PIMP MY RIDE! STREET LEGEND . . . BIG HUG MUG--SMILE, WE SEE "YOU" ON MCD'S CAMERAS! YEAH, THAT WOULD BE ME! . . . BULL'SEYE PLAYGROUND! MIND MADE TO MURDER! SOME SERIAL KILLERS ARE NOT SEXUAL DEVIANTS, NOR DERANGED KILLERS, SOME ARE PREDATORS OF OTHER HUMAN BEINGS, DRIVEN BY GREED . . . THEN AGAIN, THERE MAY BE A COMBINATION OF THE TWO. YESTERDAY, I WATCHED A DOCUMENTARY ON "THE ICEMAN", DERIVING THAT NAME, FROM LEAVING ONE OF HIS VICTIM'S BODY, HIDDEN IN A FREEZER FOR TWO YEARS, BEFORE DISPOSING OF IT . . . "THE ICEMAN" WAS A CONTRACT KILLER, WORKING FOR 5 MOB FAMILIES; HE HAD AN UNDETERMINED BODY COUNT OF VICTIMS, SUSPECTED BETWEEN 100 TO 250! THIS IS THE MAN, WHO DURING THE DAY WAS A HUSBAND, FATHER, RESPECTED COMMUNITY MEMBER, CHURCH GOER, WHO CLAIMED TO BE A BUSINESS MAN, WITH A WIFE WHO NEVER QUESTIONED HIM, BUT AFTER DROPPING HIS KIDS OFF AT SCHOOL EACH DAY, ATTENDING PTA MEETINGS, AND TAKING CARE OF FAMILY AFFAIRS, HE WAS A BRUTAL KILLER BY NIGHT, AND WHENEVER CALLED, AND A WORLD WIDE KILLER! THIS IS WHO, MY THIRD HUSBAND, SAID HE WAS . . . WHILE NOT BEING THE ACTUAL MAN, IT WAS THE MAN HE RELATED TO, I BELIEVE STUDIED, AND MOST IDENTIFIED WITH! AND, IN MY CASE, WHILE I BELIEVED HE LOVED ME, MORE THAN HE INTENDED TO, I WAS KEPT ALIVE, AS A LOVE SLAVE, SEX SLAVE, AND FOR FINANCIAL GAIN, GREED, AND TO FURTHER HIS FAMILY PLOT, TO EXCHANGE OR TRADE ME, FOR A MORE OR SEVERAL MORE DEADLY FORMS OF ME, WOMEN WHO WERE OF SIMILAR BACKGROUNDS, GOALS, WORLD VISIONS, TARGETS, SERVING AS A PROTECTIVE FRONT FOR HIM, DISTRACTING MEN, WITH THE OFFER OF SEX, POWER, MONEY, FAME, POSITION, AND A SENSE OF FAMILY, THAT SOME OF THESE PLAYERS, NEVER HAD EXPERIENCED IN THEIR OWN FAMILY, BUT IN THE SAME BREATH, WILLING TO KILL FOR THRILLS, STEALING IDENTITIES, TITLES, CAREERS, FAMILIES, THAT WOULD FURTHER, THEIR NEED FOR GREED! MONEY IS POWER. BUT KNOWLEDGE IS POWER TOO! THE BATTLE GROUND, ME VS. ME . . . MY MONEY VS. MY KNOWLEDGE! WITH SIX GOVERNMENT DOUBLES, FRAUD BROADS, FAKE BITCHES, ALL, LIKE THE PARASITES, PSYCHOPATHS, SOCIOPATHS, AND EVEN KILLERS, IN A COLLECTIVE UNITS, TO DEFRAUD, TRANSFER, CONVEY, FOOL, AND INFILTRATE THE VERY LAW ENFORCEMENT AGENCIES, WHO SHOULD HAVE SOLVED THIS HORRENDOUS, WORLD WIDE CRIME . . . THE ULTIMATE POWER TRIP, FOR A PSYCHOPATH, AND KILLER, WHO OFTEN RETURN TO THE CRIME SCENE, IS TO BE INVOLVED IN THE INVESTIGATION THEMSELVES, OFTEN OFFERING EXPERTISE, TRAINING AND KNOWLEDGE, FRUSTRATING AND HAMPERING THE INVESTIGATION, PROTECTING RATHER THAN EXPOSING, AND COVERING EVIDENCE, RATHER THAN EXAMINING IT, ALL IN THE GRAB FOR MONEY, POWER, SEX, PRESTIGE, AND COLLECTIVE GOALS, THEY NEED THEIR VICTIM'S NAMES, TALENTS, MUSIC, WRITINGS, AND ACCLAIM TO ACHIEVE THEIR OWN DREAMS THAT ARE IN TOTAL OPPOSITION TO THOSE OF THE IDENTITIES THEY STOLE! I BRUSH MY TEETH WITH "PRONAMEL" . . . PRO . . . NAME . . . L OR LOVE! THESE THIEVES LOVE WHAT I HAVE CREATED WITH MY NAME, AND THAT IS WHY THEY WANT TO GET RID OF ME, OR ASSASSINATE MY CHARACTER, LOCK ME UP FOR LIFE, IF THEY CAN'T KILL ME, SO THEY HAVE ACCESS TO MY GOOD NAME . . . IT IS THAT SIMPLE!

Bully . . . Bobby Kent Could Protect Himself Against His Enemies, But Only God Could Protect Him Against His Friends!

It is just shocking and amazing to me, how with each level of criminology and psychology, I use, to analyze what happened to me, and by whom, how, the deeper and deeper, I dig, the closer and closer, the YouTube, computers, playing off my key words, and subjects, dives into the archives, of crimes committed, not only in the Untied States, that might be similar, but go to other countries, like Canada, for instance in a crime story of one of Canada's serial killers, who, looked so much like Brett, my third husband, and the catalyst, it seems, teaming with sister, Shelley, attorney friend, Kay, and my own father, that, he could double for Brett, not only in stature, but in his looks, his physical prowess, height, weight, and even showing both sides of his personality, that, thank God, I never, saw, but for glimpses, that were enough to scare me, and put me on guard, and to ditch out on him, with several attempts, and finally, splitting, at a break neck speed, on a bike, having voluntarily given up my driving privileges, due to my alleged, terminal brain disease, getting to the highway, 8 miles outside of Logan, near Wellsville, Utah, where many of Brett's extended family and his father lived.  I think the Canadian, was Rodney Cameron, who brutally murdered, a woman who gave him a painting job, and 47 year old nurse--who he beat, choked and raped, later cashing her checks, and trying to empty her bank accounts, and a younger man, whom gave him a ride, where Rodney, walked by him, to the beach, followed him with a rock, smashed his skull, then chocked him, stealing his wallet and car. 

The really frightening part of the episode and this man's life is, that he was so charming, good looking, and a true psychopath, and killer, that even once convicted, and imprisoned, that he, on a life sentence, and a fluke in a new law, was able to skip out on his life sentence, after, appearing to be totally rehabilitated, even marrying a woman, while he was in jail, giving the appearance of respectability, and stability, then, within, I believe, three short weeks of his release, only 6 years after the previous murders, he was plotting his next murder, thinking that he needed to commit three murders?  But, he got on a Lonely Hearts radio show, and told the audience, with 8 female takers, that he didn't have any hang-ups, was this or that, and just wanted to find a woman, to spend the rest of his life with!  He met this unsuspecting woman, took her to a nice hotel, checking to see, if anyone saw them go in, he asked to be excused to the restroom, and within seconds, he came out, hit her on the head, choked her, and stuffed a sock in her mouth, bound her, dragged her to the floor, and threw the flowers, she or he had purchased to make the hotel, more beautiful, for this romantic interlude, and left.  Now, what the fuck is the point of that?  He didn't sexually assault her, just killed her? Wrote a letter to his wife, apologizing for his actions, and was later picked up.

Payback for a Bully

I believe this was a 48 Hours, Dateline special, about a conspiracy to kill, alleged, bully, Bobby Kent.  He and 7 friends, among them a current girlfriend, a hired killer, his best friend since childhood, of 13 years, an alleged, blonde haired, blue-eyed surfer, the friend of his girlfriend, also the girlfriend of his best friend, a cousin, and two other people who seemed, to just be in the wrong place at the wrong time, all went to the lake, or a secluded place, as planned the night before, at one of the girl's parents home, talking about the intended killing, talking about the murder weapon, who would do what and go where, and how the attack would take place.  The young, contract killer of 20, the age of most of the defendants, and the victim, could not procure a gun, so the team of killers, brought 2 knives and a baseball bat.  What started out as a fantasy of revenge, for prior wrongs, Bobby, allegedly committed, against this friend or that, in this circle of friends, from, Hollywood, Florida, the friends all gathered, with Bobby's best friend, dressed in a long black trench coat, with a red bandana tied around his head, and the rest of the crowd, with the dynamics of this crowd, being greater than the sum total of its part, head to carry out the conspiracy against their friend, boyfriend, and alleged bully, as planned.

The group got to the lake, and as planned, girlfriend, Alice Henderson, lured Bobby to a secluded spot, and then Derrick Coffman, the young hit man, hit Bobby, over the head, and as he stumbled to his friends, in shock, another one of them stabbed him in the neck, and then he grabbed onto his best friend's leg, and begged for his help, as his friend took, a knife and I believe, stabbed the fatal blow, into his neck!  Then the crew of young murders and co-conspirators, got in their cars, and went to a near by club or bar, and acted, like they had, talked to the victim, but didn't hang out with him.  Bobby's father, Fred, who knew the kids, especially, his best friend, almost for life, and asked if he had seen his son, since he had not come home, the night before, and that was not like, Bobby . . . no, he had seen Bobby, but he left him earlier in the evening, and he didn't know where he was.  The father went to the girlfriends house, and she also stuck to the story, denying that she had been with Bobby that night.  Later, police found, Bobby's bloody and bludgeoned body, at the lake and it did not take long to apprehend the subjects, because, they could not keep their mouth's shut, and the tale of the crime, spread through the community.

The Crimes of the Alleged Bully That Cost Him His Life

Bobby and Marty, had grown up in the same neighborhood, and were inseparable, always with each other. Bobby had been a good student, was popular, and was of more buff and stronger, than his more quiet friend, but they did everything together.  At one point, both boys, were into weight lifting, and allegedly taking steroids.  Bobby graduated from high school, and Marty dropped out, but they were still great friends. Marty, eventually, met a girl, named Lisa Connelly, who was cute, but had a low self image, and Marty, the all American boy was just the answer for her insecurities, but she hated competing with best friend, Bobby for Marty's attention and time, so Lisa, lined, Bobby up with her older friend, Alice Willis, who had been married, and had a child.  But, allegedly, Bobby, got more and more controlling of her, and she didn't like it, and when the friends got together the night, to plan the murder, Ali reported that Bobby had abused her, and she just wanted out of the relationship.  However, at the time of the murder, Marty, was being torn, between his new girlfriend, who was now pregnant, and Bobby, who, having broken it off with Alice, wanted more of Marty's time, as had always been the case.

Lisa appeared to be the mastermind, behind the murder plot to kill Bobby, she was the organizer, and wanted Bobby gone, also, was the one, who got the other friends together, involving her cousin, Derrick and several other friends, who all but Marty, who was not present, but through the grapevine, joined the murderous throng, the night of the killing.  So, the murder plot, became a reality.  Quickly all parties involved were arrested, and charged with, the murder, and the prosecuting attorney, was going for the death penalty, given the serious injuries, and brutal nature of the conspiracy, the crime and the cover-up!  Eventually, the three boys, who used the bat, and the two guys, using the knife, were all originally sentenced to either life, or the death penalty . . . Marty, the best friend due to the fact that, his best friend was begging for his life, when his friend, plunged the knife into his throat, was the only one to get the death penalty.  Lisa the planner, and organizer, driving this murder, was given a life sentence, even though, she had not inflicted any of the murder blows, she had, planned the whole thing, for her advantage to have Marty to herself, and her soon to be born child.  Fred, Bobby's father, had no idea, his son, was ever considered a bully, had never had anyone, come to him and ask for help, or for someone to get control of his son, and this all came as a horrible shocking blow, especially given the nature of the brutality and the crime, committed by all his closest circle of friends!

Where Were the Parents?  The Kids All Acted Like Nothing Happened!

In my case, my parents were involved, and joined the conspiracy, trying to even the family jewels, so unfairly distributed, over 50 some odd years to one of eight children, therefore, feeling, that one child would need to go, for the others, to divide, my legal assets, with an eye one my good name and reputation, resume, and my son's band, that was up and coming, and all, between, those left had not achieved the same status, although, with Kay coming on the scene, the better idea, was to just eliminate the problem, and replace, me with another attorney, someone the family all liked, and someone, who was equally, jealous of, plus, now the love interest of Brett, who was doing both, Shelley and Kay--sisters share, sisters care, because, they both, in their minds, had been wronged, by this attorney, not only in life's station, but in love, which was more the problem of the men, than the sister, who, never, saw any of this coming, never connected, women who didn't want a guy again, or lined me up with one to get a job, thinking, she could cat fight, or use sex, as she had her whole life, to lure him away from her friend, who only went on the date, to get her friend the job, she wanted, later, to realize, it was the man, Kay truly wanted, and she used, me, only to be bumped out of the picture, in what would have been a very lucrative, merger, for her--even admitting to me, that now, I would live in a bigger house than she did?, as she had just been, ditched by her husband in Colorado, for a Mormon Muffin, her younger husband, had been carrying on an affair with for months, now finding out, that the new Mo chick who moved in a got rid of Kay's shit, seeing Dave as a hot meal ticket--much like Kay saw Greg, also had a black, lesbian lover!  So, what part did I play in this?

Every name in this friend, conspiracy plot, to commit murder is symbolic as hell!  Telling a chilling story of jealousy, possession, envy, rivalry, competition that spanned, in this case, 2 decades . . . in my case, a half a century!  I met my family at birth, but was never really part of the family, starting with a birth in California, with generations in Utah, loyal to the country, and all other allegiances, being for the Mormon church, whether players, were ever active or had a testimony of its truthfulness, they used the Church, and that was their association, and the common link, for their crimes, starting at a family level, going to a national and international level.  My values, goals, dreams, visions for my children and grandchildren, were separate and aside, from those of my immediate family, of controlling, manipulative, materialistic, judgmental, Mormons, sociopaths, psychopaths, and murderers that I wanted to protect, my children, at a very young age from, deflecting their blows, attacks and attempts to control the course and destiny of my children.  

