THE GRINDMA! "MOM, WHEN ARE YOU STARTING A BAND?"--ELLIOT. CHECK OUT THIS VIDEO ON YOUTUBE! I KNEW ELLIOT, MY ROCK STAR SON, "GOD'S REVOLVER" AND "THE DITCH & THE DELTA", JUST CUT THREE NEW DEMOS, WAS IN THE CIA! ENCRYPTED MESSAGES--I LEFT A MESSAGE ON HIS CELL PHONE, TOLD HIM, I WAS GOING OUT TO ROUND UP, MONTANA, TO DROP CALVES WITH A COWBOY, AND HE RESPONDS, BY ASKING ME WHEN I WAS STARTING A BAND? LOL! AS USUAL, I RESPONDED, WITHOUT READING THE NEXT LINE, OR AT THE TIME, DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THIS MAN OF FEW WORDS WAS TELLING ME TO DO! LOL! MY SONS ARE MYSTERIES TO ME: (1) BECAUSE THEY REFUSED TO TALK TO ME WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG--NO NEED, "WE KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, AND YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT US!" OH, YEAH, WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME? YOUR AN ATTORNEY, AND GREW UP IN BOUNTIFUL. OH, THE SUM TOTAL OF MY LIFE! LOL! 20 YEARS LATER, THAT SAME SON, CHRIS, SAID THIS, HE, ASKED ME WHERE I WAS BORN! KIND OF BASIC SON . . . ELLIOT, AT 12 OR 13, RESPONDED TO MY QUESTION, IF HE HEARD ABOUT THE GIRL AND HER FRIEND, WHO KILLED THE MOTHER OF ONE OF THE GIRLS, JUST THAT MORNING, CHOKED HER WITH HER OWN BATHROBE, AS SHE DROVE THEM TO SCHOOL, LATER, DUMPING HER BODY IN THE JORDAN RIVER?, AND HE SAID YES, AFTER 64 OTHER QUESTIONS, TRYING TO GET HIM TO TALK, TO ENGAGE IN A CONVERSATION WITH ME, AND HE, JUST, SMILED THIS CUTE LITTLE GRIN, WITH A GLINT IN HIS, MISGEIVOUS EYES, TURNED AND LOOKED AT ME, AND SAID, "TOO MANY QUESTIONS," FOLLOWED BY A SMILE. REAL FUNNY ELLIOT! (2) MEN ONLY SPEAK 2,000 WORDS A DAY, TO A WOMEN'S 7,000, SO BOYS, PROBABLY SAY, HALF OF THAT, ABOUT 1,000 A DAY, AND THEY TALK TO EITHER THEIR SIBLINGS, FRIENDS, OR WHEN OLDER, THEIR GIRLFRIENDS! NOT THEIR MOM! (3) WHEN MY PERFECT LITTLE FAMILY OF SIX, DAD & MOM, TWO GIRLS, TWO BOYS, SAME SEX SIBLINGS TO KEEP EACH OTHER ENTERTAINED ON FAMILY VACATIONS AND OUTINGS, SO THE PARENTS, COULD TALK, HAVING THE KIDS, IN A CONTAINED ENVIRONMENT, ON A VACATION, DURING MY SONS' YOUNGER YEARS, MOM AND DAD, CARRIED ON ADULT, INTELLECTUAL CONVERSATIONS, IN THE FRONT OF OUR ORANGE AND WHITE, VOLKSWAGEN BUS, WHILE THE GIRLS, GRETA & NICOLE, TALKED "PIG LATIN," TO EACH OTHER, SO THEIR PARENTS DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THEY WERE SAYING ABOUT US, FOR TWO YEARS, AND THE BOYS, CHRIS & ELLIOT, WRESTLED, LIKE TWO BEAR CUBS, IN THE VERY BACK OF THE VAN, IN THE DAYS BEFORE, KIDS UP TO AGE 8, HAD TO BE STRAPPED INTO CAR SEATS, LEAVING, THE BOYS, LANGUAGE FORMING YEARS, DURING THEIR FORMATIVE YEARS, TO HEAR, ONLY PIG LATIN, BETWEEN WRESTLING IN THE BACK OF THE VW BUS, OUT OF THE ARM LENGTH OF MOM OR DAD, DEPENDING ON WHICH ONE WAS DRIVING, AND OUT OF EAR