Monday, May 21, 2018

GLOW FOR IT! BEAUTIFULLY EXCLUSIVE. TRUST. BUILT A TRUST BANK ACCOUNT WITH PARTNER! MAGIC & SKEPTICISM. WARRIOR COP DRONES. PIT BOSS. STRIKE-A-FIRE. THE FATE OF THE FURIOUS. SEA OF THIEVES. SHEER BLISS. SUPER LUCKY'S TALE. FAMOUS FIRST FACTS. ALL PURPOSE THREAD. WONDER NATION. THE FRACTURED BUT WHOLE. FIRE TV. EXPERIENCE BUILT IN. THE BROTHERHOOD OF MUSCLE. EVERYONE LOVES A COMEBACK. EXTREME HEAT. HOTHEADS! AND THE ENTERTAINMENT IS FREE! FACTORIA WALMART. REPLACE STOLEN $9.98 MEMOREX RADIO. MUSLIM CHICK. MONITOR SHOWS 3 LEFT IN THE STORE. CLEAR THE STOCK WHEN, I COME. WILL TAKE SOME TIME, BUT BACKROOM HELP WILL LOCATE THE MERCHANDISE. NO HURRY. NICE LEATHER CHAIR NEAR BATHROOMS. FINISH BOOK, "EVERYTHING SHE EVER WANTED" BY ANN RULE. HARD RULES. ANNOUNCEMENTS START DRAWING ATTENTION TO THE ELECTRONICS CENTER? STINK OP? TARGET HAS RADIOS, BUT ALREADY HAVE WALMART LOOKING. FAMILIAR. WAIT TO BE NICE. MUSLIM CHICK COMES TO BATHROOM. LOCATED? NOT YET. OH? ANOTHER STRANGE ANNOUNCEMENT FOR THE ELECTRONICS CENTER? SOMETHING IS UP? SHELLEY'S SECRET POLICE COMES TO THE BATHROOM. FINISHED BOOK! BETTER GET THE FUCK OUT. VALUES OR ERROR ON THE SIDE OF SAFETY. COP GETS IN LINE AT THE DRINKING FOUNTAIN BEFORE ME--DRINKING. DRINKING. DRINKING? RARE. GO TO THE LOWER KIDS DRINKING FOUNTAIN. COP! BUYING TIME? NOT SURE? GOES TO THE FRONT OF THE STORE, LOOKING AROUND FOR BACKUP? I SLIDE DOWN BEHIND HIM, THROUGH CHECK-OUT STANDS. LOYAL CUSTOMER. LOVE RADIO! HAD NEW DEVICES! OLD SCHOOL. CHANGE RESISTANT. PROBABLY WANTED LONG ENOUGH. HEARD MY CALL TO TARGET ANYWAY. DIFFERENT ROUTE TO THE BACK OF STORE. NO MUSLIM CHICK. CALL FOR HELP. MAN NOTICES ME FROM HOURS AGO. STOCKING SHELVES. DID YOU FIND THE RADIO? NO? OKAY, TARGET HAS THEM. GO TO REPLACE MY DIAMOND STUD, THAT FIRST GOT STOLEN, THEN RETURNED, THEN I LOST IS ONE MORNING BEFORE THE LIGHTS CAME ON. NEVER FOUND. LOOKING AT EARRINGS, NOTICE, BASKET OF CHEAP SUNGLASSES, COP STYLE, ON LOWER SHELF, REDUCED PRICE, WITH A SET OF EARRINGS THAT HAD FALLEN. GOD INTEL, ON HOW MANY COPS WERE IN THE STORE, EARLIER? MAYBE. NO SIGN OF COPS. GOOD! PEACE & SAFETY. BEAT THEM AGAIN, FOR THE 1,000TH TIME! LOL. PERFECT. GOTTA KNOW YOU ARE MAKING MY HEADLINES TOMORROW, DUDES! ALWAYS GOOD FOR MY WORD! TARGET RCA, LIKE $32.50 PLUS TAX. VERIFY. VERIFY. VERIFY. CLOSE TO NOON. VERIFY. VERIFY. VERIFY. LUNCH. GREEK FOOD IN MALL, NEAR TARGET. LIKE $11.00 . . . NOW HOW THE FUCK, WITHOUT SUPER SPY GEAR WOULD I KNOW, ALL THESE FACTS? NOW THIS IS WERE IT GETS, WEIRD, AGAIN. I AM CROSSING OVER, WHATEVER STREET, IS IN FRONT OF WALMART AND BEHIND, BIG 5 SPORTS--NEED SOME CURB APPEAL ON THAT STORE, BORING AS THE SPORTS DUMB-ASSES, WHO RUN THESE STINK OPS AGAINST ME, AND HAVE MY MONEY! SO, THEY KNOW, THAT TO GET BACK TO BELLEVUE, TRANSIT CENTER, I HAVE TO CROSS THE STREET, TO THE BUS STOP IN FRONT OF MCDONALD'S . . . TEMPTING, BUT, ALREADY HAD A DIET COKE, WHILE FINISHING MY BOOK. SO, STANDING AT THE CROSSWALK, WAITING FOR THE TRAFFIC TO GO MY WAY . . . THE WALK SIGN GOES ON, AND THE ELECTRONIC VOICE SAYS: "SET I.D.?" AM I HEARING THIS IS MY MIND? NO. THAT CLEARLY SAID: "SET I.D.!" I HEARD IT