When I succeeded, somehow, that took away from them, when in reality, I never even thought of them, when I went to law school, divorced and left my children, family plans and plots of destruction, were but in place, 25 years earlier, and were carried out with vindictive, pleasure, and passion, with raging jealousy, that GREEN EYED MONSTER at its roots, that only grew with each year, and even after a 10 year, hiatus . . . Hi, Hate Us! because they ain't us . . . topped with a $357 million securities case, my father's field, being targeted by the SEC 5 times, an older daughter, who had been a rat, knew all the players, a son rockin' the music world . . . a cop, agent, serial killer husband, I left, teaming with an, old alleged friend, culminated in the PERFECT STORM, and perfect, symbolic MURDER!

Killer Beauty

In this 48 Hours, Dateline Killer Beauty, you had the handsome behind the scenes, producer, Bruce Beresford Redman, of the TV hit, Survivor, meeting, his beautiful Hispanic wife, I believe in Cancun, where she was a go get'er, a national treasure, and local star, in her city, owning her own restaurant, loved by family and friends alike, a successful woman, in her own rights, who, soon after they meet, fell in love, and got married and moved to California, to return yearly to Cancun, on her birthday, each year; however, prior to coming to this year's, birthday, that would, eventually, be Monica's last, with authorities, finding her lifeless body, shoved in a sewer, with blunt force trauma to her head, she had her husband, had been fighting, because of his infidelity, hooking up with a former girlfriend, he claimed to have been in love with, and it sounded like, prior to the pair's marriage . . . nice, by this time, the successful couple had two children!  

Monica's sisters--oh, to be so lucky, to have actually had sister's on your side, rather than against you, parents too, who both believe, Bruce, committed the murder, of Monica, who was later, extradited back to Mexico, and who was in jail, awaiting trial, had acted irritated and agitated, prior to the yearly trip, with sisters, having warned their sister, not to go, and to leave him . . . with one sister, actually, witnessing the old girlfriend, who had also been part of the staff on the production of Survivor, and who had been with, Bruce, before his marriage, or at least the way, it seemed, and most likely, the way it was with both, Shelley and Kay, in my case, serving as a more successful, partner, covering real intents of claiming children, and involved, deep in he destructive plot, to destroy, steal and kill!  

Much, like Kay, the chick in the true crime story, came right through the door to the party, that Monica's sister, the wife's sister, was also in attendance, perhaps the one who lined her sister up with Bruce, in the first place, and the paramour, or the slut, along with the alleged, stud, slut, or male whore. jumped on his lap, with both legs, straddling him and both her arms around his neck!  That would be Kay, and Brett!  LOL . . . psychopaths, have no boundaries, no lines of demarcation, no empathy, sympathy, or remorse, and love to inflict pain, not even being concerned that Monica's sister was present, in fact, that my be the reason for the unhealthy and display of what used to be called, criminal conversation, between unmarried persons, being historically a crime even . . . actually still on the books in Utah!  My cousin, James Southwick actually sued a man, the author of, the Chicken Soup books and lecturer, who lured, as predators do, his wife, who was working for the man, into his arms and broke up the marriage!

With Financially Secure Women, or Even Confident Women . . . Planned Cat Fights, Can Backfire Against a Wimp, Too Chicken to Get a Divorce, And When the Wife Wants to Leave, The Guy Goes Ape Shit!  Tries to Killer Her, Or Attempts To Kill Her . . . With More to Lose Than Gain!

Women, get smart, the more you are financially independent, the less you have to worry about with a man, cheating, leaving, or threatening you, playing the Italian Stallion, Rambo--there is a shot in the episode, with Bruce and Sylvester Stallone, hard guy, who thinks, it is a man's prerogative to have his cake and eat it too!  In this episode, it shows, Bruce, very symbolic, in my case, because, Kay was allegedly engaged to a Bruce Bugby, when she allegedly met Brett, but giving herself away, by asking me, how long I had known this guy, while Brett was out parking the truck, leaving me and Kay in the kitchen to reconnect, after not seeing each other, for about 20 years?  And, the second we all got in the kitchen, Kay with her little apron on, little homemaker, Mo chick . . . Brett did all the cooking in our house, and all the cleaning, and when he wanted me to do more, I left!  LOL!  Who was the Alpha Dog? absolutely ME!  LOL!  Brett just miscalculated, due to my delicate condition, allegedly dying, and that didn't change me, one bit . . . my attitude, have the skinny bald bitch!  LOL!  That may, have been Monica's attitude, that got her killed, and almost got me killed!

You see, ladies, men will get away with anything you let them get away with!  So, take the bull by the ballz, and cut them off at the belly, leave their asses, call their bluff, or tell them where to shove it, especially if you have more to offer them, than they have to offer YOU!  LOL!  Which, apparently, I did, because, Brett would not sign divorce papers, which were not even legal documents, given the fact that I had married him, legally, under non-solemnized marriage statutes, that you have to get a divorce under, I figured, I just needed some form of writing, just a signature, just something, that proved, I was divorced . . . Elliot, his music, money, money, my name, my stellar legal career, good name, fame, with the Washington boyz club?  Why in the fuck, won't Brett divorce me . . . I knew damned well, and pushed it even harder!  You see, Brett, wanted his cake and eat it too, he wanted a thin, showy wife, that I had been, and with video proof to show it . . . Kay was a nobody attorney, Shelley was a nobody, Rachel was a nobody, Sue a nobody, Tiffany a nobody and blah, blah, blah . . . both, Brett, Frank, Michael Willis, Tony O, Jack King Strode Ware, all fucking KNEW, I was the ALPHA chick, the alpha attorney, and the famous MOTHER TO BOOT!  I had no problem with any of these federal fucks moving on to the NO NAME BRANDS of chicks, none absolutely, NONE!  

Any of these men, given the lack luster, loser chicks, just wrote, child, lack the FUCKING DNA, to claim my children! the music, which connects them to me, and there mother, as stands to reason, is the kick ass attorney, not the attorney, who is trying to be ME!  Kay, Brett, Shelley, the DC boyz, local and state cops, Mo fucks, ABC agencies, are nothing to me, they don't even register as a pimple on the ass of the UNIVERSE TO ME . . . an that, Watson, bugs the SHIT OUT OF THEM!  LOL!  Have the fuckin' government hookers!  LOL!  DNA, DNA, DNA . . . fingerprints, fingerprints, fingerprints . . . there are some somewhere!  When all is said and done . . . I am who I FUCKING AM, they are who, they are, and YOU CAN FUCKING HAVE THEM!

Didn't Play By Guy's Rules . . . Kill Her!

I am just venturing a guess, that Bruce, got a conversation, from Monica, that went somewhat like this, and she, an independent woman, probably told him to take a fucking hike and have the bitch, much like I did . . . and he lost his cool, and killed her!  Nothing is worse for a man's ego, who thinks he is hot shit, and the woman, he thinks, he is too handsome for, or she is too fat, leaves him without a blink of an eye, and never looks back.  About 18 months later, I did have some feelings, brought up, from the deepest, caverns of my memory, but, often, it is the setting, the beauty of nature, or the circumstances, that, surrounds the relationship, that I miss, not the man, but all that makes him, him, and without that, like had I been in some loser apartment, rather than waking up to a mountain of sunflowers, fall leaves, blue sky and sunshine, I would, probably be a dead woman today!  LOL!  

This family plot, had been in the working for a long time, music had already been stolen, fake bands, and all, I am lucky, that, this serial killer, probably hired by the cops, because they all knew him, and gave him a get out of jail free card, or no tickets, because, they all hate me, more than a killer!  He was hired for this job, fooled around and fell in love, and he, miscalculating this woman with many, men, so not limited, never have been, never will be, actually killed the killer!  Symbolically speaking, shot through the heart, and I'm to blame . . . I give love a bad name!  Men, watch out for women like me, nobody, can get your heart faster, and you won't realize it is gone, til I am gone!  LOL!  And then, you can't do anything, but try to fuck up my life, with inferior bitches, which are not, even a thought to us . . . of my ilk!  LOL!~

Bruce Redman . . . Red, Famous, Power Color, Ego, Mid-Life Crisis

Bruce got I believe, 12 years in a Mexican prison, with neither woman, his two children, got $500,000 each, not much, of a replacement for their mother.  Monica, was smart enough to cut, Bruce out of her will. Bruce's parents are raising his children, but they are 84 and 78 years old, and a wise mother, knows, that, they are no replacement for their parents!  Bruce was selfish, wanted what he wanted, was unable to defer to his better judgment, or that of his mother, who told him, to drop the affair, as the smart thing to do, with too much to lose, which, it appears he was unable to do.  Men, have affairs, women, not because of you deficiencies, but, because of theirs . . . I saw that with the Italian Stallion, well hung, stable boy, remember the Producer?  Uma Thurman . . . You Ma, and the man is through!  But, delayed, gratification is a sign of maturity, success, with long range goals in sight . . . Brett could have had it all!  He didn't want to wait for me to heal, he decided, that since I left him, he wanted to take it all . . . in typical psychopathic tendencies, with no boundaries, as is the new, fucked up, mentality of the Patriot Act, with doing whatever it takes, no limits, no exceptions, including, taking one woman's life, and exchanging in for another woman, or 6 women's lives, giving them all you are, because, when it all goes down . . . Brett's ego was shattered, with the DC boyz club watching, as with Frank, and the rest . . . I fried their asses, and didn't give a rat's ass about them, when it was all said and DONE!

This is How They Do It Baby . . . This is How They Do It!

So, yesterday, just out of curiosity, I pulled up, Rachel Southwick Moosman's, name to see, if I could find something, that would indicate, her playing my double, which I know, but have to prove, and sometimes, it is what is left unspoken, that tells more than what is spoken . . . sometimes, less is more!  And it seems to be true in what I discovered, yesterday.  Under Rachel's name, I see a picture of Rachel and her two daughters, Emily and Stephanie, sporting a new boob job, like mommy dearest.  But, there are not pictures of her two, beefy sons, because, her and James, or a look-alike, Kennedy, are JoAnn and James, being the parents of Elliot, wild haired, boy of rock!  But, one could say, well, she just got a picture of her and her girls; however, there is no indication, that Rachel is still married to Kay Moosman, with Rachel, in that no fly zone, of is she still married to Kay, or single and with James, or what?  And, that is exactly what, the intended result of your or my search is to imply, we just don't know.

However, when I pull up, Kay Moosman, right there on his homepage, is the alleged, happy couple, still married, and presenting the picture perfect couple, at, I would guess, Yellowstone Lake, where Kay's parents, are campsite directors and have been for the last, 20 years.  But, in true Mo, fashion, with image being everything, and where only the righteous will prosper, sacrifices, caring and sharing and operating as a unit with a common, Mo agenda, Rachel, can, literally be in two places at one time, play me, and herself, simultaneously!  It's easy!  So, when I write about James, and people see her with him, but as me, all is well, in her living my life and being the mother of famed, guitarist and vocalist, Elliot Secrist, of the hot new band, The Ditch and the Delta, and not unlike, Brittany Spears and Michael Jackson, mommy and daddy, CIA agents are managing the career, and the money, so baby boy, doesn't have to worry, his wild, red hair about!

In the Killer Beauty episode, the Mexican version of police, is Poli(cia) and the justice system or courts, are called, Podi Judicia or Po Die, Judicial the Po Po, a short term for cops, Judi(cia), I believe, that if someone, well versed in the law, can easily, spot, the fucked up Brock, Cheek, Vail, and other cases, stolen from me, and also my blog, legislative, and water compact work, among other legislative and constitutional analysis, and see, exactly what the feds, state and local cops, did to me!  And hopefully, put all the offenders in, not falling for Rachel shit show, doubling with Kay and Rachel show, to cover her ass, if she is caught, riding tandem with my life, she can just jump off and claim, she never did any of this . . . which is pure, poppy cock, or BULL SHIT!  We have all seen the Little Kitty Brand . . . the pretty little liars, are all baby CIA assets!  LOL!  Nice try, but no, DICE!

Favors for NONE, Even CIA Agents, Justice For ALL!