SHOT, OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE BEING SPOKEN, IN THE FRONT OF THE VAN! (4) BY THE TIME, MY SONS, HIT THEIR TEENS, THE BOYS DON'T WANT YOU, PARENTS, OF EITHER SEX, TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE UP TO! SIBLING SILENCE WAS "THE RULE OF LAW" FOR A FEW YEARS (5) BY THE TIME YOU CAN RELATE TO YOUR SONS, THEY HAVE SWITCHED LOYALTY, FROM MOM--SWEET 6 YEAR OLD ELLIOT, JUST LEARNING TO READ, READING THROUGH ALL THE VALENTINE HEART CANDY, UNTIL HE FOUND, "BE MINE!", MELTING MOM'S HEART, TO THIS DAY . . . WITH THOSE TENDER LOVES AND KISSES, GOING TO THE OTHER WOMEN IN THEIR LIVES! THE GIRLFRIENDS AND WIVES, GET TOP BILLING, AND MOM IS BUMPED TO SECOND CHAIR! LOL! JUST LIKE IT SHOULD BE . . . SCRIPTURE, "A MAN, SHALL, LEAVES HIS FATHER AND MOTHER, AND CLEAVE UNTO HIS WIFE!" MY SON TAUGHT ME THAT IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS, ESPECIALLY WHEN THIS VERY PROTECTIVE DADDY, CHRIS, SAID, IN RESPONSE TO HIS NEW BOUNCING BABY GIRL, BEING GRANDMA'S BABY, AND HE SAID, "NO, MOM, SHE IS OUR BABY." WE'LL SEE . . . PARENTS WANTED A PRINCESS, GRANDMA A COWGIRL! "Y" IS ONE WILD LITTLE THING, JUST LIKE GRANDMA LIKES A GAL TO BE, GIVING BOTH PARENTS A RUN FOR THEIR MONEY. GRAMMA LOVES YOU! LOL! TAKE IT TO YOUR DADDY, HE DESERVES IT! LOL! (6) THERE IS HOPE, FOR LEARNING ABOUT YOUR SONS, THROUGH THE SISTER/BRO NETWORK! LOL! THAT IS WHERE I GET 90% OF MY INFORMATION--STILL! LOL! I DON'T HAVE TO DO MENTAL GYMNASTICS TO UNDERSTAND WHERE THE GIRLS ARE COMING FROM, SAME SEX KIDS, THE GIRLS TELL ME EVERYTHING THEY CAN FERRET OUT OF THEIR BROTHERS, AND WE CAN TALK FOR HOURS! LOL! EVEN THE GIRLS WONDER WHY THEIR BROTHERS DON'T CALL THEM MUCH--THEY WERE RAISED BY YOUR FATHER--THAT SAYS IT ALL! LOL! (7) THE BOYS, NEED A MALE INFLUENCE IN THEIR LIVES, BECAUSE THEY CAN RELATE TO MEN, NONE OF THIS "MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN FROM VENUS" STUFF, LOST IN TRANSLATION! ONE TIME AT THANKSGIVING, NEITHER, ME, NOR THE KIDS, WANTED TO CALL THEIR DAD, TO SEE IF HE AND HIS NEW WIFE, JUST TWO YEARS OLDER THAN, MY DAUGHTER(S), WHO DIDN'T GET ALONG WITH NEW WIFEY, NEITHER ONE OF THEIR PARENTS, GOT MARRIED FOR 13 YEARS, SO IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH LOYALTY TO MOM, JUST DAD IS OF FEW WORDS, TOO . . . SO LIKE IN THE OLD, RICE CRISPY COMMERCIAL, WITH THREE YOUNG RED HEADED BOYS, TRYING A NEW CEREAL, SAY . . . "I KNOW, LET'S MAKE MIKEY DO IT!" TASTE THE CEREAL . . . WE ALL ELECTED, THE YOUNGEST KID, IN THE FAMILY, ELLIOT, TO CALL HIS DAD. HE DID, SAID, "OKAY," AND HUNG UP! LOL! WE ALL LOOKED AT EACH OTHER IN SHOCK, AND SAID, HOW COULD YOU SAY ANYTHING IN ONE WORD . . . ELLIOT, "ME AND DAD, UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER!" LOL! (8) CHRIS, NOW A GROWN MAN, IS THE ONLY PERSON, WHO I KNOW, THAT HAS GONE