOT, OR YOU, TOO WILL GO DOWN IF I HAVE TO SUE YOU MYSELF! GOOD LUCK, THERE IS A FUCKING GOOD REASON THESE PSYCHOPATHS, WANTED MY GOOD NAME, HISTORY, CLEAN RECORD, KILLER CASES, AWESOME KIDS, AND KICK ASS BLOG! I WILL NOT LET PSYCHOS TAKE OVER THE WORLD, NO MATTER HOW GOOD LOOKING, NICE, SMILEY FACED, OR PUMPED CHESTED! THAT IS NO WAY TO RUN A COUNTRY! THE CONSTITUTION ROCKS, PATRIOT ACT IS FUCKED! USE IT ON TERRORISTS, NOT ME, A BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK BLOGGER! YOU OWE ME MILLIONS IF NOT BILLIONS FOR YOUR COVER-UPS, OFFER ME A DEAL TO LET YOU OFF THE HOOK, BUT, NOTHING SHORT OF PRISON, WILL BE ACCEPTED FOR THE LIARS! PAY PARTICULAR ATTENTION TO THE CASES THAT I AM GOING TO FEATURE TODAY, ESPECIALLY THE LITTLE OLD LADY, WHO TOOK ABOUT 60 PEOPLE'S GOVERNMENT BENEFIT CHECKS, AND THOSE WHO WOULD NOT GIVE HER POWER OVER THEIR MONEY, SHE FUCKING MURDERED, 7 OF THEM, AND BURIED THEM IN HER BACKYARD! . . . EVERY ONE LOVED HER, SHE WAS KNOWN IN THE COMMUNITY AS A CHAMPION OF THE HOMELESS, DISENFRANCHISED, THE COMMUNITY REFUSED TO SAY ANYTHING BAD ABOUT HER, ENTERTAIN THE IDEA THAT SHE COULD BE A KILLER, EVEN AS THE COPS WERE DIGGING BODIES, ONE AFTER ANOTHER FROM HER BACKYARD . . . THAT IS UNTIL SHE TOOK OFF, RUNNING FROM THE LAW, AND EVEN IN HIDING, SHE COULD NOT RESIST GOING AFTER NEW VICTIMS . . . "TO KILL AGAIN!" DON'T BE FOOLED, WHAT TIPPED THE COPS OFF, WAS A RESIDENT AT HER BOARDING HOUSE, THE SMELL OF DEATH, HER PRE-DAWN GARDENING, AND HER PAST CRIMINAL RECORD, SHE HAD GONE TO PRISON FOR CASHING SOCIAL SECURITY CHECKS, BEFORE . . . OLD HABITS DIE HARD . . . MY SISTER, SHELLEY, WAY BACK IN ABOUT 2004/5, FILED A PETITION TO THE 1ST JUDICIAL DISTRICT, IN LOGAN, UTAH, TO DECLARE ME INCOMPETENT, OR AS A DANGER TO MYSELF--SHE CREATED THE RECORD, AFTER SHE CALLED THE COPS, SETTING ME UP FOR GOING THE THE BATHROOM--ONLY ALLEGED WRONG SHE AND THE COPS COULD PIN ON ME--NOT MUCH DIFFERENT NOW, UNLESS FRAMED, BUT, WITH PERMISSION AT AN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, WHICH I HAD BEEN GOING TO, AFTER DRINKING 64 OZ. OF DIET COKE, ALWAYS CHECKING AT THE OFFICE, LETTING THEM KNOW I WAS IN THE BUILDING, ABOUT 5 PREVIOUS TIMES WITH PERMISSION, AS IN THIS CASE . . . SHELLEY, THE LIAR SHE IS, CLAIMED, I HAD BEEN RAPED BY 8 BURMESE GUYS, WHAT A JOKE, I COULD HAVE SAT ON ALL 8 AT THE SAME TIME, BUT SHE DID THIS TO OBTAIN CONTROL OF MY SOCIAL SECURITY DISABILITY--MY FATHER ALREADY GAVE HER MY LICENSE, MY I.D. CARD, AND A COPY OF MY SOCIAL SECURITY CARD, AND MY CAR--DADDY-DAUGHTER, DUO, AT THE TIME I WAS STILL CONSIDERED, BEING ABOUT THE MENTAL AGE OF A 5 YEAR OLD, BUT SMARTER THAN THEY ALL THOUGHT! LOL! REAPING THE BENEFITS NOW, IF THE COPS WANT A FEW SERIAL KILLERS CAUGHT? YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT THE HISTORY OF THE PEOPLE YOU ARE DEALING WITH, PRIOR TO 2000, I HAD A STELLAR EMPLOYMENT RECORD, DRIVING RECORD, PERFECT CREDIT, GREAT KIDS, MONEY--SHELLEY ONCE FOUND A $3,000 UNCASHED CHECK, IN A BOX OF MY BELONGINGS, ALONG WITH MY UNFRAMED, UTAH STATE BAR LICENSE--CRIMINAL MINDS AT WORK?, WHICH MIGHT HAVE GIVEN HER THE IDEA TO START THE I.D. THEFT, 4 JOBS, WAS A WORKAHOLIC, AND SHELLEY HAD WARRANTS, RARELY WORKED, A PARASITE ON THE FAMILY, HER EX-HUSBANDS, THE CHURCH, AND HER KIDS--JESSE AND ISAAC, WERE HAVING TROUBLES WITH THE LAW . . . THESE FUCKING PSYCHOPATHS, JUST POISONED ME, AND EXCHANGED IDENTITIES, COVERING THE FACT THAT I EVER CAME BACK, REACTIVATING MY LAW LICENSE--IN TOO DEEP AT THAT POINT, IN THE I.D. THEFT, WITH DADDY DEAREST, SCREAMING AT HIS DAUGHTER, WHEN HE FOUND OUT, I HAD GOTTEN MY LAW LICENSE BACK, OCTOBER 1, 2009! STRANGE REACTION FOR A FATHER OF A DAUGHTER, WHO WAS SUPPOSE TO DIE, YOU WOULD THINK, A "REAL" FATHER, WOULD HAVE BEEN ELATED TO HAVE A DAUGHTER COME BACK FROM THE DEAD, SO TO SAY? BUT NOT IF, THAT SAME FATHER, HAD LONG AGO AIDED AND ABETTED ANOTHER, PREFERRED DAUGHTER, HE OWED, NOT GOING TO PRISON HIMSELF, GETTING PARDONED ON SECURITIES CHARGES, UNLIKE SHELLEY'S EX-HUSBAND AND FORMER BOSS! NICE . . . HISTORY REVEALS A TON . . . YOU JUST HAVE TO GET RECORDS UNSEALED! DO YOUR FUCKING HOMEWORK . . . I HAVE GONE BEYOND, NICE AT THIS POINT!

Loving Patriarch to Darwinian Psychopath . . . American Greed!

The scary thing, about, psychopaths, is we are worried about, the Ted Bundy, John Wayne Gacy, Jeffery Dahmers, of the world, and other serial killers, when, we have killers, living in our own families, next door, we work with them, and need to be aware of them, of those who allegedly love us, care for us, grew up with us, gave us birth, married us, and are most near and dear to our hearts, but, also, have the appearance, of being above reproach, when it comes to our health, our money, and our lives, in some cases . . . and when in reality, they, our alleged, loved ones, literally, have hearts of darkness, when it comes to the potential to make a buck off of you or yours, then, they become void of conscious, without love, empathy, sympathy, and there are no limits, to the extent, to which they will go, to get their hands on YOUR money, if they can, and will, literally, lick the blood off the pavement, to get rid of you, any connection, between you are your money, or the history of you having made money, or the potential to make money, like the practice of law, even at a time you are taking a case to the U.S. Supreme Court, worth, $357 million, and go from being influenced and guided by scripture, church and youth teachings, to divorcing all connection between right and wrong, in this battle, for your, money, sad as that may sound, I have found it to be true, and reading, studying, watching, examples of this type of mentality, with particular attention to the psychopath, has helped me, immensely, to understand, my past, my current, and my potential future, my family, friends, lovers, husbands, that when, there is MONEY, God no longer exists, the new god, was MONEY, social conscience, morals, values, empathy, sympathy for the vulnerable, no longer exists, loyalties, priorities, and even blood connections, disappear, and you and yours, can be reduced to nothing more, than prey, that of the weak, the vulnerable, the target, the hunted, to be taken down by the HUNTERS!  

I remember, listening to my father, after a long, absence, not of distance, and time, but of mind, to some extent, and being shocked by the changes, the difference in rhetoric, dialogue, tone, mood, epiphany, or the main lesson, that seemed to be, being made . . . rather than a comment, and teaching on, love, kindness, forgiveness, taking care of the widow, the fatherless, the prisoner, it all became, focused and discussed in terms of, staying out of the fringe of society, comparing it to the slower, weaker animals, running in a herd, of elk, or gazelle, with a lion, panther, cheetah, or other predatory animal stalking and laying in wait, to kill, those on the outlaying fringes of the herd.  At first, I thought, he was referring, to staying close to the family, the church, within safe boundaries, being protected, loved, and being covered by the others of your particular species, in animal terms, or family, church, community, in human terms.  I have come to realize, that is not what he was referring to, that, those predatory animals, are looking for the weak, the elderly, the sick, the poor, the disenfranchised the, to feed on, to rob, to steal from and take, whatever, the focus of the hunt was, and that, predatory, stronger, more adept, sleeker, smarter . . . allegedly speaking, deserved, whatever it was they could take from the weak, as in the animal world!

The Godly Became Animals, The Capitalist Became Socialists, And ALL, Was Fair Game! With, No Limits!  Therefore, In My 10 Year Fog, My Former World, Upon Recovering, Was Turned On Its Head!  I Now, Was Prey!

In the next three true crime stories, it is those, we trust most, who poisoned the four victims, 2 husbands, a wife and a mother-in-law, with the predators, psychopaths, being members, within their own family, either to cover secret lives, of bigamy, using the dead to sustain the living, the preferred, the new wife, or to get at insurance money, and not share new inherited wealth, bringing about, terrible, prolong suffering, and poisoning, that started years earlier, or, in come cases, was administered in lethal doses, causing death within hours.  These methodical killers, skilled in covering their crimes, poisons and motives, even the most deadly, through modern forensic psychology, tools, and science, will be detected, and will never kill again!  I want to note, with particularity, the case, involving a police officer, as the murderer, due to the fact, that I mentioned this new trend, that is trending now, of preferring physical attraction, above all else . . . given this new mentality, that is psychopathology, driven, and promoted, by, the sick, the ill, the bottom feeders, who are parasites on society, those who don't have the same values, seem void of conscience, can't distinguish between right and wrong, and see no problem, with picking off, anyone of us . . . and, this may, not seem like your problem, 'til it happens to you!  

At the height of my career, general counsel over the Utah Medical Association, a professor of family law, owning my own, anger management company, writing programs for the elderly, rockin' the looks, at age 46 years, and kicking ass, I was poisoned, battled back, got my law license back, took amazing cases, did great work, and was taken down again, with two gorgeous homes, a cabin, vehicles, and almost a billion dollars worth of cases, they went after me again, to cover, earlier crimes, chased me, hunted me, tracked me, stalked me, had 24/7 surveillance on me, and it has taken, 15 years, fighting, every day, for the last, at least 6 years, since clawing my way back to the top, to be almost devoured again, and nearly, 800 blogs, writing almost daily, to try to figure out the mentality, of former, loved ones, and wondering, what the hell happened to this beautiful world, that used to be, judged on merits, contributions, right and wrong, punishing the evil and elevating the just, but, that is not, the world, that I have seen, over the last 15 . . . I am just warning YOU, that if it could happen to ME, it can happen to YOU!  Right now, you can't trust, ANYONE!  Like the cancer, Howard Dean, warned, President Nixon about, just months before he was taken down, there is a cancer, that will, envelop, even the highest rank and file of government, church, the nation and the world, starting in our own families!

