RHINO BEACHES AROUND. X'S AND O'S, I'M THE BEST BABY YOU EVER DID SEE! SEE COMMUTING DIFFERENTLY! LOL! ILLUMI--NAUGHTY! MONTANA GIRLS! BUS #11, IS A BIT MORE ROWDY, MORE AWAKE, THAN THE 5:45 BUS . . . REMEMBER THAT MOVIE WITH, J. LO, AS EITHER THE HOUSEKEEPER OR THE MAID? WELL A FEW, BEST WESTERN HOUSEKEEPER CHICKS GOT ON THE VERY CROWDED BUS THIS MORNING, THREE STARTED TO LIVEN UP THE QUIET BUS, TALKING WITHOUT TALKING . . . ONE LITTLE HOTTIE, WITH COPPER COLORED, LADY GODIVA HAIR, OF FLAMES, DOWN TO HER BUTT, WEARING VERY SYMBOLIC CLOTHES, BLACK SHORTS, BLACK TANK TOP, WITH THE CENTER PIECE OF JAIL STRIPES, OF BLACK AND WHITE, WITH A PINK LAYER OF HOT, SEXY UNDER THE FIRST SHIRT, SILENTLY RAISES HER ARMS, AND PLACES ONE OVER THE SHOULDERS OF HER FRIEND, WITH A SHIRT, TROUBLE II, THAT SAID, "FLUENT IN SARCASM" DOUBLE TROUBLE WITH THESE TWO, AND HER OTHER ARMS, SHE PUT OVER THE SHOULDERS OF SOME HOT YOUNG MALE COMMUTER WITH "SECRET SERVICE" SUNGLASSES ON! LOL! THEN SHE SMILE AND SQUEEZED THE GUY'S SHOULDER! HE LOOKED UP SHOCKED AND EVERYONE BUSTED OUT LAUGHING! IT ALL ROLLED FROM THERE, HE SUDDENLY, STOOD UP AND HAD TO GET OFF THE BUS! I DON'T KNOW IF HE REALLY WAS GETTING OFF THE BUS AT THAT STOP, OR HE SAY, JAIL BAIT SOMEWHERE IN THIS CHICK'S FIERY LOCKS OF RED GOLD! LOL! MAYBE HE WAS MARRIED! LOL! AFTER HE VERY GRACEFULLY, EXITED THE BUS, WE ALL ASKED HER IF SHE KNEW THIS GUY . . . NO, AND THERE IS THIS OTHER GUY, SITTING UP, NEARER TO THE DRIVER, TOTALLY LOSING IT, AND SHE SAID, THAT IS HOW, I MET HIM TOO! LOL! NOW, THAT IS HOW ACCIDENTAL OBSESSIONS START! LOL! THE JOKES AND SARCASM STARTED TO FLOW FROM THERE . . . OH, A BOYFRIEND ON EVERY BUS, HUH? NOW YOU HAVE TWO, ON THE SAME COMMUTER BUS! I COULD TELL BY HER SLY, GRIN, SHE COULD HANDLE IT! LOL! THE GLORY OF SEX AND SEXUALITY, WHAT MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND, AND MAKES IT VERY INTERESTING. MIST ME--CREAM ME--DEW ME! ONE, TWO--FUCK YOU! LOL! LIVELY TIMES! SEE ALL YOU SINGLE, DRIVERS, ARE JUST ALONE, WHEN YOU COULD BE, GETTING THE SQUEEZE PUT ON YOU BY SOME COMPLETE HOT STRANGER! TROUBLE WITH WIFE OR GIRLFRIEND, ALL CAUGHT ON SURVEILLANCE CAMERAS! LOL! FUN, FUN, FUN! I'M AM TELLING YOU GUYS, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO, IS JUST SIT AND DO, NOTHING WITH THESE WILD ASS, MONTANA CHICKS, WATCH OUT FOR THE RED HEAD, IF YOU HAVE A VALUED RELATIONSHIPS, OR WANNA STAY OUT OF JAIL, TROUBLE, DOUBLE TROUBLE, WITH CUTE FRIEND, EGGING HER ON! LOL! I AM SURE, SHE COULD MIX IT UP WITH A COUPLE OF GUYS, BRINGING OUT THE RAGING BULL IN THEM! LOL! REMEMBER, J. LO, HOOKED UP WITH A SENATOR OR SOMEONE DIDN'T SHE . . . CHECK OUT THE HOT MAIDS AND HOUSEKEEPERS AT YOUR HOTEL, WHITE COLLAR MEN, MAY WANT TO SPICE UP THEIR LIVES A BIT, MORE THE US, WHITE COLLAR CHICKS OFFER, JUST LIKE