AGAIN A THIRD TIME, AND I WAS LIKE "WHAT THE FUCK?" NOW THE PRISM SYSTEMS, SPY SHIT, CAN, CHANGE THE FUCKING CROSSWALK, RECORDED MESSAGE, "DON'T WALK!" YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME! FAMOUS FIRST FACTS! YOU HEARD IT HERE FOLKS! WHAT NEXT? YOUNG SPY DUDE, WAITING, AT MAJOR BUS STOP, IN FRONT OF MACY'S. FIRST NOTICED HIS SHOES . . . COMMUNICATING WITH OTHER AGENTS, WITHOUT COMMUNICATING, WEAR, LIGHT COLORED SHOES, THAT DON'T MATCH YOUR SUIT! THAT IS HOW, I KEYED INTO, HENRY S. BROCK,, THE FIRST TIME, I FORMERLY, MET HIM, AND WENT TO HIS OFFICE IN ST. GEORGE, BEING GIVEN A PERSONALITY TEST, PRIOR TO OUR MEETING, AND REFUSING TO TAKE IT, MAKING UP SOME FUNNY SHIT, FROM FORMER, PERSONALITY TESTS, NOT DOING A PROFILE ON ME, ASSHOLES . . . I AM YOUR ATTORNEY, NOT AN ASSET! DUDE ON 3RD & PINE, TRYING IN TRUE SPY FASHION, TO LOOK INCONSPICUOUS, BUT, HEY, I HAVE MORE EXPERIENCE AND TRAIN, THEM, THEY DON'T TRAIN ME . . . JUST LIKE THE AGENT WHO FOLLOWED ME INTO PETE'S EGGNEST, THIS MORNING! SAME SHOES AND DARK PANTS COMBO! THE MORNING CALL WAS TO GO TO ZUMBA, AT AURORA LA FITNESS, BUT, GOD INTEL, ON NEW COOL RCA POCKET, SO SMALL, NOT EVEN LIKE A RADIO, ABOUT THE SIZE OF A CREDIT CARD! SO COOL! BUT NO SHIRT CLIP! BUT MY INTEL GUY, GOD, BETTER THAN, ALL 31,000, FBI AGENTS, AND WHATEVER CIA AGENTS, THROUGH THE RADIO, COMMUNICATED, "SKIP TODAY" . . . ME TAKING THAT, BEFORE THE SPY JOINED ME FOR BREAKFAST, WAS, GYMS OUT, AFTER, YESTERDAY, GREAT ESCAPE FROM WALMART! AND STREETS WITH NO NAME! GOD? WISDOM GROUP SPIRIT SUMMIT. I TRAIN YOU! I GET PRACTICE EVERY FUCKING DAY! YOU GET YOUR SHOT IN THE SUN, WHAT, EVERY FEW YEARS? I NEVER FORGET A FACE! WHO'S WHO IN THE ZOO! PROUD MARY KEEPS ON ROLLIN' ROLLIN' DOWN THE RIVER . . . PROUD MARY, KEEPS ON BURNING! NEWSFLASH, ASSHOLE . . . I AM THE MOTHERING TYPE! CHRIS CHILTON. BEFORE I FORGET, TAKE DIFFERENT ROADS . . . GET A BRAZILIAN, THEN, GO GET BRAZILIAN FOOD, LUSO SEATTLE, IN GREENWOOD! WINE TASTING, IF I TASTED WINE. EVERY 2ND & 4TH WEDNESDAY, MUSIC! FUN COLORS, RED, YELLOW, BLUE, CLASSIC BRAZILIAN MUSIC AND FOOD! I HAD STEAK, COOKED IN WINE SAUCE AND GARLIC! TO DIE FOR! YUMMY SALAD, WITH PEANUTS, AND COOL MIX OF VEGGIES! FUN, RELAXED, ROMANTIC, ATMOSPHERE! WHEN, I'M ALONE, I'M NOT LONELY! IMAGINARY LOVERS. YOUR IN MY BLOOD, I'M NOT A LONELY, MAN. SMILE. I LOVE PHINNEYWOOD AREA . . . I HAVE DECIDED, THAT, RATHER THAN, JUST HITTING MY SAME OLD HANGS, I AM MOVING DOWN THE STREETS UP AND DOWN, TO TRY ALL THE AMAZING, FOOD AND THE END OF MY FOOT, WITHIN BLOCKS! LOVE IT! PRICE TAG FOR, TOTALLY RELAXING, PERFECT, DINNER AND DINING, $24.00 DINNER, DRINK, DESERT, AND TIP, FOR GREAT SERVICE, $30.00! SO WORTH EVERY SECOND AND CENT! PRIMARY COLORS! FAVS.! NOW, FOR SOME ROMANCE 101, GREENWOOD TO SEATTLE, RT 5, THIS MORNING . . . HANDSOME YOUNG MAN, COMES TO THE FRONT OF THE BUS, I LIKE THE FIRST SEAT, OPPOSITE THE DRIVER, SO I CAN SEE, WHAT'S GOING ON. YOUNG WOMAN, I THINK IS JUST GETTING OFF THE BUS, AT THE SAME STOP, BUMPS INTO HANDSOME DUDE . . . THAT BUMP, LOOKS, LIKE THEY, ARE MAYBE CO-WORKERS, OR FRIENDS, UNTIL, THEY SNEAK A KISS, VERY DISCRETE, AND SHE