Saturday, January 9, 2016

BED, WITH ROCKER, ALICE COOPER, SONG ABOUT BABY KILLING, WAKE TO: "THE CROSS HAS MADE YOU FLAWLESS, NO MATTER THE COST, THE SCARS, AND THE BRUISES, THE CROSS HAS MADE YOU FLAWLESS!" THANKS, JESUS! CHRISTMAS LINGERS IN MISSOULA, SMILE, PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARDS, MAN . . . BUNK MATE, NEXT TO ME, GROWLED, SPUTTERED--DAMNED HAWK--WHEN I THOUGHT THAT, AS I AWOKE AT 3:21 A.M., THAT DAMNED HEALTHY FOOD AT, "GOOD FOOD STORE" AND THE POVERELLO, THE FASHION BATISTAS OF THE HOMELESS WORLD RUNWAY, COOL DONATIONS, FUNKY COMBOS, REAL UTENSILS . . . DURING THE SUMMER MONTHS, THE GOLD PAN HANDLERS, BACK WOODSMEN AND WOMEN, THOSE WHO HUNT AND FISH TO STAY ALIVE, ACCIDENTALLY, HIJACK ALL THE POV'S SILVERWARE . . . BUT SOME WONDERFUL LADY, PURCHASED ALL THE OLD SILVERWARE FROM THE SENIOR CITIZEN CENTER, AND DONATED TO THE POV!--THANKS, I HATE PLASTIC! MISSOULA HAS THE DISTINCTION, OF HAVING THE MOST EDUCATED, WORKERS, WITH PH.D.S, WORKING AT COFFEE SHOPS AND BIKE SHOPS, SO WITH YOUR CUP OF COFFEE, OR IN MY CASE, COLD COFFEE, DIET COKE, YOU GET AN EDUCATED DISCUSSION, ON THE MERITS, OF CAFFEINE IN BOTH DRINKS, THE AMOUNT OF SUGAR PEOPLE USE IN THEIR COFFEE, THE LEVEL OF ADDICTION, THE POSSIBILITY, THAT THE COCAINE, COKE USED TO USE IN THE DRINK, MIGHT STILL BE THERE--BEEN TRYING TO KICK THE HABIT, FOR 15 YEARS! SMART, CUTE, BARISTA, I THINK THEY WOULD HAVE TO CHARGE MORE . . . WORTHLESS JURIS DOCTORATE! LOL! IT DAWNED ON ME THIS MORNING, AS I THOUGHT ABOUT BLOG MATERIAL, AS I LAY IN BED, UNTIL, AT LEAST 4:51 . . . DIG ON BEING UP EARLY, BUT 3:30 A.M., THAT'S PUSHING IT, BUT I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FUN NEW ART, THAT GRACES A BAR IN CONRAD, MONTANA, USING THE SIGN OF BEERS, THE CLYDESDALE HORSES, AND STAGE COACH, LOOKING LIKE, IT IS COMING RIGHT OUT OF THE BUILDING TOWARDS YOU, AS THE HORSES GET MASSIVE, AT WHAT APPEARS TO BE THE CLOSEST, PART OF THE PAINTING TO YOU . . . AWESOME! TWO LOCAL PAINTERS, WERE COMMISSIONED OR HIRED BY THE BAR OWNER TO PAINT SOMETHING ON THE BUILDING! WAY COOL, AND IT ONLY TOOK THEM, I THINK, LIKE 7 OR 8 HOURS TO PAINT--WOW! I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT MONTHS--THEY PAINTED AN OVER-EDUCATED BARISTA ON THE WALLS OF A COFFEE SHOP, I THINK--READ IT SEVERAL DAYS AGO. FUN MAGICAL MORNING--I LOVE THIS LIFE! LUZ, MY WRITER BUDDY--"GOD MOVES IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS" ABOUT 9/11, FROM NEW YORK, STOPPED BY THE POV., NEW CAR, NEW APARTMENT, THIS FEISTY LITTLE PORTO RICAN, PISTOL, GAVE ME A RIDE IN HER NEW CAR, TO LOOK AT AN APARTMENT, WITH A COOL FRONT PORCH, BALCONY, BAY WINDOWS, AND MY PERFECT STYLE OLDER, UPTOWN, LOCATED LIVING SPOT, CLOSE TO THE BREAK, OXFORD, HOSPITAL, MY HANGS, IS A FUCKING BUSINESS, FOR SALE! SCREAM! THE SEARCH GOES ON . . . I HAD TO GO EARLY, BECAUSE IF