I saw an Economist Magazine, laying on the table last night, with a picture of President Obama, and the title was something like, stop fighting the last war, fight this one!  I have long battled, over the Patriot Act, spying on America, the NSA "to watch list", but, by far, this new phenomena, will fucking destroy America, and if allowed to spread, and spread has, is much, more frightening . . . imagine a world, with no right or wrong, with survival of the fittest, a world of predators, going after the weak, the vulnerable, the less fortunate, all the ones, that were long, welcomed into this country . . . bring us you tired, your poor, your hungry . . . the Constitution, was to protect the minorities against the majorities, with a common defense and justice for all!  We are at a cross-roads, what used to be, limited to the fascist mentality of the Bush Patriot Act, with the idea, of doing whatever it takes, without limits and without exceptions, has caught on, and is permeating the very fabric of this great nation.  We do not want to get to the point of no return.  I believe, understanding the psychopath, gives us a unique view, into our futures, that are not going to be as secure, as our past, unless, we change directions!

YOU ARE FAIR GAME, IN THIS NEW WORLD!

   Crime Laboratory

RAT POISON--THALLIUM; POTASSIUM CYANIDE; COLCHACINE POISON

Invisible Death

I have been poisoned, three times that I am aware of, and but for the grace of God and Diet Coke, go I! Often, poisons are contained in the food, someone serves to you, masked by vitamins, and given in small doses, even over years.  Historically, poisons have been added to food, literally, going undetected, letting people get away with murder!  We see this venture, even being, memorialized in the play, Arsenic and Old Lace, where older women, were poisoning their husbands, nobody suspects, sweet older ladies!  Well wait, until I tell you about, the one, with the 7 bodies in the backyard!  Nobody is beyond target, and nobody should be, beyond, suspicion!  I am going to briefly, give you a synopsis of the facts, and the conclusion, but, I think, that it will convince you, to WATCH out, and if you start feeling the flu like symptoms of food poisoning, it may in fact, be a poisoning, that you are experiencing and if you don't stop, the next dose, it could literally be you last!  Here we go:

• in this case, a recently remarried 41 year old man, and engineer, if I remember, suddenly came down with flu like symptoms, and over the course of a month, he was in and out of the hospital, with the doctors unable to detect the source of his problems.  One night, while sharing a room in the hospital, and too bad, this came after the death, and at the time investigators, where talking to potential witnesses, a man, noticed that the dead man's loving wife, brought in a pizza, when nobody had requested one, and the hospital had earlier served dinner.  The wife, insisted the husband and his friend take a piece and seemed to push several onto her sick husband.  After the man, suddenly died, the investigators, started to look into the couple's relationship, and their marriage, with spouses always the prime suspect, when a husband or wife dies, and if not, they should be, but the cops, found, that the wife, had recently inherited, roughly a million dollars, and her and her new husband, got in a fight over it, with him, thinking, that as a couple, it might be wise for him to start his own, company, and her yelling at him, saying he was not getting his hands on on dime!  The cops, also, found a $300,000 insurance policy, and I don't want to trash insurance, because, in a loving home, you need it, but, some people, who don't know their new spouses, or even old ones, should be leery and check your policies, every once in a while, because, it seems to be a common theme, in spousal murders, especially, when another lover enters the picture!  But, this woman, was later interviewed after she was charged with her husband's murder, and she said, when she saw the marriage was not going to work the money, enticed her into killing him!  Divorce is the BETTER option, even if you lose a few dollars . . . what good does it do, if you kill your partner and spend the rest of you life in prison?  On top of the greed, driving her to kill her husband, she had just inherited, a fucking million!  So?
• the next case scares the shit out of me, given the fact that cops, have access to tons of stuff, that can aid and abet them in killing anyone!  Like ME!  So, in this case, suddenly, a wife of 27 years, healthy and happy, kills over dead, with the doctors, calling the police husband, while out on his beat, rushing him to her side, but not in time to say good bye, which later on, you will see why!  So, within, several days of that, her mother, also, suddenly, out of the blue, dies of a massive heart attack, and she had been living with the couple.  Cops started to get suspicious . . . note, these were cops in his OWN department, for god sake . . . nobody is above suspicion, and good for these cops.  One of the rank and file, happened to mention in passing, that there was something strange about this guy's marriage situation, and he happened, to mention, something about, the fact that he was married to a second woman!  The cops followed up a lead, and when they found this other wife, she said, he told her, that he had divorced his first wife, sometime ago, and they had celebrated, then got married!  At this same time, some smart detective, pulled his comrades, personnel files, to VERIFY, his record and resume, in addition, to his claim of receiving military medals, and serving in special forces, while in the military . . . all lies, and everywhere this detective looked, there were lies!  I want to note that, this is totally, what is the case with me, and the alleged, government doubles, only cops have helped them LIE!  So, one of the cops, got a copy of the marriage certificate, that had to have had a divorce to have, allowed the clerk or judge to remarry this cop, and when he started to look more carefully, at the divorce papers, he noticed that the signatures appeared to be forged, and upon further examination, he found, there was NO divorce on the court dockets, or record, for the first marriage, and so, the cops, good cops, got a search warrant for their buddies home, and found, a copy of a divorce document for another couple, and a manual typewriter, with a distinct, pattern of some keys sticking, that seemed to match the patterns on the forged document!  Later, in the attic, or in the small crawl space, in the ceiling, among the insulation, there was a bottle of one of the poisons listed above, that had, been found in his dead wife's system, upon looking at the toxicology reports, among the coroner's work!  The cop was charged and found guilty of his wife's murder, never did charge him with his mother-in-laws death.  But it was surmised that, the cop, used his connection or influence as a cop, to get into court dockets and obtain a copy of someone else's divorce, then used that divorce to copy from, forging or copying the judge's and court clerk's signatures!  This could be a model profile for my case and what was intended to happen!  There is a service van out in the parking lot of the McDonald's here on Broadway in Missoula, Montana, where I am typing this, at roughly, 12:52 P.M., that has a huge smiley face, on the driver's door, but, even more telling is that, it has symbolic and telling, company name, Bruco, Inc., with the slogan, We Teach Clean!  Here is my federal tax code brain at work, Bruce Bugsby, was the biology professor, whom, Kay Burningham, one of ME, the one, now married to Brett Todd Stuart, my 3rd husband, and at the center of this whole fraud, using Kay, as me, aka, JoAnn S. Secrist, J.D., but, probably changing the name a bit, so that FBI or someone, might not notice, that she is me, just that there is another, Joann Secrist, who just happens to be an attorney too, with exactly MY resume and experience, and who, was the one, who really did the BROCK case, the Joann, that, there is a docket, entry for, if the cops, will look at the U.S. federal district court docket, so, Hank Brock is substituting, JoAnn S. Secrist, an attorney, who did all the work on the case, and in December, of 2011, about the time, the case is moving on to the U.S. Supreme Court, a Joann Secrist, J.D., comes in, but even pulling me, out of jail, because they thought they got away with the swap, until they figured, out that, on my way back to the U.S. Supreme Court, I had filed a brief, keeping the federal district court case going, leaving my clients out of the loop, knowing they had taken a bribe at the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals, cutting me out of $118 million attorney's fees, the one third, letting Kay, take over, but, when I continued, they knew she didn't have the knowledge to pull of the win on the dockets, so they pulled me out of the jail, had me go to court, and when I won, they just up and terminated the case, against all laws, constitutions and orders of the 10th circuit!  Maybe this case, was a play book, or the cops, in my case, forging and signing deals, without the attorney, started to be a model of big time theft of cases, then the liars, have tried to kill me ever since!  ATTORNEYS, WHEN YOU WIN A HUGE ASS CASE, DO YOU WANT THIS TO BE A POTENTIAL OUTCOME?  Someone else, younger, better looking, which is all in the eyes of the beholder, to take the booty and kill you, or TRY?  Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But, with dead man's bones, blood on their hands, these charming psychopaths, TEACH CLEAN, WHILE COMMITTING MURDER!  A College Pro truck went by, and I am sure, that, you think, that this same, Kay, not JoAnn, wrote this blog or is writing it, and she is the master writer, when she has a few books out, you can check, if her webpage is not still under construction!  LOL! But this hag, could not even make it through, her own trial, and I had to cover her flat, sorry, ugly ass, and I also, asked her, paid her, to teach my family law class at the U of U, and do one of my anger management presentation . . . all of them, lack luster, and boring as SHE IS!  PRETTY LITTLE LIAR!  Oh, before, I got on to the next section, cop access, is scary, also, job access . . . I watched an episode of true crime, and a seasoned firefighter, who was writing a novel about fires, and firefighting, wanted to amp up his listening audience, by setting over $18 million worth of fires, always, in connection with a firefighter conference!  When the very people, the public depends on to help with emergencies, murders, and whatever, as I needed, with the FBI, CIA, others, like the Secret Service, members of the intelligence community, who are charged with the responsibility of investigating and prosecuting these types of crimes and they are IN ON IT?  Where do we go? for help?  HINT: THEY STOLE MY BLACK COMPUTER FROM MY BLOOMINGTON HOME--10th CIRCUIT BRIEF . . . STOLE MY E-FILING ACCOUNT AT FED DISTRICT COURT, FOR LATER BRIEFS!
• the next case is very much like the first case, killing her husband, for insurance money, she had a spending habit that was out of control, so her husband cut up the credit cards, and she paid him back for it.  Out of concern for the family finances the husband, had checked on his insurance policies and she found out he had about, a half a million in insurance coverage on him, seeing that he too, had been sick off and one for some time, without cause.  One week after her husband's death, she had spent, $200,000!  That was a heads up to the cops, and she was later charged and convicted of killing her husband!  POISONING him, daily, putting his vitamins in see through, capsules, laced with colchacine, an agent used to clean swimming pools, of which they had, but she decided, cleaning her husband out, was a better use for the chemical agent!

TO KILL AGAIN!  YOU COULD BE NEXT!