TWISTED . . . HALLOWEENSCREAM--ALL DAY-SCARE-A-THON--TOM LIP . . . TELLING DREAM, PRES. OBAMA AND FIRST LADY, MICHELLE, BOTH HOLDING A TWIN BABY IN THEIR ARMS, RUSHING PASSED A BREAK IN THE CROWD OF ONLOOKERS AND PRESS CAMERAS FLASHING--HITLER STEPS, IN BETWEEN ME AND THE VIEW POINT, STANDING IN THE BREAK IN THE PEOPLE, TO BLOCK MY VIEW, AND SOMEONE SAYING, "WE'LL LET HITLER CLEAN THIS UP!" HITLER WAS STANDING AT ATTENTION, GIVING A SALUTE. LOL! TOM LIP, (CIA--HAD LUNCH WITH MY CLIENT, TOM VAIL, BEFORE STEALING $444 MILLION WORTH OF CASES FROM ME) A TRUE CRIME CHARACTER, BUT TOTALLY BRETT TODD STUART/STEWART, MY 3RD HUSBAND, WITH SECRET INTENTIONS--DEADLY FAMILY PLOT, BANK EMPLOYEE PAWN IN ROBBERY (GIVES WIFE SWAPPING A NEW MEANING!), LOOKING MORE LIKE THE SERIAL KILLER AND SEXUAL SADIST "TRUE CRIME" EPISODE, CALLED "THE GIRL IN THE BOX" OR "THE SLAVE MASTER" DOCUMENTARY, BUT HITLER STRAIGHTENING OUT THIS MESS AT THE WHITE HOUSE, DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE, THE FBI, CIA, DIA, DEFENSE INTELLIGENCE AGENCY, OR THE NSA, NATIONAL SECURITY AGENCY, IS LIKE INTERNAL AFFAIRS IN A COP SHOP, CLEANING UP THE COP SHOP! LOL! THE FIRST BOOK, I EVER SAW BRETT READING, A LARGE BLACK COVERED ONE, WAS A BOOK ABOUT HITLER, MUSSOLINI, AND STALIN, ALL COMMUNIST LEADERS--THAT IS BRETT/KAY BULL SHIT MACHINE, OR ALLEGEDLY, ME, USING MY IDENTITY TO INFILTRATE TOP GOVERNMENT POSITION, DUE TO MORMON CHURCH CONNECTIONS, AND NOBODY CHECKING IDENTITIES, CREDENTIALS, BACKGROUNDS, WORK HISTORY, AND VERIFYING RESUMES, RELYING ON, LIP VALUE, TO DETERMINE JOB RECIPIENTS, WITHIN THE MORMON LOYAL, MO AGENDA, RUN AGENCIES, WITH 70% OR HIGHER, IN THE CIA, PROBABLY THE DIA TOO AND THE NSA, DUE TO LANGUAGE SKILLS AND CONNECTIONS IN FOREIGN COUNTRIES, BUILDING A CULTURE OF SMUT, SLUGS, SERIAL KILLERS, SLUTS, AND STUPID, ALLEGEDLY, GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE, WITHOUT THE TRAINING, KNOWLEDGE, EDUCATION, DEGREES, THEY CLAIM TO HAVE . . . TRULY BABES IN THE WOODS, BEING GIVEN THE POWERS AND KEYS TO DESTROY THIS COUNTRY! I STARTED HELPING THE OBAMA WHITE HOUSE, BACK, STARTING BACK ONE MONTH AFTER THE YOUNG PREZ. WAS SWORN IN WHEN CONGRESS WAS ASKING, WHY AMERICA SHOULD SEND MORE TROOPS AND APPROPRIATE MORE WAR MONEY TO AFGHANISTAN--ME AND ABOUT 15 RETIRED FEMALE PROFESSORS AND THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS, MANY HUSBANDS WHO WERE LIFERS IN THE MILITARY, OR HAD CHILDREN SETTING UP GIRL SCHOOLS IN THAT COUNTRY, COMBATING THE TALIBAN, WERE AT THE TABLE, COLLECTIVELY, WE, THE ST. GEORGE, UTAH, "THINK TEAM" PUT TOGETHER, A FOUR PRONG PLAN, FOR DEALING WITH THAT REGION OF THE WORLD IN CONFLICT, IN A PLAN CALLED, "AFGHANISTAN: LIKE A TIGER, THE U.S.A. BETTER BE CAREFUL GETTING ON AND GETTING OFF" OR SOMETHING TO THAT AFFECT, AND I PERSONALLY COMPOSED AND CORRELATED THE JOINT IDEAS, WROTE UP THE, ORIGINAL 7 PAGE PLAN, AND LATER THE 4 PAGE PLAN, AND FAXED IT WITH MY NAME, AS GROUP LEADER, WRITER, AND THE IDEA PERSON, FOR THIS "GREAT DECISIONS" GROUP, WITH CHAPTERS AND GROUPS ALL OVER THE NATION, IF NOT THE WORLD, CONNECTED WITH PBS, I BELIEVE, WHO PUTS OUT A BOOK OR MANUAL EACH YEAR, GETTING THE BEST AND THE BRIGHTEST, IN WORLD ISSUES, TO PUT TOGETHER READING MATERIALS AND VIDEOS, SO VERY SMART PEOPLE CAN DISCUSS AND LEARN THE ISSUES! BUT, STARTING IN FEBRUARY, 2009, TAKING UNTIL MAY TO FINALIZE THE 4 PAGE PLAN, I WORKED ON THIS PROJECT, ALL FREE, WITHOUT COMPENSATION FOR AT LEAST 100 HOURS IN A PROJECT MORE CHALLENGING THAN ANYTHING I HAD DONE IN LAW SCHOOL, OR TO THAT POINT IN MY CAREER! I PRESENTED THE PLAN ALSO TO THE UTAH CONGRESSIONAL DELEGATION, HATCH, BENNETT, AND SHIT, CAN'T REMEMBER HIS NAME . . . IS FATHER WAS A GREAT GOVERNOR TOO! LOL! AND THIS DEMOCRAT, WHO HAD NOT BEEN IN, FOREVER LIKE THE OTHER TWO DINASOURS, SHIT, HE WAS JUST DEFEATED BY, CONGRESSWOMAN LOVE, NO WONDER HE LOST, THIS POLITICAL ANIMAL CAN'T REMEMBER, HIS FAMOUS FAMILY . . . .MATHESON! THAT IS TERRIBLE, NEVER FORGET A FACE, BUT NAMES? ANYWAY, HE REQUESTED THAT THE GROUP, ME ALONE BY THIS TIME, CUT THAT PLAN FROM 7 PAGES DOWN TO 4, WHICH I DID! FAXED IT FROM THE DIXIE STATE COLLEGE, NOW UNIVERSITY, COMPUTER LAB, BECAUSE, I HAD NOT TOUCHED A COMPUTER FOR 8 YEARS, UNTIL A FEW MONTHS BEFORE, HAVING GIVEN TWO FREE PRESENTATIONS, THE COLLEGE GAVE ME FREE ACCESS TO THE COMPUTER LAB, WHERE, ONCE BACK ON THEM, I WAS AT MY OFFICE FROM 7 A.M. TO 11 P.M. AT NIGHT, IN MY MAKESHIFT OFFICE! NOW IT HAVE AN OFFICE AT MCDONDALD'S . . . HERE BY 6 A.M.--YEAH, I AM A WORKAHOLIC, WHETHER I GET PAID OR NOT. BUT THAT PLAN WAS ADDRESSED TO DAVID AXELROD, CHIEF OF STAFF, IF I RECALL! THEN AGAIN, DURING THE ELECTIONS AGAINST ROMNEY, I WAS A KEY PLAYER, WITH THE NSA SHUTTING DOWN TWO EMAIL ACCOUNTS, NOVEMBER 1, 2012, AND WHEN I SET UP ANOTHER EMAIL ACCOUNT, THE WHOLE OBAMA ADMINISTRATION, JOINED MY CONTACT LIST, WITHOUT ME ADDING THEM, AND THAT WAS ABOUT 5 MINUTES AFTER SETTING IT UP! PREZ., MICHELLE, JOE, DAVID, JIM MESSINA, A MONTANA BOY, I THINK, OR WENT TO SCHOOL HERE. AND THROUGH THE YEARS, AS LONG AS THE ADMINISTRATIONS POSITION WAS CONSTITUTIONAL AND I AGREED WITH IT, BASED ON THAT VALUE SYSTEM, I SUPPORTED IT, AND NOW I HAVE OVER 700 BLOGS, MANY DIRECTED AT ISSUES OF NATIONAL CONCERN! I HAVE A RESUME, THAT, TWO YEARS OUT OF LAW SCHOOL, AS AN ASSISTANT ATTORNEY GENERAL, RISING TO THE TOP OF THE STATE OF UTAH, WITHIN A YEAR, HAD A 7 PAGE RESUME OF DAMNED GOOD WORK, WITH MANY SAYING, WHY AREN'T YOU THE GOVERNOR? LOOKING AT THE INSURANCE SALESMAN AND THE REAL ESTATE AGENT, YEAH, GOOD QUESTION . . . LIKE THE MURDERED, STATE CONTROLLER OR TREASURER IN NEVADA, KATHERINE AUGUSTIN, WHO WAS MURDERED . . . HAD SHE BEEN A MAN, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN THE RISING STAR OF ANY PARTY! SO, TO LET, SHALLOW HAL AND BETTY BOOP, RUN YOUR OPERATION, I WOULD HIDE THEM TOO! LOL! WHILE I DON'T THINK IT RISES TO "HIGH CRIMES AND MISDEMEANORS", I DO THINK THERE BETTER BE SOME CHANGES, SOME INVESTIGATIONS, CHARGES, TRIALS AND JAIL TIME . . . I KNOW, THEY ARE SO CUTE! KISSY, KISSY, SMOOCHY, SMOOCHY . . . BUT, THAT DOES NOT A COUNTRY RUN! ASK GENERAL, CIA, BETRAYUS! THAT IS THE CULTURE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT . . . TALK ABOUT HILLARY'S EMAILS, WHAT ABOUT THE GENERAL'S EMAILS, SHARING CONFIDENTIAL INFO WITH A WHORE? COULD HAVE BEEN ESPIONAGE AND SEDITION . . . OH, WINK, WINK, HE'S A MAN, SO HE GETS A FREE DICK PASS, AND WE'LL SLAP HIS HAND AND LET HIM TEACH AT HARVARD! OR IS IT YALE! THAT WOULD MAKE MORE SENSE, SKULL AND BONES SHIT, INNER CIRCLE OF BUSHES BOYS! WHAT THE FUCK, EVER! LOL! CLEAN'ER UP . . . I AM LOOKING AT THE "NO FUMBLE ZONE" HERE IN MCD'S, WITH TWO SURVEILLANCE CAMERAS RIGHT ON MY . . . MY PINK BAG IS HOOKED TO THE CHAIR, I HAVE AN ORANGE HAT ON, AND BLACK CLOTHES, MY UNIFORM, A BLACK PURSE, AMERICAN WEST BRAND, COWGIRL FRINGE, A DIET COKE . . . "LOVIN'. DRINK IT UP, CUP, AND I AM ON MY WHITE ACER COMPUTER . . . THERE SEEMS TO BE SOME SYMBOLISM IN THE NAME OF THE COMPUTER, ACER! AND I CAN ON EVERY GOD-DAMNED THING, TOP TO BOTTOM . . . BECAUSE YOU HIRED HER ON MY RESUME! CASES! HISTORY WITH LAW ENFORCEMENT, ETC., YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH ME, IN HER FACE! LOL! I HAVE BEEN COOLER, SINCE FUCKING 7TH GRADE, AS A CLASS OFFICER, VALENTINE'S QUEEN, AND STUDENT OF THE MONTH, MILLCREEK JUNIOR HIGH, BOUNTIFUL, WHEN THIS SOCIAL CLIMBER, KAY BURNINGASS, I WOULD BUT SHE DOESN'T HAVE ONE, KNEW SHE HAD TO BE LAB PARTNER WITH THE POPULAR GIRL, SO SHE COULD BECOME A RISING STAR TOO . . . BUT, SHE STILL COULD NOT DO IT WITHOUT ME! I DON"T NEED APPENDAGES . . . GET THE REAL ME, NOT THE COMMUNIST VERSION OF ME, THROUGH HITLER! ZIEGEIST! OR HITLER'S VERSION OF HOMELAND SECURITY! LOL! BRETT'S RUNS A BAND OF PSYCHOPATHS, SOCIOPATHS, PSYCHOPATHIC LIARS, SERIAL KILLER HIMSELF, AND LOSERS, THE PARKING LOT CREW! WHEN WE FIRST GOT TOGETHER, HE SAID, AND WAS RIGHT, I WOULD NOT HAVE GIVEN HIM THE TIME OF DAY! KAY IS A SICK AS HE IS, BOTH CHARMING THOUGH, LOL!gover

LIP SYNC--LOOKS GOOD ON THE OUTSIDE!

Serial Killer, Gary Ridgway (The Green River Killer)

You know, it is interesting, to note the timing of the possible, up to 60 killings by, serial killer, Gary Ridgway, because, between 1982 to 1985, there were between 48 and 60 murders of prostitutes, and then the killing stopped, possibly, with a marriage in between to explain the lapse in killings during that time, that of 13 years, where Gary, seemed to be the perfect husband, first having lived with his wife, for 3 years, then married, for the 13 years, and after his capture, with her, being shocked, upset, in denial, and thinking, the love of her life, great father, respectful lover, good with her daughters and grandchildren, and her dream man, realizing, that he could have killed her, her daughters, grandchildren, and as he confessed one by one, to 48 murders, the ones the Seatack area near Seattle, Washington, task force, could actually connect him directly to the victims, then, in what he says, was falling off the wagon, again, in 2001, when he would tell his wife, he had to go run an errand, or he stopped to get a burger on the way home from work, which led to the discovery of three more women, floating under the surface of the Green River, by a man in a boat, where one of his latest victim's DNA, could be traced directly to the mousy, mild mannered, kind man, who experts in the field of psychology and criminology, said, they would never have expected as the Green River Killer, whom had eluded cops for almost 20 years, stating, that if you didn't know the monster, underneath, you would actually, like the guy!, but, I met Brett, Tom Lip, I believe, late either, 2004 or 2005, and one of the first things we talked about, was a man, who was a serial killer, up in the Oregon, Washington area, who killed prostitutes and runaways.  With the legal system, moving like molasses, the trial and confessions, might have come, right about the time, I met Brett, with the crimes of that man, on his mind.

Amazing Parallels In the Life's and Backgrounds of These Two Men

It is funny, just the other day, someone, after talking to me about what I had done all day, and discussing several cases, about serial killers, kept asking me, if I had watched an episode or documentary on the Green River Killer, and I said no, and for some reason, every time, someone talks about, one of the most prolific serial killers in history, if not the most, prolific, and they mention, this guy, and his 48 victims, he confessed to, I make the mental, transfer, or mind replacement, to Green River, Utah, a small community, just across the border between, Colorado and Utah.  Then this morning, YouTube, kicked up this documentary on, none other than on, Gary Ridgeway, the Green River Killer!  I had seen this episode before, but, didn't mark it much, as being symbolic or one that I should pay much attention to, until, right fucking NOW! 

Scream, taking note of my recent allegations, and connecting the dots, and the possibility, that I too, was married to a serial killer and, could have easily been murdered, by Brett, who not only has similarities, in background, almost uncanny, but, even told me, he was the Iceman, who could have killed up to 250 people as a hit man, for 5 mafia families, but, he could also have been referring to the fact, that serial killers are the Olympians of Psychopaths, and human victims, mean nothing to them!  Which has played out with me, over time, not necessarily in the fact that he had to rape and murder me, you can't rape the willing, and when someone has already had a death sentence pronounced on their heads, I am sure, I changed the dynamics, of this whole mindset, and the rules of the game, changed, from cat, playing with mouse, to alleged mouse, me, playing with the cat, CIA, his bitch, substitute, former friend of mine, and me, having a mind, that is just as tough, methodical, and systematically, dismantling, not only his toys, but his Mormon machine, and his Hitlerian Game of Thrones!, pitting the Constitutional Law Attorney, he helped heal, against the Patriot Act, bull shit, that values, cold blooded killers, like him, Kay, Shelley, Frank, Isaac, and others! with, global implications . . . try dealing with a band of psychopathic killers, liars, manipulators, with no conscience, no regrets, remorse, developing skills of being magnificent liars!

Some of the Names of Interest, Tale, Tale Signs of Killers!

Now, one of the best, definitions of the Bush doctrine, found in the attitudes, tenants, and overriding objectives of the Patriot Act, fascism, found in the book, The Smiling Fascist, I think, that I bought, but never read, which is totally normal for me, especially, at the time I bought the book, with a bright red cover, and a yellow smiley face, we all recognize, a big time symbol of not only, a psychopath, who looks good on the outside, but is sick as hell on the inside, but, as I have said, depending on the goals of the organization, you are working for, with the mantra, of do whatever it takes . . . to silence objectors, kill the opposition, murder as a form of pest control, or just assassinate her character, if you can't get her ass in a federal detention center, jail or prison, until with have our way with the American public! You, agents, are free, to use, any means possible, with no exceptions and no limits!  The serial killers, the psychopaths, sociopaths, pathological liars, much, like the CEO's of Wall Street, are perfect for the job!