THE EYES IN THE SKY, SPIES, SEE, IT WILL BE SOLD IN A FUCKING DAY, AS ARE CARS, I LOOK AT, IN MY PRICE RANGE, WITH IS ABOUT $500 ON A GOOD DAY! CRAIGSLIST CARS, APARTMENTS, THAT I RESPOND TO, FORGET IT, MY ENEMIES BLOCK THEM, JOBS ON COMPUTER, OR JOB SERVICES, THEY FUCK WITH THAT TOO! THEY CAN CONTROL ME, KEEPING ME ON SURVEILLANCE, 24/7, BETWEEN THE POV., THE BUS, AND EATING ESTABLISHMENTS, IT'S HARD TO MAKE A DOLLAR THESE DAYS . . . FREEDOM IS NOT FREE! FIGHTERS PAY! HORRIFYING MOVIE--"A SISTER'S REVENGE" . . . WHAT DEALING WITH PSYCHOPATHS, LIKE I AM, CAN DO TO YOUR LIFE, ADD, GOVERNMENT POWERS, SPY GEAR . . . BE NICE TO THOSE INJURED EX'S . . . COME BACK TO BITE YOU FOR YEARS! THE LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE, IS FINE AND CAN BE DEADLY! ASK ME, I HAVE HAD 3--HUB #4, MR. INTERPOL, SAID, "YOU HAVE BEEN ABUSING MEN FOR YEARS!" "NOW, THAT YOU MENTION IT, YOUR RIGHT." I GUESS HE DECIDED TO RIGHT THE WRONGS, FOR THE HUNDREDS OF MEN, I HAVE DATED, LOVED, MARRIED, OVER THE LAST 61 YEARS, AND BEAT THE HELL OUT OF ME, WITHOUT LAYING A FINGER ON ME, BUT USING, EVERY COP IN THE FUCKING COUNTRY TO TERRORIZE ME! LOL! I HAVE TO LAUGH, BECAUSE, I LEARNED, AS A SUSPECTED ALL ALONG, GARRET/SAM, IS A RETIRED COP FROM ARKANSAS, ON THE PAYROLL OF FRANK, AKA, ALAN BESS, AB, ABSOLUTE BASTARD, FBI DATING MATCH, LOL, THIS COP HAS FOLLOWED ME, FROM GREAT FALLS TO KALISPELL, TO MISSOULA, AND SHOWS UP, EVERY TIME I COME BACK TO TOWN--TOLD ME THERE WAS A $10,000 BOUNTY OUT ON ME--KENNEDY? . . . I KNEW HE WAS A COP, HE REFUSES TO LOOK AT MY BLOG, CONVINCE, LIKE, MR. RHINESTONE COWBOY, WHO JUST GOT HIS ASSETS FROZEN, WHO ACTUALLY SAW ME WRITING MY BLOG, FOR HOURS, WHILE HE WATCHED, THEN DENYING I WROTE IT, CALLING ME A BROAD AND A DAME--HUMPHREY BOGART SCHOOL OF SEX ED--LOL, FOR NOT DIGGING HIM, AND GETTING SO DESPERATE, THAT HE PROPOSITIONED ME, WITH $200 TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM . . . LOOK, IF YOU COULD ADMIT, THAT YOU ARE DENYING THAT I WROTE THE BLOG, YOU SAW ME WRITE, WITH YOUR OWN DAMNED EYES, I MIGHT LET YOU HOLD MY HAND . . . I AM A COP TROPHY, AND IF I REJECT THEM, THEY ALL JOIN THE OPPOSITION! I'M BATTING 100% REJECTION--WE JUST DON'T SEE EYE TO EYE, PATRIOT ACT RATS & THIS BAD ASS CON LAW CHICK! LOL! I AM USED TO BEING AGAINST THE WHOLE FUCKING NATIONWIDE CREW OF COPS . . . COLD AND HOT WAR FOR 20 YEARS! ANYWAY, HORRIFYING TO WATCH THAT MOVIE! HAPPENED TO ME, ONLY I WAS TORTURED BY THE WHOLE FUCKING, ALLEGED, CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM--SYSTEMIC ABUSE FROM, COPS, PROSECUTORS, JUDGES, GOVERNMENT--ALL ABUSING THEIR POWER . . . SEGER, SINGING, "BAD COMPANY, 'TIL THE DAY I DIE!" PROBABLY SOONER THAN LATER . . . LEAVE MY LEGACY, BEFORE THE "BAD COMPANY" GETS ME! I SAW AN OLD LADY, SHUFFLING ALONG, WITH HER WALKER IN HER HANDS, DOTING, GRANDSON, WITH HIS ARM