• in this first case, several nurses, from a particular hospital, all ended up murdered, with their nude bodies, found, but curiously enough, as a signature, the killer, left the victim's shoes, all tied with the laces still in tack, which, tied all the killings together for the cops, and eventually, they found out, like 11 years later, that three murders were all done by the same man, and that, there were the earlier years, when women got killed, and when this suspect was in prison, there were no murders, but when he was released, they started up again . . . they, generally, want or have a propensity TO KILL AGAIN!  The serial killer, was called the smiley faced killer, just a nice guy, who worked as a janitor at the hospital and the women worked at!
• this one is a little closer to home, and reminds me of sister, Shelley, who has tried, unsuccessfully, even up to last week, to either hack into my Social Security, allow access for herself and Rachel, and Kay, with me, signing up for a new card, just to find out, and being asked if I wanted, Shelley, Rachel, and I believe the operator said, Kay, as co-users on MY card--FUCK NO, and I didn't sign up for the black, family card, and informed the lady, that as had been the case on other cards, my son, Elliot, the only single son, was to be included on my card.  Anyway, these fucks, can steal billions, from my family, me and sons, daughters, and last night, I believe, they paid and old woman, just a few days, since I bought a new coat, two days ago, the very day this old ugly hag, showed up, to steal my coat! I swear, these fucks, literally would take the coat off my back, while driving in limo's purchased with MY money!  LOL!  Seriously, these bitches are so sick, by anyone's standards, except, strangely enough the cops, or law enforcement! who are helping with the crimes!  SHIT!  Frank, aka, Allan, who was allegedly my husband, a sham, so not possible, actually, stole, my Walmart money card, that was in the zip lock bag, I had to place my belongings in when I was falsely arrested, by the Grand County, Judge, LIAR Anderson, March of 2012, being released, because of the Brock case, and that unexpected filing, I just wrote about, or I am sure, I would have languished in a federal detention center for he rest of my days or until they murdered me!  But, I tried to sign up for a new card, after Fuck Faced Frank, Interpol, stole my old card for  Shelley, whom he was fucking, in MY house, with him, a LIAR, not Allan, so no claim to the house or the fortune the two thieves and murders stole, but she used my name, my address, birth date, but, I don't think my Social?, blocking me, the right, JoAnn, the only one with legal claim to the Parowan home, OH, I just remembered, Frank, killed, with Shelley, or was an accessory to murder, with Shelley, fucking the real Allan, then pumping his head with a small 22 bullet, leaving a spot of blood, on the bed, where Allan's head would have been, with Frank, helping dismember Allan's body, but, he also, killed the young GIRL, at the church in Parowan, and he, had, Allan's son, REX, murdered, in California . . . before he got to Utah, where I was going to take him in, to live with me, in his grandparent's home, with, Frank, who would have been discovered, by the son . . . I already knew he was not Allan, but all the FUCKING COPS, were on his side and he knew it . . . the psychopath, escalating their lies, over time, but, with just the murders I know, FRANK IS A SERIAL KILLER, 3 or more murders . . . and do you seriously think, these are his only victims? he killed the chick at the church, to get the cops off his trail, with me writing over 200 pages, distinguishing Allan from Frank!  If you look at the title, at the names, WARDRIP and OLNEY, they are symbolic of the two serial killers, among several others, Shelley, Kay, Rachel, probably by now, and for sure my father, Dick the dick!  But, breaking down these two names that were in, I believe the first episode of three true crime stories, WARD-Rip . . . I ripped Brett, the other day, Mr. Ward, Mo, by now, teaching clean, but doing dirt!  Then, the other symbolic name, was OL' NEY . . . indicating to me, that prior to me, meeting Frank, he too, had been a serial killer, in fact, Old Ney, Ney being the name of the former cop, turned judge who married me in the LIE, knowing full well, Frank was not Allan, and should be tried for perjury, with 25 years possible jail times in some states, but I believe, the feds, the family, Brett, might, have, even served time with Frank or Ol' Ney, but, he is so, mean, so spoiled, so fucked up, and anger, with a temper, like I have never seen before, worse than any TWO year old, but, I have wondered, if he, was pulled out of prison, serving life, for murder, and the feds cut a deal, to bring him out and take care of me!  But, he had the same reaction to me, that Brett had, they fell in love . . . Brett with my sweet side, and Frank with my bitch side!  LOL!  They are both, psychopaths and serial killers!  But, the cops would rather hunt me, than go after these two sterling characters!
• but, in this last, crime episode, there was this old lady, who ran a boarding house, and she was known, far and wide, for being a sweet old lady, who always had room and the heart to help the elderly, the homeless and those without a place to go . . . remember the psychopath, generally liked by all, charming, nice, helpful, willing to jump right in and do whatever is necessary to cover her real self!  Yeah, that would be Shelley, and I don't care if she is an FBI agent, there are, and I am starting to think, the whole fucking Mormon Church and the 70% of federal law enforcement are psychopaths! based on what I have seen, the smiling agents, that will murder for gain!  That old American GREED!  Oh, before, I forget, Frank, aka, Allan, took my wedding license, now a sham, so void, but replaced the real license, given to use, June 9, 2011, from the Garfield County Clerk, signed by Judge Ney, who married us, and removed it from the cool frame, I bought to keep the certificate in, maybe on my Walmart Card, from back then, that Shelley, then got, and got the one in 2014, sent to John Bagby's mail, retrieving that as staff, for Shelley, making it look like I am the fraud, getting the replacement card, ending in 0192, the number, my benefits, goes to, the last connection to my past, and the Pick's Disease, the only, remaining proof, with all other connections, severed, but, if you go back to MY old card, I might have purchased that frame, or I know I purchased it, one of the few things, up at the general store, cute name, but can't remember, but up in Panguitch, on June 9th, while Allan, aka, Frank was getting a hair cut, at the high school, or a building up by the high school, might be able to VERIFY, but, Frank, thinking I didn't notice, he was taking, our wedding certificate, to claim, it was Shelley, he married, leaving only a CAT WOMAN cartoon, he had drawn, and put it in our wedding frame . . . but, when I said, it is YOU who is the COP, not me, he picked up the glass, certificate frame, and threw it across the room, BREAKING IT!  But, Shelley and HIM would have the certificate!  Like everything else . . . but, Shelley, is so envious of the Social Security, that even a billion can't satisfy her, because, that is the one, thing, that PROVES, I AM STILL ME!  LOL!  Poor wittle Shwelley (this is JoAnn S. Secrist, J.D. sitting right here, now, 2:22 P.M., McDonald's--I will WAVE--also flipped you the bird, 2 security cameras, but Bushies are probably monitoring it! . . . all the kings horses and all the kings men, couldn't take JoAnn off her perch and THRONE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CUNT!  Get is right, dip shits!
• sorry, so this old lady, above reproach and loved by All, respected, noted for her love for the misfortunate, as I am sure, dear, Shelley is, only had eyes for their MONEY or access to their money! But, some guy showed up missing.  A new tenant, and the cops were alerted, and thought, that his disappearance, must be just a missing or run away person, and, ironically, he allegedly left the boarding house and Dorothy, the great lady of the house, only 59 and looked 80, in the episode, but CRIME ages people, but, with the cop there, another older gentleman, slipped the cop a note, saying he needed to talk to him, about the missing man.  They met, and the man, told the cop, he had smelled a strange smell around the home, about the time, the other man went missing and he knew that other people, also had come up missing, with strange smells . . . remember, many older people don't have cars, and society, doesn't respect the elderly like they should, especially, those, tell me about it, on Social Security, but the man had worked at a mortuary, earlier in his life and he knew the smell of death, and there was a dead body on the premise, fearing it was the missing man, and he said, there might be more.  The cops started digging and even while, the back hoes were pulling out body after body, the community, refused to believe, that this sweet old lady had anything to do with the murders of the dead bodies, it must be a mistake! because this lady would NEVER kill someone!  LOL!  The lady was taken in for questioning, but the cops, at that point didn't have any physical evidence to connect her to the bodies in the backyard . . . but eventually, they found the poison.  The M.O. of the woman was to take charge of all her tenant's government benefits, being the only one to get the mail, and then she would manage their money for them, some being drug users, aged, or alcoholics, but the ones, who refused to let her take charge of their money, SHE MURDERED!  The cops could see that up to 60 people, had been boarders, many were still alive, but many were not, and she continued to collect their money, even after they were dead!  Looking into the woman's background, they found that she had a long history of trying to get government benefits, going back to her youth!  She had actually gone to prison for it, I think, as Shelley should, as well as my father, who used to give me a fucking $25 per week, back when I was making $3800 per month! private insurance and public! And of course, this nice little old lady when, she ran away, was found at a hotel, trying to get another man's Social Security benefits!  Leopards do not change their spots!  Neither does SHELLEY and my FATHER!

Fixing Young Psychopaths . . . Teach EMPATHY!

One of the best indicators of both abusers and killers, is the way they treat animals when they are young, with most serial killers, like Jeffery Dahmer, starting to experiment with dissecting animals, before moving to humans.  So, if you see a child, mistreating an animal, family pet, or whatever . . . you just start, teaching them empathy, like, how did you think the cat, you just kicked, felt, do you think it hurt, what you did?  And how would you feel, if someone kicked you?  Kids can learn to empathize with animals, their classmates, their brothers and sisters.  And parents, can teach kids, that if they hit, hurt, slug, or injury a sibling, there will be consequences!  One of the two times, I saw, my son, Chris, cry, was when I told him, if he hit, his brother, Elliot, one more time, I was not going to take him and his friend, snowboarding the next day!  He immediately tested that threat, and he found out, when I simply, said, okay, that is it, you are not going snowboarding tomorrow.  He knew, from past history, that, when I said, something, I MEANT IT!  He did not argue, but he did cry, for only the second time in the history of his young life!

Chris seemed to have empathy at a very young age, but when it came to being the big brother, he was relentless in pursuing his sweet younger brother, Elliot, who took, fucking 21 years to finally, pound Chris back, giving him a fat lip!  LOL!  And believe me, Chris deserved it, and I think he knew it!  LOL!  Neither one of them, wanted to tell me what happened!  I think, it even took, Elliot and Chris's friends, egging them on, for Elliot to get pissed enough to punch Chris in the face!  He is still handsome, but with a bump, to this day, on his lip!  LOL!  Just like going to the bathroom, brushing teeth, cleaning a room, PARENTS need to teach kids, to feel pain, if they inflict it on others . . . this is what psychopaths are missing, not only do they not empathize nor sympathize with their victims, they have no remorse!  They simply don't care!  I was always shocked to hear about Jeffery Dahmer, since his father had a Ph.D, and both his parents were pretty normal people, but did divorce, but I don't think until he hit high school, so almost emancipated by that time.

But, in interviews, he said, how lonely he was, and he just wanted his victims, to just stay and hold him, lay in bed with him.  So, when this didn't seem possible, he killed them, then kept their heart, their head, and other body parts, just so he didn't feel alone!  SCREAM, but I can see it.  If you see a child, who is a loner, do what you can do to help them, there are friends out there, other lonely kids, who also need a friend.  You may enquire into kids in your child's school class, who might need a friend and invite them over to your house, supervised, of course, and see if you can stop some of these tale tale, signs of elements of serial killers' personalities! or propensities, toward that terrible life.  Many of them, like Wayne Cacy, can't even remember they did these horrible things, he was shocked when the cops, hauled 36 young boys bodies out from under his house.  All he knew, when he killed them, he would simply, push them down the heater vent!

Remaining Notes, for Parents, Cops, Avoiding Being a Victim!