So, taking it from the top:

• Gary Ridgeway . . . Tom Ridge was the first director of the new, Bush, Homeland Security! or the RIDGE way, the Patriot Act way, the fascist way, that is in total, 180 degree, conflict with a constitutional law attorney, like me, who didn't see, her oath of office as an attorney, and officer of the court, as just a buzz word, but who has made it her life mission to preserve, protect and defend! no matter, who the enemies are, how big and scary their are, and what the risk is!  Kay, aka, Joann, a play on the spelling of JoAnn, not me, but, you think she is me, and she is needed, so we have Needham's Private War, they need the fraud, more than the real person, because, if they don't have a viable attorney, to claim all my government conquests, money, cases, writing, they are all fucked!  Kay Burningham's father, is Gary, whom I believe, Kay murdered!  They say, we are the company we keep . . . well, if you are hanging with the mafia, who are a bunch of wise guys, to murder for financial gain, is nothing, and murder is the way of taking care of problems, or to solve you own personal financial problems!  Kay was going in the hole, financially, $10,000 per month in her private law practice, with an office in Salt Lake City, Utah, at the time, she allegedly met, Brett; however, the more I learn, these two had already met, and I was, prey, for these two predators, along with Shelley, my father and the rest of the Bush psychos, who wanted, needed, coveted, my son's music, having taken it years before, while they had neutralized, both parents, almost killing me!  And it is interesting, in the Green River Killers . . . symbolic of fresh, vibrant, money, and multiple Secrist family sources of rivers of green and gold, these killers, took to as serial killers and predators, would, after their prey! much as Gary Ridgway did the women he killed, preyed on, and cast aside, like human trash! who were so much better than he was, as a human being!  Here is where you verify, the identity of Ms. Burningham . . . Kay, used to work at Denny's Restaurant, back, I believe, between high school and college, or during college, at the same time, I was working at the Hotel Utah, coffee shop, now, ironically, enough, the Jospeh Smith Memorial Building . . . these psychos can bring down the whole fucking Mo Church or political machine, along with discrediting the alleged, top law enforcement agency in the world!  LOL!  Check those tax returns, right around 1973!  VERIFY, VERIFY, VERIFY . . . I just mistakenly, typed, TY, symbolic, that, Shelley has ecplipsed me, and she is me . . . I am fucking dog piled under shit bitches in heat, with bastards butt fucking them, and you are going to have to dig to get to ME, the real ME!  Shelley did work as a waitress as did Rachel, and obviously, I did too, at many restaurants, before, going to the Hotel Utah, I worked, a few weeks at Howard Johnsons Hotel, in Salt Lake City, also, but didn't like the place or the late hours!  I had set hours, working the 11 A.M. to 2 P.M. shift, with a three hour break, then returning to work 5 to 7 P.M., VERIFY!  Denny's and the Spruce Motel, were both shown, a few times in this mornings video, I am not sure, why I relate, Spruce to Kay, other than, when I lived with Brett at Mt. Sterling, which was also, either on a road sign, or something, this morning, briefly, but, Brett had some cans of food bank, Yam's, Bruce was the brand, and Kay was allegedly engaged to a Bruce Bagby, maybe I just connected the two, but there is a Spruce Street, both here in Missoula, and in Spokane, so, with my complex and complicated symbol system with Brett actually the one, who coined the connection between my brain and the federal tax code, but anyway, that means, for some reason, a connection to Kay, or to Norman Bates, and the Bates Motel!  Wait until I got in to the background of Gary and Brett, the Green River Killers!  So, damn, right on . . . can't beat MY INTEL MAN, GOD!  LOL!
• Patricia Eakes . . . was a prosecutor, who commented on the trial . . . EEEKKKS!  Another fraud broad, pretending to be a PROSECUTOR(S)!  Another baby, playing dress up, and hiding in the Obama's arms for protection, hiding from the press, crowd, and wanting to know, how this could happen?  Like I said, there are about, 6 of these fucking bitches trying to be me!  If the good, NSA agents, check surveillance, well he just moved, but, there is, now look, but a guy, has a sweatshirt on, hoodie, with on the back, of the black clothes, is an outline of the pine trees, an elk, and the words, Lincoln, indicating a past president, assassinated! or it could be connected with Lincoln County, here in Montana . . . LOL, I just typed, MOB!  Can you think of a better place for the mob, serial killers, to hide, and be protected, than in the Department of Justice, FBI and CIA? Fucking PERFECT . . . I have been screaming about this, nationally and globally, for fucking at least 2 years, in this blog, almost fucking DAILY?  So, who is protecting the MOB? MO'S, PSYCHO'S, MAGNIFICENT LIARS?  My dream would indicate, the fucking, WHITE HOUSE!
• Terry Rochelle . . . can't remember, her title, but, I had a friend, in St. George, Utah, named, Terry, she worked at the Western Shop, on Sunset Boulvard, St. George, and she was, the first real cowgirl, I think, I have been up close and personal with, maybe, Misty Cheeks, and Kay Lynn Reilly, but hey both, turned on me, took bribes, and after fucking tons of free legal work, with Misty bringing, Kelly Ann Boothe in as ME, on the CHEEK case, but as far as I know, Terry, was just a good honest, working mother and cowgirl, who promised me she would give me or buy me a pair of red cowgirl boots, long before I came to Montana!  Terry used to break quarter horses, at her home up in Diamond Valley, Utah, she had just lost, 80 pounds on the HGC Diet, and she was an inspiration and just a fucking fun, woman to talk to and befriend!  I don't think, she would buy me some yet, but if I ever can stop, stress eating, and buying food, to write my blog, with no home, and could keep a regular schedule to work out, without having hits on me, at the swimming pool, or blocking me from this or that, I am a fucking exercise queen, and that is the way I lose weight, hell, I like to eat too much, but I can and will lose, once I get this past me and under my belt.  But, that is how, Terry, my symbol for cowgirl or the cowgirl spirit got in my mind . . . Rochelle is the name of my Ex-husband's wife, of about 15 years now, living down in Mesquite, Nevada, where he is a city planner . . . not Rachel's husband, which I am sure the close names, are to fool you, but that, would indicate, that, yes, I am the mother, of the 4 amazing children, including the Rothchild, or Elliot, rock star, making all the money, these fucks STEAL!  Rochelle and I are both, either former wife, or current wife, of Richard Clifton Secrist . . . as usual, someone in the back room, almost like clockwork, mentioned the name, Rachel, whom I am sure, would have had to cut, Zeke as I call him, Jerry Owens and former husbands and boyfriends, who all have an ax to grind against this little cowgirl . . . Shelley would like you to think, that because she owned a horse once, that she is the cowgirl . . . she fucking, followed me up here to Montana, and SHE is NOT ME, DUMB ASSES!  Shit your fuckers, cops are still bugging the shit out of me, rather than going after the UGLY BITCH!  GOD, how fucking INCOMPETENT CAN YOU BE . . . just to maker your job easier, I am going to go to the bathroom, going from the booth, passed the surveillance cameras, where you can watch my fat ass, pass, and it is, 9:52 A.M., Mountain Time, and I am at the Broadway, McDonald's in Missoula, Montana . . . I don't know how to make this easier on you, other than some fucking FBI, ass hole, who would lie for the bitch, witch and bastard club, of MOB fucks you  have protected for the last, fucking 6 to 15 YEARS!  Okay, here I come! It is roughly, or right on, 9:57 A.M., and I went over to re-fill my drink, raised it up to the other surveillance camera, in the corner, near the drink machine, so you could see my drink . . . I am NOT a fucking COFFEE DRINKER!  I showed you, the purple writing, that says, Lovin'. Drink it up. on the white cup, or 42 oz. plastic glass.  If you can't see this, or figure this out at this point, you are fucking STUPID!  I know you have spy gear, that follows my fucking phone, double with Shelley having my old one from, Grand Junction, sucking the fucking data, off the phone, just like she is fucking sucking the power off of it, and sucking the life, out of everything I do, watching and waiting to suck this blog up, so she can hack it, edit is, send it through the Fucking COMPUTERIZED writing machine, that last I checked, changed TWO FUCKING WORDS!  LOL!  Because, this writer, slamming the keyboards, doesn't even PROOF read and is technically correct about 90% of the TIME!  She is a fucking FRAUD, not smart, not a cowgirl, she has a master, slave relation with the men who put her sorry ass in power and position, and if she ever, doesn't OBEY them, she is toast, and she knows it, they are both in this master and slave, both dependent and have to trust, or they are all TOAST!  And, if U.S. Attorney General, Loretta Lynch, who I fought, wrote about, and tried to push Congress into confirming, wants to take me, on in any, fucking civil rights, came, I AM GAME . . . God hates ingratitude and so Do I!  Fuck YOU!
• SUPER PAWN . . . so you fucks, would pawn someone of my caliber for these shits?  Nothing but, AMAZINGLY STUPID, kill the power chick, kill the history chick, kill the model chick for the par, average, nothing, Cabbage Patch Doll Shoe Sales Chick, the plastic surgery queen, who worked for Dr. YOUNGBLOOD and that is how she got her fake tits, duck lips, shaved nose to look like mine, butt sucked, thigh sucked, botox lips!  GOD! What a fucking INSULT!  I had to switch sites, because the fucking NSA, of course, protecting the whores, just turns off spell check, so they can scan it and steal the blog or block it, so their hero, losers, serial killers, can be protected, embarrassing as Mark Hoffman, fake church document seller, was too!  LOL, inspired, leaders?  I took a minute, because the fuck faced, NSA, Mo run, Utah based, 30,000 spies, turned off the spell check, not surprising, but, you know, how Google, a super pawn of the government, puts daily, art up . . . there was this or is this, Kay, like drawing, of a woman, in a blue ball gown, dancing . . . yes, you got it, Kay is a ballerina . . . or ball a ring at, but, a great attorney, ME, she is NOT!
• Barrtell . . . I would hope so!  The noble, and great, psycho, Utah State Bar Association was in on this sham too!  How in the fucking hell, do you expect, your attorneys, to follow, your guidelines on ethics and professional responsibility, when the very bar association leaders, fucking LIED about who I AM, with Billy Fucking Walker a former boss of mine at the Utah Attorney Generals OFFICE?  God, give me faith, that someone can, besides, Hitler can clean this shit up!
• Linda Jane Rule, was one of the victims of the Green River Killer, and Ann Rule, a crime writer, was making comments on the case, the killer's, background, and personality, these fucks are trying to make me the victim, when in reality, I am the writer, who, is actually, as a novice, doing a fucking good job, exposing REAL SERIAL KILLERS!
• Kenworth . . . generally connected to the truck manufacturer and brand, but this, over the years, has come to mean, or be connected with cops, Parowan Chief of Police, Ken or Kent Carpenter, whom, I originally, had high hopes, for being on my side, in this, having been in Marine Intel, for 20 years, prior to working as a school cop, I believe in California, before being hired in Parowan, after the Iron County Sheriff's Department, wanted to get rid of PC, Preston Griffin, because he was a friend and associate of mine, having, asked for my help, before, I reactivated my law license, but had been on the Brian Hyde show, back in last, November, I think, of 2008 or 09, because he was having trouble (just did a typo, troubel or bell one of my signs for Shell Bell, because she sold school books to school elementary librarians, those top jobs, that prepared her to be a U.S. ASSISTANT ATTORNEY GENERAL . . . wanted to trump ME, or take the next logical step!  LOL . . . that experience as a Cabbage Patch Shoe Sales woman, invaluable!  LOL!  Pat right CIA, EEEEKKKKK!  LOL!) anyway, Preston, whom I am sure, has been long bought off by Frank, fuck faced, pretend, Vietnam Vet HERO, Allan Rex Bess, my client, and whom I thought I married! living in the Bess house!  GOD!?????  CRIMES ARE NOT COVERED FOR YOUR, FBI, CIA, DIA, NSA, US ATTORNEY GENERAL, NOR PRESIDENTS, ASK NIXON, if you need PROOF!  I don't give a rat's ass, how much you like these psychopaths, the interviewers and cops, who chased the Green River Killer, said, they liked him too, but, they couldn't detect the monster in the deep psyche of this fucker, and in YOUR FUCKERS!  But, in true, dirty cop fashion, Ken or Kent's worth, disapated over time, as I realized over and over again, he was on Frank's side!  Joining the Delta Force Intel Dick's of LIARS, who were brought in to put me DOWN!  He was just another MO Clown shit show boy!  So, what went for worth, was sold down the Green River of GREED, to shit!  Kenworth, was of worth to the lies, going from that meaning to KENSHIT!
• King County, Washington, is where the serial killings took place, and very symbolic of what is going on, I am sure, Brett and Little Jo or Kay, are members of all the king's horses and all the king's men, who could bring JoAnn down again!  LOL!  These dumb ass Mo Mafia, are into the Kings and Queens, as seen in Mo Temple ceremony, bringing Joe Smith, Mo Prophet to Washington, and your alleged, King Brett, is a fucking serial, sick, ass killer!  And he was a long time, before, he came to Washington, when all that MONEY of mine, bought the Mormon Church, who fucking runs the government in Washington, with symbol and sign, very much, showing that, in my dream, but, in reality, you  have Hitler or Gary (Kay Burningham's husband) Ridgway Hitler Style, running the government!  I am going to tell you stuff about your alleged, defacto king, that will curl your hair, and this is not hearsay, this is first hand knowledge, as his wife!
• Officer or Detective or Prosecutor Prothero . . . Pro the Hero!  I would consider, myself, a pro on many levels, and having been married to a serial killer, having been the best friend of one, and a sister of another, and the daughter, of a father who is one, all psychopaths, I believe, I could give federal, as well as state and local cops, a few tips, starting out, in my legal career, training prosecutors and cops, qualifying me, in many ways, to be a forensic psychologist, or criminologist, if not a profiler, better trained than those who just interviewed them, I fucking fucked one, and probably came closer to death than any of you, at the hands of this band of psychos!  But, it was this man, who said, to walk in a room with this guy, who is much smaller in stature, not as good looking, or smart, leaving all the task force, wondering, Is this the guy, we could not catch?  When I reduce, your King down to his roots, you might see, Brett similarly, and I would look at his sister, Deborah Haas, as an accomplice, who, probably either used MY or MY Son's money, turning little Bro, Brett into a VERY respectable gentleman farmer or rancher, well loved, and thought of in Utah and DC, hell, he was even Christ in Deseret Book calendars and pictures, with Kay, prostrating herself, in the master slave, relationship, they shared, that is most likely based, on sick games of S&M, just like, John Edwards, or the guy I put in the title! had with his girls, he killed!  All these fools have been right under your noses, all these YEARS!  You are only going to make it worse, to cover it up, ask NIXON!
• Deborah Haas, oldest sister of Brett, Kathy, I never met, she lived in Pocatello, Idaho, but the 23 acres we lived on, Brett and I, that had so many, old sheds, and shacks, plus the whole mountain side as a playground or graveyard, at Brett's disposal, is now owned and occupied by Deborah, with the sheds all flattened, excavated, and probably a ton of secret's buried!  NSA, off on this site too!  But, before, the new house was built, and I would check into the title, how it was paid for, and I would for sure, look into, the death of Ron Haas, Deborah's husband of what 40 years?  I like Deborah, she is smart, has a master's degree in nursing, and taught nursing, on top of her duties at the hospital.  Her husband, Ron, worked at the cafeteria, up at the Logan Temple, and both were hard working, tax payers, rock solid, and good people.  But, like most of us, Deborah, had a shit load of student loans, and told me, they were struggling to get ahead, financially, with their son, being accepted to medical school, a return missionary, which I would investigate that acceptance, just because, these Mo's want to look good on the outside, and don't give a shit, on the inside, it is all about image!  But, Ron, was the picture of health, three years ago, right after, I got sworn into the U.S. Supreme Court, I went to the old, horse barn, to show Brett, that him telling me to take baby steps in getting back to who I was worked, and I made it all the way to the Supreme Court, after being told I would die, and never work again!  I was shocked to see, that the old, Stewart homestead was gone, but, the house, converted to a barn, or Brett's man cave, is still standing, as a storage shed, and probably with all kinds of tale's of horror, I would guess, and I am lucky, not to be one of the statistics, of missing women in the Logan and Cache County area!  But, Ron, may, in fact, be one of the male victims, maybe not by Deborah's hands or acts, but, his death, so shortly after getting into the home, raises my eyebrows?  Brett hated Ron, because, once he made a statement to one of Brett's girlfriend, stating that he couldn't see how she could be with him? The family liked me, because his mother, who was about 67 at the time, had just gotten active in the church again, after being a party girl all her life!  But, Deborah and Ron, would have had to have money to buy, the whole 23 acres, as I recall the battle lines, in the family, with Brett's father not particularly close to his first family, but, due to keeping the family farm out of Donna Christiansen's hands, he put the farm, either into the whole families names, new wife, but of some time at that time, her children, maybe on half, and the three Stewart/Stuart children, Debbie, Kathy and Brett, much younger, on the other half.  The wife, and her children, and I think, Kathy, wanted to sale the whole 23 acres to developers, and Debbie and Brett, who both loved the land, and wanted it, but could not afford it . . . so a big jump, in several years, because this was in 2012, on one of my trips, either to do some legal work in Cache county, or on my way to Montana, or close, I talked to Deborah for a few hours, also called Brett, who tried, desperately to get back with me, but by the time Debbie and I had cried, hugged, and she got to see my certificate, Brett's alleged wife, from Iran, Lyla, or Kay, the actress, in hiding at that point, because people knew what I looked like, statewide, then, but, all the evidence was gone!  Just like John Edwards, the master slave, Brett had all these, blue plastic water barrels on the property, and Edwards, tucked bodies in them, dead bodies.  Seeing those last night on the true crime show, reminded me to write about them, I was going to . . . Jerry Owens, who was into family preparedness, came up to Logan, after I had left, Brett, and wanted to buy all Brett's supply . . . there is a connection between those two, making up part of the Mo mafia, but, who knows what was in them, there were about 30 as I recall?  But, Gary the Green River Killer, also, had a strategy to taking down and killing his victims . . . he would lure them into his truck, and then, say, they would be much more comfortable, in the back shell of the truck, and after they would have their clothes of, and had preformed oral sex, he would start to fuck them missionary style, and suggest that he could get off, much faster, if he could do it the back way man, style, which was Brett's favorite, I liked it too, but, then he would reach around and strangle the woman, and then keep their bodies for a few days, then, come back for sex, until the flies and maggots got too bad!  Scream . . . but, Brett also had a fairly, nice, white, small, either GMC or Chevy, with a shell, and I always, thought, when I would wonder about things he said, if he used that truck and shell, driving his maroon Sonoma as a cover vehicle, we were still paying on, as a cover? and wondered if he would keep that, white one for killing?  That is an avenue you might look at.  I can't remember, never proof read, but, Ron ended up dying, just months or a year or so, after he and Debbie moved in, or after I saw them in 2012 . . . Ron was the picture of health, he looked way better than Deb did, healthier, strong, and I was three years older then Brett, and he was quite a bit younger than both, Deborah and Kathy, but I would say, not more than 8 years!  A total shock to me . . . I just wrote, or typed, shot!  I would call that a murder! insurance, used his income to get into the house, to cover, for Brett paying for it, or, Ron was onto Brett, something doesn't pass the smell test with Ron!
• Gary was a painter, Brett was a factory worker when I met him!  I would check the dates, of the missing girls, in the area, that many thought, might be just runaways, with me seeing many, at his cousin's gas station, Margo, and wondering, if Brett murdered them?  Seriously.  That is what I wondered?  Easy money, can legitimize people very fast, and literally, I left Brett, Elliot and Chris, came to show me, the new God's Revolver CD, in about 2006, and Shelley, was seeing Brett, Jesse and Tiffany, started making night bank runs, were applying for credit cards and getting tons of new banks, with NO FUCKING INCOME! or little, Shelley would at first come and go, but eventually, her and Tiffany started going to school, Isaac moved back to Don Anderson's house in Smithfield, Utah, and the tons of, BANDIT, had written CDs were rolling off the press, or being copied, they were hitting the streets fast, and stealing the band, eventually putting together the fake one, and at that time, I moved to St. George, with Julia Warner, because, I was watching what was going on with Exigent Records, the label, and seeing Koreans fighting to get tickets for either a band, or ticket sales with the name, EXIGENT, of KAYSVILLE!  Shelley took one economics class at Utah State University, never finished it, she had MY ID, Social Security Card, and was ready to roll as ME!  Shortly before, I left, after being kicked out, after Brett, came over, claiming undying love . . . probably a show, knowing psychopaths, giving Shelley an excuse, so the group, could hit the music tour, stopping Elliot's band, sabotaging his tour nationwide!  After I left Brett, he had to go to work back at a factory, the only place he was qualified to work, check, tax records, he was at Peppridge Farms--Pep Boys, Brett and Jesse (assassin--not dead from OD) Anderson, jumped on this music, right out of the shoot! . . . that old, Tom Ridge, name . . . Shelley was working for Gumbdrop books, and starting with Scholastic, but all work stopped, when she went to college, for half a semester, right around that time!  In the Green River Killings, the painter at one time, had a teal colored truck, but his murders were done in a maroon truck, might be something there.  But, Rachel (Sarah Palin--bet CIA game!) and Kay Moosman (the cover husband for Kennedy or look alike), also had or bought a teal colored Ford Ranger, about the time I was driving my gold, Ford Ranger, this is symbolic of painting everything over, with Rachel, the closest look alike! or twin, Shelley looks more like me when I am fat, but I have a thinner face, than both Rachel and Shelley, Sue too, but Tiffany and Marcie, have the thinner faces, even though my body is not thin . . . but, the painting is what they do!  Symbolically, of course . . . Kennedy is a Pep Boy too!  Cop, who looks like a Kennedy . . . he would never, ever, go look at, or listen to Elliot's music, either God's Revolver or Maraloka . . . just mentioned RACHEL, he fucking LIED!  Kennedy, I knew he would, because he refused to acknowledge that the RED JESUS, WAS MY SON! Jealousy, envy, that GREEN EYED MONSTER!  LOL!  He has a dick, what can I say?  LOL!