AROUND GRANDMA, AND I THOUGHT, PLEASE GOD, DON'T LET ME GO OUT LIKE THAT . . . SIX GUNS BLAZING IS MORE MY STYLE, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T DARE HOLD A GUN! I MIGHT KILL SOMEONE! LOL! MY PISTOL TEMPER, IS GOOD ENOUGH, TO KILL A THOUSAND COPS! I HAVE FULL FAITH IN MY ARGUMENTATION, SKILLS, READ GERRY SPENCE'S BOOK, "HOW TO WIN AN ARGUMENT EVERY TIME" . . . "LITTLE MS. NEVER BE WRONG!" HAS WORKED SO FAR! MONTANA FOLKLORE, JOSEPHINE, A LEGENDARY FEMALE OUTLAW, EARLY 1900'S, SAID TO HAVE KILLED A FEW MEN, IN HER DAY, CHASED BY A U.S. MARSHALL, WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH HER, AND THEY RETIRED, TOGETHER OUTSIDE, GLACIER PARK, MAKING MOONSHINE, DURING THE DAYS OF PROHIBITION, AND AS THE TRAINS PASSED, JO'S LAKE, HUBBY, MARSHALL, WOULD SADDLE UP THE OLD PAINT, AND RIDE THE MOONSHINE OUT, AS THE TRAIN CONDUCTORS, WOULD STOP, AND BUY THEIR DRINK! I LEARNED THAT STORY, RIDING THE AMTRAK, WITH VOLUNTEER, RETIRED FOREST SERVICE OR NATIONAL PARK RANGERS, WHO POINT OUT, ANYTHING FROM THE STORIES OF OUTLAWS, TO THE WILD LIFE, YOU CAN SEE ALONG THE, ABSOLUTE, GORGEOUS RIDE THROUGH GLACIER AND SURROUNDING COUNTRY . . . A "LIL' PETITE" TRUCK, JUST WENT BY, GOD INTEL, LETTING ME, KNOW, THAT MY 3RD HUSBAND PSYCHO, MOBSTER/MORMON, LET'S PLAY FBI/CIA AGENT, BRETT, GIVING KAY, AKA, JOANN, CREDIT FOR THAT STORY AND EXPERIENCE . . . SHHHH, THEY WANT YOU TO THINK, KAY, WROTE THIS BLOG, AS I DID A TYPO, "HIT!" FUCKING RIGHT! THAT WOULD BE THE BILLION DOLLAR SHOT! I AM SURE, THIS EZ MONEY MAKER, GETS THE "SUPER MOB" A COOL MIL TO 5 MILLION A DAY! NOT TO BAD, FOR THIS LITTLE OUTLAW! FUCKING SERVE ME AN INFORMATION, DOCUMENTING MY CRIMES YOU FUCKS! GOD ALMIGHTY . . . EX-LOVERS, BETTER BE NICER TO THEM! SCREAM . . . I KNOW, I AM HOT IN BED! THE OTHER DAY, A MAROON, SONOMA, THE TRUCK BRETT COULD AFFORD, BEFORE HE MADE KAY ME, AND STARTED STEALING $357 MILLION DOLLAR CASES AND SUCH, AND THE SONG CAME ON, "DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS TO MAKE LOVE TO HER, AND THINK ABOUT YOU?!" I LOVED YOU TOO, DUMB ASS . . . YOU CHEATED, I NEVER HAVE, ON ANYONE . . . I DIVORCE THEM, FIRST, A COURTESY THING, SO, YOU HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME, BUT YOURSELF! KISS! YOU TWO STILL DON'T GET MY KIDS, SORRY, CHARLIE! SMILE . . . SEGER . . . THERE'S THE ONE I LOVE THE MOST . . . I KNOW. SEGER . . . I WANT TO PUSH YOU AROUND, WELL I WILL, WELL I WILL, I WANT TO PUSH YOU DOWN, I WANT TO TAKE YOU FOR GRANITE . . . DON'T RUSH THIS BABY . . . I WANT PUSH YOU AROUND, I WANT TO PUSH YOU DOWN, I WILL!" ALPHA FEMALES, DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH MALE PERROGATIVE, GRAZING . . . WE HAVE MORE THAN ONE OPTION TOO! IN FACT, ALL YOUR BUDDIES, WOULD "DO" ME IN A HEART BEAT, AND YOU KNOW IT! EAT IT! SORRY, BEAUTIFUL LOSER, YOU CAN'T HAVE IT ALL! SMILE.