TRIES TO SHARE SOME MUSIC WITH HIM. EXTRA CUDDLE TIME ON THE BUS. NOTHING NOTICEABLE, BUT, SEXY. SNUGGLE, RUB UP AGAINST, A LOOK, A SMILE. HE GETS OFF, AND TO MY SURPRISE, SHE, GOES BACK, AND FINDS A SEAT AT THE BACK OF THE BUS! STOLEN MOMENTS! TIP FOR THE DAY: FAMILIARITY BREEDS, CONTEMPT! KEEP SOME FEMININE, AND MASCULINE MYSTIQUE! I'M GONNA LOVE YOU, LIKE I'M GONNA LOSE YOU . . . I'M NEVER GONNA TAKE YOU FOR GRANITE. IF IT'S MEANT TO BE, IT WILL BE, BABY LET JUST RIDE WITH IT FOR A WHILE!

HACKERS ARE BUTTFUCKERS, NUDISTS! SMILE.

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SHE'S NOT AS 'SWEET' AS YOU THINK!

  • hard rules . . . are you as smart as Amy?  If you can understand this, you, might be able to solve this case . . . I am, Amy!
  • take everything, you think, you know, believe, want to believe, and turn it upside-down, and side-wards, or simply just turn everything on its head, and you will be light years, closer to the truth, than you are right now!
  • some guy, here at the Bellevue Library, just sneezed, for the third or fourth time, that is my "God Intel" for, 'tis you!  He just did it again, confirming, that you think, just hacked, again, at 10:10 AM, 5/21/2018, so he has sneezed, at least 4 times, and that would be about, right, for how, many, main women, are, pretending they are me.
  • who is more powerful, the brand name, TRUMP or Earl Smith, as in, Mr. and Mrs. Smith?  You got it, the brand, everyone, recognizes!  Or law enforcement: JoAnn S. Secrist, J.D. POWERS!  Some new spellings for JOANN, Jowanne, and Johanne.  They are always, adding more and more of me, because, I AM POWERFUL! I STAND FOR EVERYTHING THEY ARE NOT! THEY USE ME, TO COVER THEIR SHIT!  I am the COVERGIRL, who they use to cover them, then, they COVER ME AND BECOME ANYTHING WITHIN, MY POWERS TO BE!  6 IS GREATER THAN, ONE, RIGHT?  Not necessarily.
  • Understanding the true life, crimes of Patricia (CIA) Vann, Radcliff, Taylor, Allanson, and back again, or could be a profile double for both Shelley, my older sister, and Kay Burningham, all found easy, in the Bountiful High School, yearbook, up to an including all, my siblings, but for maybe, Jared, whom, I think my mother, had go to Viewmount High School, but Susan, Richard, Marcie, Rachel, Tiffany, and maybe Jared, and of course, me, the same, year, as Kay, 1970 to 1973!  This shit is so easy to figure out, that, it is mind blowing, that it has taken, the feds, and locals, fucking 20 years to figure out?????????????????????
  • I want to go straight to the charges, that, Pat, got, for her latest law breaking, episodes, that comes after going to prison, for, trying to poison, and kill, her husband, she set up, serving time for killing both his parents--deadly force, self-defense situation, father attorney, who hated, Pat, and, his son, who, tried to make amends, smooth things over with mother, who got shot too, so she could make herself the sole heir of their large estate, after taking alleged, care of the grandparents, parents of, the double murder victims, and her new husband's kin, with the killings happening, just, what, 54 days after the two got married!