Childhood Similarities Between Brett and Gary!

Okay, most of us, normal people, not the characteristics of a psychopath or serial killer, but we want to know, why?  We can see the proof of what the serial killer did, but we can't get our minds around, the reason, some almost kind, gentle man or women, would, be able to appear so normal, have a wife and children, hold down a job, and then go out and kill women during the night?  I know, somewhat of Brett's early life, and I can extrapolate, from Gary's what I imagine, happened.  Gary came from a family of three boys, mother and father, and was the only one to turn into a serial killer, why?  So, dad, would often take Gary, with him, driving the streets, seeing prostitutes and telling his young son, how dirty, wicked they were, and then in a time or two around the block, he would stop and go pay to have sex with them, leaving Gary in the car, then, come back some time latter.  I don't think it was a happy home, and might have some abuse, but not much.  His mother, on the other hand, was hyper-sexual, wore, mini-skirts, sexy shorts, and tried to be the beauty queen, leaving most of the other mothers in the neighborhood wondering what this mother was doing?  She wore big, sexy hair, and this was back in the early 1950's, not the 60's or 70's.  Brett's mother, was a party girl, clear up to her, well, I would say, until she got re-converted to the church of her youth, the Mormon Church, about the time, Brett and I got married!

It seems like Brett told me, that his dad and mom got divorced, when Brett was young, because, while he was the party boy, while they were dating and in their early married life, he settled down and wanted her to do the same, but she didn't, would frequent the bar scene, she was a drinker, and she was pretty, and the men liked her.  Brett told me that, Deborah was almost like his mother, Kathy was older than Brett too, but Brett, was only 2 when they divorced!  I think Grandma and Grandpa, stepped in a lot, for their wild daughter, and took the kids.  The Mormon Church, took Deborah and Kathy under their wing, and both of them are very active!  Brett, however, claims to never have been involved and into the church.  He said, that he was part of the parking lot crowd and I would never have given him the time of day, and I probably would not have, nor would I have, had I met him at the University of Utah, as a practicing attorney, and left him, as soon as I started to get well, but that did not preclude me from loving him when I was with him . . . his womanizing, was not my bag of tea, tea pot girl got him!  LOL!  Both Brett and Kay were into coffee, tea, and I remember then discussing her gourmet coffee pot at Jeremy Ranch the fatal week end, Easter Vacation, in probably 2005, with me leaving, Brett around 2006, I think?  I am sure that at a gut level, Brett, related, to Kay, Shelley, and the loose gals, much more than he did to this straight laced Mormon, most of her life!  I don't think my kids thought I had a sex life, until I started writing this blog at age 59!  LOL!

Over Familiar with Sex Pot Mothers

So much of our attraction, is at a subconscious level.  I think, the reason, Brett and I, even hit it off, was because of our community interests, with him, drawing me in, maybe on purpose, with his, non-violent communications, interest, and my previous work at the attorney generals office, working always against violence, domestic, dating, elder, child abuse and other violent acts.  When Brett told me he had been a caregiver for the elderly at a nursing home, as a 17 year old, getting old men, dressed up for Sunday in their hats and nice clothes, that made me love him!  I was attracted to his good side and there is a ton of that, but it sounds, like John Wayne Gacy, Gary and other's, Ted Bundy, manned a suicide hotline!  Brett never did, or tried any bizarre sex, and I am sure, he would have known, I would not have gone along with that . . . I do, however, think, that, he would have connected up with Shelley, for sure, on the mommy/son issues, being familiar, with that pattern in intimate relationships, with Shelley's son's being totally dependent on mommy, who had all 4 children from different mothers!  Kay too, was fucking opposing counsel, minutes after taking depositions, and walking around naked with her attorney boyfriend, working on trials, together, or separate, but, working in the buff!  I am not sure what Kay's relationship with her children was, but, I would almost bet my life, that Brett was her back door man, when I was down stairs sleeping?

Gary Ridgway was a bed wetter, for most of his young childhood, and he told investigators, that when he would get up in the morning, wet, he would get in the bathtub and his mother, wearing sexy bed clothes, would wash his genitals, and once her nightie, opened, exposing her breasts to him, making him aroused. We all know, that young boys, and teens, have a hard time keeping their own, sexuality, under control, without mommy dearest, egging them on!  Most young boys, don't want to know their mother even had sex with their own father . . . that would be mine.  Finally, when they all hit, 30, I figured they could deal with it.  But, it seems that Kay, took baths and showers, with her boys . . . hell, I never took a bath or shower with my husband, not until my second husband, and I was not living with my kids, and when, we all lived together in Jerry Owen's home, while Richard or Zeke, built his new home, in Provo, and we took the kids, I never stayed in his bed, slept on the couch, and we never had sex, and that was while I was an assistant attorney general, after 40, and working on the domestic violence manual, but, we didn't want to corrupt our children, so, I slept on the couch, and we never touched . . . we should have at least taken the edge off!  LOL!  Jerry crossed Nicole, and I moved out, that day!  I always sided with my KIDS!  Shelley and Kay, obviously never did, and didn't hesitate one second, in going for Brett! nor him them . . . not my bag, so I bagged him!

The neighbors of Gary's mother, said, that his mother, was always, strutting her stuff, and loved getting the attention of the men, so, why did his father go to a prostitute?  After Gary got married, he stopped killing women for 13 years?  It is interesting to note, that Brett's grandparents were both killed, outside the Eccles Theater in Logan, crossing the road, hit by a car, and that seemed to be a real devastating issue and very painful for Brett.  I think, he may have been in a depression for some time after that.  Interestingly enough, last night, I was watching a history and interviews with a serial killer from England, who was extremely close to his grandfather, and when he grandpa, died, from a fishing accident, nobody explained death to this kid, and he walked in, with grandpa, laid out, in the casket, and the boy, just stood there and looked at the man he loved dearly, connecting death and love, together.  This man, as was Gary, a necrophiliac, or someone who had sex with a dead person.  I don't know that about Brett, nor could I speculate, but Brett was much older, but the death of his grandparents, seemed to severely bother him, a tragic death . . . maybe where he and Kay connected to, because, she did Tort law, or wrongful death, and accidents, generally see that kind of action, wrongful death?  Shelley, living much of her life from 18 on, in northern Utah, may have been closer to grandparents or my mothers too?  I know, that I was shocked, and this may have been part of the identity switch, but Shelley had a picture of me, standing between my grandparents on my father's side . . . I had never seen that picture before, and I was super thin, didn't believe it was me!  LOL!  My journals, my pictures, my LIFE!