• be realistic with the facts, don't be in denial, if there are problems, either in a child, a killer, or a potential killer, nobody is above suspicion!
• inside the brain of a psychopath, no matter how normal they look, how good looking, there is a VERY DANGEROUS person!
• how does a psycho think? like a lion, looking for the weakest prey, they can detect fear on people, at a very young age, they engage in predatory thinking!
• interestingly enough, psychopaths, react favorably towards, a reward system, one part of their brain, lights up, when given a reward, in the area of morals, not much lights up, in that center of the brain, so use, what they will react favorably to!  On boss, started giving a psychopath, who was really good at what he did, bonus, not to do something, and he seemed to work fine, using less predatory mentality 
• new dimensions of the mind set . . . the brain of a psychopath, is like a gun, that is neither moral or immoral, but if the bullets are put in the gun, like child sexual, verbal, or physical violence against them, or modeling behaviors, mental illness, or usually, a server brain injury or bump to the head, three common indicators, from interviews with serial killers . . . Brett had a bad fall, on skies, hitting his head, his father is very abusive, at least verbally, and he is a psychopath, with all the characteristics!
• psychopathology is hard to treat . . . they generally don't recognize their own signs, because most people don't know about this stuff, and are not familiar with the signs . . . it is a sickness, and some therapists, actually find, that therapy made it worse! with the patient, lying, acting, hint, making the guy more violent!
• if you change tactics, and start using a reward system, rather than treatment, you can change the behavior of the young person.  If you clean your room, we will go to the movies, or if you don't hit your brother, today, you can go snowboarding!
• I learned this in my family and human development master's class . . . that personality is formed by the time a child is 5 years old, not that you should give up hope, if these traits show up, but, start very young, don't wait for later years, because, the psycho is already in there!
• kids do have personalities that show this type of behavior that can be detected by a parent young . . . torture of animals! cruelty, bullying, and violence!
• THE WISDOM OF A PSYCHOPATH, IS IT CAN BE GOOD TO BE BAD . . .
• there are successful psychopaths, they have redeeming characteristics, while on the one hand, I see Brett, being a serial killer, with the good looks, and the Ted Bundy personality, and charm, the ability to lure women in, he also, had a very gentle side, and when he was in high school, he worked at a nursing home, and every Sunday, he would get all the old men, dress them up in their Sunday best, so they felt like they were going to church and then he would take them for a stroll around the block . . . very kind!
• when I met Brett, we were discussing, non-violent communication skills, to teach kids, one of his passions
• heroes, soldiers and cops . . . these traits, can be awesome, if channeled
• sometimes, these traits, as seen in the Wolf of Wall Street, the cut throat, are to be admired, and perhaps, teach us, to be on guard, to do our homework, to protect ourselves!
• many companies, love the psychopaths, and will pay top dollar for them, admire the look out for #1, get your licks in first
• transcognative therapy: (1) felt like a battle with me, confident, bravado, felt good--my notes get dicey here, so take them for what they are or are not worth!  LOL! (2) psychopaths traits are winning out today . . . is this what we want, in the spy world? marriages? government? courts? corporate America? families? think, think, think, or our time to reverse the trends, will not work! (3) we admire these winner take all traits, survival of the fittest, go for the gold, attitudes, are there appropriate times, conditional psychopaths, situational psychos that are good? depending?
• a radio announcer asked callers, if you could injure someone, and not go to prison, would you . . . the caller said, HELL, YEAH! but he had made a practical decision, not to go to prison, having been there before.
• if you meet a person, and what they are offering, the sky is the limit, promising you the world, don't be fooled from the fast talk! what signs to look for in a personal relationship
•  a guy who opens the doors for you, now this may be an age thing, or what era, but if it seems genuine and real, okay, if it seems staged and insincere, watch it!
• anyone who seems too perfect, back off, they are not, and the mask will drop, maybe too late
• know yourselves, blind spots, weaknesses, don't let anyone in too early, fast engagements, marriage proposals, or moving in with them . . . know yourself and them first1
• if you find yourself a target, and you can't lose or get out of the relationship, get help, friends, or professional . . . to thine own self be true!
• understand the intensity of the feelings, and the potential damage, that can come to someone messed up with a psychopath, after two husbands, who have almost destroyed me, and tried to kill me, with all the power and force of the government, family, church, community, cops, used, it is amazing that I am still alive! barely!
• remember, these people are masters are reading people, good at manipulating, methodical in picking and targeting their victims, determined to force a show down, that they can win, because they don't care how they hurt you, and there is no right or wrong, no rules to the game, they can't break, no resource they won't use, to bring you down, if you are targeted!

This Concludes My Educational Session on Psychopathology!

One of my friends or enemies, at the Poverello, and I have my suspicions, who is paying her, but she keeps suggesting I give up this blog, and just teach at the college, that I am teacher material . . . nice, so the psychos who have so envied this blog, can steal or take it over, like they did my cases, then my legislation, then, my constitutional analysis, then, this and that, they DON'T STOP, therefore, I have to STOP THE PSYCHOPATHS FROM STOPPING ME!  They have pushed me out of my life as general counsel, as a professor, as a trial attorney, as a lobbyist, and they have tried, and are taking the money and the credit, trying to get me to write a book, like the last one, they published pushed, from my emails, or the best and funniest blogs, of the first year writing, OH, FUCK NO!  Whatever, I have done or not done in my life, when all is said and done, I AM A PRETTY WITH IT PERSON, HONORABLE, NOBLE, HONEST, AND ETHICAL . . . ENOUGH, IS ENOUGH!

Law Enforcement, of Any Flavor . . . This is Criminal, And it is YOUR JOB TO SOLVE . . . I Am Just An Aid!

Git-R-Done!

PSYCHO UPDATE . . . TO CATCH A GENIUS. DON'T HATE ME BECAUSE I'M BEAUTIFUL--YOUR SICK AND BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME . . . CALLING ALL PSYCHOPATHS--WANTED AS CEO, LAWYER, COP, MILITARY, RADIO AND TV PERSONALITIES, BANKERS, WALL STREET: (1) RISK TAKERS; (2) INTELLIGENT; (3) GOOD LOOKING; (4) DRESS WELL; (5) CUT THROAT; (6) EGOCENTRIC; (7) LACK OF REMORSE, EMPATHY SYMPATHY; (8) DECEITFUL, GLIB AND SHALLOW; (9) EMOTIONALLY DEAD, FLATLINE, NOT CRAZY; (10) ULTRA RATIONAL THINKERS, AND (11) THEY ARE RUTHLESS, FOCUSED, TOUGH, CHARISMATIC, MENTALLY TOUGH, AND (12) THEY KNOW THEIR ACTIONS ARE WRONG! BUT THEY DON'T CARE--WALL STREET IS FULL OF THEM--WOLF OF WALL STREET, AND THE END OF THE DAY, IT'S NOT YOUR MONEY! 1-2% OF THE POPULATION ARE PSYCHOPATHS, SO ABOUT 600,000 OF 35,000 CANADIANS, ARE PSYCHOPATHS. WE ALL KNOW THE FAMOUS ONES, TED BUNDY, CHARLES MANSON, HITLER, JEFFERY DAHMER, THAT CROWD, BUT WHAT ABOUT THE "PSYCHOPATH NEXT DOOR?" OR YOUR CHILD WHO IS A PSYCHOPATH? NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC DID A GREAT DOCUMENTARY, THAT I AM TAKING THESE NOTES FROM, IN THEIR DOC CALLED, "THE PSYCHOPATH NEXT DOOR 2014." IT IS SAD WHEN YOU HAVE TO STUDY, ABNORMAL PSYCHOLOGY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, DONE BY FAMILY, FRIENDS, HUSBANDS, CLIENTS, THE LEGAL SYSTEM, THE COMMUNITY! BUT GET TO THE BOTTOM OF IT, I AM! LOL!

Without Conscious . . . No Concept of Right or Wrong

The Eskimos used to go hunting, fishing, and trapping, and there were some men, who stayed behind, and when the others returned with the food, to sustain the clan or tribe, all the women would be pregnant!  They did not rely on a legal system to take care of the problems, they just killed them as worthless, parasites who lived off the work and benefit of others efforts.  Those were the psychopaths, the ones, who like parasites, live, feed, breath, and suck the blood out of their victims, and relish in their ability, to get something for nothing, to murder to get financial gain, dupe others out of their inheritance, their insurance, their benefits, take away the merits of hard work, trying to fool others, into thinking they are, the smartest one in the room, the best looking, the coolest, the best and brightest at everything, even if they have to lie to create that image, and stealing, lying, cheating, getting away with it, makes it all the more fun!  I would venture a guess, that President Nixon, whom I wrote about yesterday, in the Watergate Scandal, was a psychopath, and many of his men, Gordon Liddy, E. Howard Hunt, and a few others, also had traits of psychopaths, or they could not have done what they did!  Evidence of this, is in Nixon's comment, that if the President says, it is okay, then the law does not apply.  They are without conscious and have no concept of right or wrong.  Just cover it up!  LOL!  As if that makes everything better?  LOL!

Just this morning, for the second time, I watched, 48 Hours, To Catch a Genius, and I think, it is a true crime of a classic psychopath, and demonstrates the ruthless, calculating, conniving manners and risks, that are associated with a person, who is a psychopath, and it is shocking to the conscious of the rest of us, who can't wrap our brains around the behavior of a person like this, therefore, making it harder to grasp that they would do the things they would, because, the other 98% of society, are shocked, in denial, disbelief at the callousness, that one person, can treat another person, with, and somehow, either justify, for fail to see, that there is anything wrong with their unconscionable actions.  That is why, they, the psychopath is able to fool cops, allude detection, and literally get away with murder, and sometimes, over and over again, to the shock and horror of a community, state, nation and world--6 million Jews slaughtered? what, some people to this day, are questioning whether it ever even happened? . . . to put it mildly, normal people just don't get it? And there in, lays the problem, and what, aids and abets the perpetrators to get away with heinous crimes, the rest of us, would never do, could not do, and couldn't even conceive of doing!

The Diabolical Genius . . . Masters at Appearing Normal

In this story, taking place in Orange County, California, there was a beautiful, vivacious, smart, ambitious woman, in her mid-forties, attractive, athletic, fun, outgoing, and moving up the career ladder, who meets a 32 year old engineer, that impressed everyone, he knew, everything about, everything, he convinced everyone of his brilliance, telling his co-workers, that he was a member of Mensa, the national organization for people with high I.Q.'s, I believe, somewhere above 160, not near my 200, but still noteworthy, lol, and allegedly this man had been on Jeopardy, and won, like $25,000.  Paul seemed competent at his job, and his boss liked and trusted him.  He hooks up with Terry, for lack of finding her name in my notes, but they date, for three years, before, eventually getting married.  Now, this is one area, that differs from most, psychopaths, who generally, push for a fast and furious, relationship, locking their victim, prey, into a marriage as fast as they can, for fear of exposing who they really are.  They love bomb their target, with flowers, wining and dining, amazing sex, and fun dates, until they get them.

Some of Paul's coworkers, thought he was a liar, had suspicious behavior, was very egotistical, and thought he was by far, smarter than anyone in the department, but he seemed competent, in being an engineer.  Terry had a beautiful home, she was financially, set, with insurance policies through work, and had protected herself, financially, after going through two failed marriages, that she freely and easily walked away from. Paul on the other hand, came to the marriage without a dime, but he seemed to be attentive, loving, supportive, and really took care of Terry.  However, within, three weeks of getting married, Paul pushed Terry to take out a $1,000,000 insurance policy on herself.  Terry talked to her friend, Mary Seabold--now, many of the names in this episode, are very telling and seem to be secret messages, from my Intel man, God, crazy as that seems, but, Kay, was a best friend, as one time, she lived by the sea, but the woman in the story was a good friend, and looked a lot more like Shelley, my older sister, both, passing themselves off as ME!  But, Mary tells her friend, hell, no, don't take out an insurance policy, and that made her suspicious of Paul, and his motives for marrying her friend, right of the bat, in addition, to later finding out, that Paul had two other wives, and several children, he had to pay, child support for, that he just failed to tell, Terry his new wife, after three years of DATING?

A Combined Income of $180,000 and They Had Less Together?

Terry started to notice very strange money management problems, but she was willing to overlook, them, because, Paul was so, sweet, telling her all the right things, drawing baths, and cooking dinners for her each night, making special salad dressings for her each night, and generally, she felt very loved, and to her dying day, she claimed that she loved him, and while she said that Paul, was the only person, who could benefit, from her death, as she lay dying in the hospital, just short of one year after marrying Paul, being a very healthy person, up to that point, baffling her friends, family, old boyfriends, and starting display symptoms of a strange illness that doctors could not diagnose.  But, one time, after Terry was hospitalized, looking like an 80 year old women, and having an IV in her arm, one of the nurses, noticed a fuzzy look to the IV water, which was not right, so she brought it to the attention of the hospital brass, after changing the IV bag out, but still concern, having seen, Paul, dart out of the room, just before, Nurse Bundy, came in . . . another, symbolic name . . . Bundy, as in Ted Bundy!  Serial killer of 30 women! a total psycho!