HEAD TO HEAD, WITH MOM, IN A POLITICAL ARGUMENT, AND SURVIVED . . . "HOW DARE HE HAVE AN OPINION!" LOL! I AM NOT USED TO THIS FROM HIS OLDER SISTERS, WHO KNOW MOM LIVES AND BREATHES, TO ARGUE, BECAUSE, THEY HAVE ATTEMPTED, ONCE OR TWICE THROUGH EMAILS, AND GOT A 5 PAGE SLAM, IN RETURN FOR THEIR ONE PARAGRAPH! PUTTING NICOLE IN TEARS, CALLING, LAUGHING OLDER SISTER FOR COMFORT! LOL! IN SHOCK, AT CHRIS, VOTED "MOST LIKELY TO BE AN ATTORNEY", ALREADY DEADLY, IN HIS 6TH GRADE CLASS, NEVER SHOWED THIS ARGUMENTATIVE SIDE OF HIMSELF, TO ME, SO, I GOT PISSED AND HUNG UP THE PHONE ON HIM, THE FIRST TIME HE OFFERED A COUNTERATTACK AND ARGUMENT, AND TOLD HIM TO "GET ANOTHER MOTHER!" AS I SLAMMED THE PHONE DOWN ON HIM! THE NEXT DAY, I CAME TO MY SENSES, AND TOLD HIM, I WAS SORRY, THAT WAS VERY IMMATURE OF ME, AND HE SAID, "I WAS LOOKING IN THE WANT ADS FOR ANOTHER MOTHER." LOL! I SAID, JUST DON'T LISTEN TO ME, WHEN I GET LIKE THAT, AND HE SAID, "I NEVER DID!" LOL! SMART ASS! (9) YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT RESPONSE YOU ARE GOING TO GET WITH SONS YOU THINK YOU KNOW, I SAID, "ALL OF YOU KIDS HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH, ME THAN, YOU DO WITH, YOUR DAD." CHRIS SAID, "I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT . . . I HATE BOTH OF MY PARENTS!" HOW RUDE . . . THIS HACK COMEDIANSHIP, IS GOING A LITTLE TOO FAR SON! LOL! THANK GOD FOR DAUGHTERS! LOL! AT LEAST I CAN RELATE TO THEM . . . ONCE THE BOYS MATURE, THEY ARE ALL ABOUT, RELATING TO MEN! THE ENEMY! THE GREAT DOUBLE CROSS--DADS DON'T GO THROUGH THIS! LOL! FOR THIS FEMINIST, SEXIST MOM . . . I WORRIED SO MUCH ABOUT THE GIRLS, GROWING UP AS, STRONG COMPETENT WOMEN, THAT THE BOYS, JUST DID THE SAME ALL ON THEIR OWN! WHAT A FUN ADVENTURE, FIGURING OUT, JUST WHAT AND WHO I RAISED?! LOL! WHEN ELLIOT WAS A VEGAN, AND MOVED IN WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND, I ASKED HIM, WHAT HE WOULD DO IF SHE, BOUGHT MEAT AND PUT IT IN THE FRIDGE, AND HE SAID, "I WOULD TAKE IT, AND THROW IT OUT OF THE HOUSE!" WHAT?!!! HOW COULD I HAVE RAISED A SON LIKE THIS? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? NO. A MAN OF FEW WORDS . . . I AM GLAD, I DIDN'T DATE THESE TWO, ALTHOUGH, THEY ARE BOTH, BRUTALLY HANDSOME, SWEET, FUN, INTERESTING, AND COOL, SO, I WILL KEEP THEM, EVEN IF IT TAKES UNTIL THE DAY I DIE TO FIGURE OUT WHO THEY ARE . . . THEY ARE STILL MYSTERY MEN, SOMEONE COULD TELL ME, THEY WERE ABOUT ANYTHING, AND I WOULD BELIEVE THEM! LOL! I DIG THE HELL OUT OF THEM, THEIR SISTERS WILL HAVE TO FILL ME IN ON WHAT THEY REALLY THINK! I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN TAKE, CHRIS'S BRUTAL HONESTY! LOL! I THINK, BECAUSE, I WROTE ABOUT MY TO SONS, WHO ARE BOTH, VERY, GOOD MEN, SOME INTERESTING STUFF, KICKED UP ON THE YOUTUBE GOD RECOMMENDATIONS, AND ONE