Juxtaposition: Horror of the Sweet Family in "A Sister's Revenge" and the Sweet Family Riding the Bus After I Watched the Movie . . . Handsome Dad, Beautiful Mom, Cutie Girl, Bouncing Baby Boy!

Okay, if you ever thought, of treating someone like shit, ditching a pregnant girl, you used, because you thought she was a sport fuck, not mommy material, or you were stupid, let down your guard, women can slip, you a date rape drug too, take pictures, without you even knowing what is going on, use them against you, blackmail you, go after your wife, your precious baby boy . . . so, symbolic, psycho bitch, for good reason, but hate the way she takes out her revenge, leaves a red book of matches, near, new born baby boy's head, could have choked on, scary shit, too, too, close for my comfort, I almost could not watch this movie.  The baby's name was Evan, that is one of my signs, sis Rachel, looks, kind of like, actress Linda Evans, old Dallas TV series, star, suggesting, the husband(s) revenge, extending to my precious, not so baby boy, Elliot, famous, as indicated by the RED match box, matches, indicating, BURN, and he did!  It is shocking, to say the least, the extent these people will go to exact there, out of control vengeance!  

Normal people break up, move on . . . especially, if the psycho, was the cheater--should be expected, especially, from an alpha female, who other psychos, poisoned, and has a history, of having as many men, or access to them, or interest, as you have women.  Your problem if you underestimated MY EGO, that is your problem, not mine, be mad as yourself!  Shit . . . this movie, will scar the shit out of you, as it did me, seeing the mindset, blind rage, devious plans, calculating blitz on your life . . . I know, they did it to me, while I was just living my life!  The expressions on this guy's face, of amazement, shock, disbelief, is exactly what, I felt like that . . . didn't get it, until, I watched, National Geographic, The Psycho Next Door!  BEWARE . . . this could happen to YOU! 

Only Pleasure From Your Pain!

But, what goes around, comes around, so be prepared, pay back is a bitch, and I am too, ready for the grim reaper, assholes!  This will come back to bit you in the ass, or worse!  This woman, who had a sister, who dated the husband, like 8 years earlier, and killed herself, because of his rejection, comes back, ruins his new restaurant, traps him into going dancing and drinking with restaurant staff, after she sets a match off, in the kitchen, setting off the fire alarm, spraying dinner guests, closing the joint, freeing, the boss target, to be used and abused by the vixen, bent on revenge . . . she is fucking as relentless as my ex's, poisons his wife, sets him up, putting anti-freeze in her ice tea, goes after the baby, the movie is terrifying, especially, knowing, the motives . . . song, how could you be so heartless?  They only get pleasure from YOUR PAIN!