CONSTRUCTION WORKERS WITH FEMALE LAWYERS! HYBRID VIGOR! GOTTA LOVE THIS AMERICAN RIDE! DITCH THE CAR, THE BUS IS "FREE ENTERTAINMENT!" SOMEONE SAID, "I CAN ALREADY TELL THIS IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY!" I LAUGHED ANS SAID, "YOU MADE MY DAY!" I AM STILL LAUGHING; YOU CAN TELL, THIS IS "BORING" IS NOT IN THIS POWDER KEG RED VAMP'S VOCABULARY . . .WILD RIDE, COWGIRL! LOL! THE ENERGY DRAINED OUT OF THE BUS, WHEN THE 5 OR SO, HOUSEKEEPERS, JUMPED OFF THE BUS, TO TACKLE THE 400 ROOMS AT THE BEST WESTERN OR OTHER HOTELS, UP HOTEL ALLEY OFF RESERVE, IN MISSOULA, MONTANA! WHAT DID I MISS OUT ON, BEING RAISED IN UTAH? SHIT! LOL! ON THE FLIP SIDE OF THAT . . . THAT WILD ABANDON, CAN, HAVE ITS DARK SIDE . . . I SAW THIS MOVIE, "RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!" A STORY OF HOT PASSION, TURNING INTO HOT RAGE AND ANGER, WITH AN INSECURE HUSBAND, FLIPPING THE "CRAZY SWITCH" ON NEW WIFE, OF A FEW YEARS, WHEN SHE WAS MAKING A SPECIAL DINNER FOR HIM, AND HE WAS SUPPOSE TO PICK UP SOME "CLAM SAUCE" AND DIDN'T DO IT, AND OF COURSE, SHE WAS DISAPPOINTED AND SAID SHE WOULD HAVE TO IMPROVISE . . . ALL OF THE SUDDEN, THIS HANDSOME, HUBBY, STARTED, SAYING THAT NOTHING WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIS, JOURNALIST WIFE, WITH A HIGH POWERED JOB AT A NEWSPAPER OR MAGAZINE, LITERALLY BEATING HER TO THE GROUND, BLOODED, BATTER, AND SHOCKED, THAT, PASSION CAN COME OUT IN OTHER WAYS TOO! NOT ALWAYS, IN MAD AND CRAZY SEX, BUT IN JEALOUSY, SUSPICION, AND DOMESTIC VIOLENCE! PHYSICAL, IS PHYSICAL! TAMING THE WILD BEAST IN MALE OR FEMALE, MIGHT BE MORE CHALLENGING, THAN YOU THINK, AS THIS 'TRUE LIFE" WOMAN, WRITING HER STORY, EXPOSED . . . THERE WAS A UNIQUE APPROACH, THAT THIS WOMAN TOOK, IN ESCAPING HER ABUSIVE LOVER AND HUSBAND OF 9 YEARS, NEVER SEEING HERSELF AS AN ABUSED WOMAN, DUE TO HER HIGH LEVEL OF EDUCATION, HER EARNING POWER, BUT STILL CAUGHT IN THE CYCLE OF VIOLENCE, BELIEVING, THAT SHE COULD HANDLE THIS MAN, UNTIL, SHE HAD A CHOICE, GIVEN HIS ENDLESS PURSUIT OF HER, EVEN TRACKING HER DOWN, IN ANOTHER COUNTRY, GOING FROM CANADA TO AMERICA, WITH HIM, HIRING A HIT MAN, TO TAKE HER OUT, TO PAY HER BACK FOR TAKING HIS TWO DAUGHTERS, AND MOVING TO AN UNDISCLOSED LOCATION AGAINST COURT ORDERS. SHE GOES TO PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR, ASKING HIM, HAVING EXHAUSTED THE COPS, WHO DIDN'T HELP MUCH IN EITHER CANADA AND AMERICA, HUSBAND WAS POLITICALLY, VERY CONNECTED, CAME FROM A WEALTHY FAMILY, AND HE HAD ALSO, MOLESTED HER OLDEST DAUGHTER, SO SHE WAS DOING WHAT SHE NEEDED TO, WITHOUT LEGAL AND LAW ENFORCEMENT PROTECTION, TURNING TO PRIVATE SOURCES . . . THE INVESTIGATOR, DIDN'T PULL ANY PUNCHES, HE JUST SAID, IT IS EITHER YOU OR HIM! HE WILL NOT STOP UNTIL HE KILLS YOU, SO HE CAN GET HIS DAUGHTERS