When her friend, Mary, saw the condition of her buddy, Terry, she told her to get out, run, run, and stay away from her husband.  The results of the suspicious IV bag, was that, if I got it right, was some type of poison that made the water cloudy.  But, everyone, just dismissed it, and Terry, eventually recovered and went home again.  Terry insisted, that Paul loved her, and he was taking care of her, feeding her, and appearing for all intents and purposes, seemed to be the doting husband, loving, caring, and in love with her. On time, Terry even had her friend, move in with her, to watch Paul, and the friend, was actually jealous of the way, Paul treated her friend, and reported, nothing out of the ordinary, and Terry insisted, she loved him and she was happy, and she loved him, even when there was found to be numbing agents in the IV water, this didn't concern her enough to leave her husband, she totally trusted!

No One Could Save Her . . . 6 Days After She Got Sick Again, She Was Dead!

I just took a break, went to the restroom, and a Records Management, document shredding truck just drove by, and I think that, tells a big part of my case, with me starting all my cases, and through, records management, these guys were able to bribe, double docket, and steal the cases . . . which I was fully aware of, but I could not get anyone to listen, because, they, the psychopaths, my clients, and the allegedly, normal, sister, friend attorney, ex-husband, father, the Mormon patriarch of such a stellar family . . . all feeding off the one they are trying to make look as the sick, dependent, poor sister, who actually, did the securities case and all the other cases, had to overcome, a 10 year break, weight gain, and the created, now, mental health issues, rather than the TERMINAL brain disease, they just morphed the diagnosis, when I didn't die, and then took away the credibility, my house, my vehicles, my money, etc., not just once, but twice, in less that one year, after I had done all the work on the cases, and they were ready to settle, with the help of the CIA, all the psychopaths, vultures, came in for the kill and the booty, funding their megalomania!  Remember, yesterday, in the Watergate blog, I compared myself, to Archibald Cox . . . for two reasons, these fuckers, stole my identity, back in 2000, but when I suddenly, overnight had my law license reactivated, with nothing more than paying a $350 bar due, with the bar so impressed with my real resume, that took the psychopaths off guard, and it took them another, 4 years to get me back under control!  But, Cox, is a key word, the house I bought, was near, Cox Landing, in St. George, Utah, and my parents, had a friend, also, my friend, Rita Cox, who's husband's family, owned that whole area, before there were homes, and, I am the Arch +i = bald, me bald . . . not, with Shelley, Rachel, Kay, Sue, Tiffany, Marcie, Hope, Kelly, Annie, and all the women, that were dog piled on top of me, to keep me buried!

Elliot Richardson, is another symbolic name from the Watergate blog, yesterday, and Elliot is Richard's son, but, has been bumped around, as Shelley's son, or Kay and Brett's son, with Kay being me, or Jack/John and Shelley's, or Rachel and James Kennedy's son, or Tiffany's, whomever, they are dog piling me, under, and Zeke may have even agreed to take money in exchange, for lying about Elliot, and I am just speculating, or in denial, that maybe he preferred it, and that is fine, to say, that they are your friends, aunts, uncle, but dad, through Brett, are you shitting me . . . you meet him once, I take care of you, for at least, your first, half life, until about 18, and on the music scene, for years, buying you the first guitar, and pretending that one of these hags, is me, I don't think so.  I am fine with you agreeing to let them help, and it is compliment to me, as your mother than I created, nurtured, and facilitated, the upbringing of great kids, a great musician, but to cover the thefts of earlier music, CD's, making millions, when you, Elliot didn't know, is total bull shit, but I understand, it is better to get something, that have all the PARASITES, steal the whole new, The Ditch and the Delta, tours, music, and paraphernalia, connected to the band . . . FUCK NO!  ELLIOT is RICHARD'S SON, and JOANN S. SECRIST'S SON . . . eat your hearts out, the rest of you fools!

Con Man, Narcissist, Psychopath . . . Got Away With It For Twenty Years!

Okay, so back to the story, Terry got sick as second time, she was taken to the hospital, and again, the IV bag is messed with, and the doctor, noticed a strange puncture hole behind her ear, but dismissed it, not knowing what to make of it.  Eventually, Terry died, of nicotine poisoning, with a very high level in it, but nobody could figure out how she got it . . . she was not a smoker, nor around smoke, nor was Paul, a smoker.  Mary Seabold, and Terry's, old boyfriend, Frank Thurber . . . Allan, aka, Frank, thoroughly burned in my blog, yesterday, very much a part of my drama, and a total, psychopath!, but the two friends, were very suspicious of husband, Paul, and Mary, said, knowing, all the facts, now, but not at the time, she would have grabbed her friend, Terry and physically, forced her out of the house and away from Paul, to save her life.  

After Terry was dead, Paul, was bragging about all the money he was going to get from Terry's death. Mary, had gone into Terry's house, at the time, her friend was in the hospital, not dead, yet, and she noticed, several insurance policies out on the night stand, and while Terry, didn't take out the million dollar policy, like Paul, had originally asked her to take out, Mary noticed that there were, several other life insurance policies, with Paul as a beneficiary.  Frank, who was always, trying to get Terry to leave, Paul, told her, just before her death, to change the beneficiary on her policies, to someone else.  She took his advice and gave half of her estate, in a hand, written note, to her sister!  Paul, who was bragging that he was getting about a million dollars, was pissed when he found out about the change in the will.  Later, detectives, figured, that Paul, needed the money, and could not wait for Terry, to linger, in getting sick and then dying, so, after he got her sick again, using Ambien, and later, injecting the nicotine poisoning, behind, Terry's ears, causing her to die, within 6 hours!  Paul, did, however, get the house, and about a half a million dollars!

For some bizarre reason, the cops, didn't suspect Paul in Terry's death.  But, soon thereafter, with all the strange, inferences to how much money he was going to get, his boss at the chemical plant, started to look into Paul's background, and found that wherever the boss, looked, there was fraud, on Paul's resume . . . he was NOT, an engineer, he was not a member of Mensa, and his whole life was a fucking lie!  I just accidentally, typed, the word, like . . . people like psychopaths, unless they are the victims, the target, the prey, because they are: tough, ruthless, focused, charismatic, mentally tough!  In some fields, these are attributes, that many employers, actually want in their employees!  Like I said in the title, studies in the United Kingdom, employers, actually seek these people for, CEO, lawyers, TV and radio personalities, Wall Street is full of them, in fact, one author, said the whole economic meltdown, in 2008, was the result of psychopathology of those people, who created the problem, and then were trusted with solving the problem, making even more money off people, the banks, who created the mortgage backed securities, the vehicles, the sub prime loans, did the predatory lending, made money, off the property insurance, some up to 9 times, the amount of the house, made money on the foreclosure, fees, and fine, going into foreclosure and then again, got money on the TARP money, and on mortgage, refinancing!

Twenty Years Later, A Female Detective, and Prosecutor, Who Knew of the Case When He Was in Law School, Reopened the Case . . . Nailed the Psychopath This Time, Who Was a Building Inspector, Remarried!

It was interesting, that the detective, made the observation, that Paul's objective, was not to be eliminated as a suspect, in Terry's death, but to make sure he didn't get blamed for her death, and go to prison.  Husbands and wives, are always, and rightly so, should be the first ones suspected of a death of a spouse, so he knew he would be interviewed and a suspect, but he was, or saw, himself, as the smartest person in the room, therefore, getting away with it would be easy, because the cops were not as smart as he was.  And that proved to be the case, even with suspicious evidence that pointed to Paul, as being the only one home with his wife at the time of her death, was the one who prepared the food, and there was suspicion, that sleep medication, Ambien had been crushed up and given to the woman for a long time!  But, a cold case, detective, started looking at the evidence, interviewed some of the witnesses, and soon, got enough evidence, for a circumstantial case against Paul.  The two detectives, pretended they were, someone, and, re interviewed, Paul, who was not smart enough to stop talking and get an ATTORNEY!  He was arrested on the spot, when the officers, using middle names, revealed who they were, and that they were there to try him for the murder of his wife, from 20 years ago!  They finally got him!  He got 20 more years to enjoy freedom, than he should have, but it gave the detective and the prosecutor, tons of satisfaction, in taking this monster down!

Dr. Neil Benowitz (Ben is one of the names, symbolizes my son, Chris, and he wanted to be a comedian, and he is funny, witty, sarcastic, with a dry sense of humor!  McPherson, would nail, the psychos! LOL! Dr. baby bro!) was the doctor who put the theory of what happened to Terry together for the cops, he said, Paul, had to have, used, Ambien, sleeping, medication, was found in her system, and it was hypothesized that, the nicotine, which could have easily, come from just one pack of cigarettes, giving amounts, enough, to kill someone, with ample doses, but, that might have been in Paul's special salad dressing he made, fresh, almost each night, giving it to Terry, at dinner.  But, then, the night she died, he most likely took the Ambien, crushed it up, put it in her food, to knock her out, and later, he injected her with the nicotine, behind her ear, in a lethal dose!  The courtroom battle pitted, two attorneys, with very symbolic names against each other: prosecutors, that was phonetically, sounded, out, like, Bayty or Bay Ty, Kay, living at Half Moon Bay, California, is the co-psycho with Shelley, who's youngest son, is Tyrone Southwick!  And, I am sure, Shelley, has practiced law, as a psychopath, as a prosecutor, using one of my titles, as working with the Utah Prosecution Council, with Mark Nash, backing her ass, because he is pissed what I did to cops and prosecutors, with asset forfeiture, and other legal issues, plus going after, county attorney, Scott Garrett!

The defense attorney's name, was, Lisa Copland, or Copeland, I never saw the attorney's names, or anyone's spelled out, during the 48 Hours, episode.  But, Kay's sister's name, is Lisa, and, she is the cops, chick, feds, but cops, would lie for her, and the other cop chicks, who would fuck me over, because they hated, me from exposing, their issues, their hands in the cookie jar, and for some reason, with the same actions as they hated me for, they would love the fraud broads for . . . bra size, she was nice?  Yeah, psychopaths are nice!  I wasn't trying to fool anyone, I didn't need to do anything, than do my job, which was generally, on the opposite side of the cops, other than the first year or so, when I trained cops and prosecutors!  After seeing what they were up to, taking personal and private property of the citizens, without due process and equal protection, we became enemies, I had a conscience!  LOL!  I would not surprise me at all if, a law firm was set up with the frauds, all using various aspects of my resume . . . and just like Paul, in the true crime, show, he was pretending to be an ENGINEER!, then a building inspector!

Catch Me If You Can . . . that is their motto!  It is all in fooling you, me and the courts!  If they actually got, their law license that would take away the fun for these psychos!  So, that is the 48 Hour program, now, I am going to type my notes, from the documentary, put out by, none other than, National Geographic? and ironic, at best, because, that is Brett's, favorite magazine, my 3rd, hub, and the mastermind, with the help of Shelley, Kay and my father, in this bull shit, psycho crew of fucks!  You would think a program, like this would be put out by Psychology Today!  LOL!  But, to prove, my theories, on symbolism, the truth, about someone, just can't help to come out, in one way or another!  So, National Geographic, is a great source and they did a great job, of covering the subject, and I was able to learn most of this before, watching it, with first hand knowledge, with these users, abusers, parasites, and ever other kid of fucked up shit, I can say about them . . .  shockingly, unconscionable, in every way . . . you know, most families, who didn't know, that you were poisoned, care for the sick, regardless of pay, as a matter of duty, love, sympathy, empathy for the situation, much like the friends of Terry . . . but that was not the case with my family, once I didn't die, as predicted, all hell broke out, and full frontal war was rendered against me, even taking driver's licenses, property, equity in houses, taking credit for my law degree, my resume, my life, honors, awards, and whatever their fucking dirty hands to get on, and then, changed the diagnosis, to mental illness, and then proceeded to try to create a criminal record, a mental health record, and even took a driver's license, away, that I had voluntarily given up, for a year, already, I am sure, so Shelley, and all the girlz club, could use mine name, I.D., law license, and give me all their shit, like a DUI, for Rachel!