IN PARTICULAR CAUGHT MY ATTENTION, AFTER HAVING A DELIGHTFUL CONVERSATION WITH ELLIOT, WONDERING WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH HIS MIND, ASKING WHEN, I WAS STARTING A BAND--READING THE MESSAGE, WAY TOO DEEP, AND WARNING HIM, THAT, IF I GET IN SHAPE, A BIG IF, I WANT TO SING, ONE NUMBER WITH HIS BAND, A SONG, THAT THE BAND SINGS, JUST VOCALS, THE FIRST SONG, ON HIS FIRST CD, WITH SONY, THAT HAS NEVER BEEN TITLED OR RELEASED, AND EVERY BIT AS GOOD AS THE FIRST CD, LITTLE BLACK HORSE, THIS ONE WITH SONY . . . HE TOLD ME THAT, "GRINDMA" WHO SINGS, IN THE YOUTUBE VIDEO, ALSO, KICKS THE GOVERNMENT AT THE END, SINGS WITH A BAND HER SON, SET UP FOR HER . . . BUT I WARNED ELLIOT, I JUST WANTED TO SING THAT ONE SONG WITH HIM . . . A QUIET LAUGH! LOL! TELL ME WHAT THAT MEANS, YES, OR NO? CHRIS WOULD HAVE SAID, ONLY IN YOUR DREAMS, MOM! LOL! ELLIOT, IS MORE OF A MYSTERY THAN CHRIS, BECAUSE HE KEEPS IT CLOSE TO THE VEST, CHRIS, I NEVER KNOW IF HE IS JOKING OR NOT! BUT, OF THE 12 OR SO CHOICES, OF YOUTUBE RECOMMENDATIONS, CONNECTED WITH SONS, CAME THIS, "DATELINE" INTERVIEW WITH THE MOTHER OF ONE OF THE COLUMBINE HIGH SCHOOL SHOOTERS, WHO BROKE HER SILENCE, AFTER, 30 YEARS, AND TALKED OF THE PAIN, THE MYSTERY OF HOW HER SON, SO SWEET, COULD TURN INTO A MURDERER OF 13 PEOPLE, INJURING LIKE 18 OTHERS, IN KIND OF THE MODEL FOR MODERN DAY SCHOOL SHOOTINGS, WITH MANY YOUNG BOYS, EMULATING KLEBOLD AND ERIC ? I THINK, EVERY PARENT, OUGHT TO WATCH THAT PROGRAM, THESE WERE UPPER MIDDLE CLASS PARENTS, OF BOTH BOYS, VERY EDUCATED, LIVED IN GREAT COMMUNITIES, AND DIDN'T HAVE, MUCH OF A CLUE, BUT, IN RETROSPECT, SHOULD HAVE, SEEN THE SIGNS, THEIR SONS HAD, ABOUT THESE DARK FANTASIES OF SUICIDE AND MURDER--RIGHT IN THEIR JOURNALS, REVENGE, AND GOING OUT IN STYLE, WEARING THEIR BLACK TRENCH COATS, GUNS BLAZING! ERIC'S DAD, WAS AN AIR FORCE RETIREE, WHO PEOPLE REFERRED TO AS THE DAD, IN "LEAVE IT TO BEAVER!" THE OTHER DAD, WAS SOME PH.D, AND BOTH HAD SMART, INVOLVED MOTHERS . . . WHAT WENT WRONG? I THINK OF THE TIME PERIOD, AND, JUST LIKE I DID, PARENTS, COMING OUT OR BEING RAISED IN THE ERA OF WOMEN'S RIGHTS AND TRYING TO ENSURE OUR DAUGHTERS FUTURES, WERE THIS OR THAT, MAY HAVE IGNORED OUR SONS, THINKING ALL WAS FINE FOR BOYS, HAVING OPPORTUNITIES, CAREER CHOICES, INCOMES AND OPTIONS, WOMEN ARE STILL VYING FOR, BUT, WHAT, EMOTIONAL CHALLENGES, DO BOYS HAVE . . . 86% OF THE SCHOOL SHOOTERS ARE BOYS? 80% OF THE YOUNG BOYS, IN PRISON, ARE IN FOR KILLING THEIR MOTHER'S ABUSERS. WE NEED TO TAKE A LOOK, AS FAMILIES, SOCIETY, SCHOOLS, COLLEGES, CHURCHES, AT THE CHALLENGES, YOUNG MEN HAVE, DEPRESSION, GRADES, SUICIDAL TENDENCIES, GIRLS, ACCEPTANCE, BECOMING A MAN, AND FATHERS, CLERGY, MALE SCHOOL OFFICIALS, COACHES, ETC., NEED TO STEP IN, BECAUSE, WOMEN ARE SOMETIMES AT A LOSS, TO EVEN GET A