I have an army of these revengeful psychos all teaming up, in a common hate, common vengeance, for being what, a good mother, not willing to put up with shit, from anyone, being smart and beautiful, raising good kids, doing the smart thing after a divorce, having my cake and eat it too, as a mother and career woman, being paid off for smart decisions?  Rising again, after you kicked me down the first time?  Let's see, for fucking up your plans for me? for fucking with the plans you had for my kids? not letting you claim, what is not yours . . . a real characteristic of a psychopath, taking credit for what doesn't belong to them, nor for what they did, but what other did.  I bet, if you go in either, Brett's, Kay's, Shelley's, or Frank's houses, you would find, my teal colored, slightly circular couch, gold and black wing back chairs and a matching ottoman, my steer horns, my plush rugs, the pillows and floral arrangements that tie all together, my leopard entrance, with brown leather, cool waiting bench, my custom made bedroom furniture, orange silk chairs, Old Ranch, 75 year old chair with a steer head stitched in the blonde cowboy furniture, my desk . . . reminding me . . .

With My Billions, They Could Buy "Any" Furniture . . . It is Only in Owning MY Furniture, they Get Pleasure!

In the movie, Secret Village, trying to make a lollipop, girl, bobble head, doll, look smart, doing research in Salem, where the witch trials took place, that I wrote a killer, blog about two Halloweens ago, one of Rachel's favorite holidays . . . a clown shit show, allegedly filmed in Salem, Massachusetts, but filmed or paid for by . . . none other than a British Columbia Production Company, called PRISM . . . a, dead ass give away, the spy PRISM programs, of the NSA or the National Security Agency, Edward Snowden stuff, hint, hint, hint, Mormons and Brits, teamed with the CIA . . . a your job is Kim Jung Un, of North Korea, not making films to glorify, substitute JoAnn's, in not really even a B rate film, more like a "D", like the wanna be blockbuster, of the two Russian Mo missionaries, harrowing tales of kidnapping, dragging in Pres. Clinton, only to be, summarily, released, lack luster, nothing . . . same dumb ass ending, by the way . . . alleged smart chick, narrow escapes, drops in her male roommate's arms, and two men, say, or act like everything, she sees, investigating an alleged, airborne illness, that is unique, to Salem, or this village, but, in some trying to be spooky ending, suggesting, that she was right, but, DRUGS or MEDS will take care of that!  BARF! but, the bedspread used in the film, looks exactly like Rachel's bedspread, and in the guy's room, that looks exactly like the bedspread, I had in Frank's room, teal and brown, modern, print, rounded squares . . . did those fucks, take that from MY PAROWAN HOUSE?  The film is trying as hard to be hard core, as Rachel, herself is, and just can't cut it, and always, the little woman, collapses, in the arms of a handsome man, and MEDS are the answer . . . the alleged, great escapes, are comical . . . the alleged bad guys, slow down, to let her win!  CLOWN SHIT . . . but, "A Sister's Revenge" is worth watching!

My BILLION, buys these low level clowns a shit load of credibility, but their productions, are SHIT!

They Took Away A Prophet's Honor, for A Profit!  She is Stronger Than You Know, A Heart of Steel, Fire in Her Soul, Super Hero, In Her Power!

Mistake dumb ass for bad ass!  Big mistake!  Ever day every hour, turn the pain into power! every super hero, learns to fly!  

Love Your Car . . . My Car is the Bus . . . Actually, More Like a Limo, With Tons of New Friends!  Dig it . . . Thanks, Merchants!

Like I said, after watching the Hollywood ending, to a very horrifying tale, so real, I could taste it, I jumped on the bus, and shortly after me, a family, equally, if not more beautiful, than the one, with actors, in the movie, jumped on the bus . . . making me, so grateful, for sweet committed, partners, raising, wonderful, secure children, making up, solid, happy families.  Marriage, my not be the sexiest all the time, not always the most exciting, and people will come and go, that will temp, mom and dad, both, but, I can, affirm and attest to, that precious unit, is by far, the most wonderful, worthwhile, enterprise, activity, that you can be engaged in.  And it is fun, to watch, Millenniums, people, born from 1980, my son, Chris's, age group, and younger, to now, bring their cute families, on the bus, or take the bus, up Rattlesnake Canyon, running together, on the bus for the first time, or dating couples, doing their part, in the Clean Plan, for the planet, and the city, so cool.  I read, an interesting article, about this generation of kids, born in a tough time, economically, but thriving, just the same, they save and invest, more than their Baby Boomer, parents, are more financially savvy, save for retirement earlier, and are, into saving the planet and the world, like their parents, but taking into consideration, additional challenges, but raising, impressively to meet those challenges!