HELLO, SHELLEY! SO, NOT, ME! DUMB ASSES!  GOD??????  THINK, YEAR BOOK EVIDENCE, PRIOR TO THE SIBLING EXCHANGE, AND LAW EXCHANGE STUDENT! FIRST STUDENT OF MINE!

  • to learn Shelley's crew, and the way they think, is a mind-blowing, insight into the woman, I really, never knew, who spent her days, growing up, reading in her bedroom, while, I took on both the eldest child, birth order, over-achiever, and caretaker, role, in addition, to the second, wild child role, out of Shelley's abdication of her, role as first child of the Southwick, litter!  My mother had, 6 children in 8 years, added two more, down the road, after, a 9 year break!
  • the WHOLE STORY!  NEVER, START LIFE STORY, IN THE MIDDLE OR AT THE END!  A LIFE IS THE "TOTALITY OF THE LIFE, THE CIRCUMSTANCES, THE START TO FINISH, OR FROM, WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN, TO WHERE YOU ARE . . . NOT, WHERE YOU, LOOK TO BE, AFTER, FUCKING 20 YEARS OF BEING FUCKED, BY THE FEDERAL, STATE AND LOCAL, GOVERNMENTS, DUE TO, YOUR, SUPER POWERS . . . I AM AWESOME, IS MY SUPER POWER!  IT AIN'T BRAGGIN' IF IT IS THE TRUTH, AND THE FACTS!
  • this morning, this, bitch, who, looks, acts, and wears, t-shirts, like CHANGING THE WORLD FOR ONE . . . me, communicating, her beliefs, that it is Shelley, who, writes the blog, that goes around the world and back again, starts, and is paid, I believe, as they all are, to promote the disinformation, that Shelley is me, and I am Shelley, and I avoid the bitch, like the plague, but she moved, her bed or transferred, her space, within seconds, right after the nice, Latina, and her daughter, moved the other morning, so she could be right next to me!  SCREAM!  So, we have wrangled, over, political shit, she is a, Trump supporter, turned tail, in the last few days, with all the new evidence, proving what i have been saying for, two fucking years, the fucking CASTELLANO NEW YORK CRIME FAMILY, IS BEHIND, TRUMP, WITH MY SOUTHWICK CRIME FAMILY, AND THE MORMON MAFIA, THE MIDDLE MAN, STRAW PEOPLE, THE CHURCH PEOPLE, NO BODY EXPECTS, ESPECIALLY, WHEN, 70 TO 85% OF THE ENTIRE, INTELLIGENCE COMMUNITY IN THE NATION IS INFILTRATED WITH MORONS!  EARLY READERS WILL, REMEMBER, THIS LINE: MORMONS, MOBSTERS, AND MEN IN BLACK!
  • so, we, get into, some politics, and I know the FAMOUS FIRST FACTS, but, I don't follow, all, new news, to the finish, line, I just, know, that President Obama, and U.S. AG, Eric Holder, who, cross your fingers, how, he does, might run for president! but, they, did some criminal reform, and, made it possible for convicted felons, to regain, their voting rights back, after incarceration. I was thrilled, not only because, I have always, thought, that was stupid, to tie, the vote, to a crime, or sentence, what the fuck, does, voting have to do with anything, but, maybe, throw the vote to the Democrats, with a higher percentage of the prison population, being black, through, bigotry and racism! who generally, vote, Democrat!  I wrote, not only before, the change, but, may have had something to do with, maybe, bringing, the discriminatory, laws and practices, to the forefront, or attention, that could, have, spurred, on the changes, that were muscled through, by two, other, very astute and mindful, based, and learned men, in constitutional law, to make some changes . . . so, this woman, said, oh, no, Obama, who is not black enough for me, didn't do that, now mind you, she, never even knew, of the changes, until I told her, and she, argued that, being a felon, herself, she was questioned on some aspect of voting, with a felony, here is the state, being from, another state . . . all 50 states and U.S. states are sovereign entities, therefore, with the general rules, they can, do their individual state thing, as long as they don't give people, fewer privileges, than, they, get in other states, due to federal law, the bottom, basement of rights, can give more, but not less, and asking you some questions, before allowing you to vote, doesn't take away your right to vote, but, they may want, information, for the legislature, or a study, as to, what part of the prison population, actually, goes back and votes after prison.