YOUNG MAN TO TALK, LET ALONE OPEN UP TO A WOMEN. MY MOTHER TAUGHT JUNIOR HIGH FOR 30 YEARS, AND THE PRINCIPAL OF HER SCHOOL, SAID, AFTER SEEING THE BARRAGE OF SINGLE MOTHERS, TRYING TO RAISE YOUNG MEN, THAT HE DIDN'T THINK IT POSSIBLE, FOR WOMEN TO RAISE SONS ALONE--MY SONS WERE BOTH A HEAD TALLER THAN ME, BY JUNIOR HIGH! . . . DADS, YOU ARE NOT JUST SPERM DONORS, A PAY CHECK, AND WOMEN, NEED TO RESPECT MEN, MORE AND ENCOURAGE, DADS RELATIONSHIPS, MARRIED OR SINGLE, TOO MANY WOMEN, IN COMPLETE INSANITY, PUSH A DAD OUT AS A SIDE LINE, TO WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE FAMILY! KIDS RAISED OR WITH A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH FATHERS, HAVE LESS, DRUG USE, ALCOHOL USE, SUICIDE, TEEN PREGNANCY, FEWER RUNAWAYS, LESS SCHOOL PROBLEMS, JAIL, YOU NAME IT . . . THE OLDER A BOY AND GIRL GETS, THE MORE IMPORTANT DADS BECOME, AND AS THE DAD, GROWS IN IMPORTANCE, THE MOTHER'S JOB, LESSENS. THERE IS A STRONG CORRELATION BETWEEN, READING OR THE LACK OF READING SKILLS AND PRISON TIME . . . MANY INMATES CAN'T READ! DO YOU KNOW, THAT IF A KID SEES THEIR FATHER, READ JUST 10 MINUTES A DAY, THEY END UP LIKING TO READ! SIMPLE SOLUTIONS TO SOCIETAL PROBLEMS--WE NEED YOU DADS! I TOOK A LOT OF HEAT, AS A MOTHER, WHO GAVE PHYSICAL CUSTODY TO MY HUSBAND, AFTER A 15 YEAR MARRIAGE, READING BOOKS AND LEARNING STATISTICS ABOUT, WHO WOULD BE THE BEST PARENT OR CARE GIVER, GIVEN THE AGES AND SEXES OF MY CHILDREN AT THE TIME OF DIVORCE, DAD WON! AND HE MET THE CHALLENGE AND ROSE TO THE OCCASION, WE ACTED AS FRIENDS WITH KIDS IN COMMON! IT CAN BE DONE, IF YOU ALWAYS LOOK OUT FOR THE BEST INTEREST OF THE CHILD! FUCK THE PARENTS, YOU HAD THEM, YOU OWE IT TO THE CHILD, AND SOCIETY, TO DO WHAT IS BEST. MS. KLEBOLD, AGONIZES OVER HER SON, HIS LIFE, STRUGGLES, DEATH . . . MR. KLEBOLD, REFUSES TO MAKE A STATEMENT, APOLOGIZE OR REALLY EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT HIS SON DID, AS IS THE CASE WITH ERIC'S PARENTS! WE ASSUME, THAT IF A KID FAILS, IT IS THE MOTHER'S FAULT, AND THE DAD, REFUSES TO TAKE ANY RESPONSIBILITY, IN A KIDS RAISING AND GROWTH, WHEN, GIVEN THE AGE OF THE KIDS, THE DADS WERE CRITICAL COMPONENTS! I LOVE THE AD CAMPAIGN, "YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT, TO BE A PERFECT PARENT!" WE ALL DO OUR BEST, GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES AND PRESSURES WE ARE UNDER AT THE TIME, BUT, WE CAN ALL, ALWAYS, DO BETTER! NO SUCCESS, COMPENSATES FOR FAILURE IN THE HOME . . . LET'S STOP FAILING OUR KIDS! WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER--NOTHING IS STOPPING A PERSON, WHO SEES A KID STRUGGLING, FROM STEPPING IN WITH A KIND EAR AND LOVING UNDERSTANDING, EVEN IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEM! KISSES AND HUGS, TO PEOPLE WHO CARE! WE OWE IT TO FUTURE GENERATIONS