I love the campaign ads on the bus benches, See Commuting Differently!  Last night, Friday, there was a pretty, different crowd, than your day crowd, and many were going downtown, for dinner, dressed up, or going to a club, or somewhere, just going somewhere with their little family, kids with amazement in their eyes, having sat in car seats, for a few years, or a year, in the case of the bouncing baby boy, who, was in a back pouch, on mama, as she sat next to me, on the bus, as he was squashed, it looked, between the seat and mom, as she struggled to release all the protections on the contraption, baby boy, looked up at me and gave me a big smile, and as I looked over at the little girl with the purple knit hat, with her gray leggin's with pink hearts, she seemed genuinely, thrilled to have a ride in this big machine, and be with both mom and dad, as they cruised over Higgins Bridge!  All I could do is smile . . . and as I noticed, the Christmas lights, still up, downtown, Missoula, I smiled again, glad, that those lingering, warm fuzzies, from Christmas, were still there, from the most stripped down Christmas of my life! but so cool, sacred, special, focusing on the feelings, the lights, the spirit, the people, the sharing and caring.

All I could think, looking at this basic, unit of society, that keeps this place going, the family, is, protect that with your life, don't be drawn in, tempted, lured away by some hot, vixen or bad boy, risking, all that is on this bus right now, as mundane and boring as it is, at times . . . it is something SO much more, and when you hit my age, career goals, satisfied, bucket lists, getting there, the real JOY, comes from seeing, those little kids, so hard to hold, control, and keep clean, grow, overnight, and their success trumps yours, any time, any day, and any manner, truly, your crowning jewels . . . don't trivialize, this simple time.  I remember, hearing, from older people, you will look back at this time, so hectic, fast, financially challenging, hard pressed to do it all, go to school, work, raise kids, sacrifice, your comforts, your money, for those little charges, that God placed in your care, and look back at these years as, the best years of your life . . . and they are.  But, it is also, nice to smile at your families, and be glad, mine is raised and enjoy seeing my kids, deal, in majestic ways, with this period of life, knowing, judged on the way they handle their responsibilities that you did a fucking good job . . . and if you don't, do a good job, NOW, you are going to have a tough job, for decades, if not generations, a serious affair!  I joke all the time, that I did such a good job, and have totally, responsible kids, doing their thing, three with kiddies of their own, doing a GREAT JOB, better than their parents, that I can be completely irresponsible, and I AM!  LOL . . . been there, done that, enjoying this time now, smiles, smiles, smiles!

And it is fun, to see your children, support each other, give advice, carry on traditions, and hear the sisbro, club, comment, on each other and their parenting skills!  LOL.  I just sit back, like last night on the bus, and enjoy!  I remember, my crew, several years ago, all together, but for Nicole and George, back in D.C., not able to make it to the Grand Canyon, North Rim, Reunion, new family member initiation, death climb, lol, and laughing, as Chris, dealing with Kat's, son, from a former marriage, competitive as his step-dad, but taller, older and more aggressive than his cousins, hogging the football, in a game of fly-ball, to the point of tackling younger, cousins, who were getting teary, and Chris, sitting Donny, down, after such a tackle, and telling him to knock it off.  Donny, took, dirt, and threw it in Chris's face, taking that competitive spirit, to the wrong source, and in a flash, just like a real dad, would, pissed at the defiance, took, the 9 year old, whom he had been dad to since he was 6 months old, or involved, and grabbed him by the arm, swatted his ass, and swung him up on his shoulder, and took him over and sat him by a tree, telling him, that was enough . . . Greta, smug and satisfied that her little brother, did his fatherly thing, so that neither her nor, Dallas, had to get nasty with nephew, laughed, and said, in her cute, smart, sarcastic way, nice to see your parenting skills, Chris!  LOL!  Hey, boys need a strong hand . . . great grandma, taught, junior high for 33 years, and she said, she didn't think it were possible for a single mom, to raise teenage boys, herself!  Smile.

Song, how can we not talk about family, when family is all we got!  Cherish . . .

SACRED CALLING . . . "THE CROSS HAS MADE YOU FLAWLESS!" 


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