  • she goes on, and on, and I am, like, I think, we shouldn't talk, religion or politics, and she goes off, on this, I AM AN ATTORNEY TOO, BIT!  I finally called her on her shit . . . how are you an attorney?  I HAVE AN HONORARY DEGREE, AND I SAT FOR THE BAR EXAM . . . SAT AND PASSING THE BAR EXAM IN ONE OF THE, WHAT, FEW TO TWO, STATES THAT ACTUALLY, ALLOWS, NON-ACCREDITED, LAW SCHOOL ATTENDEES, TO TAKE THE BAR, CALLING THEM LAWYERS IF THEY PASS . . . STATE SOVEREIGNTY, GOES TO BAR ASSOCIATIONS TOO . . . ARE, TWO VERY DIFFERENT THINGS.  I questioned her further, because, she is not an attorney, and I said, just, because, you got an honorary degree from some college or university, still doesn't make you a lawyer and doing some legal work for yourself, or even others, doesn't make you an attorney!  She storms out of the dorms, in a huff, and yells, I CONTRIBUTED, GREAT VALUE TO THE LEGAL FIELD???????  SHELLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • SAYING YOU ARE ME, AND CLAIMING, ALL THAT I HAVE DONE, IS NOT, CONTRIBUTING TO THE LEGAL FIELD! NOR IS BUYING THE ALEXANDER BLEWITT LAW SCHOOL, AT THE U OF M, BEING A LAWYER, USING MY MONEY!  LOL.
  • here is one of the last conversations, I had with my sister, Shelley, before, being run out of St. George, with a $357.6 million securities case, and a $56.7 million, Iron County Corruption case, and being #2 in the nation for civil right defense, rewriting the law, on alimony and cohabitation, for, purposes of family law, and the list goes on and on, for my, kick ass contributions to the field of law, Shelley stole, took possession, and used, not only my bar number, but, my federal court, e-filing account, and blocked me, by fucking the IT person, and befriending the clerk of the court! AMY was her name!  So here is the conversation, back in 2011, before, the conspiracy to take my HOME, that Shelley, owned, a $35.00 Goodwill coach, and had, four generations of her, brood, living, in MY HOUSE, with me supporting her family, and three members or friends of Rachel's dead beat family!  NO HELP FROM EITHER SISTER, NOR PARENTS, NOR ALLEGED, RICH, SISTERS, HOUSEWIVES!  CLIENTS IN 5 STATES, SUPREME COURT CASE, SEVERAL UP ON APPEAL, WITH JUDGES, WHO REFUSED TO FOLLOW THE LAW . . . PERFECTLY LEGAL TO APPEAL A CASE, WENT TO JAIL FOR 9 DAYS FOR THAT ONE . . . but, here we go, I took Shelley, always, paid, to breakfast at the WAGON WHEEL CAFE', might be able to verify, with, my Walmart Money Card, account, that Shelley, first stole, through, FRANK, who she was fucking while, I spent the 9 days in jail, in 2012, later she cancelled that account, totally, so I could never, get a new card, taking over, all my name, birthday, social security, and Parowan, address, where she was fucking, government, or prison, double, Frank, aka, Allan Rex Bess, the pair, PAT, murdered!
    • Shelley: I know how I can be a lawyer!
    • JoAnn: Go to law school.
    • Shelley: The third year law student rule . . . you can, practice with supervision, of a lawyer, licensed with the Utah State Bar Association, I guess she was going to work under me?
    • JoAnn: But you are not, a third year law student, Shelley.  Why don't you go to law school?  No response.
    • Shelley: Even more energized about being a lawyer, without actually, gong to law school, I can, practice under the "licensed" paralegal exception . . . 
    • JoAnn: YOU ARE NOT A PARALEGAL EITHER.  Go to law school.
    • Shelley: I can just take the bar, without law school.
    • JoAnn: That is right, in several states, Wyoming and California, maybe, Montana, NO, they don't, you can, actually, sit for the bar exam, without going to an accredited law school, and if you pass, you can practice, but ONLY IN THAT STATE!  So if you want to practice law in Utah, you will have to go to law school!
    • IT WASN'T LONG AFTER THAT, SOME, JUDGE, WHO WAS PISSED AT ME FOR APPEALING HIS CASE, USED, SHELLEY, AS A "CLIENT" OF MINE, AND SHE BROUGHT UP, THE "PICK'S DISEASE" THAT I HADN'T HEARD OF FOR, WHAT 12 YEARS, SINCE BEING DIAGNOSED?  FUCK, I WAS TAKING CARE OF THIS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!???????  WHATEVER, NOTHING BECAME OF THE JUDGE'S SHIT, AND I SLAMMED HIM, THROUGH THE COMPLAINT ANSWER!  SHELLEY??????????????  ALWAYS WANTS SOMETHING FOR NOTHING, ME . . . ALWAYS EARNED, NEVER GIVEN!

PSYCHOLOGICAL PROFILE OF A FEMALE KILLER!  GREAT BOOK. ANN RULE!  SHE KNEW TED BUNDY TOO!