TO FIX BOTH, BOYS AND GIRLS, THEY ARE SO WORTH IT, AND SO WONDERFUL . . . JUST LAST NIGHT, SOMEONE, SHOT A BULLET OR SEVERAL THROUGH SOME WINDOWS AT THE GORGEOUS, BILLINGS PUBLIC LIBRARY! VANDALISM, IS PROBABLY SOMETHING, DADS HAVE AN INFLUENCE OVER TOO . . . THEY ARE BIG ENOUGH TO MUSCLE BOYS AROUND, IF NEEDED! ONE OF MY FAVORITE AND THE FUNNIEST STORY, MY BOYS TELL ABOUT, I THEIR DAD, BITCH SLAPPING ELLIOT, AND TRYING TO HIT CHRIS, AS HE DITCHED AND DODGED HIS DAD'S ATTEMPT TO SMACK HIM FOR SOMETHING THE BOYS HAD DONE TO IRRITATE THE HELL OUT OF HIM, IN A DRIVE TO SALT LAKE CITY AND BACK! LOL! EL WAS YOUNG AND SHOCKED, CHRIS, IN TYPICAL, SMART ASS RESPONSE, SAID, "NOBODY SAID, I HAD TO LET HIM HIT ME!" LOL! I TOOK THAT LESSON TO HEART WITH THE COPS, PROSECUTORS AND JUDGES! SONS, HOW WONDERFUL! I AM BLESSED, EVEN IF ELLIOT, JUST RESPONDS BY TEXTING, "HEY, MOM." SMILE!

Son, Elliot's Band, The Ditch and the Delta, Recording at KRCL Studio . . . The Guy With the Bun in His Copper Hair!

Chastity Kilpatrick

The NSA, or my weasel pop, who wants to claim, this blog, for his own, because, the last blog I wrote on my sons, being, possible, CIA agents, hit the big money charts, just what, this mafia don wants, my sons' money, my money, my daughters' money, and all claims, and rights to the grand kids, he dissed, for not being, the Mo shit Mormon, mold boys, now, wants everything they think, do, write, perform . . . disgusting, at best!  So, while I am on the subject of boys, big and small, yesterday, while I was writing about, James Kennedy, distinguishing, my Kennedy, from, the Kennedy, fake, Rachel, the fake JoAnn, would like, the YouTube gods, of recommending miracles, and cool videos and movies, connected to the keywords, I program their very smart computers, that search, the voluminous volumes of true crime, movies, news, and what not, that I love, it is like, getting up, and opening a Christmas present, each morning when I check to see, what my blog, has triggered to be coughed up from the archives of computer land!  But, this name kicked up, and I had to laugh, having written yesterday, about meeting James Kennedy, at the Butte Rescue Mission, last January, and again, hooking up, in March, when he was laid up with a gunshot to his ankle or foot, the day after he told me he loved me, and being pissed, I took off without telling him where I was disappearing to for a month!  I had to play this guy, different than the rest . . . I was not going to win, him over, with sex, or a great body, but, reversing the games, men play on women, doing it to him, seemed to have, not only gotten his attention, but, actually, hurt this brute!  I should not laugh, but James kept, telling me, he was leaving, over and over again, and I would respond, with, A man's got to do what a man's, got to do . . .