 Gary and Brett, much like Shelley, were in the shadows, in high school . . . not involved much in school activities--Rachel, really too, from what I saw, as a married sister.  Kay, on the other hand, was, totally involved, much like me, and maybe that is where she comes in, as the substitute in Washington, D.C.?  Shelley spent most of her life, in her room reading!  One thing, I failed to mention, is that Brett had an affair with an older woman, he was 17 and she was 51! when he worked at the nursing home!  That may indicate, a mother/son sexual relationship, at younger ages.  Brett's mother named him after Rhett Butler the movies star, and Brett is a handsome guy, mother may have been inappropriate?  

I know, several years ago, I came to Salt Lake to go to federal court, and Elliot, and I went to lunch, together.  I asked him, what he was doing that night, and he said, his school or college jazz band, the Assassins, which I thought was a strange name, dealing with Frank, Brett and others I suspected, of being assassins, if not Shelley and Kay, and wondering if Frank was trying to control Elliot, the picture of Brett, at El's concert, bugs the shit out of me, knowing what I know now, predatory assholes, butt fucking faggots!  But, I remember, looking at Elliot, who looked the epitomy of the sexy, LA jazz musician, with his copper hair pulled back in a bun, all black clothes, and looking cool as cool, thinking, damn, if I wasn't his mother, I would dig him . . . Emily, Rachel's daughter, 3rd child, when I told Rachel that, she got all disgusted, and I said, I am just stating that I think he is beautiful, and I created a great looking son, as I did the other three, male or female, they are beautiful kids . . . she was like, ooohhh, incest, no, but I have worried, often, that that bitch Kay, probably sexually assaulted him! or Isaac, got in in both ends, from Kay and Brett . . . no right and wrongs, opens a whole lot of doors to do what the ever, fuck you want!  Which horrifies me, and with cop ideas of NO BOUNDARIES, that is scarier than hell, and that is before I knew about the CIA bouncing buddy for dad!

Beauty is beauty . . . but, most parents, have those lines that separate familial, age, and other relationships, and don't cross those lines; however, one of my boyfriends, failed to ever lay on top of me, when we made out, kissing and such, which, even after I was divorced struck me as strange?  Then, finally, he told me, that his own mother, first, as a single mother, shared a bed with him, with little room for the 6 kids, and he was clean, and so, she chose him to sleep with her, and often she had sex with him, or had men come in to have sex, while he was either pushed onto the floor or in bed with them!  PARENTS, THINK!!!!!!!!  I do regret one time, when I was about, 45, and Greg Erickson, came over, we had sex in the front room, with my son, Chris in the bedroom, around the corner and down the hall, but, I always, hoped that he didn't hear anything?  That would be one of the only, adult interludes, that came close, and I had not planned on that, nor thought Greg, who came over after a basketball game in Salt Lake, was coming, nor did I think we would do anything . . . hopefully Chris was asleep, but he was at least 17! but still, not cool . . .

Devastated By Marriage Partners' Leaving . . . Dead People Could Not Leave . . . That Seems to Be a Real Theme With Serial Killers!

Creepy, symbolic pony tail, on guy, who is sitting on the way to the bathroom and actually, looks like Gary, the serial killer, the Green River Killer! but, he has a tail, half way down his back, with black, bands, about, 10 of them, holding the hair, then, releasing it, then, bunching it up again, then releasing it, as if to indicate, that Brett or the serial killer, would kill, then release, then kill again, then release, then kill again, then release . . . with more frequency, over a long period of time, with a building up period, an attack, then going maybe years between, then, falling off the wagon, and so on!  Gary, was sometimes, killing 5 in a very short period of time.  Criminologists, talk about organized and unorganized serial killers or psychopaths, and maybe some are cyclical, going with the moon, or every other year, or they might have a pattern, that is predictable, rather than just a random act, like this guy. Some killers, may be more methodical, or maybe there are significant, or symbolic days, that, are anniversaries, or represent some significant event . . . perhaps, the death of his grandparents, brings about an increase in anger and this is a release?  I am just guessing and perhaps there is nothing to the comparison, but to me, all the signs are there!  Gary had two marriages, and when he met his third wife, the one he was with when he was caught, it seemed to her at least, that she was living her dream, with her dream man, and that is a pretty good statement, after, 16 years together, with her in total disbelief that the man, she slept with, the man she loved, who was great with her and her family, could have killed all of them!  She said, there must have been, a real someone, she didn't know and recognize, who came out when he went to work!

Brett had, one marriage, that I totally dismissed, back from his days at the University of Utah, as a lab tech or blood runner, which may be scary too.  There was a guy at the University of Utah, in a fertility clinic, who had been to prison, and was swapping his sperm with the fathers, and when this one couple with a great daughter, but who was exceptionally good at math, when her father was, absolutely terrible, but they just dismissed the connection, but, the mother, started to do geneology, and researching roots, and you could swab anyone's mouth, and send it to the lab, and get, the DNA results, and when the daughter's results came back, the daughter had her mother's DNA, but NONE OF HER FATHER's DNA . . . Kay and Brett, who believe in science, until, it comes to proving that they are not Elliot's parents . . . even genetically, two brunettes, with dark brown eyes, do not produce, red haired, blue eyed children . . . Elliot has a grandmother and two great grandmother's who have RED HAIR!  Come on . . . think, think, think, even Isaac the original Elliot, is not their kid!  Anyway, along this line, come to find out, the daughter, was the lab techs genetic DNA daughter!  VERIFY, lame asses, nor is Elliot's Shelley's and Jack's kid . . . nor Rachel and the alleged cop, look alike Kennedy, who looks the most like Elliot, with Rachel, looking the most like ME, but she is not fucking ME!  No, Richard Clifton and JoAnn S. Secrsit, are Elliot's father and mother, and Greta, Nicole and Chris's parents, also!  But, the lab tech, was really good at MATH!  I wondered if Brett, with access to blood samples and such, the delivery guy, and a womanizer, pulled some shit like this, I found it highly interesting, to not, that he was from the U of U! this tech dad!  SCREAM!

Brett, Allegedly Was A Sperm Donor . . . Or is His Wife, Dead?  Allegedly, Brett had a Girl Friend, Who Acted Him to Donate His Sperm, and Marry Her, So the Kid Would Have A Mom and Dad; However, Brett Claimed, that the Reason, He Had Nothing to Do With His Son, I Am Saying Chris--Not My Blonde, Blue-Eyed Boy, But a Chubby Chris with Brown Hair, Looking a Lot Like Kay's Youngest Fat Son!  Kill All Fat People?  HMM?  But, Brett, Said the Grandparent's With Money, Kidnapped the Kid, Really, Their Only Daughter and Baby Went to Live With Her Parents In Phoenix, Arizona?

Predisposed to Kill? Born to Kill? Ripe Family Conditions to Be a Killer?

Many psychologists, have wondered, if kids are just born bad, are born killers at birth, or if they are just conditioned through bad family situations, or predisposed to be a killer, and with the right, actions, or parental role models, they become killers?  The criminologists, psychologists and psychiatrists, who interviewed, Gary Ridgway, said, they believed that some people are predisposed for violence, neglect and abuse . . . but given, the fact that the Green River Killer, got double messages, from both his father, trashing prostitutes, then turning right around and having sex with these same women, created conflicting, opinions on prostitutes, blending, a hatred and a love for them.  Also with his strange, hyper sexual mother, the messages are mixed, making women sex objects, or objects of desire, not necessarily someone's wife or mother, making women, inhuman, and for pleasure, but not really nurturing or motherly, in a way, and the seductive, unhealthy, relationship with the maternal figure in his life, again, caused conflict, then with the women he loved, leaving him, as in his first two wives, stopping, for years, while he was with his third wife, who must have been meeting his needs for sex and love, bringing a healthier outlook on women, even protecting her three daughters and granddaughters from this woman killer, for years!

Lack of love, filled by love, seems to take power over this man's need to kill, his thrill kills, and the loving companionship of a good woman, seems to fix, a lot of what ails, Gary, however, at some point, and it would be interesting, to see, what triggers what Gary himself, calls, falling off the wagon, returning to the killings, to see if it is an appetite thing, a feeding frenzy of sexual sadism, or see if there was some stressors in life, that kicked that need back in . . . the wife was entirely shocked, denied that the man she loved, could do such a thing, until the second, he admitted to the 48 killings, in court.  Then the woman who loved a killer, thought how many nights that could have been her, her children, her grandchildren, and she was devastated! And she struggled with the question, was he born to kill?  And all that brings with it?  I could totally relate to her pain, but not her disbelief, while I loved Brett, and still do to some extent, but for what he has done to my family, but, had we continued to be like we were the first three months, I can see, how she was living her dream, with a man, she didn't think was a killer!  I too was very happy, more so than most of my life, and he was the perfect husband!  

Once he checked out the movie, An Ideal Husband, played by Rupert, someone, tall dark and handsome, as I recall, and by this time, I was always conflicted, due to the fact that dying was always, at that time on my mind, and, in love, I actually, worried about Brett, and through he needed someone, he could totally love without them dying on him.  So, when I saw him, look at Kay, in a picture at her house, standing near a bike, on a trail, I even thought, she would be better for him . . . and that would have been understood, I was not at my best, so, okay.  But, becoming ME, oh, hell NO! You get the package deal, all of Kay, not, Kay's thinner body, and the rest of me, my life, my kids, my career, my everything, including my family!  Good God, what the fuck were these fucks thinking . . . hell, we will just pretend that JoAnn S. Secrist never existed, and steal her whole fucking life.  

You see, I am confident and secure enough, that if I really want a man, I can get one, even at almost 61, still cute, still fun, smarter than I have ever been, better sense of humor, and all, so the men, going to another woman, to each his own, and we seek our own . . . there might not be a match for me?  I have waited a fucking long time and, I am not looking for Prince Charming . . . I had him in Brett!  LOL!  I just simply want someone to laugh the rest of my life with, to take a journey to the end with, not putting pressure on them, nor they on me, to be perfect, just, being in love with who I am, and me in love with who they are, that is it, and, on the other hand, if I don't meet them, that is cool too, because I am perfectly happy alone!  LOL!  It must be that 60's child, in me, I can live in a barn, or in a commune type situation, and be perfectly happy, as long as I am contributing to the world, to America, to my family, seeing they are fine . . . home is where my head is, and that is with my children! grandchildren, but also doing what I am doing!  I don't know that a man is necessary for my life, have had many, loved a few, cherish the memories, but, I am fine!  LOL! So, but unlike, Gary, the Green River Killer's wife, I could easily see, the possibility, that I might be with a serial killer, in fact he told me, in no uncertain terms he was . . . so, on the one hand, I was, concerned, but not overly, seeing that I was going to die anyway, and I dug him, had great sex, and lived in the beauties of nature, and until he cheated, I was perfectly content and happy, even long after that, but I didn't trust him, and I was as worried that he was an undercover cop, trying to set me up for drugs, or whatever, than I was, him being a serial killer, and now, with 26 people dead, cops cause me to have post traumatic stress syndrome!  LOL!

Psychopath's Dream Job, A Cop, Serial Killer! Above Suspicion!

NO FUMBLE ZONE--NEW MOVIE, "CONCUSSION" WITH WILL SMITH, TRUE LIFE STORY, ABOUT HEAD TRAUMA INFLICTED ON FOOTBALL PLAYERS--ATHLETES ARE MORE THAN BUSINESS, ARE SHATTERED LIVES WORTH IT? ALL GOODNESS AND NO GRIEF? PEANUTS MOVIE . . . TRUE CRIME, GUN CRAZY: THE NEW DETECTIVE: (1) "LOVED TO DEATH"--LOVED ONE TURNS PREDATOR AND TURNS TO MURDER--IF I CAN'T HAVE HER, NOBODY CAN--SHE WILL NEVER WALK AWAY FROM ME--WIFE'S BODY FOUND WITH SEVERED LEGS--GOOD TO HIS PROMISE!; (2) "WRITTEN IN BLOOD" . . . EVERY UNEXPECTED DEATH, IS TREATED AS A HOMICIDE--BLOOD FROM FALLING DOWN STAIRS? HUSBAND FOUND WITH THOUSANDS OF PORNOGRAPHIC SITES ON COMPUTER, MAIL FROM GET RICH QUICK SCHEMES, AND WIFE'S WORK INSURANCE WORTH $1.5 MILLION, TOP EXECUTIVE--DO YA THINK? AND (3) "CRITICAL EVIDENCE" . . . WIFE'S BODY FOUND ALONG ROAD, DECOMPOSED, STILL IN BRA AND NIGHTGOWN--FORENSIC SCIENTISTS, PLUMP UP FINGERS THEY CUT OFF, TO GET FINGERPRINTS, FROM A.F.I.S. DATA BASE, LEADING TO HUSBAND, SPOTLESS CRIME SCENE OTHER THAN UNDERSIDE OF MATTRESS, WITH A SPOT CUT OUT OF IT, ALSO FINDING, BLOOD THAT HAD ESCAPED KILLER'S CLEAN OVER, FOUND ON THE SIDE OF TV! WHAT WAS MORE FASCINATING THAN THE STORIES, WERE THE SYMBOLIC SIGNIFICANCE OF THE NAMES EITHER COPS OR TV PRODUCERS USED TO PROTECT THE INNOCENT--MAYBE IN THAT CASE, BUT, SPOT ON, FOR MY CASE! LOL! I HAVE REPLACED CHURCH WITH POLICE WORK . . . HAD ANOTHER STING OP AT THE POVERELLO CENTER, THIS MORNING--COP TAG TEAMS--SHERIFF'S DEPARTMENT TODAY--GUY WHO KICKED MY CHAIR, AND PUSHED TABLES AROUND A WEEK AGO, AFTER A COP RAISING TALE ON BLOG, HAVING POW WOW, WITH A GUY, WHO ONLY SHOWS UP WHEN THEIR IS A STING PLANNED, WITH ANOTHER SHERIFF LOOKING GUY--ALERTED BY STAFF, THAT I AM LEAVING WEDNESDAY? CHECK INSIDE SURVEILLANCE CAMERA IN DINING AREA, ABOUT, 6:34 TO 6:45 A.M., FOYER AND OUTSIDE CAMERAS--WHEN I LEFT--10 MINUTES LATER, WHILE WATCHING STREET FROM BUS SHELTER, SAW SHERIFF'S CAR GO DOWN THE STREET--DAMN, I AM GOOD! A HIT MAN--MCDONALD'S, SEEN SEVERAL TIMES THIS YEAR, TRYING TO ESTABLISH WHERE HE KNEW ME FROM . . . CHECK SURVEILLANCE CAMERAS, TWO OF THEM, RIGHT BY WEST DOOR, HISPANIC OR INDIAN WITH GRAY HAIR, PULLED BACK IN BRAID, LIGHT GREEN, FADED SHIRT, LEVI'S, SITTING ON OUTSIDE WALL, LAST CHAIR TO THE BATHROOMS, LEAVING AROUND 9:30 A.M., I AM STILL HERE, 10:44 A.M., STARTING MY BLOG! IN ONE OF THE "TRUE CRIME" EPISODES, AS IF IN MY CASE, IT IS NOT TRUE CRIME, THERE WAS A STATEMENT ON COPS CARS, I HAD NOT SEEN BEFORE . . . AN HONOR TO SERVE AND PROTECT? AM I OF ANOTHER SPECIES? ALIEN? LESS WORTHY PROTECTING THAT SERIAL KILLERS, PSYCHOPATHS, SOCIOPATHS, THOSE WITH HISTORONIC PERSONALITY DISORDER: (1) PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION, ALWAYS; (2) CANNOT TOLERATE REJECTION; (3) DO NOT LEARN FROM THEIR MISTAKES; (4) WHEN REJECTION HAPPENS, THEY WANT REVENGE--WHERE REJECTION AND THE INTENSITY OF FEELINGS CAN ONLY GET RELIEF WHEN THE SOURCE OF THE PAIN IS DEAD! MURDEROUS REVENGE CAN BE SATISFYING, BUT IT IS A STORY AS OLD AS TIME! ALL MY X'S, DON'T LIVE IN TEXAS, BUT THE MOST REVENGEFUL CAME FROM TEXAS . . . THE OTHER TWO AND EVERY BOYFRIEND, SINCE TIME IMMEMORIAL, OR SINCE HIGH SCHOOL, HAS TURNED ON ME, AND LIED ABOUT WHO I AM! PATHETIC LOSERS . . .