BACK, OR, YOU HAVE TO GET A NEW IDENTITY, FOR YOU AND YOUR DAUGHTERS, WHO WERE JUST HITTING THEIR TEENS, AND STARTING TO REBEL, AND WANT TO BE WITH FRIENDS, MORE THAN MOM! THE TV MOVIE, DID A GOOD JOB, OF SHOWING THE WOMAN, LEAVING THE PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR'S OFFICE, WHERE, NOW THERE WERE TWO OF HER, ONE WHO TOOK THE PATH OF KILLING HER HUSBAND, AND THE OTHER, TAKING THE PATH OF OBTAINING A NEW IDENTITY! THE MOVIE SPLIT TIME, GOING BACK AND FORTH, WITH EACH CHOICE AND WHERE THAT WOULD LAND HER AND HER DAUGHTERS, YOU ARE NOT SURE WHICH CHOICE SHE IS GOING TO TAKE . . . WHEN ALL WAS SAID AND DONE, SEEING PRISON AND NEVER SEEING HER DAUGHTERS AGAIN, SHE OPTED FOR, GOING INTO HIDING, WITH NEW IDENTITIES, IN A NEW PLACE, LEAVING EVERYTHING, THEY KNEW AND LOVED, FAMILY, FRIENDS, WORK, LITERALLY "RUNNING FOR HER LIFE" ENTERING A PROGRAM, FOR VICTIMS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT, KIND OF LIKE THE WITNESS PROTECTION PROGRAM, OR AN UNDERGROUND OPERATION, MUCH LIKE THE NORTH, USED TO HELP SLAVES, ESCAPE SLAVERY AND POWERFUL, PLANTATION OWNERS IN THE SOUTH, DURING THE CIVIL WAR! IN THE END, THE WOMAN, WAS REFURBISHING AN OLDER HOME, UP NEAR A REMOTE LAKE, WATCHING HER DAUGHTERS, PLAY, INNOCENT, LAUGHING, IN THEIR, ALMOST PRIVATE LAKE, SOMEWHERE, WHILE SHE WROTE HER BOOK, EVEN HAVING TO LEAVE A JOB SHE LOVED! I TOOK NOTE, THAT THE VERY SAVVY, SMART, PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR, SEEING, THE PERIL THIS WOMAN AND HER DAUGHTERS, WOULD FACE, IF THEY DIDN'T RUN FOR THEIR LIVES, BUT HE SAID, YOU HUSBAND, IS JEALOUS OF YOU, JEALOUS OF YOUR JOB, AND JEALOUS OF YOUR FAMILY! INTERESTING, SO HIS GOAL IS TO TAKE EVERYTHING FROM HER, INCLUDING HER LIFE! THERE WERE SOME INTERESTING, THOUGHTS THAT CAME OUT IN THE MOVIE, THAT EVEN A SEASONED, ATTORNEY, HAVING AT ONE POINT IN MY CAREER, HAD NOT THOUGHT OF, LIKE THAT . . . HE WAS SIMPLY JEALOUS OF YOUR LIFE! I HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD, THE "WHY?" I GOT EVERYTHING ELSE, THE JEALOUSY OVER, THINKING THERE IS ANOTHER GUY, OR JEALOUS OF HER TIME, OR EVEN WANTING POWER & CONTROL OVER HER, RIGHT OR WRONG, OF COURSE, WRONG, BUT, I GET THAT . . . BUT, BEING JEALOUS OF HER LIFE, HER JOB, HER FAMILY, HER EVERYTHING? YEAH. JUST SOME THOUGHTS, ON THIS VERY CRITICAL, LIFE THREATENING SOCIAL ILL, THAT, IF NOTHING ELSE, WE NEED TO KNOW, WHY, SO WE CAN COMBAT IT! KNOWLEDGE IS POWER! WE NEED MORE POWER IN THIS AREA! I TOOK A FEW NOTES, THAT LAW SCHOOL THING IS HARD TO KILL! I CAN'T READ OR WATCH WITHOUT EITHER UNDERLINING OR NOTING INTERESTING NEW INFORMATION, OR AFFIRMING PREVIOUS THOUGHTS AND IDEAS, THAT WILL BE AND ARE NEW TO A READER, MALE OR FEMALE ABUSERS AND VICTIMS, MIGHT LEARN, UNDERSTAND OR SEE HOW GRAVE THEIR SITUATION IS! I RAN FOR MY LIFE!