  • As Don Stoop and Michelle Berry continued their questioning of the Crists, their physicians, and their other employees, it became tragically, unbelievably, clear,  what had happened.  Betty Crist, had been systematically drugged with medications obtained from forged prescriptions, and she had been robbed of her dignity, of her health, of her treasured belongings.
  • But most of all, she had been robbed of the few months of precious time that remained for her to be with her husband.  as she slept away the days in her stuffy room, through the spring of 1988, her Jimmy was far away from her, and his illness was progressing with those days, taking him still further from her.  She would regain her dignity, her health, some of her treasures--but she would never in this world find again those lost days with her dying husband.
  • Stoop's eyes widened as he heard how entirely changed her (Pat) voice was when she jousted with attorneys--one moment imperious, the next ever-so-slightly flirtatious. . . . Pat herself had continually opened and irritated the wound in her hip.  She had used the emotions of all these people, who feared for her life; she had bent them and twisted them and squeezed bloody anxiety from them.  She had orchestrated it all.  (Shelley told us she had cancer.)
  • This woman had hurt other human beings physically, and Stoop listened to the way she worked insidiously to erode their last vestiges of serenity.  he wondered which was worse. . . . A woman who whined, wept, accused, and predicted nothing but doom.  She timed her responses meticulously.  She was like a cat.  She let the mouse go just far enough, and then she pounced and impaled her prey on the unsheathed claws of her words. . . . Despite her tears, one thing was patently clear, she was enjoying herself.
  • If Tom mentioned anyone but her, Pat grew petulant and gave orders.  "I love you, Tom.  I love you.  Sugar.  I don't want anyone else in our lives."  (Classic abusers, isolate their victims, I meet A, she bribes, A, I meet B, she bribes, B, man, I am with, she, eventually, takes, through, money, and sick sex!).
  • When Don Stoops questioned Debbie Cole Alexander's ex-husband, Gary, he didn't care to discuss Pat either--beyond discribing his former mother-in-law as a "vicious, scheming, evil bitch."  he recalled all too well when, he had been informed that Pat had hired a hit man to kill him. . . . He was still afraid of Pat, and he made no excuses for it.
  • Pat Taylor Allanson and Debbie Cole Alexander where charged with:
    • seven counts:
      • violation of the Georgia Controlled Substances Act, Count I;
      • violation of the Georgia Controlled Substances Act, Count II;
      • theft by taking, Count II, and violation of O.C.G.A., Section 43-26-12. The seventh charge involved the accused impersonating registered nurses.
  • The arrest warrants were next.  Out in McDonough, the household of Colonel and Mrs. Clifford Radcliffe was once again braced for another legal shoe to drop.  Their little girl was now fifty-three years old and they had pampered and protected her for all those years.  Their home had always been her home, her troubles and pain their trouble and pain.  They had sacrificed everything to make her life perfect.  Pat could do no wrong in their eyes, and yet the world continued to hound her.  When would she be happy?  When in God's name would it ever end.
  • (Her eldest daughter, Susan and her husband, Bill, promised after, Pat poisoned, the Allanson grandparents, and probably killed, the husband of Mrs. Crist, they would never stand by and allow, Pat to hurt anyone again.)  "Susan is mentally ill, you know.  She needs psychiatric care.  Both of them have been making threatening phone calls to me.  Bill and Susan are sick people.  Bill called Mrs. Crist, and he has threatened my life--I can't tell you how many times." . . . How many years had they done this.  Stoop wondered, how many decades of being there for Pat?
  • Pat was the big fish whose history showed her to be the dominant partner in all her relationships.  
  • They had relived the terrible events of the spring of 1974 that had led to the murders of Walter and Carolyn Allanson, revisited all the places where the smell of blood seemed still to cling, and believed that Pat Allanson had been right there in the thick of it all--not the shooter, but the prodder, the manipulator, the liar.  The instigator.  They wanted to see all the dark corners of Pat's life illuminated.  They were detectives.  Akins was a prosecutors.  The relationship in any county or state office is--and always had been--both symbiotic and one of natural enmity.  Investigators tread on shaky ground and take chances; prosecutors like to know where they are and they lean toward predictable odds.  Both want to win.  But it might be safe to say that detectives are more philosophical about losing. . . . He (Stoops) didn't give a hoot for headlines either, but he was a hard-liner on justice.  He would remain furious for a very, very long time.  "Bill Akins never should have plea-bargained.  And I'll never change my mind about that."
  • Susan and Bill had betrayed the pack, and the others would never forgive them.  Whatever Pat had done, she had always been taken back, not only forgiven but supported and carried above all of them on arms of love.  Susan had spoken up only to prevent her mother from doing harm and she was exiled. . . . She (Pat's mother) blamed Susan for everything.  The decline of the family had begun, of course, with her treachery.