Predators . . . They are the Cat, We Are All Mice!

You know, as a normal person, probably at the other end of the empathy and sympathy spectrum, working endlessly for clients, who never paid me a dime, and working 10 hours, for every hour I got paid, if I got paid at all, thinking more on the lines, of almost doing the work, proving I could win for my clients, before, even getting paid, always, giving tons more than getting paid, never cheating anyone, never expecting a god-damned thing, without earning it, and doing whatever it took to WIN, not for me, but for my CLIENTS, who had been WRONGED!  Money was never a issue, never at the root of my work, but passion, rights, freedoms, liberties, justice, and protecting property, children, constitutional and civil rights, fuck yeah . . . money, just not motivated, that just followed the hard work, with the right heart!  So, being the opposite of the psychopaths, who made me their prey, and not just a few, but, growing, day by day, minute by minute, and taking miles of ground, with each inch, that was fought, to be protected, I seriously, couldn't get, what they were doing, even when I knew they were doing, and for the first 4 years, kind of just, was puzzled by what was going on, that I was actively trying to stop, but up against a criminal justice system, that was already predisposed against me, due to past, good deeds, protecting constitutional rights, of the whole fucking country, all those who were in a position, were so, blinded by my PURITY, in actions, and so taken with the psychopaths, the smooth talkers, the predators, making the justice system part of their, predatory scheme, benefiting them also, that they all just got on the band wagon and joined the witch hunt!  LOL!

But, these predators, see themselves, as at the top of the food chain, and we are somewhere below them, and far game, to prey on, in whatever way these fucks can figure out to take us for, with no right or wrong, all this is A-OK, to this crew, even thinking that were are all one, you in me and I in you, therefore, you should not be bothered, by me, pretending to be you, a better you, a smarter you . . . really?  Then why are you using all MY SHIT, to be a BETTER YOU?  LOL!  Does that make sense, that, they see themselves as better, then stoop, so low as to take, my resume, life, children, and ditching their own, kids, lives, resumes, because, I was so far, in a true sense of the word, up the intellectual food chain, that they were envious, and had to be ME to pull off the shit, they have, get the big jobs, get the big money, and be the BIG SHOTS!  LOL!  

Hell, if I wasn't me, I would want to be ME!  LOL!  But, they did too.  I knew that these fucks, were into Darwinism, science, unless it came to DNA samples, because that would have proven, they, were the lower on the food chain, as all psychopaths ARE!  Sorry, I will try to avoid comment, and just put down my notes, or this will take all day, but, sociopaths and psychopaths, and the study of them, is the first time, I have been able to make heads or tails of them, their actions, being shocked for years!  As, I am sure, you will be, when you find, out that, they are me, and they are trying to make me, SHELLEY, YUCK . . . I better VERIFY where I am . . . I am at Einstein Brothers Bagels . . . it is 10:17 A.M., there were several cops, here between, 9:00 A.M. and now, or a few minutes ago, they left, but, they got a good look at me, and would have to be psycho themselves to LIE, and say that I am dark haired with, hazel eyes! Shelley is about 5'9 or above, and I am 5'7 and a half!  I will go purchase something on my Walmart money card, so you can compare, numbers, ending in 0192!  Okay, I just got a turkey, bacon and avocado, sandwich, barbecue chips, and a Diet Coke, and the bill came to about $9.18!

Attracted to Physical Appearances, Trumps Everything Else!

You have heard me, if you have read this blog much, how, psychopaths, all of which I am dealing, including, half of the law enforcement agencies, would put, heels above head, even when they know, the boobs, are fake!  that is so shocking to me, these people are more than willing to go under the knife, to look better, and their bodies are as fake as their resumes!  LOL!  I would feel, weird to think people, were complimenting me on something I didn't do, or work for myself, with my body, being a symbolic, representation of my whole philosophy, of life, it is all real, and I earn every bit of it, from the appreciation of my body, as well as of my work and would never, could never, take credit for something that I didn't actually do!  But, I am not a psychopath!  Maybe the reason, I get, hooked up with psychopaths, is my looks, but, eventually, I see through them, and have the ability to leave.  I would venture a guess that, psychopath is attracted to psychopath, and they feed off each other, or agree on common prey, with both targeting the allegedly mouse, and go after it together, sharing in the spoils!  But, in addition, to the first element of attraction, being, the physical attraction, what, then comes next is, power, money, prestige, sex, and not necessarily in that order, and they are wolves in sheep's clothing!

I watching this documentary, there are some of the characteristics and probably the good ones, that would put me, in that class of persons, without being a psychopath, being ruthless, tough minded, focused, and exemplifying some of the positive, uses, of some of the shared traits, implementing them, not all the time, but at the appropriate time!  Again, Clive Boddy, another symbolic name, Cliven Bundy . . . Ted Bundy . . . Clive being the Mormon rancher from Bunkerville who got into it with the BLM over not paying his cattle leasing money for his grazing in Nevada!  Notice the spelling of the last name, Boddy, or a double, a Mormon Double, for Me, but also a psychopath, like Ted Bundy, who was all of these traits, to the point of being a serial killer, which, I would venture a guess that all these main, players, are, in one form or another!  But, Boddy, said the whole economic melt down, was the result of psychopaths, with little care, or feeling, for what they were doing to the country, the world, in bringing down the economy, for their benefit.  Bernie Madoff, was a psychopath, who did a ponsi scheme, bilking millions out of investors, taking people's retirements, savings, and thinking nothing of it!  Same with the leaders of ENRON!

Like the documentary, and my life shows, these people are in your family, sit next to you at church, like my two clients, Henry S. Brock and Jay Rice, letting me do all the work on their cases, emphasizing how important, my work is to their, future, the growth of their new company, Mutual Benefits, and when they read the brilliant brief, I did for the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals, stating that exact, comment, about my work, and Hank is a smart psycho, and then, with little thought, guilt, or conscience, went around, took a bribe, and let Kay, because she was thin, I guess, come in a get all the glory for being ME!  Shelley, was allowed at the government level and the courts, and Rachel, the showgirl?  I mean, seriously, I worked for fucking $20 per hour, without charging for several trips to Salt Lake City, Utah, to see if we could settle the case, and worked tirelessly without any help, and these fucks, come in a steal the thunder, from me, and put these fucking fake ass bitches up as the attorney who did the CASE?  Are you shitting me?  But, that is exactly what happened, no appreciation, the song, I wish I could be one of the cool kids, one of the cool kids . . . I am way better, I actually did, fucking everything, I claim to be, and to have done, they are fakes, like Paul Curry of the TRUE CRIME episode, that so well, shows, not really the genius, but the absolute foolery thinking they can get away with this SHIT, I fucking know I am smarter than they ALL are!  Even collectively, penniless, homeless, without a car, and using only my computer, am able to bring down this shit show, if the fucking cops in charge of looking into this, can stop being mesmerized, by FUCKING TITS AND ASS . . . LOOK AT THE FACE, I AM EVEN PRETTIER!  LOL!

Corporate Psychopaths

These people, tend to make it into positions of power, like those on Wall Street, and who did President Bush turn to to get us out of the economic meltdown?  Henry Paulson, a Goldman Sach's boy!  One of the ones, who got us into the mess in the first place, and who said, that these bankers, shysters, were so, smart, that, he just could not figure out what and how they did this to us, so we are just going to give them more money, for duping us in the first place, and then hope, we can trust them, to figure out, being too big to fail, and pay them to pull the debunked mortgage crisis out, and then we were all, not, shocked, when the same people we bailed out, AIG and BAER STERNS, used the money to go on extravagant vacations . . . and company retreats! For the psychopath, they can't figure out what is wrong with the rest of you, of course, they being on the top of the food chain, the cat, and you the mice that are going to pay for the problems, so you need to just deal with it . . . no conscience, no right, no wrong!  Normal people would never do this, would never dream of doing it, and can not comprehend that they can . . . so, don't think I was the only one fooled by these fucks, WE ALL WERE FOOLED and SHOCKED! because, YOU AND I, KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG, and we could never do this!  LOL!  It is almost comical, we need to understand, that these people, FUCKING THINK DIFFERENT THAT YOU AND I!  LOL!

Many of us, bought the shit, that it was better for us to tolerate this, the golden parachutes, the lavish retirement plans, in a national crisis?  Yeah, they see nothing wrong with this!  Just because we would never do this, doesn't mean a particular part of the population that tends to make it, stepping on the toes, heads, hearts, and fortunes of others, would not do this to us, THEY DID!  LOL!  The very sad thing about, today, is that, society, is losing the battle against these assholes, we are starting to think, that they are cool, Leo Decaprio's character, in the Wolves of Wall Street, the parties, the drugs, the girls, the sex, the money, the power . . . get it if you can, and don't worry about who you hurt, they are just the little guys, the normal, the average, we deserve this, we can take as much as we can get from them, and we deserve it!  Psychopaths, are starting to be part of our natural habitat, taking precedence, like fucking cops, the shit heads, allowing these fucking, fake bitches to be ME, and being completely comfortable with LYING for them, GOING after the real, JOANN, locking her up, taking all her money, and giving it to the FAKES?  Are you kidding me, stealing my son's music and, letting some fucking cop's kid, be the rock star?  SERIOUSLY?

These people have no, ethics, no morals, no character, no professional responsibility, these are just buzz words to them!  I mentioned the cops killing their wives . . . well, if there is no right and wrong, and it is all about, physical looks, the hottest, gets the prize, not who deserves respect, we just kill them, so we can get a younger, hotter, piece of ass, that we feel is okay to trash, and our buds at the department will cover our asses, when things get tough as they do in any marriage, and the old ball and chain, starts to crawl up our ass!  I saw another, 48 Hours, last night, Death After Midnight, a deputy sheriff, got pissed at his wife, and shot her after a hard night of drinking on New Years Eve, and several witnesses even heard, the husband, right after the incident, admit that he killed his wife, and told the cops that, as well as a witness, stating that she heard the wife, yelling, for her husband to get off her!  She was never interviewed, or followed up on, and the guy who heard the husband admit to his parents, he called, right after, and told them, that testimony, just disappeared, from the record, magically!

As I recall, some reporter, picked up on the story, two years after the fact, and, started investigating, which led to the arrest, charging, and incarcerating of the murdering husband, who had moved to another city!  But, it is psychopaths, who murder, and psychopaths who cover up for a murderer!  With an emphasis, only on the attractiveness of a person, and trashing them when they are finished, only to be covered by other assholes, that see, women, in particularly, as nothing more than a fuck, until another hotter fuck comes along! Seriously, there are women who feel the exact same way, and will prey on men, as a fucking pay check! And when the husband, no longer can keep them in the lifestyle they want, or are accustomed to, GOOD BYE to that pay check, and on to the next, with a murder, in between!  When there is no right and no wrong, that leaves the door open, to do. just about anything you want, to disavow oaths, as mere words, and thus, we have the constitutional crisis, we had yesterday, or the one, where, cops, prosecutors and judges, feel nothing, when they throw out the Supreme Law of the Land, with little thought, all to let the attorney, they like the best or the better looking side win!  What a FUCKED UP MESS!  Don't let them the psychopaths win . . . you will grow old, get fat, loose hair, make a mistake in your business, and you will then, become one of the mice and vulnerable to the cats! or the predators1

SNAKES IN SUITS . . . HOW TO UNDERSTAND THEM!