Traditionally, it is the man, who leaves the woman, and can come back, go, return, leave, and the woman, will wait for him, I am not the average woman, and I think, he was just getting a taste of a woman, who prides herself, in not only snagging a man, playing with him, gaming with him, stealing his heart, then releasing him, to have sex, be with other women, free to come and go, not being influenced by money, sex, name dropping, or whatever he was offering in his initial contact with me, laying all his hit lines and male, flashing colors, and dancing for the female, much like in the animal kingdom, where, the male, is the colorful one, and the female, sits back, and watches as the men, strut, flash, and show off their manly, skills, or colors, as it seemed, Kennedy, probably just to either, have sex with me, or get me alone to assassinate me, and I was not convinced, that either of those was, his aim and goal, in its entirety, therefore, always erring on the side of safety, I never let the premise with him, just in case, he was a Honey Trap, and me the queen bee, being taken down by the drone or a strike!  Not falling for the pick-up lines; however, playing and gaming, enough, to lead him on, in order to catch some heart action . . . and he can say, what he wants, that it was Rachel, or Kay, or whomever, whatever, the boys club, thinks, is sexier, or more, male attracting, the truth of the matter is, he was devastated, when I left without telling him, I was going, not just once, but twice!  A role reversal, I don't play harder, or cat fight, I am just smart!  LOL!

How Ironic, Catching the Stud King, Without, So Much as a Kiss!  LOL!

It has been done before, maybe not to this level, or with, such a famous, man or guy, but, none the less, with a guy, who had 5 women a day, banging on his door, for sex, back in high school, being the innocent, young stud, feeling, innocently, that he had to service all these women, hanging their bra's on the door of his bedroom, so his mother, would not come in unannounced, and find her son, in bed with one girl after another!  LOL!  And, his main, squeeze in high school, thinking he was too, wild, and not, Mormon, enough for her, when her preference, was for the return missionaries, and getting married in the Mormon Temple, rather than marrying this rough and tumble, rowdy and raw, Marine, cowboy, biker, dude, although, cheating with him, through, 3 temple marriages!  LOL!  Women, were trying to get this guy, one of my clients, whom, sued the government, after they tried to kill him, four times, ending up in a wheel chair, a few time, being grilled by U.S. attorneys for 16 hours straight, never flinching, and winning his lawsuit against, the U.S.A. and VA, a rare feat indeed!  The second, he saw, me, his attorney, he told the jail, he was going to marry me, his attorney, as all, the boys in the orange jumpsuits didn't believe him, nor did the cops, prosecutors and judges, believe it when, I fell in love with him, some months later, as he was just, male, once the glow of the orange jumpsuit, and jail, wore off him, and I was, becoming, another female, being reeled in, by his maleness, with him, confident, in his masculinity, knowing, eventually, he would win, me and my heart over, which he did!

James Kennedy, reminded me, a lot of this man, and he had a perfect in road, straight to my heart, without me knowing his last name, nor anything about him . . . hot types!  But, just like, my client, later, alleged husband, Kennedy, also very secure in his attraction assets, and sexual prowess, was able, merely, by being, himself, without saying a word, much like, my wild child, Elliot, who is just a chick, magnet, equally hairy beast, with three women in the same day, asking the manager, whom I knew from the time he was a teenage boy, told me, three waitresses at the Blue Moon, came to him, the first day Elliot worked and said, Guess who I think is cute . . . Elliot!  Why do you say that, because, you are the third, chick, today, that told me the same thing!  Chris is equally, hot, but he is off the market, married!  But, woman, after woman, tried to win, Allan, through, sex, cooking, cleaning and whatever, women, do, to get a man . . . I don't play those same games, but, it is funny, because, some, saw his house, the antiques, the land, the cabins, and were actually, also after his assets, in addition to being with him, and he could see right through them, and guess who he gave the house to, without ever touching him, other than, the time, he stuck his very large, masculine hand through my truck window, the day he won my heart, and said, Do you want to shake a real man's hand? I said, Do you want to shake a woman's hand that is more male, than most of the men you know?  