The Average Woman, Professional or Not, Will Be Beaten, Severely, 8 to 9 Times, Before, She Ever Leaves Her Abuser!  There Were As Many Women Killed by Husbands, Boyfriends and Lovers, as There Were, Men Who Died In Vietnam--58,000 Over a 10 Year Period!  80% of the Young Men, Serving Time in Prison, are There For Killing, their Mother's Abuser!  These are Stats from Back in 1996, When I Wrote a Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault Manual, Award Winning, Under the First Clinton, Presidency!  LOL!  So, Things, Hopefully are Better Now, but I Have My Doubts?

• he doesn't feel like a man, unless he is beating you up
• he will move heaven and earth to find you and his children
• in response to his regret and apology, the first time he beat her up . . . I love you, I don't know what made me do that . . . her response . . . we express our love, very differently
• there is professional help, to make you disappear; you have to escape!
• he sees himself as NOTHING without you . . . it is literally, you or him!
• he is fueled by the NEED to DESTROY you!
• THE MORE YOU FIGHT BACK, THE MORE HE FIGHTS!
• this is why, at times, getting a order of protection or protective order, forcing him to stay away from you, you might be writing your own, death warrant, or trip to the morgue
• restraining orders are worthless, they are civil orders and cops will not walk across the street to enforcement, they only work if you have a law abiding guy or gal!
• there has to be some citizenship, respect for the law, without a corrupt system helping the man or woman, who is the abuser, to work, or they have to have some FEAR of the law!
• if your abuser, does not fall into one of these categories, YOU ARE ADDING FUEL TO THE FIRES OF RAGE, MAKING HIM OR HER MORE DETERMINED TO KILL YOU, PUTTING YOUR OUT OF THEIR MISERY!
• sometimes, the only option you have, is to RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!
• no house, no job, no case, no friend, no comfort, no lifestyle, is worth risking you or your children's lives!
• no one said, life would be fair, and it sure as hell is not!
• watching true crimes shows helps, because you can at least say, when all is said and done, I AM STILL ALIVE! that poor sap, is not!
• KIDS, TAKE THEIR CUES FROM MOM!  YOU CANNOT LET GUILT RUIN YOUR CHANCES OF SURVIVAL!  KIDS DID NOT ASK FOR THIS, BUT YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE, NEITHER DID YOU, ASK FOR IT!  Every relationship, is like playing Russian Roulette!  I have heard of women, who dated the nicest guy, for six years, and then they got married, and he started to beat the shit out her!  NO WARNING SIGNS!  Generally, a family tradition!
• the more secure mom is, the more secure the kids will be and feel
• you have, no other option, that to cut off all ties and contact with your previous life, leaving it all, and starting over, as hard and unfair as that seems, it is better than the alternative!
• I went an entire year, without calling my kids, or grand kids, because, I didn't want them and their lives to be at risk . . . the mother made a great comment, that just knowing her kids were okay, or that they were happy, was the energy she needed to survive her ordeal.
• when the woman, in the true story, finally decided to go into hiding, wigs, new ID, new names, new city, and the woman, hesitated and just could see, leaving before her daughter, who had just won a big part in the school play, got the opportunity, to perform, budding little actress . . . he responded by saying:
• I don't want to go to the funeral of a woman, who stayed just one day too long!
• the private investigator, was the one, who saw that she had a hit man after her, and he told her, even if this guy didn't do it, another guy would, be, right there to replace him!