Temporary Insanity or Crime of Passion?

I just watched an interesting, Deadly Women: Ruthless Revenge, these true crime shows are worse than Hollywood could make up!  LOL!  Not funny if you are the target of the revenge, however!  In the first one, a psychologist practitioner by day, is a while ass leader of a biker gang by night, sharing, dangerous weapons collection, kinky sex ideas, and the dark side of her personality by night.  Eventually, she meets a nice guy, who comes to take her up on her ad, to groom her two dogs, and later, the business deal turns personal, with the dog trainer, moving in with the shrink.  But, after only about three weeks of living with this professional by day, biker chick by night, she pulls out a shot gun, holding it up to his chest, showing him her controlling side, threatening what will happen if he ever leaves her!  Poor guy, psycho chick!  So, he bids his time, wisely, and waits for the right time to get out of her controlling grasp, when she is going to America--she is from, England, glad to say, lol, not that we don't have a ton of crazies in America, but, she is going to a writer's conference, for 4 months, giving him plenty of time to move out while she is gone.

Nice, sister, tells, psycho girlfriend, live in former lover, that, her brother is seeing a new love, and the biker bitch side of this woman, goes ape shit!  She comes back from her trip early, to stave off this new romance, that is several months old by this time, with old bow, not wanting her to upset, this pistol packing biker chick and her gang, who really were scary chicks, and he even decides to pick her up at the airport, to keep things cool with her, which, in true male fashion, he ends up in bed with her, and that makes matters worse, because, now she thinks that the relationship is back on, and he is just seeing this as a one night stand . . . think again.  She starts stalking boyfriend and his new girlfriend, who she knew, and her two children, calling, making threats, sending pictures of the girlfriend, walking her children to school.  So eventually, old boyfriend, moves, his new family, to a city about an hour away.  That is not far enough, and the psychopath, will make sure, she stops any future happiness her former lover, has with this new woman, and she starts, stalking them again, by telling them, she already knows where their new digs are!

Halloween night, after, intense planning, alibi, methodical plans, going to and from the new house, with full intent on killing the two or scaring the shit out of them, or taking the other woman, out of her misery, she, embarks on this murderous one hour trip, wearing her scary orange mask, with a hood, covering her hair, and shows up, pounding on the door of the new flat, but, the new girlfriends, man, now, is out of the house at the time, so the woman, refuses to answer the door, seeing this scary orange mask, and hooded, intruder. Finally, a concerned neighbor with kids, comes to the door, thinking this is just local teens being too loud and obnoxious, and comes out to confront, the wrong woman . . . when he rips off her mask, she holds up the rifle and blows a bullet, right through him, knocking him down, and bleeding all over the place.  The girlfriend hearing the commotion outside, comes to the door, to find her neighbor, laying on the ground, with a hole, clean through his belly, laying in a pool of blood, dying!  This practitioner, is now, a prisoner!

Playing with Hearts And Womanizing Can Cost You, Your Life, Even if You Are A Senator From Utah!  LOL!

This is a story, near and dear, to my old home, in Utah.  Back at the turn of the century, there was a young, charismatic attorney, named, Arthur Brown, who ran for one of the two senate seats, in Utah and won, by in part, and a large part, for his liberal views, on women and suffrage or woman's vote--catching the eye of a local journalist, an attractive woman, of standing in her own right, but married, as he was, with two children of her own.  Even as scandalised as adultery was in those days, without social media, the tabloids and newspapers, watched and covered, the apparent affair of Arthur and Ann Bradley.  The affair, cost Ann her marriage, but, Arthur's wife, who had also been, an affair, from a former wife of the Senator, knew too well the womanizing nature of her now husband, and hired a private investigator to follow the pair of adulterers, ending in both of them being arrested, not once but twice, being charged with that crime.  Of course, Arthur got off, as a good attorney would do, but Ann was not so fortunate, but, she was just fined and didn't get any jail time. 

Arthur, however, filed for divorce against Isabelle, his wife, who hit him with about 300 blows back, showing all these love letters she had collected during this affair, and that would be used against him in the divorce proceedings, telling him, he would never divorce her.  They both agreed to go back to the way things were before Ann came along.  But, when Arthur, who seemed, like a wimp to me, when confronted by both Ann and his wife, Isabelle, who attacked, Ann, choking her, eventually, they both, come to Arthur and make him decide between the two women.  Both, ought to dump his ass!  LOL!  He decides, he is going to divorce his wife, and carry on the affair with Ann, however, after having two illegitimate children by the Senator, who was twice her age, he refuses to make an honest woman of her, and she is pissed.  He goes back to Washington for some business, she follows him, gets the office help to let her in his office or suite, and she finds, love letters, yet from another woman, and she is so enraged, that when he walks through the door to find him, she blow him away, killing him!  Good girl!  And, the all male jury, acquitted her of the charges, calling her acts, a crime of passion, with temporary insanity and let her off!  Candice DeLong, FBI profiler, said, had this been another time, another state, Ann, herself, would or could have been a senator! like many, like minded and smart women . . . although, she wasted her time on, loser, Arthur!  LOL!

True Crime List of What Not To Do--To Avoid Murder!

As I have watched, these true crime shows, almost none stop, hitting a stride, in hopefully, giving, anyone, or someone, who might actually, be on the right side of the crimes perpetrated against me, which are legions, I have noticed, not surprising patterns, almost predictable to cops, I am sure, of behavior that tends to lead or tempt people to murder their spouses, of either sex, or turn on someone, they know.  To me, and inch in time, saves, nine, protecting, valuable resources and time of law enforcement, prosecutors and judge, with judicial economy at stake.  There is a poster on the back of one of the buses, that, seems to surface, right after I write, warning blogs, like this one, or the several on what to watch for or avoid, when confronting a wild animal, such as a bear, mountain lion, or moose, but, it strategically, pops up, and says: You Saved a Life Today . . . and that is my goal!  This list, is short, plain and simple, but, it could save your life:

• don't play with hearts . . . lover's triangles, never work!  I believe, it is better to have your cake, but not eat two of them!  LOL!  Divorce, is much preferable to life in prison, where, you will not be with either!  You may get away with it for a while, but, with modern forensics, DNA testing, and other tools, in most cases, especially, now with cop shops, having cold case detectives, you will be caught, whether it is 10 years later, or 40 years later!  And, you should be caught!
• insurance policies, are good public policy, but only, if you know and trust your partner . . . in many of these cases, partners, kill the other person, just shortly and I am going to emphasis, shortly after, a large insurance policy is taken out . . . especially, if there is an affair, going on . . . cash in policies that are getting too big, or too tempting!  It is amazing, what people will do when there is money at stake, even spouses, of 35 years, or high school sweethearts, that you have been with forever!  You don't need to be a psycho, but being smart, is warranted . . . all couples have issues, all have or most have financial stress at one time or another, and all have wandering eyes, temptations, and opportunities, to have an affair, I have had many, even being 8 months pregnant and ready to hatch!  So, as you get older, and the hot flames of earlier attractions and newer romance, turn to lingering embers of heat, enjoy, humor, common interests and activities, join clubs, bringing in new activities and friends, every one needs fresh water, or you become as stagnate pond, with scum on top, leaving both parties, rotting away, together . . . closed systems, when you are young and in love, can work for a while, but, to totally rely on one person to fulfill all needs, is unfair to them and to you!
• avoid financial pressures, be in touch, talk, discuss, get both partner's input on spending, or put each other on an allowance!  Some people are habitual spenders, and their shopping sprees can jeopardize, family security, safety, and eventually, lead a normally loving spouse, who gets a couple in financial trouble, especially if the other partner does know, or agree, that can lead to murder, or the temptation to collect on a spouse's insurance.  Many of these spouses, or even family members, are merely an insurance policy for the murderous, or psychopath, sleeping with you, and when they are no longer attracted, or they find someone new, they think NOTHING of killing you, especially when their is someone else involved and sometimes, the other person, doesn't even know that there are insurance policies taken out on them!  One of my associates, at the homeless shelter, older female, found out that her father, took out an insurance policy on her . . . living a risky life, or on the edge, as can happen, or a rough patch, as Montanans call it, but what the hell, does an elderly father, have an insurance policy out on his daughter?  Jewish?  But, seriously, if she dies, and she is not employed right now, what would he and his elderly wife be out, that they would need insurance for?  I would watch for an honor killing or something like that, if it were my father, and he didn't already capitalize on my earning power, and that of my sons'!  NOT LOL!  Sometimes, murder, becomes its own reward!
• men struggle with this more than women, but, pornography is fucking insidious! and seems to be the start, of psychopaths, going to murder, to serial killings!  There is something about objectifying women, which, I think men, do, without, even being involved in porn, just by nature, they, some of them, see women, as merely there to serve them, meet their sexual desires, as security, without feelings, thinking they have lost their value, if they are older, or not as sexy, or whatever, that women, don't seem, to participate in, mindset, wise, as much, and we can attribute that somewhat to society, to at this point, feminist backlash, I believe, with men, wanting to put women, back in their place, or their place as they see it, leaving men unchallenged, and without having to compete, both from other men and women, in their political, career, or other pursuits.  I am not sure, but, pornography is the HARDEST habit to break!  And it is more likely to break you, before, you break the habit, so if you are not already involved, DON'T START!  In case after case, in at least, two of the crime episodes, I have just watched this morning, pornography, seemed to take, what appeared to be rather good marriages, or should have been good, that had been, for years, and turned it into a crime scene!
• happiness, is finding a worthy cause, and getting involved in it, directing passions, energy, effort, and even finances to that cause!  Too many times, we are searching in all the wrong places . . . in a new boat, a new car, or a new spouse, or when this or that happens . . . often the same patterns are recreated with a new spouse, this guy, and many in these true crime, kill wife after wife, and in many cases, they love the woman . . . loving her to death, seeing her as their only source of happiness, and if they leave, this man is no longer, a man? or something like that?  But, just like in the case of serial killers, Jeffery Dahmer and John Wayne Gacy, who just wanted to keep a person, as sex partner, or even someone to be with, even trying to drill holes in their skulls, to dumb them down, so they would not leave, or resist them, sexually or otherwise, keeping them in their homes, or buried in their basements, or keeping parts of them in their fridge, or eating them, to make them part of themselves!  People need to find other avenues, to find belonging--there are many activities, that can change a focus, get your interests, make you feel better, or divert your attention and obsession with this other person, you may or may not be able to keep, with you!
• I think this is the simple man or woman solution, as I heard the statistics of Americans, having only 5% of the world's population and 73% of the serial killers, I asked myself, WHY?  To, some extent, I think we have lost the focus, on the things, people, activities, that give us the most pleasure, and many times, turn us to accomplishments, greed, power, position, and push us to achieve, perform, be admired, from strangers, rather than adored by our own families.  American greed, I think has something to do with it.  I think we are adrenaline junkies, seek excitement, pleasure, looking to everything outside of our own souls to give us a sense of love, appreciation, or value.  I will have to think about this, but that is my take.  European countries, tend to spend, just hanging out time together.  My ex-husband, went on a mission to Holland, and he was trying to teach the concept of having Monday, night, set aside for Family Home Evening, or a night set aside, just to hang out with your family.  These Dutch people, who were sitting around the front room, drinking wine, playing chess with their children, and reading, looked up, at the two American missionaries and said, You Americans are crazy, to have to set aside a night for your family . . . every night is family night in our families!  We are living too fast, going too many places, living far from our families and support systems, or away from extended families, and wanting too many material things, losing connections with families, friends, churches, schools, and living through social media, rather than personal connections, touch, eye contact, and hugs, with humans, needing 14 hugs a day, just to survive, emotionally and psychologically.