  • Pat's latest conviction appeared to have started a slow winding down of the Family; its gracious facade cracked, and bit by bit chunks fell off , giving a glimpse of what lay beneath. . . . Warsaw. . . . During the yard sale, the family circled the block--not once but five, ten, fifty times; Debbie and her husband and Ronni, pointed, laughing, and jeering. . . . Why couldn't they just let her go?  (I was followed to Montana, then, to Washington! That is after, they, the family, Shelley, and crew, stole, millions in cases, houses, law practice, etc.)
  • Pat never heard the word, No.
  • Throughout those years.  Pat lied, stole, contrived, manipulated, seduced, and betrayed.  She married twice and even attempted murder to get what she wanted.  She wanted love and happiness, she wanted money and the things that money can buy, and she usually found someone to give them to her.  If not, she set out to get them for herself.  no one else mattered: people were merely the means to an end.  yet nothing she attained was enough to fill up the emptiness in her life.  She was like a vessel with holes in the bottom; love and things and people and money and happiness seeped away.
  • In the beginning Pat got her way because the family loved her so; later, they dreaded her sharp tongue, her wrath, and her temper tantrums.  In the end, perhaps they could not bring themselves to examine her crimes in a bright light, fearing that they too were in some way responsible. . . . only the parts they could deal with comfortably.
  • Every family maintains a balancing act; some members need more attention, more affirmation.  Others are independent or just plain loners.  usually, individuals needs change frequently and different family members become the current "burden" to be kept aloft until the balance shifts once again.  In a functional family, problems, eventually work out and everyone takes a turn at being the bearing wall or the burden.  Pat was never the "bearing wall."  She was never allowed to take responsibility for her own llife.  At the first sign of trouble, someone--usually Boppo and Papa--rushed forward to save her. . . . she played to manipulate everyone in her life.
  • If she was not crazy, however, Pat quite likely suffered from a melange of personality disorders.  She did not view the world or her relationship to it the way most people do.  She knew the difference between right and wrong, but it didn't matter.  She had been raised to believe that rules were for other people and what mattered was that she got what she wanted. , , , It is better to be "crazy" because crazy can be cured.  Personality disorders, die with the host, entangled for life in the brain's functioning.
  • No one knows for certain where personality disorders come from.  Most psychiatrists agree, however, that they are not present at birth but, rather, take root in the first few years of life.  Normally, a child of three or four will begin to understand that his or her actions can cause pain to a parent, to another child or a pet--that other creatures hurt too.  This understanding and awareness leads to the development of the conscience, the still small voice inside that warns humans that certain actions are cruel , insensitive, and against the mores of their society.  It is the conscience that provokes guilt, a much maligned emotion that is actually vital to the survival of humanity. 
  • Still, one wonders if too much "kindness" cannot warp a child as surely as abuse. . . . Put simply, she had no conscience.  That is why she could goad Tom into a disastrous confrontation with his parents.  That was why she could drive her own parents into bankruptcy with her ceaseless demands for money. . . . easy to play games with their emotions and their lives.  Pat had not the  faintest inkling of what they  were suffering.  She had no desire or ability to connect with other peoples' emotions.  Her suffering--even that which she inflicted on herself--was all that mattered, and she used her pain as another weapon to make the people who loved her suffer even more.
  • A number of personality disorders often go hand in hand, and Pat was probably also a narcissistic personality.  Like Narcissus of the Greek myth, who idolized his own image in a pond, she was quite literally in love with herself.  She believed that she deserved whatever she desired.  She was shocked when she didn't always get it . . . by the time Pat met Tom, she had lost the capacity for happiness, if she'd ever had it at all.
  • The true state of Pat's physical and emotional health may never be completely known or understood.  She herself might have been powerless to control it.  But it was among the strongest weapons in her arsenal to exert control over others.  (The interesting thing, is that, when, I was first diagnosed with, Pick's Disease and suppose to die, by, 2002, someone, told me, that, I had been, diagnosed with, Narcissistic Personality Disorder?  The last thing, among, some, I heard my mother say, was, you, always take care of others, and never worry about yourself . . . you need to take better care of yourself!  I thought it odd, that, perhaps, someone did a personality test on Shelley, because, it never came up, in any tests, or mine, never, and that is where, they started to exchange daughters, leaving the one, who always, took care of her own, problems, like abortion, do ya think, rather, than expecting, others to take care, of my problems . . . my mother, also, thanked me, in my divorce for never, burdening, anyone, with my family, and the divorce, NEVER!  Shelley, had four kids from, all but her two husbands, and lived with my parents, for a straight 7 years, and with, Rachel, and me, and whomever, would or could take her!  They say, you love the ones you serve . . . they served, Shelley, for the last, 35 years!  They follow me, and live off me, I am, the Southwick, money machine!  She is the conduit, to pass through, like the empty business shells, that my father, specializes in, putting on the stock market, waiting for some company to buy it up and give it form . . . Shelley was just as empty, until she became me . . . mommy and daddy didn't have to worry about me, ever, so to get, Shelley off their backs, making her me, great!  The family was all about that!  My mother said, everything came to easy to me!  It might.  But, I didn't take any short cuts, never, ever!  I did get everything I ever wanted, but I EARNED IT!).