He wasn't the slightest bit, challenged, and in one of the most, tender and masculine things, I have ever experienced, he just took my hand, in his very large, manly hands, and I am a hand woman, love, male arms and hands, and voices, for some reason, and turned over, our hand clasped, intertwined hands, locked, together, and kissed the top of my hand, melting my heart, and making me look at him, as much more than a client, whom, had asked me if I would ever consider, liking him . . . at first, the very attorney in me, simply said, NO., end of story.  That all changed, a few months later.  Kennedy, had that same effect, on me, just simply, by pulling me close to him, while we were in scripture study, and believe me, I was not thinking about the Lord or the scriptures!  LOL!  Holy shit!  Melting, right there, in front of God, angels, and these witnesses!  LOL!  I am sure, God was amused, from this Ice Queen's reaction, to one of his wonderful creations!  LOL!  Oh, yeah, I am going to get where I was yesterday, and lose my train of thought, if I don't continue, and stay out of those areas, on brain, thoughts and entertainment, areas . . . I will get in trouble! 

Line of Reasoning: (1) Chastity . . . yes, I refused to do anything with Kennedy, Chaste as a young teenage girl!  (2) Going to the name, Kilpatrick, girl in the video's last name; (3) Let's assume, that Kennedy, being the hunk he is, was a paid assassin, knowing he can snag about any chick, guaranteed to charm and lure me--good choice, but, I'm too smart to fall for just that; (4) so that takes care of the "Kil" part, and Patrick . . . Kennedy, kept telling me he was leaving, yet he never would leave!  LOL!  Whatever.  The only time, I ventured, into the area of letting him know, I cared at all, was, to recommend, he spend, St. Patrick's Day, in Butte, just for the fun of it! (5) so that is the connection with St. Patrick, and Kennedy's are Irish, so, I thought, that appropriate, even though, he told me he was Pentecostal, I knew better . . . (6) So, he stayed for St. Paddy's Day, then I left him again!  LOL! (7) Now, is that smart, or dumb?  Only time will tell, an unfinished affair!  LOL, my bet is, I see him again, his ego is too big, to not wonder, what happened!  LOL!

The Chastity Girl, Kills the St. Patrick's Day, Assassin, Hired to Kill Her?  Maybe!  Kisses.  See You In Green?

P.S., fuckers are not, letting me publish, I can't believe, the depths and lengths, these fucker will go to cover their asses, their crimes, their sins, their hits, their games, their stupidity, they are just, proving over and over, what I say is true, or they wouldn't need to block it!  My Walmart Money Card, is still not here, I would bet, that, my father, and old fucking, asshole, so jealous, greedy, wicked, he feels justified, doing everything he can to fuck me over, since, the day, I was born, beating me black and blue, from should to knees, that would have put his sorry, ugly, dick, ass fucking face in prison!  He should have been penned when I was three, maybe I can get him, at 61, after 61 tears of child abuse!  God, I can't help, that I was your one, true, successful, honestly successful, child, passing that level of excellence, onto my kids, your only cool grand kids, and you hate us, because, you AIN'T Us, so you steal, destroy and kill, you old asshole!  Fuck you too, MOM!  You should have dumped this criminal, back, fucking 60 years ago!  Sorry, Rachel, would have fucked Kennedy, in 2 seconds flat . . . he can fuck who, he wants, as long as I have his heart!  Some little skater kid, looking like Chris, your most handsome grandson, by far, just walked through the door, with the words on his skater t-shirt, Dirty Gutter Kids . . . only in your dreams old man, I am sure, that you have made up, the kids, you wish my kids, would have been, giving Rachel, credit for my AWESOME kids, probably giving me, Rachel's or Shelley's little psychopaths!  NO THANKS, I take credit, for Greta Secrist Hyland, Nicole Secrist Mayor, Chris Secrist, and Elliot Secrist, bass guitarist, vocalist, and wonderful son, like his big bro!

BRO DART, When He Sees What His Mormon Patriarchal Grandfather Has Done to, Not Only His Mother, But, All His Siblings Too . . . They Turned Out Better Than All Your Other Mormon Trash!  Fuck You . . . I Honor My Parents, By Being the Total Opposite Than They Are!  Who are my father and my mother . . . he who doeth the will of my Father which art in Heaven!  You Never WERE MY PARENTS!  Take you fake, attorney, bitches, and get the fuck out of my life, out my kids lives, out of my grand kids lives!  You don't deserve them!

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