Quick True Crime Scenarios . . . Symbolic Significance

• in this episode, a guy, David Dowler . . . Dow Liar . . . (Brett) told all his friends, he was working with the government, and was a CIA agent.  People started to believe, him, because, there were several people around this particular set of friends, who started, mysteriously dying, and David, seemed to predict, who was in trouble, who needed to watch out, and even told everyone, who was next to die. This story started to look like a Tom Clancy spy novel, with murder, intrigue, and love affairs, or alleged love affairs.  The first person to die, was named, Leza . . . Lies at . . . (Kay) Lisa, seems to be, a derision or different spelling for Lisa, who is also part of this story.  I would venture a guess, that with my son's money, originally, from the fake band, when, Brett and Kay, used the money to buy the Mormon Church, showing up, as the new calendar boy for Christ, Kay the woman caught in adultery, and if you look at the 2007 or 2008, Mormon Tabernacle Choir Christmas Program and Message from, then, I think, President Monson, the whole flavor of the formerly, simple, poinsettia covered, podium and spiritual message, turned to a Christmas snow, skiing and ballet, program . . . Brett is a big time skier and Kay is a ballerina, but, now, it was more Hollywood, and the program, that used to be spiritual messages, turned, to a full blown, presentation, and display, with a fireside chat, with the three members of the first presidency, giving their talks, as if it was a fireside chat, with their grandchildren, even with Christmas stockings hanging from the fireplace?  Remember, Mark Hoffman, who duped the Mo Church, selling fake historical documents, that he, prepared himself, even fooling President Hinkley, Elder Dallin Oaks, an attorney, and several other general authorities fro the church, paying top dollar, for forged docements? yeah, that is these guys.  Brett's parents got a divorce when he was 2 years old, and his sisters, were taken into the Mormon fold, but, Brett, got beat up by the Bishop's son, and said, he was never active, and he asked that I take off my Jesus Jammies, or garments, from going through the Mormon Temple, when we were together.  But, maybe all of that was a lie, and he was active.  I know, his grandparents were very active, and Brett was super close to them.  Kay was also, not real active, got up and walked out of the temple ceremony the first time she went through, and has never been real active, since high school.  So, you have two psychopaths, charming and manipulative, fooling the church, and getting involved, in all facets of church, and around the time, I left Brett, and Kay took my place, as JoAnn or Joann Secrist, having been pretty active my whole life, until Brett, I am sure, they saw, my church records, and figured that Kay, in fact, as Joann, was active, serving as a cover, not only in the law, or from serial killings, but also as active members of the church!  I mentioned in earlier blogs, that Kay's sister, Lisa, got a mysterious genetic disease, like me and she also put on a ton of weight, to Kay's delight.  In this episode, Leza dies first, I think, and David Dowler, tells her husband, Kyle (the name of Kay's little brother) Chandler, that Leza is having an affair.  And, of course, the husband is the prime suspect in the murder of his wife, for obvious reasons.  In real life, Lisa was active in the church, and happily married, which pissed Kay off, with bad blood between her and Lisa, all their lives, leaving Kay delighted with Lisa's condition!  David, who used his alleged position with the government and the CIA, to claim superior knowledge, having predicted the now three deaths, now, in a small circle of friends, with David the last one to see, all three alive!  Another friend, Carrie Middleton, confronted David, saying she doubted, David's CIA fantasy, and said that he was pretending to be a government agent . . . he then, predicted her upcoming death.  Cops, had her wired, and caught, Dowler, going to the car, to get his potions . . . and arrested him.  He had been poisoning his friends, to give him power, using chloroform and cyanide.  Cops searching David's house, found, explosives, guns, masks, gun silencers, surveillance gear, and his home lab, that was the site of where he concocted the poisons. Given the fact that the Mormon Church, has overly strong representation at the FBI and CIA, it would not be unlikely, given the money, contributed, the Christ complex of Brett and Kay, the woman, appropriately caught in adultery, with Christ, LOL, oh, but she is me, therefore, she is his wife, Mary Magdaline!  Good GOD, these two are so SICK!  But, they would have an automatic pass into the highest levels of government through the Mo church connections, and with Kay having my resume and name, surely could get any job, including top dog at either agency!  This set the early stages, for taking over the Brock securities case, during Mitt Romney's run for president, going through the Mo Mafia, to steal all the cases, run me out of St. George, and Parowan, teaming with Mo cops, prosecutors, judges, all being committed to the church, more than the Constitution, and having all the power to stop me from seeing that justice was served, controlling the federal courts, FBI, who attended, the March 9, 2012, hearing, the one, I kicked, U.S. Magistrate, Waddoups, arguments to the curb, with Brock and Rice, sitting on the side lines, as I accused him of throwing the Constitution out of his court room! It was days, after I beat the judge's arguments, on jurisdiction, and trying to get me to start the case over at the state level . . . nice, since, I got the double docketing on the case, March 26, 3012, stating, even after I knew, I beat the jurisdiction argument, 7 ways, but later, learning, the guilty parties, Kay and Mitt, were meeting March 27, 2012, for the BBC documentary on Mitt being a Mormon President for the World!  Nice what my $118 million bought + son's money, and donations from financial planners from all over the country, who were thrilled that a Mormon attorney, saved planners, nation wide, and also, with them being big time or making big time donations, to Mitt's campaign with Brock's office, serving as campaign donation headquarters after the win, ON MY WORK, while I languished in jail, until Brock's employee, Mark Hollinghead, came to get, me, because, Kay was too stupid to finish the case, making it look like the win, having realized, that, prior to going back to Washington, DC to get sworn into the U.S. Supreme Court, with Brock, leaving me stranded, without gas money, in Kansas, for 5 hours, so the fraud broads, who had to drive, because I did, could beat me to DC to be sworn in, the night before, when the roads were blocked, outside the Court, at 9:30 P.M., with me having beat them, Frank and whomever, Shelley or Kay, they are just females, with tits and ass, all inter-changeable! right? NOT!, but on the way to DC, I had filed to killer briefs, one in the Brock case and one in the Cheek, case, January 18, 2012, with my ID on the certificate of service, marking hand delivered, due to my federal e-filing account, being taken over by Shelley, then, blocking me altogether, having to hand deliver! which should be their undoing . . . scripture, set a trap for someone, and you fall in it YOURSELF!  LOL!  RICO, the association, is the MORMON CHURCH and the high government offices that controls! 
• 48 Hours, Mama's Boy: Evil-in-Law . . . If you want a spot on, personality type of Shelley, including her sick relationships with her children, especially her sons', this is the one, that shows, not only her personality, controlling, manipulative, power hungry, money hungry, con artist, control freak, and murderer, or murder for hire, this is it!  While the wife, who looks, much as I did, when, I was in high school and college, with a picture of college, even with the same hair do, being stolen from my St. George home, taken when I was a freshman at BYU!  Over the years, starting with my divorce from Zeke, and going to law school, seemingly the starting point of this whole jealous family conspiracy against me . . . daring to buck the church, the family, tradition and marriage, much for the reasons, I wrote about yesterday, in the blog on the 60's lecture, with me, being every bit of that, to the bone, my family, told me, if my children ever got famous, I would not get credit, and the married sisters were jealous that I pursued a career, and Shelley, single, dirt ass poor, was jealous, I gave Zeke my boys and went to law school, all culminating, when my kids turned out great, and I was going to make a shit load of money, as a trial attorney, Brock, Cheek, Vail, and other criminal law cases . . . that green monster, raises it's UGLY head, and murder has been the envious goal for years, 15 to be exact!  In this true murder, the Shelley personality is always the aggressor, and the wife of the son, symbolized by me, is not going to back down, but, she does retreat, over and over and over again, but the old battle ax, still goes after the young wife, and kills her, worried, that one dime of the family money, will not go to the daughter.  In MY case, Shelley, in true psychopath form, crossed lines, as far back as I can remember: (1) starting with reading all my journals from when I was married to Zeke; (2) I think, she got my law school graduation certificate and Utah State Bar, certificate, from Jerry Owens, when I left him, I left a box of my personal stuff, just because, we were still friends, but he hooked up with Shelley, was pissed about the abortion, about me leaving and going to Salt Lake, dating other guys, he actually got me pregnant to keep me involved, never thought, I would do what I said, I would do, get an abortion if he to me pregnant relying on early withdrawal, with him in control, not wanting me on birth control!  But, I believe, that he and Shelley, concocted this plan, out of revenge, jealousy, anger, envy, and Jerry gave Shelley, MY LAW CERTIFICATES, and Frank, later, tried to intercept my U.S. Supreme Court Certificate, giving it to Shelley too! (3) I believe, Shelley, may have created the poisonous concoction put on my steering wheel, poisoning me back in 2000, having hooked up with, through being a government rat, with first Jan Graham, later, Mark Shurtleff, formerly my boss and friend, then AG, to set up the whole, Identity theft, back in 2000, and again, on the Brock case, and leading eventually to my WHOLE FUCKING LIFE!  But, Shelley had pictures of me from high school, up in her house, in Logan, maybe, presenting the image of me being her, or what she looked like in high school, she had MY 1973 year book, none of hers, and shit like this all the way along, like some life time obsession with being ME! With the government, seeing the Peanut Gang, Shelley, Brett, Kay, my Father, Sue, Rachel, and the Mo crew, as being, ALL GOODNESS, NO GRIEF, and finding out, they are as Christ called the Sanhedrin of his days, Whited Seplecures on the outside and full of DEAD MAN'S BONES on the inside!  Jerry is also, very, very, very, vindictive, and from the first time we met, tried to get me to drop out of law school, after the first year, when I got the highest grade in the class, with my constitutional law professor asking me to be his research assistant! he always told me I was fighting a losing battle, because the Constitution was dead, while claiming to be into that, with us fighting all the time about it!  But, he used to read his scriptures, and underline scriptures, and put a star by my name, as if, spiritually beating me with the scriptures!  He would, easily, now, say that I was Rachel, and through ego, with me not looking like I used to, say, that Rachel was the one, who ditched his sorry ass!  So, consider the source, sour grapes, on all former lovers' parts!  All would lie to get me back and to help the MO church, running the show on this clown shit conspiracy! $$$$$$
• 48 Hours: Grave Injustice . . . there is a Lady Justice Statue in this episode, that looks just like the one, that Shelley, picked out, and insisted I buy, reminding her so much of me, while I was practicing in St. George, the 5th District, and had, $700 million worth the cases, decorated the house, in high style and class, throwing parties for 250 people, Halloween and Valentines, with Judge Michael G. Westfall, holding me in court, on the Allan Rex Bess case, until 1:00 P.M., the night on my party, October 29, 2010, that Shelley took over as the hostess with the mostess, with many guests, because I invited anyone, all thinking this was Shelley's home, not MINE! Later, when Washington County, Constable, and several sheriff deputies, raided my house, taking everything, including my tooth brush, Shelley said, I think, Jean Dickson, thought you were me . . . I am guessing as part of the pay for her services, Shelley got all my new furniture, from the Boulavard, a store owned by my parents, friends, Mo's in their ward, and just before that, all these extra pieces of furniture, purchases were added to my bill, that I NEVER BOUGHT, trying to confuse what was mine and what was whomevers! as I was working out, what I bought, my whole fucking house was raided, with less than, $700 and I think, lower than that, having paid, $350, but with the bill jumping up to $2300, shocking the hell out of me, but, that was right around the time the Egyptian came, and my house was raided, just a few days before, I was to argue the Brock case, at the 10th Circuit, May 9, 2011, when I believe all the deals were cut with Brock and Rice!  Kay may have argued the case, down the hall, with oral arguments, allegedly cancelled, because the judges through the brief was good enough . . . which is was, to get everything without oral arguments, but the FBI cancelled, I saw the email, as the clerk, tore it off!  Kelly Siegler, is the prosecutor, from Texas, who, did what prosecutors are suppose to do, when she was asked to retry a case, of a death row, if I can remember, inmate who had his conviction overturned, saw that the facts didn't support the first case, dismissed the case, making a public statement against the former prosecutor for doing such a shitty job and manufacturing witnesses and facts, to get a conviction . . . my kind of prosecutor!
• 48 Hours: either, Misplaced Loyalty or Blind Trust . . . which is what all the cops, FBI and CIA did, without question, going after me, never, ever, suspecting or questioning the liars, even though this blog has been giving RICO and heads on a platter!  But, if I am getting the right titles with the right cases, in this case, there is an interesting twist of characters and hair color, which to me, was indicative of the switch-o-change-o, making the dark haired sister, look like the responsible one, who invited the blonde, sister, whom she had previously had bad relations with, but this blonde, which is the opposite in our case, has the symbolic name of Georgia, and the sister, who gets poisoned, Jeannie, which is Shelley's middle name, and she has dark hair, but, the roles are totally reversed, son-in-law, Dallas, has a father from Georgia, and he and Greta lived there, but, and if he didn't lie, and say that I was Shelley, and Shelley was me, reversing the good sister, and giving the good sister, which was and is me, the characteristics of the bad sister, Shelley Jean Southwick, whatever?, which many people did, like when they took my furniture, Shelley, said, I think, they, the sheriffs thought, I WAS YOU!  That is the GAME!  Take my great life, family, career, and give it to that fucking bitch, who fucked up her whole life, but was a rat for the government, so they used her, one year older than me, to be ME! giving me her SHITTY LIFE, WARRANTS, SHIT KIDS, while she steps in taking over MY LIFE!  No thanks, I don't respect any of these fraud broads'lives, they are all losers, and I am not envious of one GOD-DAMNED ONE OF THEM, OR ALL PUT TOGETHER--I DON'T WANT THE COLLECTIVE OF THEIR LIVES!  And ironically, as Georgia, allegedly me, but Shelley, takes over, her sister's life, getting the mail, paying the bills, and even answering Jeannie's friends inquires into her whereabouts, it is Georgia, who drains her sister's finances, and takes over her life! and kills her!  Remember, last week, the reason I could not, put the pictures I took from the Halloween Parade, in Missoula, last week, is because the cops, believing Shelley to be me, stealing my Levin case too, where I wrote new law, for cohabitation, and alimony, for Hope M. Carlton, Levin, former, Playboy Bunny Centerfold . . . I just can't believe this bitch, but the cops gave Shelley my phone, from Grand Junction, because I wrote about that bitch HOPE, fucking me over, withdrawing her appeal, where I wrote the GREAT 10 point test, so much better than the former, two prong test, the courts had been using, fucking women all over the state of Utah, and probably the nation, since so many laws are copied from other states!  Anyway, I know, Shelley has been intercepting my messages, I will skip a few days, and see, 5 text messages, and blow them off, for a few hours or days, and then, when I go back, they are all gone!  Or getting the encrypted messages, on my replacement phone, for the one in GJ, with the same number, that should be inactive.  And then, going to get new service plan and days, being blocked, not from using my number, or phone, but from even looking like it is in operation!  But, Shelley stole or sucked all the data off my phone, probably, so I could not put the pictures from Halloween, on my blog proving fucking well, she was NOT in Missoula or at the parade, giving cops more ammo, figuring out, that they  have been defending a FRAUD! and going after, as late as this morning, the VICTIM of the identity theft, dumb asses . . . I am currently, at McD's, with two surveillance cameras, that can see me here ALL FUCKING DAY, but, right now, at 2:31 P.M., I will wave!  So, cops, FBI, or whom ever, is smart enough, to actually use them to HELP ME, rather than fuck me, that would be nice for a change, and in furtherance of stopping a BILLION DOLLAR OR MORE HEIST, what legend cops are MADE OF!  I have a red scarf around my neck, and the rest of me, is wearing black, and I am sitting against the kitchen wall, in the second booth . . . this is cop work, 101! come on, are you all on the take?  PLEASE give me something to be pleasantly surprised at?

I Am SICK of WRITING, So, ON, MY WALMART $ Card, I Am Going to Go Get a Steakhouse Burger, Fries!

FUCKING VERIFY!  THIS IS GETTING FATTENING!