  • Referring to, Zebulon, the grandparents, of Tom . . . There she could be Scarlett and Tom her rich and blindly devoted Rhett.  Perhaps because her world did not give her everything she ever wanted.  Pat could not stand being herself.  Scarlett had been full of strength, a woman who could stand alone and fight for what she wanted.  In the end, Pat was only a pale imitation.
  • And all around them lay the evidence of the destruction of a family, caused not by the neglect of a child--but by the utter, complete, almost, mindless, indulgence of a child.
  • The only member to survive with dignity was the one they  had all reviled--the one who had the courage to do what she knew was right even if it went against the family; Susan (JoAnn, not to be confused with, younger sister, Susan, who, does, all the church and family think she should do, including, her husband, Kevin!). They all quoted Mary Siler (Grandma--could be Grandma Southwick), but no one but Susan had listened to her words: 
    • What we have done will soon be a sealed book.  If it's been good or bad, we can't change it.  It will stand as it is.  It is sad, for some of us will have marked up pages in our book from many unkind words to someone, or maybe we did not try hard to make others' lives happy. . . .      --Mary Valli Siler.
THIS BLOG, IS MY BOOK, MY LEGACY, TO MY CHILDREN, GRANDCHILDREN, AND WHOMEVER, WANTS, OR IS WISE ENOUGH TO READ IT . . . MEN ARE THAT THEY MIGHT HAVE, JOY, ROMANCE, LOVE, RIGHTS, FREEDOMS, LIBERTIES, PRIVILEGES, PROTECTIONS, BUT WITH THE LIMITS OF THE LAW!  THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION, WAS AND IS AN INSPIRED DOCUMENT, MADE FOR ALL MANKIND, NOT JUST FOR AMERICA!

I WANTED TO SAY, AND CHALLENGE, THOSE HIGH SCHOOL KIDS, NOT ONLY IN TEXAS, WHERE THE LAST, ALLEGED SHOOTING, WHAT IS GOING ON WITH TRUMP, THIS WEEK, OR THAT DAY? BUT, IN ALL YOUR, FERVOR, ENERGY, POWER, TO TRY TO GET GUN CONTROL, TO SAVE YOUR LIVES . . . DON'T MISS THE KEY, ELEMENT, ON "WHY" THESE FELLOW CLASSMATES ARE, SHOOTING AT YOU . . . THEY ARE LONELY, NEED FRIENDS, MAY BE HAVING DIFFICULTY AT HOME, OR IN SCHOOL, AND HATE SITTING ALONE AT LUNCH, OR WALKING DOWN THE HALLS THEY ARE THREATENED OR BULLIED, WITH HORRORS YOU CAN'T IMAGINE, AT SOME POINTS IN THEIR LIVES . . . REACH OUT, EXPAND YOUR CLICHE, BEFRIEND THE LONELY, THE SCARED, THE FRIGHTENED, AND I BET, YOU WILL DO MORE FOR YOUR SAFETY AT SCHOOL WITH LOVE, THAN, ALL THE EXTRA SECURITY, THE SECURITY, THE CAMERAS, THE HEAT PACKING TEACHERS, AND GUN CONTROL . . . GO TO THE HEART OF THE ISSUE, AND THAT IS GIVE, LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, INCLUSION, CARING, SHARING, AND BRING SOMEONE INTO YOUR SOCIAL CIRCLE!  MY MOTHER USED TO TEACH, JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOL, AND SHE SAID, THAT NEW KIDS IN THE SCHOOL, ARE ALWAYS, INCLUDED IN THE DRUGGIES CIRCLE, BECAUSE, THEY WANT TO SELL THEM DRUGS, NOT SO IN THE ATHLETES, OR CHEERLEADERS . . . WELL, WHO DO YOU THINK, THEY GUN DOWN, FOR TREATING THEM LIKE SHIT?  THE GUNMAN, OR KID, SAID, HE SLIPPED THE KIDS, WHO WERE NICE TO HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DISCUSSION GROUPS . . . WHAT WILL REALLY, CHANGE, THE THREAT OF GUN VIOLENCE IN YOUR SCHOOLS?
YOU!
IF NOT YOU, WHO?

BE THE CHANGE, YOU WANT TO SEE, IN THE WORLD!

LOVE YOUR PASSION!
DIRECT IT WHERE IT WILL DO THE MOST GOOD!
KISSES, HUGS, LOVES!
  

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