First, so as not to fall prey to these good looking, smart, ruthless, conscious less people, watch their communication skills, is there merit, depth, substance, evidence of success in the past, or backed by studies, reports, books . . . of course, Enron was doctoring the books, so watch that!  Most of these people have good careers, or they do as the ones in my case, they steal someone else's resume, and make sure they get a good career, once in the job, they might be able to pull it off for awhile, but as in the earlier case, with the fake engineer, the devil is in the details, when push comes to shove, smart people, people in the field, with a language of their trade, will detect a fraud, fast.  I was speaking at a Utah Liberty Conference, on the Constitution, a few years back, and the speaker, before me, who looked and talked like an attorney, who was very smart, and could have easily been an attorney, as anyone could, with the self discipline, could, started, taking credit for what I had done, in asset forfeiture, back years before, about 10 years to be exact, probably knowing, or thinking, that it was safe, and with many, people not seeing me for years, and didn't know if I was alive or dead, felt safe taking credit, did!  But, I was somewhat taken back by this man, and just got up after him and told the real story of asset forfeiture, that predated his organization, and took the story, from A to Z, not starting at J, then going forward from there!

Me and this man, became good friends, and he and his father, who both, I felt, were presenting, and in their business name and activities, acting like they were attorneys, without., having the real credentials behind their names, but going into court, and going to government meetings, and into the legislature, almost, as if they were attorneys.  I think their business card, which was for being a private investigator, Rachel, Shelley, being somewhat legally trained, but not really, officially, going to law school, and then taking the bar, and really practicing law, they were just faking it, through there psychopathology!  But, when push came to shove, this guy, was jealous, pissed, and got mad at me, that I could waltz in at the end of a long battle, show up for oral arguments, and then write the winning brief, that the Utah Supreme Court, used influencing them to our side! There really is a method to law school madness, that does train you to be an attorney, and it goes way deeper than just putting on a monkey suit, writing a brief, because he was writing them, and fooling some of the people, there will be key terms, key legal theories, and insider language, that will give you away, to people!  Like, I am sure, the attorneys, reading this blog, will, recognize, a certain way of thinking, or a reference to a case that EVERY attorney had in law school!  They, know, I am for real, and they also, would not be fooled, if Shelley, were to write this blog!

Watch for the Path to Instant Success

These people are generally speaking the rising stars of the field, come out of nowhere, and sky rocket to the top, using smooth talking, their good looks, their manipulative personality traits, their charisma, and they always take credit for everything they do, and whatever, they can get away with, that others have done, or exaggerating, more and more, with little work to back up, this shot to the top of the heap, in the new job, or wherever.  I would say, to use an example, from Aesop's Fables, or wherever this came from, the story of the Tortoise and the Hare, one plods along, and the other races to the finish, but takes detours on the way, and in the end, loses the race to the slower, more steady contestant!  I remember working months on a manual, on domestic violence and sexual assault for prosecutors and cops, writing the grant, designing the graphics, creating the whole manual, deciding on the format, and doing about 75% of the work, along with a co-author, who wrote the prosecutor's part, but that was it.  And it was a project, that we did after hours and on the weekends, carrying on our regular work at the attorney generals office.

The night I had turned the master copy, into the printer, in the basement of the Utah State Capitol Building, and went to my parent's house, my dad, came in and told me that, Attorney General, Jan Graham, had just taken credit for my manual!  WHAT?  How in the hell, did she even know, I was doing the manual, and where, when, and how did she know it was done and at the printer?  These people, who look the part, as I did then too, but she was my boss, tend to get jobs, based, not on their work, but on their looks, or their schmoozing skills, charm, rather than the quality and depth of their work!  Jan, was an office manager for a law firm, then became attorney general, and one of my friends, who had her first appearance in court, with the judge pulling her back into chambers, told her how terrible she did, and that the only person he knew, to have done a worse job, was her BOSS! the AG!  LOL!  Jan was thin, had salt and pepper hair, shoulder length, with a lawyer hair cut, and a nice wardrobe, but, she was a shitty attorney, never knew what the fuck was going on, and was way into her son, having had her first child at age 46, being pregnant, when running for office!  And you were lucky, if you could get her in the office to work, other than between, 10:00 A.M. to 3:00 P.M.!  When I created 7 community programs, she took all the credit and didn't even introduce me!

Psychopaths are Parasites, Seek Targets, Then Suck Everything They Can Get From the Victim or the Person They Pick to Blood Suck Off!

Psychopaths Serve One Master, And That is Them Self!

These con artists, use voice to find their victim, they manipulate, and they are good readers of characters and of people, they will mix, falsehoods, with truth, to get the people to believe their stories.  In this double shit, that I have been caught in, you take two attorneys, me and Kay, and these psychopaths, merge the two lives together, both grew up in Bountiful, both were cheerleaders in 8th grade, but I was also a class and student body officer, Valentine's Queen, student of the month, and in high school, were were both, in debate, on the drill team, and she was a class officer, then onto law school, we both went to BYU, and so, there again, you have a familiarity with not necessarily the live of the other person, you are sucking off of, but of the circumstances, with some of the same professors, and faculty, administration, and therefore, you can pull off the double, shit.  Then, we both had been with Brett, friends with Shelley, Sue and Kay's sister, Lisa, had been friends, so that in common, and so forth and so on, then, she took over or stole the Brock case, and was familiar with my family, both singling, and through joining Brett, Shelley and Sue, so an easy double, and you were both friends, like is attracted like, but we varied drastically, in the are of ethic, morals, professional responsibility, oaths of office, or as officers of the court, and she saw them as, mere buzz words, when I have rested my career, defending the oath I took, to preserve, defend and protect the U.S. Constitution!

But, I think, you can see, who, they will use, and mix falsehoods with truths, to pull of their predatory, activities, and when you have the victim's family and ex-husband, or she is pretending to be me, with the same husband, and people, normal, people, would never do this, blend two lives, say, one person is someone else, therefore, they can't believe the victim and side with the smooth talkers, the thin, or the alleged charmers!  And, taking the better part of the lives of the other person, rather than their shitty life, that in this or that parallels, the victims, and with more people, going the way of the psychopath, lying, buying this shit, you can see what it has taken to try to overcome the lies.  Allan Rex Bess, and Frank, Interpol, of Parowan, the murderer, blending his life with the victims . . . both Vietnam Vets, but, this was the way, I who, didn't know the victim, well, other than as his attorney, and just a few conversations, was able, through those few times, detect the fraud, who went into battle, allegedly, when my client, now dead, never did!  The devil is in the details, I know the little, details, to each story I tell, and they do not, they get what is heard over surveillance, wire tapping, spying, and lies!

Bullies Escalate Use and Dominance of the Truth!

I noticed with Frank, aka, Allan, that at first, he was afraid to hang out in Parowan, Utah, and rarely would he come down, and refused to see people, who would have been able to tell the difference, right at first, but I am getting more and more of an understanding, just how easy it is, after a while to steal some one's identity and take over their whole life, as the fraud broads have, being taking away every element that people connect with being an attorney, my house, my vehicles, my cell phone, going after my license, then chasing me, making them, while not as skilled, and smart, not knowing my cases, fitting the description of what people think attorneys, ought to be like and that is not, staying in a homeless shelter, and with cops, daily chasing you with a bogus warrant, or who knows what, a cop killing!  But, as time went on, and memories faded, since Allan has been in jail for a year, and I had been gone for 10 years, even fresh memories, start to play games on people, especially, if those closest to the person, like a child, parent or spouse, are in on the lies, it starts getting so easy, that the fake hag, things she is actually, ME, and the mother, and wife, she can have her yang for her fucking ying, both fucking psychos in the image of NORMAN BATES of the movie, PSYCHO!  Not LOL!  TRUE . . . masking sick people!

I noticed that more and more, people were just going on with life and so they had just adjusted, to the new Frank, as being the old Allan, and he just moved in and took his place, being, 3 inches shorter, 60 pounds lighter, and a total asshole!  Pretty soon, this predator, started, using this new found, familiarity, and the fact that people believed he was the Allan, to get rid of me, who had just sunk $60,000 into the Bess home, and then moved Shelley, in working the same sick, black magic, letting her, with the help of judges, who were professionally jealous, willing to allow, Shelley to be me, come to court, all to hurt me, being far exceeding them in the practice of law!  Shelley was par for the attorney course, I was a cut above!  They could not take, having to actually, be a fucking prosecutor and judge, not just playing the easy, baby splitting game!

These Puppet Masters Get Other People to Do Their Dirty Work!

I see this all the time, in, especially teen, lover's triangles, where the puppet master, male or female, get one of their minions to do the dirty work or the murder for them, leaving them, a lot of time, being played for the chump, even killing them, after they, have killed the puppet master's rival, or their parents, or someone standing in the way of getting what they want, and inheritance, or what they think they are deserving of, which is about anything, they can wrap their twisted mind around, without sympathy for even an aged parent, who might suffer, with the deprivation of material goods, housing, food, money!  There was one example of a father, luckily, he was quite wealthy, but, his psychopathic son, started by stealing tools out of his garage at a young age, and selling them for tools, or just to have money, pretty soon, the father noticed that his son had taken every tool in his shed!  Then his thefts, started to escalate, with the father, just trying to love his son, and do what he thought, would help him.  So, one time, after a few years of not seeing his son, after a falling out, the son called, during the recession, and played his father, and his love, the fool again, and told the father, that there were tons of boats people were selling, because they needed the money, and if his dad would lend him the money, to purchase the boats, he would fix them up and make some money, and his dad, could get some of the money, plus the money he lent the son, back . . . so he did.  And when all was said and done, the father had been cheated out of $300,000, just wanting to help the son!

I saw, my sister, Shelley, play, my mother, who had taken care of her, and her children, for 7 years, and Shelley was the one, who for years, treated my parents, like shit.  But, one time, Shelley said she needed $1500 to take the pilot's exam, because she allegedly, had taken the course, to get her pilot's license, but just needed to pay for the test.  My mother, always trying to help her get out on her own, gave Shelley the money, and she blew it, never took the test.  I remember, Shelley calling and telling my mother, that had worked her whole fucking life, Shelley little, and said, her car was broken down, and could mom, send her the money to fix the car?  Sure, but, I remember later, mom, telling me that she was sure, that was a lie, and Shelley just got money out of her, to do whatever?  Then, at one time, Shelley got the whole families, sympathy, which, she in turn didn't have for anyone, else, and told them, she had lumps in her breasts and she was dying of cancer, or might.  I remember thinking, this is a scam, so she can get money, AGAIN.  The family were freaking out, telling her to go get a mammogram, and other treatment, but she kept dragging her feet, probably, because she really didn't have cancer, she just wanted sympathy or money, or attention, which is another trait of a psychopath!

Manipulative Traits From the Boardroom to the Bedroom!

Perhaps, this lack of separation, for a psychopath, is why, I can't convince, cops, and others in this bull shit, of wanting the most physically attractive, non-attorney, kicking their asses, okay if she is cute, had big boobs, and we like her better, because she is NOT an attorney, so we can put the attorney, down and elevate the less, smart, the less aggressive woman, easier to handle, both in the boardroom, the courtroom and we like the fake boobs, better in the bedroom too!  LOL!  All the way around a win for her, and a loss for me, which is the intent!  I am not worried, I have staying power boyz, I am just living MY life, she is faking hers, and trying to live a double life, one as her, and one as me!  LOL!  She, like the hare, with hair, will, burn out!  LOL!  The psychopath, projects this image of the master of seduction, and women, will be attracted to the power, dominance, money, the love bombing, the lure of victory!