I AM NOT OUT OF THE WOODS YET, AND IF THIS WOMAN, THINKS IT IS BAD, TO NOT HAVE LAW ENFORCEMENT SUPPORT, TRY HAVING THEM HELP YOUR HUSBAND!  THERE WAS ANOTHER STING OP, THWARTED BY ME, LAST NIGHT, AT THE POVERELLO CENTER!  I DON'T HAVE ONE ABUSER, I HAVE THE WHOLE FUCKING AMERICAN SYSTEM OF COPS, INVOLVED, IN GOING AFTER ME AND MY KIDS!

HE WAS JEALOUS OF ME, JEALOUS OF MY VERY COOL KIDS, JEALOUS OF MY JOBS AND HISTORY, FIGHTING AGAINST LAW ENFORCEMENT, JEALOUS OF ANYTHING, I HAD, HOUSES, TRUCKS, CARS, EVEN GETTING MY MAKE-UP STOLEN, YESTERDAY, MENTIONING THAT, WHILE HOMELESS, NO ONE GUESSES, BECAUSE I ALWAYS PUT ON MAKE-UP . . . GONE IN A FLASH!  HE IS JEALOUS OF MY EXTENDED FAMILY, JOBS, RESUME, EVEN WANTS TO TAKE THE LOYALTY OF MY CHILDREN, AND CLAIM MY GRAND KIDS AS HIS OWN!  ROCK STAR, POP STAR SONS, MILITARY, BRILLIANT DAUGHTERS, PERFECT FAMILY!!!!  OH, YEAH, I REMEMBER HIM TELLING ME THAT MY CHILDREN WERE "ASSETS" TO ME . . . A VERY CIA THING TO SAY, AND I HAD NEVER TALKED MUCH TO HIM ABOUT MY KIDS, THINKING I WAS TILL DYING, AND WANTING TO PROTECT THEM AS MUCH AS I COULD!  HE WAS JEALOUS OF MY LAW DEGREE, MY CAREER, MY RESUME . . . SO HE TRIED TO CHEAPEN IT, MAKE EVERYONE LAWYERS, MAKE EVERYONE ME, THEN, TRY TO MAKE ME, NOT ME!  GO FIGURE, NOW THAT IS JEALOUSY . . . THAT GREEN MONSTER, TWIN SISTER, ENVY!  ONE OF THE TEN COMMANDMENTS . . . DON'T COVET, OR WANT WHAT YOUR NEIGHBOR HAS OR YOUR WIFE EITHER!

THEN, ON TOP OF THAT, X3, EX'S WI
THE SAME JEALOUSIES AND CONNECTIONS TO LAW ENFORCEMENT, CHURCH, POLITICAL CONNECTIONS, AND ACCESS, ACCESS, ACCESS TO MY BLOG, THE DARK WEB, DEEP INTERNET, AND THE NSA, WILLING TO DO WHATEVER .  . . UNDER THE GUISE THAT I AM A THREAT TO NATIONAL SECURITY, THE WA OF ALL "WA'S!"

I HAVE HONED MY SKILLS, USED MY LAW DEGREE, PERFECTED MY ART OF WRITING, WITH MY OWN STYLE, JUST LIKE I DID WITH MY LAWSUITS, WHEN ATTORNEYS FROM ALL OVER THE COUNTRY PAID TO READ MY FUN BRIEFS, ON BORING TOPICS, SECURITIES, AND SUCH . . . THIS SPY, HUBBY, MAY HAVE BEEN TRAINED AT HARVARD, YALE, STANFORD, BUT HAS BEEN BEATEN BY A BRIGHAM YOUNG UNIVERSITY LAW SCHOOL GRAD . . . THAT IS WHERE, KAY COMES IN, SHE DID TOO, EASY REPLACEMENT?  NOT REALLY, AND HE KNOWS THAT!  HE DIDN'T LOVE HER ENOUGH TO KILL HER!  HE WASN'T JEALOUS OF HER!  TOO BAD FOR ME!  LOL!

MIST ME--CREAM ME--DEW ME!

ONE TWO, FUCK YOU!

LOL!