Women, who get hooked on psychopaths, get hooked out of sympathy, or empathy, the tragic life, the tough childhood, the unfair treatment, and the very thing that a psycho didn't have, empathy, sympathy, is used to pay the prey or the target, hooking them, into caring, taking particular care, and it is a test of bait!  I was attracted, into the sex, but I am not a very sympathetic, empathetic person, not a care taker, for the most part, and Brett was more the care taker, even if it was to manipulate me, I had him on that count, and same with Frank . . . on time, Frank, Interpol, said he had a tough life, and I said, well, we all create our own reality, our own heaven and hell!  He got so pissed off, and jumped out of the truck, thinking he was playing on my sympathy . . . I had never seen a worst temper tantrum and just drove off leaving him, knowing a former Marine, and tough AB, or Absolute Bastard could make it back to the cabin!  And sure enough, I caught him with a Coke, trying to duck out, and ditch behind bushes, I just laughed.  Perhaps, that is why, neither of the psychopaths ever murdered me, or assassinated, I threw them off their game!  LOL!

These guys have not sympathy and empathy, but they are masters of getting it, the tragic hero . . . I am just not into a project!  LOL!  If the test works, and they can play the sympathy card, they know they have a victim!  Sex, is used, as a psychological tool, to manipulate, trap, get the victim hooked, and it also, allows them to feel!  The psychopath, has a reduced need for sleep, they are hyper-sexual, get the partner hooked on the endless sex, again, I think, I threw, Brett off, because, I don't need much sleep, and I wanted sex as much as he did, if not more, and he was begging for a break!  LOL!  Throwing the sex machine off his game, and he always loved the fact that he could wake me up in the night, have sex with me, and I was all about it! His previous girlfriends, got pissed.  Hey, I am high energy, don't need a lot of sleep, and dig being woken up!  LOL!  I think Brett was either ordered or decided to cheat to avoid the intimacy!  LOL!  Cheating is about their character, not mine, nor was there any deficiency, unless he wanted sadistic sex and new I wouldn't?  Marriage is done in a needy rush, because they can't keep up the charade . . . both Brett and Frank, Jack, all wanted to rush getting married.  I wonder why?  Psychopaths!

Soon, The Mask Drops Off, and Cycles of Domestic Violence and Sexual Abuse Start . . . Callus and Unemotional Traits Surface!

Sometimes, being with this person at first, is like being hypnotized, intoxicating, romantic, obsessive, all consuming, with an element of the dangerous, coming through, almost like oozing through the psychopaths pores in their skin, with a toxic addiction, passionate, intense, and vibrant, yet, dark, and making someone delirious, at the same time.  But, eventually, the passion, often with a marriage, commitment, normal life, will take away the magical moments, that then, like a light switches off, once the predator has their prey, they can start to get abusive, dropping the mask, and losing interest, because, it was all about the hunt, the chase, the game, with the predator, being even more determined to get a hard to get, victim, or target; however, a predator is a predator, and prey is prey, the cat is the cat, and the mouse the mouse, and once, caught at devoured, the thrill and intensity, of the lure of the game and victim, are no longer there.  And soon, the mundane of life, starts to bore the predator, the psychopath, and like someone who needs a new fresh kill, as in a serial killer, the hunter, takes to the streets again, and the old prey, has lost the gloss and glow, with some, using a more docile spouse, as a cover, for the respectability, to continue the game, going undetected for years.

The mouse, may be played with for a long time, as long as the cat gets a kick out of making it scared, in fear of them, starting the cycle of the three stages of domestic violence, the honeymoon, walking on eggshells, and then the beating or abuse, going through that over and over.  The controls, may ratchet down, getting more and more, isolating, leaving the victim, to do little other than, what the psychopath wants.  We have seen some of the most, sickening examples, of this, with men, taking their captive, and chaining them up, keeping them out of the public eye, as if they are dead, with little options, than to be anything other than a sex slave, and when the captor tires of the prisoner, he or she will kill them!  In the example of the above case, Terry and Paul, one of Terry's best friends, said, that, Terry, a beautiful, successful, and together woman, had gone through so many men, that by the time, she met, Paul, who was like 15 years younger than her, and not really even good looking, a lot shorter than herself, and below the standards of whom she generally dated, her friend, said, she thought that the reason, Terry didn't leave him, even though he was killing her, and had brought up the million dollar insurance policy, very early on, and even after finding out, Paul was using her money, to support his previous wives and children, Terry, was in denial, refused to be wrong about her choice to marry him, and really, died, rather than being made wrong about her selection, of a creep!

Sometimes when that masked drops, the abuser will start taking out their cruel side on a child, with the mother or father, watching in horror, and eventually, stepping in to protect the child, giving the abuser, a chance to either, abuse the mother/father, again, to justify, the mean side, they all have, and have kept hidden, until the victim or prey was trapped and vulnerable, but, often the perpetrator or the predator, enjoys, to see, either the mother/father hurt, or they will select and chose, which victim, causes the most pain, to the spouse, and at times, the mother/father will always take the abuse, seeing they were the ones that got the child into this abusive sick relationship, or married a step-parent, who uses the tension between the child and themselves, to intensify the abuse, seeing the psychopath gets pleasure out of causing other people pain, by whatever means, they can!  I look at my situation, with my children, it was not enough, to go after the music, or the law degree and practice, the target, shot to the next generation, and dividing loyalties, trying to steal love, even going to the third generation, going as deep as possible with the infliction of pain.  I see that brand of clothing, Affliction or Avenged Seven-Fold! and, I wonder, what fucked up, sick shit, would do this . . . and I am reminded, that psychopaths, feed on the pain of others, the more the better, the deeper the cut, the greater, and driving a wedge between a loving parent and their children and grandchild, is the best . . . especially, when the psycho, doesn't have a good relationship with their own children!

The Goal is to Hurt Their Partner to the Soul

The psychopath is just not satisfied, until, they literally, destroy the other partner, taking it to the heart, the breadth and depth of the other person's core, until they, make them bleed at every pore, figuratively speaking, and great joy is attached to the magical power, they feel over the spouse, even years after leaving, and when there was not a good relationship, when the two were together.  I found, that my predators, both Brett and Frank, while not really wanting to be with me, due to their propensity, to value, the physical, over all else, still, wanted to control and abuse me, and if they could not get to me, through, being with women, I knew, always, going for the core of the soul, never, opting for women, I didn't know, because, that would not have hurt, so, while with them, they would devalue, all of the stuff, that I was good at, and went to the extent of almost recreating me, through these other women, like holding me under water, while pushing the new replacement up, regardless of how inferior, less, or beneath me, they were.  Or, on the other hand, they actually, either killed the men I liked, or they had someone kill them, the second, I was attracted to them, because, they knew I was tough to get to, either due to disassociation issues or skills, I had garnered, when, my father beat me as a child, just once, knowing he loved me, which made it even more complicated, but, going after someone, I loved, whether out of jealousy, rage, hurt, or anger, seemed to cause me more pain, like when Shelley and Frank, killed Allan . . . I mourned for 7 months, always wondering where his body was, what his death was like, and knowing, that he was murdered, simply, for being with me!

I am sure the more intense, the love, the more intense the pain, if something happens, to them, and while in complete denial, that people could actually do this, after four dead partners, with either doubles, or just getting rid of them, I have been forced, to, at least, until the murderers are apprehended, never be with someone, because they will kill them!  I think, had I not left, when I was in Butte, Montana, with James Kennedy, they would have killed him, rather than, I think, in respect, for his family, just, almost maimed him, as a warning, to let him know, he was not to be with me, and let me know, I could not be with him, and obviously, it worked.  I was slow to learn, even knowing, they were killing them, to again, wrap my mind around the fact, that when you are done with a relationship, and you both move, on, you are free to be with, whomever, you want, love, or wish to be with.  That is not, the way it works with, a psychopath.  They seem to believe, as O.J. Simpson did, that, if I can't have them, NOBODY CAN!  And even a delivery guy, being seen with Nicole Simpson, was just too much to handle!  Some of these guys, I had never kissed, never even toughed, had just written an email, that was yanked off the computer, and me never to see or hear from a guy, who, simply was waved down, and we spent a couple of hours talking, but when the email, was written, and I expressed the fact that I enjoyed the time with this cowboy cop, he ended up dead!

Psychopaths Don't Feel Emotions, They are Flat Line . . . Did I, Make Them Feel for the First Time?  Frank, Said, I Left Scars So Deep They Would Never Heal!  Which Shocked Me!  A New Element of a Psycho, The Predator, Becomes the Prey, With an Alpha Female, They are Not Used to, Turning the Tables on this Man Who, Allegedly Slept with 800 Women?

Not all of this material is in the documentary, because, I have experience, two and possibly three marriages, with men, who either are, psychopaths, or are borderline psycho, or I bring that out in them.  The song, I just died in your arms tonight, it must have been something I said, I should have walked away! Maybe my strong personality characteristics, that are more male, that female, not in a dyke way, but just because, I am very competitive, sexual, more emotionally detached than most women, with the coping skills of disassociation, that may through the game off . . . they hyper-sexuality, you can't wear me out, I have an insatiable, while controlled, and checked, sexuality, leaving my men, perhaps, in a role reversal, and feeling more the inactive, rather than the active agent in the sex!  LOL!  I am, an anomaly to the psychopath, because, I can be very, flat lined, unemotional, in, kind of a human observation, type stance, with my ex-husband, accusing me, of analyzing our marriage and relationship, with genocharts, and reading books, after taking a master's class in family relations and human development, being so cerebral, that I match, their colder side, and bring out a more human side of them, warm, loving, and when they try their shit, it doesn't work on me, like it would on most women . . . I have a different chemistry, and like I said, there were times that I felt that Brett was going to kill me, or contemplating it, and I just laid there, letting him do what he would, observing, and without fail, this was, probably not the game rules, nor did he get a response he wanted or was used to, so things didn't go that way.

I believe, when I left both men, they were shocked, not used to a woman, like me, and while a psychopath, who may, with a woman, like me, end up more wounded and hurt, than the normal guy, because they put so much emphasis on looks, that, I am long gone, by the time, they figure out, due to this unique characteristic, that they are branded if you will, corralled and, deceived by their own, miscalculation, of what they actually liked or loved about me, and that runs much deeper than looks!  So, when they discover they are either stuck with another women, or made the mistake of leaving me, for a more shallow relationship, based on tits and ass, they lash out at me, rather than being angry at themselves, for being deceived, not by me, but by their own sick views of the world, finding that they have been victimized, rather than me, as I move forward, happy and ready for another relationship!  Frank was devastated when I didn't invite him to Thanksgiving. Well, for a very cold and rational argument, he would throw temper tantrums, yell and get pissed, and my children had never seen this, and I was not going to expose them to him, since I saw no future for us anyway! I had also caught him, either planting drugs or looking for something, drugs, when I went to church, letting me know, he was not operating in my best interest, so that was it, I just had to wait it out, until, the time came to leave, which is eventually did, when I took off to Montana!  The runaway bride, who didn't give a shit, knowing full well, he was an enemy, who got his feeler's hurt, in the process of trying to fuck me over, as either part of the super mob, or working with my fucking family . . . too bad, so sad, lost the one women, who got away!

My second husband, said, I don't just leave my men, who will always be my men, I brand their asses, and corral them, forever, and he felt that was not fair!  While these men all consider themselves, women's men, handsome, but definitely, seeing themselves as in charge . . . that generally doesn't work with or for me . . . and I have no qualms leaving them!  LOL!

More to Come . . . Gotta Go Catch the BUS!